Named characters
6330 Anne (1184)/Miss Brown (264)/Anne Brown (137)/Annie (75)/Brown (47)/Nan (10)/dear Miss Brown (5)/poor Anne (5)/ANNE BROWN (3)/MISS BROWN (3)/Miss Anne Brown (2)/little Miss Brown (1)/the proud Miss Brown (1)/dear Anne (1)
3526 Hamlin (811)/Mr Hamlin (144)/Walter (67)/Walter Hamlin (26)/HAMLIN (3)/WALTER HAMLIN (2)/Mr Walter Hamlin (2)/young Hamlin (1)/Dear Mr Hamlin (1)/dear Hamlin (1)/the great Hamlin (1)/old Mr Hamlin (1)/a Hamlin (1)/old Hamlin (1)
2200 [NARRATOR]
729 Madame Elaguine (283)/Madame (5)/the Elaguine (3)/Elaguine (1)/Poor Madame Elaguine (1)/your Madame Elaguine , who immediately proceeded to make herself awfully fascinating and pathetic to them (1)
531 Hamlin (150)/Dick (38)/Chough (37)/Cousin Dick (11)/HAMLIN (1)/flippant little Chough (1)/the unreal Hamlin (1)/Cousin Dick , who came to make inquiries ; even of Hamlin , whose magnificent bundles and baskets of flowers and fruit arrived regularly , together with the bunch of sweet‐peas and pinks which Chough had bought at the greengrocer ’s , or the sprigs of laburnum which he had stolen in the park (1)/this Hamlin (1)
485 Richard Brown (83)/Richard (33)/Brown (18)/Mr Brown (6)/Mr Richard Brown (3)/Richard Brown,—perhaps (1)/Dear Mr Brown (1)/RICHARD BROWN (1)/And Brown (1)
478 Perry (85)/Mrs Perry (75)/Melton Perry (26)/Melton (6)/Mrs Melton Perry (5)/Poor old Perry (2)/poor Perry (2)/the overworked , henpecked Melton Perry (1)
424 Lewis (88)/Edmund Lewis (57)/Ted (1)/poor Ted Lewis (1)/the odious Lewis (1)
268 Perry (33)/Mr Perry (21)/Melton Perry (21)/Melton (1)/Mr Melton Perry (1)/poor warm‐hearted Melton Perry (1)/poor Perry (1)
248 Hamlin (66)/Sacha (29)/Sacha Hamlin (2)
196 Chough (72)/Cosmo Chough (29)/Mr Chough (23)/Mr Cosmo Chough (7)/little Chough (4)/Cosmo (2)/Mr. Chough (1)/Mrs Cosmo Chough (1)/poor Cosmo (1)/poor Cosmo Chough (1)/Even Chough (1)/dear Mr Chough (1)/Poor little Chough (1)
185 Marjory (77)/Marjory Leigh (30)/Margaret (1)/still,”—and poor Marjory (1)/practical Marjory (1)/Marjory Lee (1)/flirtatious Marjory Leigh (1)/llke Marjory (1)/the practical Marjory Leigh (1)/the indignant Marjory (1)
172 Hamlin (53)/Mordaunt (5)/Mordaunt Hamlin (3)
152 Mary Leigh (46)/Mary (21)/Poor Mary Leigh (1)/the true‐hearted Mary (1)/dear Mary (1)
134 Sacha (52)/Sacha Elaguine (21)/the detested Sacha (1)/poor Sacha (1)
131 Mrs Macgregor (89)
84 Mrs Spencer (61)/little Mrs Spencer (1)/Spencer (1)/the enthusiastic Mrs Spencer (1)
70 Mrs Simson (33)
70 Sacha (18)/Cousin Sacha (7)/that wretched Sacha (1)/that miserable Sacha (1)/darling little Sacha (1)
68 Aunt Claudia (38)
61 Harry Collett (21)/Harry (11)/Mrs Collett (8)/Collett (7)/poor Harry (1)/Mrs Harry Collett (1)
58 Mrs Argiropoulo (37)/old Argiropoulo (1)
50 Helen (20)/little Helen (3)/poor little Helen (1)/little Helen Elaguine (1)
49 Arnold (14)/Arnold Hamlin (2)/Hamlin (1)/poor Arnold (1)
44 Dennistoun (32)/Mr Dennistoun (1)/that hysterical tippling little poet Dennistoun , whom she disliked so much (1)
39 Mildred (16)/Miss Mildred (3)/the signorina Mildred (1)/The signorina Mildred (1)
32 Mademoiselle Aïssé (7)/Aïssé (7)
31 Winnie (11)/Miss Winnie (2)/little Winnie (1)
31 Posthlethwaite (12)/Mr Posthlethwaite (3)/young Posthlethwaite (2)/the astonished Posthlethwaite (1)
27 Watty (19)/dear old Watty (1)/old Watty (1)
26 Winnie (6)/little Winnie (2)/Perry (2)/Winnie Perry (1)/PERRY (1)
25 Dick (9)/Poor Dick (1)
25 Mr Collett (6)/DEAR MR COLLETT (1)
23 Miss Curzon (10)/old Miss Curzon (2)/Darling Miss Curzon (1)
23 Thaddy O’Reilly (13)/little Thaddy O’Reilly (2)/Thaddy (1)
22 Constantine (7)/Mrs Constantine Bulzo (4)/Constantine Bulzo (4)/young Bulzo (1)/Mrs Bulzo (1)/Bulzo (1)
21 Hamlin (7)/Denrest Mr Hamlin (1)
21 Auntie Claudia (1)
21 Anne (10)/Dear Anne (1)/Dear Annie (1)
21 Richmond (3)/Andrew Richmond (1)
20 the Perrys (12)/the little Perrys (6)/Melton Perrys (1)
20 Edith (6)/Edith Spencer (2)
20 Anne (4)/Miss Brown (2)/Miss Brown Annie (1)/Annie (1)
19 Sacha (6)/Sacha Polozoff (4)/Polozoff (1)
18 Gosselin (5)/Monsieur Gosselin (4)/Dear old Gosselin (1)
18 Mr Lewis (12)/Lewis (1)
17 Hamlin,—she (1)
16 Dante (12)
16 O’Reilly (15)/little O’Reilly (1)
15 the Leighs (10)/The Leighs (2)/Leighs (1)/the Miss Leighs (1)
14 Poor Anne (1)/Poor Annie (1)/Anne (1)
14 M. de Ferréol (6)
13 Sacha (6)/Sacha Elaguine—“Sacha (1)
12 God (12)
11 Annina (5)
11 Cold Fremley (10)/Fremley (1)
11 Mr Saunders (1)/old Saunders (1)/fat old Mr Saunders (1)
10 Semiramis (6)
10 Cosmo Chough,—I (1)
9 Perry (2)/Milton Perry (1)
9 Miss Leigh (4)/The other Miss Leigh (1)
9 Hamlin (6)/Mrs Hamlin (2)/the new Mrs Hamlin (1)
9 Poor Cosmo (1)
8 Julia (5)
8 Beatrice (7)
8 Marie (3)/Marie Bulzo (2)/Little May (1)
8 Imperia (1)
8 Sir Thomas Hamlin (1)/the bad Sir Thomas (1)
8 Arnold (3)/Poor Arnold (2)
8 Poor Mrs Lewis (2)/Mrs Lewis (1)
8 Boris (4)/Boris Elaguine (2)
7 Laura (5)/Madonna Laura (1)
7 Madame Gauffre (5)
7 the Bulzos (2)/Bulzos (1)
6 Rossetti (6)
6 Sittlicher Ernst (6)
6 Richard Brown (3)/Richard (2)/Mrs Richard Brown (1)
5 Michaelangelo (4)
5 Provenzano (2)
5 Mrs Sireson (2)
5 Keats (5)
5 Arnold,—he (1)
5 the Spencers (4)/The Spencers (1)
5 the Fens (5)
5 little Hélène Elaguine (1)/Hélène Elaguine (1)
5 Mademoiselle Hélène (2)/Mademoiselle (1)
5 and Lucrezia Borgia , who declared himself to be an atheist when he did not declare himself to be a Catholic mystic (1)/Lucrezia Borgia (1)
4 Sir Troilus (1)
4 Ugolino (2)
4 Papa (3)/papa (1)
4 Rossini (4)
4 Gillespie Brothers (3)
4 Mrs Simpson (1)
4 Shelley (4)
4 Goethe (4)
4 Poor Chough (1)
4 Andrew Saunders (1)/the Saunders (1)/Saunders (1)
4 Gautier (4)
4 Burne Jones (4)
4 the Russian (4)
4 Sophie (3)
4 Nero (1)
3 Mamma (3)
3 Heaven (3)
3 Guido Cavalcanti (1)
3 Sir Galahad (3)
3 Queen Anne (1)/Anne (1)
3 Chough (2)/Maggy Chough (1)
3 Morris (2)/Mr Morris (1)
3 Michelangelo (3)
3 Mr Spencer (2)/sentiment poor Mr Spencer (1)
3 the little Choughs (2)/the Choughs (1)
3 Hegel (3)
3 Good‐bye (3)
3 Mr O’Reilly (1)
3 Marjory of Anne (1)/ANNE (1)/Anne (1)
3 Mr O’Reilly (1)
3 Professor Richmond (2)/Richmond (1)
3 Miss Bulzo (2)
3 Aunt Philippa (1)
2 Love (2)
2 Mr Thaddeus Smith (1)/old Smith (1)
2 Miss Perry (1)
2 Monna Lisa (1)/Eliza (1)
2 Venus Mystica (2)
2 Circe (2)
2 Francesca da Rimini (1)
2 Prince Arsaces (1)
2 Venus Victrix (1)/Venus (1)
2 Vita Nuova (2)
2 the Germans (2)
2 Schumann (2)
2 Mantegna (2)
2 Lucretia Borgia (2)
2 Byron (2)
2 Miss Pringle (2)
2 Mrs Perkins (1)
2 Mr O’Reilly (1)
2 Victor Hugo (2)
2 Miss Euphrosyne Argiropoulo (1)
2 Expensive Warfare Brown (1)/me,—Anne Brown (1)
2 Paints (2)
2 Shakespeare (2)
2 Ford (2)
2 Mary (1)/Mary Stuarts (1)
2 Mr Ruskin (1)/Ruskin (1)
2 Mozart (2)
2 Baudelaire (2)
2 Zola (2)
2 Wordsworth (2)
2 the Hamlins (1)/Hamlins (1)
2 Messalina (2)
2 La Belle Heaulmière (1)/Isabella (1)
2 Webster (2)
2 Swinburne (2)
2 Sarah Bernhardt (2)
2 Mr Pater (1)/Pater (1)
2 Heathcliff (2)
2 Schopenhauer (2)
2 most Russians (1)/Russians (1)
2 Monsieur Page (1)
2 Petrarch (2)
2 Italian (1)/the Italian (1)
2 Mr Gillespie (2)
2 Spenser (2)
2 the Marquise (1)/La Marquise (1)
2 Poor Walter (1)
Major entities (proper, common)
FAC
11 the Villa Arnolfini
11 Wotton Hall
4 Hammersmith
3 Charing Cross
2 New Cross
2 Park Lane
2 Cold Fremley
2 the Lycée
1 Bocca degli Abati
1 San Michele
38 the house/The house
29 the room/The room
28 home
24 the studio
19 here
19 school
16 her room
12 this house/This house
11 there
11 the drawing‐room
GPE
51 London
36 Florence
29 England
27 Hammersmith
24 Coblenz
21 Paris
19 Italy/Italy to‐morrow
19 Wotton
8 America
8 Lucca/Lucca to‐morrow
11 town
6 the town
6 there
4 the country
2 that county
1 the old town of Lucca
1 the neighbourhood
1 that country town
1 the place
1 the smaller Umbrian cities
LOC
7 the Rhine/the yellowish‐green Rhine
5 Cold Fremley
3 the Thames
3 the Fens
2 the East
2 the East End
2 the Glaciers
1 the Lake
1 the Abruzzo
1 the Adriatic
110 the world/The world
12 the river
6 the sea‐side
4 the country
4 the sea/The sea
4 the wide world
3 the water
3 this world
3 the whole world/The whole world
2 the fields
PER
1738 Anne/Miss Brown/Anne Brown/Annie/Brown/Nan/dear Miss Brown/poor Anne/ANNE BROWN/MISS BROWN/Miss Anne Brown/little Miss Brown/the proud Miss Brown/dear Anne
1062 Hamlin/Mr Hamlin/Walter/Walter Hamlin/HAMLIN/WALTER HAMLIN/Mr Walter Hamlin/young Hamlin/Dear Mr Hamlin/dear Hamlin/the great Hamlin/old Mr Hamlin/a Hamlin/old Hamlin
294 Madame Elaguine/Madame/the Elaguine/Elaguine/Poor Madame Elaguine/your Madame Elaguine , who immediately proceeded to make herself awfully fascinating and pathetic to them
241 Hamlin/Dick/Chough/Cousin Dick/HAMLIN/flippant little Chough/the unreal Hamlin/Cousin Dick , who came to make inquiries ; even of Hamlin , whose magnificent bundles and baskets of flowers and fruit arrived regularly , together with the bunch of sweet‐peas and pinks which Chough had bought at the greengrocer ’s , or the sprigs of laburnum which he had stolen in the park/this Hamlin
202 Perry/Mrs Perry/Melton Perry/Melton/Mrs Melton Perry/Poor old Perry/poor Perry/the overworked , henpecked Melton Perry
148 Lewis/Edmund Lewis/Ted/poor Ted Lewis/the odious Lewis
147 Richard Brown/Richard/Brown/Mr Brown/Mr Richard Brown/Richard Brown,—perhaps/Dear Mr Brown/RICHARD BROWN/And Brown
144 Chough/Cosmo Chough/Mr Chough/Mr Cosmo Chough/little Chough/Cosmo/Mr. Chough/Mrs Cosmo Chough/poor Cosmo/poor Cosmo Chough/Even Chough/dear Mr Chough/Poor little Chough
115 Marjory/Marjory Leigh/Margaret/still,”—and poor Marjory/practical Marjory/Marjory Lee/flirtatious Marjory Leigh/llke Marjory/the practical Marjory Leigh/the indignant Marjory
97 Hamlin/Sacha/Sacha Hamlin
63 people/People
58 one/One
56 his cousin
53 the children/The children
52 the girl/The girl
51 a man/A man
47 a woman/A woman
39 women/Women
38 her cousin/Her cousin
31 others
ORG
1 the Royal Academy
1 Girton College
4 the school/The school
2 the Working Women ’s Club
1 the railway company
1 this school
1 the military foundry
1 Mary Leigh ’s company
1 a new school
1 the school to which these decidedly belonged
1 his school
1 that school
VEH
15 the carriage/The carriage
6 the train/The train
4 the ship/The ship
3 the boat
2 boats
2 their carriage
2 A steamer/a steamer
1 the late train
1 the bullock‐carts
1 carts
Text
IT was melancholy to admit that [Italy]1-italy also had ceased to interest [him]493-him , thought [Hamlin]144-hamlin , as [he]144-hamlin smoked [his]144-hamlin cigarette on [the hillside above [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini]494-the hillside above the villa arnolfini ; melancholy , although , in truth , [he]144-hamlin had suspected as much throughout the journey , and , indeed , before starting . Pale , milky morning sky , deepening into luminous blue opposite the fast‐rising sun ; [misty blue‐green valley bounded by unsubstantial Apennine peaks and [Carrara]3-carrara crags]495-misty blue‐green valley bounded by unsubstantial apennine peaks and carrara crags ; yellow shimmer of vines and of maize , green sparkle of pine and fir branches , glitter of vermilion sand crumbling under [his]144-hamlin feet among the sear grass and the brown cistus tufts,—all these things seemed to have lost for [him]144-hamlin their emotional colour , their imaginative luminousness . [He]144-hamlin tried to realise the time when all these things had given [him]144-hamlin a thrill , had gone to [his]144-hamlin head , nay , when the mere sense of being in [Italy]1-italy had done so ; but now the very words “ thrill ”[144-hamlin] and “ intoxication ”[144-hamlin] seemed false , disgusting , and vulgar . Formerly , at least , such things had soaked into [him]144-hamlin , dyed [his]144-hamlin mind with colour , saturated it with light ; instead of remaining , as now , so separate from [him]144-hamlin , so terribly external , that to perceive them required almost an effort . [He]144-hamlin and [the world]496-the world had been becoming paler in the last three years ; it was melancholy , but that seemed quite natural and in keeping ; and besides , a washed‐out world , [a man with worn‐out feelings]497-a man with worn‐out feelings , have quite as much psychologic interest for [a poet]498-a poet as the reverse . [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin had never been [your]499-your splash‐of‐scarlet and dash‐of‐orange‐and‐skyblue , lust‐and‐terror kind of lyrist ; but [he]145-hamlin had begun [his]145-hamlin poetical career with a quiet concentra‐ tion of colour , physical and moral , which had made [his]145-hamlin earliest verses affect one like so many old church windows , deep flecks of jewel lustre set in quaint stiff little frames , with a great deal of lead between , and supreme indifference to anatomy and perspective . And as [a painter]500-a painter ( perhaps just because , despite [his]145-hamlin own contrary opinion)—he certainly had less original genius as [painter]501-painter than as [poet]502-poet — [he]145-hamlin had continued in this habit of gemlike harmonies of colour ; but in [his]145-hamlin poetry , and in [his]145-hamlin reality as [a man]503-a man , it struck [him]145-hamlin that [he]145-hamlin had little by little got paler and paler , colours turning gradually to tints , and tints to shadows ; pleasure , pain , hope , despair , all reduced gradually to a delicate penumbra , a diaphanous intellectual pallor , of which this utter listlessness , this indifference even to having grown indifferent , was , as it were , the faint key‐note . [The world]496-the world was a pale and prismatic mist , full of vague , formless ghosts , in which it was possible to see only as far as to‐day ; and , indeed , why wish to see that paler to‐day called to‐morrow ? Perhaps there was a little depression added to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s usual listlessness . It had given [him]145-hamlin a kind of little shock to see [Melton Perry]146-perry again , after those twelve or thirteen years ; bringing back to [him]145-hamlin the time when [he]145-hamlin had been the most brilliant and eccentric of [that little knot of æsthetic undergraduates]505-that little knot of æsthetic undergraduates , at whose strange doings as [Greek gods]506-greek gods , and [Provençal poets]507-provençal poets , and [Norse heroes]508-norse heroes , [Oxford]101-oxford had murmured in those philistine days , and which had welcomed [young Hamlin]145-hamlin , with [his]145-hamlin girlish beauty and pre‐Raphaelite verses , as a sort of mixture of [Apollo]148-apollo and [Eros]149-eros , sitting at the head of the supper‐table dressed in green silk , with rose garlands on [his]145-hamlin head , while [Perry]146-perry led a chorus of praise , dressed in indigo velveteen , with peacocks ’ feathers in [his]145-hamlin button‐hole , and silver‐gilt grasshoppers in [his]145-hamlin hair . [Poor old Perry]146-perry ! Absurd days those were , thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [he]145-hamlin walked slowly towards [the house]509-the house , through the grass and hemlock bending with dew , pushing aside the fig branches and vine trails along the narrow path between [the terraced olives]510-the terraced olives ; absurd days those , and at which [he]145-hamlin could now , having grown grave and listless , only faintly smile . Still the sight of [Perry]146-perry had brought back to [him]145-hamlin that recurring sense that [all those absurd lads of long‐gone days]511-all those absurd lads of long‐gone days , turned [humdrum dons]512-humdrum dons , and parsons , and [squires for the most part]513-squires for the most part , had had a something , a spontaneity , an aristocratic fibre , a sort of free‐bornness , which [he]145-hamlin missed among the clique‐and‐shop shoddy æstheticism with which [he]145-hamlin now associated , and which sang [his]145-hamlin praises as [those boys had sung them so many years before]514-those boys had sung them so many years before . Professional poetry ! professional art ! faugh ! thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; it was that feeling which had been making [London]4-london odious to [him]145-hamlin of late , and sent [him]145-hamlin abroad , [he]145-hamlin knew not whither . [He]145-hamlin was [a poet]498-a poet [himself]145-hamlin , and [a painter]500-a painter also , to be sure ; but somehow [he]145-hamlin liked to feel ( and yet it oppressed [him]145-hamlin ) that [he]145-hamlin was not of the same stock as [[his]145-hamlin fellow‐workers]517-his fellow‐workers — that [he]145-hamlin had [his]145-hamlin coats made by [less romantic tailors]518-less romantic tailors , and cut [his]145-hamlin hair and beard in less pictorial style . The sense of [his]145-hamlin difference from all [those pen‐ and‐pencil‐driving men of genius]519-those pen‐ and‐pencil‐driving men of genius , [those reviewer‐poets and clerk‐poets]520-those reviewer‐poets and clerk‐poets , those once‐a‐week‐studio‐receiving [painters]521-painters ; the sense of the dust and smoke , as it were , of [the æsthetic factory]522-the æsthetic factory , had been choking [him]145-hamlin of late : [he]145-hamlin would rather go and associate only with well‐dressed numskulls , go and flirt with [empty‐headed Faubourg St Germain ladies]523-empty‐headed faubourg st germain ladies , or [emptier‐headed Monte Carlo ladies]524-emptier‐headed monte carlo ladies — [he]145-hamlin would not touch pen or brush for years . It had been silly to accept [Perry]146-perry ’s invitation to spend September at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini ; [he]145-hamlin had accepted , thinking of [Perry]146-perry as [he]145-hamlin had been , a wild , roistering , half‐French creature , brought up at [Louis‐le‐Grand]5-louis‐le‐grand , and telling wicked French stories . Good heavens ! what a change ! When [the wretched , thin , wasted , depressed‐looking creature]525-the wretched , thin , wasted , depressed‐looking creature , fit for a medieval picture of mansuetude , had greeted [him]145-hamlin by night at [the nearest station]526-the nearest station , and had driven [him]145-hamlin in the gig , [he]145-hamlin had been quite unable to realise that this was indeed [Melton Perry]146-perry . But [he]145-hamlin had understood all , all , when , in [the bleak drawing‐room]527-the bleak drawing‐room , in the glare of an ill‐ trimmed lamp , [that lank , limp , lantern‐jawed leering creature with a Sapphic profile]528-that lank , limp , lantern‐jawed leering creature with a sapphic profile had come forward and seized [him]145-hamlin by both hands , and kissed [them]529-them , crying — “ [Dear Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , [I]528-that lank , limp , lantern‐jawed leering creature with a sapphic profile must kiss the hands that have opened the paradise of body and soul to so many of [us]3861-us . ”[528-that lank , limp , lantern‐jawed leering creature with a sapphic profile] [She]528-that lank , limp , lantern‐jawed leering creature with a sapphic profile , and [her]528-that lank , limp , lantern‐jawed leering creature with a sapphic profile speech , and the damp dab on [his]145-hamlin hands , had passed before [him]145-hamlin like a nightmare ; [he]145-hamlin felt that [he]145-hamlin would never be able to disassociate [Mrs Melton Perry]146-perry from that horrible smell of ill‐trimmed , flickering oil‐lamp . It seemed to [him]145-hamlin dreadful — a sort of hideous , harpy‐like proceeding — that [[his]145-hamlin old friend]530-his old friend should have thus been metamorphosed . “ [You]145-hamlin see , ”[146-perry] [Perry]146-perry had said , “ [I]146-perry must paint things — well — not the sort of things [I]146-perry exactly admire,—because , [you]145-hamlin see , there ’s [Mrs Perry]146-perry and [the children]3862-the children — [five girls,—and last year ’s baby]3863-five girls,—and last year ’s baby . ”[146-perry] [Perry]146-perry ’s depressed voice had remained in [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s ears . This was the end of [a bright , original fellow]531-a bright , original fellow — married for love , too ! And [six children]532-six children ! [Hamlin]145-hamlin had already made up [his]145-hamlin mind that [he]145-hamlin could not possibly hold out long at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini . That [Mrs Perry]146-perry , with [her]146-perry leering Sapphic profile , [her]146-perry almost amorous admiration , the limp gown , [the five girls]533-the five girls , and [last year ’s baby]534-last year ’s baby , the all‐pervading smell of oil‐lamp , were too much for [him]145-hamlin . In three days , [he]145-hamlin calculated , [he]145-hamlin might decently , on some pretext , slip off to [Florence]6-florence . And then — why , from [Florence]6-florence [he]145-hamlin might go to [America]7-america . [He]145-hamlin thought [all those big hotels]535-all those big hotels , with [the fifteen hundred inmates and thirteen brass bands]536-the fifteen hundred inmates and thirteen brass bands , all that tremendous strain , telegraph‐telephone vulgarity , might be refreshing . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had got to [the bottom of [the hill]538-the hill]537-the bottom of the hill , and in front of [him]145-hamlin , nestled among the olives and the vines , rose [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini , [a time‐ and weather‐stained Tuscan country‐house]539-a time‐ and weather‐stained tuscan country‐house , with [its]2-the villa arnolfini rose‐hedges gone wild among the beans and artichokes , [its]2-the villa arnolfini grotesque ivy‐draped terra‐cotta statues , [its]2-the villa arnolfini belvedere towers , from whose crannied sides and yellow lichened tiles the pigeons swept down on to the lawn of overgrown grass , thick with dew in the blue morning shadow . [It]2-the villa arnolfini had a sort of half‐romantic , half‐idyllic charm , which [Hamlin]145-hamlin could not help recognising : [it]2-the villa arnolfini certainly was better than [an American hotel]540-an american hotel , with [ten lifts]541-ten lifts , [thirteen brass bands]542-thirteen brass bands , and [fifteen hundred inmates]543-fifteen hundred inmates . But , like everything else , it was a snare ; for behind those sleepy‐looking green shutters were the pink and blue chromo‐lithograph pot‐boilers of [Melton Perry]146-perry , were [the five girls]533-the five girls and [the last year ’s baby]545-the last year ’s baby , nay , were [the Sapphic leer and limp dresses of [Mrs Melton Perry]146-perry [herself]146-perry]546-the sapphic leer and limp dresses of mrs melton perry herself . Making these reflections , [Hamlin]145-hamlin pushed open the green and blistered house‐door and entered [the wide hall]547-the wide hall , with rickety eighteenth‐century chairs and tables marshalled round the walls . There was one good thing about [[his]145-hamlin hosts]548-his hosts , [he]145-hamlin thought , and that was , that [they]548-his hosts had no common breakfast , but invited [[their]548-his hosts guests]549-their guests to do whatsoever [they]548-his hosts pleased in the early morning . [The hall]550-the hall was very silent , and [Ham‐]151-ham‐ lin wondered how [he]145-hamlin should get any breakfast . It struck [him]145-hamlin that [he]145-hamlin had better go and ring the bell in [[his]145-hamlin bedroom]551-his bedroom . But on going [upstairs]552-upstairs [he]145-hamlin found there was no sign of a bell either in [it]551-his bedroom or in [the vast scantily furnished drawing‐room]553-the vast scantily furnished drawing‐room , where a thick layer of dust reposed on tables and mirrors , and the smell of last night ’s oil‐lamp still lingered . [He]145-hamlin saw the open door of [[Perry]146-perry ’s studio]554-perry ’s studio ; [it]554-perry ’s studio was empty , and so was [the adjoining dressing‐room]555-the adjoining dressing‐room , where boots and canvases littered the floor . But on the mirror was a paper , on which was written in the largest characters : “ [I]145-hamlin am gone to sketch at [the Lake of [Massaciuccoli]8-massaciuccoli]3864-the lake of massaciuccoli ; sha n’t be back till lunch ; please look after [Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] “ Confound it ! ”[145-hamlin] thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ am [I]145-hamlin to be left in tête‐à‐tête with [Mrs Perry]146-perry all the morning ? ”[145-hamlin] But since [Melton Perry]146-perry thought nothing of leaving [[his]145-hamlin guest]556-his guest alone all the morning , [he]145-hamlin too — [the guest]557-the guest — might surely be permitted to slip away after breakfast from the effusive æstheticism of [[his]145-hamlin hostess]558-his hostess . Having found no sign of life on [the first floor]559-the first floor , [Hamlin]145-hamlin went down‐stairs once more , and proceeded to ramble about in search of breakfast , or , at least , of [some servant]560-some servant . The ground‐floor seemed to consist entirely of [[servants]561-servants ’ rooms]562-servants ’ rooms , [offices]563-offices , and strange garners , where sacks of potatoes , garden‐tools , silkworm‐mats , and various kinds of pods were gathered together . They were all empty ; and empty likewise was [the kitchen]564-the kitchen , [its]564-the kitchen brass saucepans and huge spits left invitingly for [any one who might care to step through the open garden‐door]565-any one who might care to step through the open garden‐door . But next to [the kitchen]564-the kitchen was a sort of nursery , at least so [he]145-hamlin judged from [the children]3862-the children ’s chairs and battered dolls lying about — and here a table was spread with cups and saucers and jugs , and a cut loaf and a plate of figs . “ This looks more like it , ”[145-hamlin] thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin , wondering what had become of [the inmates of [this mysterious abode of sleep]569-this mysterious abode of sleep]568-the inmates of this mysterious abode of sleep . Suddenly [he]145-hamlin heard [children]570-children talking in [a room]571-a room at the end of [the passage]572-the passage , and a sort of subdued , deep , melancholy chant , like some church song . [He]145-hamlin went to the door whence came the sounds , and knocked gently . The childish chattering did not stop , nor the fitful gusts of chant — deep , nasal , but harmonious and weird , with curious , sudden , metallic falsetto notes , less like the voice of [a woman than of a youth]573-a woman than of a youth . [Hamlin]145-hamlin knocked again , and receiving no notice , boldly opened the door and stood on the threshold . [He]145-hamlin was struck by the sight which met [him]145-hamlin . [The room]574-the room was low and vaulted , with walls entirely frescoed with dark‐blue skies sprinkled with birds , mountains like cheeses , [rivers]575-rivers , [box‐like houses]576-box‐like houses , [people]577-people fishing , and plentiful ducks and parrots on perches ; a faint green shimmer of leaves came through the open windows ; [three or four little yellow‐headed children]578-three or four little yellow‐headed children were scrambling on the floor , struggling violently over the funeral of a doll in a biscuit‐tin . In the middle of [the room]574-the room was a large deal table , covered with singed flannel , on the corner of which stood a brasier with some flat‐irons , and a heap of crumpled pink pinafores ; and behind this table , [her]580-her tall and powerful figure , in a close‐fitting white vest and white skirt , standing out against the dark‐blue painted wall and the green shimmer from outside , was [a young woman]581-a young woman bending over a frock which [she]581-a young woman was ironing , [her]581-a young woman bare brown arms going up and down along the board ; [her]581-a young woman massive and yet girlish body bending with the movement , and singing that strange chant which [Hamlin]145-hamlin had heard from outside . “ [I]145-hamlin beg [your]3862-the children pardon , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , in Italian , as [he]145-hamlin stood in the doorway . [The children]3862-the children looked round , tittered , and made remarks in shrill whispers ; [the girl]583-the girl stopped [her]583-the girl work , stood erect , putting [her]583-the girl iron on the brasier , and stared full at [Hamlin]145-hamlin with large wide‐opened eyes of strange dark‐greyish blue , beneath heavy masses of dark lustreless hair , crimped naturally like so much delicate black iron wire , on [her]583-the girl narrow white brow . “ [I]145-hamlin beg [your]3862-the children pardon , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin again ; “ but can [you]3862-the children tell [me]145-hamlin how [I]145-hamlin may get some breakfast ? ”[145-hamlin] [He]145-hamlin could not help smiling in proffering this innocent request , so serious and almost tragic was the face of [the girl]583-the girl . “ It ’s [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[3862-the children] tittered [the children]3862-the children , rolling under the table , and hanging to the table‐cloth . [The young woman]586-the young woman eyed [Hamlin]145-hamlin for a second in no very gracious manner ; then answered , with a certain contemptuous listlessness in [her]586-the young woman slightly hollowed pale cheeks and beautifully curled but somewhat prominent lips — “ [I]586-the young woman do n’t know anything about [your]145-hamlin breakfast , [sir]3865-sir . ”[586-the young woman] [She]586-the young woman spoke , to [his]145-hamlin surprise , in perfect English , with only the faintest guttural Italian accent . “ [Mr Perry]152-perry went to sketch at [Massaciuccoli]8-massaciuccoli early this morning , and took [the boy]3866-the boy with [him]152-perry ; [Mrs Perry]146-perry may never be disturbed till nine ; and [the cook]3867-the cook is gone to [Lucca]9-lucca for provisions . ”[586-the young woman] “ That ’s very sad , ”[145-hamlin] remarked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , laughing , and looking at this curious and picturesque being . [The girl]583-the girl seemed annoyed at being discovered in that guise , for [she]583-the girl pulled down [her]583-the girl white sleeves quickly . “ [I]586-the young woman suppose [the cook]3867-the cook has orders about [your]145-hamlin breakfast , ”[586-the young woman] [she]586-the young woman said , in a tone which seemed to put an end to the conversation ; and [she]586-the young woman took up [her]586-the young woman iron once more . “ [Mrs Perry]146-perry did not think [you]145-hamlin would want anything so early ; [the cook]3867-the cook will be back about nine . ”[586-the young woman] But [Hamlin]145-hamlin would not be shaken off ; the fact was , [he]145-hamlin enjoyed watching this beautiful sullen creature much as [he]145-hamlin might have enjoyed watching a cat whom [he]145-hamlin had disturbed in its sleep . “ Nine o’clock ! ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said ; “ that ’s a long time to wait . Could n’t [you]583-the girl give [me]145-hamlin something to eat ? [I]145-hamlin saw a table spread in [the next room]3870-the next room . ”[145-hamlin] [The girl]583-the girl put down [her]583-the girl iron with a sort of subdued irritation of manner . “ It ’s [the children]3862-the children ’s breakfast , [sir]3865-sir , ”[583-the girl] [she]583-the girl answered ; “ [we]3873-we have neither tea nor coffee . ”[583-the girl] “ [We]3873-we have milk , ”[589-the eldest of the little girls] said [the eldest of [the little girls]590-the little girls]589-the eldest of the little girls pertly , “ and figs . ”[589-the eldest of the little girls] “ Milk and figs ! ”[145-hamlin] exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “ why , that ’s a breakfast for [the gods]3874-the gods ! and wo n’t [you]583-the girl , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin went on rather appealingly—“won’t [you]583-the girl share a little of it with [me]145-hamlin ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]145-hamlin are [[Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s guest]3875-mrs perry ’s guest , ”[583-the girl] said [the girl]583-the girl more sullenly than ever , “ and of course [you]145-hamlin are welcome to anything [you]145-hamlin choose . ”[583-the girl] [Hamlin]145-hamlin felt rather taken aback . “ Indeed ! ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said . “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t wish to do anything against the habits of [the house]509-the house , or disagreeable to [you]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] “ It is not against any rules , ”[583-the girl] [she]583-the girl answered . “ If [you]145-hamlin will excuse [me]145-hamlin , [I]145-hamlin will see whether the milk is heated . [The children]3862-the children will show [you]145-hamlin the way . ”[145-hamlin] [HAMLIN]145-hamlin felt rather contrite and humiliated as [he]145-hamlin sat down at the square table , with [the two eldest children]592-the two eldest children , pert little rosy and flaxen things , on either side of [him]145-hamlin , and [the three little ones]593-the three little ones staring at [him]145-hamlin , and then suddenly making convulsive dives under the table‐cloth and behind [each other]594-each other ’s shoulders opposite . [He]145-hamlin was the furthest possible removed from [the kind of young man who persecutes [pretty housemaids]596-pretty housemaids]595-the kind of young man who persecutes pretty housemaids . Whatever vagaries [he]145-hamlin might have had in [his]145-hamlin life , they were not of that sort ; and now , although [he]145-hamlin had merely intended to ask for some breakfast , [he]145-hamlin found [himself]145-hamlin somehow in the position of pushing [his]145-hamlin presence upon [a servant girl]597-a servant girl . [He]145-hamlin was vexed with [himself]145-hamlin , and became very grave , scarcely answering the chatter of [the children]3862-the children by [his]145-hamlin side . “ And [you]145-hamlin know , ”[599-the eldest child] said [the eldest child]599-the eldest child , a pretty little minx of eleven , fully conscious of [her]599-the eldest child charms , “ [mamma]3878-mamma told [us]3879-us [you]145-hamlin were [the great poet]3880-the great poet , and [she]3878-mamma read [us]3879-us a poem of [yours]145-hamlin about [Sir Troilus]153-sir troilus . [Mamma]154-mamma always reads poetry to [us]3879-us — and [we]3879-us liked it so much,—and [I]599-the eldest child liked all about where [he]153-sir troilus kisses [the lady]3881-the lady so much , and [her]3881-the lady purple dress with the golden roses , and then about [Love]155-love , where [he]153-sir troilus comes and takes [her]3881-the lady by the throat , and chokes [her]3881-the lady , and makes [her]3881-the lady feel like a furnace . [Mamma]154-mamma says it ’s just like love . [Mr Thaddeus Smith]156-mr thaddeus smith was in love with [[the gardener]3882-the gardener ’s girl]3883-the gardener ’s girl when [he]153-sir troilus came [here]3884-here last year , [mamma]3878-mamma says . ”[599-the eldest child] “ Good heavens ! ”[145-hamlin] thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ what [a mamma]3886-a mamma and what [children]570-children ! ”[145-hamlin] “ And [mamma]3878-mamma told [us]3889-we to get some myrtles and put them in [[your]145-hamlin room]3890-your room , ”[600-a smaller one] blurted out [a smaller one]600-a smaller one . “ Hush , [Winnie]157-winnie ! [You]157-winnie know [you]157-winnie should n’t tell , ”[601-the eldest] said [the eldest]601-the eldest . “ And [you]157-winnie know , ”[602-the younger] insisted [the younger]602-the younger , in [her]602-the younger little , impertinent lisp , “ [mamma]3878-mamma said [we]3889-we should put the myrtles , because [you]145-hamlin made poems about myrtles ; and [we]3889-we were to have had on [our]3889-we best frocks , and met [you]145-hamlin in [the hall]550-the hall , and — ”[602-the younger] “ Hush , [Winnie]157-winnie ! ”[602-the younger] “ And thrown roses on the floor before [you]145-hamlin ; only then [papa]3893-papa got a telegram saying [you]145-hamlin were coming by [the late train]3894-the late train , and [we]3889-we had to go to bed — ”[602-the younger] [Miss Winnie]157-winnie ’s revelations and [[her]157-winnie sister]603-her sister ’s expostulations were interrupted by the entry of [the nurse]604-the nurse , or [governess]605-governess , or whatever else [she]157-winnie might be , carrying a large jug of milk . [She]157-winnie had slipped on a skirt and loose jacket of striped peasant cotton , which at a distance looked like a dull , rich purple . [She]157-winnie sat down at the head of the table , and began silently helping the hot milk . “ May [I]145-hamlin cut the bread for [you]157-winnie ? ”[145-hamlin] asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , feeling quite shy from [her]157-winnie silence . “ [I]157-winnie do n’t think [you]145-hamlin will know how to do it , ”[157-winnie] [she]157-winnie answered . “ [We]3895-we have only yesterday ’s bread at this hour , until [the cook]3867-the cook returns from [market]3897-market . ”[157-winnie] When the milk was helped and the bread cut , [she]157-winnie said , rather sharply — “ Now , [children]570-children , say [your]145-hamlin prayer . ”[157-winnie] [The children]3862-the children immediately set up a shrill chorus ; [the elder , who wished to show off]607-the elder , who wished to show off , slowly — [the little ones , who were hungry]608-the little ones , who were hungry , quicker ; an absurdly pseudo‐poetical thanksgiving , which reminded [Hamlin]145-hamlin of the sort of poetry presented to [rich foreigners]609-rich foreigners by [needy Italians on creamy , embossed , and illuminated paper]610-needy italians on creamy , embossed , and illuminated paper . [He]145-hamlin was struck by the fact that [the girl]583-the girl did not join , but waited passively through this religio‐poetical ceremony ; doubtless , [he]145-hamlin thought , because [she]583-the girl was [a Catholic]612-a catholic . “ That ’s mamma ’s Tuesday hymn , ”[157-winnie] said [Winnie]157-winnie ; “ [she]583-the girl makes a different one for each day of the week . ”[157-winnie] Whereupon [the children]3862-the children fell vigorously to [their]3862-the children breakfast of bread and milk . [Heaven]158-heaven knows when [Hamlin]145-hamlin had eaten bread and milk last — probably , [he]145-hamlin thought , not since [he]145-hamlin had been out of frocks ; but it seemed to [him]145-hamlin pleasant and pastoral . [He]145-hamlin would have enjoyed this improvised breakfast had [the children]3862-the children chattered less incessantly ( [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not care for [children]570-children ) , and had [he]145-hamlin not continued to feel rather as if [he]145-hamlin had been courting [a nursemaid]616-a nursemaid . [The young woman]586-the young woman had as much as [she]586-the young woman could do in pouring out more milk , giving out more figs , and cutting more slices of bread and butter for [the children]3862-the children ; and [her]586-the young woman conversation was entirely engrossed in admonitions to [them]3862-the children not to spill [their]3862-the children milk , not to jump on [their]3862-the children chairs , not to talk with [their]3862-the children mouths full , and so forth . [She]586-the young woman seemed determined , in [her]586-the young woman sullen indifferent way , to make [Hamlin]145-hamlin understand that [he]145-hamlin might intrude [[his]145-hamlin person]619-his person at that breakfast‐table , but that [he]145-hamlin had no chance of intruding [his]145-hamlin personality upon [her]586-the young woman notice . But [her]586-the young woman very indifference afforded [Hamlin]145-hamlin an opportunity , and , as it were , a right , to examine [her]586-the young woman appearance : [one]620-one may surely look at [a person who obstinately refuses to notice one]621-a person who obstinately refuses to notice one . [She]586-the young woman was very beautiful , and even more than beautiful — strange . [She]586-the young woman seemed very young , certainly , thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin — not more than nineteen at most ; but [her]586-the young woman face , though of perfectly smooth complexion , without furrow or faintest wrinkle , was wholly unyouthful ; the look was not of age , for [you]622-you could not imagine [her]586-the young woman ever growing old , but of a perfect negation of youth . [Hamlin]145-hamlin tried to think what [she]586-the young woman might have been as [a child]623-a child , looking round on the childish faces about [him]145-hamlin , but in vain . The complexion was of a uniform opaque pallor , more like certain old marble than ivory ; indeed [you]622-you might almost imagine , as [she]586-the young woman sat motionless at the head of the table , that this was no living creature , but some sort of strange statue — cheek and chin and forehead of Parian marble , scarcely stained a dull red in the lips , and hair of dull wrought‐iron , and eyes of some mysterious greyish‐blue , slate‐tinted onyx : a beautiful and sombre idol of [the heathen]624-the heathen . And the features were stranger and more monumental even than the substance in which they seemed carved by some sharp chisel , delighting in gradual hollowing of cheek and eye , in sudden cutting of bold groove and cavity of nostril and lip . The forehead was high and narrow , the nose massive , heavy , with a slight droop that reminded [Hamlin]145-hamlin of the head of [Antinous]159-antinous ; the lips thick , and of curiously bold projection and curl ; the faintly hollowed cheek subsided gradually into a neck round and erect like a tower , but set into the massive chest as some strong supple branch into a tree‐trunk . [He]145-hamlin wondered as [he]145-hamlin looked at [her]586-the young woman ; and wondered whether [this strange type , neither Latin nor Greek , but with something of Jewish and something of Ethiopian subdued into a statuesque but most un‐Hellenic beauty]625-this strange type , neither latin nor greek , but with something of jewish and something of ethiopian subdued into a statuesque but most un‐hellenic beauty , had met [him]145-hamlin before . The nearest approach seemed to be certain mournful and sullen heads of [Michaelangelo]160-michaelangelo , the type was so monumental , and at the same time so picturesque ; and as [he]145-hamlin looked at [the girl]583-the girl , it seemed , despite its strangeness , as if , at some dim distant time , [he]145-hamlin had seen and known it well before . [He]145-hamlin looked at [her]583-the girl with the curiosity of [an artist examining a model]627-an artist examining a model , or [a poet trying to solve a riddle]628-a poet trying to solve a riddle ; there was , [he]145-hamlin felt conscious , nothing insolent or offensive in [his]145-hamlin stare . Yet [he]145-hamlin felt [he]145-hamlin must break the silence ; so , with real indifference , [he]145-hamlin suddenly asked — “ How is it that [you]583-the girl speak English so marvellously well ? [No one]3899-no one would ever guess that [you]583-the girl were not English . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]583-the girl am English , ”[583-the girl] answered [the girl]583-the girl . English nationality had explained many otherwise unaccountable mixed types to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; but this took [him]145-hamlin by surprise , and left [him]145-hamlin utterly incredulous . [This girl]630-this girl certainly was [no Englishwoman]631-no englishwoman — [a Jewess]632-a jewess , perhaps . No , never ; [no Jewess]633-no jewess was ever so pure and statuesque of outline : [some Eastern]634-some eastern , dashed with Hindoo or Negro ; they were much coarser , more common , of far more obvious , less subtle beauty . “ [You]630-this girl mean English by adoption , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin suggested , “ surely not by blood ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [[My]630-this girl mother]3900-my mother was [an Italian]3901-an italian . [I]630-this girl think [[her]3900-my mother family]3902-her family came from [Sicily]10-sicily or [Sardinia]11-sardinia , or somewhere , where there are [Spaniards]3903-spaniards and [Moors]161-moors , ”[630-this girl] [she]630-this girl answered ; “ but [[my]630-this girl father]3904-my father was [Scotch]162-scotch . [He]3904-my father came from [Aberdeen]12-aberdeen . ”[630-this girl] “ Have [you]630-this girl ever been in [Scotland]13-scotland ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked , just by way of saying something to mitigate the personalness of [his]145-hamlin previous questions . “ No , ”[630-this girl] [she]630-this girl answered , and [her]630-this girl lips closed as with a spring ; then [she]630-this girl added , as if to close all further conversation , “ [I]630-this girl was born in [Italy]1-italy ; [[my]630-this girl father]3904-my father was employed at [Spezia]14-spezia in [the docks]3906-the docks . ”[630-this girl] [The eldest]601-the eldest [Miss Perry]163-miss perry raised [her]163-miss perry pretty little sentimental head pertly . “ [[Annina]164-annina ’s father]3907-annina ’s father was one of those who make [the big men‐of‐war at [Spezia]14-spezia]3908-the big men‐of‐war at spezia . ”[163-miss perry] “ Oh , [you]601-the eldest know , [we]3909-we once went with [papa]3893-papa , and saw [a man‐of‐war]3911-a man‐of‐war , and [all the boilers and big , big cannons]3912-all the boilers and big , big cannons , ”[600-a smaller one] interrupted [a smaller one]600-a smaller one . “ And [he]3907-annina ’s father was [a bad , bad man]3913-a bad , bad man , ”[601-the eldest] went on [the eldest]601-the eldest , composedly . “ [He]3907-annina ’s father used to drink quantities of acquavite ; and one day when [he]3907-annina ’s father had drunk so much acquavite , do [you]601-the eldest know what [he]3907-annina ’s father did ? [He]3907-annina ’s father tried to throw [[Annina]164-annina ’s mother]3914-annina ’s mother out of the window , and then shot [himself]3907-annina ’s father with a revolver . ”[601-the eldest] [Hamlin]145-hamlin listened as the cruel words dribbled out , and stared at the childish face . [He]145-hamlin had never taken any interest in [children]570-children ; but [he]145-hamlin had never thought that [a child]623-a child could be so deliberately ( as it seemed to [him]145-hamlin ) malignant . The words made [his]145-hamlin ears burn , and [he]145-hamlin felt indignant , confused , and humiliated , as if [he]145-hamlin were a party to them . [He]145-hamlin did not look at [the girl]583-the girl ; but [he]145-hamlin somehow saw , or felt , the sullen , suppressed bitterness of shame in [her]583-the girl tragic face . “ And is it true , ”[157-winnie] interrupted [Winnie]157-winnie , “ that [you]145-hamlin are going to do [our]3915-us picture ? [Mamma]154-mamma said [you]145-hamlin would want to paint [us]3915-us angels or fairies . [All the painters]3916-all the painters paint [us]3915-us , because , [mamma]3878-mamma says , [we]3915-us are [the most beautiful children in [Florence]6-florence]3918-the most beautiful children in florence . [They]3916-all the painters always give [us]3915-us chocolate and marrons glacés to keep [us]3915-us quiet . ”[157-winnie] WHEN breakfast was over , and [she]157-winnie had made [the children]3862-the children fold up [their]3862-the children napkins , [the nurse]604-the nurse took what remained of figs , bread , and milk to lock up in [the kitchen]564-the kitchen . [Mildred]165-mildred , [the eldest of [the little Perrys]645-the little perrys]644-the eldest of the little perrys , sidled up to [Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [he]145-hamlin stood on the doorstep leading into [the vineyard]646-the vineyard , lighting a cigarette , and asked whether [he]145-hamlin would not like to see [[her]165-mildred garden]647-her garden . [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked down upon [the innocent‐looking little fiend]648-the innocent‐looking little fiend with a sort of disgust and contempt . “ Thank [you]165-mildred , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said ; “ [gardens]3919-gardens are n’t much in [my]145-hamlin line . ”[145-hamlin] [The little thing]649-the little thing scowled at this rebuff of [her]165-mildred fascinations . But a sudden thought struck [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ Yes , by the way , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ [I]145-hamlin do take an interest in [gardens]3919-gardens sometimes . Come and show [me]145-hamlin [yours]649-the little thing . ”[145-hamlin] [Mildred]165-mildred slipped [her]165-mildred arm through [his]145-hamlin — [a long‐legged , fair‐haired , pre‐Raphaelite child]650-a long‐legged , fair‐haired , pre‐raphaelite child , in much‐darned stockings and patched pinafore — [Winnie]157-winnie , [the second , a rounder , more comfortable , cherubic beauty]651-the second , a rounder , more comfortable , cherubic beauty , seized [his]145-hamlin hand . [He]145-hamlin let [himself]145-hamlin be led along , among the prattle of [the little one]652-the little one and the assumed shyness of [the elder]653-the elder , through [the vineyard]646-the vineyard , where the tall , red‐tipped sorghum brooms stood among the trailing pumpkins and the tufts of fennel , to a small grove behind [the house]509-the house , in whose shade were four little raked‐up spaces , with drooping marigolds and zinnias stuck into the earth , and small box sprigs . “ This is [[my]157-winnie garden]3921-my garden ! ”[157-winnie] cried [Winnie]157-winnie , dragging [him]145-hamlin along , and pointing to the melancholy little patch . “ [I]157-winnie have marigolds , and sunflowers , and red beans and potatoes . ”[157-winnie] “ And this is [mine]165-mildred , ”[165-mildred] said [Mildred]165-mildred , raising [her]165-mildred big blue eyes . “ [I]165-mildred call it [the garden of [Acrasia]15-acrasia]3922-the garden of acrasia ; because [mamma]3878-mamma told [us]3924-us once about [Sir Guyon]166-sir guyon — ”[165-mildred] “ Wo n’t [you]145-hamlin give [us]3924-us anything to buy seeds with ; [we]3924-us want tomato seeds , ”[157-winnie] clamoured [Winnie]157-winnie . “ Hush , [Winnie]157-winnie ! [I]165-mildred wonder [you]157-winnie ’re not ashamed ! ”[165-mildred] cried [Mildred]165-mildred . “ [They]3925-they are very good sort of [gardens]3919-gardens , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , fishing in [his]145-hamlin waistcoat for loose silver , while [the children]3862-the children looked at [him]145-hamlin with beaming eyes ; “ here — [I]145-hamlin hope [your]157-winnie tomatoes may prosper and prove eatable . ”[145-hamlin] Then [he]145-hamlin suddenly turned to [Mildred]165-mildred . “ Come here , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin ordered , “ [I]145-hamlin want to speak to [you]165-mildred ; ”[145-hamlin] and [he]145-hamlin sat down on a stone bench under [a plane‐tree]657-a plane‐tree , in which [the cicala]658-the cicala was sawing away with all [his]145-hamlin might . [Mildred]165-mildred stood in front of [him]145-hamlin , wondering , half hoping for the usual request that [she]165-mildred should sit for [an angel or a fairy]659-an angel or a fairy . “ Look here , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , quietly ; “ [I]145-hamlin want to know how [you]165-mildred would feel if [[your]165-mildred papa]3927-your papa had been in the habit of drinking too much acquavite , and had shot [himself]3927-your papa after trying to murder [[your]165-mildred mamma]3928-your mamma , and [some nasty little girl]3929-some nasty little girl blurted it all out at breakfast to [a perfect stranger]3930-a perfect stranger ? ”[145-hamlin] [The child]660-the child flushed with surprise and anger ; [she]660-the child looked as if [she]660-the child would have scratched [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s eyes out . But [he]145-hamlin looked steadily in [her]660-the child face , and [he]145-hamlin was [a stranger]661-a stranger , [a gentleman]662-a gentleman , [a man]503-a man , and not [[her]660-the child papa]664-her papa ; circumstances which entirely overawed [her]660-the child . [She]660-the child recovered [her]660-the child composure marvellously , and answered after a moment ’s reflection , “ [[My]660-the child papa]3931-my papa is [a gentleman]662-a gentleman , and [[Annina]164-annina ’s papa]3933-annina ’s papa was [a common man]3934-a common man — [a mascalzone,”—with]3935-a mascalzone,”—with[660-the child] considerable triumph at [her]660-the child dignified argument . “ [[Your]660-the child papa]3927-your papa is [a gentleman]662-a gentleman , ”[145-hamlin] replied [Hamlin]145-hamlin , sternly ; “ [I]145-hamlin have known [him]3927-your papa long before [you]660-the child were born . But remember , if [you]660-the child say cruel things which hurt [people]577-people ’s feelings , whether [they]577-people be [gentle people]3939-gentle people or [servants]561-servants , however much [[your]660-the child papa]3927-your papa may be [a gentleman]662-a gentleman , [you]660-the child wo n’t be [a lady]3943-a lady . ”[145-hamlin] And [Hamlin]145-hamlin left [the little Perrys]167-the perrys to muse upon this moral truth . [He]145-hamlin felt quite excited ; and when the excitement had subsided , [he]145-hamlin felt quite astonished at [himself]145-hamlin . [He]145-hamlin could scarcely realise that [he]145-hamlin [himself]145-hamlin had actually been meddling in [other people]665-other people ’s affairs , had been reading a lesson to [[other people]665-other people ’s children]667-other people ’s children , all about [a little girl]668-a little girl saying offensive things to [[her]668-a little girl nurse]669-her nurse . It was so strange that it quite humiliated [him]145-hamlin : [he]145-hamlin had first pushed [[his]145-hamlin company]670-his company on to [a nursemaid]616-a nursemaid , and then , unasked , fought [the nursemaid]672-the nursemaid ’s battle . [This confounded Perry household]673-this confounded perry household ! Was it going to turn [him]145-hamlin also into [a ridiculous caricature]674-a ridiculous caricature ? [He]145-hamlin went up‐stairs and wrote some business letters , and corrected a lot of proof of [his]145-hamlin new book . Then [he]145-hamlin thought it would be pleasanter to correct the remainder in [the garden]675-the garden ; so [he]145-hamlin brought down [his]145-hamlin writing‐case , and established [himself]145-hamlin on the grass behind [the house]509-the house . [The first‐floor balcony]677-the first‐floor balcony and the roof projected a deep shade ; and on the high grass flickered shadows of plane‐trees and laurels , as through their branches there flickered the pale‐blue sky . The swifts flew round the eaves with sharp noise , the cicalas sawed in the trees ; all was profoundly peaceable . But suddenly , from the first‐floor windows came a vague sound of childish sobbing , a confused murmur as if of consolation . Then a pause , after which a well‐known voice arose shrill in glib Italian . “ [Annina]164-annina , how dare [you]164-annina distress [the signorina Mildred]3944-the signorina mildred ? How dare [you]164-annina say cruel things to [[my]145-hamlin poor , poor sensitive child]3945-my poor , poor sensitive child ? ”[3950-the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe] “ [I]145-hamlin have said nothing cruel to [the signorina Mildred]165-mildred , ”[3950-the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe] answered a deep , quiet voice ; “ the signorina [Mildred]165-mildred went to show [[her]165-mildred garden]647-her garden to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , and then came back crying . [I]145-hamlin asked [her]165-mildred what had happened , but [she]165-mildred refused to tell [me]145-hamlin . [I]145-hamlin have nothing to do with [her]165-mildred tears . ”[3950-the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe] “ How dare [you]164-annina tell such an untruth ? ”[146-perry] shrieked [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ [The signorina Mildred]165-mildred said something about [[your]164-annina father]3947-your father at breakfast , and [you]164-annina , like [a little viper]3948-a little viper , turned round upon [the poor little darling]3949-the poor little darling . [She]165-mildred is nearly in hysterics ! [You]164-annina little serpent ! ”[146-perry] “ It is one of [Miss Mildred]165-mildred ’s usual lies , ”[3950-the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe] answered [the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe]3950-the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe . ”[3950-the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe] [Hamlin]145-hamlin had been admitted too much into confidence . [He]145-hamlin took up [his]145-hamlin writing things hastily , and removed to the furthest end of [the garden]675-the garden , out of reach of the dispute . This was the pretty result of [his]145-hamlin interference ! [He]145-hamlin had merely got [this poor devil of [a nursemaid]616-a nursemaid]679-this poor devil of a nursemaid into a scrape . It was the fit punishment for [his]145-hamlin folly in going out of [his]145-hamlin way to meddle with [other folk]681-other folk . [He]145-hamlin was very much annoyed ; [he]145-hamlin had been dragged into [a sordid woman]682-a sordid woman ’s squabble ; [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s scolding had seemed addressed to [him]145-hamlin . At the same time , [he]145-hamlin did feel indignant that [the girl]583-the girl should be treated in this fashion : such a splendid , queenly creature slanged by [a sentimental , æsthetic fishwife]684-a sentimental , æsthetic fishwife , as [he]145-hamlin defined [[his]145-hamlin hostess]558-his hostess to [himself]145-hamlin . The return of [Melton Perry]146-perry interrupted [his]145-hamlin reflections . [Perry]146-perry was quite astonished to find [him]145-hamlin up , and extremely distressed at [his]145-hamlin having had no regular breakfast . “ [You]146-perry see , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ [Mrs Perry]146-perry is very delicate — in short , scarcely fit for any kind of household bother,—so that — ”[145-hamlin] “ Oh , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ [I]145-hamlin had a capital breakfast with [[your]146-perry children]3951-your children . ”[145-hamlin] Then [they]686-they fell to talking of old times ; and little by little there emerged from out of [the overworked , henpecked Melton Perry]146-perry of the present , the resemblance of [the proud and brilliant Melton Perry of the past]687-the proud and brilliant melton perry of the past . “ Of course , ”[146-perry] said [Perry]146-perry , as [they]686-they sat smoking in the sheltered studio—“of course [I]688-i ’m very happy , and that sort of thing . [[My]688-i wife]3952-my wife — well , [she]3952-my wife ’s a little impetuous , and [I]688-i do n’t always agree about [her]3952-my wife way of bringing up [the children]3862-the children — but there ’s no saying that [she]3952-my wife is n’t [an immensely superior kind of woman]3954-an immensely superior kind of woman . [I]688-i do n’t always agree with [her]3952-my wife , mind [you]146-perry ; but [she]3952-my wife has the true poetic temperament , and”—here[688-i] [he]688-i made an evident effort—“she keeps [me]688-i up to the mark with [my]688-i work . [I]688-i was always a lazy hound , [you]146-perry know , and all that . In short , [I]688-i know [I]688-i ’m quite [a singularly fortunate man]3955-a singularly fortunate man . [Nevertheless,—well]168-nevertheless,—well , [I]688-i tell [you]146-perry [my]688-i frank opinion about matrimony : never do it ; the odds are too great . [My]688-i own belief is , that , especially for [an artist]3956-an artist , it ’s [a fellow]3957-a fellow ’s ruin . [Mine]688-i , [you]146-perry see , is an exceptional position . But if [you]146-perry take [my]688-i advice , [old man]3958-old man , never marry . ”[688-i] “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t think there is the faintest chance , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [Women]3959-women have got to bore [me]145-hamlin long ago : all that in [my]145-hamlin poems is mere recollections of the past — descriptions of a myself which has long come to an end . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]146-perry ’m glad of it , ”[146-perry] replied [Perry]146-perry . “ It is a foolish thing to get tied to [a woman]3960-a woman . ”[146-perry] “ Foolish indeed ! ”[145-hamlin] thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin , looking from [[his]145-hamlin shabby , depressed old comrade]689-his shabby , depressed old comrade , to the blazing sunsets and green moonlights on the easels about [them]690-them . DURING luncheon , no mention was made of [the nursemaid into whose concerns [Hamlin]145-hamlin had that morning intruded]691-the nursemaid into whose concerns hamlin had that morning intruded ; but at dinner , [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s sense of the question being a sore one , and of being [himself]145-hamlin mixed up in it , gave way before [his]145-hamlin curiosity to solve the riddle of the strange‐type which had taken [him]145-hamlin so by surprise . “ That is [a very strange‐looking girl [you]558-his hostess have in [your]558-his hostess service]3961-a very strange‐looking girl you have in your service , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin remarked to [[his]145-hamlin hostess]558-his hostess , over [their]690-them grapes and thin wine . “ [The cook]3867-the cook ? ”[146-perry] cried [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ Is n’t [she]3867-the cook [a divine creature]3963-a divine creature ? [I]146-perry call [her]3867-the cook [[Monna Lisa]169-monna lisa ’s younger sister]3964-monna lisa ’s younger sister . ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t know [[your]558-his hostess cook]3965-your cook by sight , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin answered . “ [I]146-perry mean [the other young woman [they]690-them call [Annina]164-annina]3966-the other young woman they call annina — ”[146-perry] [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s brow darkened . “ [The nurse]604-the nurse — or governess,—I do n’t know exactly how to describe [her,—of]3968-her,—of [[your]558-his hostess little girls]3969-your little girls . ”[146-perry] “ [[[My]146-perry children]3970-my children ’s maid]3971-my children ’s maid , ”[146-perry] answered [Mrs Perry]146-perry , with considerable emphasis . “ Thank heaven , [[my]146-perry children]3970-my children have never had and shall never have [any other nurse]3973-any other nurse or [any other governess than [[their]3970-my children own mother]3975-their own mother]3974-any other governess than their own mother . ”[146-perry] “ Well , now , [Julia]170-julia , ”[146-perry] remonstrated [[her]146-perry husband]693-her husband , “ [I]146-perry think , [you]170-julia know , that ’s pushing it a little too far . ”[146-perry] “ [[My]146-perry children]3970-my children shall never learn anything from [a menial]3977-a menial , ”[146-perry] insisted [Mrs Perry]146-perry , “ neither to walk bodily , nor morally , nor intellectually , as long as [I]146-perry am alive . ”[146-perry] “ Good heavens ! ”[145-hamlin] thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ what [a bandy‐legged family]3978-a bandy‐legged family [they]3970-my children are likely to turn out ! ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]146-perry suppose [you]146-perry mean [Annie]171-anne , ”[146-perry] said [Perry]146-perry . “ Yes , [she]171-anne ’s [a good girl]3979-a good girl , and [a good‐looking girl]3980-a good‐looking girl . ”[146-perry] “ [You]146-perry are mad , [Melton]146-perry , ”[146-perry] cried [Mrs Perry]146-perry , “ with [your]146-perry idea of goodness and good looks ! ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin think [her]171-anne extraordinarily good‐looking , ”[145-hamlin] put in [Hamlin]145-hamlin , enjoying the authority of [his]145-hamlin own verdict . “ [I]146-perry always told [you]145-hamlin so , ”[146-perry] replied [Perry]146-perry . “ When [I]145-hamlin say good‐looking , ”[145-hamlin] corrected [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t mean it at all in the ordinary sense . There are [dozens of Italian girls]3981-dozens of italian girls five times as pretty as [that girl]3982-that girl , and [I]145-hamlin daresay [most people]3983-most people do n’t think [her]171-anne at all attractive . ”[145-hamlin] “ Yes , ”[146-perry] burst out [Mrs Perry]146-perry , “ [vulgar minds and eyes]3984-vulgar minds and eyes never appreciate the higher beauty . [They]3984-vulgar minds and eyes see only the body . ”[146-perry] “ This is exactly a question of the body , ”[145-hamlin] went on [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [That girl]3982-that girl is one of the most singular types [I]145-hamlin have ever come across . [She]3982-that girl is like [some of [[Michaelangelo]160-michaelangelo ’s women]3987-michaelangelo ’s women]3986-some of michaelangelo ’s women , but [even stranger]3988-even stranger — [a superb creature]3989-a superb creature . ”[145-hamlin] The revelation of [[her]146-perry maid]694-her maid ’s beauty by so great an authority as [Hamlin]145-hamlin quite dazzled and delighted [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ All [[our]3990-our servants]3991-our servants are handsome , ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry said ; “ [the cook]3867-the cook ’s the finest Leonardo da Vinci type — when [you]145-hamlin see [her]3867-the cook [you]145-hamlin will want to do [her]3867-the cook picture , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [Venus Mystica]172-venus mystica , ”[146-perry] and [Mrs Melton Perry]146-perry set [her]146-perry meagre features and wide‐opening mouth into a mystic smile , intimating that [she]146-perry knew a great deal about [Venus Mystica]172-venus mystica , and [[her]146-perry guest]695-her guest doubtless likewise . “ And [the footman]3993-the footman ”[146-perry] . . . [she]146-perry went on . “ Errand‐boy , ”[146-perry] corrected [Mr Perry]152-perry , suddenly , emboldened by [[his]152-perry friend]696-his friend ’s presence . “ [The footman]3993-the footman is quite a type of manly beauty — [a young Hercules,—such a neck and shoulders and arms]3995-a young hercules,—such a neck and shoulders and arms — and a head like a cameo . [I]146-perry always make it a rule to engage only [handsome servants]3996-handsome servants , because it spiritualises the minds of [[our]3997-our children]3998-our children to be brought up constantly surrounded by beautiful human forms . ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin see , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin drily , entirely neglecting [his]145-hamlin opportunity of making the usual reply to this remark — namely , that [the young Perrys]697-the young perrys were so abundantly provided with beautiful human form in [the person of [[their]697-the young perrys mother]699-their mother]698-the person of their mother that any other was superfluous . “ [That girl [you]145-hamlin noticed]3999-that girl you noticed has rather a curious history , ”[152-perry] said [Perry]152-perry . “ Indeed ! ”[152-perry] answered [Hamlin;“she]173-hamlin;“she looks as if [she]3999-that girl you noticed ought to have some sort of tragic past — a kind of Brynhilt or [Amazon]174-amazon . ”[152-perry] “ It ’s tragic enough if [you]145-hamlin like , but it ’s unfortunately not at all poetical , ”[152-perry] replied [Perry]152-perry . “ There is poetry in all suffering , [Melton]152-perry , ”[700-his wife] corrected [[his]152-perry wife]700-his wife gravely . “ Well , [this girl]630-this girl is [the daughter of [a Scotch mechanic]4002-a scotch mechanic]4001-the daughter of a scotch mechanic , [a very clever fellow]4003-a very clever fellow , [I]700-his wife believe , who fell in love with [the Italian maid of [some old friends of [ours]4006-ours]4005-some old friends of ours , and followed [her]630-this girl to [Italy]1-italy]4004-the italian maid of some old friends of ours , and followed her to italy . [He]4002-a scotch mechanic got a very good position in [the docks at [Spezia]14-spezia]4007-the docks at spezia , but then [the other chaps]4008-the other chaps caballed against [him]4002-a scotch mechanic , and made [him]4002-a scotch mechanic lose [his]4002-a scotch mechanic place . [They]4009-they had to live from hand to mouth for a long while , doing odd jobs for [the railway company]4010-the railway company ; [he]4002-a scotch mechanic squandered [his]4002-a scotch mechanic money also on inventions , so , little by little , [he]4002-a scotch mechanic and [[his]4002-a scotch mechanic wife]700-his wife and [children]570-children got into great distress . Then [he]4002-a scotch mechanic took to drinking , [poor devil]4013-poor devil ! ( [I]700-his wife ’m sure [I]700-his wife should have done so long before ;) and one day that [he]4002-a scotch mechanic had again been done out of a place by [some Italian scoundrel]4014-some italian scoundrel , [he]4002-a scotch mechanic tried to throw [[his]4002-a scotch mechanic wife]700-his wife out of the window , and then shot [himself]4002-a scotch mechanic . It was a dreadful business . ”[700-his wife] “ [He]4002-a scotch mechanic was [a great republican]4016-a great republican , [poor dear]4017-poor dear , ”[146-perry] added [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ [I]146-perry ’m [a republican]4018-a republican too , [a socialist]4019-a socialist — quite a dreadful creature , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[146-perry] “ What became of [the wife]4020-the wife and [children]570-children ? ”[145-hamlin] asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [The children]3862-the children had all died by this time , except [Annie]171-anne ; and [the poor wife]4023-the poor wife was quite broken in health . There was [a nephew of [the husband]4025-the husband ’s]4024-a nephew of the husband ’s , [a Scotch lad]4026-a scotch lad , quite [a boy , who was awfully plucky and worked for [them]3862-the children for some time]4027-a boy , who was awfully plucky and worked for them for some time . Then [the widow]4028-the widow died ; and [an old friend of [ours]4030-ours]4029-an old friend of ours , [old Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon , [the famous singer that had been — perhaps [you]4032-you may have heard of [her]175-miss curzon — took [Annie]171-anne into [[her]175-miss curzon house]4033-her house]4031-the famous singer that had been — perhaps you may have heard of her — took annie into her house . ”[145-hamlin] “ [Darling Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon ! ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ [She]175-miss curzon was [the noblest woman that ever lived]4034-the noblest woman that ever lived . How [she]175-miss curzon loved [me]146-perry ! [I]146-perry always say that [I]146-perry lost [my]146-perry voice — [I]146-perry had a lovely voice before [my]146-perry marriage — when [dear darling [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon]4035-dear darling miss curzon died . ”[146-perry] “ [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon was [an excellent old woman]4036-an excellent old woman , ”[146-perry] went on [Perry]146-perry : “ [she]175-miss curzon took [Annie]171-anne when [she]171-anne was eleven , and kept [her]171-anne in [[her]175-miss curzon house]4033-her house and educated [her]171-anne till [her]175-miss curzon own death two years ago ; ”[146-perry] and [Perry]146-perry sighed , as [he]701-he peeled a hard white peach . “ Then [I]146-perry said to [[my]146-perry husband]4038-my husband , ‘ [Perry]146-perry , [this child]4039-this child is a legacy to [us]4040-us from [[our]4040-us dearest friend]4041-our dearest friend , ’ ”[146-perry] went on [Mrs Perry]146-perry , solemnly ; “ ‘ [we]4040-us are not rich , but [Heaven]158-heaven will send [us]4040-us enough for [[our]4040-us children]3998-our children and [this child]4039-this child ; and if it do n’t , why , [we]4040-us must do without . ’ ”[146-perry] “ So [she]4039-this child has been with [you]146-perry ever since ? ”[146-perry] “ Yes , ”[146-perry] answered [Perry]146-perry , sharply ; “ and [I]146-perry should like [her]4039-this child to remain for [the children]3862-the children ’s sake , only that [I]146-perry feel [the girl]583-the girl ought to look out for some better place . ”[146-perry] And [he]702-his turned rather gloomily to [[his]702-his wife]700-his wife . [Mrs Perry]146-perry answered [his]702-his look with one of sweet and ineffable astonishment . [She]146-perry naturally viewed all [her]146-perry property , [servants]561-servants , [children]570-children , [husband]706-husband , & c. , as emanations from [herself]146-perry — that is to say , from perfection , and consequently as more perfect than [other folk]681-other folk ’s property , [servants]561-servants , [children]570-children , [husbands]710-husbands , although occasionally falling short of this ineffable origin ; and [she]146-perry accepted , with alacrity and pleasure , the belief in the transcendent beauty of [the nursemaid whom [she]146-perry had shrieked at only a few hours before]711-the nursemaid whom she had shrieked at only a few hours before . [She]146-perry was quite reconciled to [her]146-perry , evidently . “ And what is [this girl]630-this girl ’s name ? ”[145-hamlin] asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [Anne]171-anne , ”[146-perry] answered [Perry]146-perry — “ [Anne Brown]171-anne . ”[146-perry] THUS it came about that [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin , of [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall , [pre‐Raphaelite poet and painter]712-pre‐raphaelite poet and painter , made acquaintance with [Anne Brown]171-anne , [nurse]713-nurse , or as [Mrs Perry]146-perry defined [it]714-it , [[children]570-children ’s maid at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini]716-children ’s maid at the villa arnolfini . The whole of the two following days , [Hamlin]145-hamlin neither saw nor particularly remembered [the strange girl whose champion [he]145-hamlin had constituted [himself]145-hamlin against [the little Perrys]167-the perrys]717-the strange girl whose champion he had constituted himself against the little perrys . An old chaise , with an older pony , was produced from [the neighbouring farmhouse]718-the neighbouring farmhouse , and [Mr]719-mr and [Mrs Melton Perry]146-perry took it by turns to drive [[their]720-their guest]721-their guest along [the dusty roads]722-the dusty roads to [the old town of [Lucca]9-lucca]723-the old town of lucca , to [various villas]724-various villas , and other sights of [the neighbourhood]725-the neighbourhood . In the evening [Perry]146-perry led [[his]145-hamlin friend]696-his friend out for a stroll among [the vineyards]727-the vineyards and the olives , and across [the low hills covered with bright green pines and dark cypresses]728-the low hills covered with bright green pines and dark cypresses . At the end of the third day , [Hamlin]145-hamlin , while smoking after dinner with [[his]145-hamlin host]729-his host , insinuated to [Perry]146-perry that [he]145-hamlin really thought [he]145-hamlin must be pushing on to [Florence]6-florence . A look of blank terror overspread [poor Perry]146-perry ’s face . “ Nonsense ! ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin cried—“don’t say that ; do n’t leave [me]145-hamlin in the lurch yet . ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]146-perry see , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , hypocritically , “ [I]145-hamlin intend going to [America]7-america ; and [I]145-hamlin really think [I]145-hamlin ought to do a little work before leaving [Italy]1-italy . ”[145-hamlin] “ What sort of work ? ”[145-hamlin] “ Why , [I]145-hamlin suppose — [I]145-hamlin think — [I]145-hamlin ought to take this opportunity of working a little at one of [my]145-hamlin pictures for the next [Grosvenor]176-grosvenor . ”[145-hamlin] “ Which picture ? ”[146-perry] asked [Perry]146-perry , eagerly . “ [I]146-perry really scarcely know . [I]146-perry suppose [I]146-perry ought to be making some studies for [Circe]177-circe and [the child Comus]4047-the child comus . ”[146-perry] “ Child Comus ! ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Perry]146-perry . “ Why , [I]146-perry ’ve the very thing [you]145-hamlin want here at hand . Such a Comus for [you]145-hamlin ! There ’s not a model in all [Florence]6-florence will suit [you]145-hamlin so well ; it ’s [[the farmer]4048-the farmer ’s son]4049-the farmer ’s son . Such legs , and such a chest ! ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t intend doing [him]4049-the farmer ’s son naked , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , whose strong point was not anatomy . “ Naked or not , [he]4049-the farmer ’s son ’s what [you]145-hamlin want . The head , since [you]145-hamlin do n’t care for legs and chest . [You]145-hamlin shall have [him]4049-the farmer ’s son to‐morrow ; and [you]145-hamlin can work much better here than in [that swelter at [Florence]6-florence]4050-that swelter at florence — ”[145-hamlin] “ In short , ”[146-perry] burst out poor [Perry]146-perry , “ do n’t leave [me]146-perry yet , [old fellow]4051-old fellow . [You]145-hamlin do n’t know what it is for [me]146-perry to have [you]145-hamlin [here]3884-here — [I]146-perry feel quite [another man]4053-another man . It seems to [me]146-perry as if [I]146-perry were ten years younger . The fact is , do n’t [you]145-hamlin know , [a man]503-a man ’s never the same when once married ; it ’s a weight round [his]503-a man neck . Do n’t go away yet , [dear old Watty]178-watty , for the sake of auld lang syne . ”[146-perry] [Hamlin]145-hamlin could not help being touched by the way in which [[his]145-hamlin old friend]530-his old friend threw [himself]145-hamlin on [his]145-hamlin compassion . [Poor old Perry]146-perry ! How dreadfully dreary and broken‐spirited [he]145-hamlin must be when all alone with [that awful wife of [his]145-hamlin]731-that awful wife of his ! “ Well , [I]145-hamlin ’m willing enough to stay , if [you]530-his old friend ’ll keep [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ That ’s right ! ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry , squeezing [his]145-hamlin hand . “ Keep [me]146-perry from growing into a turnip for a little longer , for goodness ’ sake . ”[146-perry] So the next morning [the farmer ’s boy]732-the farmer ’s boy was sent for , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin began , in a desultory way , to make some studies for [his]732-the farmer ’s boy picture . The fact was , [he]145-hamlin was so utterly indifferent as to all [his]145-hamlin own movements , that it was an absolute relief to be pinned down to one place by [[his]145-hamlin old friend]530-his old friend . Accordingly [he]145-hamlin unpacked [his]145-hamlin things , and prepared to stay at [the Villa Arnolfini]734-the villa arnolfini until [the Perrys]167-the perrys should [themselves]167-the perrys return to [Florence]6-florence in October . Little by little [he]145-hamlin got to arrange [his]145-hamlin day so as to avoid as far as possible the dreaded tête‐à‐tête with [Mrs Perry]146-perry ; spending the morning lying on the sear grass or the fallen fir‐needles under [Melton Perry]146-perry ’s sketching umbrella ; and locking [himself]145-hamlin up during the afternoon with the pretext of [his]145-hamlin picture . Locking [himself]145-hamlin up , and sometimes unlocking the door and letting [the lank and limp lady]735-the lank and limp lady come and sit in [[his]145-hamlin improvised studio]736-his improvised studio , entertaining [him]145-hamlin with [her]735-the lank and limp lady views on life , poetry , art , love ; and invariably representing [herself]735-the lank and limp lady as [the devoted slave of [a kind of fierce and gloomy lover‐husband of the Othello description]738-a kind of fierce and gloomy lover‐husband of the othello description]737-the devoted slave of a kind of fierce and gloomy lover‐husband of the othello description . During this first week of [his]145-hamlin stay at [the Villa Arnolfini]734-the villa arnolfini , [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not lose sight of [[the Perrys]167-the perrys ’ strange nursemaid]740-the perrys ’ strange nursemaid . [The girl]583-the girl ’s exotic , and , so to speak , tragic style of beauty , had made a great impression upon [him]145-hamlin , but a sort of impression such as only a temper entirely artistic could receive . [He]145-hamlin was interested in [Anne Brown]171-anne , but not in the whole of [Anne Brown]171-anne . [He]145-hamlin wished to see more of [her]583-the girl , but to see more only of [her]583-the girl superb physical appearance , and of that sullen , silent , almost haughty manner which accompanied it . As to anything there might be , intellectual or moral , behind [this beautiful and dramatic creature]742-this beautiful and dramatic creature , [he]145-hamlin did not care in the least , and would much rather have seen nothing of it . So far , [she]583-the girl was striking , admirable , picturesque , consistent ; further details might merely spoil the effect . Hence it was that , although [he]145-hamlin made several sketches of [her]583-the girl head from memory , and although [he]145-hamlin rhymed the first half of a sonnet upon the strange fate which had , to put it in plain prose , given the beauty of an Amazon to [a nursemaid]616-a nursemaid , [he]145-hamlin instinctively abstained from seeking in any way to renew the acquaintance which [he]145-hamlin had made that first morning . [The picturesque and imaginative figure]744-the picturesque and imaginative figure was just in the right light and at the right distance,—a single movement , and all the picturesqueness and strangeness might vanish . [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin had had but too many instances of the melancholy results of trying to approach and become familiar with creatures who had caught [his]145-hamlin æsthetic and poetic fancy . [He]145-hamlin often saw [her]583-the girl hurrying ( if [she]583-the girl might ever be said to hurry , for there was something wonderfully measured about [her]583-the girl ) to and fro , filling up , it would seem , the gaps in [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s rather theoretical housekeeping ; and sometimes , passing through the ground‐floor passage , [he]145-hamlin would also see [her]583-the girl ironing , like that first time , or laboriously presiding over [the little Perrys]645-the little perrys ’ lessons ; for it appeared that [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s intellectual guidance of [[her]146-perry children]746-her children consisted in telling [them]746-her children the plots of novels and repeating choice poetry , leaving such mechanical matters as reading and writing to what [she]146-perry called [a menial]3977-a menial . And even more frequently [Hamlin]145-hamlin would meet [her]146-perry taking [the children]3862-the children for a walk , or sitting in [the vineyard]646-the vineyard sewing or reading , while [they]3862-the children built [houses]750-houses of leaves and sticks , and cooked dinners of maize‐grains and unripe figs . [Hamlin]145-hamlin scarcely ever spoke to [her]583-the girl ; and if [the children]3862-the children forced [him]145-hamlin to remain and examine [[their]3862-the children houses]752-their houses or [their]3862-the children dinners , [he]145-hamlin would watch [the girl]583-the girl , but without the slightest desire of entering into conversation . [He]145-hamlin wished to know only as much as [he]145-hamlin could see of [her]583-the girl . But this much which [he]145-hamlin saw inspired [him]145-hamlin with a kind of respect,—a respect not for [Anne Brown]171-anne , [nursemaid]754-nursemaid or nursery‐governess of [Mrs Melton Perry]146-perry , but respect for [a beautiful and solemn kind of Valkyr or Amazon]755-a beautiful and solemn kind of valkyr or amazon ; for there is no doubt that to certain temperaments not given to respect for social distinctions or religious institutions , or even the kind of moral characteristics held to be worthy of respect by [ordinary folk]756-ordinary folk , there is something actually venerable in some kinds of beauty : [the man]757-the man respects [the unknown woman]758-the unknown woman as [a goddess]759-a goddess , and respects [himself]757-the man for having discovered [her]758-the unknown woman divinity . So that , habitually and instinctively , [Hamlin]145-hamlin displayed towards [the young woman]586-the young woman a degree of courtesy which astonished the little Perrys , who had seen [young men]761-young men flirt with [various of [[their]761-young men mother]699-their mother ’s carefully selected beautiful servants]762-various of their mother ’s carefully selected beautiful servants , but never treat [them]761-young men , as [Miss Mildred]165-mildred expressed it , as if [they]761-young men were funerals passing . All of which distant respect [Anne Brown]171-anne received coldly , as if it were a matter of course ; showing astonishment only on one occasion , when [Hamlin]145-hamlin answered , being requested to lift [little Winnie]157-winnie into the branches of [an olive‐tree—“You]4055-an olive‐tree—“you must first ask permission of [Miss Brown]171-anne . ”[583-the girl] [The girl]583-the girl looked up from [her]583-the girl work , and fixed [her]583-the girl great greyish‐blue eyes upon [him]145-hamlin in wonder . [No one]3899-no one had ever called [her]583-the girl [Miss Brown]171-anne before . Thus things might have continued , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin have left [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini with only a few lines of a sonnet on the fly‐leaf of [his]145-hamlin ‘ Vita Nuova’—a few scratched‐out sketches of a face with strange , curling full lips , and masses of wiry hair , in [his]145-hamlin sketchbook — and a daily fainter remembrance of [[Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s nurse]766-mrs perry ’s nurse ; when one day [he]145-hamlin took it into [his]145-hamlin head to construct a kind of medieval costume for [[his]145-hamlin peasant‐boy model]767-his peasant‐boy model , and accordingly went to [Mrs Perry]146-perry for assistance in sewing together the various shreds of old brocade and satin which [he]145-hamlin had bought at [Lucca]9-lucca , the various bits of weather‐stained cotton which [he]145-hamlin had obtained by barter from [the peasants]768-the peasants . [Mrs Perry]146-perry , lying languidly on a sofa in [her]146-perry dusty boudoir , littered over with books and reviews , afforded [him]145-hamlin a variety of valuable pieces of information upon harmonies of colours and the magic of folds ; but when it came to practical tailoring , [she]146-perry smiled with reproachful gentleness , and , clapping [her]146-perry hands , called out for [Annie]171-anne . [Annie]171-anne — that is to say , [Anne Brown]171-anne — emerged from [an adjacent room]769-an adjacent room , silent and sullen as usual ; but when [she]171-anne understood that the job was for [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [she]171-anne seemed suddenly to develop a certain interest in it . The pieces of stuff were spread out on the drawing‐room table , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin proceeded to explain what manner of garment [he]145-hamlin wanted , [Mrs Perry]146-perry joining in from [the next room]3870-the next room with various bewildering instructions . [The girl]583-the girl immediately understood ; but the piece of work was complicated and tiresome . The stuff had several times to be sewn together , tried on to the live model , and then taken down‐stairs to be altered . “ Wo n’t [you]583-the girl sit down and do it here , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin at length suggested . [The girl]583-the girl hesitated for a moment , and then settled [herself]583-the girl to sew at the table of [the empty drawing‐room]773-the empty drawing‐room . [Hamlin]145-hamlin went into [the studio next door]774-the studio next door , and tried to draw a little ; but [he]145-hamlin felt [himself]145-hamlin attracted to go and watch [the girl]583-the girl as [she]583-the girl leaned over the table , or sat with [her]583-the girl beautiful head bending over [her]583-the girl sewing . Every now and then [she]583-the girl looked up to ask [him]145-hamlin some question : a regal , tragic , out‐of‐our‐world , almost weird face , the contrast of which with [her]583-the girl prosiac questions about seams and tucks was almost comic . [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked at [her]583-the girl as [he]145-hamlin might have looked at [a beautiful cathedral front]776-a beautiful cathedral front ; and [he]145-hamlin began to feel that kind of anticipated regret at the thought of losing sight of something beautiful and rare , that almost painful desire to keep at least some durable likeness of it , which , in former years , had often tormented [him]145-hamlin in the midst of the enjoyment of lovely things . [He]145-hamlin did not see [his]145-hamlin way to introducing [Anne Brown]171-anne into any picture ; nay , [he]145-hamlin perhaps did not even think of [his]145-hamlin work ; but [he]145-hamlin determined that [he]145-hamlin must have a likeness of [her]583-the girl to take away with [him]145-hamlin . Accordingly , that same evening , as [he]145-hamlin was seated with [the Perrys]167-the perrys in front of [the villa]777-the villa , watching the stars gradually lighting themselves in the bright metallic blue sky , [Hamlin]145-hamlin suddenly turned to [[his]145-hamlin hostess]558-his hostess , and asked [her]558-his hostess whether [she]558-his hostess thought it would be possible for [him]145-hamlin to make a sketch of [Anne Brown]171-anne . “ [I]145-hamlin may want [her]583-the girl for a picture some day , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin added , half hypocritically . [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s enthusiasm was immediately kindled . “ Oh ! ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry exclaimed , “ paint a picture of [her]583-the girl as [the Witch of [Atlas]17-atlas]4056-the witch of atlas , with a red cloak and red roses all about [her]583-the girl , and a background of cactuses and aloes all twisting and writhing , and looking as if they gibbered . Do paint [her]583-the girl like that , dear [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin — and [Mildred]165-mildred and [Winnie]157-winnie will do for attendant spirits . Begin to‐morrow — [you]145-hamlin shall have [her]583-the girl to sit to [you]145-hamlin all day ; and [she]583-the girl has such lovely arms and shoulders , [you]145-hamlin must paint [her]583-the girl in some kind of dress that will show them . ”[146-perry] “ [I]146-perry think it ’s rather cool of [you]145-hamlin to promise [Annie]171-anne as [a sitter]4057-a sitter in that way , ”[146-perry] put in [Melton]146-perry Perry—“especially with so few clothes on , [Julia]170-julia . ”[146-perry] “ Why not ? ”[146-perry] asked [Mrs Perry]146-perry , in astonishment . “ If [she]583-the girl is beautiful [she]583-the girl must be painted . [She]583-the girl shall begin sitting to‐morrow morning . ”[146-perry] “ [She]583-the girl sha n’t do anything of the kind ! ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Perry]146-perry , suddenly . “ [I]146-perry do n’t see at all what right [we]4058-we have to dispose of [her]583-the girl . [We]4058-we pay [her]583-the girl wages as [a servant for [[our]4058-we children]3998-our children , not as a model for [[our]4058-we visitors]4061-our visitors]4059-a servant for our children , not as a model for our visitors . ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin never dreamed of [Miss Brown]171-anne being in any way compelled to sit , ”[145-hamlin] remonstrated [Hamlin]145-hamlin , rather indignantly . “ [I]145-hamlin only wanted [your]145-hamlin assistance in asking whether [she]583-the girl would . ”[145-hamlin] “ Of course [she]583-the girl will , ”[146-perry] insisted [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ Why , [I]146-perry wonder what great hardship there is in sitting for [one]620-one ’s likeness ? Have n’t [I]146-perry done it hundreds of times ? When [a woman]3960-a woman is beautiful , it ’s [her]3960-a woman duty ; that ’s what [I]146-perry was always told . ”[146-perry] “ It may be the duty of [a lady]3943-a lady , [Julia]170-julia , ”[152-perry] answered [Mr Perry]152-perry , gloomily , “ and it may be [yours]170-julia ; but it is n’t the duty of [a servant girl]597-a servant girl — the difference lies in that . ”[152-perry] “ Well , ”[146-perry] retorted [Mrs Perry]146-perry , angrily , “ [I]146-perry think [you]145-hamlin do n’t show much appreciation of the honour of having [one of the greatest of living painters in [[our]4067-our house]4068-our house]4066-one of the greatest of living painters in our house , [Perry]146-perry . [I]146-perry do , and [I]146-perry shall see to [his]4066-one of the greatest of living painters in our house having the proper model . ”[146-perry] “ Please , [I]145-hamlin entreat [you]146-perry , dear [Mrs Perry]146-perry , ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ do let the matter go — it really is of no consequence ; and , indeed , it would be in the last degree distasteful to [me]145-hamlin to have [an unwilling sitter]4069-an unwilling sitter . ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]145-hamlin shall have [a willing one]4070-a willing one , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ; ”[146-perry] and [Mrs Perry]146-perry walked off with dignity . [Melton Perry]146-perry suddenly shook off [his]779-i languor , and started after [[his]779-i wife]700-his wife . “ [Julia]170-julia , ”[779-i] [he]779-i cried , “ do leave it to [me]779-i — [I’ll]779-i speak to [Annie]171-anne — only do leave it to [me]779-i . ”[779-i] “ [I]700-his wife see no reason for this , ”[700-his wife] [she]700-his wife answered . “ Then [I]146-perry shall speak to [Annie]171-anne at once , ”[146-perry] replied [Perry]146-perry . “ There ’s been far too much of this turning of [servants]561-servants into [models]4072-models in [this house]4073-this house , ”[779-i] [he]779-i said , turning to [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [Mrs Perry]146-perry ca n’t be got to see that it is n’t at all the right sort of thing . [I]779-i do n’t mind so much with the others , for [I]779-i suppose [they]561-servants ’re a parcel of sluts ; but [Annie]171-anne is another matter . [I]779-i do n’t mind it ’s being [you]146-perry , [you]146-perry know , [old fellow]4051-old fellow ; but [I]779-i object to the principle . [Annie]171-anne ! [Annie]171-anne ! [I]779-i want to speak to [you]146-perry a moment , ”[779-i] and [Mr Perry]152-perry went into [the house]509-the house . After a moment [he]779-i returned . “ [I]779-i ’ve spoken to [her]171-anne , [Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[779-i] [he]779-i said . “ [I]779-i told [her]171-anne that [she]171-anne was just what [you]146-perry wanted for [the Lady Guenevere]4075-the lady guenevere or [the Lady of [the Lake]18-the lake]4076-the lady of the lake , or [some lady or other]4077-some lady or other — all a lie ; but [you]146-perry see [I]779-i did n’t wish [her]171-anne to know it was merely because [she]171-anne ’s handsome . [I]779-i told [her]171-anne [she]171-anne was like a portrait of [one of [these persons]4079-these persons]4078-one of these persons . Please do n’t tell [her]171-anne [she]171-anne ’s not . [I]779-i really expected [she]171-anne ’d refuse ; and [I]779-i said to [her]171-anne , ‘ [Annie]171-anne , mind [you]171-anne do n’t let [the mistress]4080-the mistress force [you]171-anne into sitting ; do n’t do it to please [anybody]4081-anybody . ’ [I]779-i ’m really quite surprised , for [she]171-anne ’s such [a very reserved girl]4082-a very reserved girl always ; but then [she]171-anne is [an obliging creature]4083-an obliging creature too , and [I]779-i think [she]171-anne ’ll do more to please [me]779-i than perhaps [[my]779-i wife]3952-my wife , because [I]779-i always let [her]171-anne understand that this is n’t a good place at all , and that [she]171-anne ought to try for another . Well , [she]171-anne says [she]171-anne ’ll sit ; but not till after the ironing is done in the morning . [I]779-i proposed half‐past nine — will that do ? ”[779-i] “ Thank [you]152-perry , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , putting [his]145-hamlin hand on [Perry]152-perry ’s shoulder ; “ [you]152-perry ’re [a good old creature]4085-a good old creature , [Perry]152-perry . ”[145-hamlin] [HAMLIN]145-hamlin did not succeed in doing much that first sitting . [He]145-hamlin had thought that [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s head would be an easy one to sketch ; but it proved just the reverse . Those salient and outlandish features , which [he]145-hamlin had thought [he]145-hamlin could catch in half an hour , were turned into caricature by the slightest exaggeration , and exaggeration was almost inevitable . [He]145-hamlin made several beginnings , and scratched them all out ; and at the end of a couple of hours [he]145-hamlin felt that [he]145-hamlin positively could not go on ; [he]145-hamlin had become quite fidgety over [his]145-hamlin work . “ [I]145-hamlin have bungled everything , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said at last , rising , “ and kept [you]783-such a model here for nothing , [Miss Brown]171-anne . The fact is , that [you]783-such a model are far more difficult to draw than [I]145-hamlin expected . ”[145-hamlin] [He]145-hamlin felt very humiliated at having , as it were , to confess [himself]145-hamlin [a bad artist]782-a bad artist before [such a model]783-such a model . “ Try again , ”[152-perry] suggested [Perry]152-perry . “ [I]152-perry daresay [Annie]171-anne will sit for [you]145-hamlin again — won’t [you]145-hamlin , [Annie]171-anne ? ”[152-perry] “ If [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin wishes [me]583-the girl to sit , certainly , ”[583-the girl] answered [the girl]583-the girl simply . “ [She]171-anne is confoundedly difficult to draw , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , when [she]583-the girl had turned [her]583-the girl back . “ [She]171-anne ’s difficult because [she]171-anne ’s a kind of mystery , ”[152-perry] explained [Perry]152-perry . “ [I]152-perry ’ve felt it ever since [we]4086-we have had [her]171-anne . [One]620-one thinks there must be something behind that face , and yet it seems to be a mere blank . [My]152-perry belief is , that [people of this condition of life]4088-people of this condition of life often have very little character — at least [none in particular developed]4089-none in particular developed . Because , after all , it ’s talking and jawing about things which do n’t matter a pin that develops [our]4086-we character . [The people who have no opportunity for that remain quite without character]4090-the people who have no opportunity for that remain quite without character , until some day [they]4090-the people who have no opportunity for that remain quite without character are forced to choose whether [they]4090-the people who have no opportunity for that remain quite without character ’ll be self‐sacrificing creatures or mean pigs . ”[152-perry] “ There ’s something in that , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , tearing up [his]145-hamlin abortive sketches in a huff ; “ but it is hard that [a man]503-a man should be unable to copy the shape of a handsome face as [he]503-a man would copy the shape of a handsome vase , without wondering what there may be inside . ”[145-hamlin] The fact was , that the utter silence of [[his]145-hamlin model]785-his model , and [his]145-hamlin own utter silence , except when begging [her]785-his model to turn a little more in this direction or that , made [Hamlin]145-hamlin nervous . [He]145-hamlin had , of course , sketched and painted [scores of people who had sat as utterly silent as [Anne Brown]171-anne]786-scores of people who had sat as utterly silent as anne brown , but then [Anne Brown]171-anne was not [a model of that kind]787-a model of that kind . Indifferent as [he]145-hamlin felt towards the hidden reality of [this girl]630-this girl , [he]145-hamlin was , nevertheless , fully conscious that [she]630-this girl was a personality , something much more than a mere form ; or rather , the form itself was suggestive of something more . It would be an easy thing to have to sketch [Michaelangelo]160-michaelangelo ’s Dawn , or [his]160-michaelangelo [Delphic Sibyl]179-delphic sibyl become living flesh , in utter silence with those eyes fixed upon one . If only [he]145-hamlin could speak to [her]630-this girl , or make [her]630-this girl speak , [he]145-hamlin was persuaded it would be much easier ; but for some unaccountable reason it seemed impossible to set up a conversation . One morning accident came to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s assistance . Strolling about after breakfast , [he]145-hamlin found in [a corner of [the vineyard]646-the vineyard]789-a corner of the vineyard , where the trampled grass revealed the recent presence of [the little Perrys]167-the perrys , a couple of books carefully buried under a heap of dead leaves just where [he]145-hamlin chanced to walk . [The children]3862-the children had evidently hidden them out of mischief . One was a cheap copy of [Dante]180-dante , with notes — the other an Italian grammar . Turning to the fly‐leaf [he]145-hamlin found , written in a curious hand , a stiff imitation of [English tradesmen]792-english tradesmen ’s writing , the name “ [Anne Brown]171-anne . ”[145-hamlin] [He]145-hamlin wiped the books , for they were wet with dew , and deposited them upon the window‐sill of [the nursery]793-the nursery . At half‐past nine [the girl]583-the girl came to [the studio]795-the studio . [She]583-the girl had been sitting a little while , when [Hamlin]145-hamlin , bending over [his]145-hamlin work , suddenly broke the silence — “ [I]145-hamlin find [we]4092-we have [a common friend]4093-a common friend , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said . [The girl]583-the girl , without stirring , opened [her]583-the girl large eyes . “ [A common friend]4093-a common friend ? ”[583-the girl] [she]583-the girl asked , with a scarcely perceptible agitation in [her]583-the girl quiet manner ; then added , “ [I]583-the girl suppose [you]145-hamlin mean [Mr Perry]152-perry ; [I]583-the girl have n’t many [friends]4095-friends now anywhere . ”[583-the girl] “ Oh ! this is the friend of [a great many people]4096-a great many people — [thousands]4097-thousands — besides [ourselves]4092-we , so [you]145-hamlin need not feel jealous ; [his]152-perry name is [Dante]180-dante . ”[583-the girl] “ Indeed ! ”[171-anne] answered [Anne Brown]171-anne , and relapsed into silence . But silence did not suit [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [I]145-hamlin found two books belonging to [you]171-anne in [the vineyard]646-the vineyard early this morning , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin continued ; “ and [I]145-hamlin put them on the nursery window‐sill . ”[145-hamlin] “ Thank [you]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] replied [Miss Brown]171-anne , in [her]171-anne taciturn manner ; “ [I]171-anne missed them last night . ”[171-anne] “ [I]145-hamlin was indiscreet enough to wonder whether [you]171-anne and [I]145-hamlin cared for the same things in [Dante]180-dante , ”[145-hamlin] pursued [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “ so [I]145-hamlin ventured to open the book . [I]145-hamlin found [you]171-anne had marked the passage about [Provenzano]181-provenzano . ”[145-hamlin] “ Yes , ”[171-anne] said [Miss Brown]171-anne . “ How is it that [you]145-hamlin marked [Provenzano]181-provenzano , and did not mark [Ugolino]182-ugolino , [I]171-anne wonder ? ”[171-anne] “ [I]171-anne do n’t care about [Ugolino]182-ugolino . [He]182-ugolino was [a traitor]4099-a traitor . ”[171-anne] “ Do [you]171-anne consider that [traitors]4100-traitors ought to be starved to death ? ”[145-hamlin] asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with a smile . “ [I]171-anne do n’t think [any one]4101-any one ought to be starved to death , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered very seriously ; “ it is too dreadful . But [I]171-anne do n’t care about [Ugolino]182-ugolino , because [he]182-ugolino was [a traitor]4099-a traitor ; and [the Archbishop]4103-the archbishop was [a traitor]4099-a traitor too . There is [no one]3899-no one to be glad or sorry about . ”[171-anne] “ And [Francesca da Rimini]183-francesca da rimini ? Do [you]171-anne find there is nothing to care for or be sorry about in [her]183-francesca da rimini ? ”[171-anne] A faint redness welled up under the uniform brown pallor of [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s face . “ [The husband]4025-the husband was quite right , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , after a pause . “ [You]171-anne are very severe , ”[171-anne] remarked [Hamlin—“much]184-hamlin—“much more severe than [Dante]180-dante . [He]4025-the husband was sorry for [them]4107-they . ”[171-anne] “ [They]4107-they were quite happy , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered . “ [They]4107-they did not mind being killed ; [they]4107-they did not mind being driven about in the wind , of course”—then[171-anne] [she]171-anne stopped short suddenly . “ Why of course ? ”[171-anne] and [Hamlin]145-hamlin went on scraping at [his]145-hamlin pencil . “ Because [I]171-anne do n’t think [one]620-one would mind , if [people]577-people cared for one , being driven about in the wind like that . Lots of [people]577-people have been driven about in revolutions , and put into [dungeons]4111-dungeons together , and so on . If [they]4107-they had put [papa]185-papa in [prison]4112-prison , [I]171-anne should have wanted to go in with [him,”—for]4113-him,”—for[171-anne] once [she]171-anne spoke with a certain amount of vehemence . [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked up from [his]145-hamlin pencil‐cutting . The expression which [he]145-hamlin suddenly met in [her]171-anne face made [him]145-hamlin feel that at last [he]145-hamlin had what [he]145-hamlin wanted . It was a curious mixture , possible only in those strange features , of a kind of passionate effort with dogged determination : the head a little lifted , cheeks and lips firmly set ; but in the eyes , and even in the curl of the close‐set lips , a sort of strain , as of [a person trying to inhale a larger amount of air , or to take in a larger sight]797-a person trying to inhale a larger amount of air , or to take in a larger sight . In a second it was gone . “ That is what [I]145-hamlin want ! ”[145-hamlin] thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “ [the Amazon]4114-the amazon or [Valkyr]186-valkyr — as [I]145-hamlin thought . ”[145-hamlin] “ Tell [me]145-hamlin why [you]171-anne care for [Provenzano]181-provenzano , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin went on , now much more interested in [his]145-hamlin work again . “ Because [he]181-provenzano was so proud , and did not like to do humble things , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered ; “ and yet [he]181-provenzano begged in [the streets]4115-the streets for a ransom for [[his]181-provenzano friend]696-his friend . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne showed no desire to say more , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin was now engrossed in [his]145-hamlin work . [They]798-they exchanged but a few trivial remarks during the rest of the sitting . [The girl]583-the girl seemed to have contracted a habit of silence , to break through which required a positive effort . When the sitting had come to an end , [Hamlin]145-hamlin asked whether [she]171-anne could possibly give [him]145-hamlin another . [She]171-anne hesitated . “ If [Mrs Perry]146-perry wishes it , of course , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered . “ Excuse [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] corrected [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s consent may be necessary for [you]171-anne ; but for [me]145-hamlin , the sitting depends upon [your]171-anne wishes , [Miss Brown]171-anne . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]171-anne do n’t care one way or another , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered hurriedly . [Mrs Perry]146-perry of course gave [her]146-perry consent . [She]146-perry had carefully collected and pieced the scattered remnants of yesterday ’s abortive sketches , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin found [her]146-perry pasting them on to cardboard . “ Do let [me]146-perry keep them , [dear]4117-dear [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[146-perry] cried [Mrs Perry]146-perry ; “ they are the most precious things [I]146-perry possess . ”[146-perry] “ They are horrible rubbish ; ”[145-hamlin] and [Hamlin]145-hamlin rudely tore them to shreds . “ If [you]171-anne want something of [mine]145-hamlin , [I]145-hamlin will make [you]171-anne a sketch of little [Winnie]157-winnie — only please do n’t keep these fearful things . ”[145-hamlin] “ Thank [you]145-hamlin , thank [you]145-hamlin so much ! ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne exclaimed—“but oh , may n’t [I]145-hamlin keep this ? it is such a lovely head ! ”[145-hamlin] “ It ’s the head of [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin answered angrily . “ [You]171-anne do n’t care for it much on [her]171-anne shoulders,—why should [you]171-anne care for it on [my]145-hamlin paper — an abominable caricature ? Really , [I]145-hamlin must be permitted to tear it up”—and[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin tore it into a heap of little pieces . The next day but one [he]145-hamlin had another sitting from [Anne Brown]171-anne ; and [he]145-hamlin was so pleased with [his]145-hamlin drawing , that [he]145-hamlin begged for permission to finish it in colours . During these additional sittings there was not much conversation . The Dante topic was perfectly worn to shreds , till at last it seemed as if it could be made to go no further . In despair , [Hamlin]145-hamlin remembered the Italian grammar which [he]145-hamlin had picked up together with the Dante . “ What do [you]171-anne want with an Italian grammer ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked . “ [You]171-anne surely do n’t require to study it [yourself]171-anne , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]171-anne want to teach some day , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered . “ Do [you]145-hamlin mean to teach [the Perry children]4118-the perry children ? ”[171-anne] “ Oh no — to teach , to be [a daily governess]4119-a daily governess , what [we]4120-we call a parlatrice here . It is not difficult . The lessons are all conversation . [Many English ladies]4121-many english ladies want those sort of lessons . [I]145-hamlin know [a girl]4122-a girl , [the daughter of [[Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s dressmaker]4124-mrs perry ’s dressmaker , who gives ten lessons every day , and and gets two francs a lesson]4123-the daughter of mrs perry ’s dressmaker , who gives ten lessons every day , and and gets two francs a lesson . ”[145-hamlin] “ Ten lessons a‐day ! But that ’s fearful . What awful slavery ! Surely [you]145-hamlin do n’t want to do that ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]171-anne wish [I]171-anne could . [I]171-anne should be so happy . ”[171-anne] “ Then [you]145-hamlin want to leave [the Perrys]167-the perrys ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]145-hamlin want to give up being [a servant]4125-a servant . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin paused , and looked at [this superb and regal creature]800-this superb and regal creature . [He]145-hamlin did not know what to say . “ [You]800-this superb and regal creature do n’t care for [children]570-children ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked at random . “ [I]800-this superb and regal creature do n’t know . [I]800-this superb and regal creature do n’t care for [these children]4127-these children , ”[800-this superb and regal creature] [she]800-this superb and regal creature answered bluntly . “ [I]800-this superb and regal creature thought [women]3959-women always liked [children]570-children . ”[800-this superb and regal creature] [She]800-this superb and regal creature smiled bitterly . “ Oh , ”[800-this superb and regal creature] [she]800-this superb and regal creature said , “ [children]570-children are worse sometimes than [grown people]4131-grown people ; and then one ca n’t resent it , or answer bad words , or strike them , just because [they]570-children are [children]570-children . ”[800-this superb and regal creature] “ Then [you]800-this superb and regal creature think [you]800-this superb and regal creature would prefer being [a teacher of Italian]4133-a teacher of italian ? ”[145-hamlin] “ Oh yes , [I]145-hamlin must become that some day ; [I]145-hamlin study when [I]145-hamlin have a little time . [A teacher]4134-a teacher talks with [ladies]4135-ladies , and talks about all sorts of things . ”[145-hamlin] “ How do [you]800-this superb and regal creature mean — about all sorts of things ? ”[800-this superb and regal creature] “ About things — which are not things to eat , or mend , or clean,—about books , and places , and [people]577-people . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin could not help smiling . “ Is that such a rare pleasure ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked , thinking not of [the girl with whom [he]145-hamlin was talking , but of those weary æsthetic discussions which [he]145-hamlin had left behind [him]145-hamlin in [London]4-london]801-the girl with whom he was talking , but of those weary æsthetic discussions which he had left behind him in london . “ [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon used to talk about books to [me]583-the girl — and about music , sometimes , ”[583-the girl] said [the girl]583-the girl . “ [She]175-miss curzon made [me]583-the girl read Shakespeare with [her]175-miss curzon . That is long , long ago . ”[583-the girl] “ And since then . Do [you]800-this superb and regal creature never talk about such things ? ”[583-the girl] “ Never . ”[583-the girl] “ Never ? ”[583-the girl] [Anne Brown]171-anne raised [her]171-anne eyes quietly . “ Never , except with [you]145-hamlin , [sir]3865-sir . ”[171-anne] [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not answer . Towards the end of the sitting , [he]145-hamlin suddenly looked up . “ Have [you]171-anne ever read the ‘ Vita Nuova , ’ [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked . “ What ’s the ‘ Vita Nuova ’ ? ”[145-hamlin] “ It is a little book by [Dante]180-dante , in prose and verse , telling how [he]180-dante met [Beatrice]187-beatrice , and then how [she]187-beatrice died . It is much more beautiful than the ‘ Divina Commedia . ’ ”[583-the girl] [She]583-the girl looked incredulous . “ Is it more beautiful than [Bertran del Bornio]188-bertran del bornio , where [he]180-dante carried [his]180-dante head like a lantern ? Or [Bocca degli Abati]21-bocca degli abati , where [they]4138-they all change into snakes ? Or [Cacciaguida]22-cacciaguida when [he]180-dante prophesies about [Dante]180-dante ’s exile ? ”[583-the girl] “ It is quite different — all about beautiful things , and love . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t care for that . ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]145-hamlin must read it some day , though . ”[171-anne] [Miss Brown]171-anne was silent , and relapsed into [her]171-anne usual sullen appearance . “ [I]146-perry say , [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [old fellow]4051-old fellow , ”[146-perry] said [Perry]146-perry , as [they]803-they walked up and down in [the garden]675-the garden that evening , “ do [you]145-hamlin care to see the festival at [Lucca to‐morrow]9-lucca ? [I]146-perry ’m going to take [the children]3862-the children in for a treat , and [I]146-perry shall take [Annie]171-anne too — for [she]171-anne never gets any amusement , [poor girl]4141-poor girl . [I]146-perry ’ve hired a waggonette — will [you]145-hamlin be of the party ? ”[146-perry] “ Will [you]146-perry let [me]145-hamlin think about it , [Perry]146-perry ? [I]145-hamlin do n’t much go in for festivals . ”[145-hamlin] “ This is a picturesque affair — really worth seeing . ”[146-perry] “ By the way , ”[145-hamlin] asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ [I]145-hamlin have nearly finished [my]145-hamlin sketch of [Miss Brown]171-anne , and [I]145-hamlin should like — [I]145-hamlin suppose [I]145-hamlin ought — to make [her]171-anne some little present . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]146-perry would n’t , ”[146-perry] answered [Melton Perry]146-perry sharply ; “ [she]171-anne ’s [an odd girl]4142-an odd girl , and [you]146-perry might just hurt [her]171-anne feelings . [You]146-perry see [[her]171-anne father]4143-her father was [a republican]4018-a republican , and that sort of thing , so [she]171-anne ’s got all sorts of notions about equality and so forth . Awful bosh , of course , but still [I]146-perry think it ’s as well [she]171-anne should have them as not . ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin did n’t mean any money , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , feeling [himself]145-hamlin grow red at the mere thought . “ Then , if [you]146-perry will run the risk , give [her]171-anne some school‐books . [You]146-perry know [she]171-anne wants to set up as [a teacher]4134-a teacher . Grammars — that sort of thing . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin made a gesture of disgust . “ Horrible!—to give [her]171-anne grammars ! ”[145-hamlin] “ It ’s what [she]171-anne wants . ”[145-hamlin] “ Why , it would seem — well — it would be like encouraging [her]171-anne to become [a daily governess]4119-a daily governess . ”[145-hamlin] “ That ’s just what [I]145-hamlin wish to do . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not answer . The idea of [Anne Brown]171-anne giving lessons at two francs the hour jarred upon [him]145-hamlin . EARLY the following morning [Hamlin]145-hamlin was awakened by the wheels of the waggonette and the bells of the horses . Then came the excited voices of [children]570-children ; the sound of slammed doors and precipitate steps on the stairs ; and finally the rattle and jingle of departure . [He]145-hamlin had declined being one of the boisterous expedition to [Lucca]9-lucca , for [he]145-hamlin detested [children]570-children in general , and [the little Perrys]167-the perrys in particular ; and a day in [the empty house]807-the empty house ( for [Mrs Perry]146-perry was going to see [some friends at [a neighbouring villa]809-a neighbouring villa]808-some friends at a neighbouring villa ) had seemed to [him]145-hamlin delightful . [He]145-hamlin opened [his]145-hamlin shutters and saw , in the crisp pale‐blue morning , [the carriage]810-the carriage sweeping round the corner of [a narrow lane]811-a narrow lane , [the children]3862-the children ’s hats , [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s red shawl , [the coachman]813-the coachman ’s grey coat , brush rapidly along a tall box hedge . If there was a thing [Hamlin]145-hamlin hated more than another , it was a holiday , [a crowd]814-a crowd , a lot of [people on a jaunt]815-people on a jaunt . After breakfast [he]145-hamlin went to [the studio]795-the studio and sat down before [his]145-hamlin sketches of [Miss Brown]171-anne . They were unsatisfactory , but they were as good as [he]145-hamlin could hope to make them . [He]145-hamlin had fancied that a coloured sketch of [her]171-anne head would be all that [he]145-hamlin could possibly want ; but [he]145-hamlin now recognised that , after all , the head , beautiful and singular as it was , was yet the least part of the matter . It was [the girl]583-the girl ’s gait , [her]171-anne way of carrying [her]171-anne head and neck , [her]171-anne movements when at work , [her]171-anne postures when in repose — a number of things of which that head gave no indication , and which , indeed , it was difficult to render in painting , since it was all movement . [He]145-hamlin had scribbled a few lines — just fragmentary metaphors and scraps of description — suggested to [him]145-hamlin by [Anne Brown]171-anne , and wondered what use [he]145-hamlin would make of them ; indeed , what use [he]145-hamlin could make of [Anne Brown]171-anne altogether . Here was [a splendid model]818-a splendid model , [a splendid heroine]819-a splendid heroine , but [he]145-hamlin was in the mood neither for painting nor for poetry writing . [He]145-hamlin put a background of dark bay trees to one of [his]145-hamlin sketches , and then regretted having put it in at all . [He]145-hamlin no longer felt inclined to work ; and , all of a sudden , an unaccountable fancy struck [him]145-hamlin to follow [the holiday‐makers]820-the holiday‐makers — to go quietly into [town]821-town — to see [them]820-the holiday‐makers , without , perhaps , letting [himself]145-hamlin be seen . The sun was already high as [he]145-hamlin walked , or rather waded , along [the dusty road]822-the dusty road , with [its]822-the dusty road garlands of dust‐engrained vines hanging from tree to tree on either side ; [its]822-the dusty road dust‐stifled marsh‐flowers in the ditch ; [[its]822-the dusty road white farmhouses]823-its white farmhouses , and white stone heaps , white upon white , brilliant , relentlessly white , under the deep blue autumn sky . Before [him]145-hamlin [the bullock‐carts]824-the bullock‐carts , with [sleepy drivers]825-sleepy drivers prostrate on [their]825-sleepy drivers back , moved in a white cloud ; a whirlwind of dust was raised by every cariole , heavily laden with singing and yelling [peasants]826-peasants , which dashed past . Within sight of the rampart trees , like [a pleasant oasis of leafage in [the treeless green desert]828-the treeless green desert of [the town]829-the town]827-a pleasant oasis of leafage in the treeless green desert of the town , [the crowd of vehicles of all sorts]830-the crowd of vehicles of all sorts began . Under the red brick gate , with [its]822-the dusty road statue of Justice and motto “ Libertas , ”[830-the crowd of vehicles of all sorts] there was a perfect block of [carts]831-carts , gigs , bullocks , horses , and [screaming country folk]832-screaming country folk . [Hamlin]145-hamlin wriggled through , and slipped along in the scant shade of [the narrower streets]833-the narrower streets — empty and desolate on that holiday — ribbons of brilliant light cut into , bordered by the black shadows of overhanging roofs and balconies . A great buzz of voices came from [the square of [the cathedral]835-the cathedral]834-the square of the cathedral ; [peasants]826-peasants and [townsfolk]837-townsfolk elbowing about , [people]577-people at [booths]839-booths yelling [their]577-people wares , [boys screeching on whistles and trumpets]840-boys screeching on whistles and trumpets , cathedral bell tolling , and all the neighbouring church bells clattering and jangling . From the windows of [the blackened palaces]841-the blackened palaces fluttered strips of crimson and yellow brocade ; across [the street]842-the street , from [balcony]843-balcony to [balcony]843-balcony , and from twisted iron torchholder to twisted iron bridle‐ring , were slung garlands of coloured lamps for the evening ’s illumination ; and in the midst of all rose [the cathedral]835-the cathedral front , [its]822-the dusty road tiers and tiers of twisted and sculptured pillarets , with the massive grey belfry soaring by [its]822-the dusty road side into the high blue sky . [Hamlin]145-hamlin pushed [his]145-hamlin way in at one of the side gates ; a rolling of [organs , and quavering of choir voices , and clash of brass instruments]846-organs , and quavering of choir voices , and clash of brass instruments ; a hot mouthful of heavy , incense‐laden atmosphere ; a compact moving human mass beneath the Gothic arches ; beams of light flickering among clouds of dust , and incense and taper smoke high in [the arched nave]847-the arched nave ; constellations of lights on altar , and organ‐loft , and chandelier , yellow specks in the mid‐day twilight of [the cathedral]835-the cathedral ; something tawdry , hushed , unbreathable , and yet impressive and beautiful . [Hamlin]145-hamlin gradually made [his]145-hamlin way to the side of the altar‐steps . [This part of [the cathedral]835-the cathedral]849-this part of the cathedral was full of [women]3959-women — [provincial great ladies]852-provincial great ladies , and [[shopkeepers]853-shopkeepers ’ wives]854-shopkeepers ’ wives and [daughters]855-daughters in [their]854-shopkeepers ’ wives Sunday clothes , brilliant caricatures of last year ’s Paris fashions — close packed together on reserved seats , enjoying the incense , the lights , the music , the holiness of the ceremony , the clothes of [[their]854-shopkeepers ’ wives neighbours]856-their neighbours , the appealing glances of [the young men in elaborate silk and alpaca summer coats]857-the young men in elaborate silk and alpaca summer coats , with artistically combed‐up heads of hair , sucking [their]854-shopkeepers ’ wives canes all about the altar . [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s entry , however quiet , was soon perceived , and the eyes of all [this womankind]858-this womankind were fixed upon the sight , rare in [that country town]859-that country town , of [an Englishman]860-an englishman ; and white silk bonnets , and black lace veils , and big red fans , and fuzzy yellow and smooth black heads , leant towards each other,—while questions went round in a whisper , who was [the forestiere]861-the forestiere — [the handsome forestiere]862-the handsome forestiere — small , slight , meagre , white , with the light hair and moustache , and that melancholy face like [a woman]3960-a woman ’s ? [Hamlin]145-hamlin was quickly bored by all this magnificence ; jostled to pieces , stifled by the heat , and incense , and heavy smell of [the crowd]864-the crowd . [He]145-hamlin was going out , when , as [his]145-hamlin eyes wandered from the silver and lights of the altar , and the shining mitres and stoles of [the priests]865-the priests , to that sea of heads and bonnets and hats in [the nave]866-the nave , [they]854-shopkeepers ’ wives were suddenly and unexpectedly arrested on the side steps of the high altar just opposite to [him]145-hamlin . There , among a lot of heads , but high above [them]854-shopkeepers ’ wives , was a head half covered with coarse black lace and crisp dark hair half turned away from [him]145-hamlin ; a majestic sweep of cheek and jaw , a solemn bend of neck . A moment later the bell tinkled for the elevation of [the Host]867-the host , the organ burst forth into a rapid jig , and [the church]868-the church was a sea of bent heads , of [kneeling and stooping men]869-kneeling and stooping men and [women]3959-women . As [the people]871-the people suddenly sank like a wave about the steps , there remained , stranded as it were , and rising conspicuous , [the tall and massive figure of [Miss Brown]171-anne]872-the tall and massive figure of miss brown . [She]171-anne was standing on the altar‐steps , whose orange‐red baize cloth threw up faint yellowish tints on to [her]171-anne long dress of some kind of soft white wool , while the crimson brocade on wall and column formed a sort of dull red background . In the mixed light of the yellow tapers and the grey incense‐laden sunbeams , [her]171-anne face acquired a diaphanous pallor , as if of a halo surrounding it , as [she]171-anne stood , [her]171-anne hands hanging loosely clasped , looking calmly upon [the bowed‐down crowd below]873-the bowed‐down crowd below . One minute , and the bell tinkling again , [the people]871-the people rose with a muffled , shuffling noise , and hid [her]171-anne from [Hamlin]145-hamlin . The organ and bells were pealing , the voices and violins rising shrill , the incense curling up in grey spirals into the sunbeams among the crimson hangings . The sonnet of [Guido Cavalcanti]189-guido cavalcanti , about the Madonna picture , enshrined at Or [San Michele]24-san michele behind the blazing tapers , and in which [he]189-guido cavalcanti recognised [[his]189-guido cavalcanti lady]875-his lady , came into [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s mind , with the sound of the music and the fumes of the incense ; and together with it , a remembrance , a sort of picture , hopelessly jumbled , of [Laura]190-laura in [the church at [Avignon]25-avignon]876-the church at avignon that Good Friday , and [Beatrice]187-beatrice [among the blazing lights of the Heavenly Rose]877-among the blazing lights of the heavenly rose . The Mass was over , and [people]577-people began to stir and leave [the cathedral]835-the cathedral . Why had [she]171-anne remained standing while [all the others]880-all the others had knelt ? Perhaps from some Scotch puritanism ; it was incongruous , thought [Hamlin]145-hamlin . But at the same time [he]145-hamlin felt that , while incongruous in one way — for [she]171-anne ought certainly to have knelt like [the others]881-the others — it had in another respect completed an effect ; [this disbelieving girl]882-this disbelieving girl had [herself]171-anne become , as it were , [the Madonna of [the place]884-the place]883-the madonna of the place . [He]145-hamlin stood aside and let [the crowd]864-the crowd slowly pass out . Suddenly [he]145-hamlin saw , among the moving sea of heads , the flaxen curls of [the little Perrys]167-the perrys — the reddish beard of [Melton Perry]146-perry — the head , half covered with black lace and towering above the others , of [Miss Brown]171-anne . [She]171-anne was leading [the two smaller children]886-the two smaller children , and looked anxious in [that great crowd]887-that great crowd . Up went one of the little yellow heads ; [she]171-anne had taken [the child]660-the child in [her]171-anne arms . All of a sudden [her]171-anne eyes caught those of [Hamlin]145-hamlin standing close by , and yet separated from [him]145-hamlin by an impassable gulf of [people]577-people . [Her]171-anne own lit up , and with [them]890-them [her]171-anne whole face , in a smile , which [he]145-hamlin had never seen before . At last , near [the church]868-the church door , [the crowd]864-the crowd bore [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends straight towards [him]145-hamlin . “ What ! here after all ! ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry . “ Up to some mischief , [you]145-hamlin cunning dog ! ”[146-perry] “ Up to the mischief of watching [these good people]4147-these good people ’s devotion , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ Why did [you]145-hamlin come ? ”[3862-the children] asked [the children]3862-the children eagerly . “ [I]145-hamlin suppose because [I]145-hamlin thought [I]145-hamlin should like to amuse [myself]145-hamlin after all , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [They]3862-the children were out on [the cathedral steps]895-the cathedral steps , in the full glare of the blue sky . Outside a fountain was playing , penny whistles and trumpets shrilled on all sides , and [the people at the stalls]896-the people at the stalls shrieked and bellowed out [their]896-the people at the stalls wares to [the motley crowd]897-the motley crowd pouring out of [the church]868-the church . [The children]3862-the children cast eyes of longing upon the booths , decorated with tricolour flags and sprigs of green , full of gaudy dolls , and squeaking wooden dogs , and tin trumpets , and drums ; upon the tables , covered with bottles shaped like pyramids , and [china men]900-china men , and Garibaldi busts , full of red and yellow and green stuff , and with piles of cakes with little pictures of saints stuck in the middle of them . “ Buy [us]3862-the children something , ”[901-the little ones] cried [the little ones]901-the little ones to [[their]901-the little ones father]902-their father and [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; and [they]3862-the children squeezed through [the crowd]864-the crowd , and began to hesitate before the varied splendours of the fair . “ [You]583-the girl look very happy , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [they]3862-the children were waiting while [the children]3862-the children made [their]3862-the children choice . For really [the girl]583-the girl looked quite radiant,—an expression of unwonted happiness , of freedom and amusement , shone through [her]583-the girl quiet , almost solemn , face , like sunshine through a thin film of mist , all the richer for being half suppressed . “ It is all so beautiful , ”[583-the girl] [she]583-the girl answered , looking round at [the square]906-the square surrounded by [high black palaces]907-high black palaces draped with crimson brocade , and terraces covered with green , and at [the cathedral]835-the cathedral , carved like a precious casket , beneath the blue sky . “ Not more beautiful than at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini , surely ? ”[583-the girl] [She]583-the girl paused . “ No , not more beautiful ; but more — [I]583-the girl do n’t know what . ”[583-the girl] “ More cheerful ? ”[583-the girl] [She]583-the girl shook [her]583-the girl head . “ Yes ; but not so much that ; more free — more — [I]583-the girl do n’t know how to call it . ”[583-the girl] [The children]3862-the children were laden with lollipops and sixpenny toys . “ Come , ”[146-perry] said [Perry]146-perry suddenly , very cheerful , in [his]910-he unaccustomed freedom from [his]910-he better half , “ [you]583-the girl must choose a fairing , [Annie]171-anne . What will [you]583-the girl have?—a doll?—a beautiful yellow ’ kerchief with purple flowers , warranted the very worst colours in creation ? some gingerbread?—a penny whistle ? No , [I]910-he ’m sure [you]583-the girl ’re dying for some literature”—and[910-he] [he]910-he turned to a stone bench under [a palace]911-a palace , where twopenny books were piled up , and quantities of leaflets of ballads , and lives of [saints]912-saints , and romantic histories , were strung to the wall . “ Oh ! ”[910-he] [he]910-he said , “ there ’s nothing for [Annie]171-anne here — [she]171-anne hates [saints]912-saints and [knights]4149-knights and poetry ; [we]4150-we must get [her]171-anne a book on the ‘ Rights of Man , ’ or a ‘ History of the French Revolution , ’ at [the bookseller ’s in [Via Fillungo]26-via fillungo]4151-the bookseller ’s in via fillungo . But this is just what suits [Hamlin”—and]191-hamlin”—and[910-he] throwing down a heap of coppers , [he]910-he filled [his]910-he hands with printed leaflets . “ The tremendous adventures of [the Giant Ferracciù]4152-the giant ferracciù , ”[910-he] [he]910-he read ; “ the lamentable history of [[Lucia]192-lucia of [Lamermoor]27-lamermoor]4153-lucia of lamermoor ; the loves of [Irminda]193-irminda and [Astolfo]194-astolfo ; the complaint of the beautiful Fair‐haired One,—these are the things for [a poet]498-a poet , ”[910-he] and [he]910-he stuffed them into [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s pockets . “ Do n’t be ridiculous , [Melton]146-perry , ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ Ridiculous ! ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Perry]146-perry . “ Who talks of things being ridiculous ? [I]910-he ’m in good earnest”—and[910-he] as [they]913-they went along [he]910-he began declaiming , with appropriate gestures , a ballad composed by [some printer]914-some printer ’s prentice from the libretto of an old opera . [The children]3862-the children shrieked with laughter at [papa]3893-papa ’s voice and faces ; and [Anne Brown]171-anne burst into a curious subdued laugh , which , although scarcely audible , was extremely childish . As [they]913-they walked along [the narrow crowded streets]917-the narrow crowded streets towards [the inn]918-the inn where [they]913-they were to have dinner , [Perry]146-perry kept on ahead with [the two elder children]919-the two elder children , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin hung back with [Miss Brown]171-anne and [the two younger]920-the two younger . “ Did [you]145-hamlin like the ceremony in [the cathedral]835-the cathedral , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked , irresistibly drawn on to understand why [she]171-anne had not knelt like [the others]881-the others . “ It was very beautiful , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said ; “ and such beautiful vestments ! Did [you]145-hamlin see the white and gold embroidery of [the bishop?—and]4156-the bishop?—and the purple dresses of [the canons?—oh]4157-the canons?—oh , it was lovely ! But it makes [me]171-anne angry to see such things . ”[171-anne] “ Why so ? ”[171-anne] “ Because it is dreadful — don’t [you]171-anne think?—to see [all those people]4158-all those people kneeling down and believing in all that nonsense . ”[171-anne] “ How do [you]145-hamlin know it is nonsense ? It seems to [me]171-anne very beautiful and consoling . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne turned [her]171-anne big grey‐blue eyes upon [him]145-hamlin . “ [You]145-hamlin do n’t mean that [you]145-hamlin believe in all that mummery ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked , searchingly and reproachfully—“you who have studied so much ; [you]145-hamlin do n’t believe that [they]4158-all those people can make [God]195-god come down with [their]4158-all those people mutterings and kneelings ? ”[171-anne] “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t believe it , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with some embarrassment ; “ but [I]145-hamlin think it is very beautiful , and [those who do believe in it]4159-those who do believe in it are very happy . ”[145-hamlin] “ But [you]145-hamlin do n’t think it is right that [people]577-people should believe in falsehoods , and be [the slaves of [wicked priests]4162-wicked priests]4161-the slaves of wicked priests ? ”[171-anne] “ How rabid [you]145-hamlin are ! ”[145-hamlin] laughed [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ No , [I]145-hamlin do n’t believe ; but [I]145-hamlin like to see [others]4163-others believing . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]171-anne do n’t ; ”[171-anne] and after a minute [she]171-anne added , “ Do n’t [you]145-hamlin believe in anything at all ? ”[171-anne] “ Perhaps [I]145-hamlin do , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , fixing [his]145-hamlin eyes upon [her]171-anne . “ [I]145-hamlin believe in beauty — [I]145-hamlin believe that is the one true thing in life . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]171-anne do n’t know what [you]145-hamlin mean , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered ; “ but it seems to [me]171-anne dreadful that [people]577-people should believe in [priests]4165-priests and [kings]4166-kings , and all sorts of lies . ”[171-anne] [They]922-they relapsed into silence . As [they]922-they walked along , [Hamlin]145-hamlin stole glances at [[his]145-hamlin companion]923-his companion , walking stately and serious like [a saint]924-a saint or [a sibyl]925-a sibyl by [his]145-hamlin side . [He]145-hamlin wondered what [this girl]630-this girl would have been had [she]630-this girl lived three or four centuries back . All this common modern radicalism distressed [him]145-hamlin in [her]630-this girl — it had no colour and no perfume . Yet , after all , it was but the modern accessory instead of the medieval . This was the way in which beauty and romance were wasted nowadays — wasted , [he]145-hamlin thought , half consciously , yet not perhaps entirely , since it went to make up a characteristic whole . [Melton Perry]146-perry took [them]922-they to [the chief inn of [the place]884-the place]927-the chief inn of the place for dinner . [He]145-hamlin let [each of [the children]3862-the children]929-each of the children choose whatever [she]630-this girl preferred , ordered several bottles of Asti spumante , and gave it [them]922-they to drink in champagne‐glasses . [The one or two furtive English spinsters who were sipping [their]931-the one or two furtive english spinsters who were sipping their tea and reading their “ murray ” at the other tables of the huge dining‐room , profusely ornamented with casts from the antique , and with cut‐paper fiy‐floppers tea and reading [their]931-the one or two furtive english spinsters who were sipping their tea and reading their “ murray ” at the other tables of the huge dining‐room , profusely ornamented with casts from the antique , and with cut‐paper fiy‐floppers “ Murray ”[145-hamlin] at the other tables of [the huge dining‐room]932-the huge dining‐room , profusely ornamented with casts from the antique , and with cut‐paper fiy‐floppers]931-the one or two furtive english spinsters who were sipping their tea and reading their “ murray ” at the other tables of the huge dining‐room , profusely ornamented with casts from the antique , and with cut‐paper fiy‐floppers , looked up with surprise at the festive party headed by [Perry]146-perry . After dinner [the two little ones]933-the two little ones began to hang [their]933-the two little ones heads in [the hot room]934-the hot room , and gave signs of going to sleep . “ Good gracious ! ”[146-perry] said [Perry]146-perry , in a consternation , “ what are [we]4167-we to do with [these wretched infants]4168-these wretched infants ? [They]4168-these wretched infants ’ll just prevent [our]4167-we taking a stroll in [the town]829-the town before returning [home]4170-home . ”[146-perry] “ [I]171-anne think the best thing will be for [them]4168-these wretched infants to sleep a little , [sir]3865-sir , ”[171-anne] suggested [Anne Brown]171-anne . “ [I]171-anne will tuck [them]4168-these wretched infants up on the sofa , and stay with [them]4168-these wretched infants here while [you]3865-sir and [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin take [Miss Mildred]165-mildred and [Miss Winnie]157-winnie for a walk . ”[171-anne] “ But [I]146-perry ca n’t think of leaving [you]171-anne behind , [Annie]171-anne , ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry . , “ [I]146-perry know how much [you]171-anne would like to see [the town]829-the town . ”[146-perry] “ [I]171-anne saw part of it this morning , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne swered ; “ and [I]171-anne really would just as soon stay with [the children]3862-the children [here]3884-here . ”[171-anne] There was no gainsaying [her]171-anne ; so [the two men]935-the two men sallied forth with [the two elder children]919-the two elder children on a walk through [the crowded and bannered streets]937-the crowded and bannered streets ; while [Anne Brown]171-anne remained sitting in [the stuffy inn dining‐room]938-the stuffy inn dining‐room by the side of [the torpid little ones]939-the torpid little ones . When [they]935-the two men were out an idea suddenly struck [Hamlin]145-hamlin : this was the opportunity of getting a present for [Anne Brown]171-anne . [He]145-hamlin left [Perry]146-perry regaling [the children]3862-the children on ices at [a café opposite [the Church of St Michael]942-the church of st michael]941-a café opposite the church of st michael , which rose like a great marble bride‐cake into the bright blue sky , and made [his]145-hamlin way to a bookstall which [he]145-hamlin had noticed in the morning . [He]145-hamlin asked for the ‘ Vita Nuova . ’ [The old bookseller]943-the old bookseller looked over a number of little schedules in [his]943-the old bookseller desk , and produced several copies , new and second‐hand . They did not please [Hamlin]145-hamlin . At last [he]145-hamlin displayed a tiny Giunti volume , just delicately yellowed by age , and bound in vellum . [Hamlin]145-hamlin bought it , and secreted it in [his]145-hamlin pocket , and then joined [Perry]146-perry . [They]935-the two men went to [the stable]944-the stable , where all the carioles from [the country]945-the country put up , and ordered the waggonette to be at [the inn]918-the inn door in an hour . But as [they]935-the two men were slowly mounting the wide stone staircase , with [the eternal plaster dancing nymphs]947-the eternal plaster dancing nymphs tripping it on [each landing]948-each landing , [Perry]146-perry ’s eye fell upon a large bill pasted upon the opposite wall,—the playbill of [the Teatro del Giglio,—on]949-the teatro del giglio,—on which , among the names of [singers]950-singers , [fiddlers]951-fiddlers , [chorus‐directors]952-chorus‐directors , [scene‐painters]953-scene‐painters , [theatre tailors]954-theatre tailors , and [hairdressers]955-hairdressers , streamed , in scarlet letters , the title “ Semiramide . ”[952-chorus‐directors] “ Tò ! ”[196-perry] cried [Milton Perry]196-perry , with the Tuscan expression for a sudden bright thought ; “ what do [[you]935-the two men two young minxes say to going to hear an opera for the first time in [your]935-the two men lives]4175-you two young minxes say to going to hear an opera for the first time in your lives ? ”[196-perry] “ Oh , [papa]3893-papa ! ”[165-mildred] shrilled [Mildred]165-mildred . “ Oh , [papa]3893-papa ! ”[157-winnie] echoed [Winnie]157-winnie , catching hold of [his]956-his knees — “ Not so quick ! ”[196-perry] exclaimed [Perry]196-perry ; “ [I]196-perry ’m by no means so sure of it . What ’s to become of the two sleepy little worms ? ”[196-perry] “ Send [them]935-the two men [home]4170-home with [Annie]171-anne , ”[165-mildred] suggested [Mildred]165-mildred , promptly ; “ and [you]196-perry ’ll take [us]958-the two tiny girls , propped up with cushions [home]4170-home later . ”[165-mildred] “ Nothing of the kind , [[my]196-perry young woman]4180-my young woman , ”[196-perry] [he]196-perry answered sternly . “ If [any one]4101-any one goes to the opera it shall be [Annie]171-anne . Make up [your]196-perry mind for that . ”[196-perry] [The dining‐room]957-the dining‐room was deserted . On a sofa near the open window lay [the two tiny girls , propped up with cushions]958-the two tiny girls , propped up with cushions ; [Anne Brown]171-anne , surly , flopping away the flies which buzzed about [them]958-the two tiny girls , propped up with cushions , and reading a newspaper . [She]171-anne was resting the paper on [her]171-anne knees , and supporting [her]171-anne head with one hand , while the other moved slowly with the cut‐paper flopper ; and in this position [the young nursemaid]959-the young nursemaid struck [Hamlin]145-hamlin as a resuscitation , but more beautiful and even stranger , of [one of [[Michaelangelo]160-michaelangelo ’s prophetic women]961-michaelangelo ’s prophetic women]960-one of michaelangelo ’s prophetic women . “ [I]196-perry say , [Annie]171-anne , ”[196-perry] ’ cried [Perry]196-perry , “ what do [you]171-anne say to taking [these two brats]4182-these two brats to the opera this evening ? ”[196-perry] [Anne Brown]171-anne started up . “ To the opera , [sir]3865-sir ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne cried , flushing with pleasure . “ Yes ; [these creatures]4184-these creatures have never been . [They]4184-these creatures ’re giving ‘ Semiramide ’ to‐night . [I]171-anne think it ’s a good opera for [children]570-children to begin with ; because it will teach [them]570-children betimes the unhappy complications which are apt to result from murdering [[one]620-one ’s husband]4187-one ’s husband , and trying to marry [[one]620-one ’s son]4189-one ’s son unawares . [I]171-anne ’ll take [the little ones]901-the little ones back to [the villa]777-the villa in half an hour , and quiet [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s feelings . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin will be delighted to accompany [you]146-perry and mesdemoiselles [[my]171-anne daughters]4192-my daughters , to [the theatre]4193-the theatre , and then bring [you]146-perry [home]4170-home . It wo n’t last late . ”[171-anne] “ But , ”[171-anne] exclaimed [Anne Brown]171-anne , — “ oh , how good of [you]171-anne , [sir!—but]4195-sir!—but are [you]171-anne sure [you]171-anne would not like to stay for the opera [yourself]171-anne ? [I]171-anne could take [the little ones]901-the little ones [home]4170-home . ”[171-anne] “ No , thank [you]171-anne , [Annie]171-anne . The fact is , [I]146-perry never have approved of [Rossini]197-rossini ’s music . Ever since [my]146-perry earliest infancy [I]146-perry have been shocked by its want of earnestness ; what [I]146-perry like is a symphony in P minor , with plenty of chords of the diminished seventeenth . That ’s the right sort of thing , is n’t it , [Hamlin]145-hamlin ? ”[146-perry] A few minutes later [Perry]146-perry went away with [the two little girls]962-the two little girls , leaving [Mildred]165-mildred and [Winhie]198-winhie with [Anne Brown]171-anne . [Hamlin]145-hamlin accompanied [them]962-the two little girls down‐stairs to the waggonette . “ [I]145-hamlin will go to [the theatre]4193-the theatre and secure a box , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ and order a trap to take [us]962-the two little girls back . ”[145-hamlin] “ All right ! ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry , as the waggonette rolled off . “ Mind [you]145-hamlin do n’t let [those children]4199-those children bore [you]145-hamlin or worry poor [Annie]171-anne too much ; and do n’t leave [them]962-the two little girls alone the whole afternoon . ”[146-perry] But , for some unaccountable reason , [Hamlin]145-hamlin did leave [them]962-the two little girls alone the whole afternoon . After [he]145-hamlin had secured the box and ordered [the carriage]810-the carriage , [he]145-hamlin felt a sort of unwillingness to go back to [the inn]918-the inn , perhaps unconsciously , to sit opposite [[the Perrys]167-the perrys ’ nursemaid]965-the perrys ’ nursemaid ; so [he]145-hamlin walked about [the town]829-the town till tea‐time , not troubling [himself]145-hamlin to inquire whether [Anne Brown]171-anne and [the children]3862-the children might not prefer a stroll on [the ramparts]968-the ramparts to the monotony of sitting for two mortal hours in [the inn dining‐room]969-the inn dining‐room . AT dusk [they]962-the two little girls hurriedly drank some of the thin yellow hotel‐tea ; and then hastened to [the theatre]4193-the theatre across [the twilit street and square]971-the twilit street and square , where the garlands of Venetian lanterns were beginning to shine like jewels against the pale‐blue evening sky . [Hamlin]145-hamlin offered [Anne Brown]171-anne [his]145-hamlin arm , but [she]171-anne asked [him]145-hamlin to give it to [Winnie Perry]199-winnie . “ [Mildred]165-mildred shall take mine , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said—“that ’s the best way in case of [a crowd]814-a crowd . ”[814-a crowd] [A crowd]814-a crowd , alas ! there was not ; [the liveried theatre servants]973-the liveried theatre servants ( doubtless the same , in yellow striped waistcoats and drab gaiters , who carried out [Semiramis]200-semiramis ’s throne , when the drop‐scene fell ) made profuse bows to [the little party]974-the little party , and handed [them]974-the little party at least half‐a‐dozen playbills , each as large as an ordinary flag . [The children]3862-the children had never been in [a theatre]976-a theatre before , and were in a high state of delight at the lights , the gilding , the red plush , the scraping of fiddles ; especially at being in a box , although the box on this occasion cost only about half as much as would a single seat in [an English playhouse]977-an english playhouse . Gradually [the theatre]4193-the theatre filled ; the boxes with [people of quality]979-people of quality from [surrounding villas]980-surrounding villas , [gentlemen displaying an ampleness of shirt‐front]981-gentlemen displaying an ampleness of shirt‐front , and [ladies an ampleness of bosom conceivable only by the provincial mind]982-ladies an ampleness of bosom conceivable only by the provincial mind ; the pit with [townsfolk]837-townsfolk and [officers]984-officers : [the whole company staring with eyes and opera‐glasses , talking , singing , rapping with sticks and sabres]985-the whole company staring with eyes and opera‐glasses , talking , singing , rapping with sticks and sabres till the overture began to roll out , when [the audience]986-the audience immediately set up a kind of confused hum , supposed to be the melody of the piece , and which half drowned [the meagre orchestra]987-the meagre orchestra . Then the opera began — an opera such as only the misery and genius of [Italy]1-italy could produce . There was a triumphal procession of six ragamuffins in cotton trousers and with brass kettle‐covers on [their]988-their heads , marching round and round [the stage]989-the stage , bearing trophies of paper altar‐flowers and coffee‐biggins ; there was a row of [loathsome females]990-loathsome females , bloated or fleshless , in draggled robes too short or too long , shrieking out of tune in [[the queen]991-the queen ’s chamber]992-the queen ’s chamber — and four rapscallions in nightgowns and Tam‐o’Shanters , and beards which would not stick on , standing round the little spirit‐lamp burning in front of [Baal]201-baal ’s statue ; there was the little black leathern portmanteau containing the Babylonian regalia , which [a nigger with a black‐crape face]993-a nigger with a black‐crape face carried after [the Prince Arsaces]994-the prince arsaces ; and there was [the “ magnificent apartment in [the palace of Nineveh]4202-the palace of nineveh]4201-the “ magnificent apartment in the palace of nineveh , disclosing a delicious view of [the famous hanging gardens]4203-the famous hanging gardens , ”[993-a nigger with a black‐crape face] as described by the libretto , and furnished solely with a rush‐bottomed chair and a deal table , the table‐cloth of which was so short that [Semiramis]200-semiramis was obliged to lean [her]200-semiramis arm on it to prevent its slipping off , which , however , it finally did . Moreover , an incalculable amount of singing out of tune and pummelling one ’s chest in moments of passion . No training , no dresses , no scenery , [no orchestra]995-no orchestra . Still in this miserable performance there was an element of beauty and dignity , a something in harmony with the grand situation and glorious music : a splendidly made Semiramis , quite regal in [her]200-semiramis tawdry robes , who showered out volleys of roulades as a bird might shower out its trills ; [another young woman]996-another young woman , plain , tall , and slight , playing [the prince in corselet and helmet]997-the prince in corselet and helmet , with quite magnificent attitudes of defiance and command , with bare extended arm and supple wrist . [The two girls who played the principal parts]998-the two girls who played the principal parts were [sisters]999-sisters , and although [they]998-the two girls who played the principal parts had certainly never sung much with [a teacher]4134-a teacher , [they]998-the two girls who played the principal parts must have sung a great deal together ; and [their]998-the two girls who played the principal parts voices and style melted into each other quite as if it were all a spontaneous effusion on [their]998-the two girls who played the principal parts part . All the realities which money can get , dress , voice , training , accessories , scenery , utterly wanting ; but instead , in the midst of pauperism , something which money can not always get , a certain ideal beauty and charm . [Anne Brown]171-anne was intensely interested in the performance ; indeed , quite as much so , though in another way , as [the children]3862-the children . During the intervals between the acts , [she]171-anne could speak of nothing but the story of [Semiramis]200-semiramis , and wonder what would happen next . [Hamlin]145-hamlin could scarcely help laughing at the concern which [she]171-anne manifested each time that [the hero Arsace]1002-the hero arsace was bullied by [the wicked Assur]202-the wicked assur ; but [he]145-hamlin could not laugh at the tragic way in which [she]171-anne conceived the whole situation . To [him]145-hamlin all that florid music of [Rossini]197-rossini would already have destroyed any seriousness there might have been in the matter ; but to [Anne Brown]171-anne it seemed as if all these splendid vocalisations took the place of the visible pomp and magnificence of [Assyrian royalty]1003-assyrian royalty : for [her]171-anne [the heroes]1004-the heroes and [heroines]1005-heroines , [the magi and satraps]1006-the magi and satraps , were clad , not in the calico and tinsel of the theatre tailor , but in the musical splendours of [Rossini]197-rossini . [Hamlin]145-hamlin , to say the truth , found the performance very wearisome ; [he]145-hamlin had been bored by Semiramide too often with [Tietiens]1007-tietiens and [Trebelli]203-trebelli , to find it particularly interesting at [the Teatro del Giglio of Lucca]1008-the teatro del giglio of lucca . [He]145-hamlin sat looking on listlessly , not so much at [the stage]989-the stage as at [the girl who was leaning out of the box before [him]145-hamlin]1010-the girl who was leaning out of the box before him , watching each movement of [her]171-anne hand and neck , as [she]171-anne devoured the performance with eyes and ears . But when at last there came the grand scene between [Semiramis]200-semiramis and [[her]200-semiramis son]1011-her son , whatsoever was good in the performance suddenly burst forth ; [the two young women]1012-the two young women sang with a sort of spontaneous passion , a delight in the music and [their]1012-the two young women own voices and [themselves]1012-the two young women ; and when , [Semiramis]200-semiramis having let down [her]200-semiramis back hair ( as [distressed heroines]1013-distressed heroines always do ) from utter despair , [Prince Arsaces]204-prince arsaces , not to be outdone , pulled off [his]204-prince arsaces helmet , letting down [his]1014-his or [her]1015-her back hair also , and [the two]1016-the two sank into [each other]594-each other ’s arms and began the great duet , even [Hamlin]145-hamlin felt in a kind of way that this was passionate , and tragic , and grand . [Anne Brown]171-anne was seated sidewise in the front of the box , resting [her]171-anne mass of iron‐black hair on [her]171-anne hand , [her]171-anne other hand lying loosely on [her]171-anne knees . [Her]171-anne chest heaved under [her]171-anne lace mantilla , and [her]171-anne parted lips quivered . It seemed to [Hamlin]145-hamlin as if this were the real [Semiramis]200-semiramis , [the real mysterious king‐woman of antiquity]1018-the real mysterious king‐woman of antiquity — as if the music belonged in some sort of ideal way to [her]171-anne . When the curtain had fallen amid the yells of applause , [she]171-anne remained silent , letting [Hamlin]145-hamlin help [her]171-anne on with [her]171-anne shawl without turning [her]171-anne eyes from [the stage]989-the stage . The lights were rapidly put out . “ [We]4204-we must go , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ otherwise [we]4204-we shall be left in the dark . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne turned , took [little Winnie]199-winnie by the hand , and followed [him]145-hamlin , who led [the elder Perry child]1020-the elder perry child , prattling loudly , to the stairs . There was [a great crowd going down]1021-a great crowd going down , whistling and humming tunes from the opera . From the force of habit [Hamlin]145-hamlin again offered [Anne Brown]171-anne [his]145-hamlin arm . But instead of accepting it , [she]171-anne , so to speak , rapidly plucked [little Winnie]199-winnie from the ground , and raised [her]199-winnie in [her]171-anne arms as if [she]199-winnie were a feather . “ Please let [me]145-hamlin carry [that child]4205-that child , ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ Oh no , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered quietly . “ [I]171-anne do n’t mind carrying [her]4205-that child at all ; but [she]4205-that child ’s too heavy for [you]145-hamlin , [sir]3865-sir . ”[171-anne] Out in [the square]906-the square [the carriage]810-the carriage was awaiting [them]1024-they in the bright starlight , where the red and green lamps were already dying out among the plane‐trees . In a minute [they]1024-they were rattling through [the narrow streets]1025-the narrow streets , and out of [the town]829-the town by the dark tree‐masses of the bastions . The bells of the horses jingled as [they]1024-they went ; the melancholy shrilling of insects rose from [the fields]1027-the fields all round ; the vine‐garlands creaked in the wind . [The two children]1028-the two children were speedily asleep — one with [her]1029-her head on [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s shoulder , [the other]1030-the other wrapped in [[her]1029-her nurse]669-her nurse ’s shawl . [Anne Brown]171-anne bent over the side of the waggonette , a dark outline , the damp night breeze catching [her]171-anne hair . [Neither]1032-neither spoke . [Hamlin]145-hamlin felt a sense of guilt stealing over [him]145-hamlin ; of guilt for nothing very definite ; of guilt towards [no one else]1033-no one else , but towards [himself]145-hamlin . The drive passed like a dream . Suddenly the wheels grated on the gravel of [the villa garden]1034-the villa garden ; dogs barked ; lights appeared ; [the children]3862-the children were lifted out of [the carriage]810-the carriage asleep ; and the voice of [Perry]199-winnie whispered to [Hamlin]145-hamlin — “ [I]199-winnie caught it nicely when [I]199-winnie came [home]4170-home — [I]199-winnie do n’t know why , upon [my]199-winnie soul ! [I]199-winnie ’m sure [I]199-winnie wish [I]199-winnie had remained and amused [myself]199-winnie with [you]145-hamlin . ”[199-winnie] “ [I]145-hamlin wish [you]199-winnie had , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin quite seriously , always with the sense of vague guilt towards [himself]145-hamlin ; then added , — “ By the way , [old man]3958-old man , [I]199-winnie fear [I]199-winnie really must go on to [Florence]6-florence to‐morrow afternoon . ”[199-winnie] [PERRY]199-winnie could not at first understand [[his]145-hamlin friend]696-his friend ’s sudden decision , and violently combated it . But after a little while [he]145-hamlin said to [himself]145-hamlin that it must have been fearfully dull for [Hamlin]145-hamlin at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini , and that to have stayed so long was already much more than a miserable being like [himself]145-hamlin could expect . So that when [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife nearly went into hysterics at the notion of [Hamlin]145-hamlin — [[their]1039-they poet‐painter]1040-their poet‐painter , as [she]700-his wife called [him]145-hamlin — suddenly departing , [he]145-hamlin represented to [her]700-his wife , with more emphasis than was [his]145-hamlin wo nt , that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had bored [himself]145-hamlin to death , and must be bored no longer . “ And where are [you]145-hamlin going ? ”[1041-the limp and sapphic lady] asked [the limp and Sapphic lady]1041-the limp and sapphic lady , as [they]1039-they sat at lunch . “ [I]145-hamlin have no notion , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [I]145-hamlin know nothing beyond [Florence]6-florence for three days . [I]145-hamlin may go on to [Rome]28-rome , [Naples]29-naples , [Egypt]30-egypt , [America]7-america , [Japan]31-japan , or return to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith . [I]145-hamlin have no notion . ”[145-hamlin] “ Ah , [these poets]4209-these poets ! ”[146-perry] cried [Mrs Perry]146-perry ; “ [they]4209-these poets never can tell whither [their]4209-these poets soul may waft [their]4209-these poets body . ”[146-perry] When [they]1039-they had finished , [Hamlin]145-hamlin asked whether [he]145-hamlin might say good‐bye to [Anne Brown]171-anne . “ [I]145-hamlin have a little farewell gift to make [her]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin explained . [Anne Brown]171-anne was summoned into [the studio]795-the studio ; [she]171-anne evidently had only just heard the news . “ Are [you]145-hamlin going away , [sir]3865-sir , really ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked . “ Yes , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , drily ; “ [I]145-hamlin expect the gig must be waiting for [me]145-hamlin already . ”[145-hamlin] “ And — are [you]145-hamlin not going to return , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ? ”[145-hamlin] “ Oh no ; [I]171-anne think [I]171-anne shall go to [America]7-america this winter . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne was silent , and stood by the table in the attitude of [a servant waiting for further orders]1043-a servant waiting for further orders . “ Before [I]145-hamlin go away , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ [I]145-hamlin want to thank [you]171-anne , [Miss Brown]171-anne , for [your]171-anne kindness and patience , which have enabled [me]145-hamlin to make a sketch which will be very valuable for one of [my]145-hamlin next pictures , and , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin added , as [she]171-anne merely nodded [her]171-anne head , “ [I]171-anne want to beg [you]171-anne to accept a little gift in remembrance of all the trouble [I]171-anne have given [you]171-anne . ”[171-anne] [Anne Brown]171-anne flushed , and [her]171-anne face suddenly changed , as if a whip‐cord had passed across it . [Hamlin]145-hamlin took the little vellum‐bound volume from [his]145-hamlin pocket . “ [You]171-anne told [me]145-hamlin [you]171-anne had never read the ‘ Vita Nuova , ’ [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ so [I]145-hamlin venture to ask [you]171-anne to accept this copy of it . [I]145-hamlin do n’t know whether [you]171-anne like old books ; [I]145-hamlin think them much prettier to look at . Good‐bye . ”[145-hamlin] [The girl]583-the girl ’s face cleared into a kind of radiance . “ Thank [you]145-hamlin so much , ”[583-the girl] [she]583-the girl said ; “ [I]583-the girl will read it often . ”[583-the girl] “ And think of [me]145-hamlin sometimes and the trouble [I]145-hamlin gave [you]145-hamlin ? ”[145-hamlin] “ It was [my]583-the girl duty , since [Mrs Perry]146-perry wished it , [sir]3865-sir . Good‐bye — a good journey to [you]145-hamlin . ”[583-the girl] “ Good‐bye , [Miss Brown]171-anne . ”[583-the girl] [WALTER HAMLIN]145-hamlin did not go to [America]7-america . On leaving [the Villa Arnolfini]734-the villa arnolfini , [he]145-hamlin met at [Florence]6-florence [some artist friends]1046-some artist friends , who , in [his]145-hamlin condition of utter absence of plans , easily drew [him]145-hamlin on with [them]1046-some artist friends to [Siena]33-siena and [Perugia]34-perugia , thence into [the smaller Umbrian cities]1047-the smaller umbrian cities , and finally into [a wholly unexplored region between [the Abruzzo]35-the abruzzo and [the Adriatic]36-the adriatic]1048-a wholly unexplored region between the abruzzo and the adriatic . By the time that [their]1046-some artist friends sketching and article‐writing expedition was at an end , the winter had come round , and more than three months had elapsed since [Hamlin]145-hamlin had parted with [the Perrys]167-the perrys . Would [Hamlin]145-hamlin return with [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends to [England]37-england ? [He]145-hamlin had often said that [he]145-hamlin had had enough of [Italy]1-italy — that [he]145-hamlin would go [home]4170-home and shut [himself]145-hamlin up in [[his]145-hamlin studio at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith]1051-his studio at hammersmith , among [smoke and river‐fogs]1052-smoke and river‐fogs , seeing [not a living creature]1053-not a living creature , learning Persian and studying [Sufi poets]1054-sufi poets until next spring , when [he]145-hamlin would set off for [the East]38-the east , never more to return to [Europe]39-europe , except for [the Grosvenor]40-the grosvenor private view . But when the moment for return [north]1055-north approached , [Hamlin]145-hamlin began to hesitate ; and the very day before [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends ’ departure , [he]145-hamlin informed [them]893-his friends that [he]145-hamlin had come to the conclusion that there was still some work for [him]145-hamlin to do in [Italy]1-italy . “ [I]145-hamlin shall be in [England]37-england at the end of two months at latest , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said . And on [their]893-his friends remonstrating at [his]145-hamlin fickleness , [he]145-hamlin merely answered — “ [I]145-hamlin have a notion for a new picture , and [I]145-hamlin think [I]145-hamlin have found [my]145-hamlin model for it . ”[145-hamlin] “ ‘ The Queen of Night ’ in [[your]145-hamlin portfolio]4212-your portfolio , ”[1057-one of his friends] suggested [one of [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends]1057-one of his friends . [They]893-his friends had noticed and generally admired that strange head , the like of which none of [them]893-his friends had ever seen before , and [they]893-his friends had given the drawing , which [Hamlin]145-hamlin described merely as “ [a girl near [Lucca]9-lucca]4213-a girl near lucca , ”[145-hamlin] the nickname of “ [The Queen of Night]4214-the queen of night . ”[145-hamlin] “ Yes , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ that ’s the one [I]145-hamlin ’m thinking about . ”[145-hamlin] So [the rest of [the party]1060-the party]1059-the rest of the party set sail from [Civita Vecchia]41-civita vecchia ; and one drizzly , foggy morning , [Hamlin]145-hamlin got into [the train]1061-the train to carry [him]145-hamlin northward to [Florence]6-florence . During those three months , [he]145-hamlin could scarcely [himself]145-hamlin have explained when or how , strange notions had come into [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s head , and a still stranger plan had finally matured in it . [He]145-hamlin had been haunted by the remembrance of [[the Perrys]1062-the perrys ’ nursemaid at [the Villa Arnolfini]734-the villa arnolfini]1063-the perrys ’ nursemaid at the villa arnolfini , and gradually taken to brooding and day‐dreaming about [her]1063-the perrys ’ nursemaid at the villa arnolfini . [He]145-hamlin had made up [his]145-hamlin mind that [Anne Brown]171-anne was [the most beautiful girl , in the strangest style , whom [he]145-hamlin had ever met]1065-the most beautiful girl , in the strangest style , whom he had ever met . What was to be [her]171-anne future ? Of two possibilities one must be realised . Either this magnificent blossom was to be untimely [nipped,—this beautiful and strange girl]1066-nipped,—this beautiful and strange girl was to fritter away [her]171-anne life , unnoticed , wasted , to little by little lose [her]171-anne beauty , [her]171-anne dignity , [her]171-anne grandeur , [her]171-anne whole imaginative aroma ; or the rare plant of beauty was to be cherished , nursed into perfection , till it burst out in maturity of splendour , a thing of delight for the present and of wonder for the future . Either [Anne Brown]171-anne must turn into [a sordid nursery‐governess]1067-a sordid nursery‐governess , or into [the avowedly most beautiful woman in [England]37-england]1068-the avowedly most beautiful woman in england — that is to say , in [the particular pre‐Raphaelite society which constituted [England]37-england to [him]145-hamlin]1069-the particular pre‐raphaelite society which constituted england to him . Yet not necessarily ; there was still a middle course — [she]171-anne might marry [some small shopkeeper or teacher of languages at [Florence]6-florence]1070-some small shopkeeper or teacher of languages at florence ; or , perhaps , [some artist]1071-some artist might notice [her]171-anne , make [her]171-anne [[his]145-hamlin mistress]1072-his mistress , perhaps [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife . This last thought of [Anne Brown]171-anne as [the possible wife of [some other [Melton Perry]146-perry]1075-some other melton perry ( for [they]1075-some other melton perry were all [Melton Perrys]167-the perrys at [Florence]6-florence]1074-the possible wife of some other melton perry ( for they were all melton perrys at florence ) filled [Hamlin]145-hamlin with a vague disgust and irritation . Much better that [she]171-anne should end [her]171-anne life as [a nursery‐maid]1076-a nursery‐maid , or [a daily governess]4119-a daily governess at a franc the hour . Still , it was dreadful to think that something so unique should be lost , wasted for ever . “ Such things must be , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin to [himself]145-hamlin ; “ it is sad , but it ca n’t be helped . ”[145-hamlin] And [he]145-hamlin wrote two sonnets , “ Lost Loveliness , ”[145-hamlin] and “ Stillborn Joy , ”[145-hamlin] which were extremely beautiful , and quite among the finest [he]145-hamlin ever wrote . But this did not despatch the subject . The sense of having made the most of the fact that this loveliness was to be wasted , this joy of beauty to be stillborn , did not make up for the consciousness that the waste , the abortion , had not actually taken place , might yet be prevented , and were dreadful in themselves . Was [he]145-hamlin , [Hamlin]145-hamlin , to marry [Anne Brown]171-anne ? [He]145-hamlin shrank in terror from so Quixotic , and at the same time so commonplace , so school‐girlish a thought . But if [he]145-hamlin did not marry [her]171-anne [no other man]1078-no other man could ; at least , [no other man who was to prevent the act of wastefulness to be consummated]1079-no other man who was to prevent the act of wastefulness to be consummated . [She]171-anne might marry [a clerk]1080-a clerk , [a shopkeeper]1081-a shopkeeper , even [a servant]4125-a servant , or even [some miserable little Anglo‐Florentine artist]1083-some miserable little anglo‐florentine artist ; but if [she]171-anne married [a man above that]1084-a man above that , [a man to appreciate and make the most of [her]171-anne]1085-a man to appreciate and make the most of her , [that man]1086-that man must evidently be [himself]1086-that man . It is difficult to follow the logic of this notion ; but certain it is that [Hamlin]145-hamlin never doubted for a second that either [Anne Brown]171-anne must bloom for [him]145-hamlin and by [him]145-hamlin , must be [his]145-hamlin most precious possession and [his]145-hamlin most precious loan to [the world]496-the world — or that [Anne Brown]171-anne must be simply and deliberately buried under a bushel . Such arguments are matters of character , [I]0-i suppose ; be it as it may , the argument was absolutely cogent . When [Hamlin]145-hamlin had got thus far [he]145-hamlin stopped for a long time , revolving the matter in [his]145-hamlin mind in a purely abstract way , without attempting to realise how things might be settled . [He]145-hamlin was not [a man of action or of resolves]1088-a man of action or of resolves , and would usually let things slip on and look at them slipping ; and during this ruminating condition , [he]145-hamlin did not once seriously ask [himself]145-hamlin whether [he]145-hamlin intended marrying [[the Perrys]167-the perrys ’ nursemaid]965-the perrys ’ nursemaid . But suddenly , the very day before [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends were to carry [him]145-hamlin back to [England]37-england , a new notion came into [his]145-hamlin head . [His]145-hamlin life seemed suddenly filled with romance . The matter was settled in a minute . [Anne Brown]171-anne was to be filched triumphantly from oblivion : [he]145-hamlin telegraphed [Perry]146-perry to hire [him]145-hamlin [rooms in [Florence]6-florence]1091-rooms in florence . As the meeting of certain chemical substances will sometimes produce a new and undreamt‐of something of wholly unprecedented properties , so ideas had come in collision in [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s mind , and out of a mere perplexity had arisen a stranger scheme — out of the question what should be the fate of [Anne Brown]171-anne , had originated the decision what was to be the future of [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin . The situations seemed changed : instead of [his]145-hamlin being a mere possible , but by no means probable , instrument of a change in [her]171-anne life , [she]171-anne was the predestined instrument for the consummation of [his]145-hamlin life . [Anne Brown]171-anne should live for [the world]496-the world and for fame ; and [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s life should be crowned by gradually endowing with vitality , and then wooing , awakening the love of [this beautiful Galatea whose soul [he]145-hamlin had moulded , even as [Pygmalion]205-pygmalion had moulded the limbs of the image which [he]145-hamlin had made to live and to love]1093-this beautiful galatea whose soul he had moulded , even as pygmalion had moulded the limbs of the image which he had made to live and to love . The idea , once present to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s mind , had been accepted at once ; and in another hour [he]145-hamlin had worked out all the details of the real romance in which [he]145-hamlin was embarking ; [he]145-hamlin had determined exactly where [he]145-hamlin would send [Anne Brown]171-anne to [school]1094-school , where [he]145-hamlin would go during [her]171-anne stay there , what settlements [he]145-hamlin would make to ensure [her]171-anne complete freedom of choice when [she]171-anne should choose [him]145-hamlin , in what part of [London]4-london [he]145-hamlin would buy [a house for [her]171-anne]1095-a house for her , which of [[his]145-hamlin female relations]1096-his female relations should have charge of [her]171-anne , by whom [she]171-anne should be introduced into artistic society;—he began to imagine all the details of [his]145-hamlin long courtship . Beyond the courtship , into [their]1097-their actual married life , [his]145-hamlin fancy did not carry [him]145-hamlin ; it was that year , or two or three years of gradually growing devotion , upon which [he]145-hamlin cared to dwell . Whether such a scheme was wise or right it never occurred to [him]145-hamlin to question . [He]145-hamlin had determined on educating , wooing , and marrying [a woman like what [Anne Brown]171-anne]1098-a woman like what anne brown seemed to be , as [a man]503-a man might determine to buy [a house in [a particular fishing or hunting district]1101-a particular fishing or hunting district]1100-a house in a particular fishing or hunting district — the only thing is to make sure whether [the particular house]1102-the particular house is [the suitable house]1103-the suitable house . The only further concern of [Hamlin]145-hamlin was to make sure that [Anne Brown]171-anne was really all that [she]171-anne seemed to [him]145-hamlin to be ; and [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked forward as to a kind of preliminary romance to the strange inspection , this minute examination of a creature who should never guess the extraordinary metamorphosis which might , or might not , be in store for [her]171-anne . A WEEK later [Hamlin]145-hamlin was painting [Anne Brown]171-anne in [a studio which [he]145-hamlin had hired for three months]1104-a studio which he had hired for three months . [She]171-anne had manifested some pleasure when , unexpectedly , [Mrs Perry]146-perry had told [her]171-anne of [his]145-hamlin return , and of [his]145-hamlin desire to have [her]171-anne once more for [a model]1105-a model ; but the manifestation thereof was so calm , or rather so mingled with [her]171-anne usual haughty indifference , that [[her]171-anne romantic and passionate mistress]1106-her romantic and passionate mistress had forthwith made up [her]1106-her romantic and passionate mistress mind that [Anne Brown]171-anne was [a mere soulless body]1107-a mere soulless body , and communicated that fact to [[her]1106-her romantic and passionate mistress husband]693-her husband . “ [I]146-perry do n’t see why [Annie]171-anne should be particularly delighted at the prospect of sitting for two hours , twice a‐week , with [her]171-anne head raised and [her]171-anne throat outstretched , in [a beastly cold studio]4215-a beastly cold studio , ”[146-perry] answered [Perry]146-perry , affecting , as [he]145-hamlin frequently did , from a curious kind of coyness , not to understand [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife ’s underlying meaning . “ [She]171-anne is a mere soulless body , ”[206-mrs perry—“as] repeated [Mrs Perry—“as]206-mrs perry—“as indifferent to [Hamlin]145-hamlin as [a handsome cow]4216-a handsome cow would be . ”[206-mrs perry—“as] “ Do [you]146-perry expect [her]171-anne to throw [herself]171-anne into [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s arms ? ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry , angrily . “ [I]146-perry expect [her]171-anne , ”[146-perry] answered [Mrs Perry]146-perry , with a kind of haughty mystery and sadness , “ to be [a woman]3960-a woman . ”[146-perry] “ And [I]146-perry expect [you]146-perry to attend to [her]171-anne remaining what [she]171-anne is — [an honest girl]4218-an honest girl , ”[146-perry] retorted [Perry]146-perry . “ [Melton]146-perry ! ”[700-his wife] said [[his]1110-he wife]700-his wife solemnly ; and immediately poor [Perry]146-perry ’s principles drooped like a furled sail . [Melton Perry]146-perry had always an uncomfortable feeling of responsibility regarding [Anne Brown]171-anne ; a sort of sense that , as poor old [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon had been grievously mistaken in intrusting [a girl like [Anne Brown]171-anne]1112-a girl like anne brown to [a lady so mystical and romantic as [[his]1110-he wife]700-his wife]1113-a lady so mystical and romantic as his wife , [he]1110-he , on [his]1110-he part , [hardened sinner]1115-hardened sinner , [social wreck as [he]1110-he doubtless was]1116-social wreck as he doubtless was , was in duty bound to make up for [the good old woman]1117-the good old woman ’s want of discernment . If it had been any one except [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [he]1110-he repeated to [himself]1110-he , [he]1110-he would never have permitted a single sitting ; but [Hamlin]145-hamlin was [a Sir Galahad]1118-a sir galahad — at least with regard to [servant girls]1119-servant girls and suchlike — who had always struck [Perry]146-perry dumb with wonder ; and in this instance in particular , [Hamlin]145-hamlin seemed really to consider [Anne Brown]171-anne much in the light of a picture by [an old master]1120-an old master . Yet even thus , it had taken [him]145-hamlin by surprise , and relieved [his]145-hamlin mind of a heavy weight , when , the day before the first sitting in [the studio]795-the studio , [Ham]in]207-ham]in had asked [Mrs Perry]146-perry to tell [him]145-hamlin of [some elderly woman — some former housekeeper or nurse in [an English family]1123-an english family — who could come to [[his]145-hamlin studio]1124-his studio and keep it in order two or three times a‐week]1122-some elderly woman — some former housekeeper or nurse in an english family — who could come to his studio and keep it in order two or three times a‐week . “ [I]146-perry can recommend [you]145-hamlin [a most delightful young laundress]4219-a most delightful young laundress , ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Mrs Perry]146-perry with fervour—“quite a Palma Vecchio . ”[146-perry] “ Thank [you]146-perry , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , drily ; “ [I]145-hamlin particularly want [an elderly woman who can take charge of [my]145-hamlin things , and who can be there when — [I]145-hamlin mean , who can take [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s bonnet and shawl when [she]171-anne comes to sit to [me]145-hamlin]4220-an elderly woman who can take charge of my things , and who can be there when — i mean , who can take miss brown ’s bonnet and shawl when she comes to sit to me . ”[145-hamlin] [Mrs Perry]146-perry confessed to no knowledge of [such a person]1125-such a person , but sat down to write to [the German deaconesses,—“such real saints,”—in]4221-the german deaconesses,—“such real saints,”—in[4221-the german deaconesses,—“such real saints,”—in] quest of the desired piece of elderly respectability . But when [she]146-perry had gone to [her]146-perry writing‐table , [Melton Perry]146-perry kicked [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s foot under the table , and said in an undertone — “ [You]145-hamlin are [a damned moral dog]4222-a damned moral dog , certainly , [Wat]208-wat . Thank [you]145-hamlin so much , [old fellow]4051-old fellow . ”[146-perry] So [the old housekeeper]1126-the old housekeeper was hired to go three times a‐week to [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s studio]1127-hamlin ’s studio , and twice a‐week [she]1126-the old housekeeper opened [the studio]795-the studio door to [Anne Brown]171-anne , and took [the girl]583-the girl ’s poke‐bonnet and grey shawl in the little anteroom , crammed full of dwarf orange‐trees , which opened into the pillared balcony circling round [the topmost floor of [the old palace]1131-the old palace]1130-the topmost floor of the old palace , and from which [you]1132-you looked into [the lichened court]1133-the lichened court , and saw the steel‐like sheen of the water in the well . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had determined to embody one of [his]145-hamlin usual mystical fancies in [his]145-hamlin new picture . [His]145-hamlin pictures came to [him]145-hamlin first as poems , and [he]145-hamlin had written a sonnet descriptive of [his]145-hamlin intended work before [he]145-hamlin had painted a stroke of it . It was called [Venus Victrix]209-venus victrix ; and the strangeness , the mysteriousness which gave a charm to [his]145-hamlin beautiful church‐window‐like pictures , and made one forget for a minute the uncertainty of drawing and the weakness of flesh‐painting — this essential quality of the pictorial riddle depended very much upon the fact that [his]145-hamlin Venus Victrix was entirely unlike any other Venus Victrix which the mind of [man]1134-man could conceive . Instead of [the naked goddess]1135-the naked goddess triumphing over the apple of [Paris]42-paris , whom such a name would lead [you]1132-you to expect , [Hamlin]145-hamlin made a sketch of [a lady in a dress of sad‐coloured green and gold brocade , seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks , suffused with the grey and yellow tints of a late sunset]1136-a lady in a dress of sad‐coloured green and gold brocade , seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks , suffused with the grey and yellow tints of a late sunset ; behind [her]1136-a lady in a dress of sad‐coloured green and gold brocade , seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks , suffused with the grey and yellow tints of a late sunset was a bower of sear‐coloured palms , knotting their boughs into a kind of canopy for [her]1136-a lady in a dress of sad‐coloured green and gold brocade , seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks , suffused with the grey and yellow tints of a late sunset head , and in [her]1136-a lady in a dress of sad‐coloured green and gold brocade , seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks , suffused with the grey and yellow tints of a late sunset hand [she]1136-a lady in a dress of sad‐coloured green and gold brocade , seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks , suffused with the grey and yellow tints of a late sunset held , dragged despondingly on the ground , a broken palm‐branch . The expression of [the goddess of Love]1137-the goddess of love , since such [she]1136-a lady in a dress of sad‐coloured green and gold brocade , seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks , suffused with the grey and yellow tints of a late sunset was , was one of intense melancholy . It was one of those pictures which go to the head with a perfectly unintelligible mystery , and which absolutely preclude all possibility of inquiring into their exact meaning . A picture which might have been one of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s best , only that it was never finished . For , it must be remembered , the picture , or rather the painting of it , was merely an excuse invented by [Hamlin]145-hamlin for an opportunity of seeing , of examining , the creature whose future was in [his]145-hamlin hands . [He]145-hamlin wished to assure [himself]145-hamlin that [Anne Brown]171-anne was really the [Anne Brown]171-anne of [his]145-hamlin fancy ; and as [he]145-hamlin stared at that strange and beautiful face , it was not in reality with the object of transferring it on to [his]145-hamlin canvas , but to make sure whether it was really as strange as it seemed to [him]145-hamlin . It was also to gauge whatever mystery there might be hidden in that singular nature . Whether [he]145-hamlin ever did gauge it , it is impossible to tell . There was , [he]145-hamlin felt , something strange there — something which corresponded with the magnificent and mysterious outside,—a possibility of thought and emotion enclosed like the bud in its case of young leaves — a potential passion , good or bad , of some sort . At [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s actual character it was difficult to get ; or rather , perhaps , there was as yet but little actual character to get at . [He]145-hamlin became more and more persuaded , as [he]145-hamlin sat opposite to [her]171-anne , painting and talking — or , interrupting the sitting , playing to [her]171-anne strange songs which [he]145-hamlin had picked up in [his]145-hamlin travels , and fragments of forgotten operas which it was [his]145-hamlin mania to collect — that [Anne Brown]171-anne was in reality much younger than [her]171-anne years ; that beneath those solemn features there was [a still immature soul wrapped up in mere conventional ideas of right and wrong , a few inherited republican formulæ , and a natural pride which had grown , as does any protecting skin , physical or moral , where surroundings are for ever chafing and wearing]1138-a still immature soul wrapped up in mere conventional ideas of right and wrong , a few inherited republican formulæ , and a natural pride which had grown , as does any protecting skin , physical or moral , where surroundings are for ever chafing and wearing . [A soul , above all , which had never yet sought for an ideal]1139-a soul , above all , which had never yet sought for an ideal — had never loved ; and this knowledge was to [Hamlin]145-hamlin a source of infinite satisfaction . It was a satisfaction , also , to notice how , little by little , whatever ideals seemed to bud in [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s mind , were connected with [him]145-hamlin , or at least with the things which [he]145-hamlin presented to [her]171-anne imagination . Nay , with [himself]145-hamlin , as [a person]1140-a person not at all , but yet with the books , the music , the pictures about which [he]145-hamlin talked to [her]171-anne . [This studio]1141-this studio , so unlike [the bleak and tobacco‐reeking workshop of [Melton Perry]146-perry]1142-the bleak and tobacco‐reeking workshop of melton perry , with [its]1141-this studio curious carved furniture , [its]1141-this studio Japanese screens , [its]1141-this studio bits of brocade and tapestry ( rubbish which [Hamlin]145-hamlin would have blushed at in [London]4-london ) , [its]1141-this studio shelves of books and chipped majolica and glass , its quantity of flowers , was evidently a sort of earthly paradise to [the girl]583-the girl . And [the handsome , pale , serious young man]1144-the handsome , pale , serious young man , with womanishly regular feature and world‐worn look , who treated [her]171-anne with a sort of protecting deference , who instructed [her]171-anne in what [she]171-anne ought to like and dislike , and at the same time asked with real earnestness for [her]171-anne opinion , was evidently [its affable archangel]1145-its affable archangel . This [Hamlin]145-hamlin perceived to [his]145-hamlin pleasure ; but , nevertheless , [he]145-hamlin perceived also that all feeling , all ideas , were in [Anne Brown]171-anne vague , immature , or merely potential — unless , indeed , [this tragic‐looking creature]1146-this tragic‐looking creature repressed and drowned in the darkness of [her]171-anne consciousness anything more definite and developed . [They]1147-they did not talk very much , for [they]1147-they were both of [them]1147-they rather taciturn ; but what [they]1147-they said acquired therefrom more than doubled importance . And of this talking [Hamlin]145-hamlin did by far the greater share . [Anne Brown]171-anne had indeed little to say — [a nursery‐maid of nineteen]1148-a nursery‐maid of nineteen has not much to tell [a fashionable poet‐painter of thirty‐one]1149-a fashionable poet‐painter of thirty‐one : slight descriptions of places [she]171-anne had been to , [villas]1150-villas , or bathing‐places , and one or two excursions from [them]1151-them ; vague reminiscences of [old Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon , of the books which [she]171-anne had made [the girl]583-the girl read , the music [she]171-anne had heard , the anecdotes of [Landor]210-landor and [Rossini]197-rossini and [Malibran]211-malibran which [the old lady]1153-the old lady had narrated ; a few allusions , short and passionate , to [[her]171-anne father]4143-her father ; a few more , sullen and dreary , to [her]171-anne own future life;—that was all that poor [Anne Brown]171-anne could say . For when [he]4143-her father told [her]171-anne the plots of novels , and repeated scraps of poems to [her]171-anne , [she]171-anne scarcely ventured to give [him]4143-her father [her]171-anne opinion . [She]171-anne was so earnest that [she]171-anne felt that only something worth saying should be said ; and what things worth saying could [she]171-anne say to [him]4143-her father ? “ By the way , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin one day , as [she]171-anne stood , tying [her]171-anne bonnet , and looking out over the sea of shingly roofs , the sudden gaps showing [shady gardens far below]1155-shady gardens far below , open loggias , between whose columns fluttered linen , and irregular rows of windows with herbs in broken ewers on [their]1156-their sills—“by the way , [you]4143-her father have never told [me]171-anne how [you]4143-her father liked the ‘ Vita Nuova , ’ [Miss Brown]171-anne . ”[171-anne] [He]4143-her father had talked of so many books , making [her]171-anne wonder and sometimes laugh at [his]4143-her father account of them , but never about that , nor about [his]4143-her father own . “ It is very beautiful , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , still looking out of the window—“but do [you]4143-her father think it is true ? ”[4143-her father] “ Why not ? ”[4143-her father] [he]4143-her father said . “ [I]171-anne do n’t know — [I]171-anne do n’t think there are [men like that]4224-men like that ; ”[171-anne] then [she]171-anne suddenly added , with a sort of melancholy humorous laugh , which was frequent with [her]171-anne , “ [I]171-anne will make [[my]171-anne pupils]4225-my pupils read it when [I]171-anne am [a parlatrice]4226-a parlatrice . [Those ladies]4227-those ladies will tell [me]171-anne [their]4227-those ladies opinion . ”[171-anne] [Hamlin]145-hamlin was looking at [her]171-anne , as [she]171-anne still turned [her]171-anne massive head , with its waves of iron‐black hair , away from [him]145-hamlin , towards the light . “ Good‐bye , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , with [her]171-anne hand on the door‐latch . “ Stop a minute , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; and going to a book‐shelf , [he]145-hamlin got down a little green‐bound volume . “ [I]145-hamlin do n’t know why , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ but [I]145-hamlin should like [you]171-anne to read these . It is idiotic trash after the ‘ Vita Nuova’—but it is [mine]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] “ Thank [you]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said . “ [I]171-anne will bring it [you]145-hamlin back next sitting . [I]171-anne will cover the binding . ”[171-anne] “ [I]171-anne want [you]171-anne to keep it . Wo n’t [you]145-hamlin do [me]171-anne that favour ? ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne reddened all over [her]171-anne pale face . “ Thank [you]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said . “ ’ It is very good of [you]145-hamlin . ”[171-anne] IT so happened that as [Anne Brown]171-anne was walking quickly [home]4170-home [she]171-anne was overtaken by [Melton Perry]146-perry . “ What ’s that book , [Annie]171-anne ? ”[1158-he] [he]1158-he inquired , as [they]1159-they walked side by side . “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin gave it [me]1158-he — it ’s [his]145-hamlin poems . ”[1158-he] “ Let [me]146-perry see . ”[146-perry] [Perry]146-perry was more peremptory than usual . [He]1158-he turned over the leaves as [they]1159-they went along , and then returned it to [her]171-anne . “ [You]171-anne may read that , ”[1158-he] [he]1158-he said—“it ’s sad trash , but [you]171-anne may read it . All poetry is n’t fit for [women]3959-women to read , ”[1158-he] [he]1158-he added , by way of explanation . The gift of this book somehow disturbed [Perry]146-perry ’s equanimity . “ What made [him]145-hamlin give [you]171-anne that book ? ”[1158-he] [he]1158-he asked . “ [I]1158-he do n’t know , [sir]3865-sir . [We]1159-they were talking about the ‘ Vita Nuova . ’ ”[1158-he] “ A lot of confounded medieval twaddle , ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry . “ Why do n’t [you]171-anne read ‘ [Lady Audley]212-lady audley ’s Secret ’ or ‘ The Heir of [Redclyffe]44-redclyffe ’ ? that ’s the right sort of thing . ”[146-perry] [She]171-anne seemed hurt , and [they]1159-they were silent . Suddenly [Perry]146-perry said , with some roughness — “ [I]146-perry ’m sorry to inconvenience [Hamlin]145-hamlin , but this will be the last of the sittings . [I]146-perry am going to send [you]145-hamlin to [the sea‐side]4230-the sea‐side with [the children]3862-the children in a day or two . [Little May]213-marie needs change of air . When [you]145-hamlin return , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin will be leaving [Florence]6-florence . ”[146-perry] “ Yes , [sir]3865-sir , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne Brown]171-anne ; and a kind of suppressed spasm passed across [her]171-anne face . [Perry]146-perry saw it . “ It ’s high time , ”[1160-he] [he]1160-he said to [himself]1160-he . [Melton Perry]146-perry could not screw up [his]1160-he courage till [he]1160-he and [[his]1160-he wife]700-his wife and [Hamlin]145-hamlin had already finished dinner that evening . “ [I]1160-he say , [Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[1160-he] [he]1160-he began , lighting [his]1160-he pipe , while [Mrs Perry]146-perry artistically twisted a cigarette in [her]146-perry long brown fingers—“d’you think [you]145-hamlin could finish off that picture with only one more sitting ? [I]146-perry ’m sure [Mrs Perry]146-perry thinks it is time for [the children]3862-the children to go down to [the sea‐side]4230-the sea‐side — only , of course , [she]146-perry does n’t like disturbing [you]145-hamlin in [your]145-hamlin work . ”[146-perry] “ Go down to [the sea‐side]4230-the sea‐side ! ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Mrs Perry]146-perry , not at all mollified by [[her]146-perry husband]693-her husband ’s deference ; “ who talks of going to [the seaside]4236-the seaside ? and what has that to do with [his]693-her husband work ? ”[146-perry] “ [You]145-hamlin forget , [[my]146-perry dear]4237-my dear , that [you]145-hamlin said this morning that May requires change of air — and , of course , [Annie]171-anne will be required to take [the children]3862-the children down to [Viareggio]45-viareggio . [I]146-perry am extremely sorry for [you]145-hamlin , [old fellow]4051-old fellow , but [I]146-perry fear [you]145-hamlin must finish that picture — at least so far as [Annie]171-anne is concerned — by the beginning of next week . ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin see , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , briefly . For the first time in [his]145-hamlin life almost , [he]145-hamlin felt angry with [[his]145-hamlin old friend]530-his old friend ; an unspeakable resentment at this interference with what [he]145-hamlin considered already as [his]145-hamlin . “ [I]146-perry see nothing of the sort , ”[146-perry] burst out [Mrs Perry]146-perry ; “ [I]146-perry will never , never permit [dear Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s masterpiece to be spoilt . [I]146-perry would rather take [the children]3862-the children to [the sea‐side]4230-the sea‐side [myself]146-perry — oh yes . [I]146-perry would rather [they]3862-the children did not go at all . [[My]146-perry children]3970-my children are the dearest things [I]146-perry possess , but [I]146-perry have no right selfishly to prefer [their]3862-the children welfare to the completion of such a picture . [I]146-perry should never forgive [myself]146-perry . That unfinished picture , [that strange , terrible Venus]4243-that strange , terrible venus , would haunt [me]146-perry in [my]146-perry dreams , and [I]146-perry should hear [the whole world]4244-the whole world asking [me]146-perry , ‘ What have [you]146-perry done with a thing meant for [our]4245-our joy ? ’ ”[146-perry] “ Bosh ! ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry , stretching out [his]1164-his legs and puffing at [his]1164-his pipe—“rubbish ! A fine thing if May gets low fever again : much [you]146-perry ’ll think of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s masterpiece then . ”[146-perry] “ May shall not have fever , ”[146-perry] answered [Mrs Perry]146-perry , haughtily ; “ and [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s masterpiece , which [you]146-perry choose to sneer at — ”[146-perry] “ Oh , please , do n’t bother about [my]145-hamlin masterpieces ! ”[145-hamlin] interposed [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ — Shall not be sacrificed . [You]146-perry shall take [the children]3862-the children to [the sea‐side]4230-the sea‐side , [Melton]146-perry ; and [Annie]171-anne shall continue to give [him]693-her husband as many sittings as [he]693-her husband may wish . ”[145-hamlin] And then , passing over [[her]146-perry husband]693-her husband ’s nauseous existence , [she]146-perry began a mellifluous and irrelevant conversation with [Hamlin]145-hamlin across [him]693-her husband . But after two or three minutes [Perry]146-perry could stand it no longer . “ Damn [your]146-perry sea‐side ! ”[693-her husband] [he]693-her husband suddenly burst out . “ [Melton]146-perry ! ”[146-perry] shrieked [Mrs Perry]146-perry , falling back on [her]146-perry chair . “ Damn [your]146-perry sea‐side ! ”[146-perry] repeated [Perry]146-perry . “ Have n’t [you]146-perry eyes in [your]146-perry head to understand that [the sea‐side]4230-the sea‐side has nothing to do with the matter ? [The children]3862-the children no more require to go to [Viareggio]45-viareggio than [I]146-perry require to be made [Khan of [Tartary]46-tartary]4250-khan of tartary . What is required is that [an honest girl]4218-an honest girl , who was intrusted to [us]4252-us by [an old friend]4253-an old friend , should not get to be talked of as a — ”[146-perry] “ This loathsome coarseness is too much for [me]146-perry . Adieu , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ! ”[146-perry] and [Mrs Perry]146-perry flounced out of [the room]574-the room . “ [Lord]4254-lord deliver [us]4252-us from [womankind]4255-womankind ! ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Perry]146-perry , as the door shut upon [[his]1167-his wife]700-his wife , and [he]1167-his fell back in [his]1167-his chair . “ What a nice breakfast [I]145-hamlin shall have to‐morrow ! ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not answer , but merely lit another cigarette , and looked into the smouldering fire . “ [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [old boy]4256-old boy , ”[146-perry] resumed [Perry]146-perry , “ do n’t be down upon [me]146-perry . [I]146-perry really am confoundedly sorry to bother [you]145-hamlin — indeed [I]146-perry am ; but — [you]145-hamlin see — about [this girl]630-this girl — ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin understand , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , shortly ; “ do n’t let ’s talk about it . ”[145-hamlin] “ But — please do n’t be in a rage with [me]146-perry , [Watty]178-watty , ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry , appealingly ; “ really [I]146-perry do n’t know what to do . [You]145-hamlin see , it ’s not as if [she]630-this girl were [an ordinary girl]4258-an ordinary girl or [an ordinary servant]4259-an ordinary servant ; then [I]146-perry should say — hang it , please [yourself]145-hamlin ! ”[146-perry] “ Sweet morals ! ”[145-hamlin] sneered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ But with [her]630-this girl it ’s different ; [I]145-hamlin ’m sure [you]145-hamlin must recognise that [yourself]145-hamlin . Now [I]145-hamlin do n’t mean to say [you]145-hamlin are in the least to blame , or that [the girl]583-the girl cares the least scrap about [you]145-hamlin ; but still , this sort of thing wo n’t do . [I]145-hamlin know [you]145-hamlin ’re [the last man]4261-the last man to do a dirty thing — indeed [you]145-hamlin ’re [the only man whom [I]145-hamlin would have permitted to go on so long]4262-the only man whom i would have permitted to go on so long . But then , quite without meaning anything , all that sitting , and talking , and discussing poetry and ‘ [Vita Nuova]214-vita nuova ’ together — without knowing it , it puts ideas into [a girl]4122-a girl ’s head , makes [her]4122-a girl dissatisfied , that sort of thing , and the result is that [she]4122-a girl goes to the bad . And then , here in [Florence]6-florence especially , [a girl]4122-a girl ’s none the better looked at for having sat , if even only to [one man]4265-one man . [People]577-people begin to talk ( at [the villa]777-the villa it was another matter ) , stories go round , and it becomes difficult for [her]4122-a girl to get a respectable situation . ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]145-hamlin need n’t say any more , ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with almost feminine impatience . All this gave [him]145-hamlin a sense of moral nausea . “ [You]145-hamlin understand , [old fellow]4051-old fellow , [I]146-perry do n’t mean it about [you]145-hamlin in particular , ”[146-perry] persisted [Perry]146-perry ; “ indeed [you]145-hamlin ’ve behaved like [Sir Bors]215-sir bors , [Sir Percival]216-sir percival , and [Sir Galahad]217-sir galahad all rolled into one . But it ’s the fatality of the circumstances , the beastly world about [us]4269-us . [You]145-hamlin ’re not angry , are [you]145-hamlin , with [me]146-perry ? ”[146-perry] “ Not a bit , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , quietly , minutely examining one of the pictures on the wall , which was not worth looking at , and had been thoroughly looked at by [him]145-hamlin already ; “ not a bit , [[my]146-perry dear]4237-my dear [Perry]146-perry . [I]146-perry suppose [you]145-hamlin have no objection to [Miss Brown]171-anne giving [me]146-perry one more morning ? ”[146-perry] “ Not the least — two , or even three , for the matter of that . [I]146-perry was only anxious not to spin out things indefinitely . ”[146-perry] “ One more sitting will be more than enough , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ By the way , before [I]145-hamlin go , [I]145-hamlin want to do a drawing of little [Mildred]165-mildred . ”[145-hamlin] IT was a cold and drizzling February morning that last sitting which [Anne Brown]171-anne was to give to [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin . As [the girl]583-the girl slowly mounted [the well‐like stairs of [the old tower palace]1171-the old tower palace]1170-the well‐like stairs of the old tower palace , and saw [the distant snow‐covered hills]1172-the distant snow‐covered hills through the dim windows on [the landings]1173-the landings , [she]583-the girl thought with sadness that this was the last time [she]583-the girl should toil up to [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s studio]1127-hamlin ’s studio . A lethargy weighed upon [her]583-the girl , making [her]583-the girl feel that everything was dreary and unreal , such as [she]583-the girl had experienced only once or twice before , when one of the few holidays of [her]583-the girl childhood had drawn to a close . The cheerless , colourless , eventless , joyless routine of ordinary life was about to close over , to engulf , [her]583-the girl little island of brightness . [She]583-the girl was longer than usual taking off [her]583-the girl bonnet and cloak in the anteroom filled with orange‐trees , for [she]583-the girl felt as if [she]583-the girl must look at everything well one last time — at the bits of brocade and the photographs on the wall , the plaster‐casts on the shelf , the scarlet and purple anemones in the cracked china bow ] , the brass synagogue lamp hanging in the window . “ It is bad weather , ”[1175-hamlin ’s old housekeeper] said [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s old housekeeper]1175-hamlin ’s old housekeeper . “ Horrible , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , looking vacantly through the window at the grey sky and wet roofs . [The old woman]1176-the old woman opened the studio door and drew the curtains . [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who was at a table writing , rose and came to meet [[his]145-hamlin model]785-his model . “ It is very good of [you]1176-the old woman to come in such horrible weather , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said . “ It is the last sitting — [I]1176-the old woman thought [I]1176-the old woman ought not to miss it , ”[1176-the old woman] and [she]1176-the old woman sat down at once in the arm‐chair of faded green velvet opposite [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s easel]1178-hamlin ’s easel . “ Wo n’t [you]1176-the old woman warm [yourself]1176-the old woman a little ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked . “ No , thank [you]1176-the old woman ; [I]145-hamlin am not cold . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin began to prepare [his]145-hamlin paints . “ [You]1176-the old woman are going to [Viareggio]45-viareggio , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin remarked . “ Yes ; [I]145-hamlin believe [I]145-hamlin am . ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]1176-the old woman will enjoy the change of air . [The sea]4271-the sea — [you]1176-the old woman told [me]145-hamlin [you]1176-the old woman liked [the sea]4271-the sea one day,”—and[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin went on squeezing the paints on to [his]145-hamlin palette . “ [I]145-hamlin suppose so . ”[145-hamlin] [She]1179-she said no more . [Hamlin]145-hamlin was seated before [his]145-hamlin easel , looking now at [his]145-hamlin work and now at [her]1179-she , and making minute alterations with a small brush . [They]1180-they did not talk much . [He]145-hamlin seemed bent upon [his]145-hamlin work . [He]145-hamlin had told [her]1179-she that [she]1179-she need not keep [her]1179-she head in position , as [he]145-hamlin was merely finishing some unimportant details . [Her]1179-she eyes wandered round [the room]574-the room — at the books , the sketches on the wall , the rugs under foot . On the chimney‐piece was stuck a photograph of [Melton Perry]146-perry . If only [she]1179-she might have a photograph of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ! . . . For less than a second [she]1179-she thought [she]1179-she might beg for one ; then it seemed to [her]1179-she impossible , and the wish beat itself painfully against that cold , dead impossibility , like a bird against its cage‐bars . [Hamlin]145-hamlin called [the old woman]1176-the old woman — “ Take that letter to the post‐office at [the Uffizi]47-the uffizi , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , pointing to [his]145-hamlin writing‐table , “ and mind [you]1176-the old woman get it registered . ”[145-hamlin] It was the first time that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had sent [the old woman]1176-the old woman on an errand during one of [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s sittings , when [she]1176-the old woman was wo nt to go in and out of [the studio]795-the studio noiselessly , like [a watchful duenna]1185-a watchful duenna . The heavy stairs door banged behind [her]1176-the old woman . [Anne]171-anne listened to it dully , vacantly , as [one]620-one listens to things when deeply preoccupied . For a few minutes [Hamlin]145-hamlin worked on in silence , then suddenly , without looking up , [he]145-hamlin said — “ Do [you]171-anne remember [my]145-hamlin finding [your]171-anne ‘ [Dante]180-dante ’ in the vineyard at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] “ Yes , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered . “ And [you]145-hamlin told [me]145-hamlin that [you]145-hamlin wished to fit [yourself]145-hamlin to be [a teacher]4134-a teacher ? ”[145-hamlin] “ Yes , [I]145-hamlin remember . ”[145-hamlin] “ Well , ”[145-hamlin] went on [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ [I]145-hamlin have been thinking about that ; and [I]145-hamlin think it would be a pity — [I]145-hamlin mean — [I]145-hamlin hope [you]171-anne wo n’t think it horribly rude of [me]145-hamlin to say so — [I]145-hamlin think it would be better if [you]171-anne went to [school]1094-school for a little while [yourself]171-anne . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne stared at this speech , and at the close of it [her]171-anne surprise turned to resentment . “ Of course it would be better , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , bitterly ; “ of course [I]171-anne shall always be very ignorant ; but [I]171-anne have no wish to set up for what [I]171-anne am not . [I]171-anne am not going to teach [people]577-people anything — only to correct [their]577-people pronunciation and a few mistakes . [One]620-one does not require to study much for that , and [I]171-anne shall be competent to do it . ”[171-anne] In [her]171-anne quiet , subdued way [she]171-anne looked very angry . [Hamlin]145-hamlin rose from [his]145-hamlin easel . “ [You]171-anne misunderstand [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said ; “ and indeed what [I]145-hamlin have to say is so strange and perhaps so unjustifiable , that [you]171-anne have every right to do so . Listen , ”[145-hamlin] and [he]145-hamlin drew a chair near [hers]171-anne . “ Please do not think [me]145-hamlin very bold , and forgive the horrid way in which [I]145-hamlin am forced to put things , when [I]145-hamlin tell [you]171-anne , [dear Miss Brown]171-anne , that [I]145-hamlin am very much interested in [you]171-anne , and , indeed — will [you]171-anne forgive [a comparative stranger]4277-a comparative stranger saying so?—that [I]145-hamlin have never felt so much attracted by [any one]4101-any one as [I]145-hamlin do by [you]171-anne . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne Brown]171-anne did not answer ; [she]171-anne seemed literally petrified by sheer astonishment . “ The time has come when [our]4279-our acquaintance must come to an end , ”[145-hamlin] went on [Hamlin]145-hamlin , rapidly ; “ but [I]145-hamlin can not let this happen without making an effort to prolong it . [I]145-hamlin have [no brothers]4280-no brothers or [sisters]999-sisters — [no one]3899-no one , at least , living with [me]145-hamlin , except [distant relations]4283-distant relations . [I]145-hamlin have never taken much interest in [anybody]4081-anybody . But now [I]145-hamlin want to know — would [you]171-anne , instead of [our]4279-our parting company altogether — would [you]171-anne let [me]145-hamlin become [[your]171-anne guardian]4285-your guardian for the next few years , and as such , would [you]171-anne let [me]145-hamlin take charge of [your]171-anne education and send [you]171-anne to [school]1094-school ? It seems a very ridiculous thing to suggest . But still [you]171-anne must not be angry with [me]145-hamlin for doing so . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne ’s big onyx eyes had opened wider and wider . [She]171-anne flushed purple in the middle of [his]1187-his speech , then turned ashy‐white , while [she]171-anne picked convulsively at the fringe of the armchair . Then suddenly a sort of convulsion came across [her]171-anne face , and , as if from sheer unbearable tension of feeling , [she]171-anne burst into tears . [She]171-anne gave way only one second , immediately trying to stop [herself]171-anne , but in vain . [Hamlin]145-hamlin felt that [he]145-hamlin was making a horrible mess of it . [He]145-hamlin came close up to the chair where [the poor girl]1188-the poor girl was thrown back , shaken with sobs . “ [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin cried , taking [her]1188-the poor girl hand—“Anne — oh , do n’t be unhappy ! [I]145-hamlin did not mean to offend [you]171-anne . Do n’t [you]171-anne understand [my]145-hamlin meaning ? [I]145-hamlin wish [you]171-anne to be what [you]171-anne have a right to be . [I]145-hamlin wish [you]171-anne to be in such a position that of [all the men in [the world]496-the world]4287-all the men in the world [you]171-anne may choose [the one who deserves [you]171-anne most]4289-the one who deserves you most . [Anne]171-anne , [I]145-hamlin love [you]171-anne — and [I]145-hamlin hope that perhaps some day [you]171-anne may love [me]145-hamlin ; but [I]145-hamlin want [you]171-anne to be able to love whoever may best deserve [you]171-anne , and merely to do [my]145-hamlin best that [you]171-anne should care for [me]145-hamlin . [I]145-hamlin want [you]171-anne to have a future independent of [me]145-hamlin — to possess the education and the fortune which shall enable [you]171-anne to marry whomsoever [you]171-anne will , or not to marry at all . Will [you]171-anne let [me]145-hamlin , for the time being , be [[your]171-anne guardian]4285-your guardian , [[your]171-anne father]3947-your father , [[your]171-anne brother]4292-your brother ; let [me]145-hamlin provide for [you]171-anne , take care of [your]171-anne money , see to [your]171-anne education ? [I]145-hamlin do not ask [you]171-anne to love [me]145-hamlin , but merely to give [me]145-hamlin a chance of trying to make [you]171-anne prefer [me]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne did not cease sobbing ; and every convulsive heaving of [her]171-anne body made [Hamlin]145-hamlin feel a sort of sickening terror . [He]145-hamlin slid down on [his]145-hamlin knees and kissed [her]171-anne hand . This action seemed suddenly to awaken [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne started up , and making a tremendous effort , stopped [her]171-anne crying . [He]145-hamlin stood aside while [she]171-anne went to the mirror and looked at [her]171-anne swollen eyes and convulsed face . “ May [I]171-anne have a glass of water ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked ; then , stopping [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ never mind , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said—“never mind — [I]145-hamlin must go ; ”[145-hamlin] and [she]171-anne pulled [her]171-anne blue veil hurriedly over [her]171-anne eyes and huddled on [her]171-anne cloak . “ [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ why do n’t [you]171-anne answer [me]145-hamlin ? ”[145-hamlin] and [he]145-hamlin laid hold of [her]171-anne arm as [she]171-anne was about to open the door . “ Because [you]145-hamlin do not deserve it , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered , trying to loosen [his]145-hamlin grasp . “ Let [me]171-anne go , please . ”[171-anne] “ [I]145-hamlin can not let [you]171-anne go , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin calmly , standing before the door , “ until [you]171-anne have listened to [me]145-hamlin . Will [you]171-anne let [me]145-hamlin provide for [your]171-anne future , send [you]171-anne to [school]1094-school , and then place [you]171-anne in the care of [[my]145-hamlin aunt]4294-my aunt ? Will [you]171-anne let [me]145-hamlin act as if [I]145-hamlin were [[your]171-anne guardian]4285-your guardian for the next three years , and at the end of [them]4296-them [you]171-anne shall have enough to live and marry as befits [a lady]3943-a lady , and be as free as air , or become [[my]145-hamlin wife]3952-my wife — whichever [you]171-anne shall choose ? Answer [me]145-hamlin , for [I]145-hamlin am serious . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne Brown]171-anne paused . “ Do n’t ask [me]171-anne for an answer now , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said ; “ [I]171-anne am not sure that [you]145-hamlin are in earnest . ”[171-anne] “ [I]145-hamlin am — indeed [I]145-hamlin am ! ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “ [I]145-hamlin have intended asking [you]171-anne this ever since [my]145-hamlin return to [Florence]6-florence . [I]145-hamlin returned merely in order to ask [you]171-anne . [I]145-hamlin am in earnest ; can not [you]145-hamlin give [me]145-hamlin a serious answer ? ”[145-hamlin] “ Not now — [I]145-hamlin ca n’t think about anything ; [I]145-hamlin must ask ; [I]145-hamlin do n’t know what is right to do . ”[145-hamlin] [He]145-hamlin opened the door , and [Anne Brown]171-anne walked out rapidly , through [the anteroom]1189-the anteroom and [downstairs]1190-downstairs . FOR a long time [Anne Brown]171-anne remained as it were dazed , as if [she]171-anne had received a blow on the head . When [she]171-anne got back to [[the Perrys]167-the perrys ’ house]1191-the perrys ’ house , [she]171-anne felt broken in all [her]171-anne limbs , and slipped up‐stairs and threw [herself]171-anne on [her]171-anne bed . But it was no use : all that day , while attending on [the children]3862-the children and doing [her]171-anne usual work , [she]171-anne felt as if [some one else]1193-some one else were doing it all ; while [she]171-anne remained conscious only of something very sudden and strange , of a confused buzzing in [her]171-anne brain , through which [she]171-anne heard the voice of [Hamlin]145-hamlin repeating [his]145-hamlin words in [the studio]795-the studio ; words which somehow made [her]171-anne indignant , angry , and at the same time filled [her]171-anne with a sense of having done something which [she]171-anne should not . This feeling increased at night , and [she]171-anne lay awake while the clocks struck hour after hour , hot , red , half deafened by [her]171-anne own blood , fevered and vaguely indignant . It was as if [Hamlin]145-hamlin had struck [her]171-anne ; [she]171-anne felt insulted , outraged , by this strange interference with [her]171-anne fate , this wonderful intrusion of excitement into [her]171-anne dull and sombre life . It was dawn when [she]171-anne awoke : a chill greyness in the sky , reddened by the pale winter sun . [She]171-anne knew that something had happened , that something was changed . [She]171-anne was almost surprised to find [herself]171-anne in [[her]171-anne usual room]1195-her usual room , with [the children]3862-the children ’s tea‐sets on the chest of drawers , the coloured pictures from the ‘ Illustrated ’ and the ‘ Graphic ’ pinned on the walls , [[the dolls]1197-the dolls ’ houses]1198-the dolls ’ houses in the corner , and [little May]218-little may asleep by [her]171-anne side in [[her]171-anne crib]1199-her crib . Then [she]171-anne remembered it all , and sat up in [her]171-anne bed thinking about it . Things appeared to [her]171-anne in quite a new light . [She]171-anne had been an ungrateful beast to feel as [she]171-anne had towards [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; and a great wave of gratitude and awe , and love and joy , welled up in [her]171-anne heart . It was as if [she]171-anne were sitting in the sunshine : an indefinable kind of happiness . How noble and generous and good [he]145-hamlin had been ; and how doubly so , being so great , and [she]171-anne being a mere nothing in [the world]496-the world ! Whether [he]145-hamlin loved [her]171-anne or [she]171-anne [him]145-hamlin , [she]171-anne did not ask [herself]171-anne ; it seemed a thing to die of for sheer happiness , that [any one]4101-any one should care for [her]171-anne and [her]171-anne future . And just in proportion to [her]171-anne usual pride , and sullenness , and joylessness , [she]171-anne felt happy in the idea of deserving nothing and receiving everything , from [his]145-hamlin kindness : and [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with whom [she]171-anne had spoken not twenty‐four hours earlier , whom [she]171-anne would see again that day , appeared to [her]171-anne as a distant , dim , ineffable creature , lighting and warming [her]171-anne like the sun , but equally unapproachable . But on thinking it over , things came round to commonplace actuality . What was [she]171-anne to do ? Would [he]145-hamlin ask [her]171-anne again ? or even , had [he]145-hamlin asked [her]171-anne at all ? It all seemed a dream , and [she]171-anne did not venture to examine into its reality . [She]171-anne determined to tell it all to [Perry]146-perry , and ask [his]145-hamlin advice ; but [she]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne never could . [She]171-anne met [Perry]146-perry several times in the course of the morning , but [she]171-anne could not succeed in screwing up [her]171-anne courage . What if it should all prove to be an illusion ? [She]171-anne took [the children]3862-the children out for [their]3862-the children accustomed walk , during which [she]171-anne was even more silent than usual . On returning [home]4170-home [she]171-anne saw [Hamlin]145-hamlin in [the street]842-the street , close to the door . The blood all rushed up to [her]171-anne head . [Hamlin]145-hamlin saluted [her]171-anne as if nothing had happened , and accompanied [her]171-anne up‐stairs . When [they]3862-the children were at [the landing]1205-the landing [he]145-hamlin suddenly turned to [her]171-anne — “ Have [you]171-anne thought over [our]3862-the children conversation in [the studio]795-the studio yesterday , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked . “ Yes , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Anne]171-anne , inaudibly , as [he]145-hamlin stood with [his]145-hamlin hand on the bell ; “ [I]145-hamlin have . ”[145-hamlin] “ Well , then , ”[145-hamlin] went on [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “ with regard to the plan which [I]145-hamlin submitted to [you]171-anne , what is [your]171-anne answer ? Do [you]171-anne consent or not ? ”[145-hamlin] [Anne Brown]171-anne raised [her]171-anne head . “ [I]171-anne consent , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered quietly , looking full at [him]145-hamlin , as if to make sure that [she]171-anne was not talking in a dream . [He]145-hamlin had never seen [her]171-anne so beautiful and majestic before ; and [she]171-anne had a look — with dilated eyes , and rapid , oppressed breath — like the one which [he]145-hamlin had noticed once when [she]171-anne talked of [[her]171-anne father]4143-her father , and of which [he]145-hamlin had felt at once , “ this is what [I]171-anne want . ”[171-anne] “ Thank [you]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin answered gravely , and rang the bell . For a moment [they]1207-they stood in silence , till the door was opened . [HAMLIN]145-hamlin sat for some time in [the dusty attic]1208-the dusty attic called [a studio]1209-a studio , while [Perry]146-perry cut acrobats and devils out of black paper , and stuck them on the dirty window‐panes . “ That ’s [my]146-perry vocation , ”[146-perry] said [Perry]146-perry , “ and not painting damned landscape spinach and soapsud seas . Look ! are n’t [they]4300-they [jolly old fiends]4301-jolly old fiends ? ”[145-hamlin] and [he]145-hamlin held up a group of black clowns , standing on [each other]594-each other ’s hands and shoulders . “ Capital ! ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ But look here ; [I]146-perry came to tell [you]171-anne something . [I]146-perry want the address of [[Miss Brown]171-anne ’s guardian,—you]4302-miss brown ’s guardian,—you told [me]146-perry there was one,—because [I]146-perry am going to have [Miss Brown]171-anne educated , with a view , if [she]171-anne do not change [her]171-anne mind , to [her]171-anne becoming [[my]146-perry wife]3952-my wife . ”[146-perry] [Perry]146-perry let [his]145-hamlin scissors fall on the floor . “ Damnation ! ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin cried . [Hamlin]145-hamlin picked up the scissors and put them quietly on the table . “ So that ’s it ! ”[146-perry] burst out [Perry]146-perry . “ While [I]146-perry was bothering [my]146-perry brains with trying to take care of [Anne]171-anne , [you]145-hamlin were being inveigled by [that cursed hypocritical slut]4304-that cursed hypocritical slut . ”[146-perry] “ [I]145-hamlin shall be obliged to [you]146-perry to speak in rather different language , [Perry]146-perry , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , in a tone of voice and with a manner which [[his]145-hamlin friend]696-his friend was not accustomed to . “ Oh , beast ! [brute]4305-brute ! seven‐times‐distilled and most‐kickable jackass that [I]146-perry have been , ”[146-perry] moaned [Perry]146-perry , “ that [I]146-perry should have let this happen to [you!—that]4306-you!—that [I]146-perry should have let [you]145-hamlin be entrapped under [my]146-perry very nose ! But it must n’t be , [old fellow]4051-old fellow ; [I]146-perry wo n’t stand it . ”[146-perry] “ [You]146-perry will have to , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , contemptuously ; “ and so , let ’s say no more about it . Only one word : [Miss Brown]171-anne has not inveigled [me]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] [Perry]146-perry gave a sort of moan of disgust . “ [No woman]4308-no woman ever does inveigle [a man]503-a man ! ”[146-perry] “ [Miss Brown]171-anne has not inveigled [me]146-perry . [I]146-perry conceived the desire of educating [her]171-anne , and giving [myself]146-perry a chance of marrying [her]171-anne if [she]171-anne would have [me]146-perry , long ago , before [I]146-perry returned to [Florence]6-florence . And , as a favour , [I]146-perry beg [you]146-perry will respect [Miss Brown]171-anne so long as [she]171-anne remains in [[your]146-perry house]4310-your house , as [you]146-perry would respect [the woman who is at present [[my]146-perry ward]4312-my ward , and may possibly become [[my]146-perry wife]3952-my wife]4311-the woman who is at present my ward , and may possibly become my wife . ”[146-perry] “ Ward ! [wife]4314-wife ! fiddlesticks ! ”[146-perry] cried [Perry]146-perry . “ For God ’s sake , [[my]146-perry dearest old [Watty]178-watty]4315-my dearest old watty , do n’t go and do such a damnable thing ! do n’t be such [an idiot]4316-an idiot as to suppose [you]146-perry must do it . That was [my]146-perry confounded folly : let [myself]146-perry be led on , and then thought it was [my]146-perry own choice , [my]146-perry resolution , all sorts of fine things . [No man]4317-no man ever really wants to tie [himself]4317-no man up ; it ’s [the woman who does it , and makes [him]4317-no man believe it ’s [himself]4317-no man]4318-the woman who does it , and makes him believe it ’s himself . All this is bosh , [mere bosh]4319-mere bosh ; [you]146-perry ’ll think better of it . ”[146-perry] “ [I]146-perry tell [you]146-perry again , [Perry]146-perry , that there is no inveigling about the matter . [I]146-perry made up [my]146-perry mind to this step while [I]146-perry was away from [Florence]6-florence . Besides , [I]146-perry am not going to marry [Miss Brown]171-anne straight off ; [I]146-perry am going to give [her]171-anne the education which [such a woman]4320-such a woman deserves , to enable [her]171-anne to marry [me]146-perry should [she]171-anne care to do so . ”[146-perry] “ Education , forsooth ! ”[146-perry] groaned [Perry]146-perry ; “ [you]146-perry will get [yourself]146-perry married before [you]146-perry have time to say [Jack Robinson]219-jack robinson : and to think that [I]146-perry have brought it all upon [you]146-perry ! to think that [I]146-perry have driven [you]146-perry to do it ! ”[146-perry] [Hamlin]145-hamlin could not help smiling at [[his]145-hamlin friend]696-his friend ’s distress . “ Really , [you]146-perry need not feel under any responsibility . [I]145-hamlin alone am responsible in the business — [I]145-hamlin and good fortune , which has brought [me]145-hamlin into the presence of [the most marvelIous woman that ever was]4321-the most marvelious woman that ever was — ”[145-hamlin] “ But what do [you]146-perry do it for ? [You]146-perry ’re not in love with [Annie]171-anne , [I]146-perry do believe , ”[146-perry] cried [poor Perry]146-perry . “ [I]145-hamlin do it because [she]171-anne is [the most beautiful woman [I]145-hamlin have ever seen]4322-the most beautiful woman i have ever seen , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , deliberately ; “ and [the woman who , properly educated]4323-the woman who , properly educated , is of all others the one whom [I]146-perry should most wish to love — because , in short , [I]146-perry can not see [her]171-anne wasted . ”[146-perry] [Perry]146-perry flung [his]1213-his arms over [his]1213-his head with a gesture of grotesque despair . At that moment the door opened , and [Mrs Perry]146-perry entered [the studio]795-the studio . “ What is the matter ? what has happened ? ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry asked with a dramatic gesture , and a not less dramatic accent ; and [she]146-perry remained standing on the threshold , raising the door‐curtain with much dignity . “ [Hamlin]145-hamlin wants to bring up and marry [Anne Brown]171-anne , ”[146-perry] yelled [Perry]146-perry . [Mrs Perry]146-perry tottered , let the curtain go , held [her]146-perry hand to [her]146-perry head for a moment . “ [Anne Brown]171-anne — do [you]145-hamlin hear that ? [He]145-hamlin wants to marry [her]171-anne ! to educate [her]171-anne ! [He]145-hamlin has already proposed ! ”[146-perry] repeated [Perry]146-perry . [Mrs Perry]146-perry came forward solemnly , and stretched out [her]146-perry hand to [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ [Dear friend]4324-dear friend , ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry said softly , “ [my]146-perry heart told [me]146-perry that this would be . ”[146-perry] “ [Fudge]220-fudge ! ”[146-perry] exclaimed [Perry]146-perry ; “ if it did , why [the deuce]4325-the deuce did n’t [you]145-hamlin interfere ? ”[146-perry] “ [My]146-perry heart told [me]146-perry this would be . [I]146-perry congratulate [you]4324-dear friend , [dearest friend]4326-dearest friend , that [you]4324-dear friend have at last found the embodiment of [your]4324-dear friend mysterious dreams of beauty . And [I]146-perry thank [you]4324-dear friend , on [my]146-perry part , for giving [me]146-perry the happiness of seeing [that glorious dethroned goddess reinstated in [her]146-perry rights]4327-that glorious dethroned goddess reinstated in her rights , and also,”—and[146-perry] [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s long mouth smiled — formidable like an alligator’s,—“for giving [me]146-perry the happiness of witnessing a union of mystic perfection ; ”[146-perry] whereupon , to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s horror , [the tall and bony lady]1215-the tall and bony lady deposited a damp kiss on [his]145-hamlin forehead . “ Oh — but — thank [you]4324-dear friend so much ! ”[1215-the tall and bony lady] exclaimed [Hamlin—“I]221-hamlin—“i have not asked [Miss Brown]171-anne to marry [me]146-perry ; [I]146-perry have only asked [her]171-anne to let [me]146-perry educate [her]171-anne . [I]146-perry wish [her]171-anne to choose whatever husband may deserve [her]171-anne . ”[146-perry] “ And that will be [yourself]4324-dear friend — [[your]4324-dear friend noble , darling self]4328-your noble , darling self , ”[146-perry] beamed [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ [I]145-hamlin am happy that [you]4324-dear friend approve of [my]145-hamlin decision , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , quickly ; “ and since [you]4324-dear friend do , will [you]4324-dear friend kindly tell [me]145-hamlin the address of [Miss Brown’s]222-miss brown’s — [[Miss Brown]171-anne ’s guardian]4329-miss brown ’s guardian ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [Julia]170-julia , [I]146-perry forbid [you]170-julia , ”[146-perry] moaned [Perry]146-perry feebly . “ [His]4329-miss brown ’s guardian address”—answered[146-perry] [Mrs Perry]146-perry blandly , and taking no notice of [her]146-perry husband—“is [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , care of [Gillespie Brothers]224-gillespie brothers , [New Cross]48-new cross . [He]223-richard brown is foreman at a cannon‐foundry , or a place where [they]224-gillespie brothers make torpedoes . [I]146-perry know it ’s something murderous and dreadful . ”[146-perry] “ [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , [Gillespie Brothers]224-gillespie brothers , New Cross , ”[145-hamlin] wrote [Hamlin]145-hamlin in [his]145-hamlin note‐book . “ Thank [you]146-perry so much ; [I]145-hamlin shall write to [him]223-richard brown at once . ”[145-hamlin] “ Oh , idiotic beast that [I]146-perry was ! ”[146-perry] groaned [Perry]146-perry , “ to think that it should all be [my]146-perry fault . ”[146-perry] “ Come into [my]146-perry boudoir , ”[146-perry] said [Mrs Perry]146-perry ; “ [you]145-hamlin shall write to [him]223-richard brown without a moment ’s delay . [Denrest Mr Hamlin]225-hamlin , it is so noble , so lovely on [your]145-hamlin part ; and dear [Anne]171-anne — how beautiful [she]171-anne will become ! ”[146-perry] [Perry]146-perry paced up and down [the room]574-the room in violent despair , kicking at all the chairs and easels on [his]145-hamlin way , and hurling a tin of black paint against the ceiling , whence , having deposited its oozy contents , it slowly descended . After this , feeling that [his]145-hamlin despair was not yet vented , [he]145-hamlin stalked off to [the German beer‐cellar]1217-the german beer‐cellar , in [the Via Lambertesca]1218-the via lambertesca , and gloomily consumed a bock — a proceeding to which [he]145-hamlin invariably resorted whenever [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife had inspired [him]145-hamlin with a more than usually strong wish to drown [himself]145-hamlin . Suddenly an idea struck [him]145-hamlin , and [he]145-hamlin rushed to [the nearest telegraph‐office]1220-the nearest telegraph‐office . There [he]145-hamlin spent upwards of an hour , and consumed many pieces of paper in concocting a missive which should , within the compass of twenty words , convey to [Mr Richard Brown]223-richard brown , care of [Gillespie Brothers]224-gillespie brothers , [New Cross]48-new cross , that the proposal being made to [Anne Brown]171-anne by [a certain person]1221-a certain person must be immediately rejected , as its acceptance would bring ruin , dishonour , and misery on [all parties]1222-all parties . “ Proposal disastrous snare , ”[146-perry] wound up [Perry]146-perry at last in triumph ; and then discovered that , in [his]145-hamlin zeal for [Hamlin]225-hamlin ’s good , [he]145-hamlin had expressed disapprobation to the extent of exactly twenty francs of Italian money . “ Nothing but pipes — loathsome , smelly , filthy pipes ; never a cigar — for the next two months , ”[146-perry] meditated [Perry]146-perry , as [he]145-hamlin paid [his]145-hamlin money and received [the clerk]1223-the clerk ’s receipt ; “ but [a fellow]3957-a fellow must save [[his]3957-a fellow friend]696-his friend after all . ”[146-perry] NO arrangements could be come to until [Hamlin]225-hamlin should hear from [[Anne Brown]171-anne ’s guardian]1224-anne brown ’s guardian , and this , even by return of post , was impossible under a week . And during that week , [Hamlin]225-hamlin determined to keep away from [[the Perrys]167-the perrys ’ house]1191-the perrys ’ house : the objurgations of [Melton Perry]146-perry , the congratulations of [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife , the very tittering of [the children]3862-the children , all this vulgar prose had best be kept aloof from [his]145-hamlin romance ; besides , [he]145-hamlin was in the ridiculous position that [Anne]171-anne was , and was not [his]145-hamlin ; that [she]171-anne could no longer be considered [[the Perrys]1062-the perrys ’ servant]1229-the perrys ’ servant , and could not yet be considered as [[his]145-hamlin ward]1230-his ward . Accordingly , [he]145-hamlin betook [himself]145-hamlin for three days to [Siena]33-siena , deeming it impossible that any answer could come so soon . But when [Hamlin]225-hamlin returned to [[his]225-hamlin lodging in [Florence]6-florence]1231-his lodging in florence , on the fourth day after [his]225-hamlin proposal to [Anne Brown]171-anne — it seemed to [him]225-hamlin as if [he]225-hamlin had proposed to [her]171-anne months ago , nay , as if [he]225-hamlin had never existed at all before that proposal — [he]225-hamlin was told that [a gentleman]662-a gentleman had called that morning , and had left word that [he]225-hamlin would return again later on in the day . “ [Some confounded painter or poetaster of]4332-some confounded painter or poetaster of [my]225-hamlin acquaintance , ”[225-hamlin] thought [Hamlin]225-hamlin , annoyed that [any one]4101-any one should call upon [him]225-hamlin at this point of [his]225-hamlin adventure . A little later a card was brought in to [him]225-hamlin . The name upon it made [him]225-hamlin start — a large [shopman]1234-shopman ’s card , on which was printed , “ [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , [New Cross]48-new cross . ”[1235-the visitor] “ Ask [him]1237-the newcomer to come in , ”[225-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]225-hamlin . [The visitor]1235-the visitor stalked in : [a tall , burly man , with bushy black hair and beard]1236-a tall , burly man , with bushy black hair and beard . “ [An insolent cad]4333-an insolent cad , ”[225-hamlin] said [Hamlin]225-hamlin to [himself]225-hamlin . “ [Mr Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin ? ”[1237-the newcomer] asked [the newcomer]1237-the newcomer , bowing very slightly , and looking down upon [Hamlin]145-hamlin from [his]145-hamlin big , bent shoulders . “ Precisely — and [you]1239-this man , [I]145-hamlin believe , are [[Miss Anne Brown]171-anne ’s cousin]4334-miss anne brown ’s cousin ? ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , stiffening at [the other]1030-the other ’s free‐and‐easy manner . The very look of [this man]1239-this man rubbed [him]145-hamlin the wrong way . “ Pray , sit down , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin added , doing [his]145-hamlin best to be courteous . But [the other]1030-the other had already sat down . “ [I]223-richard brown have come here , ”[223-richard brown] said [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , in a deep , Scotch voice , which made a certain abruptness of manner even more offensive to [[his]223-richard brown host]729-his host , “ in consequence of a telegram which [I]145-hamlin received from [[your]145-hamlin friend]4335-your friend [Mr Melton Perry]152-perry . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin turned pale with anger . “ [Perry]152-perry telegraphed behind [my]223-richard brown back , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown exclaimed—“however , [I]223-richard brown had written to [you]145-hamlin the same day . [I]223-richard brown presume [you]145-hamlin know the contents of [my]223-richard brown letter ? ”[223-richard brown] “ [I]223-richard brown have received no letter from [you]145-hamlin — [I]223-richard brown suppose [I]223-richard brown started before it arrived , ”[223-richard brown] answered [Richard Brown]223-richard brown . “ [Mr Perry]152-perry mentioned no letter from [you]145-hamlin in [his]152-perry telegram , and as [I]223-richard brown understood from it that there were plans afoot which concerned [[my]223-richard brown cousin]4336-my cousin and [ward]4337-ward , [I]223-richard brown thought [I]223-richard brown had best come at once and inquire into them . ”[223-richard brown] [He]223-richard brown stopped a moment , and looked [Hamlin]145-hamlin in the face , as if to find out what sort of man [he]223-richard brown might be . [He]223-richard brown [himself]223-richard brown might be any age between thirty and forty , of the darkest possible Scotch type , sun‐burnt like [a bargee , snub of feature , with a huge , overhanging forehead]1242-a bargee , snub of feature , with a huge , overhanging forehead ; [he]223-richard brown was [a man such as [Hamlin]145-hamlin had never dealt with — a type which [he]145-hamlin recognised as having seen among [workmen]1244-workmen and [Dissenting preachers]1245-dissenting preachers]1243-a man such as hamlin had never dealt with — a type which he recognised as having seen among workmen and dissenting preachers : ugly , intellectual , contemptuous — the incarnation of what , to [the descendants of [Cavaliers]228-cavaliers and [Jamaica planters]1247-jamaica planters]1246-the descendants of cavaliers and jamaica planters , seemed [the aggressive lower classes]1248-the aggressive lower classes . “ [I]145-hamlin see , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , coldly . “ [I]145-hamlin am greatly obliged to [you]145-hamlin for the trouble [you]145-hamlin have taken . [Your]145-hamlin presence [here]3884-here will make it much easier for [us]4339-us to settle all necessary matters . ”[145-hamlin] “ [Mr Perry]152-perry , ”[1235-the visitor] went on [the visitor]1235-the visitor , “ has given [me]1235-the visitor rather a confused account of the proposal which [I]1235-the visitor understand [you]145-hamlin to have made to [[my]1235-the visitor cousin]4336-my cousin ; and [I]1235-the visitor thought it wiser to see [you]145-hamlin before speaking to [her]4336-my cousin . [I]1235-the visitor must therefore beg [you]145-hamlin to tell [me]1235-the visitor whether [Mr Perry]152-perry ’s account of [your]145-hamlin proposal is correct , and also whether [you]145-hamlin are in earnest in making it . ”[1235-the visitor] “ Had [you]145-hamlin waited for [my]145-hamlin letter , [I]145-hamlin think [you]145-hamlin could have had no further doubts , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with some irritation . “ To recapitulate , then . [I]145-hamlin proposed to [Miss Brown]171-anne that [she]171-anne should permit [me]145-hamlin to take charge of [her]171-anne education for the next two years , and , on [her]171-anne becoming of age and deeming [her]171-anne studies complete , to place at [her]171-anne disposal the capital of an income which should enable [her]171-anne to live in a manner corresponding with the education [she]171-anne had received , and to make a suitable marriage . ”[145-hamlin] While [Hamlin]145-hamlin was speaking a sneer came over [[his]145-hamlin listener]1250-his listener ’s face . “ [I]145-hamlin am to understand , therefore , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ that [I]145-hamlin was misinformed as to this being a proposal of marriage . ”[145-hamlin] “ Pardon [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] corrected [Hamlin]145-hamlin , gently . “ [I]145-hamlin told [[your]145-hamlin cousin]4341-your cousin that [I]145-hamlin hoped that perhaps , at the end of those two years , or more , [she]4341-your cousin might feel inclined to accept [me]145-hamlin as [[her]4341-your cousin husband]693-her husband ; but that [my]145-hamlin particular object was that [Miss Brown]171-anne should , on coming of age , find [herself]171-anne in possession of a fortune corresponding to [her]171-anne education , and which should leave [her]171-anne free to contract whatever marriage [she]171-anne pleased , or to continue single . ”[145-hamlin] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown flushed . “ In short , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said , with a strange irony in [his]223-richard brown voice , “ [you]145-hamlin offer to provide [[my]223-richard brown cousin]4336-my cousin with a competence whereon to live , or get married , after [she]4336-my cousin shall have remained for two years in [your]145-hamlin charge . [I]223-richard brown fully appreciate the intention of [your]145-hamlin proposal ; and [I]223-richard brown therefore beg to refuse it . ”[223-richard brown] The blood rushed to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s head . That such an interpretation should be put upon [his]223-richard brown words had never entered [his]145-hamlin mind . It was as if a whip had whizzed about [his]145-hamlin ears and cut into [his]145-hamlin face . [His]145-hamlin first impulse was to knock the other down . But the sense of [his]145-hamlin misunderstood superiority , superiority unintelligible to [[his]145-hamlin visitor]1251-his visitor , restrained [him]145-hamlin . “ [I]223-richard brown quite understand [your]145-hamlin refusal , [Mr Brown]223-richard brown , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown answered , “ as a result of [your]145-hamlin interpretation of the case ; and [I]223-richard brown suppose [I]223-richard brown have no right to ask [you]145-hamlin to see [my]223-richard brown proposal , except as [you]145-hamlin would mean it were [you]145-hamlin to make it [yourself]145-hamlin . ”[223-richard brown] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown turned pale ; but [he]223-richard brown too mastered [his]223-richard brown feelings . “ If [your]145-hamlin intention is to marry [[my]223-richard brown cousin]4336-my cousin , why not marry [her]4336-my cousin at once ? ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown asked , with something in [his]223-richard brown look which expressed that [he]223-richard brown felt [himself]223-richard brown not to be outwitted by [a vicious fool]1252-a vicious fool . [Hamlin]145-hamlin hesitated . [He]145-hamlin felt that [he]145-hamlin could never make [this man]1239-this man understand [his]145-hamlin dreams , [his]145-hamlin plans of turning [Anne Brown]171-anne into a realised ideal , of wooing and winning the creature of [his]145-hamlin own making . “ Because — because , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin hesitated . “ Because , ”[145-hamlin] interrupted [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , “ [a man in [your]145-hamlin position of life]4345-a man in your position of life can not marry [a girl like [[my]145-hamlin cousin]4336-my cousin]4346-a girl like my cousin before [she]4336-my cousin has been turned into [a lady]3943-a lady ; and because , even if this be granted , [he]4345-a man in your position of life can not bind [himself]4345-a man in your position of life to marry [her]4336-my cousin until [he]4345-a man in your position of life see whether schooling has succeeded in making [a lady]3943-a lady of [her]4336-my cousin . [I]145-hamlin perfectly follow [your]145-hamlin reasons ; but [you]145-hamlin also can follow [mine]145-hamlin when [I]145-hamlin say that [[my]145-hamlin cousin]4336-my cousin can not be subjected to the ups and downs of [your]145-hamlin appreciation . ”[145-hamlin] In [this man]1239-this man there was a hatred of [Hamlin]145-hamlin , not merely as [a fine gentleman]1255-a fine gentleman , [an idler]1256-an idler , but as [an æsthete]1257-an æsthete ; a hatred not merely of class , but of temperament . “ [You]145-hamlin misunderstand [my]145-hamlin motives , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , losing patience . “ [My]145-hamlin reason for not marrying [[your]145-hamlin cousin]4341-your cousin at once is , that [I]145-hamlin would not marry [a woman who can not possibly love [me]145-hamlin as yet]4352-a woman who can not possibly love me as yet ; and [my]145-hamlin reason against a formal engagement between [us]4353-us is , that [I]145-hamlin can not consent to bind [Miss Brown]171-anne to marry [me]145-hamlin when [she]171-anne has no opportunity as yet of choosing [a man more to [her]171-anne taste]4354-a man more to her taste . It seems to [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] added [Hamlin]145-hamlin , feeling the advantage on [his]145-hamlin side , “ that to take [[your]145-hamlin cousin]4341-your cousin in marriage now , or to bind [her]4341-your cousin to marry [me]145-hamlin in the future , would be buying [her]4341-your cousin in exchange for the education and the money which [she]4341-your cousin will receive from [me]145-hamlin . That education and that money are intended to secure [her]4341-your cousin freedom , to secure [her]4341-your cousin choice of [a man whom [she]4341-your cousin may love]4356-a man whom she may love , not to make [her]4341-your cousin into the chattel of [a man whom [she]4341-your cousin could only despise]4357-a man whom she could only despise . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s tone and these sentiments , which seemed to belong to [a world west of the sun and east of the moon]1258-a world west of the sun and east of the moon , evidently impressed [[Anne]171-anne ’s guardian]1259-anne ’s guardian . [He]1259-anne ’s guardian remained silent for a moment , unable to realise [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s state of mind , while no longer able to disbelieve in it . But the temptation to disbelieve in the sincerity of [this handsome , effeminate , æsthetic aristocrat]1260-this handsome , effeminate , æsthetic aristocrat was too strong . “ All this is very noble and chivalric , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ and [I]145-hamlin doubt not quite natural in [a poet like [you]145-hamlin]4358-a poet like you , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ; but for [us]4359-us [practical people]4360-practical people , [I]145-hamlin fear it wo n’t do . [I]145-hamlin am fully persuaded of the desirability of giving [[my]145-hamlin cousin]4336-my cousin some further schooling , and fully persuaded also of the undesirability of leaving [her]4336-my cousin any longer in the care of [Mr Perry]152-perry . So [I]145-hamlin shall take [her]4336-my cousin back to [England]37-england with [me]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin turned pale with anger . It sickened [him]145-hamlin to see [his]145-hamlin plans dragged in the mire of [this fellow]1261-this fellow ’s suspicions , and at the same time [he]145-hamlin felt unable ever to make [him]1261-this fellow understand , utterly helpless in defending [himself]145-hamlin . Suddenly an idea struck [him]145-hamlin . “ [I]145-hamlin see , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , rising and leaning against the fireplace , while [[his]145-hamlin guest]556-his guest remained coolly seated—“I see that , in plain words , [you]556-his guest suppose that [I]556-his guest project settling some money upon [[your]556-his guest cousin]4341-your cousin , with a view of making [her]4341-your cousin [[my]556-his guest mistress]4363-my mistress for two years — that is it , is it not , [Mr Brown]223-richard brown ? ”[556-his guest] The brutal frankness staggered [Brown]223-richard brown ; it was impossible to make any more insinuations now . And [he]223-richard brown began to feel ashamed of those which [he]223-richard brown had already made . [His]223-richard brown own imagination , then , was less clean than the intentions of [this womanish fine gentleman]1263-this womanish fine gentleman ? Perhaps for this very reason [he]223-richard brown answered calmly , but turning very red — “ Yes , [sir]3865-sir ; that is exactly the state of the case . ”[223-richard brown] [Hamlin]145-hamlin felt a sort of triumph at this humiliation of [[his]145-hamlin visitor]1251-his visitor . “ In that case , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ [I]145-hamlin think [I]145-hamlin can devise a plan which shall satisfy [you]556-his guest — which will relieve [your]556-his guest apprehensiveness . [I]145-hamlin offer not merely to settle upon [Miss Brown]171-anne the capital of five hundred a‐year , to be administered by [you]556-his guest until [her]171-anne majority ; but also to give [you]556-his guest [my]145-hamlin word of honour to marry [Miss Brown]171-anne at any time that [she]171-anne may summon [me]145-hamlin to do so . ”[145-hamlin] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was taken aback ; all this romance , which [he]223-richard brown had believed to be but a vicious snare , was then real . “ [I]223-richard brown do n’t understand [you]145-hamlin , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said . “ [I]223-richard brown do n’t understand what [you]145-hamlin want to do with [[my]223-richard brown cousin]4336-my cousin . ”[223-richard brown] “ It seems difficult to explain it to [you]145-hamlin , [Mr Brown]223-richard brown , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “ still , [I]145-hamlin may repeat it . [I]145-hamlin wish [Miss Brown]171-anne to receive all the advantages of education and money which [a woman gifted like [her]171-anne]4366-a woman gifted like her has a right to , and which will enable [her]171-anne to freely marry [a man worthy of [her]171-anne — [myself]145-hamlin , or any other in [the world]496-the world]4367-a man worthy of her — myself , or any other in the world . [I]145-hamlin will not hear of binding [Miss Brown]171-anne to [me]145-hamlin at present , either by marriage or by promise of marriage ; [she]171-anne is to remain absolutely independent . But [I]145-hamlin offer once more to pledge [myself]145-hamlin to marry [her]171-anne whenever [she]171-anne may wish it . ”[145-hamlin] [Brown]171-anne did not answer for a moment . “ Are [you]145-hamlin ready to sign a document to that effect ? ”[1265-he] [he]1265-he asked . “ [I]145-hamlin will give [Miss Brown]171-anne [my]145-hamlin word , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , contemptuously ; “ and [I]145-hamlin will give [you]223-richard brown , [Mr Brown]223-richard brown , as many signed documents as may be equivalent thereto in [your]223-richard brown eyes . ”[145-hamlin] [Brown]223-richard brown felt the insult , but [he]223-richard brown knew [he]223-richard brown had drawn it upon [himself]223-richard brown . For a moment [he]223-richard brown hesitated ; [his]223-richard brown aversion to [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s plan fighting painfully with [his]223-richard brown sense of the worldly interests of [[his]223-richard brown ward]1230-his ward . At last [he]223-richard brown said — “ On these conditions [I]223-richard brown can no longer make any opposition ; and it rests with [[my]223-richard brown cousin]4336-my cousin to accept or refuse [your]145-hamlin offer . [I]223-richard brown can only warn [her]4336-my cousin and [you]145-hamlin — and to do so is [my]223-richard brown duty , [I]223-richard brown think — that , in [my]223-richard brown opinion , such an arrangement is utterly undesirable for both parties , and that [my]223-richard brown strong advice is not to enter upon it . ”[223-richard brown] “ [I]145-hamlin take [your]145-hamlin warning to heart , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , contemptuously ; “ but [I]145-hamlin can not agree with it . May [I]145-hamlin beg [you]145-hamlin to meet [me]145-hamlin at [the English Consulate]4370-the english consulate to‐morrow morning , to witness the document which [you]145-hamlin proposed [I]145-hamlin should draw out ; the matter of [her]4336-my cousin money settlement [I]145-hamlin shall leave in the hands of [[my]145-hamlin lawyers]4371-my lawyers . What hour will suit [you]145-hamlin ? and may [I]145-hamlin have the pleasure of receiving [you]145-hamlin to breakfast with [me]145-hamlin and [Mr Perry]152-perry , who will doubtless be [my]145-hamlin witness ? ”[145-hamlin] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown bowed . “ Thank [you]145-hamlin , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said briefly ; “ [I]223-richard brown think [I]223-richard brown should prefer breakfasting at [[my]223-richard brown inn]4372-my inn . With regard to the document , [I]223-richard brown shall be happy to meet [you]145-hamlin at [the Consulate]4373-the consulate any time convenient to [yourself]145-hamlin . But , ”[223-richard brown] and [his]223-richard brown face became as threatening as [his]223-richard brown voice was studiously courteous , “ [we]4374-we must first hear whether , on second thoughts , [[my]223-richard brown cousin]4336-my cousin accepts [your]145-hamlin proposal . Good afternoon , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[223-richard brown] “ Good afternoon , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s visit had left a nauseous taste in [his]223-richard brown soul . LATER in the afternoon [Richard Brown]223-richard brown called at [the Perrys]167-the perrys ’ and asked to see [[his]223-richard brown cousin]1267-his cousin . [He]223-richard brown was received with effusiveness by [Mrs Perry]146-perry . “ So [you]145-hamlin have seen [[our]4374-we noble]4376-our noble , darling [Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry cried ; “ and [you]145-hamlin have felt [your]145-hamlin heart go out to meet [him]145-hamlin as [we]4374-we have felt [ours]4374-we . ”[146-perry] “ [I]223-richard brown have seen [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[223-richard brown] answered [Brown]223-richard brown roughly , not at all appreciating [the lady]3881-the lady ’s winning manners ; “ and [I]223-richard brown should like to speak to [[my]223-richard brown cousin]4336-my cousin , please . ”[223-richard brown] “ [Anne]171-anne — [my]146-perry beautiful Anne”—cried[146-perry] [Mrs Perry]146-perry , opening the door of [the next room]3870-the next room . “ [Poor child]4378-poor child ! ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry added , “ how [she]4378-poor child has been trembling in [her]4378-poor child heart all day ! ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne entered . [She]171-anne was paler even than usual , and was more than usually self‐possessed . [She]171-anne had seen [[her]171-anne guardian]1270-her guardian for a minute early that morning , and [she]171-anne knew that this visit would seal [her]171-anne fate . “ Good afternoon , [Richard]223-richard brown , ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry said briefly . [Brown]223-richard brown looked round at [Mrs Perry]146-perry , waiting for [her]146-perry to withdraw . But such was by no means [her]146-perry intention . “ Do n’t be unhappy , [darling]4379-darling , ”[146-perry] [she]146-perry said to [Anne]171-anne ; “ [I]146-perry know how [one woman]4380-one woman always longs for [another woman]4381-another woman in these moments . [I]146-perry will stay with [you]171-anne while [[your]171-anne cousin]4341-your cousin tells [you]171-anne the result of [his]4341-your cousin visit . ”[146-perry] “ It is very kind of [you]146-perry , [madam]4383-madam , ”[171-anne] said [Brown]171-anne gruffly , “ but [I]171-anne think this matter had better be settled solely between [[my]171-anne cousin]4336-my cousin and [myself]171-anne . Would [you]146-perry permit [her]146-perry to take [me]171-anne into [some other room]4385-some other room ? ”[171-anne] “ Oh , [I]146-perry do n’t wish to intrude , ”[146-perry] sighed [Mrs Perry]146-perry , “ [I]146-perry only wished to support [this poor child]4386-this poor child with [my]146-perry presence . But after all , [a woman who loves requires support from [no one]3899-no one]4387-a woman who loves requires support from no one . ”[146-perry] Saying which [she]146-perry swept out of [the room]574-the room . There was a moment ’s silence . “ [I]171-anne have been to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s , [Anne]171-anne , ”[171-anne] said [Brown]171-anne briefly , seating [himself]171-anne by the fire . “ Well ? ”[171-anne] The tone of voice was so resolute and even triumphant that [he]1272-i raised [his]1272-i head and looked up at [her]146-perry where [she]146-perry was standing by the table , a piece of needlework still in [her]146-perry hands . “ Well , ”[171-anne] answered [Brown]171-anne quietly , and watching the effect of each of [his]1272-i words on the pale , melancholy , but dispassionate face of [the girl]583-the girl , “ [I]1272-i have spoken to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ; and [I]1272-i find that [you]145-hamlin were correct in [your]145-hamlin judgment , and that [I]1272-i was mistaken in [mine]1272-i . [He]145-hamlin is in earnest in [his]145-hamlin proposal , and honest in it . ”[1272-i] “ [I]171-anne knew that ; ”[171-anne] and [Anne Brown]171-anne wondered whether this could be [the same cousin [Dick]229-dick who was [a big boy]1275-a big boy , almost [a man]503-a man , when [she]583-the girl was [a tiny mite at [Spezia]14-spezia]1277-a tiny mite at spezia ; who took care of [her]583-the girl when [[her]583-the girl mother]1278-her mother was ill and [[her]583-the girl father]4143-her father was drunk ; who used to shoulder [[his]1280-his uncle]1281-his uncle and drag [him]1281-his uncle off to bed when , in a fit of intoxication , [he]1281-his uncle would come in and threaten to throw [the babies]1282-the babies out of the window]1274-the same cousin dick who was a big boy , almost a man , when she was a tiny mite at spezia ; who took care of her when her mother was ill and her father was drunk ; who used to shoulder his uncle and drag him off to bed when , in a fit of intoxication , he would come in and threaten to throw the babies out of the window . [She]171-anne recognised the small features , the dark skin and hair , the heavy intellectual brow ; but [he]1281-his uncle seemed to have changed in expression , to have grown hard , and arrogant , and coarse . “ [I]171-anne knew that , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne repeated , “ though [you]1281-his uncle would not believe it . So , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne added , with a certain hardness in [her]171-anne manner , “ [I]171-anne suppose [I]171-anne am left free to decide , and that [you]1281-his uncle are ready to let [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin do what [he]145-hamlin chooses . ”[171-anne] “ [You]171-anne are free to decide , ”[1281-his uncle] [he]1281-his uncle answered . “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [I]1281-his uncle have said , is serious and honest , and willing to make every provision which can bind [him]145-hamlin and leave [you]171-anne free , legally . [I]1281-his uncle can not , as [[your]171-anne guardian]4285-your guardian , say no . But , ”[1281-his uncle] and [his]1281-his uncle voice assumed a threatening tone , “ as [[your]171-anne kinsman]4390-your kinsman , and as [the representative of [[your]171-anne father]3947-your father]4391-the representative of your father , [I]1281-his uncle most earnestly dissuade [you]171-anne from accepting this proposal . ”[1281-his uncle] [Anne]171-anne reddened . “ But [you]1281-his uncle can no longer oppose it , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said quickly . “ [I]171-anne have told [you]171-anne before that [you]171-anne are free , [Anne]171-anne . And because [you]171-anne are free , ”[171-anne] continued [Brown]171-anne , a sort of despair coming over [him]1281-his uncle at the sight of [the girl]583-the girl ’s indifference—“because [you]171-anne are free , [I]171-anne want [you]171-anne to listen to [me]171-anne . This proposal is one which , in the eyes of [the world]496-the world , will change [your]171-anne life for the better : [you]171-anne will be educated , get the manners of [a lady]3943-a lady , be rich [yourself]171-anne , and marry [a rich man]4395-a rich man . But will [you]171-anne stand higher in [your]171-anne own opinion ? Would [you]171-anne stand as high as [you]171-anne should in that of [[your]171-anne father]3947-your father , if [he]3947-your father were alive ? [You]171-anne , having bartered [your]171-anne freedom , having accepted all from [this one man]4397-this one man ? ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne did not answer . “ Of course , ”[223-richard brown] went on [Richard Brown]223-richard brown eagerly , “ [you]171-anne will have every worldly advantage . But will [you]171-anne be happy taken out of [your]171-anne own sphere of life , knowing [yourself]171-anne to be bound in gratitude to [this man]1239-this man , who will always continue to feel [[your]171-anne superior]4399-your superior , to look down upon [you]171-anne as [a beggar whom [he]1239-this man has fed]4400-a beggar whom he has fed , or a chattel which [he]1239-this man has bought ? [This man]1239-this man is , for [his]1239-this man class and ideas , honourable : [he]1239-this man wishes to leave [you]171-anne free to marry [him]1239-this man only if [you]171-anne please ; [he]1239-this man wishes to marry [you]171-anne really and truly . But in reality [he]1239-this man is making [you]171-anne [[his]1239-this man slave]4402-his slave ; for how can [you]171-anne refuse [him]1239-this man the only thing which [you]171-anne , [[my]223-richard brown poor Nan]4403-my poor nan , can give [him]1239-this man in return for [his]1239-this man money ? And in reality [he]1239-this man is making [you]171-anne [[his]1239-this man mistress]1072-his mistress ; for what sort of marriage is it which is a marriage merely before [the world]496-the world — where [the one]4406-the one buys and the other is bought ? ”[223-richard brown] [Anne]171-anne flushed still deeper , and trembled from head to foot as [she]171-anne leaned against the table . A dull pain clawed [her]171-anne at the heart , a lump rose up to [her]171-anne throat . But [she]171-anne did not speak . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown misunderstood [her]171-anne silence . [He]223-richard brown rose and approached the table , and tried to put [his]223-richard brown arm paternally on [her]171-anne shoulder . [She]171-anne shrank back , but let [his]223-richard brown heavy hand rest on [her]171-anne shoulder . What did [his]223-richard brown touch matter when there were [his]223-richard brown words ? “ [Annie]171-anne , [dear]4117-dear , ”[171-anne] said [Brown]171-anne more gently , “ [you]171-anne know [I]171-anne am [a rough man]4408-a rough man , and do n’t know how to mince matters and say things to [women]3959-women ; but [you]171-anne know that [I]171-anne am fond of [you]171-anne . Do n’t [you]171-anne recollect when [you]171-anne were [a wee lassie]4410-a wee lassie , and [I]171-anne used to carry [you]171-anne about on [my]171-anne back , and go into [the water]4411-the water to get [you]171-anne the sea‐weeds and the little nautiluses . [I]171-anne suppose [you]171-anne do n’t any longer . But still , [you]171-anne know [I]171-anne would not for [the world]496-the world hurt [[my]171-anne poor little Nan]4413-my poor little nan . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne held on to the table , and as [she]171-anne recognised that familiar intonation , hot tears rolled down [her]171-anne cheeks . [Her]171-anne whole childhood seemed to return to [her]171-anne . “ Do n’t cry — don’t cry ! ”[171-anne] exclaimed [Brown]171-anne , taking [her]171-anne hand . “ [Poor child]4378-poor child ! [I]171-anne know it must be very hard for [you]171-anne who are so young ; [I]171-anne know what it must be to be tempted with [a lady]3943-a lady ’s education , and money , and [a fine gentleman , who ’s in love with one]4416-a fine gentleman , who ’s in love with one , for [a husband]4417-a husband . But remember what [[your]171-anne poor dad]4418-your poor dad used to tell [us]4419-we , that [we]4419-we [common folk]4420-common folk must make [our]4419-we own way — make [the others]881-the others feel that [we]4419-we ’re as good as [they]881-the others , and not accept anything from [them]881-the others . D’you remember how [he]1284-he used to say to [me]171-anne , ‘ Work and be proud ’ ? Well , and [I]171-anne have worked and have been proud , and it ’s that that has enabled [me]171-anne to rest a little . And [you]171-anne , too , must be proud , and work , [[my]171-anne little [Annie]171-anne]4422-my little annie . ”[171-anne] “ Look here , ”[1284-he] [he]1284-he went on , “ [you]171-anne must not think [you]171-anne are never to be anything but [a servant]4125-a servant . [I]1285-i feel [I]1285-i ’ve been to blame , and neglected [you]171-anne too long . [You]171-anne see , [I]1285-i ’ve had to work hard for [my]1285-i life , out in [England]37-england ; but now [I]1285-i am quite safely off — indeed much better off than [I]1285-i ever anticipated : [[my]1285-i employer]4424-my employer is going to take [me]1285-i into partnership next year . Well , since [you]171-anne wish to go to [school]1094-school , [I]1285-i will send [you]171-anne [there]4426-there . [You]171-anne shall come back with [me]1285-i to [England]37-england , and [I]1285-i will send [you]171-anne to [the very best school to be found]4427-the very best school to be found : [you]171-anne shall be as good as [any lady]4428-any lady , and [you]171-anne shall owe nothing to [any one]4101-any one . [Annie]171-anne , do say yes . ”[1285-i] [He]1285-i spoke , [this rough man]1286-this rough man , almost as one might to [a sick child]1287-a sick child ; and as [he]1285-i spoke , [he]1285-i tried to pass [his]1285-i arm round [the girl]583-the girl ’s waist . But [Anne]171-anne shuddered , and freed [herself]171-anne from [his]1285-i grasp . There was something in [this big dark man]1289-this big dark man , with [his]1289-this big dark man bushy hair and beard , which made [her]171-anne shrink physically , although [she]171-anne felt no suspicion of [him]1289-this big dark man morally . The thought of [Hamlin]145-hamlin passed across [her]171-anne mind — [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who was everything which [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was not . “ [You]1289-this big dark man are very good , [Dick]229-dick , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , feeling ashamed of [her]171-anne ingratitude ; “ but — but — oh no , no , [I]171-anne ca n’t , [I]171-anne ca n’t ! ”[171-anne] and [she]171-anne hid [her]171-anne tears with [her]171-anne hands . “ Ca n’t what ? ”[223-richard brown] exclaimed [Brown]223-richard brown , and [his]223-richard brown voice and face changed ; “ ca n’t what ? Ca n’t accept [my]223-richard brown offer ; ca n’t owe anything to [me]223-richard brown , to [[your]1289-this big dark man cousin]4341-your cousin , to [the man to whom [[your]1289-this big dark man father]3947-your father confided [you]1289-this big dark man]4431-the man to whom your father confided you ? No ! [you]1289-this big dark man wo n’t be under such an obligation , eh ? Nay , do n’t humbug [me]223-richard brown . [You]1289-this big dark man ca n’t give up the money , [the land]4433-the land , [the house]509-the house , the fine name — all the things which [he]4431-the man to whom your father confided you can give [you]1289-this big dark man and [I]223-richard brown ca n’t ; for [I]223-richard brown can only give [you]1289-this big dark man an education , and [I]223-richard brown was such [a fool]4435-a fool as to think that [you]1289-this big dark man wanted that ! ”[223-richard brown] and [Brown]223-richard brown laughed a loud , bitter laugh . “ [You]1289-this big dark man want to marry [that man]1086-that man , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown went on brutally ; “ well , do so . But remember what marriage means . [You]1289-this big dark man are [a girl of [the people]871-the people , who has had to take care of [herself]1289-this big dark man]4437-a girl of the people , who has had to take care of herself — not [a fine young lady]4439-a fine young lady , as yet , thank [God]195-god , with all the fine names which [fine folk]4440-fine folk have for nasty things . [You]1289-this big dark man know what marriage means . It means being [a man]503-a man ’s chattel , more than [his]503-a man beast of burden , [his]503-a man plaything , the toy of [his]503-a man caprice and sensuality . It means , also , that [you]1289-this big dark man must smother all love for [a worthier man]4442-a worthier man , or degrade [yourself]1289-this big dark man in [your]1289-this big dark man own eyes . Will [you]1289-this big dark man be this , sell [yourself]1289-this big dark man thus — ? ”[223-richard brown] “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin does not wish [me]583-the girl to degrade [myself]583-the girl , ”[583-the girl] cried [the girl]583-the girl . “ [He]503-a man respects [me,—yes]583-the girl , [he]503-a man does ; and [you]1289-this big dark man — [you]1289-this big dark man do n’t ! ”[583-the girl] “ [He]503-a man respects [you]583-the girl ! ”[223-richard brown] sneered [Brown]223-richard brown . “ And [he]503-a man does not want to degrade [you]583-the girl . Of course , [he]503-a man ’s [a respectable , highly moral man]4443-a respectable , highly moral man . But , upon [my]223-richard brown soul , [I]223-richard brown would rather [you]583-the girl had been seduced by [a man [you]583-the girl loved]4444-a man you loved , than that [you]583-the girl should have sold [yourself]583-the girl coldly in this way . ”[223-richard brown] [Anne]171-anne felt [herself]171-anne choking . For a moment [she]171-anne could not utter a word . Then suddenly , with a strange look in [her]171-anne eyes , [she]171-anne cried , in a tone which smote [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin on the mouth — “ [I]171-anne love [him]4444-a man you loved ! ”[171-anne] [Brown]171-anne turned and looked [her]171-anne in the face . [She]171-anne was very flushed , and [her]171-anne slate‐grey eyes gleamed feverishly . But [her]171-anne face was calm , and [she]171-anne returned [his]1291-her cousin taunting gaze , which sought for the proof that [she]171-anne lied , with a look of irrepressible contempt . “ [I]171-anne love [him]4444-a man you loved ! ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne repeated . [Brown]171-anne took [his]1291-her cousin hat . “ Good‐bye , ”[1291-her cousin] [he]1291-her cousin said , stretching out [his]1291-her cousin hand ; “ [I]1291-her cousin left the choice in [your]171-anne hands , and [you]171-anne have chosen . To‐morrow morning [I]1291-her cousin shall settle everything with [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin — the papers , [I]1291-her cousin mean — which shall make [him]145-hamlin henceforth [[your]171-anne sole protector]4445-your sole protector . Then [I]1291-her cousin shall go . Goodbye . [I]1291-her cousin wish [you]171-anne joy of [your]171-anne choice”—he[1291-her cousin] paused—“you mercenary thing ! ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne did not move . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had already turned the handle of the door when [he]1291-her cousin stopped . “ One thing more , ”[1291-her cousin] [he]1291-her cousin said , “ which [I]1291-her cousin desire [you]171-anne to know . [You]171-anne have taken care of [yourself]171-anne hitherto , and [you]171-anne are prudent enough in all conscience , and world‐wise enough , and heartless enough , to do so in future ; so this piece of information may be of use to [you]171-anne . To‐morrow [he]145-hamlin will sign a paper , which [I]1291-her cousin shall keep till [you]171-anne come of age , declaring that , although [he]145-hamlin leaves [you]171-anne complete freedom in the choice of [a husband]4417-a husband , [he]145-hamlin binds [himself]145-hamlin to marry [you]171-anne whenever [you]171-anne may call upon [him]145-hamlin to do so . [You]171-anne will doubtless know how to turn this to profit . Good‐bye . ”[1291-her cousin] [Anne]171-anne sank into a chair , excited , exhausted , all [her]171-anne blood in movement , [she]171-anne scarcely knew why — insulted , maligned , and yet with a great sense of joyfulness in [her]171-anne heart . A MONTH later , [the little Perrys]645-the little perrys were being taken for [their]645-the little perrys walk in [the Boboli Gardens]1293-the boboli gardens by [a Swiss bonne in a quilted cap]1294-a swiss bonne in a quilted cap ; and [Anne Brown]171-anne was unpacking [her]171-anne things in [a room overlooking [the yellowish‐green Rhine]54-the rhine , with [its]54-the rhine oscillating bridge of [boats]1296-boats , and facing the rocks and bastions of [Ehrenbreitstein]50-ehrenbreitstein]1295-a room overlooking the yellowish‐green rhine , with its oscillating bridge of boats , and facing the rocks and bastions of ehrenbreitstein . When [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had returned to [England]37-england with the signed documents in [his]223-richard brown pocket , [Hamlin]145-hamlin had immediately written two letters,—one to [[his]145-hamlin lawyers]1297-his lawyers , instructing [them]1297-his lawyers to settle the capital of five hundred a‐year , that is to say , one quarter of [[his]145-hamlin property]1298-his property , on [Anne Brown]171-anne ; the other , narrating the history of [his]145-hamlin engagement ( if engagement it might be called ) , to [the widow of [[his]145-hamlin former tutor]1300-his former tutor]1299-the widow of his former tutor , and asking [her]1299-the widow of his former tutor to admit [the young lady in whom [he]145-hamlin was interested into [[her]1299-the widow of his former tutor school at [Coblenz]51-coblenz]1302-her school at coblenz]1301-the young lady in whom he was interested into her school at coblenz . It was the Easter holidays , and [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson had taken advantage of the fact to come to [Florence]6-florence in order to take back [[her]230-mrs simson pupil]1303-her pupil [herself]230-mrs simson . There was still a fortnight before [the school]1304-the school would reopen , so [Hamlin]145-hamlin suggested that [they]1305-they should slowly travel north , and it was settled that [he]145-hamlin should accompany [the schoolmistress]1306-the schoolmistress and [[his]145-hamlin ward]1230-his ward . The greater part of that fortnight was spent at [Venice]52-venice , where [Anne Brown]171-anne had never been , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin parted company from [them]1305-they to return to [England]37-england , only at [Munich]53-munich . [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson was of that particular type of Englishwoman which , however much it may marry , always seems to remain [an old maid]1308-an old maid ; but [an old maid whose old‐maidishness is an incapacity of feeling any difference of age between [herself]230-mrs simson and [[her]230-mrs simson youngers]1310-her youngers , of maintaining any stateliness of superior age and experience : a hopeful , believing , shrewd , happy‐go‐lucky , enthusiastic creature , invariably making one think of [a remarkably good‐natured old grey mare]1311-a remarkably good‐natured old grey mare]1309-an old maid whose old‐maidishness is an incapacity of feeling any difference of age between herself and her youngers , of maintaining any stateliness of superior age and experience : a hopeful , believing , shrewd , happy‐go‐lucky , enthusiastic creature , invariably making one think of a remarkably good‐natured old grey mare . Youth was the greatest attraction in [the world]496-the world to [her]230-mrs simson , and [she]230-mrs simson identified [herself]230-mrs simson completely with [the young women that came under [her]230-mrs simson influence]1313-the young women that came under her influence . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had known [her]230-mrs simson in [his]145-hamlin boyish days , and lately , passing along [the Rhine]54-the rhine , had stayed with [her]230-mrs simson for a day or two in [[her]230-mrs simson old‐fashioned house]1314-her old‐fashioned house by [the confluence of [the Rhine]54-the rhine and [the Mosel]55-the mosel]1315-the confluence of the rhine and the mosel . The impression that [this school]1316-this school was so utterly unlike [any of [the girls ’ schools [he]145-hamlin had read of in novels]1318-the girls ’ schools he had read of in novels]1317-any of the girls ’ schools he had read of in novels ; the impression that [a young woman]581-a young woman might develop there into whatever pleasant thing nature intended,—had been so strong , that from the moment of [his]145-hamlin first contemplating a possible marriage with [[the Perrys]1062-the perrys ’ servant]1229-the perrys ’ servant , [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson and [[her]230-mrs simson school at [Coblenz]51-coblenz]1302-her school at coblenz had formed an essential part of [his]145-hamlin plans . [The lady]3881-the lady , on the other hand , was exactly [the kind of woman to whom a situation like this]1324-the kind of woman to whom a situation like this would appeal : [Hamlin]145-hamlin , whom [she]3881-the lady had entertained on buns and ginger‐beer , and then , in later years , raved over after the first sonnet which [he]145-hamlin sent to the ‘ Athenæum , ’ had always been [her]3881-the lady especial object of adoration ; and [his]145-hamlin adoption of [a beautiful and strange young woman]1325-a beautiful and strange young woman , [his]145-hamlin preparation of [a bride for [himself]145-hamlin]1326-a bride for himself , was for [her]3881-the lady the finishing touch to [his]145-hamlin perfection . [She]3881-the lady would indeed have preferred had [Anne Brown]171-anne been small and fair , and garrulous and impish , and shown a love for mathematics and flirtation ; but , nevertheless , [Anne Brown]171-anne , inasmuch as [she]171-anne was [the elect of [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin]1327-the elect of walter hamlin , and inasmuch as [she]171-anne was [a beautiful young creature]1328-a beautiful young creature , immediately won the facile but not fickle heart of [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson . The whole business seemed to [her]3881-the lady as natural as possible ; and it was [she]3881-the lady who proposed that [Hamlin]145-hamlin should accompany [her]3881-the lady and [[his]145-hamlin ward]1230-his ward part of [their]1330-their way northwards . What was [Anne]171-anne ’s own condition ? During those hours in [the train]1061-the train , when [Hamlin]145-hamlin was for ever jumping out and overwhelming [them]1330-their with coffee and stale cakes and newspapers at [every station]1332-every station ; during those days at [Venice]52-venice , when [they]1330-their stayed at [the same hotel]1333-the same hotel ( [the headwaiter]1334-the headwaiter quite spontaneously wrote “ [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson and [niece]4447-niece ”[1334-the headwaiter] in [the strangers]1335-the strangers ’ book ) , and spent [their]1330-their days in [picture‐galleries]1336-picture‐galleries and [churches]1337-churches and gondolas , and [their]1330-their evenings at theatres,—during all that journey [Anne]171-anne was as cold , and silent , and melancholy as [she]171-anne had been when first [they]1330-their had met at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini ; indeed [any man]1338-any man but [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and [any woman]1339-any woman except [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , would probably have been disheartened and disgusted by this apparent stolidity of behaviour . But [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson had already made up [her]230-mrs simson character of [Anne Brown]171-anne , and fallen in love with it quite independent of realities ; and [Hamlin]145-hamlin was rather pleased that the creature whom [he]145-hamlin was going to teach how to think and how to feel , did not manifest any particular mode of thinking and feeling of [her]171-anne own . So [they]1330-their were both extremely assiduous to [Anne Brown]171-anne , and in reality thought much more about what [she]171-anne was going to be than about what [she]171-anne actually was . The fact was that [the poor girl]1188-the poor girl was in a dazed condition — that all this journey seemed to [her]1188-the poor girl unreal , and all the things around [her]1188-the poor girl unsubstantial . [Her]1188-the poor girl head felt hollow , [she]1188-the poor girl seemed to be informed about [her]1188-the poor girl feelings rather than to experience them , [her]1188-the poor girl own words sounded as if through a whispering‐gallery . A couple of weeks ago [she]1188-the poor girl had had so strong a consciousness of identity and existence , of [her]1188-the poor girl own desires and hopes ; now [she]1188-the poor girl could not well understand how [she]1188-the poor girl came to be where [she]1188-the poor girl was . Sometimes , while mechanically talking with [[her]1188-the poor girl companions]1341-her companions or walking in [their]1341-her companions company , [she]1188-the poor girl used to ask [herself]1188-the poor girl how it had all come about , and then [she]1188-the poor girl could see no reason for it all ; it seemed accidental , inexplicable , causeless , and almost incredible . Whenever , on the other hand , [she]1188-the poor girl awakened to the reality of things , [she]1188-the poor girl was depressed by a sense of transition ; [she]1188-the poor girl was afraid of speaking , and almost of feeling . As long as [she]1188-the poor girl had been [[the Perrys]1062-the perrys ’ servant]1229-the perrys ’ servant , [she]1188-the poor girl had experienced no shyness with [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; as far as [her]1188-the poor girl taciturn nature would allow , [she]1188-the poor girl had spoken out whatever [she]1188-the poor girl had thought or felt , without considering whether or not it might surprise , annoy , or amuse [him]145-hamlin . Now , on the contrary , [she]1188-the poor girl gradually became conscious of a fear lest [Hamlin]145-hamlin should have cheated [himself]145-hamlin in choosing [her]1188-the poor girl . Unable to tell any one of this feeling , [she]1188-the poor girl let it overshadow [her]1188-the poor girl . One evening at [Munich]53-munich , two or three days before [they]1344-they parted company with [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , coming into [[Anne]171-anne ’s room]1345-anne ’s room , found [the girl]583-the girl seated with [her]583-the girl head in the pillows of [her]583-the girl bed , sobbing . [The excellent and somewhat romantic heart of [the schoolmistress]1306-the schoolmistress]1347-the excellent and somewhat romantic heart of the schoolmistress immediately melted at this sight . “ [[My]230-mrs simson dear child]4448-my dear child , ”[230-mrs simson] [she]230-mrs simson cried , looking more than ever like [a friendly grey old mare]1349-a friendly grey old mare , “ what is the matter with [you]4448-my dear child ? ”[230-mrs simson] But [Anne]171-anne merely buried [her]171-anne head deeper in the pillows , and sobbed harder than before . “ What is the matter ? ”[231-mrs sireson] repeated [Mrs Sireson]231-mrs sireson , laying [her]231-mrs sireson hand on [Anne]171-anne ’s shoulder . “ Oh , leave [me]583-the girl , leave [me]583-the girl ! ”[583-the girl] moaned [the girl]583-the girl . [Mrs Simpson]232-mrs simpson gently passed [her]232-mrs simpson arm under [the prostrate girl]1351-the prostrate girl ’s breast , and lifted [her]1351-the prostrate girl up from the bed . “ What is the matter with [you]4448-my dear child , [[my]232-mrs simpson dear]4237-my dear ? ”[232-mrs simpson] [she]232-mrs simpson asked . “ Nothing — nothing , ”[171-anne] sobbed [Anne]171-anne , trying to hide [her]171-anne cried‐out eyes with [her]171-anne hands . “ Nonsense ; nothing ! ”[230-mrs simson] said [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , briskly . “ [You]4448-my dear child are unhappy about something , [[you]4448-my dear child poor little thing]4450-you poor little thing . ”[230-mrs simson] [Girls]1352-girls , and especially [girls in distress]1353-girls in distress , invariably appeared little to [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , even when , like [Anne Brown]171-anne , [they]1352-girls overtopped [her]230-mrs simson by a good head . “ Something is the matter with [you]4448-my dear child , ”[230-mrs simson] [she]230-mrs simson insisted . “ Now just let [us]4451-us see together what it may be ; ”[230-mrs simson] and [she]230-mrs simson made [the reluctant girl]1354-the reluctant girl sit down by [her]230-mrs simson side on the sofa . “ Are [you]4448-my dear child homesick?—do [you]4448-my dear child feel very strange , [poor dearie]4452-poor dearie , with [strange people]4453-strange people ? — are [you]4448-my dear child frightened a little by the sudden change in [your]4448-my dear child life?—it ’s very natural , [[my]230-mrs simson dear little girl]4454-my dear little girl , but [you]4448-my dear child ’ll get over it soon . ”[230-mrs simson] [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head . But the impossibility of making [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson understand what depressed [her]171-anne , sent the sobs once more into [her]171-anne voice . “ No , no , ”[230-mrs simson] [she]230-mrs simson said ; “ oh no , no — [you]230-mrs simson ca n’t understand . [I]230-mrs simson do n’t feel lonely — [I]230-mrs simson do n’t feel unhappy — but it ’s only because [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin — ”[230-mrs simson] “ Because [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin is going away , [[my]230-mrs simson dear]4237-my dear ? ”[230-mrs simson] [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson smiled as [she]230-mrs simson kissed [Anne]171-anne on the crisp iron‐black hair , for [the girl]583-the girl would not loosen [her]230-mrs simson hands from [her]583-the girl face—“Because [he]145-hamlin is going away ? That ’s very natural too ; but it wo n’t be for long , [dearest]4456-dearest . ”[230-mrs simson] [Anne]171-anne broke loose from [her]230-mrs simson embrace . “ It ’s not that ! it ’s not that ! ”[230-mrs simson] [she]230-mrs simson sobbed ; “ please go away — [you]230-mrs simson ca n’t understand — it ’s not that ! Oh no , [I]230-mrs simson shall be glad when [he]145-hamlin be gone away ! ”[230-mrs simson] [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson rose . At first [she]230-mrs simson felt pained , disgusted ; but [her]230-mrs simson frigidness melted with the speedy reflection that [girls]1352-girls do n’t know what the matter is with [them]1352-girls in such cases . “ Good‐bye , [dear]4117-dear , ”[230-mrs simson] [she]230-mrs simson said ; “ [I]230-mrs simson shall send [you]4117-dear up some tea in a few minutes ; that will set [you]4117-dear all right . But do n’t fret because [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin is going . [You]4117-dear will see [him]145-hamlin soon again . ”[230-mrs simson] “ [I]171-anne shall be glad when [he]145-hamlin is gone ! ”[171-anne] repeated [Anne]171-anne , in a paroxysm of grief . It was not a mere foolish , hysterical falsehood . It was a real relief when , one morning at [Frankfurt]56-frankfurt , [Hamlin]145-hamlin was standing on [the platform of [the station]1358-the station]1357-the platform of the station , speaking to [them]1359-them at the door of [[their]1359-them carriage]1360-their carriage . [The guard]1361-the guard came to slam the door . “ Good‐bye , [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , ”[145-hamlin] said [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ Good‐bye , [Miss Brown]171-anne . ”[145-hamlin] “ Good‐bye , [sir]3865-sir , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered , extending [her]171-anne hand . [He]145-hamlin kissed it hurriedly . The door was slammed . [The train]1061-the train moved on slowly , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin walked along [its]1061-the train side . Gradually it went quicker and quicker , and [Anne Brown]171-anne saw [Hamlin]145-hamlin for a minute on [the platform]1363-the platform ; [he]145-hamlin was pale , but radiant . [He]145-hamlin waved [his]145-hamlin hand . “ [A rivederci]4459-a rivederci ! ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin cried , waving [his]145-hamlin hat . A pillar of [the station]1358-the station hid [him]145-hamlin . [Anne]171-anne turned away from the window and opened a book which [he]145-hamlin had given [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne read so assiduously all that day , that poor [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , who was [a sociable woman]1365-a sociable woman , resorted , in sheer despair , to talking with [the other travellers]1366-the other travellers , who stared in puzzled surprise at [the tall girl with the melancholy pale face]1367-the tall girl with the melancholy pale face and masses of crimp black hair who sat opposite [her]171-anne . When [they]1368-they had got out of [the train]1061-the train , rattled over [the round stones of [Coblenz]51-coblenz]1370-the round stones of coblenz , and were finally following [the obstreperously welcoming cook]1371-the obstreperously welcoming cook and [housemaid]1372-housemaid up the stairs of [[Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s house]1373-mrs simson ’s house , [Anne]171-anne felt relieved . And when [she]171-anne had been left alone in [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room , [she]171-anne felt a weight off [her]171-anne . When [she]171-anne had taken some things out of [her]171-anne box , [she]171-anne went to the window . The last flare of sunset was on the marblelike brownish‐green swirls of [the Rhine]54-the rhine ; and filaments of reddish gold streaked the sky above [Ehrenbreitstein]50-ehrenbreitstein , whose windows gleamed crimson . [A steamer]1375-a steamer was puffing and whistling by [the wharf]1376-the wharf ; the trumpets of the rappel shrieked through [the streets]4115-the streets and were reechoed from [the opposite shore]1378-the opposite shore . From inside [the house]509-the house rose the sound of a piano ; [some one]1380-some one was playing [Bach]234-bach ’s “ Mein gläubiges Herz . ”[1380-some one] It was the beginning of a new life . [Anne Brown]171-anne left the window , hung [her]171-anne clothes in the wardrobe , folded [her]171-anne linen in the drawers . Then [she]171-anne took from [her]171-anne trunk a framed photograph of [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and stuck it on [her]171-anne dressing‐table ; [he]145-hamlin was very handsome , with [his]145-hamlin straight , keen‐featured , almost beardless Norman face and waves of light hair : [she]171-anne looked at it long . Then [she]171-anne dived to the bottom of [her]171-anne trunk and brought out two little books ; the “ Petrarch ”[171-anne] [he]145-hamlin had given [her]171-anne at [Lucca]9-lucca , and the volume of [his]145-hamlin own poems . [She]171-anne sat down by the open window and began reading them , and glancing at the redness dying away from river and sky . [She]171-anne felt very solemn and happy . “ [I]171-anne must become worthy of [him]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne thought . LIFE was monotonous enough at [[Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s at [Coblenz]51-coblenz]1381-mrs simson ’s at coblenz ; but it was a kind of monotony which to [Anne Brown]171-anne was positively exciting . It was for [her]171-anne a process of absorption into another class of life ; and as such , represented a daily influx of new ideas and habits , a daily surprise , effort , and adjustment . By virtue of [her]171-anne half‐Italian nature , [Anne]171-anne required but little to make [her]171-anne , in education and manners , [a lady]3943-a lady . With [her]171-anne wide‐open but rather empty mind , [her]171-anne seriousness and dignity of [person]1383-person , extreme simpleness , as the reverse of complexity of character , it was wholly unnecessary that [she]171-anne should unlearn anything , or even that [she]171-anne should absorb anything absolutely new ; the only thing was to fill up the magnificent design which already existed in [her]171-anne . [No one]3899-no one ever required to say to [Anne]171-anne , “ [You]171-anne must not do , or think , or say such or such a thing . ”[3899-no one] [She]171-anne surprised [people]577-people only by [her]171-anne timidity , [her]171-anne silence , [her]171-anne passiveness , and by a sort of haughtiness which accompanied [them]577-people strangely enough ; a certain solemn , and , at the same time , abrupt way of judging of things and treating [people]577-people , and which was the mental counterpart of [her]171-anne look , gait , nay , even of the folds which [her]171-anne dresses took on [her]171-anne . Ignorant though [she]171-anne was , [she]171-anne seemed at [her]171-anne ease with the new culture with which [she]171-anne was presented , just as , for all [her]171-anne habits of waiting on instead of being served , [she]171-anne seemed at ease in [her]171-anne behaviour . But it was difficult for [Anne]171-anne to tune [herself]171-anne or get [herself]171-anne tuned to the pitch of the everyday feelings and life of [[her]171-anne companions]1341-her companions ; [she]171-anne could not understand [these young ladies]1388-these young ladies . [The girls at [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s did not exceed half‐a‐dozen , and [they]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s were [none of [them]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s [schoolgirls]1391-schoolgirls]1390-none of them schoolgirls in the ordinary sense . [They]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s were , like [Anne]171-anne , [eccentrically placed young women]1392-eccentrically placed young women ; [orphans]1393-orphans , or [girls whose parents]1394-girls whose parents were in [the colonies]1395-the colonies , or [girls who could not get on at home,—girls]1396-girls who could not get on at home,—girls , all of [them]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s , with a certain pretension to superiority , and a great habit of independence , which was fostered by [the schoolmistress]1306-the schoolmistress , whose theory was that [women]3959-women could not possibly be left too much to [their]3959-women own devices . [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson was very fond of preaching this gospel of higher education , to the great scandal of [the respectable German matrons whom [she]230-mrs simson visited]1399-the respectable german matrons whom she visited . “ [Narrow‐minded , vicious creatures]4460-narrow‐minded , vicious creatures , ”[230-mrs simson] [she]230-mrs simson used to say , who shook [their]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s heads at [the young ladies attending public lectures]1400-the young ladies attending public lectures , walking about by [themselves]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s , and flirting in the most stalwart and open manner ( quite unsentimental and unwomanly , said [the Germans]235-the germans ) with [the Prussian officers]1401-the prussian officers . Of [these girls]1402-these girls two were [orphans]1393-orphans , and had been sent to [Coblenz]51-coblenz as a convenient riddance by [[their]1393-orphans guardians]1404-their guardians ; [one]620-one had been deposited in [Europe]39-europe by [[her]620-one parents]1406-her parents , to be called for when educated , and shipped off to [New Zealand]57-new zealand ; one , [a huge damsel approaching thirty]1407-a huge damsel approaching thirty , was studying eye‐ surgery with [a famous Rhenish oculist]1408-a famous rhenish oculist ; [the fifth]1409-the fifth was going to [Girton]58-girton and was studying German ; [the sixth]1410-the sixth had found [[her]1410-the sixth [home]4170-home]1411-her home too much for [her]1410-the sixth , and was perpetually complaining of the hardness of [her]1410-the sixth fate and the viciousness of [her]1410-the sixth own character , aspiring to impossible ideals of knowledge and usefulness and self‐sacrifice , and spending [her]1410-the sixth leisure making up frocks in which to disport [herself]1410-the sixth at the garrison balls . Each of [them]1413-them studied whatsoever [she]1410-the sixth thought fit : [Greek and Latin professors]1414-greek and latin professors , [piano and singing masters]1415-piano and singing masters , [German governesses]1416-german governesses , were perpetually going in and out of [the house]509-the house ; [the girls]1418-the girls were continually running to lectures on botany or physiology or comparative philology , where [the youth of [the town]829-the town]1419-the youth of the town eyed [the Schöne Engländerinnen]236-the schöne engländerinnen with rapture , sending [them]1418-the girls anonymous bouquets and verses , and bringing [them]1418-the girls serenades , and even , to poor [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s horror , slipping love‐letters of the most burning description into the door‐hinges . Among [these girls]1402-these girls [poor Anne]171-anne would have felt utterly lost , had [she]171-anne not been accustomed for years to be [[her]171-anne own sole company]1422-her own sole company , letting [her]171-anne life brush by that of [other folk]681-other folk , without ever mixing . It seemed to [her]171-anne quite natural to exchange one kind of isolation for another : to drudge on at improving [her]171-anne own mind as [she]171-anne had formerly drudged on at mending the clothes and making the beds of [the little Perrys]645-the little perrys , interesting [herself]171-anne as little in , and awakening as little interest among , [[her]171-anne companions]1341-her companions as [she]171-anne had done among [[her]171-anne fellow‐servants in [Italy]1-italy]1426-her fellow‐servants in italy . [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson had received full instructions from [Hamlin]145-hamlin as to all the things which [she]171-anne was and was not to teach or have taught to [[his]145-hamlin ward]1230-his ward ; and [Anne]171-anne would have been perfectly satisfied with working for [her]171-anne French and [German masters]1428-german masters , preparing [her]171-anne lessons of geography and history , and reading such books as [Hamlin]145-hamlin would send [her]171-anne , but [the other girls]1429-the other girls were not at all so minded . [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s arrival created a tremendous sensation in [[Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s establishment]1430-mrs simson ’s establishment . [Her]171-anne strange kind of beauty , which did not strike [the conventional spectator]1431-the conventional spectator as being beauty at all , excluding , as it did , fairness , rosiness , youthfulness , daintiness , liveliness , voluptuousness , sentimentalness , or any of the orthodox ingredients of female charm,—her wholly unlike‐everyone‐else appearance , [her]171-anne silence , sullenness , haughtiness , all took [the girls]1418-the girls by surprise . [Her]171-anne shyness , ignorance , newness in [her]171-anne position , was obvious from the very first day . The knowledge of what [she]171-anne had been and what [she]171-anne was going to be , all this romance was quickly wheedled out of [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson by [the misunderstood little girl who wished to turn [sister of mercy]1434-sister of mercy]1433-the misunderstood little girl who wished to turn sister of mercy , and carried on a simultaneous flirtation with [a lieutenant]1435-a lieutenant , [a Bonn student]1436-a bonn student , [a painter]500-a painter , and [a piano‐master]1438-a piano‐master ; and bullied out of [her]171-anne by [the bouncing amazon who talked about nothing but retinal impressions and optic nerves]1439-the bouncing amazon who talked about nothing but retinal impressions and optic nerves . From that moment [Anne]171-anne became a subject of intense interest at [the school]1304-the school : [most of [the girls]1418-the girls]1441-most of the girls had heard of [Hamlin]145-hamlin in [England]37-england , and [all of [them]1443-all of them]1443-all of them had heard of [him]145-hamlin from [the enthusiastic schoolmistress]1444-the enthusiastic schoolmistress . To possess in [their]1443-all of them midst [his]145-hamlin chosen one was a great privilege , although [they]1443-all of them sometimes made fun of [Anne]171-anne and [him]145-hamlin behind [her]171-anne back , drawing pictures of [the solemn and tragic girl dressed in the most draggled æsthetic manner]1445-the solemn and tragic girl dressed in the most draggled æsthetic manner , surrounded by a circle of [young æsthetes copied out of ‘ Punch ’ ( Bunthome]1446-young æsthetes copied out of ‘ punch ’ ( bunthome did not exist at that time ) holding lilies and swinging censers as [she]171-anne went . [They]1443-all of them all thought [Anne]171-anne [a strange , awe‐inspiring , and , at the same time , somewhat ridiculous person]1447-a strange , awe‐inspiring , and , at the same time , somewhat ridiculous person ; but [they]1443-all of them all got to like [her]171-anne , although [the misunderstood High Church flirt]1448-the misunderstood high church flirt could never be got to see why [Anne]171-anne should despise [officers]984-officers and [garrison balls]1450-garrison balls ; and [the scientific girl of twenty‐eight]1451-the scientific girl of twenty‐eight thought æstheticism and æsthetic poets idiotic and immoral ; and each of [the others]881-the others found some reservation to make about [the Italian]1453-the italian , as [they]1443-all of them called [her]171-anne . Yet , as [I]0-i said , [they]1443-all of them did grow to like [her]171-anne ; and [Anne]171-anne , who was unaccustomed to friendliness , was so touched by the familiarity and good‐nature of [[her]171-anne companions]1341-her companions , that [she]171-anne gradually began to take a great and serious interest in [their]1443-all of them concerns . [She]171-anne became quite enthusiastic about ocular surgery , listening with scarcely any shudders to the narration of the most complicated operations ; [she]171-anne let [herself]171-anne be overwhelmed with discourses about Middle High German and Gothic , and the connection with [Sanskrit]237-sanskrit ; [she]171-anne firmly believed in the mystical fervours , the desire of self‐sacrifice , the wasted passion of [the little fair‐haired flirt]1455-the little fair‐haired flirt , reasoning seriously about [them]1443-all of them , and trying to check what [she]171-anne believed to be a suicidal tendency ; [she]171-anne was greatly touched by the home‐sickness and family squabbles of [the other girls]1429-the other girls . Not that [Anne]171-anne was [a fool]4435-a fool , or made to be [a dupe]1458-a dupe ; on the contrary , [she]171-anne saw well enough the funniness of the contrasts between [[her]171-anne friends]1459-her friends ’ words and [their]1443-all of them life ; but [Anne]171-anne was so earnest , so simple , so homogeneous of nature , [she]171-anne was so fervent in all [her]171-anne feelings , that [she]171-anne always imagined that the serious things which [people]577-people said or affected must be the reality ; and , as in [her]171-anne own case , the levity , the frivolousness , the fickleness , must be the mere exterior clothing of social fictions . Thus [she]171-anne gave [her]171-anne sympathy wherever it was asked for , while asking for no sympathy [herself]171-anne . [The girls]1418-the girls used often to remark upon this , and complain that for all [they]1418-the girls did , [Anne Brown]171-anne remained surrounded by a sort of moral moat , alone , isolated , impregnable in a kind of moral fortress . AS [Hamlin]145-hamlin had fancied , while painting [Anne]171-anne ’s portrait , so [the girls at [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s]1389-the girls at mrs simson ’s used to fancy that there could not be much going on inside [this taciturn and undemonstrative creature]1463-this taciturn and undemonstrative creature . But it was not so . While [Anne]171-anne looked so quiet , said so little ( and least of all about [herself]171-anne ) during those two years of school , a drama — nay , a whole life‐poem — was incessantly going on within [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne worked indefatigably at [her]171-anne lessons , read every book [she]171-anne could lay hold of , was taken to concerts , lectures , burgher tea‐parties and garrison balls , and on excursions up and down [the Rhine]54-the rhine and into [the neighbouring hills]1464-the neighbouring hills ; but all this was but as an exterior life surrounding [an interior one]1465-an interior one , as the movement of [the ship]1466-the ship to the movement of [the passengers]1467-the passengers on its deck . The real life was not with [these girls]1402-these girls and [these teachers]1469-these teachers , but with [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; not in [this Rhineland town]1470-this rhineland town , but in [the distant places where [he]145-hamlin travelled]1471-the distant places where he travelled . [He]145-hamlin wrote to [her]171-anne very often , from [London]4-london , from [Italy]1-italy , from [Greece]59-greece and [Egypt]30-egypt , and wherever [he]145-hamlin roamed about . At first [she]171-anne was surprised by the frequency of [his]145-hamlin letters ; then [she]171-anne became accustomed to it as to a necessity of [her]171-anne existence , but a necessity to which [she]171-anne had no right . It seemed to [her]171-anne wonderful that [he]145-hamlin should write so often , and yet that the time which elapsed between [his]145-hamlin letters should be intolerable . In [her]171-anne great desire for [them]1472-them [she]171-anne used to have recourse to all manner of unconscious sophistications . [She]171-anne tried to train [herself]171-anne to disappointment , to chastise [her]171-anne own impatience and greediness , saying to [herself]171-anne , on the days when [she]171-anne thought that a letter might come , “ It is impossible that there should be one to‐day , ”[171-anne] although [her]171-anne heart fell when the prophecy sometimes came true ; and [she]171-anne stayed up‐stairs , [her]171-anne eyes pinned to [her]171-anne book , when [she]171-anne heard [the postman]1473-the postman ’s ring at the door , although that ring put [her]171-anne all into a tremble , and made [her]171-anne feel faint when [she]171-anne heard it . Thus with the letters from [him]145-hamlin . It was almost worse about [her]171-anne own answers . Often [she]171-anne could stand it no longer , and would begin a letter to [Hamlin]145-hamlin — only a few lines , which might be finished when [his]145-hamlin next letter should be received . The few lines turned to pages ; yet the next day no letter would come , and [she]171-anne was unable to resist the temptation of writing even more ; then , when the long‐wished letter at last came , there came with it such a number of new things to say , that [her]171-anne previous epistle must needs be torn up . Also , on re‐reading what [she]171-anne had written in answer to [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [she]171-anne was often filled with shame and fear . [She]171-anne had entertained [him]145-hamlin with such trifles , or been so pedantic , or put things in such a horrid way , [she]171-anne must needs tear it up and write once more . Then the length , the frequency of [her]171-anne letters frightened [her]171-anne : [he]145-hamlin would grow weary and impatient ; [she]171-anne tried to write briefly , but failed ; [she]171-anne tried to write rarely , making solemn resolutions to let two , three , or four days pass without answering [him]145-hamlin ; but it was not of much use . [She]171-anne was dreadfully afraid lest [Hamlin]145-hamlin should think [her]171-anne a drag upon [him]145-hamlin , lest [he]145-hamlin should write one single letter more than [he]145-hamlin would naturally have done , from goodness to [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne never told [him]145-hamlin with what tremulous expectancy [she]171-anne waited for the post ; with what heartburn [she]171-anne saw it come empty‐handed ; with what avidity [she]171-anne read [his]145-hamlin letters , re‐read them furtively by snatches , carried them about in [her]171-anne pocket , made them last over days , till [she]171-anne knew them by heart , and , even then , how [she]171-anne was for ever doing up and undoing again the packet in which [she]171-anne kept them : if [he]145-hamlin knew that , [he]145-hamlin might feel obliged , being so kind , to write oftener ; and that must not be . [Any one who had seen these letters which were [her]171-anne soul ’s food]1474-any one who had seen these letters which were her soul ’s food , would have been surprised how they could awaken such a longing , how they could produce such emotion and keep alive such passion . In accordance with [his]145-hamlin whole plan of proceedings , [Hamlin]145-hamlin never once wrote to [Anne]171-anne as if there were any question of [her]171-anne ever becoming [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife . “ [[My]1476-they dear]4237-my dear [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[1476-they] [they]1476-they all ceremoniously began , and ended off “ [Yours]171-anne sincerely , ”[1476-they] or “ [[Your]171-anne sincere friend]4462-your sincere friend , [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[1476-they] Affectionate [they]1476-they were , and even adoring , in the sense of looking up , or affecting to look up , at [her]171-anne as a sort of superhuman and wonderful creature , not quite conscious of [its]1477-its wonderfulness , perhaps , and certainly not responsible for it ; the mental attitude of [an artist]3956-an artist before [a beautiful model]1479-a beautiful model , of [some Italian medieval poet]1480-some italian medieval poet before [a Platonic mistress]1481-a platonic mistress . There was not much perception of the reality of [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s personality , nor indeed of [her]171-anne having any personality at all , being a thing with feelings , thoughts , hopes , interests of [her]171-anne own . Sometimes even [poor Anne]171-anne felt , on reading [his]1482-his letters , as if a lump of ice had been laid on [her]171-anne heart , when [she]171-anne came upon certain sentences ; [she]171-anne could scarcely tell [you]1483-you why , but those sentences made [her]171-anne feel numb and alone , like a wrecked sailor at [the north pole]1484-the north pole , for days . Then a reaction came ; a burning indignation with [herself]171-anne , a burning adoration of [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [She]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne had done [him]1482-his some injury ; and once or twice , amid tears of shame , [she]171-anne wrote that [she]171-anne had become unworthy of [his]1482-his friendship — why , [she]171-anne could not well explain . But [she]171-anne tore it all up , or left only dim hints which [Hamlin]145-hamlin misunderstood , and became more respectful and adoring than ever , imagining that [he]1482-his must have said something to slight [her]171-anne . [He]145-hamlin really was adoring ; it was such a lovely Madonna this , that it seemed to [him]145-hamlin that all the most beautiful and precious things of [his]145-hamlin mind , and [other men]1485-other men ’s minds , must be heaped up before [her]171-anne , like offerings of flowers , and rich ointments , and jewels , and music . [He]145-hamlin copied out pages of poetry and prose in [his]145-hamlin letters , and wrote to [her]171-anne the most lovely descriptions of things [he]145-hamlin saw or things [he]145-hamlin felt . Whenever [he]145-hamlin recollected a fine poem , or saw a beautiful scene , or was struck by a beautiful thought or a happy expression , [he]145-hamlin hastened to offer it to [Anne]171-anne , as [the kings of [the East]38-the east]1486-the kings of the east offered gold and frankincense and embroidered raiment to [the little Christ]1487-the little christ . That this was the result of [his]145-hamlin love , [she]171-anne never thought ; for [she]171-anne never ventured to think that [he]145-hamlin condescended , or even would ever condescend , to love [her]171-anne ; but it was in [her]171-anne eyes the result of [his]145-hamlin greatness , [his]145-hamlin generosity , the largesse , as it were , of [his]145-hamlin sublimity . About [himself]145-hamlin [Hamlin]145-hamlin would also write a great , great deal . Of singularly delicate mental fibre , and somewhat weak will , [he]145-hamlin was for ever tormented ( or pretending to [himself]145-hamlin to be tormented , for to be so was pretty well a matter of choice ) by unattainable ideals , by conflicts in [his]145-hamlin own nature : mysterious temptations of unspeakable things , beckoning [his]145-hamlin nobler nature into the mud , which [he]145-hamlin never at all specified , but which moved [Anne]171-anne to agonies of grief and admiration . [The poor girl]1188-the poor girl , not understanding how such things will shoot up in the poetic mind as a result of mere reading , and be nurtured there for a day for the sake of [their]1489-their strange colour , would screw up all [her]171-anne might to help [him]145-hamlin , writing to [him]145-hamlin to be patient , to be strong and bold , to remember the nobility of [his]145-hamlin nature,—strange passionately earnest entreaties written in tears , or in moods like those which send [people]577-people to the stake ; and which , in [their]1489-their ludicrous disproportionateness to [their]1489-their cause , would bring the tears to almost any one ’s eyes who should read them . A strange correspondence ; and of which [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s half , although beautiful with all manner of artistic prettinesses , would have struck one as the less beautiful and interesting part : the suppressed passionateness , unconscious of itself , of [the girl]583-the girl ’s letters , [her]583-the girl mixture of prim literary daintiness , absorbed from [her]583-the girl reading , and of homely , tragically‐hurled‐about imagery ( [Hamlin]145-hamlin used , without revealing [the author]1492-the author , to read out some of these metaphors of [Anne]171-anne ’s to [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends , pointing out [their]893-his friends Elizabethan , Webster‐like character ) , were much more really striking . But [Anne]171-anne thought that what [she]171-anne wrote was unworthy to be seen by [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; [his]145-hamlin condescension was mere goodness . [Hamlin]145-hamlin , indeed , was very good to [her]171-anne — very gentle , courteous , generous , and assiduous . There was scarcely a book read by [Anne Brown]171-anne which was not of [his]145-hamlin selecting ; and even in the midst of [his]145-hamlin journeys [he]145-hamlin used to elaborately select things for [her]171-anne reading , cutting out all but a very few pieces out of books of poetry , and copying and pasting into them all manner of extracts . “ [I]145-hamlin should be grieved to think that anything save the very best should ever be read by [you]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin often wrote . Thus , in the most singular way , [Anne]171-anne , only [a nursemaid a few months before]1494-a nursemaid a few months before , became more deeply versed in poetry and poetical and picturesque history than [most girls]1495-most girls ; Greek lyrism , Oriental mysticism , French æstheticism , but above all , things medieval and pseudo‐medieval ; imbued with the imagery and sentiment of [that strange eclectic school of [our]1497-our days]1496-that strange eclectic school of our days which [we]1497-our still call pre‐Raphaelite . And such an education , while putting [her]171-anne in complete harmony with [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s aspirations and habits , also brought home to [her]171-anne the merit of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s own work . Of [his]145-hamlin pictures , [she]171-anne had , indeed , only vague recollections , besides the little sketches , wonderful jewel‐coloured things , full of poetic suggestion , which [he]145-hamlin would send [her]171-anne at Christmas and on [her]171-anne birthday , to the amazement of [the whole school]1498-the whole school . But [he]145-hamlin sent [her]171-anne a good deal of [his]145-hamlin poetry , and that only of the best . [She]171-anne did not always understand exactly the things to which [he]145-hamlin alluded , seeing only the beauty , the vague passionate wistfulness , the delicate sadness of what [he]145-hamlin wrote . [His]145-hamlin greatness perfectly confounded [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne found allusions to it in everything : in reading of [dead poets]1499-dead poets , of [Shelley]238-shelley , [Keats]239-keats , [Goethe]240-goethe , a kind of passionate interest thrilled through [her]171-anne , for [she]171-anne seemed to be reading about [Hamlin]145-hamlin . And the same held good as to [artists]1500-artists ; [they]1500-artists were all [[his]145-hamlin kinsmen]1501-his kinsmen , of [his]145-hamlin blood — nay , [they]1500-artists all , in a mystic manner , foreshadowed [him]145-hamlin . Of these matters [she]171-anne never spoke to [any of [the girls]1418-the girls]1502-any of the girls . But often , while walking with [them]1418-the girls , [her]171-anne pride would swell with the thought that [she]171-anne belonged to [him]145-hamlin — that [he]145-hamlin had chosen [her]171-anne . And when [the New Zealander]241-the new zealander , who was musical and had a fine voice , used sometimes to sing [Schumann]242-schumann ’s song , “ Er [der herrlichste von allen]4463-der herrlichste von allen , ”[241-the new zealander] the words and the music sent a flood of love and pride to [her]171-anne heart ; it was [he]145-hamlin , “ [he]145-hamlin the most glorious of all , ”[145-hamlin] who was thus gracious and good to [her]171-anne . THUS one year went by ; and then , slowly , another , while [Anne Brown]171-anne was being transformed from [a nursemaid]616-a nursemaid into [a lady]3943-a lady . [Hamlin]145-hamlin saw [her]171-anne twice during that time . Once , while [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson and [Anne]171-anne were staying in [Paris]42-paris — for [he]145-hamlin had begged that [her]171-anne holidays might be spent either in [Switzerland]60-switzerland , or in [some place where [she]171-anne might see pictures and statues]1506-some place where she might see pictures and statues — when [he]145-hamlin suddenly turned up for a day on [his]145-hamlin way from [England]37-england to [Greece]59-greece ; and once at [Coblenz]51-coblenz . [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson was giving a party : suddenly into [the parlour]1507-the parlour , filled with [German matrons]1508-german matrons and [damsels , with a sprinkling of professors]1509-damsels , with a sprinkling of professors and [soldiers]1510-soldiers , was introduced [a slight , fair man]1511-a slight , fair man , who looked very young till [you]1512-you saw [him]145-hamlin closely , and at whose sight [that sombre , quiet , strange , half‐Italian girl]1513-that sombre , quiet , strange , half‐italian girl had suddenly turned crimson , and clutched a chair , as if afraid to fall , while [the company]1514-the company stared and whispered . [Hamlin]145-hamlin left that same evening ; and as the day in [Paris]42-paris had been spent in seeing and talking about pictures , so this afternoon passed in trifling conversation at [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s table . Alone , [Anne]171-anne scarcely saw [him]145-hamlin for an instant . Only , when [he]145-hamlin left [Coblenz]51-coblenz , [he]145-hamlin seized [her]171-anne hand as [he]145-hamlin stood at the door , and kissed it fervently . It seemed to [her]171-anne , during the long months of absence , that [she]171-anne would give all [her]171-anne life to see [him]145-hamlin again , to be able to tell [him]145-hamlin how grateful [she]171-anne was to [him]145-hamlin . Yet , in reality , [his]145-hamlin presence passed like the picture of a magic‐lantern on a wall ; and [she]171-anne felt as if [her]171-anne lips were glued together : it was a vision , and no more . But on that second visit [Hamlin]145-hamlin had been dazzled . [He]145-hamlin had recognised from the first the exotic beauty and strangeness of [[the Perrys]167-the perrys ’ servant]1229-the perrys ’ servant ; [he]145-hamlin had seen in [Paris]42-paris that [his]145-hamlin judgment had been correct ; but when , after eighteen months of schooling , [he]145-hamlin suddenly saw [Anne]171-anne again , it was as if [he]145-hamlin had never seen [her]171-anne before , a fresh revelation . A year and a half of [a lady]3943-a lady ’s life , without bodily fatigue or mental weariness , had developed to the full [the girl]583-the girl ’s marvellous beauty : strange , mysterious , amazonian it was as ever ; but it was as the regalness of [a triumphant queen by the side of [the queenliness of [a deposed Amazon chief]1520-a deposed amazon chief]1519-the queenliness of a deposed amazon chief]1518-a triumphant queen by the side of the queenliness of a deposed amazon chief . The haughtiness which had struck [him]145-hamlin in [the nursemaid of the little Perrys]1521-the nursemaid of the little perrys , was not diminished , but softened , by a kind of quiet graciousness and goodness . [Hamlin]145-hamlin remarked that [she]171-anne seemed , now that [she]171-anne was no longer humbled and cramped , to have a much kindlier spirit and a sense of humour which had at first seemed scarcely to exist , or to exist only in bitterness . But what struck [him]145-hamlin most of all was an indefinable change in [Anne]171-anne ’s expression : the soul , which had lain as a tiny germ at the bottom of [her]171-anne nature , had expanded and come to the surface . [She]171-anne was as beautiful and singular as ever , but more manifold and subtle : [her]171-anne mind had increased threefold . [Hamlin]145-hamlin went away , intending that [Anne]171-anne should remain at [Coblenz]51-coblenz another year . But [he]145-hamlin found that [his]145-hamlin patience , hitherto inexhaustible , had suddenly departed . [He]145-hamlin found the time intolerably heavy on [his]145-hamlin hands . [He]145-hamlin travelled about in [out‐of‐the‐way countries]1522-out‐of‐the‐way countries , having fragmentary love‐affairs , in a dreamy , irresponsible way , with [other women]1523-other women ; and sending [Anne]171-anne more letters than usual , and presents of all manner of outlandish stuffs — silver ornaments and so forth — which used to create great excitement at [the school]1304-the school ; but [he]145-hamlin fretted with impatience . Impatience , be it well understood , not to marry [Anne]171-anne , for [he]145-hamlin always thought of marriage as the return from , the end of , a sort of spiritual honeymoon ; but impatience to commence that long courtship which had , from the beginning , been the object of [his]145-hamlin desires . [He]145-hamlin grew tired of [their]1525-their correspondence , found that [he]145-hamlin had exhausted all the delights of unconsciously revealed love , love budding and developing with [the girl]583-the girl ’s mind . It began to be mere repetition ; and [he]145-hamlin scarcely knew what to write about now : the prologue had lasted long enough ; the piece must begin . One day , some two years or so after [her]171-anne arrival at [Coblenz]51-coblenz , [Anne Brown]171-anne received a letter in which [Hamlin]145-hamlin reminded [her]171-anne that [she]171-anne was twenty‐one , and that [his]145-hamlin guardianship had consequently come to an end already some months before ; and suggested that , as [he]145-hamlin heard that [her]171-anne education was now completed , at least in so far as [Coblenz]51-coblenz went , [he]145-hamlin thought that it might be wiser if [she]171-anne came to [England]37-england , where [she]171-anne would have better opportunities of continuing any special studies . Moreover , that [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt , [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , [a widow without any children]1528-a widow without any children , was coming to settle in [London]4-london , and that [he]145-hamlin thought it might be a good arrangement that [she]243-mrs macgregor and [Anne]171-anne should live together , as [Anne]171-anne could scarcely take [a house]1529-a house by [herself]171-anne . What did [Miss Brown]171-anne think of this arrangement ? And would [she]171-anne authorise [him]145-hamlin to settle everything for [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor and [her]243-mrs macgregor ? Faintly and vaguely [Anne]171-anne thanked [him]145-hamlin for [his]145-hamlin forethought , and acquiesced in everything which [he]145-hamlin might be kind enough to decide upon . [She]171-anne had never realised [her]171-anne situation , [she]171-anne was not the sort of mind which has clear conceptions of the future , and [she]171-anne had been far too much absorbed , these two years , in the unreal present . Besides , [Anne]171-anne felt a confused pain , a disappointment , which prevented [her]171-anne attending to anything else . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had said nothing about [himself]145-hamlin , not a word as to whether [he]145-hamlin also would settle in [London]4-london , or whether [he]145-hamlin intended continuing [his]145-hamlin wandering life . And [she]171-anne had not the courage to ask [him]145-hamlin . [She]171-anne was conscious of a coldness and emptiness in [her]171-anne heart , of the disappointment of some vague , unspoken hope . But why feel disappointed ? or did [she]171-anne really feel disappointed at all ? [She]171-anne believed that [she]171-anne cared for [Hamlin]145-hamlin only as for [a benefactor]1530-a benefactor , [a divinity]1531-a divinity , [a creature who might bestow affection but could not be asked for it]1532-a creature who might bestow affection but could not be asked for it ; and this being the case , and knowing [herself]171-anne to have been perfectly satisfied and happy hitherto , [she]171-anne persuaded [herself]171-anne that [she]171-anne really did not feel disappointed about anything , when [Hamlin]145-hamlin thus wrote about [her]171-anne education and [her]171-anne plans and nothing else . But as the winter drew to a close , there came another letter from [Hamlin]145-hamlin ( all the intermediate ones had been only the usual talk about [himself]145-hamlin , and about books and scenery ) telling [her]171-anne that , with a view to [her]171-anne living with [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt , [he]145-hamlin had , as [[her]171-anne ex‐guardian]1534-her ex‐guardian ( [he]145-hamlin always spoke of [himself]145-hamlin as [[her]171-anne guardian]1270-her guardian , completely ignoring [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ) deemed it wise to employ part of [her]171-anne capital , which had been accumulating in [his]145-hamlin hands , in the purchase of the lease of [a house at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith , which [he]145-hamlin was having prepared and furnished against [her]171-anne coming in May.]1536-a house at hammersmith , which he was having prepared and furnished against her coming in may. “ [It]1536-a house at hammersmith , which he was having prepared and furnished against her coming in may. is in [a pretty neighbourhood]4464-a pretty neighbourhood , with [the river]4465-the river in front and [old houses]4466-old houses and [gardens all round]4467-gardens all round , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin wrote . “ What determined [my]145-hamlin choice , as [I]145-hamlin am sure it would have determined [yours]4468-you also , is that [the house]509-the house is [itself]509-the house more than a century and a half old , and has some fine trees in [the garden]675-the garden . Flowers seem to grow well , as it is pretty well beyond reach of smoke . There are also some fine elms and poplars in front , all along [the river‐side]4471-the river‐side , which is old‐fashioned , and .not yet made into [a modern embankment]4472-a modern embankment . [It]1536-a house at hammersmith , which he was having prepared and furnished against her coming in may. is rather far from [the world]496-the world ; but [the world]496-the world is hideous , and the farther away from it the better , do n’t [you]4468-you think ? [[My]145-hamlin aunt]4294-my aunt is busy about the practical household properties ; [I]145-hamlin am getting in some of the more useless furniture . If [you]4468-you should dislike the arrangement , it can all be easily undone . [I]145-hamlin hope [you]4468-you will not disapprove of this step ; [the house]509-the house is pretty well unique , and [I]145-hamlin had to decide on taking it , unless [some one else]1193-some one else was to snap it up ; otherwise [I]145-hamlin should certainly have consulted [you]4468-you first . [I]145-hamlin trust [you]4468-you will forgive [me]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne put the letter down , and wondered whether [she]171-anne was dreaming . What was all this about buying and consulting [her]171-anne , employing [her]171-anne capital ? What capital had [she]171-anne got ? What right to be consulted ? For a moment [she]171-anne felt quite bewildered ; and then the full consciousness of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s goodness rushed out and overwhelmed [her]171-anne , and [she]171-anne let [her]171-anne head fall on [her]171-anne desk and cried for sheer happiness . Then [she]171-anne thought it must all be a dream , and snatched the letter where it lay all crumpled , and smoothed it out trembling . Yes , there it all was . And then , as postscript , came this sentence , which made [her]171-anne heart leap : — “ There are [two rooms additional on [the garden]675-the garden]4478-two rooms additional on the garden , having a separate entrance from [the embankment]4480-the embankment , and which [I]1538-the girl from new zealand think [you]4468-you will not at present require for [yourself]4468-you . Would [you]4468-you perhaps let [me]1538-the girl from new zealand rent [them]4478-two rooms additional on the garden for [a studio]1209-a studio ? [[My]1538-the girl from new zealand own lodgings]4482-my own lodgings are a long way from [St John ’s House]61-st john ’s house ( that is [its]61-st john ’s house name , for [it]61-st john ’s house was [a priory]4483-a priory once ) ; but if [I]1538-the girl from new zealand had [[my]1538-the girl from new zealand workshop]4484-my workshop [there]4426-there , [I]1538-the girl from new zealand might hope to see [you]171-anne almost every day , if [you]171-anne would let [me]1538-the girl from new zealand . ”[1538-the girl from new zealand] The first dinner‐bell rang , and [Anne]171-anne , having hastily washed [her]171-anne eyes and smoothed [her]171-anne hair , ran down‐stairs , not knowing very well why the bell rang , or what it was all about . In [the sitting‐room]1537-the sitting‐room [she]171-anne found [the girl from [New Zealand]57-new zealand]1538-the girl from new zealand , [a little nervous creature , whom [she]171-anne had nursed through a bad fever , in [her]171-anne cold , absent way , and who had conceived a shy , intense passion for this beautiful strange creature , who seemed to [her]171-anne an unapproachable being from [another world]1540-another world]1539-a little nervous creature , whom she had nursed through a bad fever , in her cold , absent way , and who had conceived a shy , intense passion for this beautiful strange creature , who seemed to her an unapproachable being from another world . “ [I]171-anne am going away , ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne — [she]171-anne felt [she]171-anne must say it—“going away from [school]1094-school — to [London]4-london , next month . ”[171-anne] [The thin , nervous , anæmic little girl]1541-the thin , nervous , anæmic little girl turned ashy‐white . “ Oh , are [you]171-anne really going ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne exclaimed faintly , for with [Anne]171-anne disappeared all [the poor child]1542-the poor child ’s sunshine and ideal from this dreary , worse than orphaned life , among [girls who had too many occupations and interests to care for [her]1541-the thin , nervous , anæmic little girl]1543-girls who had too many occupations and interests to care for her . “ Are [you]171-anne really going , [Annie]171-anne ? . . . Oh , [I]171-anne am so sorry ! ”[171-anne] “ Sorry ? ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne ; “ it is very nasty of [you]171-anne to be sorry — [I]171-anne am glad ; oh , so glad ! so glad ! ”[171-anne] [The little New Zealander]1544-the little new zealander had gone to the window , and was looking through [its]1545-its panes at [the rainy street]1546-the rainy street ; [she]1541-the thin , nervous , anæmic little girl gave a little suppressed sob . [Anne]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne had committed a murder . [She]171-anne ran to the window , and seized the struggling small creature in [her]171-anne powerful arms , and knelt down before [her]1541-the thin , nervous , anæmic little girl , clasping [her]1541-the thin , nervous , anæmic little girl round the waist . “ Oh , forgive [me]171-anne ! forgive [me]171-anne ! ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne , as the consciousness of [the girl]583-the girl ’s love , which [she]171-anne had never before perceived , came upon [her]171-anne , together with the shame and remorse at [her]171-anne heartlessness ; “ forgive [me]1548-the new zealander , forgive — [I]1548-the new zealander am [a brute]4487-a brute — a beast — oh dear , oh dear , that happiness should make [me]1548-the new zealander so wicked ! ”[1548-the new zealander] [The New Zealander]1548-the new zealander smiled and buried [her]1541-the thin , nervous , anæmic little girl thin yellow face in the masses of [Anne]171-anne ’s dark crisp hair . “ Will [you]145-hamlin remember [me]171-anne sometimes ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked ; “ [I]171-anne love [you]145-hamlin so much . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne kissed the poor , pale , tear‐stained cheeks . “ Oh yes , [I]171-anne will always remember [you]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said . But [she]171-anne was already thinking of [Hamlin]145-hamlin . DURING that last month at [school]1094-school [Anne]171-anne was indefatigable : in the face of the vague future which was so rapidly approaching , [she]171-anne felt bound to clutch hold of the present , thinking that time which was employed in some way went less quickly . The fact was that [she]171-anne was in a state of great excitement — half impatience and half terror ; [she]171-anne wished the days to go by quicker , and [she]171-anne wished them to go by slower ; [she]171-anne was at once dragged wearisomely , and hurried along . At length it became a question no longer of weeks but of days . And then came another letter from [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [He]145-hamlin remembered the desire [she]171-anne had once expressed to go down [the Rhine]54-the rhine , to be on [the sea]4271-the sea : [he]145-hamlin proposed that [she]171-anne should come through [Belgium]62-belgium and cross from [Antwerp]63-antwerp to [London]4-london . “ [I]145-hamlin am sure [you]171-anne will enjoy it much more than the vile , vulgar , usual route , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin wrote . But [he]145-hamlin did not tell [her]171-anne that [he]145-hamlin was unwilling [she]171-anne should get any impressions of [England]37-england before meeting [him]145-hamlin , however slight [they]1551-they might be ; that [he]145-hamlin preferred to meet [her]171-anne , in the evening , on [the Thames wharf]1552-the thames wharf , to receiving [[his]145-hamlin Amazon Queen]1553-his amazon queen , [his]145-hamlin mysterious and tragic Madonna , rather than in [the shed at [Victoria]64-victoria or [Charing Cross]65-charing cross]1554-the shed at victoria or charing cross . [Anne]171-anne did not care how [she]171-anne was to go : [she]171-anne was to go , to embark on a new life , to see [him]145-hamlin , to be seen by [him]145-hamlin . This thought , which had never struck [her]171-anne before , began to haunt [her]171-anne now : if [he]145-hamlin should be disgusted with [her]171-anne ? if [he]145-hamlin should recognise that [he]145-hamlin had been mistaken in [his]145-hamlin choice ? The morning before [her]171-anne departure , [Mrs Sireson]231-mrs sireson handed [Anne]171-anne a letter at breakfast . “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has sent [a girl]4122-a girl to fetch [you]171-anne , [dear]4117-dear , ”[231-mrs sireson] [she]231-mrs sireson said . “ To fetch [me]171-anne ? ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne , in astonishment . [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson opened the door—“Pray , come in , ”[231-mrs sireson] [she]231-mrs sireson said . [A young woman]581-a young woman entered , whose immaculate smartness and cheerful alertness never would have let one guess that [she]581-a young woman had just been travelling twenty‐four hours . “ This is [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[230-mrs simson] said [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson . [The girl]583-the girl curtsied , and waited for [Miss Brown]171-anne to speak . But [Anne]171-anne could not utter a word . “ [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s aunt]4490-mr hamlin ’s aunt , engaged [me]586-the young woman as [[your]171-anne travelling‐maid]4491-your travelling‐maid , [miss]4492-miss , ”[586-the young woman] said [the young woman]586-the young woman , handing a note to [Anne]171-anne . It was from [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and ran briefly — “ [[MY]145-hamlin DEAR]4237-my dear [MISS BROWN,—My aunt]4494-miss brown,—my aunt is unfortunately too delicate to admit of [my]145-hamlin asking [her]4494-miss brown,—my aunt to fetch [you]171-anne from [Coblenz]51-coblenz ; but [she]4494-miss brown,—my aunt has engaged [the bearer]4495-the bearer to be [[your]171-anne maid]4496-your maid , unless [you]171-anne have some previous . choice at [Coblenz]51-coblenz , in which case , please forgive [our]4497-our interference . [She]4494-miss brown,—my aunt is highly recommended , and seems [a good girl]3979-a good girl , and accustomed to travel . [She]4494-miss brown,—my aunt will telegraph [me]145-hamlin how [you]171-anne are from [Cologne]66-cologne and [Antwerp]63-antwerp . [I]145-hamlin shall await [you]171-anne Thursday evening on [the wharf]1376-the wharf . Till then , [farewell.—Your sincere and impatient friend]4500-farewell.—your sincere and impatient friend , “[145-hamlin] [WALTER HAMLIN]145-hamlin . ” For some unaccountable reason [Anne]171-anne felt quite angry . [She]171-anne did not require [any one]4101-any one to travel with [her]171-anne ; [she]171-anne did not want [a maid]4502-a maid . [The very word maid]4503-the very word maid seemed to bring up [her]171-anne whole past . “[145-hamlin] [You]1558-you had better go and rest [yourself]1558-you , ” [she]0-i said to [the girl]583-the girl coldly . “[1558-you] How sweet and considerate ! ” said [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , reading [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s note . “[1558-you] [I]0-i do n’t want [a maid]4502-a maid ! ” cried [Anne]171-anne , angrily . “[0-i] [A young lady of [your]0-i age]1560-a young lady of your age can not travel alone , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , ” answered [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , blandly . But [Anne]171-anne felt miserable , [she]171-anne knew not why , and hated [the maid]4505-the maid . Presently [she]171-anne went up to [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room to pack [her]171-anne trunk . On opening the door [she]171-anne discovered [the maid]4505-the maid — [[her]171-anne maid]694-her maid — on [her]4505-the maid knees , emptying the chest of drawers , and folding thing after thing . “[0-i] Please do n’t do that ! ” cried [Anne]171-anne , turning purple . “[0-i] [I]0-i will do it [myself]0-i , please . ” [The girl]583-the girl stared politely , and answered in a subdued , respectfully chiding tone — “[0-i] [I]0-i was only packing [your]4237-my dear trunk , [miss]4492-miss . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i will do it [myself]0-i ! ” cried [Anne]171-anne , excitedly . “[0-i] As [you]4237-my dear wish , [madam]4383-madam , ” was [the maid]4505-the maid ’s icy answer ; and [she]4505-the maid rose . “[4383-madam] Can [I]0-i do nothing for [you]4237-my dear ? ” [she]0-i said , standing by the door , with a reproachful , prim little face . [Anne]171-anne was ashamed . “[4237-my dear] [You]4237-my dear can help [me]0-i if [you]4237-my dear like , ” [she]0-i answered , rather humbled ; and [she]0-i began folding [her]0-i things . But [the girl]583-the girl was much quicker than [she]171-anne , and [Anne]171-anne soon remained with nothing to do , looking on vacantly . [She]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne would give worlds to get [the girl]583-the girl away ; [she]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne ought to say to [her]583-the girl , “[4237-my dear] Do n’t do that for [me]0-i ; [I]0-i am not [a real lady]1564-a real lady ; [I]0-i am no better than [you]4237-my dear ; [I]0-i am [a servant]4125-a servant , [a maid]4502-a maid , [myself]0-i , ” — and as if every moment of silence were a kind of deceit . At last [she]171-anne could bear it no longer — “[0-i] Please , ” [she]171-anne cried , “[4237-my dear] let [me]0-i pack [my]0-i things [myself]0-i ; [I]0-i have always packed them [myself]0-i ; [I]0-i should be so glad if [you]4237-my dear would let [me]0-i . ” [The girl]583-the girl rose and retired . “[4237-my dear] As [you]4237-my dear like , [miss]4492-miss , ” [she]583-the girl replied , fixing [her]583-the girl eyes on [Anne]171-anne ’s strange excited face . “[4492-miss] [She]1568-she knows [I]0-i am only [a servant like [herself]1568-she]1569-a servant like herself , and [she]1568-she thinks [me]0-i proud and ungrateful , ” thought [Anne]171-anne . The next evening , among the lamentations of [[Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson ’s establishment]1430-mrs simson ’s establishment , [Anne Brown]171-anne set off for [Cologne]66-cologne . This first short scrap of journey moved [her]171-anne very much : when [the train]1061-the train puffed out of [the station]1358-the station , and [the familiar faces]4517-the familiar faces were hidden by [outhouses]4518-outhouses and [locomotives]4519-locomotives , the sense of embarking on [unknown waters]4520-unknown waters rushed upon [Anne]171-anne ; and when , that evening , [[her]171-anne maid]694-her maid bade [her]171-anne good night at [the hotel at [Cologne]66-cologne]4522-the hotel at cologne , offering to brush [her]171-anne hair and help [her]171-anne to undress , [she]171-anne was seized with intolerable homesickness for [the school,—the little room [she]171-anne had just left,—and [she]171-anne would have implored [any one]4101-any one to take [her]171-anne back]4523-the school,—the little room she had just left,—and she would have implored any one to take her back . But the next days [she]171-anne felt quite different : the excitement of novelty kept [her]171-anne up , and almost made it seem as if all these new things were quite habitual ; for there is nothing stranger than the way in which excitement settles [one]620-one in novel positions , and familiarises one with the unfamiliar . Seeing a lot of sights on the way , and knowing that a lot more remained to be seen , it was as if there were nothing beyond these three or four days — as if the journey would have no end ; that an end there must be , and what that end meant seemed a thing impossible to realise . [She]171-anne scarcely began to realise it when [the ship]1466-the ship began slowly to move from [the wharf]1376-the wharf at [Antwerp]63-antwerp ; when [she]171-anne walked up and down [the deserted and darkened deck]4528-the deserted and darkened deck watching [the widening river]4529-the widening river under the clear blue spring night , lit only by a ripple of moonlight , widening mysteriously out of sight , bounded only by the shore‐lights , with here or there the white or blue or red light of [some ship]4530-some ship , and its long curl of smoke , making [you]4531-you suddenly conscious that close by was another huge moving thing , more human creatures in this solitude,—till at last all was mere moonlight‐permeated mist of sky and [sea]4532-sea . And only as the next day — as [the boat]4533-the boat cut slowly through [the hazy , calm sea]4534-the hazy , calm sea — was drawing to its close , did [Anne]171-anne begin to feel at all excited . At first , as [she]171-anne sat on [deck]4535-deck , the water , the smoke , the thrill of [the boat]4533-the boat , [the people walking np and down]4537-the people walking np and down , [the children wandering about among the piles of rope]4538-the children wandering about among the piles of rope , and leaning over [the ship]1466-the ship ’s sides — all these things seemed the only reality . But later , as [they]4537-the people walking np and down got higher up in [the Thames]67-the thames , and [the unwonted English]68-the unwonted english sunshine became dimmer , a strange excitement arose in [Anne]171-anne — an excitement more physical than mental , which , with every movement of [the boat]4533-the boat , made [her]171-anne heart beat faster and faster , till it seemed as if it must burst , and a lot of smaller hearts to start up and throb all over [her]171-anne body , tighter and tighter , till [she]171-anne had to press [her]171-anne hand to [her]171-anne chest , and sit down gasping on a bench . The afternoon was drawing to a close , and [the river]4465-the river had narrowed ; all around were rows of wharves and groups of [ships]4542-ships ; [the men]4543-the men began to tug at the ropes . [They]4537-the people walking np and down were in [the great city]4544-the great city . The light grew fainter , and the starlight mingled with the dull smoke‐grey of [London]4-london ; all about were the sad grey outlines of [the old houses]4545-the old houses on [the wharves]4546-the wharves , the water grey and the sky also , with only a faint storm‐red where the sun had set . The rigging , interwoven against the sky , was grey also ; the brownish sail of [some nearer boat]4547-some nearer boat , the dull red sides of [some steamer hard by]4548-some steamer hard by , the only colour . [The ship]1466-the ship began to slacken speed and to turn , great puffs and pants of the engine running through its fibres ; [the sailors]4550-the sailors began to halloo , [the people]871-the people around to collect [their]871-the people luggage : [they]871-the people were getting alongside of [the wharf]1376-the wharf . [Anne]171-anne felt [the maid]4505-the maid throw a shawl round [her]171-anne ; heard [her]4505-the maid voice , as if from a great distance , saying , “[1568-she] There ’s [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , [miss]4492-miss ; ” felt [herself]171-anne walking along as if in a dream ; and as if in a dream [a figure]4554-a figure come up and take [her]171-anne hand , and slip [her]171-anne arm through [his]145-hamlin , and [she]171-anne knew [herself]171-anne to be standing on [the wharf]1376-the wharf , in the twilight , the breeze blowing in [her]171-anne face , all [the people]871-the people jostling and shouting around [her]171-anne . Then a voice said—“I[145-hamlin] fear [you]4492-miss must be very tired , [Miss Brown]171-anne . ” It was at once so familiar and so strange that it made [her]171-anne start ; the dream seemed dispelled . [She]171-anne was in reality , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin was really by [her]171-anne side . IT is sad to think how little even [the most fervently loving among [us]4558-we]4557-the most fervently loving among us are able to reproduce , to keep within recollection , the reality of [the absent beloved]4559-the absent beloved ; certain as [we]4558-we seem to be , living as appears the phantom which [we]4558-we have cherished , [we]4558-we yet always find , on the day of meeting , that [the loved person]4560-the loved person is different from the simulacrum which [we]4558-we have carried in [our]4558-we hearts . As [Anne Brown]171-anne sat in [the carriage]810-the carriage which was carrying [her]171-anne to [[her]171-anne new home]4562-her new home , the feeling which was strongest in [her]171-anne was , not joy to see [Hamlin]145-hamlin again , nor fear at entering on this new phase of existence , but a recurring shock of surprise at the voice which was speaking to [her]171-anne , the voice which [she]171-anne now recognised as that of [the real Hamlin]4563-the real hamlin , but which was so undefinably different from the voice which had haunted [her]171-anne throughout those months of absence . [Hamlin]145-hamlin was seated by [her]171-anne side , [the maid]4505-the maid opposite . [The carriage]810-the carriage drove quickly through a network of [dark streets]4566-dark streets , and then , on , on , along [miles of embankment]4567-miles of embankment . It was a beautiful spring night , and the mists and fogs which hung over [river]4568-river and [town]821-town were soaked with moonlight , turned into a pale‐blue luminous haze , starred with the yellow specks of gas , broken into , here and there , by the yellow sheen from some open hall‐door or lit windows of [a party‐giving house]4570-a party‐giving house : out of the faint blueness emerged the unsubstantial outlines of things — bushes , and overhanging tree‐branches , and [distant spectral towers]4571-distant spectral towers and belfries . “[171-anne] [You]1571-you must be very tired , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[1571-you] Oh no , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , that repeated revelation of the real voice still startling [her]171-anne — “[1571-you] not at all . ” [He]145-hamlin asked [her]171-anne how [she]171-anne had left those at [Coblenz]51-coblenz , and about [her]171-anne journey ; [she]171-anne had to tell [him]145-hamlin about every picture and church [she]171-anne had seen at [Cologne]66-cologne , [Brussels]69-brussels , [Bruges]70-bruges , and [Antwerp]63-antwerp . It is strange how [people whose hearts have seemed full to bursting]4572-people whose hearts have seemed full to bursting with things [they]4572-people whose hearts have seemed full to bursting have so long been waiting to say , will talk , when [they]4572-people whose hearts have seemed full to bursting meet again , like [persons introduced for the first time at a dinner‐party]4573-persons introduced for the first time at a dinner‐party . On [they]4572-people whose hearts have seemed full to bursting rolled , and on , through the pale moonlight mist by [the river]4465-the river . “[0-i] [I]0-i hope , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , when [they]4572-people whose hearts have seemed full to bursting had done discussing [Van Eyck]244-van eyck , and [Rubens]245-rubens , and [Memling—“I]246-memling—“i[0-i] hope [you]1572-you will like [the house]509-the house and the way [I]0-i have had [it]509-the house arranged ; and , ” [he]145-hamlin added , “[0-i] [I]0-i hope [you]1572-you will like [[my]0-i aunt]4294-my aunt . [She]4294-my aunt is rather misanthropic , but it is only on the surface . ” [[His]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt ! [Anne]171-anne had forgotten all about [her]1527-his aunt ; and [her]171-anne heart sank within [her]171-anne as [the carriage]810-the carriage at last drew up in front of some garden railings . [The house]509-the house door was thrown open , and a stream of yellow light flooded the strip of [garden]4578-garden and the railings . [Hamlin]145-hamlin gave [Anne]171-anne [his]145-hamlin arm ; [the maid]4505-the maid followed . [A woman‐servant]4580-a woman‐servant was holding the door open , and raising a lamp above [her]4580-a woman‐servant . [Anne]171-anne bent [her]171-anne head , feeling that [she]171-anne was being scrutinised . [She]171-anne walked speechless , leaning on [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s arm , and those steps seemed to [her]171-anne endless . It was all very strange and wonderful . [Her]171-anne step was muffled in thick , dark carpets ; all about , the walls of [the narrow passage]4581-the narrow passage were covered with tapestries , and here and there came a gleam of brass or a sheen of dim mirror under the subdued light of some sort of Eastern lamp , which hung , with yellow sheen of metal discs and tassels , from the ceiling . Thus up the narrow carpeted and tapestried stairs , and into [a large dim room]4582-a large dim room , with strange‐looking things all about . Some red embers sent a crimson flicker over the carpet ; by the tall fireplace was a table with a shaded lamp , and at it was seated [a tall , slender woman]4583-a tall , slender woman , with the figure of [a young girl]4584-a young girl , but whose face , when [Anne]171-anne saw it , was parched and hollowed out , and surrounded by grey hair . “[4294-my aunt] This is [Miss Brown]171-anne , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [The old lady]1153-the old lady rose , advanced , and kissed [Anne]171-anne frigidly on both cheeks . “[171-anne] [I]0-i am glad to see [you]1575-you , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , ” [she]0-i said , in a tone which was neither cold nor insincere , but simply and utterly indifferent . [Anne]171-anne sat down . There was a moment ’s silence , and [she]171-anne felt [the old lady]1153-the old lady ’s eyes upon [her]171-anne , and felt that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was looking at [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt , as much as to say , “[1575-you] Well , what do [you]0-i think of [her]171-anne ? ” and [she]171-anne shrank into [herself]171-anne . “[0-i] [You]1575-you have had a bad passage , doubtless , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor after a moment , vaguely and dreamily . “[1575-you] Oh no , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , faintly , “[1575-you] not at all bad , thank [you]1575-you . ” “[1575-you] So much the better , ” went on [the old lady]1153-the old lady , absently . “[1575-you] Ring for some tea , [Walter]145-hamlin . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin rang . In a moment tea‐things were brought . [Hamlin]145-hamlin handed a cup to [Anne]171-anne , and offered [her]171-anne some cake . “[145-hamlin] It is a long drive , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor — “[1575-you] a long drive — all the way from [Charing Cross]65-charing cross . ” “[171-anne] [Miss Brown]171-anne came by [the Antwerp boat]1577-the antwerp boat — [St Catherine ’s Wharf]71-st catherine ’s wharf — in [the City]1578-the city , [aunt]1579-aunt , ” corrected [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[1579-aunt] Ah , yes , to be sure — perhaps [she]171-anne would like some more milk in [her]171-anne tea . There is always such a delay at [Charing Cross]65-charing cross , is n’t there , [Walter]145-hamlin ? ” But while [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s mind and words seemed to ramble vaguely about , [her]243-mrs macgregor eyes were fixed upon [Anne]171-anne — large , melancholy dark eyes . “[145-hamlin] [You]145-hamlin are glad to be back in [London]4-london , are n’t [you]145-hamlin ? ” [she]243-mrs macgregor asked . “[145-hamlin] This is the first time [I]0-i am in [England]37-england , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , shyly ; all [this dim room]4589-this dim room , with [its]4589-this dim room vague sense of beautiful things all round , [this absent‐minded lady]4590-this absent‐minded lady , all seemed to harmonise with [her]4590-this absent‐minded lady own dreamlike sensations . “[145-hamlin] [Miss Brown]171-anne was born in [Italy]1-italy , ” explained [Hamlin]145-hamlin , probably for the hundredth time . “[145-hamlin] Oh yes , of course ; how stupid [I]0-i am ! And , [Walter]145-hamlin , there are some letters for [you]145-hamlin on the hall table , and [Mr Chough]248-chough came while [you]145-hamlin were out , and [a man from — what ’s [his]1580-a man from — what ’s his name name]1580-a man from — what ’s his name — [the upholsterer who writes poetry]1581-the upholsterer who writes poetry . ” “[1580-a man from — what ’s his name] All right , ” interrupted [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[1580-a man from — what ’s his name] Wo n’t [you]145-hamlin have another cup , [Margaret]249-marjory ? ” asked [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[249-marjory] [Her]171-anne name is [Anne]171-anne , [auntie]1582-auntie — ” “[1582-auntie] Of course — [I]0-i do n’t know whether [you]145-hamlin take sugar in [your]145-hamlin tea or not , [Rachel]250-rachel . ” Thus [they]4591-they went on for another half‐hour ; [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor calling [Anne]171-anne by one wrong name after another , alluding to things which [she]243-mrs macgregor could not possibly know anything about , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin trying to set matters right and induce [Anne]171-anne to talk . “[250-rachel] It is getting late , ” [he]145-hamlin said , “[250-rachel] and [I]0-i fear [Miss Brown]171-anne must be tired after [her]171-anne long journey . [I]0-i think [you]145-hamlin had better not keep [her]171-anne up any longer , [aunt]1579-aunt . ” “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i am not tired , ” protested [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [You]0-i will be tired to‐morrow , ” said [the old lady]1153-the old lady . “[0-i] Yes , ” added [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[0-i] and [I]0-i must go . Good‐bye , [aunt]1579-aunt . Good night , [Miss Brown]171-anne ; [I]0-i hope [you]145-hamlin will have good dreams to welcome [you]145-hamlin home to [England]37-england . [I]0-i shall come in for lunch to‐morrow , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia . Good night . Good night , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” and [he]145-hamlin kissed [her]1579-aunt hand . “[171-anne] Good night , buon riposo e sogni felici . ” The few words of Italian almost brought the tears to [Anne]171-anne ’s eyes ; [she]171-anne felt so strange [here]3884-here , so far from everything — and yet what had [she]171-anne left behind ? nothing , and [no one]3899-no one who loved [her]171-anne , except [that little girl from [New Zealand]57-new zealand]4595-that little girl from new zealand . [She]171-anne felt terribly alone in [the world]496-the world . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had evidently not trusted to [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt to send [Anne]171-anne to bed , for [the maid]4505-the maid came in uncalled , and asked whether [Miss Brown]171-anne would not like to go up to [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room . “[171-anne] Of course , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ; and taking a heavy old‐fashioned silver candlestick , [she]4505-the maid led [Anne]171-anne to [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room . [The poor girl]1188-the poor girl was too weary and dazed to see what it was like . [She]1188-the poor girl sank on to a chair , and passively let [the maid]4505-the maid take off [her]4505-the maid hat and cloak . “[171-anne] Shall [I]0-i undress [you]0-i , [ma’am]1585-ma’am ? ” [she]0-i asked . [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head . “[0-i] No , thanks . ” [The girl]583-the girl retired , but [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor remained standing by [Anne]171-anne ’s side , looking at the reflection in the glass of [her]171-anne pale , sad , tired face . “[0-i] Undo [your]0-i hair , [Eliza]169-monna lisa dear , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . [Anne]171-anne mechanically pulled out the hair‐pins , and the masses of iron‐black crisp hair fell over [her]171-anne shoulders . [The old lady]1153-the old lady looked at [her]171-anne for a moment . “[169-monna lisa] [You]0-i are [a beautiful girl]1586-a beautiful girl , [Anne]171-anne , ” [she]1153-the old lady said , at last hitting the right name , “[171-anne] and , ” [she]1153-the old lady added , with a curious compassionate look , as [she]1153-the old lady kissed [the girl]583-the girl ’s forehead , “[169-monna lisa] are [you]0-i really in love with [Watty]178-watty ? ” [Anne]171-anne did not answer ; but [she]171-anne felt [herself]171-anne redden . “[0-i] Marriage without love is a terrible thing , ” said [the old lady]1153-the old lady , “[0-i] and in so far love is a mitigation of evil ; but at the best it is only delusion . [People]577-people must marry , but it is the misfortune of [their]577-people lives . Good night , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear . ” The words went on in [Anne]171-anne ’s head , but [she]171-anne was too worn out to understand them . [She]171-anne soon fell asleep , and dreamed that [Melton Perry]146-perry had painted a picture , and that in a storm [the ship ’s crew]4607-the ship ’s crew said it must be used as [a raft]4608-a raft ; and somehow it all took place at [Florence]6-florence , in [the large pond in [the Boboli Gardens]1293-the boboli gardens]4609-the large pond in the boboli gardens . [ANNE BROWN]171-anne awoke with a vague sense of gladness , but no very clear notion of where [she]171-anne was . Then it came upon [her]171-anne that this was [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s house]4611-hamlin ’s house , that [she]171-anne would actually see [him]145-hamlin again in a few hours ; for it was as if [she]171-anne had not seen [him]145-hamlin at all the previous evening . The sun was streaming through the blinds , filling [the room]574-the room with a yellowish light ; from without came a sound of leaves , of twittering birds , and the plash of the steamer‐paddles in [the river]4465-the river . [Anne]171-anne looked round [her]171-anne and wondered . [She]171-anne had never seen such [a room as this]4614-a room as this in [her]171-anne life : the wails were all panelled white , except where the panelling was interrupted by expanses of pale‐yellow chintz ; the furniture also was of old‐fashioned chintz ; the mirror was like what [she]171-anne had seen in the illustrations to an old copy of ‘ [Sir Charles Grandison]251-sir charles grandison ’ which had belonged to [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon ; the tapered chairs and tables to match . There were blue‐and‐white jars and pots all about , and old‐fashioned china things on the dressing‐table : except for the fac‐similes of drawings by [Mantegna]252-mantegna and [Botticelli]253-botticelli , and the coloured copies of famous Italian pictures which dotted the walls , [the room]574-the room might have been untouched since the days of the first Georges . [She]171-anne remembered that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had told [her]171-anne that [the house]509-the house was [an old one]4617-an old one ; but [she]171-anne could not understand how everything came to look so very spick and span and new . [She]171-anne got up and went to the window . Below , in [the little garden]4618-the little garden , was a lilac‐tree bursting into flower , and a yellow laburnum . [[A milkman]4619-a milkman ’s cart]4620-a milkman ’s cart was drawn up before the door . In front were the trees , in tender leaf , and the wooden parapet of [the river‐walk]4621-the river‐walk ; then [the Thames]67-the thames , still wide , but so different from what [she]171-anne had seen it the previous evening : a clear grey stream reflecting green banks and cloudy blue sky , with here and there [a barge or boat]4622-a barge or boat moored by [the shore]4623-the shore . The sky was blue , but covered with moist clouds , and it seemed to [Anne]171-anne that [she]171-anne could almost see where it arose on the horizon , so low did it seem . There was a scent of recent rain in the air , a shimmer of moisture on the leaves and grass . Was this [[London]4-london , which [she]171-anne had always fancied so noisy , and grimy , and vulgarly new]4624-london , which she had always fancied so noisy , and grimy , and vulgarly new ? [Anne]171-anne was already half dressed ; but [she]171-anne spent some time wondering which of [her]171-anne frocks [she]171-anne should put on : they had been made expressly for [London]4-london , and greatly admired by [the girls at [Coblenz]51-coblenz]4625-the girls at coblenz , but now one looked more absurd and frumpish than the other . At last [she]171-anne put on a sort of greyish‐blue tweed , such as were then worn on [the Continent]72-the continent , and having looked at [herself]171-anne rather anxiously in the glass , [she]171-anne opened [her]171-anne door and hesitatingly went out into [the passage]572-the passage . All was perfectly quiet as [she]171-anne went down [the carpeted stairs]4627-the carpeted stairs , wondering at the tapestry and brazen wrought shields and plaster casts and curious weapons which covered [its]4-london walls ; [she]171-anne could hear only the ticking of the old clock , which stood in its tall inlaid case in [the hall]550-the hall . After the bustle of [girls]1352-girls and [servants]561-servants at [the Coblenz school]4631-the coblenz school , and the hundred and one noises of screeching well‐pulleys , whirring buckets , whistling starlings , [singing and chattering servants]4632-singing and chattering servants , clattering crockery , which greet the early riser in [an Italian house,—this]4633-an italian house,—this silence seemed to [her]171-anne almost eerie , and [she]171-anne wandered about over the noiseless floors like [the knight in [the palace of the sleeping beauty]4635-the palace of the sleeping beauty]4634-the knight in the palace of the sleeping beauty . [She]171-anne found [her]171-anne way into [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room , where [she]171-anne had been received the previous evening ; there was another next to [it]4636-the drawing‐room , and [a kind of little library beyond]4637-a kind of little library beyond . [It]4637-a kind of little library beyond was , indeed , [an enchanted palace]4638-an enchanted palace ; the walls were all hung with pictures and drawings , and pieces of precious embroidery , and burnished oriental plates , and the floors spread with oriental carpets and matting , which gave out a faint , drowsy , sweet scent . The curious furniture was covered with old brocade and embroidery , and in all corners , on brackets and tables and in cabinets , were all manner of wonderful glass and china , and strange ivory and inlaid Japanese toys . There were flowers , also , about everywhere , and palms in the windows . In [the library]4639-the library were more books than [Anne]171-anne had almost ever seen ; and in [the chief drawing‐room]4640-the chief drawing‐room a beautiful grand piano , not made like those of [our]4641-our days , but with slight straight legs and a yellow case painted with faded‐looking flowers . [Anne]171-anne looked at everything with astonishment and awe : it was like [the rooms in [Walter Crane]254-walter crane ’s fairy books , with their inlaid chests and brocade couches]4642-the rooms in walter crane ’s fairy books , with their inlaid chests and brocade couches , and majolica vases full of peacocks ’ feathers . It took [her]171-anne a long time to take it all in . [She]171-anne stole to the piano , opened it gently , and played the accompaniment of a song of Carissimi ’s , which [Hamlin]145-hamlin was fond of , but inaudibly , without letting [her]171-anne fingers press down the keys . Then [she]171-anne looked at everything once more . [She]171-anne was beginning to get familiarised with the pictures on the wall ; the pale , delicate bits of landscape ; the deep‐coloured pictures of [ladies in wonderful jewel‐like robes , with mysterious landscapes behind them]4643-ladies in wonderful jewel‐like robes , with mysterious landscapes behind them ; the drawings of strange , beautiful , emaciated , cruel‐looking creatures , [men]4644-men or [women , with wicked lips and combed‐out locks,—all]4645-women , with wicked lips and combed‐out locks,—all these things , which were like so many points of interrogation — when the door opened and [the maid]4505-the maid appeared . “[0-i] [I]0-i have been looking for [you]1589-you everywhere , [miss]4492-miss , ” [she]0-i said . “[0-i] [I]0-i thought , as [you]1589-you did n’t answer when [I]0-i knocked , that [you]1589-you must still be asleep , so [I]0-i carried [your]1589-you tea down again . [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor is going to have breakfast now , and says , would [you]1589-you mind having it in [[her]243-mrs macgregor room]1374-her room with [her]243-mrs macgregor , [miss]4492-miss , as [she]243-mrs macgregor never goes down till lunch ? ” [Anne]171-anne followed [the servant]4647-the servant to [[Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s room]4648-mrs macgregor ’s room , where [she]171-anne found [the old lady]1153-the old lady in [her]1153-the old lady dressing‐gown , before a table spread with eighteenth‐century china , or what to [Anne]171-anne seemed such . “[243-mrs macgregor] What an hour [you]1589-you do get up at , [Charlotte]255-charlotte ! ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , kissing [Anne]171-anne on both cheeks . “[255-charlotte] [We]1593-we never think of getting up [here]3884-here before half‐past nine . [Walter]145-hamlin never comes in till luncheon‐time , because [he]145-hamlin has so far to come , and is up so late every night . Turn round ; let [me]0-i see what [you]1589-you look like this morning . ” And [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor made [Anne]171-anne turn round slowly . [She]243-mrs macgregor looked at [her]171-anne approvingly . “[0-i] [You]1589-you ’re [a handsome girl]1595-a handsome girl , certainly , ” [she]243-mrs macgregor said ; “[1595-a handsome girl] not the style that used to be admired in [my]0-i time,”—and [she]243-mrs macgregor smiled with the faint smile of [an old belle,—“girls]4650-an old belle,—“girls[1595-a handsome girl] had to be slight , and fair , and with little features then . But [you]1589-you ’re just what [they]1596-they like now . [I]0-i ’m thankful at least that [Walter]145-hamlin has not brought home a bag of bones like the other beauties of [his]145-hamlin set . Loveliness in decay , that ’s what [I]0-i call [their]1596-they style ; but [you]1589-you look [a good flesh‐and‐blood girl]1597-a good flesh‐and‐blood girl . ” [Anne]171-anne did not know what to answer ; [she]171-anne poured [herself]171-anne out a cup of tea in silence , and vaguely ate some bread and butter . [The old lady]1153-the old lady was good‐natured , garrulous , flighty ; but yet , beneath the shiftiness of [her]1153-the old lady exterior , there seemed to be something real , something sad and bitter , when [you]1589-you looked at [her]1153-the old lady thin drawn mouth and melancholy eyes . “[1597-a good flesh‐and‐blood girl] That ’s a pretty frock [you]1589-you have on , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , ” [she]0-i pursued , “[1597-a good flesh‐and‐blood girl] and [I]0-i think it very becoming . But [you]1589-you ’ll see that [Watty]178-watty wo n’t like it . [He]178-watty ’s quite the — what do [you]1589-you call it?—medieval sort of thing,—no stays , and no petticoats , and slashings , and tags and boot‐laces in the sleeves , and a yard of [draggled train]1599-draggled train — that sort of thing . Oh , [you]1589-you ’ll find [it]1600-it [a queer world]1601-a queer world , the world of [[Watty]178-watty ’s friends]1602-watty ’s friends . Do [you]1589-you ever see ‘ Punch ’ ? That ’s the sort of thing . [They]1603-they ’re [all great beauties]1604-all great beauties and [great painters]1605-great painters and [great poets]1606-great poets , [every man and woman of [them]1603-they]1607-every man and woman of them . Wait till [you]1589-you see [little Chough]248-chough and [young Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite ( [I]0-i forget [his]256-posthlethwaite real name ) . Ah , well , it ’s perhaps better , after all , this kind of fooling , and masquerading , and writing verses about things [people]577-people would horsewhip [a man]503-a man for saying in prose ; it ’s perhaps better , after all , for [Watty]178-watty , than the sort of life which [we]1610-we led when [he]178-watty was young”—and [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor became suddenly very silent . After breakfast [Anne]171-anne was free until luncheon‐time , as [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor proceeded to lie down on [her]243-mrs macgregor sofa and read [Leigh Hunt]257-leigh hunt ’s ‘ Religion of the Heart , ’ or [Fox]258-fox ’s ‘ Religious Ideas , ’ which [Anne]171-anne saw lying on [her]171-anne table . [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s aunt]4652-hamlin ’s aunt had evidently been [an esprit fort]4653-an esprit fort in [her]4652-hamlin ’s aunt youth , and possessed in [[her]4652-hamlin ’s aunt bedroom]4654-her bedroom a whole library of what were once deemed [literary firebrands]4655-literary firebrands , but might nowadays be described as mild , old‐fashioned free‐thinking literature . [Anne]171-anne roamed about [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room once more , looking again and again at the pictures , and opening the books , as [people]577-people do in [a strange house]4658-a strange house , before [they]577-people can settle down . [She]171-anne timidly also opened the piano , but shut it again after a minute . Then [she]171-anne took a volume of [Jean Paul]259-jean paul out of a shelf , and carried it up into [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room . Finding it too dull to read , and with an irritating sense that [she]171-anne ought to be doing something definite , [she]171-anne wrote a letter to [Mrs Simson]230-mrs simson , and one to [the little New Zealander]1544-the little new zealander . [She]171-anne felt so much like a fish out of water that [Coblenz]51-coblenz seemed more than [[her]171-anne birthplace]4661-her birthplace , and [the people]871-the people [there]4426-there more than [mother]4664-mother and [sisters]999-sisters . At last [she]171-anne heard one o’clock strike , and soon after there came a knock at [the house‐door]4666-the house‐door , and running to the window [she]171-anne saw [Hamlin]145-hamlin standing on the doorstep . [She]171-anne withdrew [her]171-anne head quickly , and went down to meet [him]145-hamlin . [He]145-hamlin was more respectful than ever,—asked [her]171-anne how [she]171-anne had slept , and what [she]171-anne thought of [the house]509-the house . “[178-watty] It ’s lovely , ” said [Anne]171-anne , “[178-watty] and it is so nice having everything old about one . ” “[178-watty] Everything old ? ” asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[178-watty] Yes ; all the hangings , and chairs , and tables , and mirrors , are of the time of the building of [the house]509-the house , are n’t they ? ” “[1612-they] Oh goodness , no , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , sadly ; “[1612-they] [I]0-i only wish [they]1612-they were . [They]1612-they ’re bran‐new , every stick of [them]1612-they . [Everybody]1613-everybody has [them]1612-they now ; [nobody]1614-nobody makes anything except imitation old‐world things . ” “[1614-nobody] Why do n’t [they]1612-they try and make something good and new — something out of [their]1612-they own heads , as [the old workmen]1615-the old workmen did ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , looking with wonder upon these new things which seemed so old . “[1612-they] There is nothing to nourish art nowadays , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , seating [himself]145-hamlin opposite [her]171-anne and looking [her]171-anne full in the face as [he]145-hamlin used to do long ago at [the studio in [Florence]6-florence]4668-the studio in florence . “[1612-they] Art ca n’t live where life is trivial and aimless and hideous . [We]1616-we can only pick up the broken fragments of the past and blunderingly set them together . ” “[1616-we] But why should the life of to‐day be trivial and aimless and hideous ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , a vague remembrance of things which [she]171-anne had heard [[her]171-anne father]4143-her father say years ago about progress and modern achievements returning to [her]171-anne mind as it had never done when , in the letters which [he]145-hamlin used to write to [her]171-anne at [Coblenz]51-coblenz , [Hamlin]145-hamlin had said before what [he]145-hamlin was saying now . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t know why it should be , ” replied [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[0-i] but so it is . ” “[1616-we] Ca n’t [we]1616-we prevent it ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , scarcely thinking of what [she]171-anne was saying ; conscious only that [she]171-anne was really once more in [his]145-hamlin presence . [Hamlin]145-hamlin shook [his]145-hamlin head sadly . “[1616-we] Why can not [we]1616-we revive those ? ” [he]145-hamlin said , pointing to a bunch of delicate pale‐pink roses , which drooped withered in a Venetian glass . “[1616-we] What is dead is dead . The only thing that remains for [[us]1616-we late comers]1617-us late comers to do is to pick up the faded petals and keep them , discoloured as they are , to scent [our]1616-we lives . [The world]496-the world is getting uglier and uglier outside [us]1616-we ; [we]1616-we must , out of the materials bequeathed to [us]1616-we by [former generations]1619-former generations , and with the help of [our]1616-we own fancy , build for [ourselves]1616-we a little world within [the world]496-the world , a world of beauty , where [we]1616-we may live with [[our]1616-we friends]1621-our friends and keep alive whatever small sense of beauty and nobility still remains to [us]1616-we , that it may not get utterly lost , and [those who come after [us]1616-we]1622-those who come after us may not be in a wilderness of sordid sights and sordid feelings . [Ours]1616-we is not the mission of [the poets]1623-the poets and [artists of former days]1624-artists of former days ; it is humbler , sadder , but equally necessary . ” “[1625-you] Oh , but [you]1625-you must not say that ! ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[1625-you] What [you]1625-you do will last , do n’t [you]1625-you know , like the things which [people]577-people were able to do formerly . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin shook [his]145-hamlin head , and remained for some time with [his]145-hamlin beautiful greenish‐blue eyes fixed on [Anne]171-anne , as [she]171-anne sat twisting and untwisting the fringe on the arm of [her]171-anne chair . “[1625-you] There is one consolation , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , rising from [his]145-hamlin chair and leaning against the chimney‐piece , all covered with Japanese cups and curious nick‐nacks , and not taking [his]145-hamlin eyes off [her]171-anne , “[171-anne] and that is , that even now , Nature , which is so barren of [painters]521-painters and [poets]1628-poets , can produce creatures as wonderful as those who inspired [the painters and poets of former times]1629-the painters and poets of former times — a consolation , and at the same time a source of despair . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin spoke these lover‐like words in a tone so cold , so sad , that [Anne]171-anne did not at first understand to whom [he]145-hamlin was alluding , and looked up rather in interrogation than in embarrassment . A bell rang . “[1631-you] There ’s lunch , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[1631-you] [We]1630-we must finish [our]1630-we discussion afterwards . ” “[1631-you] WON’T [you]1631-you take [her]171-anne out for a drive , [Walter]145-hamlin ? ” asked [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , after lunch . “[145-hamlin] [She]171-anne must be curious to see something of [London]4-london . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked at [Anne]171-anne , as much as to say , “[171-anne] Do [you]171-anne really wish to go ? ” “[171-anne] [I]0-i am sure [Miss Brown]171-anne is too tired from [her]171-anne journey , [aunt]1579-aunt , ” [he]145-hamlin said ; “[1579-aunt] and what is there to take [her]171-anne to see in [this beastly city]1633-this beastly city ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i thought [we]1630-we might have a brougham and take [her]171-anne to see [a few of [[your]1631-you friends]1635-your friends]1634-a few of your friends , [Walter]145-hamlin , ” suggested [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . [Poor Anne]260-poor anne felt a sort of horror go all down [her]260-poor anne . “[145-hamlin] Oh , please do n’t ! ” [she]260-poor anne cried—“not[145-hamlin] to‐day ; do n’t take [me]0-i to see any one , please . ” “[1631-you] It ’s much wiser to let [her]171-anne rest , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , in a tone of annoyance . “[1631-you] Wo n’t [you]1631-you just take [the poor girl]1188-the poor girl to [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s , [Watty]178-watty ? ” insisted [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt . “[178-watty] It ’s a sin to keep [her]171-anne mewed up at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith all day ; and [you]1631-you know [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo was so anxious to see [her]171-anne at once . ” “[261-mrs argiropoulo] Confound [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ! ” exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[261-mrs argiropoulo] [I]0-i beg [your]1631-you pardon , [Miss Brown]171-anne , but do [you]1631-you feel inclined , after [your]1631-you long journey , to go and see [a fat , fashionable lion‐huntress]1637-a fat , fashionable lion‐huntress , with a snob of [a husband who sells currants]1638-a husband who sells currants ? ” “[1631-you] Not at all , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , laughing . “[1631-you] [I]0-i would much rather stay at [home]4170-home , really . ” “[0-i] Very well ; then [I]0-i will show [you]1631-you [the garden]675-the garden and [[my]0-i studio]1641-my studio , if [you]1631-you do n’t mind ; and [a great friend of [mine]0-i]1642-a great friend of mine , [Cosmo Chough,—I]262-cosmo chough,—i think [I]0-i sent [you]1631-you some of [his]262-cosmo chough,—i poems about music . . . . ” “[0-i] Oh yes , ” cried [Anne]171-anne ; “[0-i] they are lovely — ” “[0-i] [I]0-i think [little Chough]248-chough ’s poems perfectly indecent , ” interrupted [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[0-i] [I]0-i would much sooner let [a girl]4122-a girl read ‘ [Don Juan]263-don juan , ’ or even ‘ Candide , ’ any day . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin reddened , but laughed . “[0-i] Opinions differ ; at any rate , [Miss Brown]171-anne knows only [Chough]248-chough ’s best things ; and when [he]262-cosmo chough,—i is at [his]262-cosmo chough,—i best , [Chough]248-chough is really very good and pure and elevated . ” “[248-chough] Ah , well , ” merely remarked [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[248-chough] [Cosmo Chough]248-chough said [he]262-cosmo chough,—i would look in about four , ” went on [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[262-cosmo chough,—i] [He]262-cosmo chough,—i is [a strange creature]1644-a strange creature , and sometimes says odd things . ” “[1644-a strange creature] Very odd things , ” put in [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt . “[1644-a strange creature] But [he]262-cosmo chough,—i is as pure‐minded [a man]503-a man as [I]0-i know , and [a real poet]1646-a real poet , ” went on [Hamlin—“indeed]264-hamlin—“indeed[1646-a real poet] quite one of the best ; and [he]262-cosmo chough,—i is [a great musician]1647-a great musician , and [a most entertaining fellow]1648-a most entertaining fellow — [his]262-cosmo chough,—i only weakness is that [he]262-cosmo chough,—i is [a great republican and democrat]1649-a great republican and democrat , but would like to be thought [the son of]1650-the son of [a duke]1651-a duke . ” “[1652-the son of a duke] [The son of [a duke]1651-a duke]1652-the son of a duke ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , in surprise . “[1654-the natural son] Oh , [the natural son]1654-the natural son , of course — forgive [me]0-i , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[577-people] [People]577-people nowadays like anything illegitimate — it ’s a distinction . It was n’t in [my]0-i day , but things have changed ; and [Mr Cosmo Chough]248-chough would dearly like to be thought [a bastard]1657-a bastard , especially [a duke]1651-a duke ’s . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin smiled . “[265-poor chough] [Poor Chough]265-poor chough ! [Some one]1380-some one told [him]265-poor chough [he]265-poor chough was like [Richard Savage]266-richard savage one day , and that ’s [his]265-poor chough pose . Would [you]4237-my dear like to come into [the garden]675-the garden , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ” [They]4672-they went together into [the strip of garden which lay behind [the house]509-the house]4673-the strip of garden which lay behind the house . There were not many flowers out as yet , only a few peonies and lilacs , and a belated tulip or hyacinth , but there was green , daisied grass , and big grey‐mossed apple‐trees still in blossom ; and across the low walls , covered with creepers , [you]4675-you saw big waving tree‐branches , and [old brick houses covered with ivy]4676-old brick houses covered with ivy : the birds were singing , and some hens clucking next door . It was very quiet and old‐world . [Hamlin]145-hamlin showed [her]4237-my dear all the rose‐buds which might soon come out , and the place where the lilies would be , and the espaliers for the sweet‐peas . Then [they]4672-they went into [the two ground‐floor rooms which [he]145-hamlin was arranging for [his]145-hamlin studio]4677-the two ground‐floor rooms which he was arranging for his studio : there were quantities of beautiful rare books and volumes of prints , and Persian and Japanese and old Italian metal‐work , and pottery all about , and easels with unfinished pictures evcrywhere — a great and beautiful confusion . When [he]145-hamlin had showed [her]4237-my dear [his]145-hamlin properties , and [she]4237-my dear had reverently handled the things which had once belonged to [Shelley]238-shelley and [Keats]239-keats , and the bundles of unpublished manuscripts , entrusted to [Hamlin]145-hamlin by [living poets]4678-living poets , [they]4672-they sat down in [the studio]795-the studio and began to discuss various matters : [Anne]171-anne ’s school life , [her]171-anne readings and lessons , [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s work , art , poetry , life , all sorts of things,—a long and drowsy afternoon ’s talk , such as is possible only after a long correspondence between [people]577-people become familiar without much personal intercourse , who , knowing [each other]594-each other ’s mind , are now beginning to know [each other]594-each other ’s face and ways and heart ; and which has a charm quite peculiar to itself , like that of hearing for the first time , with full symphony of voices and instruments , some piece of music which [we]4683-we have learned to know and love merely from the dry score . [Anne]171-anne had never felt so happy in all [her]171-anne life , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin not often happier in [his]145-hamlin , as [they]4672-they sat in [the studio]795-the studio , talking over abstract questions , which seemed to acquire such a quite personal interest from those who were discussing [them]4685-them . [They]4672-they were thus engaged when [the servant]4647-the servant announced [Mr Cosmo Chough]248-chough . [Anne]171-anne ’s heart sank at the thought of confronting [one of [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s most intimate friends]4688-hamlin ’s most intimate friends]4687-one of hamlin ’s most intimate friends , and [one of [the poets who constituted the stars of [his]145-hamlin solar system]4690-the poets who constituted the stars of his solar system]4689-one of the poets who constituted the stars of his solar system . To [Anne]171-anne ’s surprise [Mr Chough]248-chough did not at all resemble either [Shelley]238-shelley or [Keats]239-keats , as [she]171-anne imagined ; [he]1661-my old friend was [a little wiry man , with fiercely brushed coal‐black hair and whiskers]4691-a little wiry man , with fiercely brushed coal‐black hair and whiskers , dressed within an inch of [his]1661-my old friend life , but in a style of fashionableness , booted and cravated , which was quite peculiar to [himself]1661-my old friend . “[171-anne] [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[171-anne] let [me]0-i introduce [[my]0-i old friend]1661-my old friend , [Cosmo Chough]248-chough . ” [Mr Chough]248-chough made a most fascinating bow , and swooped gracefully to the other end of [the studio]795-the studio to fetch [himself]248-chough a chair near [Anne]171-anne ’s . [He]1661-my old friend was quite touchingly concerned in [Anne]171-anne ’s journey and [her]171-anne sensations after it ; and asked [her]171-anne whether [she]171-anne liked [London]4-london , with a sort of expansive chivalry of manner , as of [Sir Walter Raleigh]267-sir walter raleigh spreading embroidered cloaks across puddles for [Queen Elizabeth]268-queen elizabeth , which struck [her]171-anne as rather ridiculous , but very agreeable , as [she]171-anne had rather anticipated being scorned by [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s poetical friends]4693-hamlin ’s poetical friends . [Anne]171-anne thought [Mr. Chough]248-chough decidedly nice , with [his]1661-my old friend oriental style of politeness , and magnificent volubility , constantly quoting poetry in various languages in a shrill and chirpy voice ; moreover , [he]1661-my old friend seemed to adore [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and this was enough to put [him]1661-my old friend in [her]171-anne good graces . [Mr Chough]248-chough rapidly informed [her]171-anne what [the principal poets in [London]4-london and [Paris]42-paris]4694-the principal poets in london and paris ( for [he]1661-my old friend spoke of French things with an affectation of throaty accent and allusions to [[his]1661-my old friend “[248-chough] real country]4695-his “ real country ” which greatly puzzled [Anne]171-anne ) were writing ; and [Anne]171-anne felt so completely taken into confidence that [she]171-anne ventured to ask [him]1661-my old friend whether [he]1661-my old friend was [himself]1661-my old friend writing anything at present , as [she]171-anne had greatly admired some short pieces of [his]1661-my old friend which [Hamlin]145-hamlin had sent [her]171-anne . [Mr Chough]248-chough was as modest as [he]1661-my old friend was polite . [His]1661-my old friend eyes shone , and [he]1661-my old friend clasped [his]1661-my old friend small hands in ecstasy at the idea of anything of [his]1661-my old friend having pleased [Miss Brown]171-anne . [He]1661-my old friend then proceeded to tell [her]171-anne that [he]1661-my old friend had an idea for a long poem — a sort of masque or mystery‐play — to be called the Triumph of Womanhood . “[1662-we] [We]1662-we were trying over some of [Jomelli]269-jomelli ’s music a night or two ago , at [Isaac]74-isaac [the great composer]1663-the great composer ’s , ” [he]1661-my old friend explained ; “[1662-we] magnificent music , which [no one]3899-no one can sing nowadays , and [we]1662-we feebly crowed , when in the midst of the great burst of the “ Gloria ”[0-i] [I]0-i seemed to have revealed to [me]0-i a vision of a mystic procession of [women]3959-women going in triumph ; [I]0-i understood , in a sort of flash , the mysterious and real regalness of Womanhood . ” “[0-i] It must have been very beautiful , ” said [Anne]171-anne , naively . [Mr Chough]248-chough had opened the piano , and began playing , in a masterly way , a fragment of very intricate fugue . “[0-i] Do [you]1666-you notice that ? ” [he]1661-my old friend asked : “[1666-you] that sudden modulation there — ta ta ti , la la la — from A minor to E major,—that somehow mysteriously brought home to [me]0-i one of the figures of that triumphal procession , and [her]1667-her [I]0-i have tried to describe . If [you]1666-you like , [I]0-i can repeat [you]1666-you the first few lines ; it is called ‘ [Imperia]75-imperia of [Rome]28-rome . ’ ” “[0-i] How good of [you]1666-you , ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[1666-you] [I]0-i think [we]1662-we had better put off hearing it till [you]1666-you have composed rather more of the poem , ” interrupted [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [Cosmo Chough]248-chough looked mortified , and [Anne]171-anne wondered why [Hamlin]145-hamlin should silence [[his]145-hamlin old friend]530-his old friend . “[1666-you] Tell [me]0-i all about [[Imperia]75-imperia of [Rome]28-rome]1668-imperia of rome , ” [she]0-i asked . “[1666-you] Who was she?—had [she]1668-imperia of rome anything to do with [the Scipios]1669-the scipios , or [Cato]270-cato , or [Tarquin]271-tarquin ? ” “[1668-imperia of rome] [Imperia]75-imperia was not [an ancient Roman]1670-an ancient roman , ” explained [Chough]248-chough ; “[1668-imperia of rome] [she]75-imperia lived at the beginning of the sixteenth century , and it is said that [all the cardinals and poets and artists of [Rome]28-rome]1671-all the cardinals and poets and artists of rome , nay , [the Pope]1672-the pope [himself]1672-the pope , accompanied [her]75-imperia coffin when [she]75-imperia died . ” “[1672-the pope] Why , what had [she]75-imperia done?—was [she]75-imperia [a saint]924-a saint ? ” “[924-a saint] The inscription on [[her]75-imperia tomb]1674-her tomb is , [I]0-i think , the most truly noble and Roman ever composed on [any woman]1339-any woman , ” proceeded [Chough]248-chough ; “[0-i] [Imperia]75-imperia . . . ” “[0-i] [Miss Brown]171-anne does n’t understand Latin , Cosmo , ” interrupted [Hamlin]145-hamlin , roughly , “[0-i] and [I]0-i am sure [she]171-anne would take no interest in [Imperia]75-imperia or [her]75-imperia epitaph . Supposing [you]1676-you let [Miss Brown]171-anne hear some of that beautiful Jomelli Mass [you]1676-you were speaking about . [Chough]248-chough is [one of the finest musicians [I]0-i know]1677-one of the finest musicians i know , ” [he]145-hamlin explained to [Anne]171-anne , “[248-chough] and [he]1677-one of the finest musicians i know is quite famous for singing all sorts of [forgotten old Italian masters]1678-forgotten old italian masters . ” [Chough]248-chough sat down and began to sing , in a warbling falsetto , but with the most marvellous old‐world grace and finish . [Anne]171-anne did not attend . [She]171-anne was wondering about [Imperia of]75-imperia [Rome]28-rome . Why had [Hamlin]145-hamlin cut short [Chough]248-chough ? What had [Imperia]75-imperia done ? The remarks of [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor came to [her]171-anne mind ; and [she]171-anne felt indignant , and [her]171-anne indignation was all the greater , perhaps , because [Chough]248-chough ’s offence was vague and unknown — how nobly and simply [Hamlin]145-hamlin had silenced [him]1677-one of the finest musicians i know ! [She]171-anne wondered whether [he]145-hamlin was very angry with [Chough]248-chough , and whether [Chough]248-chough ’s feelings had been much hurt . [She]171-anne felt rather sorry for the sharp way in which [he]1677-one of the finest musicians i know had been treated , and terrified lest [she]171-anne should be a source of misunderstanding between [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends . [She]171-anne greatly praised [Chough]248-chough ’s singing . “[1677-one of the finest musicians i know] Will [you]1679-you sing ? ” cried [the little poet]4698-the little poet , supplicatingly ; “[1679-you] [you]1679-you must have a beautiful voice . [I]0-i know it from [your]1679-you way of speaking . ” [Anne]171-anne refused in terror . “[0-i] Do sing , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” urged [Hamlin]145-hamlin . So [she]171-anne took [her]171-anne courage with both hands , as [she]171-anne expressed it , and sang an air by [Scarlatti]273-scarlatti , [Chough]248-chough accompanying . [She]171-anne made several false starts , and sang the wrong words almost throughout , for [she]171-anne felt a lump in [her]171-anne chest . [Anne]171-anne had a deep , powerful , rather guttural voice , not improved by singing modern German songs at [Coblenz]51-coblenz ; but the voice was fine , and [she]171-anne had caught something of the manner of [[her]171-anne former protectress]4699-her former protectress , [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon , who had been [a great singer in [her]175-miss curzon day]4700-a great singer in her day . [Chough]248-chough burst out into applause . “[171-anne] A splendid voice ! ” [he]4701-he cried ; “[171-anne] [you]171-anne must sing , [Miss Brown]171-anne — [you]171-anne must study — [I]0-i will come and practise [your]171-anne accompaniments for [you]171-anne , if [you]171-anne will permit [me]0-i . ” [Anne]171-anne looked at [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; such an offer , on so slight an acquaintance , surprised [her]171-anne . “[171-anne] [You]171-anne will let [Chough]248-chough teach [you]171-anne , wo n’t [you]171-anne , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ” asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , approvingly . [He]145-hamlin afterwards told [her]171-anne that [Chough]248-chough spent whatever leisure remained from an inferior Government offce , in which , together with [a whole band of other poets]4702-a whole band of other poets , [he]145-hamlin was employed , in playing accompaniments for [various young ladies whom [he]145-hamlin considered , each singly , the most divine types of womanhood whom [he]145-hamlin had ever met]4703-various young ladies whom he considered , each singly , the most divine types of womanhood whom he had ever met . [Chough]248-chough was in high spirits , and proceeded to display to [Anne]171-anne two or three relics which [he]145-hamlin carried on [his]145-hamlin person . [A fervent though not very orthodox Catholic]4704-a fervent though not very orthodox catholic , [he]145-hamlin was prone to religious mysticism : on [his]145-hamlin watch‐chain hung a gold cross , containing a bit of wood from [[St Theresa]274-st theresa ’s house]4705-st theresa ’s house , which [a friend]4706-a friend had brought [him]145-hamlin from [Spain]77-spain ; by its side dangled a large locket , enclosing a wisp of yellow hair . “[171-anne] It is a lock of [Lucretia Borgia]275-lucretia borgia ’s , ” [he]145-hamlin said , displaying it with as much unction as [he]145-hamlin had manifested for [St Theresa—“a]78-st theresa—“a[275-lucretia borgia] bit of the one which [Byron]276-byron possessed,—the most precious thing [I]0-i have in all [the world]496-the world . ” “[1681-she] [She]1681-she was rather an insignificant character though , on the whole , was n’t [she]1681-she ? ” remarked [Anne]171-anne , not knowing what to say,—“a[1681-she] sort of characterless villain , [the Germans]235-the germans say . ” [Cosmo Chough]248-chough was indignant . “[235-the germans] Insignificant ! ” [he]145-hamlin cried — “[235-the germans] a Borgia insignificant ! Why , [her]1681-she blood ran with evil as the Pactolus does with gold . [All women that have ever been , except [Sappho]277-sappho and [Vittoria Accoramboni]278-vittoria accoramboni]1682-all women that have ever been , except sappho and vittoria accoramboni , and perhaps [Faustina]279-faustina , were lifeless shadows by [her]1681-she side . . . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t believe in [those sort of women]1683-those sort of women having been very remarkable , ” said [Anne]171-anne , in [her]171-anne frank , stolid way , “[0-i] except for disreputableness . ” “[0-i] But that is just it,—that which [you]0-i call disreputableness , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” cried [Chough]248-chough , “[0-i] therein is [their]1683-those sort of women greatness , in that fiery . . . ” [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head contemptuously . “[1683-those sort of women] [I]0-i daresay [great women]1685-great women have often committed great crimes , ” [she]0-i said ; “[0-i] but then [they]1685-great women have had great plans and ambitions ; [they]1685-great women have not been [mere wretched slaves of passion]1686-mere wretched slaves of passion ; ” and [she]0-i relapsed into silence . [She]1681-she had had what [Hamlin]145-hamlin used to call [her]1681-she Amazon or Valkyr expression as [she]1681-she spoke ; and [he]145-hamlin felt , as [he]145-hamlin had felt in [Florence]6-florence , the persuasion that [this proud and sombre woman]4707-this proud and sombre woman must have in [her]1681-she future some great decision , some great sacrifice of others or of [herself]1681-she . While [they]4708-they were talking , [the servant]4647-the servant entered to tell [Miss Brown]171-anne that [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo was in [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room with [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[1685-great women] Confound [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ! ” exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin between [his]145-hamlin teeth , “[261-mrs argiropoulo] to come intruding so soon . ” “[261-mrs argiropoulo] Is that [the lion‐hunting lady]1687-the lion‐hunting lady ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne . “[1687-the lion‐hunting lady] Yes ; [I]0-i suppose [you]0-i must receive [her]1687-the lion‐hunting lady , as [she]1687-the lion‐hunting lady has called on [you]0-i . ” “[1687-the lion‐hunting lady] Called on [me]0-i ? ” repeated [Anne]171-anne in amazement ; “[0-i] [you]0-i mean on [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . Why , how should [she]1687-the lion‐hunting lady have heard of [me]0-i ? ” “[1687-the lion‐hunting lady] All [London]4-london has heard of [you]0-i , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” exclaimed [Chough]248-chough enthusiastically , as [he]4711-he opened the door for [her]0-i ; “[171-anne] at least all that deserves to be called [London]4-london . And [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo said last night at [[Wendell]79-wendell the R.A. ’s]1688-wendell the r.a. ’s , that [she]261-mrs argiropoulo was determined to see [you]0-i before [any other creature in [town]821-town]1689-any other creature in town . [You]0-i see [I]0-i have gained a march upon [her]261-mrs argiropoulo . ” [Anne]171-anne did not answer , but [she]171-anne grew purple . So [every one]4712-every one was curious to see [this nursery‐maid whom [the great Hamlin]145-hamlin had cast [his]145-hamlin eyes on , and whom [he]145-hamlin had generously educated]4713-this nursery‐maid whom the great hamlin had cast his eyes on , and whom he had generously educated ; for the first time [her]171-anne heart burst with indignation and ruffled pride . But after a moment , as [she]171-anne sat in [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room , after frigidly returning [the fat and fashionable lion‐huntress]4715-the fat and fashionable lion‐huntress ’s affectionate greeting , [her]171-anne conscience smote [her]171-anne : who was [she]171-anne , that [she]171-anne should feel thus ? if [she]171-anne did depend entirely on [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s generosity , ought [she]171-anne not to be grateful merely , and proud ? and if [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends felt curious to see [her]171-anne , was it not natural , [he]145-hamlin being what [he]145-hamlin was ; and had [she]171-anne a right to feel annoyed at [their]893-his friends curiosity , at [their]893-his friends knowing all about [her]171-anne ? It had been mean and unworthy . Yet [she]171-anne could not help feeling a sort of vague anger at [she]171-anne knew not what , as [the lady]3881-the lady chattered away , in glib Greek‐English , about [poets]1628-poets , and studios , and dinner‐parties ; and [she]171-anne answered [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo only in monosyllables . “[0-i] [You]1691-you must let [me]0-i take [[your]1691-you ward]1692-your ward into society a little , dear [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , ” lisped [the Greek lady]4719-the greek lady , “[0-i] for [I]0-i know [you]1691-you hate going out of an evening . [Miss Brown]171-anne must meet [some of [the principal persons of [our]1695-our set]1694-the principal persons of our set]1693-some of the principal persons of our set . ” [She]171-anne was very fat , very good‐natured , and extremely vulgar‐looking , [her]171-anne huge body encased in a medieval dress of flaming gold brocade . “[1693-some of the principal persons of our set] What in [the world]496-the world can [she]171-anne have to do among [artists]1500-artists and [poets]1628-poets ? ” thought [Anne]171-anne . “[171-anne] [[Her]171-anne husband]693-her husband is in the currant‐trade , ” whispered [Chough—“an]280-chough—“an[693-her husband] awful old noodle , but [he]693-her husband buys more pictures of [[our]1695-our school]1700-our school than [any one else]1701-any one else . [[Their]1702-their house]1703-their house is a perfect wonder . ” “[1702-their] [[My]0-i aunt]4294-my aunt is going to ask [a few friends]1705-a few friends to meet [Miss Brown]171-anne first here , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “[4294-my aunt] perhaps [you]1706-you will join [them]1705-a few friends , [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo . There ’s plenty of time to think of party‐going . ” “[261-mrs argiropoulo] Very good , very good , ” answered [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ; “[261-mrs argiropoulo] meanwhile perhaps [I]0-i may have the pleasure of taking [Miss Brown]171-anne out for a drive once or twice . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i am sure [she]171-anne will be delighted , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[0-i] [I]0-i hate [that woman]1707-that woman ! ” exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [he]145-hamlin returned from escorting [the wife of [the currant‐dealer]4721-the currant‐dealer]4720-the wife of the currant‐dealer to the door ; “[1707-that woman] [an odious , inquisitive , vulgar brute]1708-an odious , inquisitive , vulgar brute . ” “[1708-an odious , inquisitive , vulgar brute] [She]1707-that woman looks good‐natured , [I]0-i think , ” insinuated [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] Oh , [every one ’s good‐natured]1709-every one ’s good‐natured ! ” “[1709-every one ’s good‐natured] In [your]0-i set , [Watty]178-watty ? ” asked [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , bitterly . “[4712-every one] [Every one]4712-every one ’s good‐natured ! ” continued [Hamlin]145-hamlin , throwing [himself]145-hamlin back in [his]145-hamlin chair ; “[4712-every one] and so ’s [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo . But a kind of grain that sets [my]0-i nerves off . That ’s the misfortune of [London]4-london , that a lot of vulgar creatures , merely because [they]1711-they buy [our]1712-our pictures and give dinners , have come and invaded [our]1712-our set , showing [us]1712-our , like so many wild beasts , to [the fashionable world]1713-the fashionable world . Positively , [I]0-i shall have to give up [London]4-london . But [you]0-i will find , ” [he]145-hamlin added , turning to [Anne]171-anne , “[1711-they] [one or two houses]1714-one or two houses still remaining where one meets only [superior people]1715-superior people — the houses where artistic life really goes on . ” “[1716-one] Upon whipped cream and Swiss champagne , ” said [Mrs Macgregor—“what]281-mrs macgregor—“what[1716-one] [one]1716-one might call the real , genuine , four hundred a‐year intellectual world . Ah , well , [Walter]145-hamlin ! [you]145-hamlin need n’t look reproachful ; but it is droll what sort of people [you]145-hamlin have come to associate with — [clerks]1717-clerks and [penny‐a‐liners]1718-penny‐a‐liners , each of [them]1719-them [a great poet]1720-a great poet . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin merely smiled . “[620-one] [One]620-one must make [a world]1722-a world for [one]620-one ’s self , ” [he]145-hamlin said , and looked at [Anne]171-anne . When [Mr Cosmo Chough]248-chough had taken [his]145-hamlin seat next to [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo , [the portly lady]4722-the portly lady deluged [him]145-hamlin with questions and replies as [her]4722-the portly lady landau rolled away . “[620-one] On the whole , [I]0-i ’m quite as well pleased not to take [her]0-i out at once , ” [she]0-i said . “[0-i] [I]0-i ’m not at all so sure about [her]0-i . [She]0-i seems to [me]0-i too big and lumpish and healthy‐looking . [I]0-i should like to have one or two opinions first — [one or two artists]1724-one or two artists ’ , and [young Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite ’s , and [little O’Reilly’s]282-little o’reilly’s — of course , [they]1725-their ’ll see [her]0-i at [[old Smith]156-mr thaddeus smith ’s]1726-old smith ’s , or [Mrs Saunders]283-mrs saunders ’s , or [some such house]1727-some such house — and all depends on [their]1725-their verdict . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i know what [mine]0-i is , ” cried [little Chough]248-chough , enthusiastically—“that[0-i] [she]0-i is [the divinest woman , in the cold , imperial style]1728-the divinest woman , in the cold , imperial style , with a latent and strange smouldering passion , that [I]0-i ever set eyes on . And as to [that flabby elephant Posthlethwaite]1729-that flabby elephant posthlethwaite , and that little hop , skip , and jump of [an impudent jackanapes O’Reilly]1730-an impudent jackanapes o’reilly , [I]0-i wonder how [you]1731-you can think [their]1725-their opinion worth having , or , indeed , [their]1725-their presence supportable . ” At this grand winding up [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo laughed loudly . “[0-i] [I]0-i know [you]1731-you do n’t like [those young men]1732-those young men , ” [she]0-i said . “[1732-those young men] [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite ’s [[your]1731-you rival]1733-your rival , [they]1732-those young men say ; [he]256-posthlethwaite writes even more improper things than [you]1731-you do ; and [you]1731-you ca n’t forgive [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly calling [your]1731-you poems the loves of [the cannibals]1734-the cannibals . Oh , [I]0-i know [you]1731-you [poets]1628-poets ! Now , shall [I]0-i drive [you]1731-you [home]4170-home ? What ’s [your]1731-you address ? ” This was an old joke , for [Mr Cosmo Chough]248-chough always surrounded [[his]284-thaddy o’reilly dwelling‐place]4723-his dwelling‐place with mystery , and had [his]284-thaddy o’reilly letters addressed to [[his]284-thaddy o’reilly office]4724-his office . “[0-i] Pray do n’t inconvenience [yourself]1731-you , ” [he]284-thaddy o’reilly said in a stately way ; “[0-i] set [me]0-i down at [the corner of [Park Lane]80-park lane]1737-the corner of park lane . [I]0-i shall walk [home]4170-home in less than a minute from there . ” “[0-i] To [the corner of [Park Lane]80-park lane]1737-the corner of park lane , ” ordered [[Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo of [her]261-mrs argiropoulo footman , who knew , as well as [[his]284-thaddy o’reilly mistress]1072-his mistress and every other creature in what [they]4727-they called [London]4-london]4725-mrs argiropoulo of her footman , who knew , as well as his mistress and every other creature in what they called london , that [Mr Cosmo Chough]248-chough lived in [a secluded terrace in [Canonbury]81-canonbury]4728-a secluded terrace in canonbury . [ANNE BROWN]171-anne found that [Hamlin]145-hamlin , or , as [he]284-thaddy o’reilly studiously put it , [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , had made several engagements for [her]171-anne before [her]171-anne arrival ; and before [she]171-anne could thoroughly realise that [the school]1304-the school , the journey from [Coblenz]51-coblenz , were things of the past , [she]171-anne found [herself]171-anne being led about , passively , half unconsciously , through the mazes of æsthetic [London]4-london . It was all very hazy : [Anne]171-anne was informed that this and [that person]4730-that person was coming to dinner or lunch at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith ; that this or [that person]4730-that person hoped [she]171-anne would come and dine or take tea somewhere or other ; that [such or such a lady]4732-such or such a lady was going to take [her]171-anne to see some one or [other ’s studio]4733-other ’s studio , or to introduce [her]171-anne at [[some other person]4734-some other person ’s house]4735-some other person ’s house . [She]171-anne knew that [they]4736-they were all either [distinguished poets]4737-distinguished poets , or [critics]4738-critics , or [painters]521-painters , or [musicians]4740-musicians , or distinguished relations and [friends of the above]4741-friends of the above ; that [they]4736-they all received [her]171-anne as if [they]4736-they had heard of [her]171-anne from [their]4736-they earliest infancy ; that [they]4736-they pressed [her]171-anne to have tea , and strawberries , and claret‐cup , and cakes , and asked [her]171-anne what [she]171-anne thought of this picture or that poem ; that [they]4736-they lived in [grim , smut‐engrained houses in [Bloomsbury]82-bloomsbury]4742-grim , smut‐engrained houses in bloomsbury , or [rose‐grown cottages at [Hampstead]83-hampstead , with just the same sort of weird furniture , partly Japanese , partly [Queen Anne]285-queen anne]4743-rose‐grown cottages at hampstead , with just the same sort of weird furniture , partly japanese , partly queen anne , partly medieval ; with blue‐and‐white china and embroidered chasubles stuck upon the walls if [they]4736-they were rich , and twopenny screens and ninepenny pots if [they]4736-they were poor , but with no further differences ; and , finally , that [they]4736-they were all intimately acquainted , and spoke of [each other]594-each other as being , or just having missed being , the most brilliant or promising specimens of whatever [they]4736-they happened to be . At first [Anne]285-queen anne felt very shy and puzzled ; but after a few days the very vagueness which [she]285-queen anne felt about [all these men]4745-all these men and [women]3959-women , [these artists]4747-these artists , [critics]4738-critics , [poets]1628-poets , and [relatives , who were perpetually reappearing as on a merry‐go‐round,—nay]4750-relatives , who were perpetually reappearing as on a merry‐go‐round,—nay , the very cloudiness as to the identity of [these familiar faces]4751-these familiar faces — the very confusion as to whether [they]4736-they were one , two , or three different individuals,—produced in [Miss Brown]171-anne an indifference , an ease , almost a familiarity , like that which [we]4752-we may experience towards the vague , unindividual company met on [a steamer]1375-a steamer or at [a hotel]4754-a hotel . And little by little , out of [this crowd of people who seemed to look , and to dress , and to talk very much alike,—venerable bearded men]4755-this crowd of people who seemed to look , and to dress , and to talk very much alike,—venerable bearded men , who were [the heads of great schools of painting , or poetry , or criticism]4756-the heads of great schools of painting , or poetry , or criticism , or were [the papas of great offspring]4757-the papas of great offspring ; [elderly , quaintly dressed ladies]4758-elderly , quaintly dressed ladies , who were [[somebody]4759-somebody ’s wife]4760-somebody ’s wife , or [mother]4664-mother , or [sister]4762-sister ; [youngish men , with manners at once exotically courteous , and curiously free and easy , in velveteen coats and mustard‐coloured shooting‐jackets or elegiac‐looking dress‐coats , all rising in poetry , or art , or criticism]4763-youngish men , with manners at once exotically courteous , and curiously free and easy , in velveteen coats and mustard‐coloured shooting‐jackets or elegiac‐looking dress‐coats , all rising in poetry , or art , or criticism ; [young ladies , varying from sixteen to six‐and‐thirty , with hair cut like medieval pages , or tousled like mœnads]4764-young ladies , varying from sixteen to six‐and‐thirty , with hair cut like medieval pages , or tousled like mœnads , or tucked away under caps like [eighteenth‐century housekeepers , habited in limp and stayless garments , picturesque and economical , with Japanese chintzes for brocade , and flannel instead of stamped velvets]4765-eighteenth‐century housekeepers , habited in limp and stayless garments , picturesque and economical , with japanese chintzes for brocade , and flannel instead of stamped velvets — most of which [young ladies]4766-young ladies appeared at one period , past , present , or future , to own a connection with [the Slade school]4767-the slade school , and [all of whom , when not [poets]1628-poets or [painters]521-painters [themselves]4768-all of whom , when not poets or painters themselves]4768-all of whom , when not poets or painters themselves , were the belongings of [some such]4771-some such , or madly in love with [the great sonneteer such a one]4772-the great sonneteer such a one , or [the great colourist such another;—out of all]4773-the great colourist such another;—out of all this confusion there began gradually to detach [themselves]4768-all of whom , when not poets or painters themselves and assume consistency in [Anne]171-anne ’s mind one or two personalities , some of whom attracted , and some of whom repelled [her]171-anne , as [we]4774-we shall see further on ; but to [all these people]4775-all these people , vague or distinct , attractive or repulsive , [Miss Brown]171-anne felt a kind of gratitude — something , in an infinitesimal degree , of the thankfulness for undeserved kindness and courtesy which constituted a large part of [her]171-anne love for [Hamlin]145-hamlin . It was a curious state of things , thus to be introduced by [a man whom [she]171-anne knew at once so much and so little , to [this exclusive and esoteric sort of people]4777-this exclusive and esoteric sort of people]4776-a man whom she knew at once so much and so little , to this exclusive and esoteric sort of people ; and whenever the thought would come upon [her]171-anne how completely and utterly [she]171-anne , [the daughter of [the dockyard workman of [Spezia]14-spezia]4779-the dockyard workman of spezia , [the former servant of [the little Perrys]167-the perrys]4780-the former servant of the little perrys]4778-the daughter of the dockyard workman of spezia , the former servant of the little perrys , was foreign to all this , it made [her]171-anne feel alone and giddy , like [one standing on a rock]4781-one standing on a rock and watching [the waters below]4782-the waters below . Such was the condition of things when one morning , about three weeks after [Anne]171-anne ’s arrival , [Hamlin]145-hamlin put upon the luncheon‐table a note addressed to [Miss Brown]171-anne . “[0-i] It ’s an invitation to [[Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s big party]1740-mrs argiropoulo ’s big party on the twenty‐seventh , ” [he]145-hamlin said ; “[0-i] [you]1741-you must go , [Miss Brown]171-anne . [She]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s an awful being [herself]261-mrs argiropoulo ; but [you]1741-you ’ll see [all the most interesting people in [London]4-london]1742-all the most interesting people in london at [[her]261-mrs argiropoulo house]4033-her house . [Edith Spencer]286-edith or [Miss Pringle]287-miss pringle can take [you]1741-you , if [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia feel too tired . ” “[247-aunt claudia] [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia always feels too tired , ” answered [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , in a bitter little tone . [Anne]171-anne could not quite understand [this amiable and cynical old lady , who was at once devotedly attached to [[her]171-anne nephew]4784-her nephew , and perpetually railing at [[his]4784-her nephew friends]893-his friends]4783-this amiable and cynical old lady , who was at once devotedly attached to her nephew , and perpetually railing at his friends . A fear seized [her]171-anne lest , in [her]171-anne vague , almost somnambulic introduction into æsthetic society , [she]171-anne might have unconsciously neglected [the woman who , proud of [her]171-anne birth as [she]171-anne was]4786-the woman who , proud of her birth as she was , requested [[this workman]4787-this workman ’s daughter]4788-this workman ’s daughter to address and consider [her]171-anne as [[her]171-anne aunt]4789-her aunt . “[247-aunt claudia] Oh , wo n’t [you]1744-you go ? ” cried [Anne]171-anne ; “[247-aunt claudia] wo n’t [you]1744-you go , [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ? ” “[243-mrs macgregor] The fact is , ” hesitated [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[247-aunt claudia] that — [you]1744-you see — [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo invites [comparatively few people]1745-comparatively few people , and — ” “[261-mrs argiropoulo] That [she]261-mrs argiropoulo wants only [celebrities]1746-celebrities , or [great folk]1747-great folk , or [pretty girls]1748-pretty girls , ” interrupted [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , with [her]247-aunt claudia friendly cynicism , “[261-mrs argiropoulo] or , as [she]261-mrs argiropoulo expresses it , that [she]261-mrs argiropoulo wants no padding . So [you]1744-you must go with [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer or [Miss Pringle]287-miss pringle , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear . ” “[287-miss pringle] But it is abominable ; it is most rude of [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ; and [I]0-i certainly wo n’t go anywhere where [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia has not been invited . ” “[247-aunt claudia] Nonsense , [Nan]171-anne , ” silenced [the old lady]1153-the old lady ; “[171-anne] [you]171-anne ’re not up to [this lion‐hunting world]1750-this lion‐hunting world yet . Where there are so many [geniuses on the loose]1751-geniuses on the loose , and [so many professed beauties]1752-so many professed beauties , there are no chairs for [old women]1753-old women , except [countesses]1754-countesses or [school board managers]1755-school board managers . ” “[1755-school board managers] But since [you]1744-you think [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo hateful , ” persisted [Anne]171-anne , addressing [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[1744-you] why should [you]1744-you wish [me]0-i to go ? [You]1744-you know [I]0-i would much rather not ; and [I]0-i think , considering [her]247-aunt claudia rudeness to [[your]1744-you aunt]1756-your aunt , [you]1744-you ought not to wish [me]0-i to go . ” “[1744-you] As [you]1744-you choose , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , peevishly . “[171-anne] Do n’t be absurd , [Anne]171-anne — [you]1744-you must go , ” insisted [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[1744-you] Listen : [Watty]178-watty has actually been addling [his]178-watty brains doing dressmaking ; [he]178-watty has invented a dress for [you]1744-you to go to the party , so [you]1744-you will break [his]178-watty heart if [you]1744-you refuse . ” [Anne]171-anne looked in amazement ; and [Hamlin]145-hamlin reddened . “[178-watty] [I]0-i hope [you]1744-you will not deem it a liberty on [my]0-i part , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” [he]145-hamlin said ; “[1744-you] but as [I]0-i knew that this invitation was coming , [I]0-i ventured to make a sketch of the sort of dress which [I]0-i think would become [you]1744-you , and to give it to [a woman who has made dresses from [artists]1500-artists ’ directions]1757-a woman who has made dresses from artists ’ directions ; of course , if [you]1744-you do n’t think it pretty , [you]1744-you wo n’t dream of putting it on . But [I]0-i could not resist the temptation . ” [Miss Brown]171-anne scarcely knew what to say or feel : there was in [her]171-anne a moment ’s humiliation at being so completely [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s property]4791-hamlin ’s property as to warrant this ; then [she]171-anne felt grateful and ashamed of [her]171-anne ingratitude . “[0-i] If [you]0-i had shown [me]0-i the sketch , [I]0-i daresay [I]0-i could have made up the dress [myself]0-i , ” [she]0-i said . “[0-i] [I]0-i fear [my]0-i sketch might not have been very intelligible to [any one who had not experience of making such things]1759-any one who had not experience of making such things . ” “[0-i] Perhaps not , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , thinking of all the dresses for [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon and the little Perrys which [she]0-i had made in [her]0-i day . “[0-i] It was very good of [you]0-i , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . ” “[145-hamlin] What [an idiot]4316-an idiot [I]0-i was to let the cat out of the bag ! ” exclaimed [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor when [[her]243-mrs macgregor nephew]4784-her nephew was out of hearing . “[0-i] [I]0-i ’ve spoilt [your]0-i pleasure in the frock ; and there ’s [Walter]145-hamlin sulking because [he]145-hamlin thinks [you]0-i wo n’t like it . ” “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i am very ungrateful , ” said [Anne]171-anne , sighing as [she]0-i stooped over [her]0-i book , and feeling all the same that [she]0-i wished [Hamlin]145-hamlin would let [her]0-i make up [her]0-i dresses [herself]0-i . A few days later [the dressmaker]4793-the dressmaker came to try on the dress , or rather ( perhaps because [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not wish [Anne]171-anne to see it before it was finished ) [its]4794-its linings and a small amount of the Greek stuff of which it was made ; but it was not till the very afternoon of [[Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s party]4795-mrs argiropoulo ’s party that the costume was brought [home]4170-home finished . [Miss Brown]171-anne was by this time tolerably accustomed to the eccentric garb of æsthetic circles , and [she]171-anne firmly believed that it was the only one which [a self‐respecting woman]4797-a self‐respecting woman might wear ; but when [she]171-anne saw the dress which [Hamlin]145-hamlin had designed for [her]171-anne , [she]171-anne could not help shrinking back in dismay . It was of that Cretan silk , not much thicker than muslin , which is woven in minute wrinkles of palest yellowy white ; it was made , it seemed to [her]171-anne , more like a night‐gown than anything else , shapeless and yet clinging with large and small folds , and creases like those of [damp sculptor]4798-damp sculptor ’s drapery , or the garments of [[Mantegna]252-mantegna ’s women]4799-mantegna ’s women . “[0-i] [I]0-i must get out a long petticoat , ” said [Anne]171-anne , appalled . “[0-i] Oh please , [ma’am]1585-ma’am , no , ” cried [the dressmaker]4793-the dressmaker . “[1585-ma’am] On no account an additional petticoat — it would ruin the whole effect . On the contrary , [you]1585-ma’am ought to remove one of those [you]1585-ma’am have on , because like this the dress ca n’t cling properly . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i wo n’t have it cling , ” cried [Miss Brown]171-anne , resolutely . “[0-i] [I]0-i will let alone the extra petticoat , but that ’s as much as [I]0-i will do . ” “[0-i] As [you]1585-ma’am please , [ma’am]1585-ma’am , ” answered [the woman]4801-the woman , and continued adjusting the limp garment with [the maid]4505-the maid ’s assistance . [Anne]171-anne walked to the mirror . [She]171-anne was almost terrified at the figure which met [her]171-anne . [That colossal woman]4803-that colossal woman , with wrinkled drapery clinging to [her]4803-that colossal woman in half‐antique , half‐medieval guise,—that great solemn , theatrical creature , could that be [herself]4803-that colossal woman ? “[1585-ma’am] [I]0-i think , ” [she]0-i said in despair , “[0-i] that there ’s something very odd about it , [Mrs Perkins]289-mrs perkins . It looks somehow all wrong . Are [you]289-mrs perkins sure that something has n’t got unstitched ? ” “[289-mrs perkins] No indeed , [madam]4383-madam , ” answered [the dressmaker]4793-the dressmaker , ruffled in [her]4793-the dressmaker dignity . “[4383-madam] [I]0-i have exactly followed the design ; and , ” [she]0-i added , with crushing effect , “[0-i] as it ’s [I]0-i who execute the most difficult designs for [the Lyceum]1764-the lyceum , [I]0-i think [I]0-i may say that it could not be made differently . ” [The Lyceum]84-the lyceum ! [Anne]171-anne felt half petrified . What ! [Hamlin]145-hamlin was having [her]171-anne rigged out by [a stage dressmaker]4805-a stage dressmaker ! “[0-i] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin is down‐stairs , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” hesitated [the maid]4505-the maid , as [Anne]171-anne bade [her]4505-the maid help [her]171-anne out of this mass of limp stuff . “[145-hamlin] [He]145-hamlin said [he]145-hamlin would wait to see [you]171-anne after [the dressmaker]4793-the dressmaker had left , if [you]171-anne had no objection . ” “[145-hamlin] [Watty]178-watty wants to see [you]171-anne in [your]171-anne new frock , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , putting [her]0-i head in at the door . “[178-watty] Come along . ” [Anne]171-anne followed [down‐stairs]4807-down‐stairs , gathering all that uncanny white crape about [her]171-anne . For the first time [she]171-anne felt a dull anger against [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [He]145-hamlin met [her]171-anne in [the dim drawing‐room]4808-the dim drawing‐room . “[178-watty] [My]0-i hair is n’t done yet , ” was all [Miss Brown]171-anne could say , tousling it with [her]171-anne hands . “[0-i] Leave it like that — oh , do leave it like that ! ” exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “[171-anne] [you]171-anne ca n’t think how”—and [he]145-hamlin paused and looked at [her]171-anne , where [she]171-anne stood before [him]145-hamlin , stooping [her]171-anne massive head sullenly—“you[171-anne] ca n’t think how beautiful [you]171-anne look , [Anne]171-anne ! ” It was the first time [he]145-hamlin had called [her]171-anne by [her]171-anne Christian name since that scene , long ago , in [the studio at [Florence]6-florence]4809-the studio at florence . “[171-anne] Forgive [me]0-i , [dear Miss Brown]171-anne , ” [he]145-hamlin apologised . “[0-i] [I]0-i knew how such a dress must suit [you]171-anne , and yet it has given [me]0-i quite a shock to see [you]171-anne in it . ” “[0-i] It was very kind of [you]171-anne to have it made for [me]0-i , ” said [Anne]171-anne , “[171-anne] and the stuff is very pretty also ; and — and [I]0-i am so glad [you]171-anne like [me]0-i in it . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin kissed [her]171-anne hand . [He]145-hamlin was more than usually handsome , and looked very happy . “[0-i] Thank [you]171-anne , ” [he]145-hamlin said ; “[0-i] [I]0-i must now go [home]4170-home and dress for that stupid dinner‐party . [I]0-i will meet [you]171-anne at [[Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s]1768-mrs argiropoulo ’s at half‐past ten or eleven . [I]0-i suppose [Edith Spencer]286-edith will call for [you]171-anne soon after dinner . Good‐bye . ” [He]145-hamlin looked at [her]171-anne with a kind of fervour , and left [the room]574-the room . [Anne]171-anne sat down . Why did that dress make such a difference to [him]145-hamlin ? Why did [he]145-hamlin care so much more for [her]171-anne because [she]171-anne had it on ? Did [he]145-hamlin care for [her]171-anne only as a sort of live picture ? [she]171-anne thought bitterly . But , after all , it was quite natural on [his]145-hamlin part to be pleased , since [he]145-hamlin had invented the dress . And it was very good of [him]145-hamlin to have thought of [her]171-anne at all . And thus , in a state of enjoyable repentance , [she]171-anne awaited the hour to go to [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo . [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , [a very lovable and laughable little woman , whose soul was divided between [[her]288-mrs spencer babies]4812-her babies and fierce rancours against [all enemies of pre‐Raphaelitism]4813-all enemies of pre‐raphaelitism , hereditary , in virtue of [[her]288-mrs spencer father]4143-her father , [Andrew Saunders]290-andrew saunders , in [[her]288-mrs spencer family]3902-her family]4811-a very lovable and laughable little woman , whose soul was divided between her babies and fierce rancours against all enemies of pre‐raphaelitism , hereditary , in virtue of her father , andrew saunders , in her family , came punctually , marvellously attired in grey cashmere medieval garments , a garland of parsley and gilt oak‐leaves in [her]288-mrs spencer handsome red hair . On seeing [Anne]171-anne , who stood awaiting [her]0-i by the fireplace , [she]0-i could not repress an exclamation of admiration . “[286-edith] Yes , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , unaccustomed to have [her]171-anne looks admired at [Florence]6-florence and at [Coblenz]51-coblenz ; “[286-edith] it is a very wonderful costume , is n’t it ? [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin designed it for [me]0-i . [I]0-i think it was so kind of [him]145-hamlin ; do n’t [you]0-i ? ” “[0-i] Kind ? [I]0-i see nothing kind about it . [Walter]145-hamlin ” ( [she]171-anne always spoke of [him]145-hamlin thus familiarly , because [he]145-hamlin had worked as a youth in [[[her]171-anne father]4143-her father ’s studio]4817-her father ’s studio ) “[145-hamlin] is simply head over ears in love with [you]0-i , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear . ” [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head . “[145-hamlin] Oh no , ” [she]0-i answered , with a sort of reasoned conviction , “[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin is merely very good to [me]0-i , that ’s all — and perhaps [he]145-hamlin likes [me]0-i also , of course . But that ’s all . ” “[0-i] [You]0-i know nothing of [the world]496-the world , [Annie]171-anne ; and still less of [Walter]145-hamlin . [He]145-hamlin has never in [his]145-hamlin life been fond of any one except when in love . [I]0-i ’ve not known [him]145-hamlin these fifteen years for nothing . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i think [you]0-i are mistaken , ” said [Anne]171-anne , quietly . “[0-i] [I]0-i think [you]0-i are not aware , [[my]0-i dear girl]1771-my dear girl , that [you]0-i are [the most beautiful woman [Walter]145-hamlin has ever seen]1772-the most beautiful woman walter has ever seen . ” [MISS BROWN]171-anne felt very excited as [the brougham]4818-the brougham drew up at [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s , and [they]4819-they entered [[her]261-mrs argiropoulo large house]4820-her large house , blazing with lights and crammed with flowers . [She]171-anne followed [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer timidly up‐stairs ; but [the men who crowded [the landing]1205-the landing]4821-the men who crowded the landing never guessed that this majestic and imperturbable creature could possibly be nervous . At the top of the stairs , receiving [[her]261-mrs argiropoulo guests]4823-her guests , an occupation ( called seeing [a few friends]1705-a few friends ) which excluded [her]261-mrs argiropoulo from [her]261-mrs argiropoulo own drawing‐room the best part of the evening , was [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo , gorgeous in old lace and diamonds , and withal excessively vulgar . “[0-i] [I]0-i am so glad to see [you]0-i , [dear Miss Brown]171-anne , ” [she]0-i exclaimed to [Anne]171-anne ’s astonishment , despatching [the other comers]4825-the other comers with a mere frigid handshake . “[0-i] [I]0-i do think it is so good of [you]0-i to come . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i wanted to come . ” “[0-i] [You]0-i are such [a darling]1773-a darling , ” went on [the fat Greek lady]4826-the fat greek lady . “[0-i] Come along — [I]0-i have kept seats for [you]0-i and [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer for the recitation . [Dear old Gosselin]291-gosselin is going to recite for [us]1774-us — [he]291-gosselin is staying with [us]1774-us . [I]0-i beg [your]0-i pardon”—this last remark was addressed to [a compact crowd of [ladies]4135-ladies and [gentlemen]4829-gentlemen on the threshold of the largest reception‐room , into which [the lady of [the house]509-the house]4830-the lady of the house summarily elbowed [her]4826-the fat greek lady way]4827-a compact crowd of ladies and gentlemen on the threshold of the largest reception‐room , into which the lady of the house summarily elbowed her way . “[0-i] Follow [me]0-i , ” [she]0-i whispered , as [Anne]171-anne , bewildered among the lights and noise , tried to pick [her]171-anne way over the trailing skirts , and [every one]4712-every one turned to stare as [she]0-i passed—“Here[0-i] , Euphrosyne”—perceiving one of [[her]0-i big bouncing daughters]4833-her big bouncing daughters in the crowd—“I[0-i] want to introduce [you]0-i to [Miss Brown]171-anne . Do keep that chair to the left for [the Duchess of [Orkney]85-orkney]1775-the duchess of orkney — mind . ” [The spacious drawing‐room]4834-the spacious drawing‐room was filled , as for a theatrical performance , with rows of chairs , wellnigh occupied already . Into the very first of these [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo led [Anne]171-anne and [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer . “[1775-the duchess of orkney] Sit down , ” [she]0-i whispered . “[0-i] [I]0-i do hope [you]0-i ’ll enjoy [yourself]0-i , [Miss Brown]171-anne . [You]0-i ’ll hear [Gosselin]291-gosselin beautifully here . Oh dear , there ’s [the dear Marchioness of [Epsom]86-epsom]1776-the dear marchioness of epsom ; goodbye”—and [she]0-i whirled off [[her]0-i portly person]4835-her portly person . “[1776-the dear marchioness of epsom] Goodness ! ” whispered [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , “[292-old argey] [old Argey]292-old argey has actually put [us]1777-us into the best places ! ” [Anne]171-anne looked round . In front was [a vacant space]4836-a vacant space , with an open piano , and some chairs in a corner facing [the company]1514-the company . All round and behind were chairs , and only a little gangway remained leading to the piano , next to where [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo had placed [Anne]171-anne . [She]0-i had never seen [such a crowd of magnificently and oddly dressed people in [her]0-i life]4838-such a crowd of magnificently and oddly dressed people in her life . [Old ladies in velvet and diamonds]4839-old ladies in velvet and diamonds , [young ones in Worth toilets]4840-young ones in worth toilets , or weirdly attired in lank robes and draperies , with garlands of lilies or turbans , or strings of sequins in [their]1781-the public disorderly locks . “[292-old argey] [I]0-i scarcely know [any one]4101-any one [here]3884-here , ” said [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , looking round like a rapid little bird , “[292-old argey] except [one or two artists]1724-one or two artists — there are three or four R.A.’s — horrible creatures , to think [the public]1781-the public is so wickedly infatuate as to buy [their]1781-the public pictures ! Will [Englishmen]1782-englishmen ever have any poetic feeling in art ? [Papa]185-papa would rather die than be [an Academician]1783-an academician . There ’s [little Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly — horrid little jackanapes — in the door . [That old flat‐faced man]1784-that old flat‐faced man is [Lord Durrant]293-lord durrant , [the critic]1785-the critic . [All the frumpy people with the diamonds]1786-all the frumpy people with the diamonds must be [peeresses]1787-peeresses , [I]0-i ’m sure . There ’s [Cosmo Chough]248-chough just come in,—they’re all looking about for [somebody or other]1788-somebody or other . There ’s [Browning]294-browning talking to [old Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo . Oh , here ’s little Thaddy ! How do [you]1789-you do , [Mr O’Reilly]1790-mr o’reilly ? ” [Mr O’Reilly]4841-mr o’reilly , [a callow critic who united æstheticism with frivolity]4842-a callow critic who united æstheticism with frivolity , bowed , and cast curious glances at [Anne]171-anne . For a moment [she]171-anne felt horribly ungrateful about the dress . [She]171-anne was sure that [little O’Reilly]295-o’reilly was thinking that it was a night‐gown . “[1789-you] Who ’s the lion to‐night ? ” asked [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer . [Mr O’Reilly]4843-mr o’reilly fixed [his]4843-mr o’reilly eyes on [Anne]171-anne , and answered languidly , with a faint smile — “[288-mrs spencer] Why , how can [you]1789-you ask , [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ? Have [we]1791-we not all been invited expressly to meet [Monsieur Gosselin]291-gosselin and [[his]291-gosselin charming friends]1792-his charming friends , [the ladies from the French comedy]1793-the ladies from the french comedy ? [No one]3899-no one comes to see lions or lionesses [here]3884-here , it is much too intellectual for that . ” “[3899-no one] Do tell [me]0-i who is the lion of to‐night , ” asked [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , laughing . “[3899-no one] Have n’t [I]0-i told [you]1789-you that there never are lions [here]3884-here ? only [an occasional man of genius]1797-an occasional man of genius , shipped over fresh , between petroleum tins and sewing‐machines , from [America]7-america , may stray in in top‐boots and a red flannel shirt — or it so happens that [a beautiful woman]1798-a beautiful woman is first noticed [here]3884-here — or [Victor Hugo]296-victor hugo walks in quite casually to tea — or the ghost of [Byron]276-byron mistakes this for [Westminster Abbey]87-westminster abbey . Oh , [no lions]1800-no lions , never . Besides , here is [Monsieur Gosselin]291-gosselin , and here is [Mademoiselle Meringue]297-mademoiselle meringue and [Madame Gauffre]298-madame gauffre just come in . [You]1789-you see , [Miss Brown]171-anne , how perfectly true it is that [we]1801-we are to meet [them]1802-them . [They]1802-them are taking [their]1802-them place behind the piano . Yes , that is [Madame Gauffre]298-madame gauffre with the diamond butterfly . [You]1789-you perceive how [we]1801-we are to have the pleasure of making [their]1802-them acquaintance . Do [you]1789-you remark the vacant space round [the piano]1803-the piano ? [Miss Euphrosyne Argiropoulo]299-miss euphrosyne argiropoulo and [[her]299-miss euphrosyne argiropoulo sister]603-her sister are alone privileged to enter [it]1803-the piano , and [the waiters]1805-the waiters also , to talk to [Monsieur Gosselin]291-gosselin and [[his]291-gosselin fair comrades]1806-his fair comrades , and offer [them]1802-them refreshments . It is what [I]0-i call a moral cordon sanitaire , separating [these artistes]1807-these artistes from [the highly respectable company]1808-the highly respectable company all round . ” “[1802-them] How horrible ! ” said [Anne]171-anne ; “[1802-them] and do [they]1802-them pay [them]1802-them to be insulted like that ? ” “[1802-them] Pay [them]1802-them ? oh , never . [The Argiropoulos]300-the argiropoulos are far too delicate for that . [Monsieur Gosselin]291-gosselin and [mesdames of the comedy]1809-mesdames of the comedy are [intimate friends of [the house]509-the house]1810-intimate friends of the house : [they]1810-intimate friends of the house have been dining [here]3884-here , and [they]1810-intimate friends of the house are so kind as to recite a piece or two to [[Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s guests]1813-mrs argiropoulo ’s guests . Let [me]0-i see — what ’s [he]291-gosselin going to recite — ah—‘Un Beignet . ’ That will be delicious . ” [Gosselin]291-gosselin had come forward , [his]291-gosselin opera‐hat in [his]291-gosselin hand , and begun to recite . It was a very delightful performance , and [Anne]171-anne enjoyed it greatly . Besides , it was a great relief to find that this entertainment was a performance , and not as [she]171-anne had dreaded , a series of introductions and conversations with [celebrities]1746-celebrities . There was a dead silence during [Gosselin]291-gosselin ’s recitation , except near the door , where [people]577-people kept pressing in and out . When [he]291-gosselin had ceased , [Anne]171-anne looked round . [She]171-anne was surprised at the aspect of [many of [the company]1514-the company]4846-many of the company . [They]4846-many of the company had evidently not been listening at all , but looking about , straining to see [some one in the front rows]4848-some one in the front rows . In a minute the little gangway leading to the piano was crowded . [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite , whom [she]171-anne had met several times before , was elbowing [[his]256-posthlethwaite unwieldy person]4849-his unwieldy person — a Japanese lily bobbing out of the button‐hole of [his]256-posthlethwaite ancestral dress‐coat — towards [her]171-anne . [He]256-posthlethwaite had scarcely begun a description of a picture which [he]256-posthlethwaite had just seen , representing “[301-aphrodite] [Aphrodite]301-aphrodite tripping with pink little feet across [the dimpled sea sands]1814-the dimpled sea sands , ” when [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo came up with [several gentlemen about [her]261-mrs argiropoulo , whom [she]261-mrs argiropoulo began rapidly to introduce to [Anne]171-anne]4850-several gentlemen about her , whom she began rapidly to introduce to anne : two of [them]4850-several gentlemen about her , whom she began rapidly to introduce to anne were [famous painters]4851-famous painters ; [one a well‐known sculptor]4852-one a well‐known sculptor ; another was [an aristocratic drawing‐room novelist]4853-an aristocratic drawing‐room novelist ; [the fifth a man of fashion]4854-the fifth a man of fashion . [They]4850-several gentlemen about her , whom she began rapidly to introduce to anne all stood in the gangway around [Anne]171-anne ’s chair , while [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite , who was [not the person to be ousted]4855-not the person to be ousted , propped [his]256-posthlethwaite elephantine person against the end of the piano , and leaning down [his]256-posthlethwaite flabby flat‐cheeked face and mop of tow , continued conversing with [Miss Brown]171-anne , regardless of [the new‐comers]4856-the new‐comers , who exchanged smiles as [they]4856-the new‐comers listened to [him]256-posthlethwaite with much more amused attention than [they]4856-the new‐comers had listened to [Gosselin]291-gosselin . [Anne]171-anne was very bewildered ; and as [she]171-anne answered the remarks of [the party surrounding [her]171-anne]4857-the party surrounding her , [she]171-anne became aware that [the people behind]4858-the people behind were all looking in [her]171-anne direction — looking , doubtless , at [Gosselin]291-gosselin and [[his]291-gosselin ladies]4859-his ladies behind the piano , or at [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite . For a moment [Anne]171-anne turned round , wondering whether [she]171-anne should see [Hamlin]145-hamlin . But instead of [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [her]171-anne eyes met a face as familiar as [his]145-hamlin — a dark , rather snub face , with bushy black beard and hair , which emerged high above the heads of a knot of [literary and political celebrities]4860-literary and political celebrities . [She]171-anne started imperceptibly , but turned away , and looked towards the piano , where [Madame Gauffre]298-madame gauffre had begun to recite , [her]298-madame gauffre plump little black figure standing out against the moonlight flooding through the window , in strange contrast to the yellow light of [the room]574-the room , in which dimly loomed the tops of trees and [the towers of [Westminster]88-westminster]4862-the towers of westminster . Could it be [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Dick]229-dick ? [Anne]171-anne rarely mistook [people]577-people ’s faces , and least of all was it possible for [her]171-anne to mistake [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s , though [she]171-anne had not seen [him]223-richard brown since that morning in [Florence]6-florence . But what should [Richard]223-richard brown be doing [here]3884-here , in this fashionable party ? It was evidently a mere accidental resemblance , but it brought up a painful train of thought . [Anne]171-anne had once or twice written to [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin and guardian from [school]1094-school , in a formal cold way , and [he]223-richard brown had let [her]171-anne know that [he]223-richard brown had become [a partner in [the military foundry]4869-the military foundry]4868-a partner in the military foundry , and had changed [his]223-richard brown address . [She]171-anne had got a vague idea that [he]223-richard brown was now rich . But [she]171-anne had not yet let [him]223-richard brown know of [her]171-anne arrival in [England]37-england , and [she]171-anne felt ungrateful and rather ashamed , for , after all , [he]223-richard brown had always wished [her]171-anne well , and had been [her]171-anne playfellow . If [he]223-richard brown should have thought that [she]171-anne was ashamed of [him]223-richard brown ? Heaven knows that was not [her]171-anne feeling , but [she]171-anne felt against [Richard Brown]223-richard brown a vague , instinctive aversion , as to something insulting and degrading to [herself]171-anne . [She]171-anne determined , however , to write to [him]223-richard brown the very next day . With a shrill exclamation and a pert curtsy , [Madame Gauffre]298-madame gauffre , who was reciting the part of [a schoolgirl of fifteen]4870-a schoolgirl of fifteen , suddenly came to an end . “[301-aphrodite] How do [you]1815-you do , [Annie]171-anne ? ” said a voice behind [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne turned round . It was [Richard Brown]223-richard brown . “[1815-you] [I]0-i saw [you]1815-you as soon as [I]0-i came in , ” [he]223-richard brown said , calmly pushing aside [the astonished Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite , “[1815-you] but [I]0-i have only now been able to make [my]0-i way here . How do [you]1815-you like [Madame Gauffre]298-madame gauffre ? do n’t [you]1815-you think [she]298-madame gauffre ’s delightful ? or rather , [I]0-i ought to ask , how do [you]1815-you like [London]4-london ? ” The voice was always that same deep one , which , when lowered to a whisper , had something curiously hot and passionate about it ; but the accent and the easy worldly manner seemed as if they could not belong to [Richard Brown]223-richard brown . “[1815-you] Who [the deuce]4325-the deuce is [that fellow]1817-that fellow ? ” asked [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite angrily of [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer . “[4325-the deuce] [I]0-i do n’t know — [I’ve]0-i never seen [him]1817-that fellow . Do [you]1815-you know , [Mr O’Reilly]1818-mr o’reilly , who [that big black man]1819-that big black man is , that has just come up to [Miss Brown]171-anne . Not one of [our]1820-our set , that ’s certain . ” “[1815-you] Oh Lord , no ! ” answered [the little journalist]4871-the little journalist . “[1815-you] [You]1815-you do n’t read newspapers in [your]1815-you set , do [you]1815-you ? ” “[1815-you] [We]1820-our always read the ‘ Athenæum , ’ ” answered [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , seriously . “[1820-our] Newspapers are Cimmerian inventions , ” said [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite . “[0-i] [I]0-i ’m [a republican , red , incarnadine]1821-a republican , red , incarnadine , a démocrate for [Robespierre]302-robespierre ; but [I]0-i never take up a paper , except to see which of [[my]0-i friends]1822-my friends have left [town]821-town . ” [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly laughed . “[0-i] Oh , well , [you]1815-you wo n’t find Education [Brown]171-anne in the ‘ Athenæum , ’ [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer — [a mere barbarian , Goth , Philistine]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine , but well known in [Philistia]89-philistia . [He]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ’s [a tremendous Radical]1825-a tremendous radical , goes in for disestablishment , secular teaching ; [an awful fellow]1826-an awful fellow for obligatory education and [paupers]1827-paupers ; [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ’ll be in Parliament some day soon , for [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ’s backed by all the black trade . ” “[1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine] Surely it is very easy to feed [paupers]1827-paupers , as [people]577-people used to , do n’t [you]1815-you know , in [Chaucer]90-chaucer ? ” said [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , simply and seriously . [Young O’Reilly]303-young o’reilly went into an inaudible but convulsive giggle . “[1815-you] Anyhow , that ’s Brown—‘Peace by [Expensive Warfare Brown]304-expensive warfare brown ’ [we]1830-we call [him]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine . Look at [him]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ; [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ’s a force in [[his]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine world]1831-his world , as [[your]1815-you father]3947-your father is in [yours]1815-you . ” “[1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine] [I]0-i wish [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ’d keep in [his]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine own coal‐cinders , ” retorted [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite . “[1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine] What business has [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine to talk to — ” “[1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine] By [Jove]305-jove ! ” exclaimed [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly , “[305-jove] it never struck [me,—Anne Brown]304-expensive warfare brown — [Richard Brown,—perhaps]223-richard brown [they]1833-they ’re relations ! ” “[223-richard brown] What do [you]1834-you think of [her]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ? ” whispered [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo to [the little knot of artists whom [she]261-mrs argiropoulo had assembled]4872-the little knot of artists whom she had assembled . [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite , as usual , answered for [the company]1514-the company . “[1834-you] ’ Tis the body of [a goddess]759-a goddess ; [we]1836-we must give it the soul of [a woman]3960-a woman . ” “[759-a goddess] [That ’s Hamlin ’s look‐out]1838-that ’s hamlin ’s look‐out , ” answered [Paints]306-paints , the R.A. “[1838-that ’s hamlin ’s look‐out] Why , what ’s become of [him]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ? ” [they]1836-we all asked . “[1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine] Surely [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine was to be here . ” “[1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine] Oh , be sure [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine ’s lurking around here , ” answered [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly ; “[1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine] of course [he]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine keeps in the background — enjoys [his]1824-a mere barbarian , goth , philistine triumph from afar . [You]1839-you do n’t sit in front of [your]1839-you own picture on the first Academy day , do [you]1839-you , Paints ? ” “[1839-you] [Mr Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite , will [you]256-posthlethwaite take [Miss Brown]171-anne in to supper ? ” cried [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo , who was working up and down [the crowd]864-the crowd . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had already given [Anne]171-anne [his]223-richard brown arm . “[256-posthlethwaite] That ca n’t be , ” cried [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo . “[256-posthlethwaite] [Mr Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite must take [you]256-posthlethwaite in , [dear]4117-dear . [Dear Mr Brown]223-richard brown , will [you]256-posthlethwaite take in [[my]0-i daughter]1841-my daughter ? ” “[256-posthlethwaite] Good‐bye , [Annie]171-anne , ” whispered [Richard Brown]223-richard brown . “[171-anne] [I]0-i will come and see [you]171-anne to‐morrow . ” And [he]223-richard brown let [[his]223-richard brown cousin]1267-his cousin be borne away in triumph by [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite . “[256-posthlethwaite] Of course , [Mr Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite must take in [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” explained [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo to [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ; “[256-posthlethwaite] [he]256-posthlethwaite ’s [the most conspicuous man]1842-the most conspicuous man , after all ; and , as it were , it stamps [her]171-anne at once . By the way , two R.A. ’s , [Paints]306-paints and [Smeers]307-smeers , have already said that [they]1843-they would like to paint [her]171-anne . ” “[1843-they] [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin will never let [her]171-anne be painted by [an R.A.]1844-an r.a. , ” answered [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , fiercely ; “[145-hamlin] and [Annie]171-anne has far too much artistic feeling to endure such a thing . Why , [Mr Bones]308-mr bones has been drawing [her]171-anne for the last week , and papa made a crayon of [her]171-anne . ” As [Anne]171-anne passed through [the crowd]864-the crowd on [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite ’s arm [every one]4712-every one turned to look at [her]171-anne . And then it suddenly flashed upon [her]171-anne that [she]171-anne was [the person people]4878-the person people had been staring at , [she]171-anne was [the lion of the evening]4879-the lion of the evening — [she]171-anne , [the servant whom [the great poet‐painter]4881-the great poet‐painter had adopted]4880-the servant whom the great poet‐painter had adopted . [Every one]4712-every one was looking at [her]171-anne ; [she]171-anne felt horribly alone , numb , unreal . At that moment [Hamlin]145-hamlin came up . “[308-mr bones] Have [you]171-anne amused [yourself]171-anne ? ” [he]145-hamlin asked . “[171-anne] Why , what ’s the matter ? do [you]171-anne feel ill ? ” “[308-mr bones] Only very tired . Oh , why did n’t [you]171-anne turn up before ? ” [Anne]171-anne ’s voice was so wretched and supplicating that [Hamlin]145-hamlin felt quite terrified . “[171-anne] Where ’s [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ? ” [he]145-hamlin asked . “[288-mrs spencer] It must be [that hot room]1845-that hot room . [Edith]286-edith , do take [Miss Brown]171-anne [home]4170-home , [she]171-anne looks so awfully tired . ” “[286-edith] Permit [me]0-i to take [you]171-anne down‐stairs , ” said the mellifluous fat voice of [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite . “[0-i] [I]0-i will take [Miss Brown]171-anne down [myself]0-i , if [you]171-anne please , [Posthlethwaite]256-posthlethwaite ; ” and [Hamlin]145-hamlin pushed [the prince of æsthetes]4883-the prince of æsthetes roughly aside . “[171-anne] Why did [you]171-anne not show [yourself]171-anne the whole evening ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne feebly , while [he]145-hamlin was helping [her]171-anne on with [her]171-anne cloak . “[171-anne] Why — because — [I]0-i thought [I]0-i had no right to monopolise [you]171-anne always , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin in a whisper . When [the two women]4884-the two women were alone in the brougham , [Anne]171-anne could stand it no longer ; and leaning [her]171-anne head in the corner , [she]171-anne began to cry . “[0-i] Why , what ’s the matter , [Annie]171-anne ? ” cried [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , drawing [her]171-anne close to [her]171-anne . “[171-anne] What ’s the matter , [[my]0-i dear girl]1771-my dear girl ? ” “[171-anne] Nothing — nothing , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , wiping [her]171-anne eyes . “[171-anne] [I]0-i suppose it is because [I]0-i am so worn‐out — so — ” “[0-i] It ’s that vile , ostentatious party , ” replied [the little woman]4885-the little woman , half in consolation , half in pride—“mere[171-anne] stupid crushes — no real society , as [we]1848-we have it . And [I]0-i do think it is so disgusting of [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo to make [all the people]1849-all the people stare at [you]1850-you as if [you]1850-you were [a burlesque actress]1851-a burlesque actress . Oh , [I]0-i know that set of lion‐hunting , purse‐proud , would‐be [artistic people]1852-artistic people . [They]1853-they would have [your]1850-you photograph in all the shop‐windows at once , and [Royal Highnesses]1854-royal highnesses to meet [you]1850-you . [Papa]185-papa and [I]0-i always wonder that [Walter]145-hamlin has n’t cut all those horrid sycophants before . [You]1850-you know that it ’s [only [artists]1500-artists and [poets of [our]1848-we school]1857-poets of our school who will ever appreciate [you]1850-you really , although [the others]881-the others would hawk [you]1850-you about as a sort of professional beauty]1855-only artists and poets of our school who will ever appreciate you really , although the others would hawk you about as a sort of professional beauty . ” THE sudden discovery that [she]0-i was the standard beauty of [the most prominent artistic set]4886-the most prominent artistic set , and accepted as such by [the rest of society]4887-the rest of society , would have greatly disturbed almost [any woman]1339-any woman . But [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s nature was too completely homogeneous — too completely without the innumerable strata , and abysses , and peaks , and winding ways of [[modern women]4889-modern women ’s characters]4890-modern women ’s characters — for [her]171-anne to experience any of the mixed feelings of pride , and disgust , and humiliation , and general uncomfortablehess which would have been the lot of a more complex nature . The atoms of [her]171-anne character were not easily shaken into new patterns : it was coherent , and , like most coherent things , difficult to upset , slow to move , and quick to settle down . After the first shock of surprise , [she]171-anne resigned [herself]171-anne , without doubts , or diffidence , or elation , to [her]171-anne new place . That [she]171-anne was more beautiful than [other women]1523-other women had indeed never occurred to [her]171-anne before ; but once that it had been proved to [her]171-anne [she]171-anne accepted it as a fact , as [she]171-anne had accepted as a fact the still stranger news that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had singled [her]171-anne out to change [her]171-anne life and love [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne did not take it at all as a merit or any other exciting thing in [herself]171-anne : the only effect which it had upon [her]171-anne was to strengthen a curious feeling , constitutional in [her]171-anne , and resulting probably from the very coherence and weightiness of [her]171-anne character , that [she]171-anne was fated to be or do something different from [other women]1523-other women — a sort of sense of tragic passiveness , which always formed the background of [her]171-anne happiness . Moreover , the discovery which [she]171-anne had made at [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s somehow made [Anne]171-anne ’s position more intelligible and simple to [herself]171-anne . [She]171-anne had heard of [other men who had educated and married [girls of the lower orders]4894-girls of the lower orders on account of [their]4894-girls of the lower orders beauty]4893-other men who had educated and married girls of the lower orders on account of their beauty . [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s behaviour was now no longer a mystery to [her]171-anne ; and the absence of mystery served merely , to [Anne]171-anne ’s quite unromantic , practically passionate , half‐southern temper , to make [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s nobleness and goodness more obvious to [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne had the curious Italian capacity for feeling an ideal passion — a passion which was merely a sublimated form of friendship and admiration — for a real personality ; and [her]171-anne instinctive desire was merely to get nearer that real personality . But much as [she]171-anne tried , the reality of [Hamlin]145-hamlin seemed to escape and baffle [her]171-anne : [he]145-hamlin was [a complex man]4895-a complex man , and [she]171-anne [a homogeneous woman]4896-a homogeneous woman ; and as [she]171-anne could not see [Hamlin]145-hamlin well in detail , [she]171-anne loved [him]145-hamlin in the very simple and broad outlines which [she]171-anne was able to comprehend . Now that [she]171-anne had settled down in æsthetic society , and found [her]171-anne place , and got to understand the main points of things , [she]171-anne was quite ideally happy . [Her]171-anne life was very full , and was surrounded by a flood of love,—on [her]171-anne side or on [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s ? [She]171-anne scarcely knew ; but [she]171-anne knew that [she]171-anne was happy . By this time the round of sight‐seeing , play‐going , excursions , and introductions , was over ; [her]171-anne life had subsided into the normal . Its object , [she]171-anne felt , as [one]620-one feels a wholesome and agreeable desire for food or sleep , was to make [herself]171-anne as worthy as possible of [Hamlin]145-hamlin , or rather to let [him]145-hamlin find in [her]171-anne the best possible bargain . [She]171-anne worked very hard at all the things which [the school]1304-the school had left incomplete,—at what , living in [that æsthetic society]4899-that æsthetic society , seemed to [her]171-anne the solid requisites of life . [She]171-anne read history and biography and poetry , with the determination with which [other girls]4900-other girls , anticipating marriage , might study manuals of domestic economy ; and [she]171-anne worked at developing [her]171-anne taste in art and music as [others]4163-others might have practised cooking or dressmaking ; for these were the things which would be requisite in [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s spiritual household]4902-hamlin ’s spiritual household . [The people around [her]171-anne]4903-the people around her , [the men and women of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s set]4904-the men and women of hamlin ’s set , seemed to [her]171-anne as necessary , as inevitable , as normal as the trees and [houses]750-houses all round . Some of [them]4903-the people around her [she]171-anne liked , and some [she]171-anne disliked ; but [their]4903-the people around her ideas , though sometimes absurd caricatures , and [their]4903-the people around her tempers , though often intolerable , seemed to [Anne]171-anne quite natural and proper in the main , though rendered ridiculous or disagreeable in [individuals]4906-individuals . Indeed [she]171-anne got rather to believe in [imperfect individuals,—being]4907-imperfect individuals,—being thus constantly either made cross by the touchiness , the morbidness , the disgusting fleshliness , the intolerance of [the æsthetes around [her]171-anne]4908-the æsthetes around her , or made to laugh by [their]4903-the people around her affectations , [their]4903-the people around her vanity , [their]4903-the people around her inconsistency , [their]4903-the people around her grotesque manias of wickedness and mysticism — while unable to judge or condemn the general , intellectual , and moral condition of which these individual excrescences were the result . [Some of [the people]871-the people]4909-some of the people were distinctly repulsive , or distinctly boring , or distinctly annoying to [her]171-anne ; others , like [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer and [[her]288-mrs spencer father]4143-her father and [mother]4664-mother and [sisters]999-sisters , decidedly lovable ; others , like [little Chough]248-chough , decidedly amusing and amiable : and [she]171-anne took [them]4903-the people around her as [they]4903-the people around her came , but with the indifference of concentrated feeling ; for what did it matter whether [she]171-anne cared for [them]4903-the people around her , or [they]4903-the people around her cared for [her]171-anne , as long as [she]171-anne was doing [her]171-anne best to deserve [Hamlin]145-hamlin ? Meanwhile [Anne Brown]171-anne read quantities of medieval and Elizabethan literature ; went with [Hamlin]145-hamlin to see pictures and hear music ; studied [Dante]180-dante and [Shakespeare]309-shakespeare — the algebra and arithmetic , so to speak , of the æsthetic set — and even began , secretly , to work at a Greek grammar . Twice a‐week [Cosmo Chough]248-chough came to practise [her]248-chough accompaniments with [her]171-anne ; and twice a‐week also , of an evening , [friends]4095-friends dropped in at [the house at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith]4915-the house at hammersmith , when [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor would leave [[her]243-mrs macgregor nephew]4784-her nephew and niece , as [she]243-mrs macgregor called [her]243-mrs macgregor , to entertain [the guests]4917-the guests . On other evenings [Anne]171-anne would usually go to [the house of one of the set]4918-the house of one of the set , where literature and art , and the faults of [friends , and the wrong‐headedness of the public]4919-friends , and the wrong‐headedness of the public , were largely discussed ; music was made , [young long‐haired Germans on the loose performing]4920-young long‐haired germans on the loose performing ; and [poets]1628-poets , especially [the inexhaustible Chough]4922-the inexhaustible chough , would recite [their]1628-poets compositions , perched on the arms of sofas , or stretched on the hearth‐rug ; while [the ladies]4923-the ladies went to sleep , or pretended to do so , over the descriptions of the kisses of [cruel , blossom‐mouthed women , who sucked out [[their]4924-cruel , blossom‐mouthed women , who sucked out their lovers ’ hearts , bit their lips , and strewed their apartments with coral‐like drops of blood lovers]4925-their lovers ’ hearts , bit [their]4924-cruel , blossom‐mouthed women , who sucked out their lovers ’ hearts , bit their lips , and strewed their apartments with coral‐like drops of blood lips , and strewed [their]4924-cruel , blossom‐mouthed women , who sucked out their lovers ’ hearts , bit their lips , and strewed their apartments with coral‐like drops of blood apartments with coral‐like drops of blood]4924-cruel , blossom‐mouthed women , who sucked out their lovers ’ hearts , bit their lips , and strewed their apartments with coral‐like drops of blood . [Most of these poets]4926-most of these poets , as [Anne]171-anne speedily discovered , were [young men of harmless lives]4927-young men of harmless lives , and altogether unacquainted with [the beautiful , baleful ladies [they]4926-most of these poets represented as sucking at [their]4924-cruel , blossom‐mouthed women , who sucked out their lovers ’ hearts , bit their lips , and strewed their apartments with coral‐like drops of blood vitals]4928-the beautiful , baleful ladies they represented as sucking at their vitals ; and [none]4929-none was more utterly harmless than [Cosmo Chough]248-chough . Instead of [the terrible Faustinas]310-the terrible faustinas , [Messalinas]311-messalinas , and [Lucretia Borgias]312-lucretia borgias to whom [his]4922-the inexhaustible chough poems were addressed , [the poor little man]4930-the poor little man had in [his]4922-the inexhaustible chough miserable home in [the north of [London]4-london [a wife]4932-a wife older than [himself]4922-the inexhaustible chough , often bedridden and always half crazy , who turned [the house]509-the house in a sort of disorderly litter , neglected [[her]4932-a wife children]746-her children]4931-the north of london a wife older than himself , often bedridden and always half crazy , who turned the house in a sort of disorderly litter , neglected her children , and vented on [[her]4932-a wife husband]693-her husband the most jealous and perverse temper ; but [the victim of [Venus]209-venus victrix]4936-the victim of venus , as [he]4922-the inexhaustible chough styled [himself]4922-the inexhaustible chough , nursed [her]4932-a wife with absolute devotion , denied [himself]4922-the inexhaustible chough every gratification to allow [her]4932-a wife [a servant]4125-a servant and send [[his]4922-the inexhaustible chough children]4938-his children to [school]1094-school , and made [all new‐comers]4940-all new‐comers believe that [Mrs Cosmo Chough]248-chough was [the most angelic invalid that [the world]496-the world had ever seen]4941-the most angelic invalid that the world had ever seen . [People in the set]4943-people in the set had got accustomed to this fact , and treated [Chough]248-chough merely as an amusing little caricature of genius ; but when [Anne]171-anne understood the real state of the case , [she]171-anne was deeply touched , and possessed with a violent desire to help [the little man]4944-the little man . [He]4944-the little man could not , indeed , restrain [his]4944-the little man habit of alluding in pompous language to [Phryne]314-phryne , Pasiphaë , La Belle Heaulmière , [Madame du Barry]315-madame du barry , and all the most celebrated improprieties of all times and nations ; nor from discussing the most striking literary obscenities , from [Petronius]316-petronius to [Walt Whitman]317-walt whitman . But although at first surprised ( as [every one]4712-every one was surprised and indeed shocked ) by [Anne]171-anne ’s unblushing and quietly [resolute—“I]4946-resolute—“i[318-mr chough”—he] think [you]1859-you had better leave that subject alone , [Mr Chough”—he]318-mr chough”—he became quite devoted to [Anne]171-anne . When [he]4944-the little man gave a set of lectures , in [[Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ’s house]4947-mrs spencer ’s house , on what was nominally Elizabethan drama , but virtually the unmentionable play of [Ford]319-ford , and [the ladies]4923-the ladies dropped off one by one and merely laughed at [poor Cosmo]248-chough ’s eccentricities , [Anne]171-anne had the courage to sit out the performance , and to tell [Chough]248-chough openly that [he]4944-the little man ought to be ashamed of [himself]4944-the little man for holding forth on such subjects — a proceeding which made [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s friends]4949-hamlin ’s friends blame [Miss Brown]171-anne for want of womanly feeling and prudishness alike ; and which put [Hamlin]145-hamlin just a little out of temper , until [she]171-anne answered [his]4944-the little man unspoken censure by remarking , with a sort of Italian bluntness and seriousness , that [a woman of [her]171-anne age]4950-a woman of her age had no business not to understand the real meaning of such things , and understanding them , not to let [the poets]1623-the poets know that [she]171-anne would not tolerate [them]1861-they . “[1860-you] [You]1860-you see , it enters into [their]1861-they artistic effects , ” explained [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t like such things personally , but of course everything is legitimate in art . ” “[1861-they] [They]1861-they may be legitimate in art , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , sceptically , “[1861-they] but [they]1861-they sha n’t be legitimate in [my]0-i presence . ” To return to [Chough]248-chough . [Anne]171-anne gradually became the confidant of the domestic difficulties , though not of the domestic shame , of [the little poet]4698-the little poet ; and to [every one]4712-every one ’s great astonishment , [she]171-anne obtained [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s permission to have [one of [[Chough]248-chough ’s little girls]4955-chough ’s little girls at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith]4954-one of chough ’s little girls at hammersmith every Saturday till Monday , and tried to instil into [the miserable puny imps]4956-the miserable puny imps some notion of how to behave and how to amuse [themselves]4956-the miserable puny imps . “[1860-you] [You]1860-you are not going to take [that child]4205-that child out in [the carriage]810-the carriage with [you]1860-you , surely ? ” asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , the first Sunday that [Maggy Chough]320-chough spent at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith . “[0-i] Of course [I]0-i am , ” answered [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [She]4205-that child ’s [the daughter of [[your]1860-you most intimate friend]1865-your most intimate friend]1864-the daughter of your most intimate friend ; surely [you]1860-you ca n’t grudge [the poor little thing]1866-the poor little thing some amusement . And [I]0-i want [you]1860-you to go with [us]1867-us to [the Zoo]1868-the zoo , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . [I]0-i ’m sure it ’s much more fascinating than [the Grosvenor]1869-the grosvenor or [the Elgin rooms]1870-the elgin rooms . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin smiled ; and next day made a crayon drawing of [Anne]171-anne , [one of the dozens in [[his]145-hamlin studio]1124-his studio]4957-one of the dozens in his studio , with [[Chough]320-chough ’s child]4959-chough ’s child ; but [he]145-hamlin managed to make [Anne]171-anne look mournfully mysterious , and [the child]660-the child haggard and wild , so that [people]577-people thought it represented [Medea]321-medea and one of [the children of [Jason]322-jason]4962-the children of jason . So far [Anne]171-anne ’s acquaintance were entirely limited to the æsthetic set ; but there were two exceptions . One was [a couple of sisters]4963-a couple of sisters , [Mary]323-mary and [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , who existed as it were on [the borderland]4964-the borderland — [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh being [a sort of amateur painter with strong literary proclivities]4965-a sort of amateur painter with strong literary proclivities ; the other was [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , who , after the meeting at [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s , called at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith , was politely received by [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with whom [he]145-hamlin appeared quite reconciled , and talked on a variety of indifferent subjects , as if [Anne Brown]171-anne had never been [[his]145-hamlin ward]1230-his ward . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had apparently never appeared to [him]223-richard brown in the light of [a slave‐buyer]4967-a slave‐buyer and [seducer]4968-seducer , and [all parties]1222-all parties had apparently never been in any save [their]1222-all parties present position . [Anne]171-anne asked [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin to one or two of [their]1222-all parties evenings : [he]1871-he came , seemed to know [one or two people]4971-one or two people slightly , and although professing profound ignorance of art , managed to interest [one or two of [the æsthetic brotherhood]4973-the æsthetic brotherhood]4972-one or two of the æsthetic brotherhood by developing [his]1871-he views on the necessity of extending artistic training to [the lower classes]4974-the lower classes . “[1871-he] [He]1871-he is n’t at all [a stupid man]1872-a stupid man , [that cousin of yours]1873-that cousin of yours , ” remarked [little Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ; “[1872-a stupid man] and [I]0-i do think [he]1871-he is so right in wishing to give [poor people]1874-poor people a taste of beauty . ” “[1871-he] [I]0-i ’m sure [we]1875-we are [most of [us]1875-we [poor people]1874-poor people]1876-most of us poor people , and do n’t always get a taste of anything else , [Edith]286-edith , ” cried [[her]286-edith father]4143-her father , [the veteran painter in tempera]4976-the veteran painter in tempera , who was [a fearful punster]4977-a fearful punster . “[286-edith] Oh papa , [you]0-i know what [I]0-i mean ; and [I]0-i ’m sure art will gain ever so much . It ’s only what [Mr Ruskin]325-mr ruskin has said over and over again , and [Mr Morris]326-morris is always talking about . ” “[326-morris] [Any one]4101-any one is free to give [the lower classes]4974-the lower classes that taste of beauty , as long as [I]0-i am not required to see or speak to [the noble workmen]1880-the noble workmen , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[0-i] [I]0-i hate all that democratic bosh . ” “[178-watty] Oh , [I]0-i know , [Watty]178-watty ; [[your]0-i ancestors]1881-your ancestors kept negroes , and [you]0-i would like to have [negroes]1882-negroes [yourself]0-i , ” said [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , hotly . “[0-i] Heaven forbid ! [I]0-i only ask to be left alone , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear [Edith]286-edith , especially by [reformers]1884-reformers . ” At any rate , [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was permitted to show [himself]223-richard brown sometimes in æsthetic company . But [Richard Brown]223-richard brown did not avail [himself]223-richard brown much of the condescending permission to improve [his]223-richard brown mind ; and neither at [[her]286-edith own house]4978-her own house ( for [people]577-people always spoke of [[Miss Brown]171-anne ’s house]4980-miss brown ’s house now ) nor at the houses of [any of [[her]286-edith friends]1459-her friends]4981-any of her friends would [Anne]171-anne have had much opportunity of seeing [[her]286-edith cousin]1291-her cousin , had [he]223-richard brown not , by a curious chance , been [a frequent visitor at [the house of [the Leigh girls]4986-the leigh girls]4985-the house of the leigh girls]4984-a frequent visitor at the house of the leigh girls . [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh was , as already said , [a demi‐semi‐æsthete]4987-a demi‐semi‐æsthete ; [she]324-mary leigh had studied art in an irregular , Irish sort of way , and [she]324-mary leigh had a literary , romantic kind of imagination , which fitted [her]324-mary leigh rather for [an illustrator]4988-an illustrator than [a painter]500-a painter . [She]324-mary leigh felt the incompleteness of [her]324-mary leigh own endowment , in a gentle , half‐humorous , half‐sad way ; and the incompleteness of [her]324-mary leigh own life — for [her]324-mary leigh ideal of happiness was to travel about , to live in [Italy]1-italy , and this [she]324-mary leigh had cheerfully sacrificed to please [[her]324-mary leigh sister]603-her sister , whose only interests in life were school boards , and depauperisation , and ( it must be admitted ) a mild amount of flirtation with [young men of scientific and humanitarian tendencies]4991-young men of scientific and humanitarian tendencies . Between [the sisters]4992-the sisters there was perfect love , but not perfect understanding ; and [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , who felt a little lonely , a little shut into [herself]324-mary leigh by [[her]324-mary leigh younger sister]4993-her younger sister , who was at once [a philosopher]4994-a philosopher and [a baby in [her]324-mary leigh eyes]4995-a baby in her eyes , vented [her]324-mary leigh imaginative and artistic cravings in a passionate admiration for [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s strange and beautiful ward or fiancée , a kind of intellectual fervour which [Anne]171-anne was as remarkable for inspiring as [she]324-mary leigh seemed unable to inspire either ordinary liking or ordinary love : and as [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh likewise adored [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin in return thought [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh [a nice sort of girl]4996-a nice sort of girl , [Anne Brown]171-anne did what visiting and sight‐seeing and shopping was left to [her]171-anne almost always in [[Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh ’s company]4997-mary leigh ’s company . Now , if [Anne]171-anne was [the idol of [the æsthetic Mary]4999-the æsthetic mary]4998-the idol of the æsthetic mary , [the humanitarian and practical younger sister]5000-the humanitarian and practical younger sister , who , with the cut‐and‐dry decision of [a philosopher of twenty‐two]5001-a philosopher of twenty‐two , looked upon æsthetics and æsthetes as somewhat pestilent in nature , had [[her]324-mary leigh idol]5002-her idol also in [a very different person]5003-a very different person , and this was no other than [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , to be whose lieutenant in some of [his]223-richard brown philanthropical and educational schemes was [Marjory]249-marjory ’s highest ambition . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had , ever since meeting [[his]223-richard brown cousin]1267-his cousin at [Mrs Argiropoulo ’s]261-mrs argiropoulo in the character of [an artistic beauty]5005-an artistic beauty , made up [his]223-richard brown mind that [Anne]171-anne was no concern of [his]223-richard brown , and was luckily disposed of in the æsthetic set ; and for some time [he]223-richard brown almost took a pleasure in making [her]171-anne understand , whenever [he]223-richard brown met [her]171-anne at [[the Leighs]327-the leighs ’ house in [Chelsea]92-chelsea]5006-the leighs ’ house in chelsea , that [he]223-richard brown did not in the least expect [her]171-anne to take an interest , or pretend to take an interest , in the plans which [he]223-richard brown discussed with [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory . [Anne]171-anne on the other hand , imbued with [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s and [Chough]320-chough ’s theory that all attempts at improving [the world]496-the world result merely in failure , and that the only wise occupation of a noble mind is to make for itself a paradise of beautiful thoughts and forms and emotions , was extremely sceptical of [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin ’s and [Marjory]249-marjory ’s schemes , and once or twice declared [her]171-anne disbelief with perfect openness . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was at first annoyed , then amused , then indignant ; and then , seeing how completely [Anne]171-anne ’s ideas were borrowed from [her]171-anne set , and also how completely unsuitable they were to [her]171-anne downright , serious , and practical nature , [he]223-richard brown determined , not without vanity playing a part as well as conviction , to “[1884-reformers] let a little light , ” as [he]223-richard brown expressed it , into [her]171-anne mind . There had been recently founded , by [some friends of [his]223-richard brown]5009-some friends of his , a kind of club where [girls of the dressmaker ’s apprentice]5010-girls of the dressmaker ’s apprentice and [shopwomen class]5011-shopwomen class might spend [their]5010-girls of the dressmaker ’s apprentice leisure moments in reading and meeting [each other]594-each other ; which club , besides [a library]5013-a library and reading‐room , offered to [[its]5014-its members]5015-its members a certain number of classes or sets of lectures on various subjects , delivered at a nominal price , after work hours . [The lecturers]5016-the lecturers or [teachers]5017-teachers were nearly [all young ladies]5018-all young ladies : [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory had for some time lectured on sanitary arrangements ( this being [her]249-marjory especial hobby ) , and [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh was going to set up a drawing‐class . [Anne Brown]171-anne , practical by nature and æsthetically sceptical by training , had no very great belief in the famous club ; [she]171-anne had been told so often that [mankind]5019-mankind is too stupid and degraded to be helped , that [she]171-anne had almost got to believe it . But [she]171-anne let [herself]171-anne be taken one evening to a lecture , at what [she]171-anne called [[Marjory]249-marjory ’s college]5020-marjory ’s college . The lecture was just beginning as [they]5021-them entered [the little , white‐washed , bare room up innumerable stairs]5022-the little , white‐washed , bare room up innumerable stairs . [Four or five young women , decently dressed]5023-four or five young women , decently dressed , were seated at desks , copy‐books and ink‐stands before [them]5021-them ; and [a beautiful little girl , who had been pointed out to [Anne]171-anne in æsthetic circles as [a rising poetess]5025-a rising poetess]5024-a beautiful little girl , who had been pointed out to anne in æsthetic circles as a rising poetess , was seated opposite [them]5021-them at the end of a table . [The Leighs]327-the leighs and [Anne]171-anne sat down silently near the door , and the lecture began . It was on modern history . [The pupils]5026-the pupils listened with the greatest attention , [their]5026-the pupils pens flying on [their]5026-the pupils copy‐books . [The lecturer]5027-the lecturer , [a small , graceful , extremely frail little creature]5028-a small , graceful , extremely frail little creature , began in a somewhat tremulous voice ; then gradually , as [she]5027-the lecturer got more excited , became more voluble , excited , and absolutely eloquent . “[1884-reformers] [She]1885-she is too delicate for such work , ” whispered [Marjory]249-marjory , “[1885-she] but [she]1885-she will do it . ” [Anne]171-anne listened . But [she]171-anne did not follow [the lecturer]5027-the lecturer ’s argument very closely . [She]1885-she thought what [these girls]1402-these girls were , what the drudgery of [their]1402-these girls work , the temptations of [their]1402-these girls leisure , the hopeless narrowness of [their]1402-these girls horizon ; and [she]1885-she thought also , the thought throbbing on almost like dull pain , what it would have been for [her]1885-she , when [she]1885-she also was alone in [the world]496-the world — when [she]1885-she had drudgery on the one hand and temptation on the other — when [her]1885-she whole nature had been parched and withered for want of a few words that should speak of higher and nobler things,—had [she]1885-she been permitted , once a‐week , to come to such a place , to hear about such subjects , to be spoken to by such [an earnest and enthusiastic and exquisite creature as this]5032-an earnest and enthusiastic and exquisite creature as this . At the end of the lecture [the girls]1418-the girls crowded shyly round [the lecturer]5027-the lecturer , [some]5035-some to beg [her]5027-the lecturer to explain a point , [others]4163-others to ask for books on the subject , all of [them]1418-the girls to thank with pathetic earnestness . Then [they]1418-the girls went away , and [the Leigh girls]4986-the leigh girls came forward to [the lecturer]5027-the lecturer . From where [she]1885-she sat [she]1885-she could not see [the new‐comers]4856-the new‐comers ; and [she]1885-she was astonished , and in a way awe‐stricken , on seeing [Anne Brown]171-anne , the exotic beauty of whom [she]1885-she had heard so much , whose portrait [she]1885-she had seen in so many studios , and to whom [she]1885-she had been introduced almost in fear and trembling , for [Anne]171-anne had a kind of awe‐inspiring fascination for [imaginative people]5040-imaginative people . [Anne]171-anne , on the other hand , was silent and depressed , and [the little poetess]5041-the little poetess must have made up [her]171-anne mind that [this magnificent and sombre creature]5042-this magnificent and sombre creature was as sullen and lethargic and haughty as [one of [[Michelangelo]328-michelangelo ’s goddesses]5044-michelangelo ’s goddesses]5043-one of michelangelo ’s goddesses . But in reality [Miss Brown]171-anne could have laid [her]171-anne head on one of the desks and cried like [a child]623-a child . When , the following day , [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh came to take [her]171-anne out for a walk , [Anne]171-anne looked as if [she]171-anne had received bad news , or as if [she]171-anne had bad news to communicate . [She]0-i answered only in monosyllables ; until , as [they]1886-you were looking in at a shop window , [she]0-i suddenly turned to [[her]0-i companion]5046-her companion . “[1885-she] Do [you]1886-you think , ” [she]0-i said hesitatingly , “[1886-you] that [I]0-i might perhaps — teach something at [[Marjory]249-marjory ’s college]5020-marjory ’s college ? ” “[1886-you] Teach ! ” exclaimed [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh in astonishment ; “[1886-you] [you]1886-you teach ! Why , what would [you]1886-you teach , [Anne]171-anne dear ? ” [Anne]171-anne was silent . [She]171-anne sighed . “[1886-you] That ’s just what [I]0-i have been thinking all the morning — [I]0-i fear — but [you]1886-you see [I]0-i do so want to teach something . [You]1886-you see , [that little poet‐girl]1888-that little poet‐girl gives up [her]1888-that little poet‐girl time to it , and [she]1888-that little poet‐girl was born [a lady]3943-a lady , and does n’t know — can’t know — all the good [she]1888-that little poet‐girl is doing . While [I]0-i — ” [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh squeezed [her]0-i hand . “[0-i] [We]1890-we will ask [[your]1886-you cousin]4341-your cousin , ” [she]324-mary leigh said . “[1890-we] Oh no , not [Dick]229-dick — don’t mention it to [Dick]229-dick , ” answered [Anne]171-anne ; “[229-dick] [he]229-dick is sure to make difficulties and laugh at [me]0-i — [he]229-dick thinks [me]0-i a useless thing . ” “[229-dick] [You]1892-you a useless thing ! ” replied [the enthusiastic Irish girl looking at [[her]5047-the enthusiastic irish girl looking at her companion companion]5046-her companion]5047-the enthusiastic irish girl looking at her companion . “[229-dick] Why , then — then all the Titians in [the gallery]1893-the gallery , and [the Elgin]329-the elgin marbles , and all [Keats]239-keats , and all [Shelley]238-shelley , and [Beethoven]330-beethoven , and [Mozart]331-mozart , must be useless also . ” [Anne]171-anne sighed . “[331-mozart] All those things did n’t make [themselves]1894-themselves , ” [she]171-anne answered . “[331-mozart] It ’s [the artists who were useful]1895-the artists who were useful and whom [we]1896-we have to thank . ” [The other Miss Leigh]332-miss leigh was immensely astonished , and , with [her]332-miss leigh youthful intolerance , rather indignant at [Anne]171-anne ’s suggestion . “[0-i] [I]0-i think , ” said [Anne]171-anne , hesitatingly , “[0-i] that [I]0-i could , with a little work , manage medieval literature — at least medieval lyrics . ” [Marjory]249-marjory shook [her]249-marjory head . “[0-i] There ’s too much of that sort of thing already , ” [she]249-marjory said . “[0-i] [Every one]4712-every one wants to teach literature . Where ’s the use of telling [them]4712-every one about a parcel of Provençal and old French and German and [Italian people]1898-italian people , when [they]4712-every one do n’t yet know the difference between [Voltaire]333-voltaire and [Molière]334-molière , and [Goethe]240-goethe and [Frau von Hillern]335-frau von hillern ? ” “[335-frau von hillern] That ’s true , ” [Anne]171-anne said sadly . [Marjory]249-marjory was rather sorry for [her]249-marjory rough practicalness , but at the same time [she]249-marjory had a blind impulse to harass [an æsthete]1257-an æsthete . “[335-frau von hillern] Political economy is what [we]1899-we want most , ” [she]249-marjory said ; and , as the door opened and [Richard Brown]223-richard brown entered , [she]249-marjory went on — “[335-frau von hillern] Is n’t it true that political economy is what [we]1899-we want most at [the college]1900-the college , [Mr Brown]223-richard brown ? ” “[223-richard brown] Yes , ” answered [Richard]223-richard brown . “[223-richard brown] How are [you]223-richard brown , [Miss Leigh?—how]336-miss leigh?—how are [you]223-richard brown , [Annie]171-anne ? What about it ? ” “[223-richard brown] Oh , only that [[your]223-richard brown cousin]4341-your cousin wants to teach at [the college]1900-the college , and [I]0-i tell [her]4341-your cousin that literature is no use , and that political economy is what [we]1899-we want . ” “[223-richard brown] [You]223-richard brown want to teach , [Annie]171-anne ? ” cried [Brown]171-anne , and [his]229-dick face assumed that look of somewhat brutal contempt hidden under suavity of manner , which [Anne]171-anne hated so much . “[223-richard brown] [You]223-richard brown want to teach ? How dull æsthetic society must be getting , to be sure ! ” “[0-i] [I]0-i am not dull , [Dick]229-dick , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , sternly ; “[229-dick] but it struck [me]0-i that , having been [a poor girl without education]1903-a poor girl without education [myself]0-i — until ” ( and [she]0-i looked [[her]0-i cousin]1291-her cousin reproachfully in the face ) “[145-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin had [me]0-i taught — [I]0-i have an obligation to help [other girls]4900-other girls like what [I]0-i was , greater than the obligation of [people who have always been educated]1905-people who have always been educated . [I]0-i daresay there may be nothing that [I]0-i can teach ; but there is no reason to laugh at [me]0-i . ” “[229-dick] Laugh at [you]229-dick ! ” cried [Brown]171-anne . “[229-dick] Oh , not in the least ! [I]0-i was only smiling at the cool way in which [you]229-dick absolve [those who are born in fortunate circumstances]1906-those who are born in fortunate circumstances from the obligation which [you]229-dick [yourself]229-dick feel . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t think that ’s quite true , [Dick]229-dick , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , simply . “[229-dick] [You]229-dick think it ’s absurd on [my]0-i part , and [I]0-i knew [you]229-dick would , because [you]229-dick think [me]0-i frivolous and artistic . ” “[229-dick] Well , ” said [Brown]171-anne , evidently surprised at [her]0-i manner , and looking searchingly in [her]0-i pale , strange‐featured face , “[229-dick] what do [you]229-dick think [you]229-dick might teach?”—his voice was much gentler . “[229-dick] At present”—Anne ’s voice sank , for [she]0-i felt the uselessness of [her]0-i offer—“I[229-dick] can think only of medieval literature ” ( [Brown]171-anne smiled ) ; “[229-dick] but perhaps , if there were something else , [I]0-i might get it up . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i ’m sure there wo n’t be a vacancy for anything except political economy , ” interrupted [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , impatiently . “[0-i] [I]0-i ’m quite positive , from what [the secretary]1907-the secretary told [me]0-i , all the rest is glutted . ” “[1907-the secretary] [I]0-i fear it is the case , ” mused [Brown]171-anne . “[0-i] There has been a talk of teaching singing,—in which case , perhaps — ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t sing well enough , ” said [Anne]171-anne , haughtily . Why was [she]0-i always having [her]0-i æstheticism thrust in [her]0-i face ? “[0-i] Besides , ” added [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin , “[0-i] it ’s extremely improbable . ” [They]5052-they fell to talking of other things . As [Brown]171-anne was leaving , [Anne]171-anne stopped [him]5053-him . “[0-i] Tell [me]0-i , ” [she]0-i said , “[0-i] what are the best books to begin learning political economy ? ” [Brown]171-anne smiled . “[0-i] Why ? Do [you]0-i want to teach it ? ” “[0-i] Since it is such an important thing , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , gravely , “[0-i] [I]0-i think [I]0-i should like to learn it . ” “[0-i] It ’s not amusing , [Annie]171-anne . ” “[171-anne] It ca n’t be duller than [Minnesingers]337-minnesingers — and nothing is dull when [one]620-one is learning it . Ca n’t [you]0-i tell [me]0-i of some books ? ” [Brown]171-anne looked at [her]171-anne with a puzzled expression . “[0-i] [I]0-i have written a primer of it [myself]0-i , ” [he]5054-he said—“I[0-i] will send it [you]171-anne ; and if [you]171-anne get through that , [you]171-anne will find at the end a list of text‐books , some of which [I]0-i can lend [you]171-anne to take into — ” “[0-i] Thank [you]0-i , [Dick]229-dick . [I]0-i shall be much obliged to [you]0-i . ” “[0-i] [You]171-anne shall have it this evening . Goodbye , [Annie]171-anne , and felici studj , as [you]171-anne Italians say . ” [He]5054-he laughed , and went away . “[171-anne] [You]171-anne ’ll find it tough work , ” remarked [Marjory]249-marjory , shaking [her]249-marjory short mane of hair out before the glass ; “[171-anne] but , of course , a primer is never very difficult . ” WHEN [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor had gone up‐stairs to rest before dinner on [their]5055-their arrival at [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall , [Hamlin]145-hamlin took [Miss Brown]171-anne round [the huge , deserted‐looking house , which [[his]145-hamlin grandfather]5057-his grandfather had built on returning from [Jamaica]93-jamaica]5056-the huge , deserted‐looking house , which his grandfather had built on returning from jamaica . [It]5056-the huge , deserted‐looking house , which his grandfather had built on returning from jamaica was like [an Italian villa]5058-an italian villa , with [vaulted rooms]5059-vaulted rooms , gilded and stuccoed , marble floors , and terraced windows ; the furniture was all of the Napoleonic period ; nothing could be more dignified or sadder . When [Hamlin]145-hamlin had shown [her]171-anne [the large drawing‐rooms]5060-the large drawing‐rooms , [the library]4639-the library , [the room which had been [the play‐room]5063-the play‐room when [he]145-hamlin was [a child]623-a child]5062-the room which had been the play‐room when he was a child , [he]145-hamlin took [Anne]171-anne into [the large Palladian hall]5065-the large palladian hall , and showed [her]171-anne the innumerable portraits of [ladies]4135-ladies and [gentlemen in armour , and ruffs , and bobwigs , and powder]5067-gentlemen in armour , and ruffs , and bobwigs , and powder , hanging all round — [[his]145-hamlin ancestors]5068-his ancestors ever since [[his]145-hamlin family]5069-his family had left [England]37-england in the civil wars . [Anne]171-anne looked at [them]5070-them shyly . [They]5070-them were mostly indifferently painted and vapid — affected , like all old portraits by [mediocre painters]5071-mediocre painters ; but it seemed to [her]171-anne that in [most of [these gentlemen]5073-these gentlemen]5072-most of these gentlemen , with peaked beards on [their]5072-most of these gentlemen Vandyck lace , or horse‐hair wigs , or carefully powdered hair tied back in silk bags , [she]171-anne could recognise a resemblance to [the man by [her]171-anne side]5074-the man by her side — [the same delicate , handsome features , the same fair , almost beardless complexion]5075-the same delicate , handsome features , the same fair , almost beardless complexion , the same gentle , melancholy , slightly ironical expression : and never did the real meaning of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s marriage with [her]171-anne come clearer before [her]171-anne mind than when , in [that silent hall]5076-that silent hall , surrounded by all those portraits of [[his]145-hamlin ancestors]5068-his ancestors , [she]171-anne suddenly saw [herself]171-anne and [him]145-hamlin reflected in one of the long dim mirrors ; [she]171-anne , so tall and strong , so powerful of bone and muscle , with [her]171-anne strange , half‐southern , half‐Jewish , and almost half‐Ethiopian beauty , by the side of [that slight , fair , pale , aristocratic man]5078-that slight , fair , pale , aristocratic man , with features sharp like those of a high‐bred race‐horse , nervous and wistful and dreamy , as if [he]145-hamlin were tired of [[his]145-hamlin family]5069-his family having lasted so long . “[1909-they] [They]1909-they all married and intermarried for nearly a century , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[1909-they] that ’s why [they]1909-they ’re all so like [each other]594-each other . [I]0-i often wonder why it did n’t end in insanity — [you]1911-you see it has ended in [a poet]498-a poet at last . [[My]0-i mother]3900-my mother was [the first woman married by [a Hamlin]1915-a hamlin for eighty years who was not at least a second cousin,—in [those islands]1916-those islands]1914-the first woman married by a hamlin for eighty years who was not at least a second cousin,—in those islands there were [very few decent people]1917-very few decent people , [you]1911-you see . Do n’t [they]1917-very few decent people all look dapper and respectable ? It appears [they]1917-very few decent people were not . [That man in the corselet]1918-that man in the corselet was killed in a duel about [[another man]4053-another man ’s wife]1920-another man ’s wife . [That one in the middle]1921-that one in the middle , [the boy in the grey dress with the powdered hair]1922-the boy in the grey dress with the powdered hair , [Sir Thomas Hamlin]338-sir thomas hamlin , [they]1909-they used to call [the bad Sir Thomas]338-sir thomas hamlin , because [he]338-sir thomas hamlin amused [himself]338-sir thomas hamlin practising pistol‐shooting on [black people]1923-black people , whom [he]338-sir thomas hamlin had put all round [[his]338-sir thomas hamlin yard]1924-his yard ; [he]338-sir thomas hamlin was [a very fine gentleman]1925-a very fine gentleman , [they]1909-they say , and would go out only in the evening on account of [his]338-sir thomas hamlin complexion . [The one who looks like a woman , with the open shirt‐collar and the long hair]1926-the one who looks like a woman , with the open shirt‐collar and the long hair , was [[my]0-i great‐uncle]1927-my great‐uncle , [Mordaunt Hamlin]144-hamlin , who supposed [himself]144-hamlin to be [a poet , somewhere in the first years of this century]1928-a poet , somewhere in the first years of this century ; [he]144-hamlin was [an opium‐eater]1929-an opium‐eater , and did some horribly disgraceful things , [I]0-i do n’t exactly know what , and was poisoned , [they]1909-they say , by [some low woman]1930-some low woman , because [she]1930-some low woman was tired of [him]144-hamlin . [[My]0-i father]3904-my father had [his]3904-my father portrait removed ; but [I]0-i used to see it in [the lumber‐room]1932-the lumber‐room when [I]0-i was [a child]623-a child , and thought [him]3904-my father very handsome and eery ; and when [I]0-i came of age , [I]0-i had it brought down , because [I]0-i think [he]3904-my father ’s far better‐looking and more interesting than any of [the respectable ones]1934-the respectable ones . Then [he]3904-my father was [a poet]498-a poet also , [you]1936-you see , and [Cosmo Chough]248-chough pretends [I]0-i ’m like [him]3904-my father . Do [you]1936-you think so , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ” “[1936-you] No , ” said [Anne]171-anne , laughing , as [she]171-anne looked at [Hamlin]144-hamlin , at that noble and delicate face , which seemed to [her]171-anne the noblest and most beautiful in [the world]496-the world ; and yet , when [she]171-anne looked at [Mordaunt Hamlin]144-hamlin again , with [[his]144-hamlin morbid woman]5081-his morbid woman ’s face and [his]144-hamlin effeminate bare throat , [she]171-anne could not help feeling a certain disgust at the thought that perhaps — perhaps — [Hamlin]144-hamlin was just a little like [him]144-hamlin . “[1936-you] That ’s [[my]0-i mother]3900-my mother , ” said [Hamlin]144-hamlin , pointing to a faded crayon of [a beautiful , gentle , pathetic‐looking woman]5082-a beautiful , gentle , pathetic‐looking woman . “[3900-my mother] That is like [you]0-i , ” cried [Anne]171-anne , delighted . “[0-i] That is very like [you]0-i — like [your]0-i expression . [I]0-i was wondering where [you]0-i got [your]0-i expression from among all [[your]0-i Jamaica ancestors]1938-your jamaica ancestors . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i ’m glad [you]0-i think so . [She]3900-my mother was [a very beautiful woman]1939-a very beautiful woman , and very brave and noble , and not very happy , [poor mamma]1940-poor mamma . ” “[3900-my mother] Did [you]0-i know [her]3900-my mother ? ” “[0-i] Only till [I]0-i was about twelve ; [she]3900-my mother died young . That is [grandpapa]1941-grandpapa ; and that is [[my]0-i uncle]1942-my uncle [Arnold,—he]339-arnold,—he died young too — in fact , drank [himself]339-arnold,—he to death . Do n’t [you]0-i think [he]339-arnold,—he is like [Mordaunt Hamlin]144-hamlin ? That ’s [papa]3893-papa ; ” and [Hamlin]144-hamlin stopped before the full‐length of [a handsome effeminate man]5083-a handsome effeminate man . “[3893-papa] [You]0-i would n’t think that [he]339-arnold,—he was [a very violent man]1944-a very violent man , would [you]0-i ? ” [he]144-hamlin said . “[0-i] No , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , looking at that weak , worn , rather blear face , and thinking how [[her]171-anne father]4143-her father , too , had been [a drunkard]5085-a drunkard ; but how different had been the drunkenness of [the poor overworked mechanic]5086-the poor overworked mechanic , so industrious and gentle and high‐spirited when [he]339-arnold,—he was sober , from the sort of emasculating vice of [Mordaunt]144-hamlin and [Arnold Hamlin]340-arnold , of [[Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s bad‐faced father]5087-walter hamlin ’s bad‐faced father ! “[0-i] It ’s very curious , ” pursued [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with a sort of psychological interest in [[his]145-hamlin own family]5088-his own family , “[1950-the mother] how [that [Mordaunt]144-hamlin , who , after all , was [no ancestor of [mine]1947-you]1946-no ancestor of mine , tries everywhere to perpetuate [himself]144-hamlin . There ’s unfortunately no portrait of [[my]0-i great‐grandfather]1948-my great‐grandfather]1945-that mordaunt , who , after all , was no ancestor of mine , tries everywhere to perpetuate himself . there ’s unfortunately no portrait of my great‐grandfather , or perhaps [we]1949-we might understand it ; but perhaps it came from [the mother]1950-the mother . It ’s curious [I]0-i have never felt any inclination to drink — [I]0-i mean , however moderately ; but [I]0-i ca n’t take any wine at all — it makes [me]0-i drunk at once . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i never have seen [you]1947-you take any wine , by the way , ” said [Anne]171-anne . “[1947-you] [I]0-i tried opium once ; but [Chough]248-chough made [me]0-i give it up . It ’s sad to be denied any sort of unreal pleasures , do n’t [you]1947-you think ? That ’s [[my]0-i brother]1951-my brother and [I]0-i when [we]1952-we were [boys]1953-boys . ” [Anne]171-anne stopped to look at the picture . It was very well painted , though a trifle old‐fashioned . [The two boys]5089-the two boys were represented in shooting‐jackets , with guns and dogs . [The shorter , slighter , and paler boy]5090-the shorter , slighter , and paler boy was evidently [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin ; [the other]1030-the other was more robust , boyish , and ordinary‐looking . “[0-i] [[Your]1947-you brother]4292-your brother died when [he]4292-your brother was [a child]623-a child , did [he]4292-your brother not ? ” “[4292-your brother] Oh no , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , quickly . “[4292-your brother] [Poor Arnold]341-arnold — was very fond of shooting — [I]0-i hated it ; but [papa]3893-papa had the picture painted on [his]3893-papa account ; [he]341-arnold was the favourite at first , being younger . ” It seemed to [Anne]171-anne that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was going to say something different from what [he]145-hamlin had said . What had become of [Arnold Hamlin]340-arnold ? [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s allusions to [him]340-arnold , who had evidently been [[her]243-mrs macgregor favourite nephew]5092-her favourite nephew , always seemed to point to a melancholy end . “[341-arnold] It ’s curious , ” said [Hamlin]340-arnold , after a moment . “[341-arnold] [Arnold]340-arnold looked so jolly and strong when [he]340-arnold was [a child]623-a child ; and yet , later , [he]340-arnold got such a look of [[our]1958-our grand‐uncle [Mordaunt]144-hamlin]1959-our grand‐uncle mordaunt . ” “[144-hamlin] [I]0-i think [you]1960-you have [your]1960-you grand‐uncle on the brain , ” said [Anne]171-anne , trying to break through [Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s strange mood . [They]1958-our left [the hall]550-the hall , and went to the window of [the large drawing‐room]5094-the large drawing‐room , and looked out on the reddening beeches and the grass , permitted to grow high and thick , in the yellow sunlight . “[1960-you] [I]0-i shall sell [this place]1961-this place most likely soon , ” said [Hamlin]144-hamlin ; “[0-i] [I]0-i ’ve already had some offers for [it]1961-this place . [It]1961-this place ’s too large , and pompous , and characterless for [me]0-i . [I]0-i should like [a real old country‐house]1962-a real old country‐house , two or three centuries old , with flower‐gardens and panelled rooms,—not this plaster and stucco and romantic gardening . Besides , [I]0-i hate [this place]1961-this place — have hated [it]1961-this place ever since [I]0-i was [a child]623-a child . ” [Anne]171-anne did not answer . “[0-i] [I]0-i hate [this place]1961-this place , ” went on [Hamlin]144-hamlin , leaning on the window‐sill by [Anne]171-anne ’s side , “[0-i] and that is the reason why [I]0-i have brought [you]1966-you [here]3884-here . Before saying farewell to [it]1961-this place for good and all , [I]0-i wish to save [it]1961-this place from being a mere hateful recollection in [my]0-i life . [I]0-i wish to be able to think of it in connection with [you]1966-you ; ” and [he]144-hamlin looked up at [Anne]171-anne , who was leaning against the tall French window . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t know , ” went on [Hamlin]144-hamlin , again looking out at the vaporous yellow sunset horizon — “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t know what are destined to be the relations between [our]1968-our lives . [You]1966-you have seen too little of [the world]496-the world as yet to be able to know [yourself]1966-you and [me]0-i ; and [I]0-i am more and more decided to abide by [my]0-i original plan of giving [ourselves]1968-our time to understand [each other]594-each other , and to understand whether [we]1968-our are made for [one another]1971-one another . . . . ” [He]144-hamlin looked at [Anne]171-anne ; [she]171-anne had turned an ashy‐white as [she]171-anne listened ; [she]171-anne had thought that [Hamlin]144-hamlin loved [her]171-anne , and now . . . [He]144-hamlin noticed it , and understood , but pretended not to understand ; [he]144-hamlin enjoyed playing upon [a living soul]5095-a living soul , all the more upon a soul like this one , slow to respond to [his]144-hamlin touch , with low and long‐sustained vibrations , like those of some deep‐toned instrument . “[0-i] Do n’t take what [I]0-i say in bad part , ” [he]144-hamlin went on , conscious to [himself]144-hamlin that [he]144-hamlin was speaking the truth , and at the same time that [he]144-hamlin was acting , telling it at a moment and in a manner which made it untruthful ; “[0-i] and do n’t think that [I]0-i mean anything horrid against [you]1972-you or against [myself]0-i , when [I]0-i say that [you]1972-you do n’t yet know [me]0-i , and will not know [me]0-i , perhaps , for some time . [You]1972-you see [me]0-i through [your]1972-you own nature , [your]1972-you own enthusiasms , [your]1972-you own aspirations ; [you]1972-you think [I]0-i am strong where [I]0-i am weak , and pure where [I]0-i am impure . ” [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t think so . ” [Hamlin]144-hamlin smiled sadly . “[0-i] But [I]0-i do . It ’s very sad to think that [one]620-one must lose so much that is worth most in life , all [one]620-one ’s illusions , before [one]620-one can approach the reality of even [one]620-one ’s best friends,—that even [one ’s best friends]1977-one ’s best friends can be seen as [they]1977-one ’s best friends really are only when [we]1978-we have got disillusioned and disappointed , is it not ? ” [Hamlin]144-hamlin had often said things like these in the letters which [he]144-hamlin used to write to [her]171-anne , and had hinted , much more clearly , at weaknesses and basenesses which [she]171-anne would some day recognise in [him]144-hamlin . It could not occur to [Anne]171-anne , whose character was so completely of a piece , that there was any untruthfulness in this mode of speaking , any more than [she]171-anne could believe that [Hamlin]144-hamlin could be correct in thus speaking of [himself]144-hamlin . The sort of shimmer , as of the two tints in a shot stuff , of reality and unreality , of genuine and affected feeling , of moods which came spontaneously and of other moods , noticed , treasured up , reproduced in himself,—which existed in [Hamlin]144-hamlin , would be perfectly unintelligible to [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [I]0-i daresay , ” [she]0-i answered gravely , “[503-a man] that [you]1979-you have faults , in which , at present , [I]0-i can not believe ; but those faults are not the ones which [you]1979-you imagine . When [a man]503-a man knows [himself]503-a man to have a fault , [he]503-a man ceases to have it — [he]503-a man cures it . ” A sensation of a new experience passed through [Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s mind as [Anne]171-anne said this : it seemed so strange , pathetic , grand , to [him]144-hamlin — who knew [himself]144-hamlin to be for ever mixing up the unrealities of [his]144-hamlin art with the realities of [his]144-hamlin life , to be continually experimenting upon [himself]144-hamlin the moods of [his]144-hamlin poetry — that [any one]4101-any one should seriously think thus , should not know that when [a man]503-a man recognises in [himself]503-a man a fault , [he]503-a man may , so far from eradicating , cherish it stealthily . “[503-a man] [You]1979-you have asked [me]0-i not to be angry with [you]1979-you for telling [me]0-i that [I]0-i am inexperienced and can not yet know [my]0-i own mind , ” said [Anne]171-anne ; “[1979-you] do n’t be angry and do n’t laugh at [me]0-i if [I]0-i tell [you]1979-you that [I]0-i think [you]1979-you do n’t always know [yours]1979-you . [I]0-i have often observed how imaginative [you]1979-you are about [yourself]1979-you , how apt to fancy morbid things ; [I]0-i suppose it is because [poets]1628-poets are always turned inwards , and because [you]1979-you have not perhaps been very happy sometimes , and because”—and [she]0-i looked at [him]1979-you half laughing , half with the tears in [her]0-i eyes—“you[1628-poets] are very good . [I]0-i daresay [I]0-i do n’t know [you]1979-you thoroughly yet , but [I]0-i know [you]1979-you — [I]0-i know [I]0-i know [you]1979-you — better sometimes than [you]1979-you do ; because [you]1979-you fancy all sorts of horrid mysterious flaws in [your]1979-you character wherever there is a little inequality ; and [I]0-i know how good and noble [you]1979-you are , and how [you]1979-you are always thinking that [you]1979-you must be wicked . ” [Hamlin]144-hamlin did not answer . [He]144-hamlin was deeply touched , touched all the more because [he]144-hamlin knew how little [she]1979-you guessed at the self‐conscious unreality of so much of [him]144-hamlin . “[1979-you] [You]1979-you are very comforting , ” [he]144-hamlin said sadly , then went on more cheerfully : “[1979-you] well , what [I]0-i wanted to say , when [we]1982-we began to discuss which of [us]1982-we knew [the other]1030-the other better , is this,—that whatever [we]1982-we may be destined to be to [one another]1971-one another in future — and this [I]0-i dare not decide even in surmise — [you]1979-you will always have been to [me]0-i , in these years that [I]0-i have known [you]1979-you , in the past and present , an infinite source of happiness and good ; a something which to have possessed , as [I]0-i possess [your]1979-you friendship , will always remain , even should all the reality come to an end and only the recollection remain , the most precious thing in [my]0-i life . ” [He]144-hamlin had taken [her]1979-you hand , and playing with [her]1979-you strong shapely fingers , so much stronger and less delicate , though not less shapely than [his]144-hamlin own , looked with a kind of solemnity into [her]1979-you face . [Anne]171-anne could not answer , for if [she]171-anne did , [she]171-anne knew [she]171-anne must cry ; [she]171-anne felt the tears , as it were , all through [her]171-anne nature ; [she]171-anne seemed to see , [she]171-anne knew not why , but as a solemn certainty , that things could never go any further , that [Hamlin]144-hamlin was prophesying the inevitable future : and yet , in the midst of this quite inexplicable , unreasonable sense of loss and resignation , there was a deep happiness which [she]171-anne had never before felt , the happiness of the present ; a something new to [Anne]171-anne , though [all other lovers]5098-all other lovers have felt the happiness of possession of [one another]1971-one another , even at the moment of loss . “[171-anne] It is getting chilly , ” said [Hamlin]144-hamlin , and shut the window . “[171-anne] [You]1985-you look very pale , [Miss Brown]171-anne ; had [you]1985-you not better put on some warmer dress this evening ? ” [His]144-hamlin voice seemed like the curtain dropping after a scene , or the chord at the end of a duet . It was a return to reality and prose . “[1985-you] Perhaps [I]0-i had better , and [I]0-i ought to go and see after [[your]1985-you aunt]1756-your aunt ; good‐bye for the present . ” [Hamlin]144-hamlin strolled out into [the terrace]5100-the terrace , and lit a cigarette ; the past and present , [his]144-hamlin real and unreal self , [Anne]171-anne , [[his]144-hamlin brother]5101-his brother and [father]5102-father , [[his]144-hamlin great‐uncle Mordaunt]5103-his great‐uncle mordaunt — all went cloudily through [his]144-hamlin brain . [He]144-hamlin was very happy . Love to [him]144-hamlin was not what it was to [other men]1485-other men , not what [he]144-hamlin had tried it [himself]144-hamlin in former years . It was romance , but romance not of ladders and hairbreadth escapes , but of psychical conditions , of spiritual sensations . [He]144-hamlin had written fleshly poetry and passionate poetry , but [no one]3899-no one could be less fleshly or less passionate than [Hamlin]144-hamlin : the ‘ Vita Nuova’—if it could be made modern , and the parts altered and reversed — unreal reality of love , had been [his]144-hamlin ideal , and [he]144-hamlin had got it . [They]5106-they had many conversations like this one . [Hamlin]144-hamlin never so much as kissed [Anne]171-anne ’s hand , never told [her]171-anne that [he]144-hamlin loved [her]171-anne , spoke merely of [himself]144-hamlin , of [her]171-anne , of the future and the past , of what [she]171-anne would one day know , of what [he]144-hamlin would one day feel ; and [Anne]171-anne listened seriously , trying to cure [him]144-hamlin of [his]144-hamlin despondency and morbidness , trying to persuade [him]144-hamlin of [his]144-hamlin own worth and of [her]171-anne clear‐sightedness , while never a suspicion crossed [her]171-anne simple stern mind that all this earnest talk , which was so tragic and still so delightful , was the thing which [she]171-anne scornfully connected with whispers and kisses and nonsense,—in one word , love‐making . [THEY]5106-they remained about a fortnight completely solitary in [the large house]5107-the large house . [Hamlin]144-hamlin was finishing a poem and correcting the proofs of [his]144-hamlin next volume . [Anne]171-anne was continuing [her]171-anne usual literary studies , but now with the addition of some books and pamphlets on political economy , which had been incredulously lent [her]171-anne by [Richard Brown]223-richard brown . [The two young people]5108-the two young people had never seen so much of [one another]1971-one another , and [they]5108-the two young people were , [Hamlin]144-hamlin in [his]144-hamlin dreamy manner , [Anne]171-anne in [her]171-anne serious , practical way , very happy . [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor went on reading [her]243-mrs macgregor old‐fashioned freethinking books , and giving out cynical remarks , which [her]243-mrs macgregor amiable and utterly gullible character deprived of all weight . [She]243-mrs macgregor was [the elder and considerably older sister of [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s mother]5111-hamlin ’s mother]5110-the elder and considerably older sister of hamlin ’s mother , and had lived in [the house]509-the house for many years as [a widow]5113-a widow . [She]243-mrs macgregor had been twice married , each time for love , and each time to [men who , if one might trust [[her]243-mrs macgregor nephew]4784-her nephew , had been immediately reduced by [her]243-mrs macgregor into [the most devoted and timid slaves]5116-the most devoted and timid slaves]5114-men who , if one might trust her nephew , had been immediately reduced by her into the most devoted and timid slaves ; yet [she]243-mrs macgregor always spoke of marriage as if every misfortune of [her]243-mrs macgregor existence was due to it . Imbued with the pseudo‐scientific and somewhat anti‐social philosophy of early deism ( though [herself]243-mrs macgregor [a rigid stickler for decorum )]5117-a rigid stickler for decorum ) , [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor had a way of talking of love and marriage which for some time had made [poor Anne]171-anne profoundly miserable : [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women , averred [the old lady]1153-the old lady , were , whatever [they]5121-they might pretend to the contrary , entirely at the mercy of [their]5121-they animal passions,—to suppose that [any one]4101-any one successfully resisted [them]5121-they was sheer folly ; marry [people]577-people must , but marriage was the most unfortunate of all necessities , the beginning of all unhappiness , the end of all independence , self‐respect , and pleasure in life ; it was the long waking up from a disgraceful delusion ; yet this disgraceful delusion , this drunken condition called love , was ( always according to [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ) the one beautiful and poetical thing in [the world]496-the world . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t believe that [all people]1987-all people are like that , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ” [Anne]171-anne would often exclaim indignantly . “[247-aunt claudia] [I]0-i do n’t believe that [all people]1987-all people marry from unworthy passion , just to wake up and find its unworthiness . [I]0-i am sure that if love were such a vile thing , and marriage such a mistake , [every man or woman with any self‐respect and self‐restraint]1989-every man or woman with any self‐respect and self‐restraint would refuse both . ” “[0-i] Oh , [[my]0-i dear child]4448-my dear child , ” [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor would answer with a smile , “[0-i] wait till [you]4448-my dear child are a little older and see what a disgusting thing life is . ” “[0-i] If it is , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , feeling quite nauseated and terrified , and at the same time resolute in [herself—“if]5125-herself—“if[247-aunt claudia] it is , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , it is because [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women are mostly such [wretched , weak , silly , base , puling creatures]1993-wretched , weak , silly , base , puling creatures . ” Then , when [she]171-anne saw [Hamlin]144-hamlin , and thought of the noble way in which [he]144-hamlin had acted towards [her]171-anne , of the calm and clear love and gratitude which [she]171-anne felt towards him,—when [she]171-anne thought of the things which [they]5126-they talked about together , of the desire to become worthier with which [his]144-hamlin love had inspired [her]171-anne , of the greater trust in [his]144-hamlin own worthiness which [she]171-anne hoped [her]171-anne love was instilling into [him,—nay]5127-him,—nay , when [she]171-anne looked at that thoughtful , delicate , almost diaphanous face of [his]144-hamlin , [Anne]171-anne ’s anger towards [the old lady]1153-the old lady would turn into mere pity ; [she]171-anne would merely , in [her]171-anne own certainty of worthiness , smile at what [she]171-anne now considered as the mere empty talk of a disgusting school of thought , or , at best , as the lamentable generalisations from [a horribly exceptional family]5129-a horribly exceptional family , such as [she]171-anne understood , vaguely , that of [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s father]5130-hamlin ’s father to have been . And , for the rest , [Anne]171-anne believed that though [people]577-people were very ridiculous , and affected , and mean in little matters ( [she]171-anne was thinking of [the Spencers]342-the spencers , and [the Saunders]290-andrew saunders , and so many other of [[her]171-anne æsthetic friends]5132-her æsthetic friends ) , and although [they]577-people might also , like [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , make the mistake of thinking indecent things interesting and dramatic , [the vast majority of mankind]5133-the vast majority of mankind and [womankind]4255-womankind was really very pure , and generous , and loving at bottom . So , after a time , [she]171-anne listened to [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s remarks with only a little habitual and instinctive annoyance , but without any kind of serious belief in them . And when [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia would sometimes allude to the bad lives which had been led in [this particular house]5135-this particular house — to the vices ( taking them quite as ordinary matters ) of [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s grandfather]5136-hamlin ’s grandfather and [father]5102-father and [uncles]5138-uncles , of the neglect and violence which [[her]171-anne sister]603-her sister , [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s mother]5111-hamlin ’s mother , had suffered from , hinting that , if [one]620-one only knew , the self‐same things were happening in every other family on earth,—whenever there came any such allusions , [Anne]171-anne would carefully , as it were , close up these loopholes into a past , in which [she]171-anne scarcely believed and from which [she]171-anne shrank : [the world]496-the world seemed to [her]171-anne as good , and healthy , and strong , and easy to understand as [herself]171-anne . But while [she]171-anne did thus , [Anne]171-anne was so gentle and sympathising to [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , that [the old lady]1153-the old lady was never hurt by [her]171-anne contradictions ; indeed [she]1153-the old lady would sometimes say that , were [she]1153-the old lady not persuaded that no law of nature can have any real exceptions , [she]1153-the old lady would almost believe that [Anne]171-anne was quite different from [any other woman that ever was]5144-any other woman that ever was . It seemed somehow , here all alone in [this ancestral home of [Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s]5145-this ancestral home of hamlin ’s , as if the fate which [Hamlin]144-hamlin had refused to forestall was working itself happily out ; and as if , tacitly , [the poet‐painter]5146-the poet‐painter and [the girl whom [he]144-hamlin had educated]5147-the girl whom he had educated were becoming affianced to each other . None of the outward ceremony was broken through ; [he]144-hamlin was always [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , and [she]1153-the old lady [Miss Brown]171-anne , and there was never an allusion permitted to any more intimate relations . But it seemed perfectly natural that [he]144-hamlin and [she]1153-the old lady should go walks together ; that [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia should leave [them]5148-they alone at breakfast and luncheon ; and that , when [the old lady]1153-the old lady had retired to [[her]1153-the old lady room]1374-her room , [they]5148-they should remain , with brotherly and sisterly ease , though not brotherly and sisterly free‐and‐easiness , talking together of an evening . And as [they]5148-they talked , [their]5148-they plans seemed constantly to merge ; that [they]5148-they should be separated never occurred to either ( except when [Hamlin]145-hamlin was in one of [his]145-hamlin tragic moods ) , although not a word passed to settle [their]5148-they future together . The long courtship , the long enjoyment of a ceremonious and unfettered love , was what [Hamlin]145-hamlin had wished for , and what [he]145-hamlin had ; to a fixed future , a family and family affections , [he]145-hamlin was not [the man to look forward]5151-the man to look forward ; it would have to come , and [he]145-hamlin did not feel any dislike for it , but [he]145-hamlin gave it no thought . As to [Anne]171-anne , [she]171-anne had never made up [her]171-anne mind that [she]171-anne had a right to be [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife ; to have thought so for one moment would have seemed to [her]171-anne grasping ingratitude ; and [she]171-anne was too happy in the present to think about the future . The thing to be thought of was to become worthy of [him]145-hamlin , that was all . BY the middle of the summer a perfect colony from [æsthetic [London]4-london]5153-æsthetic london had settled itself , to the amazed terror of [the vicar]5154-the vicar and [[his]5154-the vicar parishioners]5155-his parishioners , in [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall and [the inn of [the adjacent village]5157-the adjacent village]5156-the inn of the adjacent village . [The Spencers]342-the spencers came , with [a perfect shipload of babies]5158-a perfect shipload of babies , and accompanied by [[Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ’s father]5159-mrs spencer ’s father and [mother]4664-mother ; [Cosmo Chough]248-chough came , bringing scarcely any luggage except [MS]5161-ms . poems and old music ; [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly came , and [half‐a‐dozen young poets]5162-half‐a‐dozen young poets and [painters]521-painters , to name whom would be perfectly superfluous , and who were [all the humble worshippers of [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin]5164-all the humble worshippers of walter hamlin . [All these people]4775-all these people had pictures to paint , poems to compose , articles to write ; but the exciting question for [the whole household]5166-the whole household was the approaching publication of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s new book . [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s acquaintance with [Anne Brown]171-anne had not been without a decided influence on [his]145-hamlin art . [He]145-hamlin had written a number of sonnets about [her]171-anne ever since the moment of [their]5167-their first meeting , recording various moods , real and fictitious , in connection with [her]171-anne , and of which [he]145-hamlin had sent or read [her]171-anne the greater number . Perhaps [he]145-hamlin would have written much the same sort of thing about [any other woman]5168-any other woman ; but [Anne]171-anne had influenced [him]145-hamlin at once more directly and more indirectly . The æsthetic school of poetry , of which [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [Chough]248-chough were [the most brilliant exponents of the younger generation]5169-the most brilliant exponents of the younger generation , was evidently running to seed . It was beginning to be obvious , to [every one who was not [an æsthete]1257-an æsthete]5170-every one who was not an æsthete , that the reign of the mysterious evil passions , of [the half‐antique , half‐medieval ladies of saturnine beauty and bloodthirsty voluptuousness of the demigods]5172-the half‐antique , half‐medieval ladies of saturnine beauty and bloodthirsty voluptuousness of the demigods and [heroes treated like the figures in a piece of tapestry]5173-heroes treated like the figures in a piece of tapestry , must be coming to a close ; and that a return to nature must be preparing . [Anne]171-anne had felt it , and had vaguely determined that [the man who was to revolutionise poetry]5174-the man who was to revolutionise poetry was [Hamlin]145-hamlin . Indeed , who else could it be ? [The elder poets]5175-the elder poets were safe in [their]5175-the elder poets ruts ; the majority of [the younger ones who had already come forward]5176-the younger ones who had already come forward were [mere imitators and caricaturists]5177-mere imitators and caricaturists , not excepting the great Chough [himself]248-chough . [Hamlin]145-hamlin alone was [a man of genius]5178-a man of genius ; [he]145-hamlin alone was capable of turning over a new leaf ; and one or two new departures , attempts at a new way of describing things , if not actually an attempt at describing new things , persuaded [Anne]171-anne that the change was beginning . [She]171-anne did not like telling [him]145-hamlin that [she]171-anne perceived it coming ; for [she]171-anne thought that [Hamlin]145-hamlin might , did [he]145-hamlin perceive it , consider it as an apostasy from [[his]145-hamlin original school]5179-his original school , and draw back . But [she]171-anne encouraged [him]145-hamlin by showing a marked preference for the pieces which savoured of this new style ; and [she]171-anne even suggested to [him]145-hamlin to write a tale , in which [he]145-hamlin should substitute , for the conventional background copied by æsthetic poetry from the borders of missals , the pictures of [old masters]5180-old masters and of [[their]5180-old masters French gods]5181-their french gods , [Gautier]343-gautier and [Baudelaire]344-baudelaire , the scenery of [[his]145-hamlin own home]5182-his own home , [the wide commons]5183-the wide commons , [the beech‐woods on [the downs]5185-the downs]5184-the beech‐woods on the downs , [the solemn horizons of [the fenny country]5187-the fenny country which spread from [Wotton]94-wotton to [the sea]4271-the sea]5186-the solemn horizons of the fenny country which spread from wotton to the sea . [He]145-hamlin had written it , and read it to [her]171-anne during that fortnight of solitude ; and [Anne]171-anne ’s heart had beat at the thought of the change which was to be wrought by [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s new book — of [the unknown youths hitherto fumbling vainly for a new style]5189-the unknown youths hitherto fumbling vainly for a new style , who were to recognise in [Hamlin]145-hamlin the leader of [a new school]5190-a new school , [the prophet of a new art]5191-the prophet of a new art . When [the colony of [London]4-london æsthetes]5192-the colony of london æsthetes arrived at [Wotton]94-wotton , the new poem was solemnly read to [them]5192-the colony of london æsthetes . [They]5192-the colony of london æsthetes were all seated in [the old‐fashioned library]5193-the old‐fashioned library , the rows and rows of old novels and books of standard literature , the busts of ancient philosophers looking down upon [them,—a]5194-them,—a quaint little assembly of [ladies in peacock‐blue and dull sage and Japanese dragoned and medieval brocaded gowns , with slashed sleeves and limp tails]5195-ladies in peacock‐blue and dull sage and japanese dragoned and medieval brocaded gowns , with slashed sleeves and limp tails — of [men]4644-men got up to look like [Frenchmen]5197-frenchmen or [Germans]5198-germans , or Renaissance creatures , in wondrous velveteens , colonred almost like the bindings of [their]5192-the colony of london æsthetes own books . [They]5192-the colony of london æsthetes listened with considerable attention , and obvious impatience to interrupt . [The first who did so]5199-the first who did so was [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer . “[145-hamlin] Why , [Walter]145-hamlin ! ” [she]288-mrs spencer exclaimed indignantly , “[145-hamlin] what possesses [you]145-hamlin ? are [you]145-hamlin crazy ? Why , [you]145-hamlin are going in for realism ; do [you]145-hamlin know that ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t see any particular realism , [Edith]286-edith , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , testily . “[286-edith] Come , now , it is n’t [Zola]95-zola , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , ” said [[her]4237-my dear father]4143-her father , [a good‐natured man , who never carried [his]4143-her father belief in [himself]4143-her father to the length which it was carried to by [[his]4143-her father family]5069-his family]5201-a good‐natured man , who never carried his belief in himself to the length which it was carried to by his family . “[95-zola] No , it is n’t [Zola]95-zola , ” cried [Miss Spencer]346-miss spencer ; “[95-zola] but it ’s worse than [Zola]95-zola . . . . ” ( “[95-zola] It ’s just the decentest thing [I]0-i ’ve heard for many a long year , ” murmured [the old painter]5203-the old painter . ) “[95-zola] It ’s worse than [Zola]95-zola , because it ’s poetry and not prose , because it ’s English poetry , because it ’s poetry by [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin , who has hitherto been [an apostle of beauty , and is now basely turning apostate and going over to ugliness]1995-an apostle of beauty , and is now basely turning apostate and going over to ugliness . ” There was a slight laugh at [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ’s vehemence , in which [Hamlin]145-hamlin alone did not join . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t think there ’s anything actually ugly in it , ” put in [Chough]248-chough , blandly . “[0-i] [Hamlin]145-hamlin could never write anything ugly . But it is certain that there ’s a want of idealism in it , a want of that exotic perfume which constitutes the essence of poetry . [I]0-i think it ’s an unfortunately chosen subject . . . . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i think it ’ s perfectly disgusting , ” gobbled out [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , [the little rickety poet , who had to be carried up and down stairs]5204-the little rickety poet , who had to be carried up and down stairs , and who wrote , while slowly sinking inch by inch into the grave , about carrying off [lovely girls]5205-lovely girls , and throttling [them]5205-lovely girls in the fierceness of [his]347-dennistoun love . “[0-i] Did [you]1996-you notice about [the heroine]1997-the heroine washing [the children]3862-the children ? [I]0-i call that beastly , beastly . And then , [I]0-i do n’t know how [any man]1338-any man can write a poem about [people who are in love and get married]2000-people who are in love and get married . ” This seemed an unanswerable piece of criticism . [Anne]171-anne alone leaned across the table ; [she]171-anne was very indignant . “[0-i] [I]0-i think , ” [she]0-i said , “[0-i] that there is much more poetry in people who love [each other respectably , and respectably get married]2001-each other respectably , and respectably get married , than in all the nasty situations which [modern poets]2002-modern poets write about . ” [Cosmo Chough]248-chough looked at [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun looked at [[Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ’s father]5159-mrs spencer ’s father . “[0-i] [[My]0-i dear young lady]2003-my dear young lady , ” cried [the old painter]5203-the old painter in [his]5203-the old painter broad Scotch , “[3893-papa] d’ye ever know [any of [these gentlemen]5073-these gentlemen]2004-any of these gentlemen write a poem about [people who did any single respectable thing]2006-people who did any single respectable thing ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i wonder [you]0-i can talk like that , [papa]3893-papa , ” silenced [[his]5203-the old painter daughter]5208-his daughter , whose zeal for [him]5203-the old painter and [[his]5203-the old painter school]5209-his school included timely snubbings for [himself]5203-the old painter . “[0-i] Well , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , [I]0-i privately think with [Miss Brown]171-anne that there ’s nothing more poetic than a gude , [bonnie lass of [a wife]4932-a wife]2009-bonnie lass of a wife , and [I]0-i do n’t wonder a bit at [Walter]145-hamlin being of that opinion . But then , of course , [I]0-i ’m not [a poet]498-a poet . ” “[0-i] It ’s that washing of [the children]3862-the children which troubles [me]0-i , ” reflected [Chough]248-chough , “[3862-the children] and [their]3862-the children being married . Do n’t [you]2013-you think , now , [Hamlin]145-hamlin , that [you]2013-you might just alter a little , and make it appear that [they]3862-the children were n’t married ? ” “[2013-you] Only put [a husband of the lady]2014-a husband of the lady in the distance , ” suggested [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly , laughing . “[2014-a husband of the lady] Thank [you]2013-you , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , affecting to laugh , “[2013-you] [your]2013-you suggestion is most happy , and most characteristic . [You]2013-you are always full of original ideas — all of [you]2013-you , ” and [he]145-hamlin looked bitterly round . [Chough]248-chough felt the rebuke and was silent . But [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , who was gasping , propped up in [his]347-dennistoun chair , was furious . “[2013-you] It ’s not a question of an alteration here or there , ” [he]347-dennistoun gobbled out ; “[348-wordsworth] it ’s the whole tone of the poem which is pestilent . It ’s [Wordsworth]348-wordsworth pure and simple , that ’s what it is . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin rolled up [his]145-hamlin MS . [He]145-hamlin was very white . The others [he]145-hamlin did not mind , but [this little rickety Dennistoun , whose poems were the most limited and the most hopelessly morbid of the whole set]5210-this little rickety dennistoun , whose poems were the most limited and the most hopelessly morbid of the whole set , annoyed [him]145-hamlin ; for in [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , for all [his]347-dennistoun limitations and repetitions , [Hamlin]145-hamlin recognised [the most genuine poet of [his]145-hamlin circle]5211-the most genuine poet of his circle , [[his]145-hamlin most real rival]5212-his most real rival . Those words , “[348-wordsworth] It ’s [Wordsworth]348-wordsworth , that ’s what it is , ” were like a blow . [He]145-hamlin could have knocked down [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , had [he]347-dennistoun not been [a cripple]5213-a cripple . The conversation was changed ; and soon the first dinner‐bell dispersed [the company]1514-the company . When [Anne]171-anne came down [she]171-anne heard [some one]1380-some one stirring in [the study next door]5216-the study next door . [She]171-anne went in . [Hamlin]145-hamlin was seated before the table , [his]145-hamlin head on [his]145-hamlin hands ; the MS . , all crumpled up , lay in front of [him]145-hamlin . [Anne]171-anne came silently to [his]145-hamlin side . [Her]171-anne heart was bursting with indignation . “[348-wordsworth] What ’s the matter ? ” asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , crossly . “[348-wordsworth] Nothing . [I]0-i only came — because [I]0-i wanted to see [you]2015-you — because [I]0-i wanted to tell [you]2015-you how [I]0-i despise [those people]2016-those people and [their]2016-those people disgusting , unmanly school of poetry — how [I]0-i hate [their]2016-those people stupid criticism,—how completely [I]0-i believe in [you]2015-you and in [your]2015-you poem . ” [Anne]171-anne had spoken with vehemence and almost anger . [She]171-anne took one of [his]2015-you hands , which was dog’s‐earing [the MS]5217-the ms . “[0-i] Oh , why , ” [she]171-anne asked , “[2015-you] why do [you]2015-you read [them]2016-those people what [you]2015-you write ? Do n’t [you]2015-you know [them]2016-those people sufficiently to know what [they]2016-those people will say ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i never thought — ” and [Hamlin]145-hamlin stopped . “[0-i] [I]0-i never thought that that fellow [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun would ever dare to speak like that about a poem of [mine]0-i . ” [His]145-hamlin tone was angry and tearful , like that of [a punished child]5218-a punished child . “[347-dennistoun] Nor did [I.]0-i [I]0-i never thought [any one]4101-any one would dare to speak like that . But what does it matter — what can the words of [such a man]2018-such a man matter to [you]0-i ? ” [He]145-hamlin did not answer . “[2016-those people] Surely , ” went on [Anne]171-anne , “[2015-you] [you]2015-you ca n’t mind what [they]2016-those people say ? [You]2015-you believe in [your]2015-you poem , as [I]0-i believe in it ? ” It seemed so impossible to [her]171-anne how [any one]4101-any one could not believe in that poem , which seemed to [her]171-anne so strong , and noble , and beautiful . “[2015-you] [I]0-i know [you]2015-you believe in it , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , brusquely ; “[2015-you] [you]2015-you made [me]0-i write it — so of course [you]2015-you must — ” “[2015-you] And — and — are [you]0-i sorry to have written it ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t know ; [I]0-i ca n’t judge . There ’s [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly outside . ” “[295-o’reilly] [The disconsolate poet being consoled by [his]2019-the disconsolate poet being consoled by his beautiful fiancée beautiful fiancée]2019-the disconsolate poet being consoled by his beautiful fiancée for having written about [people who were united in legitimate wedlock]2020-people who were united in legitimate wedlock , ” whispered [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly to [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer as [they]5220-they entered [the room]574-the room . “[2019-the disconsolate poet being consoled by his beautiful fiancée] Well , [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [old fellow]4051-old fellow , do [you]145-hamlin repent [you]145-hamlin of that sinful marriage between [[your]145-hamlin hero]2022-your hero and [heroine]2023-heroine ? ” asked [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly . “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i repent [me]0-i of nothing at all , except of having read [my]0-i poem to a parcel of [damned meretricious rhymesters]2024-damned meretricious rhymesters , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , angrily . “[145-hamlin] [Walter]145-hamlin ! ” cried [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , “[145-hamlin] how can [you]145-hamlin talk like that ! ” But , despite this bravado , [Anne]171-anne felt , and [her]171-anne spirit sank within [her]171-anne , that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had been disgusted with [his]145-hamlin poem . [He]145-hamlin was rather cantankerous throughout dinner ; and [Anne]171-anne , watching [him]145-hamlin , felt a strange mixture of indignation — towards [[his]145-hamlin critics]5222-his critics for [their]5222-his critics criticism , and towards [Hamlin]145-hamlin for minding it . THE time has come for [him]145-hamlin to break with the old school , thought [Anne]171-anne ; consoling [herself]171-anne for a certain childish petulance , perhaps not quite new to [her]171-anne , in [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s manner . But [Anne]171-anne proved mistaken . Whether [the critics]5223-the critics became less rabid on the following day , or whether [Hamlin]145-hamlin was suddenly smitten with the truth of [their]5223-the critics criticism , [she]171-anne could not say . [He]145-hamlin was very snappish at first towards [Chough]248-chough , and absolutely refused to speak to [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun for nearly twenty‐four hours . [Chough]248-chough , who loved [Hamlin]145-hamlin like the apple of [his]145-hamlin eye , would not , however , be spurned ; [he]145-hamlin followed [Hamlin]145-hamlin about , [he]145-hamlin soothed [him]145-hamlin , [he]145-hamlin flattered [him]145-hamlin , [he]145-hamlin assured [him]145-hamlin that [he]145-hamlin was much [the greatest poet of [[his]145-hamlin generation]5225-his generation]5224-the greatest poet of his generation ; but [he]145-hamlin repeated , almost with tears in [his]145-hamlin eyes , [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun ’s criticism . “[145-hamlin] Such a poem will never , never do , ” [he]145-hamlin cried ; “[145-hamlin] it is impossible , intolerable , and it will just put [some fellow like [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun into [your]2026-your place]2025-some fellow like dennistoun into your place . ” “[347-dennistoun] Thank [you]2027-you for [your]2027-you advice , [Chough]248-chough , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , angrily ; “[248-chough] [I]0-i think [I]0-i told [you]2027-you before that [I]0-i did n’t want it . ” [Anne]171-anne did not revive the subject of the unlucky poem . It was useless provoking quarrels between [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends ; quarrels in which [she]171-anne was forced to own to [herself]171-anne that [he]145-hamlin showed [himself]145-hamlin too easily mortified and put out of temper . If [he]145-hamlin had been taught to mistrust [their]5227-their judgment , if [he]145-hamlin had been alienated from [their]5227-their school by [their]5227-their absurd criticism , why , so much the better . This business drew [Anne]171-anne ’s attention to the poetry of [the school]1304-the school ; [she]171-anne re‐read a number of poems by [Chough]248-chough , [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , and several gods , [demigods]5229-demigods , and [heroes of the movement]5230-heroes of the movement . Whether it was that [she]171-anne had read them fragmentarily before , or that [she]171-anne had not understood their full meaning , or whether [her]171-anne attention was now called to [their]5227-their bad points rather than to [their]5227-their good ones , [she]171-anne scarcely knew ; but it seemed to [her]171-anne that [she]171-anne had never before comprehended this style of poetry : its beauty had ceased to please [her]171-anne , it seemed to [her]171-anne false , emasculate , diseased . [Hamlin]145-hamlin alone had not gone to its worst lengths ; [he]145-hamlin had sinned , but comparatively little . [He]145-hamlin was evidently intended for something better . And [Anne]171-anne thought with pride of that “[0-i] Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens ” which [they]5231-they had all fallen upon , and which was to be the signal for a new era in poetry . Soon it would be out ; and [she]171-anne [the only person to have appreciated it]5232-the only person to have appreciated it . It seemed to [Anne]171-anne that at last , in [her]171-anne humble way , [she]171-anne might be beginning to repay the debt of gratitude which [she]171-anne owed [Hamlin]145-hamlin ( not that [she]171-anne wished that the debt should ever be less , God knows , or dreamed that it could be ) ; but at last [Hamlin]145-hamlin might reap some advantage from [his]145-hamlin generosity . [He]145-hamlin had stooped to make [her]171-anne , to turn [[the Perrys]1062-the perrys ’ servant]1229-the perrys ’ servant into [a lady]3943-a lady ; in [her]171-anne turn , perhaps [she]171-anne , [the woman of the lower classes]5236-the woman of the lower classes , might encourage [the delicately nurtured poet]5237-the delicately nurtured poet to attempt things bolder , simpler , and more healthy than [he]145-hamlin had done before . The proof‐sheets of the new volume began to come in . [Anne]171-anne had read nearly all its contents at one time or other , yet [Hamlin]145-hamlin , in [his]145-hamlin grave , ceremoniously adoring way , handed on the proofs to [her]171-anne . One day a fresh bundle came by post . After breakfast , [Hamlin]145-hamlin took [Anne]171-anne aside . “[0-i] [I]0-i want [you]2028-you to read these sonnets , ” [he]145-hamlin said . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t think [you]2028-you have read them all . There are rather more than [I]0-i care to print in this volume , so [I]0-i should like [you]2028-you to select those which [you]2028-you think the best or the least bad : divide them into two packets , and tell [me]0-i which [you]2028-you prefer . ” [Anne]171-anne was quite taken aback for joy , and at the same time for fear . “[2028-you] Do n’t say that , ” [she]0-i said ; “[2028-you] [I]0-i could never , never take the responsibility of deciding about [your]2028-you poems . Let [me]0-i read them , and let [me]0-i tell [you]2028-you what [I]0-i like best , but do n’t ask [me]0-i to choose . What am [I]0-i , that [I]0-i should decide in such matters ? ” “[2028-you] [You]2028-you are the person whom [I]0-i trust and respect , and — will [you]2028-you let [me]0-i say so?—whom [I]0-i love most in all [the world]496-the world , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , solemnly . “[0-i] For whom should [my]0-i poetry be written except for [you]2028-you ? Whom else should [I]0-i care to please ? Are [you]2028-you not the best and worthiest thing in [my]0-i life , and is it not [my]0-i highest ambition to do anything worthy of [you]2028-you ? ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin had never spoken so passionately and earnestly before . [Anne]171-anne did not answer , but [she]171-anne squeezed [his]145-hamlin hand , and the gesture , and the look accompanying it , meant “[0-i] [I]0-i love [you]2028-you . ” “[0-i] Listen , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , detaining [her]171-anne as [she]171-anne was leaving—“I[0-i] want to say one word more . These sonnets are not merely [my]0-i verses ; they are [myself]0-i — and many of them , [you]2028-you will see , are about [you]2028-you . Perhaps [you]2028-you would rather that some of these were not published ; perhaps [your]2028-you permitting them to be published might mean more than [you]2028-you should wish . Tell [me]0-i [your]2028-you opinion frankly , and put aside everything that [you]2028-you do n’t like . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i will , ” answered [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] What [you]0-i wish [me]0-i to do , [I]0-i must do . ” [She]171-anne went up into [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room , shut the door , and seating [herself]171-anne at the table , unrolled the little bundle of proof‐sheets . But at first [she]171-anne could not read , or could read only the titles — [her]171-anne heart beat so , and the blood boomed so in [her]171-anne temples . That [he]5239-he should love [her]171-anne so much , believe in [her]171-anne so much — that it should really be [he]5239-he , just [he]5239-he and [she]171-anne , and not [some one else]1193-some one else ; it seemed too strange to be true . [She]171-anne slowly began to read the sonnets . Some of them [she]171-anne knew already ; others were expansions in verse of things which [Hamlin]145-hamlin had said or written to [her]171-anne ; many were about [herself]171-anne , passionate , with a sort of delicate , subdued , respectful passion , played , like some exquisite instrument , in various keys and rhythms of subdued pain or gladness . [She]171-anne felt so proud and glad , and at the same time so moved and saddened , that [she]171-anne almost cried over them . There were a lot of other sonnets , descriptive of places and of moods . Some of these [she]171-anne did not at all relish . They were not fleshly nor exactly improper ; but they contained allusions which [Anne]171-anne could not help following , allusions which [she]171-anne did not quite understand , but which [she]171-anne did not like . [She]171-anne felt half ashamed of [herself]171-anne , wondering whether all the impure poetry which [she]171-anne had lately been reading , whether [her]171-anne prejudice against [the school to which these decidedly belonged]5241-the school to which these decidedly belonged , might not be making [her]171-anne imagine things which were not meant ; and [Anne]171-anne blushed at the thought — blushed at [her]171-anne knowing so many things , having learned so many things , in [her]171-anne half education as [an Italian servant]5242-an italian servant , in [her]171-anne culture as [an æsthetic personage]5243-an æsthetic personage , which [perhaps other girls of [her]171-anne age]5244-perhaps other girls of her age would not dream of . It was probably only [her]171-anne own morbid fancy . But then [she]171-anne came upon a set of sonnets — no fewer than twelve connected together by similarity of title — which put an end to [her]171-anne doubts . [She]171-anne felt giddy and sick as [she]171-anne read them ; mysterious and mystical hankerings , mysterious half‐longing repentance , and half‐repentant longings after untold shameful things . [Anne]171-anne pushed aside the proof‐sheets , and leaned [her]171-anne head on [her]171-anne hands . [She]171-anne seemed to be smothering for want of air ; [she]171-anne went to the window , and leaned against its rails . It was raining — a steady , clear fine rain . [She]171-anne looked at it mechanically as it filled the air like a thin veil , and crevassed the sand outside with yellow trickles of water . [She]171-anne did not for one instant believe that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had ever felt the things about which [he]145-hamlin was writing ; but [he]145-hamlin had written about them . [She]171-anne knew , from an unerring instinct , as well as from [her]171-anne own deep love , that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was as pure [a man as could be found]5245-a man as could be found ; had [he]145-hamlin not been towards [her]171-anne — was [he]145-hamlin not , at that very moment — [the very personification of chivalrous and spiritual lovingness]5246-the very personification of chivalrous and spiritual lovingness ? Then [she]171-anne remembered the allusions which , without understanding them , used to frighten [her]171-anne in [his]145-hamlin letters — the allusions to vague evil which beckoned to [him]145-hamlin , which surrounded [him]145-hamlin ; and [she]171-anne remembered also [his]145-hamlin constant references in conversation to [his]145-hamlin being unlike what [she]171-anne imagined , to [his]145-hamlin baseness and unworthiness . Two years earlier [she]171-anne would have been seized with an agonising terror ; a week before [she]171-anne might have been overcome with pitying admiration at [his]145-hamlin self‐tormenting moral purity , taking umbrage at every thought of evil which passed across and seemed to soil [his]145-hamlin mind . But somehow , now , [she]171-anne did neither . [She]171-anne did not for one second believe that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was in any way [a bad man]5247-a bad man . [She]171-anne repeated to [herself]171-anne that [he]145-hamlin was morbidly introspective , self‐scrutinising , morbidly imaginative ; but [she]171-anne could not realise that these hateful sonnets had been written in any great agony of imagined self‐debasement ; they were so artistic , so evidently written with enjoyment , so self‐conscious ; they were so clearly not the doubts of a troubled mind , but the work of [a poet]498-a poet — and , what was much worse , so clearly the work of [a poet of a definite school]5249-a poet of a definite school , of [the school of [Chough]248-chough]5250-the school of chough and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun and all the others , whom [she]171-anne was beginning to loathe . [Anne]171-anne looked at [them]5251-them over and over again . There was no reality in them ; mere revolting pose . Gradually [her]171-anne mind settled about them . [They]5251-them were doubtless things written long ago , when , without knowing what it all meant , [he]145-hamlin had been carried away by the wave of imitation of [one or two shameless or foolish writers]5252-one or two shameless or foolish writers . [He]145-hamlin had alluded to sonnets which [he]145-hamlin had expected [her]171-anne to dislike , [he]145-hamlin had insisted so on a certain number being put aside ; if [he]145-hamlin had made [her]171-anne think that it was the sonnets about [herself]171-anne which provoked [his]145-hamlin doubts , that came from a sort of shame , an unwillingness to point out to [her]171-anne what [she]171-anne might perhaps overlook : it was not quite straightforward , but [everybody]1613-everybody , [Anne]171-anne had learned by this time , did not do right in a quite straightforward way . The only thing which perplexed [her]171-anne was , why [he]145-hamlin had submitted these poems to [her]171-anne at all ? Why had [he]145-hamlin not torn them up ? why shown them to [her]171-anne ? A little [she]171-anne could not help , as [a woman]3960-a woman , resenting [his]145-hamlin having done so at all . But perhaps [he]145-hamlin had done so to show [her]171-anne the difference between what [he]145-hamlin had been and what [he]145-hamlin was going to be,—perhaps — perhaps [he]145-hamlin had got a little callous , living among [poets of this school]5255-poets of this school . Anyhow , they were things of the past , and [Anne]171-anne did not distress [herself]171-anne any longer about them , so foreign did they seem to [Hamlin]145-hamlin , so impossible was it to bring [them]5256-them into connection with the thought of [him]145-hamlin . [She]171-anne put the proofs into [her]171-anne pocket , and waited for an opportunity of giving them back . Before dinner , when [the guests]4917-the guests were safe out of the way , [she]171-anne called [Hamlin]145-hamlin into [the library]4639-the library . “[0-i] Here are the proofs , ” [she]171-anne said , laying them on the table . “[0-i] Have [you]2030-you read them already ? ” cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “[2030-you] how sweet of [you]2030-you ! Now tell [me]0-i what [you]2030-you think about them . ” [He]145-hamlin looked so cheerful , so utterly unconscious of the possibility of [Anne]171-anne ’s having anything to say disagreeable to [himself]145-hamlin and [herself]171-anne , that [she]171-anne began to feel nervous . “[2030-you] [I]0-i think they are most of them very beautiful , ” [she]171-anne answered slowly—“indeed[0-i] , quite some of the best things [you]2031-you have ever done — and especially those about [me]0-i ; [I]0-i am very grateful to [you]2031-you for them . [But”—she]350-but”—she resumed , after a moment ’s silence—“there[0-i] are some which [I]0-i dislike extremely , and which are utterly unworthy of [you]2031-you . [I]0-i have put them into the smaller roll by [themselves]2032-themselves . ” [She]171-anne spoke rapidly , decidedly , but when [she]171-anne had done [she]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne was crimson . [Hamlin]145-hamlin seemed quite speechless for astonishment . [He]145-hamlin quickly unrolled the smaller parcel , and glanced at its contents . A look of surprised ill‐humour crossed [his]145-hamlin face . “[2032-themselves] [I]0-i am quite astonished at [your]0-i choice , ” [he]145-hamlin said with affected coolness ; “[0-i] for these are the very sonnets which [Chough]248-chough and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun and all [[my]0-i other friends]2033-my other friends picked out as among [my]0-i best . ” So [he]145-hamlin had already provided [himself]145-hamlin with a stock of criticisms . “[248-chough] [I]0-i am no judge of [their]2032-themselves technical merits , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , trying to feel as if [she]0-i had expected this news . “[0-i] It seemed to [me]0-i that they were very excellent in workmanship , and there is beautiful imagery in them . But [I]0-i think the subject and tone of [them]2032-themselves horrible . ” [she]0-i spoke resolutely and unflinchingly , because [she]0-i saw [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s eyes fixed incredulously on [her]0-i . “[0-i] [You]0-i asked [me]0-i to give [you]0-i [my]0-i frank opinion ; and even had [you]0-i not asked [me]0-i , [I]0-i should have felt bound to tell [you]0-i that [I]0-i think those sonnets ought not to be published . Perhaps [you]0-i think it strange of [me]0-i to speak so openly ; but , of course , [I]0-i understand what [those sonnets]2034-those sonnets allude to , and , of course , so will [every grown‐up reader]2035-every grown‐up reader . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin bit [his]145-hamlin moustache . “[0-i] There is not a single word to which [any one]4101-any one can take objection in these sonnets , ” and [he]145-hamlin turned over the proofs . “[0-i] What do the words matter ? It is the meaning . [I]0-i think , ” and [Anne]171-anne vainly tried to soften down [her]171-anne expressions,—“I[0-i] think that those sonnets are things [you]0-i should be ashamed of . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s eyes flashed , but [he]145-hamlin kept [his]145-hamlin temper . “[0-i] Everything is legitimate for the sake of an artistic effect , ” [he]145-hamlin said , echoing the worn‐out aphorism of [[his]145-hamlin school]5209-his school . “[0-i] Even to do a disgraceful thing ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i can see nothing disgraceful in [a man]503-a man attempting to describe what has passed through [his]503-a man mind . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin spoke sullenly and doggedly . “[0-i] [You]0-i have shifted [your]0-i position , ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [You]0-i intimated just now that [a man]503-a man may pretend to anything for the sake of an artistic effect . And now [you]0-i are trying to make [me]0-i believe that [you]0-i really have felt and thought those horrible things . It is of no use . [You]0-i have not — ” “[0-i] How do [you]0-i know ? ” exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin , angrily . “[0-i] Do [you]0-i think [I]0-i tell [you]0-i everything that [I]0-i have ever done , or thought , or felt ? ” [Anne]171-anne was silent for a moment : that [he]145-hamlin should prefer to make [her]0-i believe in [his]145-hamlin own baseness ! It was horrible , loathsome , and , at the same time , pitiable and childish . “[0-i] [I]0-i know [you]0-i have not , ” [she]0-i repeated , “[0-i] because [I]0-i know [you]0-i to be [a gentleman]662-a gentleman . And [I]0-i know that all that is affectation — school affectation — learned from creatures like [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun and [Chough]248-chough ; [they]2040-they have all done it , or something of the sort , and [you]0-i have learned what comes naturally to [their]2040-they dirty minds . Oh , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , do not commit this abomination — this baseness of pretending to shameful things which [you]0-i have not felt or thought ; do not be so mean , so base , so lying , as to slander [yourself]0-i for the sake of an artistic effect . ” [Anne]171-anne had seized [his]145-hamlin arm ; [he]145-hamlin was shaken by [her]171-anne unexpected vehemence and passion ; [he]145-hamlin had never thought that [Anne]171-anne could become so passionate about anything ; [he]145-hamlin looked on , taken by surprise , not knowing what to think . “[0-i] Do not slander [yourself]0-i , ” repeated [Anne—“do]351-anne—“do[0-i] not blacken [your]0-i real self , which does not belong to [yourself]0-i alone , which belongs also to [[your]0-i friends]1635-your friends , to [your]0-i honour , which belongs in part to [me]0-i . Do not lie to [me]0-i about [yourself]0-i ! ” “[0-i] As [you]145-hamlin choose , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “[145-hamlin] perhaps [you]145-hamlin are right ; though , heaven knows , [I]0-i thought [myself]0-i , when writing those sonnets , but too bitterly in earnest . ” [Anne]171-anne ’s look — a look of incredulous contempt — smote [him]145-hamlin like a rod . “[0-i] [I]0-i suppose [I]0-i am apt to be morbid , ” [he]145-hamlin said , sadly ; “[0-i] that is the wretchedness of [my]0-i life , that [I]0-i never know where the truth about [myself]0-i really lies — it seems to [me]0-i that [I]0-i ought to speak out , and yet . . . ” “[0-i] And yet it is mere nonsense . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin smiled a forced smile . “[0-i] Perhaps it is . Since [you]145-hamlin are determined , [I]0-i suppose it must be . ” “[145-hamlin] [You]0-i wo n’t publish those sonnets ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , anxiously . “[0-i] [I]0-i will not , since they offend [you]0-i so much . But it is curious , that of [all the people to whom [I]0-i have shown [them]2042-all the people to whom i have shown them]2042-all the people to whom i have shown them , [you]145-hamlin are the only one who has taken the slightest exception to [them]2042-all the people to whom i have shown them . ” For a moment [Hamlin]145-hamlin had been overcome , had been delighted by this sudden burst of impetuosity , by this passionate belief in [him]145-hamlin and vindication of [himself]145-hamlin . But now , as [he]145-hamlin again glanced at the sonnets , [he]145-hamlin was once more annoyed and resentful . “[145-hamlin] Such things must be judged from a purely artistic standpoint , ” [he]145-hamlin said with some irritation . “[0-i] [I]0-i am willing to judge art from an artistic standpoint ; but [I]0-i can not judge from an artistic standpoint [an honourable man trying to defame [himself]2043-an honourable man trying to defame himself]2043-an honourable man trying to defame himself . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin sighed . “[2043-an honourable man trying to defame himself] Well , after all , [I]0-i bade [you]145-hamlin select , and the principal thing is that [you]145-hamlin should be satisfied . But it is a pity , because those were just the best sonnets in the book ; and the book will be very small without the ‘ Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens . ’ ” “[352-the fens’?—aren’t] The ‘ Ballad of [the Fens’?—aren’t]352-the fens’?—aren’t [you]0-i going to print that ? What do [you]0-i mean ? ” Could [Hamlin]145-hamlin be merely worrying [her]0-i , to vent [his]145-hamlin annoyance at the loss of the sonnets ? “[0-i] The ‘ Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens ’ has been torn up , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with a kind of dogged satisfaction . “[0-i] Oh , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ! How could [you]0-i — the finest thing [you]0-i have ever written . ” The ballad torn up ! “[0-i] [I]0-i know [you]145-hamlin thought it good , and so did [I]0-i [myself]0-i . But , on reflection , [I]0-i saw that [[my]0-i friends]1822-my friends were right , and that such a thing would not do . ” [He]145-hamlin spoke sharply , brutally , as if to bring home to [Anne]171-anne the unreliableness of [her]0-i judgment : [she]0-i had induced [him]145-hamlin to write it ; [she]0-i had praised it ; and [she]0-i wanted [him]145-hamlin to tear up those sonnets . “[0-i] It is a bad plan to keep things about which one is doubtful , ” [he]145-hamlin went on ; “[145-hamlin] so [I]0-i tore it up . [I]0-i think it was wiser ; do n’t [you]145-hamlin ? ” “[0-i] No , ” said [Anne]171-anne , in a husky voice which burst out in a way that almost frightened [him]145-hamlin ; “[0-i] no , no — it was . . . ” but [she]171-anne said no more . ONE morning [Hamlin]145-hamlin received two unexpected letters at breakfast . From [his]145-hamlin looks , which [he]145-hamlin was at all times quite unable to control , it was clear that one of them brought good news , while the other must be about some disagreeable matter . “[0-i] [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis is coming the day after to‐morrow , ” announced [Hamlin]145-hamlin to [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt , to [Anne]171-anne , and to [[his]145-hamlin guests]5261-his guests . There was a chorus of exclamations of surprise , sprinkled with pleasure . “[353-lewis] Who is [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne . “[353-lewis] [He]353-lewis is [an old friend of [mine]0-i]2045-an old friend of mine , [a charming fellow whom [I]0-i have not seen for some years]2046-a charming fellow whom i have not seen for some years . Some of the drawings in [the drawing‐room at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith]2047-the drawing‐room at hammersmith are by [him]353-lewis . ” [Anne]171-anne remembered the name , and the strange , beautiful , cruel , mysterious , out‐of‐drawing heads in crayon , which had curiously impressed [her]171-anne the first morning after [her]171-anne arrival in [England]37-england , rose before [her]171-anne eyes ; since then [she]171-anne had seen so many similar things , had got to understand so completely that mysterious , beautiful faces , with combed‐out hair , big weird eyes , and cruel lips , were so much school property , that [she]171-anne had become quite indifferent to them . “[353-lewis] [I]0-i thought [you]2048-you told [me]0-i that something strange had happened to [him]353-lewis — that [he]353-lewis had left [England]37-england for good , ” remarked [Anne]171-anne . “[2048-you] Oh , it was nothing particularly strange , ” interrupted [little O’Reilly—“only[2048-you] a German lady whom [he]353-lewis met one day , [blond , fat , thirty‐five]2049-blond , fat , thirty‐five , who was nothing but a soul — [you]2050-you know the sort of thing — with [a husband who was a great deal besides a soul]2051-a husband who was a great deal besides a soul ( [a charming man]2052-a charming man , for the rest , and quite wildly in love with [the Gnädige Frau]354-the gnädige frau )]5262-little o’reilly—“only a german lady whom he met one day , blond , fat , thirty‐five , who was nothing but a soul — you know the sort of thing — with a husband who was a great deal besides a soul ( a charming man , for the rest , and quite wildly in love with the gnädige frau ) . The excess of soul having induced acute neuralgia in [the lady]3881-the lady , poor [Teddy Lewis]355-teddy lewis , who is [a tremendous magnetiser]2054-a tremendous magnetiser , was called in to soothe [her]3881-the lady agonies , during which process [the lady]3881-the lady discovered that the soul‐sorrow and consequent neuralgia from which [she]3881-the lady suffered was due to the soullessness of [[her]3881-the lady husband]693-her husband , and that only the brotherly affection of [Ted]353-lewis could cure [her]3881-the lady . The difficulty was [the husband]4025-the husband , who loved [the lady]3881-the lady fervently , and [she]3881-the lady [him]4025-the husband , but not in a way which should satisfy [her]3881-the lady soul . Hence struggles , agonies , & c.—you’ve read it all in the ‘ Wahlverwandschaften’—finally ended by [the husband]4025-the husband being implored to sacrifice [himself]4025-the husband to the spiritual exigencies of [[his]4025-the husband adored wife]2060-his adored wife , which absolutely required that [he]4025-the husband should divorce [her]2060-his adored wife and let [her]2060-his adored wife marry [Lewis]353-lewis . That ’s all . ” “[353-lewis] How can [you]2061-you talk in such a flippant way , [Mr O’Reilly]2062-mr o’reilly ? ” cried [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer . “[2061-you] [You]2061-you have a way of making the most serious things seem ridiculous . [Poor Mrs Lewis]356-poor mrs lewis ! [she]356-poor mrs lewis ’s dead now ; [you]2061-you need n’t make fun of [her]356-poor mrs lewis . ” “[356-poor mrs lewis] [Poor Mrs Lewis]356-poor mrs lewis ! ” laughed [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly ; “[356-poor mrs lewis] well , [you]2061-you know [you]2061-you would n’t receive [her]356-poor mrs lewis , [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , when [she]356-poor mrs lewis first came to [England]37-england . ” “[2061-you] [I]0-i thought [her]356-poor mrs lewis [a designing woman]2063-a designing woman then ; [I]0-i did n’t know all the circumstances . ” “[0-i] Come now , [Edith]286-edith , ” interrupted [[her]286-edith father]4143-her father , in [his]4143-her father broad Scotch ; “[286-edith] [I]0-i think the less [ye]286-edith knew those circumstances the better it was for [all concerned]2064-all concerned . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t see that at all , [papa]3893-papa . [I]0-i do n’t see why [a woman]3960-a woman ’s happiness should be sacrificed , ” and [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , who was [the most devoted of [wives]5265-wives and [mothers]5266-mothers]5264-the most devoted of wives and mothers , tossed [her]0-i head rebelliously . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t see why [the world]496-the world should insist that [a woman]3960-a woman is to be satisfied with [a husband who is good to [her]3960-a woman and [her]3960-a woman children]2069-a husband who is good to her and her children . After all , [she]3960-a woman has a soul , and that requires response . ” “[356-poor mrs lewis] Would [you]0-i behave as [Mrs Lewis]356-poor mrs lewis did ? ” asked [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly , “[0-i] If — well — let [me]0-i see — [Mr Spencer]357-mr spencer were suddenly to develop an overpowering belief in [the Royal Academy]97-the royal academy and in [Zola]95-zola ? ” “[185-papa] [Papa]185-papa would never have let [me]0-i marry [a man who could ever develop such beliefs]2070-a man who could ever develop such beliefs . ” At this perfectly solemn answer there was a general laugh ; even poor Mr Spencer , who was [the most timid of [æsthetical persons]5268-æsthetical persons]5267-the most timid of æsthetical persons , joining . “[185-papa] [I]0-i think it was rather hard on [poor Ted Lewis]353-lewis , ” remarked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[0-i] to become necessary to the soul of [a lady]3943-a lady whether [he]353-lewis liked it or no . ” “[0-i] Oh , [Lewis]353-lewis liked it well enough , be sure of that , ” answered [Chough]248-chough , bitterly . “[353-lewis] Do n’t [you]0-i think it was rather hard upon [the husband]4025-the husband , ” suggested [Anne]171-anne , “[0-i] since [he]4025-the husband really cared for [[his]4025-the husband wife]700-his wife ? Fancy being abandoned like that , and [[his]4025-the husband children]4938-his children left without [a mother]2075-a mother ! ” “[4025-the husband] [He]4025-the husband was at liberty to marry again , ” replied [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer sharply , still thinking of what [she]288-mrs spencer would do if by any chance [Mr Spencer]357-mr spencer were to suddenly disbelieve in [[her]288-mrs spencer father]4143-her father and [[his]4025-the husband school]5209-his school . “[4025-the husband] What would [you]0-i have had [Lewis]353-lewis , or rather [the poor Baroness]2076-the poor baroness , do , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ” asked [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly . “[171-anne] Why , [I]0-i would have [them]2077-them never dream of [each other]594-each other ; but if [they]2077-them had been so foolish , be ashamed as soon as possible , and each go [his]4025-the husband and [her]2079-her way , and attend to [his]4025-the husband and [her]2079-her proper concerns . ” [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , [who had sat silent at the other end of the table]5271-who had sat silent at the other end of the table , propped up on [his]347-dennistoun chair , suddenly stretched out [his]347-dennistoun long neck , and gobbled out — “[2079-her] Love permits [no man]4317-no man or [woman]2081-woman to resist : it is imperious , irresistible , dragging [us]2082-us along to happiness , or misery , or shame , whether [we]2082-us will or not . Love is the extinction of the reason , the extinction of the will , or rather the merging of the whole individuality in one mysterious desire . [Those who can talk of resistance]2083-those who can talk of resistance have never experienced love . Woe to [them]2083-those who can talk of resistance ! [their]2083-those who can talk of resistance hour is coming!”—and [he]347-dennistoun tried to fix [his]347-dennistoun weak eyes on [Anne]171-anne . “[2083-those who can talk of resistance] Well , ” [she]0-i answered quickly , “[2083-those who can talk of resistance] [I]0-i hope [I]0-i may never make such a disgusting fool of [myself]0-i as [you]2084-you describe , [Mr Dennistoun]347-dennistoun ; but as [I]0-i think that [not everybody]2085-not everybody is liable to go mad , so also [I]0-i think that [not everybody]2085-not everybody is liable to falling in love in [your]2084-you sense of the word . ” [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly leaned over the back of [her]0-i chair . “[2085-not everybody] It happens only to [those who want to write about it]2087-those who want to write about it , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” [he]353-lewis whispered . “[171-anne] Anyhow , ” remarked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[353-lewis] [Lewis]353-lewis is [a charming fellow]2088-a charming fellow , and [I]0-i am sure [you]171-anne will appreciate [him]353-lewis , [Miss Brown]171-anne . [He]353-lewis is , moreover , [the most backbitten man in creation]2089-the most backbitten man in creation , ” and [Hamlin]145-hamlin glanced round the table ; “[353-lewis] but [you]171-anne must never believe any harm of [him]353-lewis . ” Perhaps , thought [Anne]171-anne , [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis was disliked by this set for the same reasons which , [she]171-anne could not help understanding , were beginning to make [her]171-anne vaguely unpopular . Still , [she]171-anne did not like the story of [his]353-lewis marriage , [she]171-anne did not like the recollection of [his]353-lewis morbidly beautiful drawings . “[171-anne] It ’s good news about [Lewis]353-lewis , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin to [her]2090-a cousin of mine after breakfast ; “[353-lewis] but unfortunately there ’s been rather a bothering letter also . Did [I]0-i ever mention [a cousin of mine]2090-a cousin of mine , [the daughter of [[papa]3893-papa ’s sister]2093-papa ’s sister and of [a horrible Russian creature called [Polozoff]358-sacha]2094-a horrible russian creature called polozoff]2091-the daughter of papa ’s sister and of a horrible russian creature called polozoff ? [She]2090-a cousin of mine was brought up with [us]2095-us as [a child]623-a child , and is connected with a great many painful circumstances . [I]0-i have completely lost sight of [her]2090-a cousin of mine since [she]2090-a cousin of mine was about fifteen , and now [I]0-i suddenly get a letter from [her]2090-a cousin of mine telling [me]0-i that [[her]2090-a cousin of mine husband]693-her husband is dead , and that [she]2090-a cousin of mine is coming to [England]37-england . [I]0-i rather loathe the idea of [her]2090-a cousin of mine , and if [you]2098-you knew the part [she]2090-a cousin of mine played in [this house]4073-this house fifteen years ago , [you]2098-you could understand it . But the worst is that [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia perfectly abhorred [her]2090-a cousin of mine — [I]0-i will tell [you]2098-you the horrible , prosaic , tragic story some day — and that [I]0-i perfectly dread having to break the news to [her]2090-a cousin of mine . [I]0-i do hate a scene so ! There [she]2090-a cousin of mine is ; [I]0-i suppose [I]0-i ’d better tell [her]2090-a cousin of mine . ” [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor was walking slowly up and down the gravel walk before [the house]509-the house . “[2090-a cousin of mine] Do come and keep [me]0-i in countenance . It really is no fault of [mine]0-i , but [I]0-i know [[my]0-i aunt]4294-my aunt will be furious . ” “[4294-my aunt] What ’s the matter ? ” cried [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor suspiciously , as if expecting to be told something disagreeable . “[0-i] [I]0-i wanted to tell [you]2098-you , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[247-aunt claudia] that [I]0-i had a letter this morning . ” “[0-i] Yes , [I]0-i know , from [[your]2098-you dear]2101-your dear [Lewis]353-lewis , ” interrupted [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[353-lewis] What ’s that to [me]0-i ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t mean that one . [I]0-i had a letter from — guess from whom ? ” and [Hamlin]145-hamlin tried to smile—“from[359-sacha] [Cousin Sacha]359-sacha . ” [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor recoiled as if [she]243-mrs macgregor had trodden on a toad . “[359-sacha] From whom ? ” “[359-sacha] From [Cousin Sacha]359-sacha . [Sacha Polozoff]358-sacha — [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , [I]0-i suppose [I]0-i ought to call [her]358-sacha . ” For a moment there was a dead silence . [The old lady]1153-the old lady ’s face , usually so vacant , was lit up into a terrific energy of anger . “[358-sacha] What business has [she]358-sacha to write to [you]0-i ? ” “[358-sacha] Well , really , [aunt]1579-aunt , [I]0-i do n’t see why [she]358-sacha should n’t , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[358-sacha] After all , [we]2103-we are [cousins]2104-cousins , and [we]2103-we have never openly quarrelled . ” [[My]2105-you aunt]4294-my aunt , “[2105-you] [he]2105-you explained , turning to [Anne]171-anne , ” has got a tremendous aversion — a prejudice — towards [this one and only cousin of [mine]2105-you]5275-this one and only cousin of mine . [She]4294-my aunt disliked [[her]4294-my aunt father]4143-her father , very reasonably , and [I]2105-you think [she]4294-my aunt has let [her]4294-my aunt dislike descend to [the second generation]5277-the second generation rather unreasonably . “[2105-you] ” Unreasonably ! “[243-mrs macgregor] exclaimed [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ; ” [you]2105-you know it was not unreasonable , [Walter]145-hamlin — [you]2105-you know what [that Cousin Sacha of [yours]2105-you]5278-that cousin sacha of yours was in [this house]4073-this house . “[243-mrs macgregor] ” [I]145-hamlin know nothing of the sort , “[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , angrily . ” [I]145-hamlin know that [Sacha]359-sacha lived in [this house]4073-this house as [a child]623-a child ; [I]145-hamlin know [she]359-sacha left [it]4073-this house as [a child]623-a child ; [I]145-hamlin know [we]5283-we all hated [her]359-sacha and [hers]359-sacha , and that perhaps [they]5283-we deserved it ; but [I]145-hamlin know that [we]5283-we have no right to hate [a woman of whom [we]5283-we know nothing]5284-a woman of whom we know nothing , because [she]2106-she happened to have been [a badly brought up child]5285-a badly brought up child , years ago . “[145-hamlin] At all events , ” went on [Hamlin]145-hamlin , “[0-i] [I]0-i insist upon [her]2106-she being properly treated as [a lady]3943-a lady , and [a relation]2108-a relation . ” “[0-i] Properly treated ! ” almost foamed out [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt . “[0-i] Do [you]0-i mean to say that [she]2106-she is coming [here]3884-here ? ” “[0-i] Not here ; but to [London]4-london . [[Her]2106-she husband]693-her husband is dead ; and [she]2106-she writes to [me]0-i that [she]2106-she thinks [she]2106-she had better send [[her]2106-she boy]2111-her boy to [an English school]2112-an english school ; and as [the only person in [England]37-england]2113-the only person in england upon whom [she]2106-she has a claim — ” “[2106-she] A pretty claim ! ” interrupted [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . “[2106-she] As [[her]2106-she first cousin]2114-her first cousin , [she]2106-she has written to [me]0-i for information and assistance . ” “[2106-she] And [you]0-i are going to give it [her]2106-she , [Walter]145-hamlin ? ” “[0-i] Of course [I]0-i am . And [I]0-i hope , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , that [you]247-aunt claudia will remember that [I]0-i wo n’t be disgraced towards [a lady who has done [us]2116-us no harm]2115-a lady who has done us no harm . [She]2106-she will be in [London]4-london , most likely , when [we]2116-us return at the beginning of winter . ” [Anne]171-anne had heard many allusions to [this Cousin Sacha]5287-this cousin sacha , and they belonged to that class of cynical hints which always made [her]171-anne indignant with [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . [She]171-anne instinctively took part with [this unknown woman]5288-this unknown woman , and [she]171-anne admired [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s decision and generosity . Why did [he]145-hamlin not always act like this ? “[2106-she] [That child]4205-that child — that [Sacha]359-sacha , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , when [Hamlin]145-hamlin had left [them]5289-them , “[4205-that child] was [the evil genius of [[his]2119-his house]2120-his house]2118-the evil genius of his house . [She]4205-that child was sent as if to embody all the bad tendencies of [the family]2121-the family . [It]2120-his house was [a miserable house]2122-a miserable house at best , [[my]0-i brother‐in‐law]2123-my brother‐in‐law ’s , for [he]2119-his was [a weak , vicious , violent man]2124-a weak , vicious , violent man . But just when [this wretched child]2125-this wretched child was brought to [us]2126-us [[my]0-i sister]2127-my sister had died , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin was very much shaken and repentant for the life [he]145-hamlin had led [her]2127-my sister , and [I]0-i really believe that [he]145-hamlin had made up [his]145-hamlin mind to live decently for the sake of [[his]145-hamlin children]4938-his children . [The two boys]5089-the two boys were growing up , and there seemed some chance of things going quietly and happily . Then [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin thought fit to invite [home]4170-home [[his]145-hamlin sister]2131-his sister , who was [a widow]5113-a widow ; [she]2131-his sister had married [a horrible Russian]2133-a horrible russian , [a sort of indecent madman]2134-a sort of indecent madman , with every possible vice under the sun . [She]2131-his sister was [an odious woman]2135-an odious woman [herself]2131-his sister , [the regular slave‐driving type of [the Hamlins]361-the hamlins]2136-the regular slave‐driving type of the hamlins . Oh , [you]2137-you ca n’t judge of [them]2138-them from [Walter]145-hamlin ; [he]145-hamlin ’s like [[my]0-i sister]2127-my sister , not like [them]2138-them . Well , [she]2131-his sister was violent , and overbearing , and tyrannical , and lazy , and hysterical , like [a regular Jamaica woman]2140-a regular jamaica woman . [She]2131-his sister was enough in [the house]509-the house ; but then [she]2131-his sister had [this child of [hers]2131-his sister]2142-this child of hers , [this Sacha]2143-this sacha , with [her]2131-his sister — a wretched , neglected creature , brought up by [French servants]2144-french servants , who were [[[her]2131-his sister father]4143-her father ’s mistresses , and literally with no more idea of right and wrong than any of [the little heathens whom [they]2144-french servants pick out of gutters in [the East End]98-the east end and send to [reformatories]2148-reformatories]2147-the little heathens whom they pick out of gutters in the east end and send to reformatories]2146-her father ’s mistresses , and literally with no more idea of right and wrong than any of the little heathens whom they pick out of gutters in the east end and send to reformatories . ” “[4378-poor child] [Poor child]4378-poor child ! ” said [Anne]171-anne . [She]171-anne shuddered at this glimpse into [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s early life ; it had a horrible attraction for [her]171-anne , and yet [she]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne would far rather know nothing about it . All this filth seemed to cling to [her]171-anne mind and soil it . “[4378-poor child] How horrible for [her]2131-his sister ! ” “[2131-his sister] [She]2131-his sister was about twelve when [she]2131-his sister came to [us]2150-us , ” went on [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor meditatively , “[2131-his sister] and [you]2151-you could n’t believe that [such a child]2152-such a child could exist in [Christendom]99-christendom . [She]2131-his sister could no more spell the simplest word than [I]0-i can speak Arabic ; [she]2131-his sister spoke an awful jargon of English and French and Russian and German , and [she]2131-his sister used to talk about things , and repeat stories which [she]2131-his sister had heard from [[her]2131-his sister nurses]2153-her nurses , or [[her]2131-his sister father]4143-her father , or [[[her]2131-his sister father]4143-her father ’s friends]2156-her father ’s friends — [I]0-i do n’t know whom — that were enough to make [your]2151-you hair stand on end . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin was in perfect despair ; because , although [he]145-hamlin was [a vicious sort of man [himself]145-hamlin , and quite did [[my]0-i poor sister]2158-my poor sister]2157-a vicious sort of man himself , and quite did my poor sister to death with [his]145-hamlin bad conduct , [he]145-hamlin was awfully strict about all [his]145-hamlin kith and kin , and kept [the boys]2159-the boys as tight as if [he]145-hamlin had been [a Puritan]2160-a puritan . What [we]2161-we all had to go through , [you]2151-you have no idea . At first [I]0-i was quite ashamed to let [any governess]2162-any governess see [such a little heathen as that child]2163-such a little heathen as that child was , and [we]2161-we had to pay [the governesses]2164-the governesses double wages to keep [them]2164-the governesses on . Then , every time that [they]2164-the governesses tried to break [Sacha]359-sacha off some one of [her]359-sacha disgusting ways , [[her]359-sacha mother]1278-her mother , who was always moaning and groaning with imaginary maladies on [her]1278-her mother sofa , and no more thought of [[her]1278-her mother daughter]2166-her daughter than of [the man in the moon]2167-the man in the moon , would go into hysterics and throw things in [their]2164-the governesses face , and have [them]2164-the governesses turned away , and keep [Sacha]359-sacha for a day in [[her]359-sacha room]1374-her room , kissing [her]359-sacha and giving [her]359-sacha sweets . Well , [we]2161-we thought [we]2161-we were little by little getting the better of [her]359-sacha ; and then , thank goodness , [Madame Polozoff]362-madame polozoff , that was [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s sister]2169-mr hamlin ’s sister , died . [Sacha]359-sacha learned a few things , and began to behave a little more like [a Christian child]2170-a christian child ; but it was only on the surface . [She]359-sacha was utterly and thoroughly corrupt . When [the boys]2159-the boys returned from [school]1094-school ( [Arnold]340-arnold was sixteen , and [Walter]145-hamlin seventeen ) , the mischief began . [That wretched [Sacha]359-sacha]2173-that wretched sacha fell madly in love with [Walter]145-hamlin , and began running after [him]145-hamlin ; but [Walter]145-hamlin perfectly loathed the sight of [her]359-sacha : [he]145-hamlin was always [the cold , moral , irreproachable sort of creature that [he]145-hamlin is]2174-the cold , moral , irreproachable sort of creature that he is . Then [she]359-sacha went after [Arnold]340-arnold . [Arnold]340-arnold was much [the livelier of [the two]1016-the two]2175-the livelier of the two : [he]340-arnold was [a dear , warm‐ hearted , simple sort of boy]2177-a dear , warm‐ hearted , simple sort of boy , [a perfect scapegrace]2178-a perfect scapegrace , always in pickles , but [we]2179-we only liked [him]340-arnold the better . But [that wretched Sacha]359-sacha ( [he]340-arnold did n’t care a rap about [her]359-sacha either , for [she]359-sacha was a horrid , lying , sickly , stunted little thing ) , in order to curry favour with [him]340-arnold , put [him]340-arnold up to all sorts of mischief , which [I]0-i suppose [she]359-sacha had learned from [[her]359-sacha precious father]2180-her precious father and [[his]2180-her precious father servants]2181-his servants . What was [poor Arnold]340-arnold to know ? [The nasty little fiend]2182-the nasty little fiend used to get out of bed and unlock the house‐door for [him]340-arnold , so that [he]340-arnold might go in and out at night and get into scrapes with [the village girls]2183-the village girls , and drink at [the pot‐house]2184-the pot‐house ; and [she]359-sacha used to steal the wine and the brandy out of the cupboards for [him]340-arnold , and teach [him]340-arnold all sorts of ungentlemanly , knavish , lying ways ; [I]0-i believe [she]359-sacha used even to give [him]340-arnold money out of [her]359-sacha savings , just for [him]340-arnold to go to [the pot‐house]2184-the pot‐house . If ever [a boy]2186-a boy was ruined by [a woman]3960-a woman , poor [Arnold]340-arnold was ruined by [that miserable Sacha]359-sacha . Then , in return for [her]359-sacha assistance and [her]359-sacha lies and [her]359-sacha money , [he]340-arnold had to pretend to like [her]359-sacha , to kiss [her]359-sacha , and call [her]359-sacha [[his]340-arnold darling little cousin]2188-his darling little cousin , and promise to marry [her]359-sacha , whom [he]340-arnold abominated . Meanwhile [Walter]145-hamlin went dreaming on as [he]145-hamlin always has , avoiding [Sacha]359-sacha like the plague , and not perceiving any of the pretty doings of [[his]145-hamlin brother]5101-his brother ; and [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , who thought that [[his]145-hamlin house]2120-his house , just because [it]2120-his house was [[his]145-hamlin house]2120-his house , must be [the palace of virtue]2192-the palace of virtue , and [[his]145-hamlin son]2193-his son , because [he]2193-his son was [[his]145-hamlin son]2193-his son , must be [the most obedient and austere boy in [the world]496-the world]2195-the most obedient and austere boy in the world , took to liking [Sacha]359-sacha and [her]359-sacha pretty , foreign little ways , and to think [her]359-sacha quite [a nice little girl]2197-a nice little girl , just [the wife for one of [[his]145-hamlin sons]2199-his sons]2198-the wife for one of his sons . Then one day ( [I]0-i suppose [Sacha]359-sacha thought that poor [Arnold]340-arnold did not kiss [her]359-sacha and [darling little Sacha]359-sacha [her]359-sacha enough , or got jealous or something ) [they]2200-they had a great row , and [Arnold]340-arnold called [her]359-sacha [a liar]2201-a liar , and said that if [she]359-sacha were not [a girl]4122-a girl [he]340-arnold would thrash [her]359-sacha well . So [Sacha]359-sacha rushed off sobbing to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , and told [him]145-hamlin that [Arnold]340-arnold had called [her]359-sacha [a liar]2201-a liar , and had threatened to beat [her]359-sacha ; and [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin called [Arnold]340-arnold , and struck [him]340-arnold in the face till [his]340-arnold nose bled , and called [him]340-arnold [a coward]2204-a coward and [a brute]4487-a brute , and swore [he]145-hamlin would cut [him]340-arnold off with a shilling . Then it all came out about [Arnold]340-arnold ’s escapades , [his]340-arnold nights at [the pot‐house]2184-the pot‐house , and so forth ; and of course [[his]340-arnold father]2207-his father said that all [he]2207-his father said about [Sacha]359-sacha ’s putting [him]340-arnold up to it was a pack of lies , and finally it ended with [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin behaving in such a way that poor [Arnold]340-arnold ran away to [America]7-america . Then [we]2208-we had no news of [him]340-arnold for about six months , and [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin wanted to take [Walter]145-hamlin into [his]145-hamlin good graces , although [he]145-hamlin had never cared for [him]145-hamlin , and [Sacha]359-sacha tried to make up to [Walter]145-hamlin . But [Walter]145-hamlin also ran away to [[his]145-hamlin uncle]1281-his uncle , because [he]145-hamlin said [he]145-hamlin would not stay unless [Arnold]340-arnold was recalled , or at least money were sent to [him]340-arnold . So [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin had to give in and send for [Arnold]340-arnold ; but meanwhile [he]145-hamlin had quarrelled with [Sacha]359-sacha , and packed [her]359-sacha off to [[her]359-sacha Russian relatives]2210-her russian relatives , who sent [her]359-sacha to [some German deaconesses on [the Rhine]54-the rhine]2211-some german deaconesses on the rhine — [a nice child to bring up]2212-a nice child to bring up ! [Walter]145-hamlin returned , and began to prepare for [the university]2213-the university ; then [Arnold]340-arnold was got back from [America]7-america ; but [he]340-arnold had only got into worse and worse ways — [he]340-arnold was always drunk , and finally [his]340-arnold mind began to give way . [Poor Arnold]341-arnold ! [he]340-arnold was much , much nicer than [Walter]145-hamlin — such [a bright , good‐humoured , manly fellow]2214-a bright , good‐humoured , manly fellow — and now . . . ” “[340-arnold] Now ? ” repeated [Anne]171-anne in astonishment ; [she]171-anne had listened without saying a word to this horrible page of family history . “[340-arnold] Now ? Do [you]2215-you mean that [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s brother]2216-mr hamlin ’s brother is alive ? ” [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor looked at [her]171-anne with strange wide eyes . “[2216-mr hamlin ’s brother] Of course [he]2216-mr hamlin ’s brother is . [We]2217-we say [he]2216-mr hamlin ’s brother is dead ; or if not dead , mad . Well , [he]2216-mr hamlin ’s brother might as soon be either , [poor boy]2218-poor boy . [He]2216-mr hamlin ’s brother wanders about with [a servant]4125-a servant . [Walter]145-hamlin allows [him]2216-mr hamlin ’s brother some money . [We]2217-we never talk of [him]2216-mr hamlin ’s brother . Ah ! ” cried [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , and it was a kind of suppressed cry of pain—“and[358-sacha] that it is all , all owing to [Sacha Polozoff]358-sacha ; and [she]358-sacha has the insolence to write to [Walter]145-hamlin ! ” [Anne]171-anne did not know what to say . “[358-sacha] But , ” [she]171-anne could not help saying after a minute , for it seemed to [her]171-anne as if the whole story were so unjust , so one‐sided , as if there were so much too much laid at the door of [the unhappy , neglected , corrupt child]5290-the unhappy , neglected , corrupt child — so much too little pity or indignation shown at [her]171-anne having been thus neglected and [corrupted,—“but]363-corrupted,—“but[247-aunt claudia] , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia — is it fair to put it all down to [Sacha]358-sacha ? After all , [Arnold]341-arnold was sixteen , [he]341-arnold was [a man]503-a man , [he]341-arnold had been decently brought up — and [she]2221-she , [she]2221-she was [an ignorant child]2222-an ignorant child , brought up as [you]2223-you say without idea of right or wrong . Do n’t [you]2223-you think — oh , do n’t [you]2223-you think , [auntie dear]2224-auntie dear , that it was mainly the fault of [old Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , and [his]145-hamlin bad example , and [his]145-hamlin closing [his]145-hamlin eyes to [[his]145-hamlin boy]2225-his boy ’s behaviour ? ” It seemed to [her]2221-she so frightful that [a girl]4122-a girl , [a child]623-a child , [a victim]5293-a victim , just because [she]4122-a girl was [a victim]5293-a victim , should have such a weight of guilt thrown upon [her]4122-a girl . “[145-hamlin] [She]2221-she was [a woman]3960-a woman , and [he]145-hamlin was [a man]503-a man , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor fiercely , [her]243-mrs macgregor love for [[her]243-mrs macgregor lost nephew]5295-her lost nephew , and [her]243-mrs macgregor strange theories of sexual influences mixing grotesquely and tragically—“and[3960-a woman] [a woman]3960-a woman can always do what [she]3960-a woman will with [a man]503-a man ; [a woman]3960-a woman can always , unless [she]3960-a woman be as weak as [[my]0-i poor sister]2158-my poor sister , ruin or save [a Hamlin]145-hamlin , ever since [Walter]145-hamlin ’s great‐uncle [Mordaunt]144-hamlin went to the bad , even worse than poor [Arnold]341-arnold . ” “[2232-them] Some of [them]2232-them , ” [she]0-i said after a moment , “[2232-them] are good , and some are bad : [[my]0-i brother‐in‐law]2123-my brother‐in‐law was bad — [Arnold]341-arnold was good , and [Walter]145-hamlin is good ; but [they]2232-them are all as weak as water , these [Hamlins]361-the hamlins — weak in goodness or badness , [every one of [them]2232-them]2234-every one of them . ” [Anne]171-anne sighed . And as [she]171-anne walked through [the big , stately rooms of [Wotton House]100-wotton house]5296-the big , stately rooms of wotton house , [she]171-anne thought of the horrible scenes which had happened in [there]4426-there ; of the waste of life by violence and vice and neglect which [they]2232-them had witnessed ; especially of [that wretched , vicious child]5298-that wretched , vicious child , held so terribly responsible for the folly and wickedness of others . And the sense of the terrible power of circumstances , of the degradation into which [others]4163-others may lead one , or out of which [others]4163-others may raise one , which had been silently growing in [her]171-anne as [she]171-anne watched [the world]496-the world in [her]171-anne tragic way , came over [her]171-anne with a terrifying rush ; and [she]171-anne felt , half in anxiety at scarcely escaped danger , half in joy at safety , a tumult of gratitude when [she]171-anne remembered how [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin had raised [her]171-anne up , led [her]171-anne out of the way of all temptation and evil contact , and left [her]171-anne safe and strong as [she]171-anne knew [herself]171-anne to be . As the summer changed into autumn , [the guests at [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall]5302-the guests at wotton hall were gradually renewed . [Chough]248-chough remained , and at [Anne]171-anne ’s particular desire sent for [[his]145-hamlin two little girls]5303-his two little girls , sad , strange , Cockney creatures , to whom [the large house]5107-the large house , [the garden]675-the garden , the country walks and country sights , were as things of [another world]1540-another world . But [the Spencers]342-the spencers , [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , and [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly departed ; and in [their]5303-his two little girls place arrived [the two Leigh girls]5307-the two leigh girls and [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . [The last‐named gentleman]5308-the last‐named gentleman did not by any means strike [Anne]171-anne as a fascinating being . [He]5308-the last‐named gentleman was [a stumpy , high‐shouldered , thick‐set little man]5309-a stumpy , high‐shouldered , thick‐set little man , always very slackly dressed , with small , rather handsome features , and a profusion of curly reddish hair and beard , which made [his]5308-the last‐named gentleman face look even more like unbaked dough than it might otherwise have done . [Some people]5310-some people considered [him]5308-the last‐named gentleman very handsome , and it was obvious that [he]5308-the last‐named gentleman [himself]5308-the last‐named gentleman felt as if [he]5308-the last‐named gentleman were tall ; for [he]5308-the last‐named gentleman stumped and slouched in and out of [rooms]5311-rooms with [his]5308-the last‐named gentleman hands in [his]5308-the last‐named gentleman pockets , and dropped on to chairs and sofas with the heavy importance of gait of [a Hercules]5312-a hercules . Nothing could be more comic than the contrast between [this lumbering and solemn redhaired dwarf]5313-this lumbering and solemn redhaired dwarf and [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , black , fierce , alert , courteous , and grandiloquent . [Lewis]353-lewis was silent ; but when [he]353-lewis spoke [he]353-lewis fixed [his]353-lewis handsome eyes searchingly upon one , and either trailed [his]353-lewis voice along with slow emphasis , or answered in monosyllables , which left in [you]5314-you an uncomfortable feeling of having made some inappropriate or impertinent remark . [He]353-lewis had , moreover , lips of the colour of the very best sealing‐wax ; a peculiarity which , while decidedly adding to the pictorial value of [a red‐haired man]5315-a red‐haired man , has a something quite particularly repulsive to [certain people , among whom [Anne Brown]171-anne]5316-certain people , among whom anne brown must be counted . However , [she]171-anne tried to like [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis . In some respects [he]353-lewis was a more genuine personality than [Chough]248-chough , or [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , or almost [any other of [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s æsthetic friends]5318-hamlin ’s æsthetic friends]5317-any other of hamlin ’s æsthetic friends . [He]353-lewis did not make [himself]353-lewis up — manner , appearance , ideas , or words — to look like anything which [he]353-lewis was not , or at all events which [he]353-lewis did not thoroughly believe [himself]353-lewis to be ; and [he]353-lewis was , moreover , much more in the way of will and definite tendencies , and felt [himself]353-lewis ( however mistakenly ) to be much more in the way of power , character , and importance , than [any other man whom [Anne]171-anne had ever come across , except [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Richard]223-richard brown , between whom and [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis there existed , despite a thousand differences , a certain resemblance]5319-any other man whom anne had ever come across , except her cousin richard , between whom and edmund lewis there existed , despite a thousand differences , a certain resemblance . And perhaps it was exactly this resemblance to [Richard Brown,—a man whom [Anne]171-anne did not exactly like]5321-richard brown,—a man whom anne did not exactly like , nay , who even occasionally repelled [her]171-anne a little , but of whose power and truthfulness and generosity [Anne]171-anne could not doubt,—perhaps it was this resemblance , however vague it might be , which made [Anne]171-anne for some time believe that [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , little as [he]353-lewis pleased [her]171-anne , might be [a remarkable sort of man]5322-a remarkable sort of man , and treat [Chough]248-chough ’s insinuations against [him]353-lewis as merely another instance of that childish unreasonableness of likings and dislikings , which , together with vanity and weakness of will , [she]171-anne had got to associate with a poetic endowment . Over [Hamlin]145-hamlin , at all events , [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis had an undeniable influence ; an influence which [he]353-lewis [himself]353-lewis avowedly attributed to [his]353-lewis magnetic powers , which [he]353-lewis would exert , or imagine that [he]353-lewis exerted , sitting lazily opposite [[his]353-lewis friends]893-his friends or [victims]5324-victims , staring vaguely at [them]5324-victims and speaking in [his]353-lewis slow , important voice . [He]353-lewis was [a painter]500-a painter , in an irregular sort of way , [himself]353-lewis , and took much more interest in [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s art than in [his]353-lewis poetry ; so that [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who was sick of versifying for the moment , had a fit of painting once more , and spent hours locked up in [[his]145-hamlin studio]1124-his studio with [Lewis]353-lewis , while [poor Cosmo Chough]248-chough was more and more thrown upon [Anne]171-anne and [[her]171-anne friends]1459-her friends . But [the girls]1418-the girls had got to understand [Chough]248-chough , and the fund of kindness and self‐sacrificing gentleness which was hidden beneath [the little man]4944-the little man ’s poetical thin‐skinnedness and the queer poetical veneer of mystic wickedness which [he]353-lewis [himself]353-lewis did not understand . [He]353-lewis could not by any possibility be broken of [his]353-lewis tendency to talk overmuch about [Messalina]365-messalina , [Lucretia Borgia]275-lucretia borgia , and [La Belle Heaulmière]366-la belle heaulmière ; but by this time it was quite obvious that [he]353-lewis had not the smallest experience of [ladies of any such character]5330-ladies of any such character , still less the faintest thought of giving offence by [his]353-lewis allusions to [them]5330-ladies of any such character . To [Anne]171-anne [he]353-lewis was utterly devoted : [he]353-lewis was fascinated by [her]171-anne beauty , afraid of its tragic earnestness , afraid of [her]171-anne downright , quiet manner , afraid of [her]171-anne silent contemptuousness , of [her]171-anne uncompromising censoriousness ; but if ever [a person]1140-a person appreciated [Anne]171-anne ’s kindness , [her]171-anne energy , [her]171-anne imperious desire of helping [others]4163-others , it was [Chough]248-chough . [Anne]171-anne had often spoken to [him]353-lewis about the neglected education of [[his]353-lewis little girls]5333-his little girls ; not reproachfully , for [she]171-anne knew but too well on what it depended , but trying to stir [him]353-lewis up to resist the sort of fatality which seemed to hang over [his]353-lewis family concerns . And now [she]171-anne insisted on taking [the children]3862-the children ’s education into [her]171-anne own hands , until [Chough]248-chough should be able to afford sending [them]3862-the children to [a proper school]5335-a proper school . Perhaps the thought of [that neglected , unconsciously corrupted , terribly responsible little heathen girl , who had done so much mischief in [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall fifteen years before]5336-that neglected , unconsciously corrupted , terribly responsible little heathen girl , who had done so much mischief in wotton hall fifteen years before , had something to do with [Anne]171-anne ’s energetic behaviour towards [the little Choughs]367-the little choughs — to whom , every morning regularly , [she]171-anne gave a two hours ’ lesson in grammar and writing and history , as complete as if [she]171-anne had been [a schoolmistress]5337-a schoolmistress and [they]3862-the children [[her]171-anne pupils]5338-her pupils ; until [[their]3862-the children father]902-their father , astonished at [their]3862-the children unexpected development of human faculties , took it in [his]902-their father head to turn [them]3862-the children into [first‐rate musicians]5340-first‐rate musicians , and actually got up at six in the morning to teach [them]3862-the children the piano , while [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [Lewis]353-lewis were still asleep . [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , who had considered [Anne]171-anne in the light of [an irresponsible but decidedly objectionable æsthetic villain on [her]171-anne departure from [London]4-london]5341-an irresponsible but decidedly objectionable æsthetic villain on her departure from london , looked on in puzzled amazement . [She]249-marjory could not understand how [any one so beautiful , so versed in useless literature and useless art]5342-any one so beautiful , so versed in useless literature and useless art , [any one whom [[her]249-marjory foolish elder sister]5344-her foolish elder sister foolishly adored]5343-any one whom her foolish elder sister foolishly adored , could be anxious and able to make [herself]249-marjory of use in [the world]496-the world . And even [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , in [her]324-mary leigh gentle , ironical way , was astonished at [Anne]171-anne ’s new vocation , and adored [her]324-mary leigh all the more enthusiastically for it . [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor hinted , in [her]243-mrs macgregor affectionate cynical manner , that [Anne]171-anne was mistaking for a desire to be useful to [[Chough]248-chough ’s children]5346-chough ’s children the mere imperious necessity of caring for some one , which was the vicarious form of love ; and prophesied archly that , once married , [Anne]171-anne would soon be satisfied with uselessness . [Anne]171-anne smiled contemptuously at [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s theories . Yet [she]171-anne was as unaware as was [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor [herself]243-mrs macgregor , that there was indeed an imperious necessity in [her]171-anne nature — a necessity more personal , more selfish , and more terrible than [her]171-anne mere desire to be of use . In these four months [Anne]171-anne had gradually , and hitherto unconsciously , ceased to love [Hamlin]145-hamlin as [she]171-anne had formerly loved [him]145-hamlin . Like many of [the most powerful and passionate natures]5347-the most powerful and passionate natures , [Anne]171-anne had a fatal tendency to love ideally and love the ideal ; not so much to invest with unreal qualities the object of [her]171-anne passion , but to conceive a passion for an impersonal creation of [her]171-anne own , an amalgamation of [her]171-anne own ardent and confused aspirations after an unknown excellence ; and then to identify the object of this strange intellectual and moral passion with [the first real person who struck [her]171-anne as excellent and noble and beautiful , or who appealed strongly to [her]171-anne sympathies and [her]171-anne gratitude]5348-the first real person who struck her as excellent and noble and beautiful , or who appealed strongly to her sympathies and her gratitude . Of love in the ordinary sense , such a nature is wellnigh incapable ; and the devotion due to [real imperfect creatures]5349-real imperfect creatures , pity and sympathy with weakness , the devotion due to a sense of duty , although it may be intense and tender in [such people]5350-such people , comes only on later , when the first splendid idol has been shattered , and whatever passion there is must be given , in humbleness or sorrow , to the unsatisfying realities of [this world]5351-this world . With such a nature and such tendencies , [Anne]171-anne had been met , when young , ignorant , and friendless , by an indistinct yet real personality — by [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who had done for [her]171-anne more than [any other man]5352-any other man had ever done for [a woman]3960-a woman ; and in this vaguely seen [Hamlin]145-hamlin , known at first only as [a servant]4125-a servant knows [the brilliant guest of [the house]509-the house]5355-the brilliant guest of the house , [a model the painter to whom [she]171-anne is sitting — and then known at a distance , in letters which were the unreal efflorescence of [a poet]498-a poet ’s mind,—in this vaguely seen [Hamlin]145-hamlin , to whom [she]171-anne owed [her]171-anne new life , and who was surrounded by all the beautiful things and ideas which that new life represented]5357-a model the painter to whom she is sitting — and then known at a distance , in letters which were the unreal efflorescence of a poet ’s mind,—in this vaguely seen hamlin , to whom she owed her new life , and who was surrounded by all the beautiful things and ideas which that new life represented , [Anne Brown]171-anne had incarnated the ideal of good and beauty towards which [her]171-anne simple , self‐unconscious , energetic soul so strenuously aspired . Such a love as this must be transformed into something less exalted , or must die out unsatisfied , whatever [the person who feels it]5359-the person who feels it or [the person with whom it is connected]5360-the person with whom it is connected : the real , however excellent , can never satisfy the craving after the ideal ; [a living individual]5361-a living individual can never quiet desires which have no individual object , which are mere dumb and violent activities of [a too powerful soul]5362-a too powerful soul . But [Anne]171-anne was not [the kind of woman in whom simpler and less exacting instincts , in whom ordinary love , can gradually supplant such an ideal passion]5363-the kind of woman in whom simpler and less exacting instincts , in whom ordinary love , can gradually supplant such an ideal passion ; and what was worse , [Hamlin]145-hamlin was not the man who could substitute for [an impossible and unapproachable creature of the imagination]5364-an impossible and unapproachable creature of the imagination , [a less perfect , but more appealing , more attaching , more lovable creature of reality]5365-a less perfect , but more appealing , more attaching , more lovable creature of reality . [No man that ever breathed]5366-no man that ever breathed could have satisfied cravings which were in reality not after [a man]503-a man , but after a higher life , a more complete activity , a nobler aim ; but [Hamlin]145-hamlin fell short not merely of [Anne]171-anne ’s ideal , but also , in many things , even of the reality of [Anne]171-anne [herself]171-anne , and of all [she]171-anne could understand and sympathise with . The ecstatic devotion had speedily given way in [her]171-anne to a more sober kind of admiration and affection ; but now , little by little , that also was being invaded , transformed piecemeal here and there , by doubt , contempt , and disgust . [Anne]171-anne ’s eyes had gradually opened to the fact that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was vain , thin‐skinned , professionally jealous , and afraid of the judgment , as [he]145-hamlin was avid of the praise , of [[his]145-hamlin own inferiors]5368-his own inferiors ; and that , in the negative line , [he]145-hamlin was without strong likings , enthusiasms , or aspirations ; and the negative qualities affected [her]171-anne more than the positive ones : to [her]171-anne the coldness of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s sympathies was more painful than the weakness of [his]145-hamlin nature . Vaguely and gradually these things had dawned upon [Anne]171-anne ; and [she]171-anne could no more deny [their]5369-their existence than [she]171-anne could persuade [herself]171-anne that a grey English autumn day was brilliant as an Italian summer morning . But of late things had happened , like that incident of the suppressed “[361-the hamlins] Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens , ” and of the self‐slandering sonnets which [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked upon with such complacency , which had given [her]171-anne glimpses into something worse than [she]171-anne could well believe in , worse than [she]171-anne had the heart to look into . These [she]171-anne cast behind [her]171-anne , thinking of them as little as possible , trying to consider them as hallucinations , or at all events , gross exaggerations of [her]171-anne own : [she]171-anne must have misunderstood ; such things could not be . [She]171-anne tried to settle [her]171-anne love of [Hamlin]145-hamlin on a real and more solid basis . [She]171-anne fully admitted to [herself]171-anne that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had weaknesses,—the weaknesses which [she]171-anne remarked in so many of [the men around him,—weaknesses]5370-the men around him,—weaknesses going together with the fine qualities of [the poet]5371-the poet ’s nature,—weaknesses which , [Anne]171-anne was beginning to suspect , [every one]4712-every one had ( forgetting that [she]171-anne had not ) , or at least something equivalent thereunto . [She]171-anne admitted to [herself]171-anne that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was weak ; nay , to do so was a sort of relief . That [Hamlin]145-hamlin should come of [a family infirm of will and often vicious]5373-a family infirm of will and often vicious , that [he]145-hamlin should have been brought up surrounded by vice and violence engendered by weakness ; this notion , due partly to [her]171-anne own observations , and confirmed by [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s confidences , explained so much away , and left room for so much : it explained all the wretched part of [his]145-hamlin nature , it left room for all the good , for the gentleness , the generosity , the chivalric spirit which had made [Anne]171-anne what [she]171-anne was ; and it let [her]171-anne hope , every now and then , that better might be in store . For since the evil was merely negative and the good so thorough and so positive , surely the good would vanquish the evil . And , looking at [the people who surrounded [Hamlin,—at]368-hamlin,—at [these vain , weak , unreal poets]5375-these vain , weak , unreal poets and [artists]1500-artists]5374-the people who surrounded hamlin,—at these vain , weak , unreal poets and artists , at [this whole school of people who , whatever [their]5374-the people who surrounded hamlin,—at these vain , weak , unreal poets and artists private life , affected to live only for selfish enjoyment of beauty and selfish interest in sin,—Anne]5377-this whole school of people who , whatever their private life , affected to live only for selfish enjoyment of beauty and selfish interest in sin,—anne used often to think that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was in the position of a sort of [Rinaldo]369-rinaldo , [the noblest of [all heroes]5379-all heroes]5378-the noblest of all heroes , degraded into mean sloth by the Armida of æstheticism , but requiring only the shrill of the trumpet and the clash of arms from [the real living world]5380-the real living world to be redeemed and to show [himself]145-hamlin in [[his]145-hamlin real nobility]5381-his real nobility . [She]171-anne would even exaggerate [her]171-anne aversion or contempt for [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s companions]5382-hamlin ’s companions and for [[his]145-hamlin school]5209-his school ; the worse [they]5374-the people who surrounded hamlin,—at these vain , weak , unreal poets and artists were , the more excuse for [him]145-hamlin ; and [she]171-anne would often sit dreaming of the way in which [he]145-hamlin might be gradually got from under [their]5374-the people who surrounded hamlin,—at these vain , weak , unreal poets and artists influence , and brought in contact with those stronger , more healthy , or more terrible realities , which [Anne]171-anne ’s nature , by a kind of occult sympathy , felt in [the world]496-the world all round , as the birds and insects will feel the storm which is still invisible beyond [the hills]5385-the hills , but which is coming to purify , and shake , and revive . And so [Anne]171-anne went on loving and hoping , and believing [herself]171-anne to be happy . But there began to be a strange restlessness about [her]171-anne ; a desire to be useful , to be perpetually active in something , to be always trying to understand , and sympathise , and help — an imperious necessity not to be left to [her]171-anne own thoughts ( those thoughts which had once been like a paradise , in which solitude was the highest bliss ) . For , alone with [her]171-anne own thoughts , [Anne]171-anne was beginning to experience an intolerable sense of isolation , and intolerable sense of impotence . IN this condition of mind [Anne]171-anne was violently impelled towards [the two Leigh girls]5307-the two leigh girls ; and strongly induced to take an aversion to [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . For [the Leighs]327-the leighs represented every day more and more the influence which was strengthening [her]171-anne , the influence which might revive [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; and [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis seemed sent as an incarnation of those tendencies which , in [her]171-anne belief , had marred the nobility of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s nature . [Anne]171-anne ’s unmistakable desire to know what was going on in the striving and suffering world outside [the strongholds of æstheticism]5387-the strongholds of æstheticism , to help in it to [her]171-anne utmost ; to be , what [the people believing only in beauty and passion]5388-the people believing only in beauty and passion could not conceive , responsible,—all this intense striving got the better of [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory ’s prejudices . [She]249-marjory began to understand that [she]249-marjory had found in [Anne]171-anne [a zealous lieutenant]5389-a zealous lieutenant ; nay , after some time , [the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist admitted to [herself]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist that [Anne]171-anne was a force for work and good which dragged even [her]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist along , making [her]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist , by the influence of [her]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist complete unselfishness , self‐unconsciousness , and energy , more ready to examine into [her]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist own mode of doing things , to sift [her]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist vanity from [her]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist humanitarianism . “[361-the hamlins] [Anne]171-anne does make one less conceited , ” [Marjory]249-marjory one day remarked to [[her]249-marjory sister]603-her sister , waking up from a long reverie—“less[171-anne] conceited and less narrow , [I]0-i do believe . It ’s such a revelation ; and somehow it makes [one]620-one feel just a little bit ashamed , to find such honesty and determination in an æsthete . After that , [people]577-people do n’t seem to be so hopelessly lost — do [they]577-people ? [I]0-i fear [I]0-i must have been [a rather bigoted sort of brute formerly]2237-a rather bigoted sort of brute formerly , ” and [Marjory]249-marjory pushed [her]249-marjory fingers through [her]249-marjory short , lank yellow hair , and looked up at [[her]249-marjory sister]603-her sister with [her]5390-the conscientious though somewhat pig‐headed and conceited young philanthropist childish , resolute , defiant face , not yet puzzled by the sad experience of the difficulty of doing good , and of the dangerousness of even the wisest theories . [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh smiled . [She]324-mary leigh was proud of [[her]324-mary leigh little sister]5393-her little sister ; and [she]324-mary leigh was , in a sort of a way , in love with [Anne Brown]171-anne . [Marjory]249-marjory thought [her]324-mary leigh rather æsthetic and spiritless , [she]249-marjory knew ; and [Anne]171-anne was absorbed in [her]171-anne own thoughts ; but [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh was one of [those girls who can resign [themselves]5394-those girls who can resign themselves cheerfully to being second best , as long as they are the best in their power cheerfully to being second best , as long as [they]5394-those girls who can resign themselves cheerfully to being second best , as long as they are the best in their power are the best in [their]5394-those girls who can resign themselves cheerfully to being second best , as long as they are the best in their power power]5394-those girls who can resign themselves cheerfully to being second best , as long as they are the best in their power — to be happy in [her]324-mary leigh devotion , even if it be unreciprocated ; and [she]324-mary leigh was happy , in a subdued way — proud of [Marjory]249-marjory and adoring [Anne]171-anne , and seeing that [the two somewhat unresponsive objects of [her]324-mary leigh love]5395-the two somewhat unresponsive objects of her love could now appreciate [one another]1971-one another . So much for [the Leighs]327-the leighs . But if [their]5394-those girls who can resign themselves cheerfully to being second best , as long as they are the best in their power presence at [Wotton]94-wotton was a support and a consolation to [Anne]171-anne , the presence of [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis very soon grew to be a positive source of disgust . At first , in [his]353-lewis egotistic , silently brow‐beating way , [he]353-lewis was [an interesting visitor]5397-an interesting visitor . [He]353-lewis had travelled and read a good deal , and , in point of fact , knew much more about literature than about [his]353-lewis own art . [His]353-lewis imagination turned easily to the terrible ; [he]353-lewis considered [Webster]370-webster as greater than [Shakespeare]309-shakespeare , and [Ford]319-ford as greater than [Webster]370-webster ; [he]353-lewis had personal experiences of more or less criminal persons , whose acquaintance , for the sake of morbid psychology , [he]353-lewis had sought , and whose characteristics [he]353-lewis had lovingly studied ; while in reality mild and even milk‐soppish in [his]353-lewis habits , [he]353-lewis seemed to experience a fascination from violence and bloodshed . For a week or so [he]353-lewis was decidedly interesting , if not , to [Anne]171-anne and [[her]171-anne two girl‐friends]5398-her two girl‐friends , attractive . But hostility soon arose . [He]353-lewis was [a fervid spiritualist]5399-a fervid spiritualist , and a great adept in mesmerising ; [his]353-lewis vanity made [him]353-lewis see [mediums]5400-mediums , victims of [his]353-lewis will‐power , everywhere . [He]353-lewis immediately discovered one in [Anne]171-anne , and begged to be permitted to try [his]353-lewis tricks , as [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory called them . Now , if there was one thing which was more abhorrent to [Anne]171-anne than any other , it was spiritualism : averse to mysticism like [every Italian]5401-every italian ; prosaic and common‐sense , perhaps just in proportion to the idealism of passion and aspiration , [she]171-anne was impatient of the vulgar mysteriousness of modern magic ; while at the same time [her]171-anne powerful personality , [her]171-anne austere will ( which [she]171-anne always recognised as the most precious part of [her]171-anne nature ) , which took umbrage at [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s theories of obedience to mere physical passions , was positively insulted by the notion of surrender to the perfectly unintellectual will of another . However , [she]171-anne let [Lewis]353-lewis try . During [his]353-lewis performance , as [he]353-lewis fixed [his]353-lewis green eyes upon [her]171-anne , and made passes with [his]353-lewis flabby white fingers , [Anne]171-anne felt a loathing as if a slug were trailing over [her]171-anne , but [she]171-anne sat unaffected by [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis ’s will‐power , and at last wearied out [his]353-lewis patience . “[2237-a rather bigoted sort of brute formerly] [You]2238-you resisted!—I felt [you]2238-you resist ! ” cried [Lewis]353-lewis angrily , at the end of the séance . “[2238-you] There was nothing to resist against , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , bluntly ; “[2238-you] but had there been , of course [I]0-i should have resisted . ” “[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin does not resist , ” replied [Lewis]353-lewis , with a certain malignant pride . “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i can do just whatever [I]0-i choose with [Hamlin]145-hamlin . ” “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i enjoy it , ” explained [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “[145-hamlin] it ’s like the first effects of opium or haschisch . [One]620-one feels [one]620-one ’s self giving way , [one]620-one ’s soul sinking deliciously . ” “[620-one] Going to sleep , in fact , ” corrected [Anne]171-anne . From that moment [Anne]171-anne felt that [Lewis]353-lewis hated [her]171-anne . Yet [he]353-lewis was , in a way , fascinated by [her]171-anne exotic beauty ; [he]353-lewis could not make up [his]353-lewis mind that so strange and splendid [a woman]3960-a woman could resist [him]353-lewis . [He]353-lewis never tried to magnetise [her]171-anne again ; and [he]353-lewis made many drawings of [her]171-anne , curiously distorting [her]171-anne expression , sullen , but frank and resolute , into a kind of sombre , morbid wistfulness . “[620-one] [I]0-i hate those sketches [he]2242-he does of [you]2243-you , ” cried [Marjory]249-marjory one day ; “[2242-he] nasty things , which make [you]2243-you look — [I]0-i do n’t know to express it — as if [you]2243-you were neither [a man]503-a man nor [a woman]3960-a woman , and were in love with [him]2242-he . ” [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh laughed . “[2242-he] [The school]1304-the school is running to seed , ” [she]324-mary leigh said : “[2247-the great men] [the great men]2247-the great men have done all that could be done in the way of beautiful suggestiveness — [the little ones]901-the little ones can only do suggestiveness of all sorts of vague nastiness which [they]901-the little ones do n’t even understand . But there ’s a change coming on in painting ; [people]577-people are beginning to be satisfied with interpreting real nature ; and — don’t [you]2243-you think — [Anne]171-anne — a similar change . . . ” [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , who was [the most absent‐minded of [Irish enthusiasts]5404-irish enthusiasts]5403-the most absent‐minded of irish enthusiasts , suddenly stopped short . [She]324-mary leigh had only just remembered that [Hamlin]145-hamlin was [a poet]498-a poet and [a painter of [the school]1304-the school which [she]324-mary leigh had just described]5406-a painter of the school which she had just described . And a pained , darkened look had come over [Anne]171-anne . [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh could not understand that that look meant that [Anne]171-anne had often thought just the same thing , and that now there returned to [her]324-mary leigh , with sickening bitterness , the double recollection of the “[171-anne] Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens , ” and of those twelve sonnets called “[171-anne] Desire . ” Meanwhile [Anne]171-anne gradually got substantial reasons for [her]171-anne instinctive aversion to [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . [The family of [the vicar of [Wotton]94-wotton]5409-the vicar of wotton]5408-the family of the vicar of wotton sometimes visited at [the Hall]550-the hall . There were [two very young girls]5411-two very young girls , scarcely more than [children]570-children , for whom [Anne]171-anne and [the Leighs]327-the leighs had taken a fancy . One afternoon [they]5411-two very young girls came to tea , delicate pink‐and‐white creatures of fourteen or fifteen , impressionable , nervous , utterly ignorant of [the world]496-the world . [Hamlin]145-hamlin seemed to appreciate the charm of obvious purity and guilelessness which went with [their]5411-two very young girls ignorance of [the world]496-the world . “[0-i] [I]0-i should like to make a picture of [those two creatures]2250-those two creatures , ” [he]145-hamlin whispered to [Anne]171-anne , as [they]5411-two very young girls sat at tea in [the library]4639-the library , “[2243-you] or to write a poem about [them]2250-those two creatures — [they]2250-those two creatures seem to do one good ; for it is good , is it not , to see so much life which is so perfectly fresh , and unsullied , and untormented — such a desire to know [the world]496-the world before the evil in it is even guessed at — don’t [you]2252-you think ? ” [Even Chough]248-chough could not make a single unintelligible allusion to [the wife of [Claudius]371-claudius]5416-the wife of claudius or [the daughter of [Alexander VI]372-alexander vi]5417-the daughter of alexander vi . , but sat with one of [[his]145-hamlin children]4938-his children on [his]145-hamlin knee , looking at [the young girls]5419-the young girls and gently humming a scrap of old minuet , fresh and simple like [themselves]2250-those two creatures . [Anne]171-anne could not help thinking that [she]171-anne had never been what [these girls]1402-these girls were . [She]171-anne had been shown the ugly things of life , taught to struggle with [them]2250-those two creatures since [her]171-anne childhood , and now believing equally in good , but believing sadly and bitterly . It was better to be [a woman]3960-a woman as [she]171-anne was , [a woman who knew of good and evil]5422-a woman who knew of good and evil , and was prepared to fight [her]171-anne way out of darkness ; but still it was sad never , never to have been as [these girls]1402-these girls . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis was leaning forward on the table , [his]353-lewis reddish‐auburn head with its glittering eyes rising like that of a snake , as if silently trying to mesmerise [the visitors]5424-the visitors . “[2252-you] Suppose [we]2253-we show [these young ladies]1388-these young ladies some of [our]2253-we works of art ? ” [he]353-lewis proposed , in a half‐ jocular way which [he]353-lewis occasionally had . [The girls]1418-the girls had never seen any pictures scarcely , and having heard of [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [Lewis]353-lewis as [famous painters from [London]4-london]5426-famous painters from london , were delighted . [The whole party]5427-the whole party went up to [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s studio]1127-hamlin ’s studio . [He]353-lewis showed [the girls]1418-the girls not the things for which [he]353-lewis cared most , but what [he]353-lewis thought would give [them]1418-the girls most pleasure — magnificent tinted sketches of poetical legends , of the Sleeping Beauty , [Cupid and Psyche]373-cupid and psyche , and so forth . [Anne]171-anne thought [she]171-anne had scarcely ever seen [Hamlin]145-hamlin so nice before as when [he]353-lewis got the sketches out of the portfolio , and told [the girls]1418-the girls what [they]1418-the girls represented . When [he]353-lewis had done , [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , with [his]353-lewis slow , shuffling movements , placed [his]353-lewis large sketch‐book on an easel , and turned a page . It was covered with outline drawings of [men]4644-men and [women , stark naked , in various listless attitudes]5432-women , stark naked , in various listless attitudes . [Anne]171-anne had seen these drawings time after time , and had thought them , accustomed as [she]171-anne was to [studios]5433-studios and [painters]521-painters , merely clever nude studies , with the usual expression of bored depravity of all [Lewis]353-lewis ’s work . [She]171-anne had criticised the drawing and anatomy , and had never before thought that any impropriety was connected with them . But now [she]171-anne could not help blushing and feeling vaguely indignant . “[2253-we] That ’s not the sort of thing to show [those children]4199-those children , ” whispered [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , who , heaven knows , had seen nude studies enough in [her]324-mary leigh life . Both [she]324-mary leigh and [Anne]171-anne had caught the surprised , vacant expression of [the two girls]5435-the two girls , had seen the flush in [their]5435-the two girls face , and understood the silence , never asking what it all meant , as [they]5435-the two girls stared at all this emaciated , flabby nakedness . And [Anne]171-anne caught also [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis ’s expression , as [he]353-lewis held the corner of the page , ready to turn over , with one hand , stroking [his]353-lewis reddish‐brown beard with the other , and looking , with slightly raised eyebrows and curious green eyes , towards [Hamlin]145-hamlin , as if to call [his]353-lewis attention . [Lewis]353-lewis turned another page , and another ; always [the same stark‐naked people]5436-the same stark‐naked people . [Anne]171-anne was very black . [Heaven]158-heaven knows from what instinct , perhaps from a paternal recollection of [[his]353-lewis own little girls]5437-his own little girls , [Cosmo Chough]248-chough understood [Anne]171-anne ’s look ; and edging [himself]353-lewis awkwardly into the corner , [he]353-lewis banged against the easel , and made it and the sketch‐hook come down with a crash . “[2253-we] Confound [your]2256-your awkwardness ! ” cried [Lewis]353-lewis , stooping to pick up [his]353-lewis drawings , and slowly replacing the sketch‐book . “[2253-we] [I]0-i do n’t think [they]2257-they care to see any more , ” said [Anne]171-anne ; “[2258-you] [you]2258-you see , [these young ladies]1388-these young ladies have n’t studied anatomy . Supposing [you]2258-you show [them]1388-these young ladies [your]2258-you Eastern sketches , [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis . ” [Lewis]353-lewis gave [Anne]171-anne a rapid , angry glance . “[364-mr lewis] The Eastern sketches are up‐stairs , ” [he]353-lewis said snappishly ; adding , in [his]353-lewis drawling , mock courteous way , “[0-i] [I]0-i think [these young ladies]1388-these young ladies have seen the best [I]0-i could show [them]1388-these young ladies . ” “[0-i] Then [we]2261-we had better go down‐stairs , and [Mr Chough]248-chough will play an accompaniment , for [I]0-i know [they]2257-they sing very nicely , ” said [Anne]171-anne , taking no notice of [him]353-lewis . Perhaps , thought [Anne]171-anne , [she]171-anne might have been prejudiced against [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . [He]353-lewis did draw morbid‐looking nudities ; but [so many other men]5438-so many other men did just the same , that it was quite possible [he]353-lewis might have displayed that sketch‐book from mere thoughtlessness . Yet [she]171-anne could not believe it ; [she]171-anne had seen [Lewis]353-lewis ’s look as [he]353-lewis turned over the pages , and that look had disgusted [her]171-anne . The next day but one the question was settled in [her]171-anne mind . It was a fine autumn morning , and [Anne]171-anne was seated on [the terrace]5100-the terrace , waiting for [the others]881-the others to come down to breakfast . The air , just touched by the first cold , was exquisitely pure ; and the sear bracken of [the hillside]5441-the hillside opposite sparkled golden with the heavy dew . All round the swallows were whirring about , collecting for departure . The thought of [the Villa Arnolfini]734-the villa arnolfini — of [the place in [the vineyard]646-the vineyard]5443-the place in the vineyard , among the yellowing vines , where [she]171-anne used to sit on [the dry warm mint and fennel]5445-the dry warm mint and fennel with the little Perrys , where , under the big mulberry‐tree , [they]5446-they had buried [her]171-anne Dante in a heap of yellow leaves — came [home]4170-home to [Anne]171-anne . How good [Hamlin]145-hamlin had been to [her]171-anne ! the idea almost pained [her]171-anne . But this lovely morning seemed to have swept all evil away . If only , [Anne]171-anne said to [herself]171-anne , [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s sympathies could be violently roused — if only [he]145-hamlin could be awakened suddenly , by some unexpected contact with the tragic realities of [the world]496-the world , by a sudden appeal to [his]145-hamlin generosity and indignation , out of this æsthetic day‐dream with its enervating visions of impure beauty and forbidden things . If only this could be done , the horrid spell which kept [him]145-hamlin at a moral distance from [her]171-anne would be broken through . . . . And soon it must come , this awakening . As [she]171-anne was thinking in this way , [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis strolled up , [his]353-lewis hands behind [his]353-lewis back , to the table at which [she]171-anne was seated . [He]353-lewis gave [her]171-anne a little unceremonious nod , and then , interrupting the tune which [he]353-lewis was faintly whistling , pushed a paper‐bound book across the table to [her]171-anne . “[2257-they] Have [you]2262-you ever read this , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ” [he]353-lewis asked ; “[2262-you] do [you]2262-you know that passage ? [I]0-i think it one of the loveliest things which have ever been written . ” [Anne]171-anne ’s eye glanced at the page , pencil‐marked all round , and then at the title on the margin . It was [Gautier]343-gautier ’s ‘ [Mademoiselle de Maupin]374-mademoiselle de maupin . ’ [She]171-anne understood . “[0-i] [I]0-i have never read it , ” [she]0-i answered , “[0-i] but [I]0-i have often heard that it is a book which [a man]503-a man does not offer [a woman]3960-a woman except as an insult , ” and [she]0-i quietly handed the volume back , looking up , [her]0-i beautiful severe face flushed , [her]0-i slate‐grey eyes flashing , at [Lewis]353-lewis . [The painter]5449-the painter started . “[503-a man] Upon [my]0-i word , ” [he]5449-the painter answered quickly , with [his]5449-the painter usual self‐possession , “[503-a man] [I]0-i never thought that . [I]0-i never thought that any book could possibly offend [a pure woman]2265-a pure woman nowadays . [I]0-i regard this book merely as a noble hymn to beauty ; [others]4163-others may regard it otherwise . [I]0-i really had no thought of offending [you]0-i , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear [Miss Brown”—there]375-miss brown”—there was a tone of patronising insolence in [his]5449-the painter voice . “[375-miss brown”—there] So much the better , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , rising . Oh how , how could [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with [his]145-hamlin chivalrous nature , endure the daily contact of [such a man]2018-such a man as this ! “[375-miss brown”—there] [Lewis]353-lewis ought not to have selected those particular drawings to show [[the vicar]5154-the vicar ’s girls]2269-the vicar ’s girls , ” said [Anne]171-anne , later on . [She]171-anne could not allude to that scene of the book ; but [she]171-anne felt [she]171-anne must say something . “[353-lewis] [A man]503-a man ought not to show such things as those to [mere children]2271-mere children , brought up in [the country]945-the country , who do n’t know what [they]2271-mere children mean , and are merely shocked by such things — don’t [you]2273-you think so , [Mary]324-mary leigh ? ” “[2273-you] Certainly , ” answered [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh boldly , quite astonished at [Anne]171-anne ’s venturing to mention such a subject . “[2273-you] It was n’t good taste , certainly , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[353-lewis] [Lewis]353-lewis is fearfully absent‐minded . They are lovely designs . But still , it was n’t good taste , [I]0-i quite agree . ” “[0-i] Good taste ! ” thought [Anne]171-anne , with a shudder . “[0-i] Is there nothing higher than taste in [the world]496-the world ? ” THREE days later , [Chough]248-chough and [Lewis]353-lewis returned to [town]821-town , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin went with [them]5452-them . The weather had broken up , and it was time to settle for the winter . [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia and [Anne]171-anne were to stay on another fortnight , in order to give [Hamlin]145-hamlin time to make some alterations in [the house]509-the house at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith . Such at least was the pretext ; but [Anne]171-anne knew that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had arrived in [London]4-london , and [she]171-anne guessed that [Hamlin]145-hamlin would wish to transact whatever business there might be , before exposing to [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s wrath [the Cousin Sacha of former days]5454-the cousin sacha of former days — before , perhaps , refusing to let [Anne Brown]171-anne meet [a woman whose past spoke little in [her]1707-that woman favour]5455-a woman whose past spoke little in her favour , and of whose present [he]145-hamlin knew absolutely nothing . “[0-i] How [I]0-i dread seeing [that woman]1707-that woman ! ” [he]145-hamlin exclaimed the evening before [his]145-hamlin departure , as [he]145-hamlin walked up and down [the hall]550-the hall with [Anne]171-anne , while [the rest of the company]5457-the rest of the company was listening to [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , shrilly piping eighteenth century music in [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room . “[0-i] Has [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia ever told [you]2276-you anything of [our]2277-our life when [Cousin Sacha]359-sacha was here with [us]2277-our , years ago ? ” [he]145-hamlin asked . [Anne]171-anne nodded . “[247-aunt claudia] [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia told [me]0-i the whole story . ” “[247-aunt claudia] Then [you]2276-you can understand , ” cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , almost convulsively , “[2276-you] how the mere thought of [Sacha]359-sacha is loathsome to [me]0-i ; and yet , [I]0-i must behave decently towards [her]359-sacha — don’t [you]2276-you think ? ” “[2276-you] Of course [you]2276-you must ; and [I]0-i ca n’t help thinking that perhaps — well , that [[your]2276-you aunt]1756-your aunt and [you]2276-you may be a little unjust towards [her]359-sacha — [I]0-i do n’t think that [a child]623-a child really could be so bad . ” “[0-i] Oh , [a child]623-a child may be as bad as [a woman]3960-a woman if [she]623-a child have evil blood in [her]623-a child ! and just think , if [Sacha]359-sacha was like that as [a child]623-a child , what must [she]359-sacha not be as [a woman]3960-a woman ? ” There was something odd in [his]5459-his tone ; something not of indignation , but of a kind of clinging curiosity . “[0-i] [I]0-i daresay , ” said [Anne]171-anne , “[0-i] that as [a woman]3960-a woman [she]3960-a woman may be much better than as [a child]623-a child . [Her]3960-a woman eyes may have been opened to [her]3960-a woman own unworthiness , and [she]3960-a woman may have struggled out of the influence of bad examples . [I]0-i am sure [many , many people]2286-many , many people are much better as [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women than as [children]570-children . To know , to feel responsible , means so much . ” “[2291-a fiend] That may be . ” There was some disappointment in [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s tone . [Anne]171-anne laughed . “[2291-a fiend] [You]2290-you want to find [a fiend]2291-a fiend , [a lamia]2292-a lamia , [a vampire]2293-a vampire , ” [she]171-anne said—“something[2293-a vampire] hateful and picturesque . Fancy if [[your]2290-you cousin]4341-your cousin should turn out [a most prosaic and ultra‐respectable woman , given up to [[her]4341-your cousin children]746-her children]2295-a most prosaic and ultra‐respectable woman , given up to her children , and coffee‐taverns , and [women]3959-women ’s suffrage ! ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin could not help laughing . “[0-i] [I]0-i fear there ’s not much chance of that . Anyhow , [I]0-i must see whether [she]4341-your cousin is fit for [you]2290-you to receive , and whether [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia can be mollified towards [her]4341-your cousin , supposing [she]4341-your cousin is the exemplary piece of prose which [you]2290-you imagine . ” [Anne]171-anne had induced [Cosmo Chough]248-chough to leave [[his]145-hamlin little girls]5333-his little girls in [her]171-anne charge ; and [the Leighs]5461-the leighs were to return to [London]4-london with [her]171-anne and [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia . [The big house]5462-the big house seemed very empty without [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends ; but the quiet was pleasant . Somehow , when [he]145-hamlin was away , when [she]171-anne could no longer see [him]145-hamlin perpetually sitting and walking with [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , [Anne]171-anne ’s love for [Hamlin]145-hamlin became much stronger . In [her]171-anne recollection [he]145-hamlin existed only with reference to [herself]171-anne ; [she]171-anne felt [his]145-hamlin goodness , [she]171-anne believed in [his]145-hamlin nobility , [she]171-anne felt sure that some day [he]145-hamlin would become more manly , healthy , and resolute . If only [she]171-anne could enter into [his]145-hamlin confidence , instead of [men]4644-men like [Lewis]353-lewis and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun ; if only [she]171-anne could make [him]145-hamlin see all that there was in [the world]496-the world besides mere art and poetry . Perhaps [she]171-anne was unworthy to do it . This thought spurred [her]171-anne on , redoubled [Anne]171-anne ’s restless desire to know , to sympathise , and to help . [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory had , soon after [her]249-marjory arrival at [Wotton]94-wotton , made acquaintance with [the wife of [the vicar]5154-the vicar]5466-the wife of the vicar , [a simple , energetic , rather narrow‐minded but boundlessly unselfish woman]5468-a simple , energetic , rather narrow‐minded but boundlessly unselfish woman , all whose thoughts were given to improving the condition of [the neighbouring poor]5469-the neighbouring poor . To tell the whole truth , [the vicar]5154-the vicar had [a son]5471-a son , [a young man entirely belying the usual saying about [[clergymen]5473-clergymen ’s sons]5474-clergymen ’s sons , who had renounced a good living in [the neighbourhood]725-the neighbourhood in order to become a curate in [the East End of [London]4-london]5476-the east end of london]5472-a young man entirely belying the usual saying about clergymen ’s sons , who had renounced a good living in the neighbourhood in order to become a curate in the east end of london . [Harry Collett]376-harry collett had been at [Oxford]101-oxford at the same time as [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; [he]145-hamlin had even , for some time , belonged to the æsthetic set of which [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [Melton Perry]146-perry had been the heads : but [he]145-hamlin had soon become [a religious enthusiast]5477-a religious enthusiast ; and , [his]145-hamlin religious enthusiasm cooling down , [he]145-hamlin had remained [an ardent philanthropist]5478-an ardent philanthropist . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had a liking for [Harry Collett]376-harry collett . [He]145-hamlin was handsome , tall , and emaciated , like [a St John the Baptist]5479-a st john the baptist by [Donatello]377-donatello ; [he]145-hamlin was in [his]145-hamlin own style poetical ; [he]145-hamlin was [a dreamer]5480-a dreamer and [an enthusiast]5481-an enthusiast . [Hamlin]145-hamlin used to call [him]145-hamlin [Francis of Assisi]378-francis of assisi . [He]145-hamlin did several sketches of [him]145-hamlin , and asked [him]145-hamlin several times to [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall . [Anne]171-anne also liked and admired [him]2298-him ; but there was something exaggerated , narrow‐minded , in [him]2298-him , which shocked [her]171-anne Italian temperament . What [she]171-anne wanted was secular energy , not priestly devotion . “[2298-him] [He]2298-him is [a monk]2299-a monk , ” [she]171-anne used to say ; “[2299-a monk] [he]2298-him ought to have lived in the middle ages . What [we]2300-we want nowadays are disagreeable , [rough‐and‐ready men like [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin]2301-rough‐and‐ready men like cousin dick — [men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason]2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason . ” [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , who declared [herself]249-marjory to belong to the most advanced of all advanced parties , and to whom [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was little less than [a god]5482-a god , perfectly agreed in [Anne]171-anne ’s verdict . But being of a proselytising temper , and having a special love for proselytising among [the young men of [her]171-anne acquaintance]5483-the young men of her acquaintance , [she]171-anne immediately set about enlightening [the rather High Church benevolence of [Harry Collett]376-harry collett]5484-the rather high church benevolence of harry collett , as soon as [he]2298-him came to spend at [Wotton]94-wotton [his]2298-him summer holidays . [Anne]171-anne and [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh used often to laugh over the intensely serious flirtations which were carried on between [Marjory]249-marjory and [the East End curate]5485-the east end curate — flirtations of which [both parties]5486-both parties were perfectly unaware — earnestly discussing charity reorganisation , ventilation , primary instruction , and so forth ; but which was nevertheless destined to result , soon after the general return to [town]821-town , in a long engagement between [Marjory]249-marjory and [Harry Collett]376-harry collett . [Harry]376-harry collett was already back at [his]2298-him post in [the East End]98-the east end ; but [Marjory]249-marjory , being unable to discuss philanthropy with [him]2298-him , went daily to help [[his]2298-him mother]5488-his mother in [her]5488-his mother work . Thus it was that [Anne]171-anne gradually became acquainted with the petty miseries of [village]5489-village life , its dull indifference , mistaken by [poets]1628-poets for innocence , and beneath which lies so much possibility of stupid misery and stupid crime . “[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] All that must be improved some day , ” [Anne]171-anne used to say ; and [she]171-anne determined to ask [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin ’s advice , for [she]171-anne believed in radical measures rather than in the small palliations of [[the vicar]5154-the vicar ’s wife]5492-the vicar ’s wife . One afternoon — [they]5493-they were within three or four days of return to [London]4-london — [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory returned more than usually excited from a visit to [the vicarage]5494-the vicarage . “[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] What ’s the matter ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , as [the three girls]5495-the three girls sat alone in [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s empty studio]5496-hamlin ’s empty studio . [Marjory]249-marjory threw [her]249-marjory hat on the floor . “[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] Give [me]0-i some tea , ” [she]0-i said , “[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] [I]0-i feel quite sick ; [I]0-i never thought [I]0-i should come across such horrors . Of course , ” [she]0-i added quickly , before [Anne]171-anne or [[her]171-anne sister]603-her sister had time to exclaim , and as if to reclaim [her]0-i reputation for omniscience—“of[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] course [I]0-i knew that such things existed — oh dear , yes — in [big towns]2303-big towns and so forth ; but [still,”—and poor Marjory]249-marjory fairly burst into tears,—“I[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] never , never thought that — [I]0-i should come so near [them]2304-them . ” Finally , when [she]0-i had had some tea , [Marjory]249-marjory , all blushing and stammering , and in a hesitating , roundabout way , which curiously belied [her]0-i usual affectation of cynical omniscience , proceeded to explain what had just happened . [A girl with an illegitimate baby]5498-a girl with an illegitimate baby — a very common occurrence in [those parts]5499-those parts — had turned up for assistance at [the vicarage]5494-the vicarage , and , while deprecating the wretched creature ’s fault , [[the vicar]5154-the vicar ’s wife]5492-the vicar ’s wife had revealed to [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory a jealously hidden stain in [[her]0-i parish]5503-her parish ; namely , that in [the hamlet to which [the girl]583-the girl belonged]5504-the hamlet to which the girl belonged , a mishap , as [she]0-i termed it , like [hers]249-marjory was a trifle , and indeed could scarcely be considered a fault at all , compared with the condition of brutish sin in which [rolled]5506-rolled , cynically huddled together in [cabins no better than sties]5507-cabins no better than sties , [the whole small population of [that foul little fen village]5509-that foul little fen village]5508-the whole small population of that foul little fen village . “[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] It appears it ’s been going on for generations , ” cried [Marjory]249-marjory , “[2302-men who do n’t merely feel sorry for vice , but who try to understand its scientific reason] and that there ’s no hope of remedying things unless [the miserable creatures]2305-the miserable creatures be removed into [more decent dwellings]2306-more decent dwellings . It ’s useless trying to teach [them]2305-the miserable creatures to live decently as long as [they]2305-the miserable creatures live [there]4426-there , in [those hovels in [the fen]2309-the fen]2308-those hovels in the fen , where half of [them]2305-the miserable creatures are ill of fever every autumn , and [they]2305-the miserable creatures herd together like cattle . Oh , it ’s sickening to think of [Christian people being so sinful close by one]2310-christian people being so sinful close by one ! ” and [Marjory]249-marjory burst into hysterical sobs . [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh had exclaimed in horror as soon as [Marjory]249-marjory ’s meaning had become plain to [her]324-mary leigh . “[2310-christian people being so sinful close by one] Oh , do n’t cry , do n’t cry , [Marjory]249-marjory darling ! ” [she]324-mary leigh exclaimed , throwing [herself]324-mary leigh on [her]324-mary leigh knees and clasping [[her]324-mary leigh sister]603-her sister ’s waist . “[249-marjory] [You]249-marjory ca n’t do anything , [[my]0-i love]2311-my love — and [you]249-marjory ’ll only make [yourself]249-marjory ill if [you]249-marjory let [yourself]249-marjory brood on such things . ” [Anne]171-anne had not exclaimed . [She]171-anne sat perfectly still , and said nothing . [Most persons]5511-most persons would have deemed [her]171-anne very callous , [she]171-anne looked so calm . “[249-marjory] Are [you]249-marjory quite sure , [Marjory]249-marjory , ” [she]171-anne asked , after a minute—“are[249-marjory] [you]249-marjory quite sure [you]249-marjory did not misunderstand , or that [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett did not exaggerate ? ” “[376-harry collett] [I]0-i could n’t misunderstand ; and [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett gave [me]0-i ever so many details — such dreadful details ; ” and interrupted by [her]171-anne sobs , [Marjory]249-marjory repeated scraps of what [she]171-anne had heard . “[376-harry collett] Where is [the place]884-the place ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , after another pause . “[376-harry collett] It ’s [that cluster of houses half‐way to [Eggleston]102-eggleston]2313-that cluster of houses half‐way to eggleston , in [the middle of [the fen]2309-the fen]2314-the middle of the fen , by [the river]4465-the river — [they]2317-they call [it]4465-the river [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley . Do n’t [you]249-marjory remember [our]2318-our going down there once in the break , with [the Spencers]342-the spencers and Chough , and [your]249-marjory saying [you]249-marjory wished [Hamlin]379-hamlin would paint [that sort of [fiat green country]2320-fiat green country]2319-that sort of fiat green country , and [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer saying it was unpoetical ? ” [Anne]171-anne remembered . The recollection of that moment came like a vision ; [she]171-anne saw [the wide river]5512-the wide river , between [its]5512-the wide river [low sedgy banks of boggy green]5513-low sedgy banks of boggy green ; the reddish storm sunset reflected in clotted flame‐coloured masses in [its]5512-the wide river thick grey waters ; the moon rising , a spectral crescent on the blue evening sky ; [she]171-anne heard the quail of the frogs , the cries of the water‐fowl : [the Spencers]342-the spencers and [Chough]379-hamlin on ahead with the two [Leighs]327-the leighs and [Harry Collett]376-harry collett ; and [she]171-anne and [Hamlin]379-hamlin lingering behind , watching [the reddened stream]5514-the reddened stream — and the cattle , dark outlines on [the flat green banks]5515-the flat green banks opposite ; [Hamlin]379-hamlin scrambling down [the bank]5516-the bank to get a tuft of willow herb growing half in the water . [She]171-anne was feeling so happy ; [Hamlin]379-hamlin was so good and gentle and handsome , and [she]171-anne loved [him]379-hamlin so ; and [[they]5517-they two]5518-they two had stood by [the river]4465-the river alone , until [the little Spencer children]5520-the little spencer children had run back and taken [her]171-anne hand , and begun asking a hundred questions in [their]5520-the little spencer children shrill baby lisp . It was so lovely and peaceful and good , [this green country]5521-this green country , this quiet evening , with [Hamlin]379-hamlin by [her]171-anne side and [the children]3862-the children holding [her]171-anne hand . [She]171-anne had felt a painful longing to impress [the place]884-the place and the moment on [her]171-anne mind , to keep this happy present . “[288-mrs spencer] What is this called ? ” [she]171-anne had asked ; and [Hamlin]379-hamlin had answered “[380-cold fremley] [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley . ” [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley ! [Anne]171-anne went on repeating to [herself]171-anne all that afternoon : the recollection of that beautiful scene , become hideous like a nightmare , haunted [her]171-anne . The huddled roofs dark in the distance , the curl of smoke — that was the place . [Anne]171-anne felt dizzy . [She]171-anne had read enough about shame and sin , heaven knows ; the poems of [the poets of the set]5524-the poets of the set were full of allusions to such things . But [she]171-anne had never realised that they could be realities ; they had been so many artistic dabs of horror , imaginary , or belonging vaguely to [some distant , dim world]5525-some distant , dim world , as unreal as the beautiful haunted woods and [mysterious castles]5526-mysterious castles , [the pale unsubstantial gods]5527-the pale unsubstantial gods and [heroes]5528-heroes , and [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women of the pictures of [Rossetti]381-rossetti and [Burne Jones]382-burne jones , of the poems of [Swinburne]383-swinburne and [Morris]326-morris , and [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [Chough]379-hamlin . But that abominations like these should be here , close at hand , in sordid , filthy reality , reality under this same sun , swept by this same wind , reality through which [she]171-anne had unconsciously walked ; this seemed impossible . A strange thing happened : the thought of what [she]171-anne had heard haunted [her]171-anne so persistently , loomed before [her]171-anne in such ever‐changing horror , that [Anne]171-anne at last felt like [one drunk or half asleep]5531-one drunk or half asleep , and began to doubt whether it was not all a horrible nightmare . Had [Marjory]249-marjory really told [her]171-anne these things ? Before [a court of justice]5532-a court of justice [Anne]171-anne would have been unable to say whether [she]171-anne had or not . It was so unreal to [her]171-anne that [she]171-anne could not accept it as a reality ; the more [she]171-anne brooded , the more did it seem a hallucination . “[380-cold fremley] [Marjory]249-marjory , ” said [Anne]171-anne the next day , suddenly , “[380-cold fremley] is it true that [you]249-marjory told [me]0-i some dreadful things which [you]249-marjory had heard from [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett about [the people at [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley]2321-the people at cold fremley ? ” [Marjory]249-marjory looked up in astonishment . “[376-harry collett] Of course it is,”—she had half forgotten it [herself]0-i . “[376-harry collett] [I]0-i can not get it out of [my]0-i mind , ” said [Anne]171-anne , passing [her]0-i hand over [her]0-i eyes , as if to disperse some black mist ; “[249-marjory] it is too horrible . Everything in [the world]496-the world seems tarnished , do n’t [you]0-i know , and a sort of horrible clamminess all round . ” [Marjory]249-marjory looked at [Anne]171-anne . [She]0-i was very pale , and [her]0-i big , greyish‐blue , onyx‐coloured eyes were wide with a fixed stare . [She]0-i looked as if [she]0-i did indeed see the tarnish on [the world]496-the world , and felt the clamminess ; as if , like [a person taken with some fever]5534-a person taken with some fever , [she]0-i tasted copper on [her]0-i tongue . [Marjory]249-marjory was [a sensible girl]5535-a sensible girl . [She]249-marjory had studied medicine , and knew an appalling amount about direction of the will , expectant attention , and other psychological and physiological matters . “[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne , ” [she]0-i said , “[0-i] [you]171-anne are making [yourself]171-anne ill about this matter . Of course [you]171-anne could n’t help being shocked ; but [you]171-anne take it too much to heart . [You]171-anne are going to let these horrible things haunt [you]171-anne ; it is a great temptation to do so . Take care ; it wo n’t do any good , and [you]171-anne will merely get quite unstrung . [I]0-i warn [you]171-anne against it . [You]171-anne must n’t let such things get the better of [your]171-anne will : it ’s morbid , and dangerous , and unworthy,”—and [Marjory]249-marjory completely forgot how [she]249-marjory [herself]249-marjory had entered [the room]574-the room in hysterics the previous day . [Anne]171-anne took no notice of [her]171-anne speech . “[171-anne] [You]171-anne say nothing can be done until [these people]2323-these people be given [better dwellings]2324-better dwellings ? ” [she]171-anne asked , after a pause . [Marjory]249-marjory nodded . “[171-anne] So [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett says , and [I]0-i ’ve read that repeatedly in books also — for , of course , such things have happened elsewhere . At all events , [the children]3862-the children might be brought up to live more decently , if [they]3862-the children were not all huddled up together like that . ” A thought seemed to flash across [Anne]171-anne ’s darkened mind . [[Her]171-anne maid]694-her maid had just brought in the tea‐things . “[190-laura] [Laura]190-laura , ” [she]0-i asked , “[190-laura] do [you]190-laura know to whom [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley — [those cottages by [the river]4465-the river]2326-those cottages by the river , half‐way to [Eggleston]102-eggleston — belongs ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i can ask [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s steward]2328-mr hamlin ’s steward , [miss]4492-miss — [he]2328-mr hamlin ’s steward ’s just in [[the housekeeper]2330-the housekeeper ’s room]2331-the housekeeper ’s room , ” answered [Laura]190-laura . “[2328-mr hamlin ’s steward] Run and ask , ” ordered [Anne]171-anne . “[2328-mr hamlin ’s steward] Good heavens , [Anne]171-anne ! ” cried [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , “[2328-mr hamlin ’s steward] what are [you]171-anne going to do ! [You]171-anne surely are n’t going to talk about such things and try to interfere ! What can [you]171-anne do , when [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett has failed ? ” “[376-harry collett] [The houses]2332-the houses must be rebuilt , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , quietly and firmly ; “[376-harry collett] to whomsoever [they]2332-the houses belong , [they]2332-the houses must — [they]2332-the houses shall be rebuilt . ” “[376-harry collett] Nonsense ! ” cried [practical Marjory]249-marjory ; “[171-anne] how can [you]171-anne talk like that ? Are [you]171-anne going to apply to [the neighbouring squires]2333-the neighbouring squires and tell [them]2333-the neighbouring squires about such matters ? ” “[171-anne] [They]2333-the neighbouring squires must rebuild [the houses]2332-the houses if once [they]2333-the neighbouring squires understand , ” repeated [Anne]171-anne . “[2333-the neighbouring squires] [I]0-i do n’t care to whom [they]2332-the houses belong — [they]2332-the houses shall be rebuilt . [I]0-i will write and speak to [every one and any one on the subject]2335-every one and any one on the subject , until the thing has been done . ” “[0-i] It ’s all very well , but when it comes to the point , [you]171-anne would n’t venture to mention such a thing to [a man]503-a man , ” cried [Marjory]249-marjory , contemptuously—“I[171-anne] — wouldn’t . ” At this moment [the maid]4505-the maid entered . “[2337-the steward] [The steward]2337-the steward says that [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley — [those houses by [the river]4465-the river]2338-those houses by the river , leastways — belong to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , and as it ’s [he]145-hamlin that lets [them]2338-those houses by the river out . ” [Marjory]249-marjory and [[her]249-marjory sister]603-her sister looked at [each other]594-each other and then at [Anne]171-anne , as much as to say , “[145-hamlin] Well , [you]171-anne see now what it would be . ” [Anne]171-anne flushed scarlet , but [her]171-anne face brightened . “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i will speak to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” [she]0-i said , as soon as [the maid]4505-the maid ’s back was turned . [Her]0-i voice faltered a little ; but it was from sudden surprise , not from hesitation . “[0-i] Oh , [Annie]171-anne , [dear]4117-dear , [you]4117-dear ’ll find that [you]4117-dear ca n’t ! ” exclaimed [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh ; “[0-i] [you]4117-dear ’ll find it impossible . ” “[4117-dear] At all events , [you]4117-dear ’ll have to put it through [[your]4117-dear aunt]1756-your aunt , ” suggested [Marjory]249-marjory . “[1756-your aunt] Through [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia ? ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[247-aunt claudia] Do [you]4117-dear think [she]247-aunt claudia will make [him]145-hamlin feel it ? Why , [she]247-aunt claudia will answer that such things are going on all round [us]2342-us , and worse ones . No ; [I]0-i shall speak to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin [himself]145-hamlin : [he]145-hamlin is [the proprietor of [Fremley]380-cold fremley]2343-the proprietor of fremley ; and [he]145-hamlin is responsible . ” “[145-hamlin] [You]4117-dear ’ll never be able to do so , ” insisted [Mary]324-mary leigh ; “[4117-dear] [you]4117-dear think [you]4117-dear will , but [you]4117-dear ca n’t . Fancy saying all that to [a man]503-a man — and to [a man who is in love with [you]4117-dear]2345-a man who is in love with you ! ” “[2345-a man who is in love with you] What must be done , must be done , ” answered [Anne]171-anne . “[2345-a man who is in love with you] It ’s not a question of liking or disliking . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s [a man]503-a man , and [I]0-i am [a woman]3960-a woman , and [I]0-i daresay [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women do n’t talk about such things . But [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin is [the proprietor of [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley]2350-the proprietor of cold fremley , and that ’s all [I]0-i have to do with . ” [The Leighs]327-the leighs looked at [her]0-i with incredulous astonishment . It seemed so simple to [her]0-i . IT was raining when [they]5542-they arrived in [London]4-london — a warmish , brown , clammy autumn day . [The streets]4115-the streets were a porridge of liquid mud , whose trail dragged along the wet asphalt ; [the houses]2332-the houses were staring forth , a livid dirt‐grey , in the thin rain ; and the sky , the very rain , was befouled with grime . Only drays splashed through the mud , and carriages carrying [hurried‐looking people]5545-hurried‐looking people ; [children]570-children , still in [their]570-children tattered summer cottons and battered straw hats , stared in at [the shops]5547-the shops , the broad sheen from whose brilliant windows was caught up by the wet pavement , and lingered out , in broken reflections , in the brown ooze of [the thoroughfare]5548-the thoroughfare . Along [the deserted suburban streets]5549-the deserted suburban streets [every second house]5550-every second house seemed to be a gin‐palace , with shining coloured globes , and stucco pinnacles soaked with rain , and ground‐glass windows shining out like a leprosy of white . [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor closed [her]243-mrs macgregor eyes in disgust . Even [the maid]4505-the maid looked depressed . But [Anne]171-anne stared out of the window of [the carriage]810-the carriage at all the hideous soppy sordidness , which seemed to soil and soak black into one ’s mind ; and [she]171-anne felt glad . All this was reality : it was the world in which lay [her]0-i redemption , and the redemption of [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [Anne]171-anne found [Hamlin]145-hamlin full of [[[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin [Sacha]359-sacha , upon whom [he]145-hamlin had already called three times , and in whom , to [his]145-hamlin surprise , [he]145-hamlin had found not a trace of [the child whom [he]145-hamlin had hated]5555-the child whom he had hated]5554-his cousin sacha , upon whom he had already called three times , and in whom , to his surprise , he had found not a trace of the child whom he had hated ; but [a respectable , unworldly young mother , devoted to [[her]5556-a respectable , unworldly young mother , devoted to her children , timid , and only deserving a little sympathy children]746-her children , timid , and only deserving a little sympathy]5556-a respectable , unworldly young mother , devoted to her children , timid , and only deserving a little sympathy . “[0-i] [She]2351-she is [a very curious woman]2352-a very curious woman , ” [he]145-hamlin said , “[2352-a very curious woman] evidently excellent at bottom ; but [I]0-i do n’t know whether [I]0-i quite like [her]2351-she . [She]2351-she has something very strange about her,—handsome ; and at the same time — [I]0-i do n’t know exactly what it is — charming , but not quite reassuring . [I]0-i am so anxious for [you]2353-you to see [her]2351-she . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i am so awfully glad [she]2351-she ’s nice , ” exclaimed [Anne]171-anne . “[2351-she] Do [you]2353-you know , [she]2351-she weighed upon [me]0-i like a nightmare after all [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia had said . It seemed too horrible that [such a creature]2354-such a creature should exist ; and [I]0-i felt sure it was all prejudice against [the poor little thing]1866-the poor little thing . ” “[0-i] Do n’t be in such a hurry , ” laughed [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “[0-i] perhaps [you]2353-you wo n’t like [her]2351-she after all . There is something uncanny about [her]2351-she , decidedly . ” “[2351-she] [I]0-i ’m sure that ’s all [your]2353-you imagination . [You]2353-you ’re always thinking that things are uncanny : it comes of writing too much about [proud , pale , evil women]2356-proud , pale , evil women , and that sort of nonsense . ” [Anne]171-anne felt really glad . That the terrible Cousin [Sacha]359-sacha , [the fiend‐child of [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall]5558-the fiend‐child of wotton hall , should turn out [a respectable , unworldly young woman]5559-a respectable , unworldly young woman , devoted to [[her]359-sacha children]746-her children , seemed to [her]171-anne like the first breaking of the spell which hung over [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [She]171-anne felt no jealousy of [Cousin Sacha]359-sacha ; for , as [Hamlin]145-hamlin spoke of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , it was obvious that if [he]145-hamlin was anxious to show [her]2357-she to [Anne]171-anne , [he]145-hamlin was equally impatient to display [his]145-hamlin beautiful ward to [her]2357-she , who had evidently been told a great deal about [her]2357-she already . The next day [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was to call on [Anne]171-anne . [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor took the announcement in a spirit of sombre defiance . “[2357-she] [She]2357-she may come , ” [she]0-i said , “[2357-she] but [I]0-i will not see [her]2357-she . What o’clock is the creature coming ? ” “[2357-she] Four , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[2357-she] Very well ; then [I]0-i ’ll order [the brougham]4818-the brougham for half‐past three , and go and make some calls . [Anne]171-anne may stay behind if [she]171-anne likes . ” Accordingly , at half‐past three , [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor rolled off in [the brougham]4818-the brougham to [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s , and to [various other people whom [she]0-i declared [she]0-i hated]5562-various other people whom she declared she hated . At four o’clock [Hamlin]145-hamlin came up‐stairs from [[his]145-hamlin studio]1124-his studio , and [Anne]171-anne gave [him]145-hamlin some tea . “[2357-she] [She]2357-she will be here in a minute , ” [he]145-hamlin said . There was a noise of wheels ; [Anne]171-anne felt [her]171-anne hand tremble as [she]171-anne poured out a second cup for [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[2357-she] There ! [I]0-i ’ve gone and spilt it on [your]0-i cuff ! Is n’t it idiotic of [me]0-i to feel flurried about seeing [[your]0-i cousin]4341-your cousin ? ” But the wheels passed on . More wheels , which also passed ; rings and knocks ; but no [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . [Hamlin]145-hamlin , at every false alarm , got up and looked at [Anne]171-anne — a long , admiring look at [her]171-anne stately figure and [her]171-anne strange pale face , with the overhanging masses of crimp black hair ; at the splendid postures , of which only [Michelangelo]328-michelangelo seemed to have ever understood the magnificent weary weightiness into which [she]171-anne naturally fell . “[2357-she] [She]2357-she is evidently not coming , ” [he]145-hamlin said with some irritation , as the clock struck five ; “[2357-she] it ’s too bad , keeping one in for nothing , like this ! ” “[0-i] [I]0-i did n’t want to go out with [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia ; and [I]0-i do n’t see how [you]0-i could have gone on painting after dark . ” “[0-i] Still it is too annoying . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i daresay it ’s not so easy to go paying visits at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith when [one]620-one has [children]570-children to attend to . ” “[2357-she] Bother [the children]3862-the children ! [she]2357-she might leave [them]3862-the children to [a nurse]2363-a nurse . ” At that moment [a cab]5564-a cab stopped , and there came a knock . “[2357-she] That ’s [she]2357-she ! ” cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and [he]145-hamlin ran [down‐stairs]4807-down‐stairs . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine entered ; in the dusk [Anne]171-anne could scarcely see [her]360-madame elaguine face : [she]360-madame elaguine was rather below the average height , but so slender that [she]360-madame elaguine looked tall ; there was something very shy about [her]360-madame elaguine , and [Anne]171-anne could understand [her]360-madame elaguine shyness . “[2357-she] [I]0-i am so glad [you]2364-you have come , ” [she]0-i said ; “[0-i] [we]2365-we had almost given [you]2364-you up . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i fear [I]0-i am very late — perhaps in [your]2364-you way , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; “[2364-you] the fact is , [I]0-i had to take [[my]0-i little girl]2366-my little girl to choose a doll , and [she]2366-my little girl took nearly an hour about it , ” and [she]360-madame elaguine laughed a little shy laugh . [She]360-madame elaguine had a beautiful voice , high and silvery , and yet warm and caressing , like [a child]623-a child ’s , which inevitably made [you]2364-you think of delicate green leaves , and fields whitened with budding clover , and all sorts of young and tender things . [She]360-madame elaguine was very thin , almost emaciated , and with a slight droop of the head : it was too dark for [Anne]171-anne to see [her]360-madame elaguine features distinctly , but [she]360-madame elaguine seemed pretty , and frail , and wasted . There was something in that childish voice which touched [Anne]171-anne ; [her]171-anne strong , rebellious disbelief in the horrible Sacha of [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor came indignantly to [her]171-anne . “[2366-my little girl] It is very good of [you]2364-you to let [me]0-i come and see [you]2364-you , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , after some trifling conversation , “[2364-you] and very good of [[my]0-i cousin]4336-my cousin to propose it ; because , ” and [her]0-i voice , in a sudden outburst of frankness , became just a little tremulous , “[145-hamlin] [Walter]145-hamlin must have a very painful recollection of [me]0-i . It was a very unhappy time when [we]2368-we were last together , and [I]0-i often think with shame of what [I]0-i was then — what [a wretched , badly brought up , bad‐hearted child]2369-a wretched , badly brought up , bad‐hearted child [I]0-i was . ” “[2370-a bad‐hearted child] If [you]145-hamlin had been [a bad‐hearted child]2370-a bad‐hearted child , ” cried [Anne]171-anne , “[2370-a bad‐hearted child] [you]145-hamlin could not be what [you]145-hamlin are now , [you]145-hamlin could not speak as [you]145-hamlin do now . [I]0-i do n’t believe it . ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine sighed . “[0-i] At all events , ” [she]360-madame elaguine said , “[0-i] the question now is no longer what [I]0-i was or what [I]0-i am , but what [[my]0-i children]3970-my children are to be . [I]0-i am played out ; [I]0-i only hope [I]0-i may live to see [them]3970-my children on the road to being happier and more useful creatures than [I]0-i have been . ” There was something in that clear soft voice , with its just perceptible daintiness of Russian pronunciation , making the English words not less English , but more distinct and liquid , which made what from [any one else]1701-any one else might have seemed strange , quite natural and simple . “[145-hamlin] [You]145-hamlin have come to settle in [England]37-england ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne . “[145-hamlin] Yes ; at least if it is possible for [me]0-i ever to settle anywhere . [I]0-i have been a rolling stone so long , or rather [such a feather carried hither and thither by the wind]2372-such a feather carried hither and thither by the wind , that [I]0-i can scarcely believe in settling anywhere ; and then , perhaps , [I]0-i may not be permitted to stay where [I]0-i should be happy . But [I]0-i want [[my]0-i boy]2373-my boy to become [an Englishman]860-an englishman , and at the same time [I]0-i have n’t the heart to let [him]2373-my boy go away from [me]0-i . ” “[0-i] Why should [you]145-hamlin not settle ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne ; “[0-i] surely [you]145-hamlin will be much happier near [[your]145-hamlin child]2375-your child . ” “[0-i] Why may [I]0-i never do what [I]0-i wish ? ” exclaimed [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , with a curious wildness ; “[0-i] why may [I]0-i not be left to live in peace like [any other insignificant woman , whose life has been a failure]2376-any other insignificant woman , whose life has been a failure ? [I]0-i am not [[my]0-i own mistress]2377-my own mistress . ” “[0-i] Bring lights , ” ordered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who had summoned [the servants]5568-the servants . [He]145-hamlin was impatient that [the two women]4884-the two women should see each other , impatient to display to [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin the magnificent creature which belonged to [him]145-hamlin . [They]4884-the two women had begun discussing various school‐plans for [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s children]5571-madame elaguine ’s children when the lamps were brought in . [Anne]171-anne was surprised when [she]171-anne saw [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin distinctly ; [she]171-anne had imagined [her]5572-hamlin ’s cousin pretty and delicate in an ordinary way , but there was nothing commonplace about [this woman]5573-this woman . [She]5572-hamlin ’s cousin was pale , and of almost ghastly thinness , and [her]5572-hamlin ’s cousin features , despite [her]5572-hamlin ’s cousin small size , were large , and perhaps a little gaunt . It struck [Anne]171-anne that [she]171-anne had seen a face like that before , and later [she]171-anne discovered that what [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine made [her]171-anne think of was [Sarah Bernhardt]384-sarah bernhardt in one of [her]360-madame elaguine girlish parts , or as [her]5572-hamlin ’s cousin face looked under the little cap of [[Coppée]385-coppée ’s page‐boy]5574-coppée ’s page‐boy . It was a charming , frank , worn , yet childish face , full of movement,—a face which seemed to vibrate like a delicate instrument — not exactly beautiful nor exactly lovable , but interesting and fascinating . It seemed to [Anne]171-anne that [she]171-anne could perfectly understand the past of [this woman]5573-this woman : a highly nervous , delicate nature , not earnest but passionate , easily turned into the very best or the very worst ; and [she]171-anne felt more than ever indignant at the thought of the corruption in contact with which [this mobile impressionable creature]5576-this mobile impressionable creature had come as a child,—at the thought of all the unintentional shame which [this woman]5573-this woman must look back upon in [her]5573-this woman childhood . While [they]5578-they were talking , [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha was equally busy looking at [Anne]171-anne ; and [Anne]171-anne puzzled [her]386-sacha . “[0-i] Either a volcano or an iceberg , or both , ” said [the little Russian]5579-the little russian to [herself]5579-the little russian , as [she]5579-the little russian looked at [Anne]171-anne ’s solemn , unruffled , and yet tragic beauty . At that moment [a carriage]5580-a carriage stopped at the door . [Hamlin]145-hamlin went to the window . [He]145-hamlin looked rather pale and puzzled as [he]145-hamlin came back . “[0-i] Let [me]0-i show [you]2378-you [[my]0-i studio]1641-my studio , [Sacha]386-sacha , ” [he]145-hamlin said hurriedly ; “[0-i] [we]2380-we can get there quickest by a little back‐stair out of [the library]4639-the library . Will [you]2378-you come ? ” [Anne]171-anne understood . [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , who had gone out expecting [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine to come an hour earlier , had returned , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin dreaded a scene . But [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine understood also . “[2378-you] [[Your]2378-you aunt]1756-your aunt has returned , ” [she]0-i said ; “[2378-you] yes , [I]0-i ’m sure [she]1756-your aunt has — that ’s why [you]2378-you want to hide [me]0-i away ; [you]2378-you are afraid of a scene . . . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin hesitated ; but [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine seemed to pin [him]145-hamlin down with [her]0-i rapid glance . “[1756-your aunt] Well , yes , ” [he]145-hamlin said ; “[1756-your aunt] what ’s the use of mincing matters ? [You]2378-you know how unreasonable [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia always was , and what a prejudice [she]247-aunt claudia had against [you]2378-you . ” “[247-aunt claudia] And has still ; [I]0-i can believe it . But look here , ” and [the little emaciated creature]5581-the little emaciated creature rapidly stopped [Hamlin]145-hamlin as [he]145-hamlin was raising the curtain into the next room—“I[1756-your aunt] am not going to be hid away . [[Your]2378-you aunt]1756-your aunt has every reason to hate [me]0-i , and to be angry at finding [me]0-i [here]3884-here . But [I]0-i am not coming into [[her]1756-your aunt house]4033-her house on the sly — [I]0-i wo n’t be hidden away . [[Your]2378-you aunt]1756-your aunt may say what [she]1756-your aunt likes to [me]0-i , but [she]1756-your aunt shall see [me]0-i here . ” “[1756-your aunt] [I]0-i think [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is quite right , ” said [Anne]171-anne , though [she]0-i knew full well what sort of reception [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor was likely to give to [the detested Sacha]386-sacha . “[1756-your aunt] [I]0-i quite understand [her]1756-your aunt feeling . ” “[1756-your aunt] But [you]360-madame elaguine are not coming into [[Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia ’s house]2387-aunt claudia ’s house on the sly , ” insisted [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[360-madame elaguine] In the first place , [this house]4073-this house is not [[Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia ’s house]2387-aunt claudia ’s house , but [[Miss Brown]171-anne ’s house]4980-miss brown ’s house . [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , like [you]360-madame elaguine and [me]0-i , is merely [[Miss Brown]171-anne ’s guest]2391-miss brown ’s guest , and [you]360-madame elaguine have come to see [Miss Brown]171-anne . In the second place , [[my]0-i aunt]4294-my aunt knew [you]360-madame elaguine were coming , and went out expressly to avoid meeting [you]360-madame elaguine . ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine listened with a slight look of contempt . “[4294-my aunt] So much the better if [I]0-i am not intruding behind [her]4294-my aunt back . And it is very considerate of [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor to save [me]0-i what [she]4294-my aunt knows must be a painful scene . But besides [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , [I]0-i have [myself]0-i to think of . [I]0-i wish to see [[your]360-madame elaguine aunt]1756-your aunt . [I]0-i wish to have the satisfaction of telling [her]4294-my aunt , that however much [she]4294-my aunt may hate the remembrance of [me]0-i , [she]4294-my aunt can not hate it more than [I]0-i do . ” There was something theatrical in this which took [Hamlin]145-hamlin by surprise ; but it was the theatricalness of a quixotic and passionate temper , and [Anne]171-anne liked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine for it . “[0-i] [I]0-i want to see [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , ” repeated [the Russian]5582-the russian ; “[243-mrs macgregor] but [I]0-i do n’t want to inflict it upon [you]243-mrs macgregor , [Miss Brown]171-anne . Indeed [I]0-i fear it is very ill‐bred and very selfish of [me]0-i to come to [[your]243-mrs macgregor house]4310-your house merely to make a disagreeable scene : still [I]0-i ca n’t resist the desire , ” and [she]0-i shook [her]0-i little head with its close pale‐yellow curls and deep brown eyes , “[0-i] only — don’t stay — just tell [[your]243-mrs macgregor aunt]1756-your aunt that [I]0-i am here , and that [I]0-i want to see [her]1756-your aunt . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i will go and tell [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ” said [Anne]171-anne . But as [she]0-i spoke , [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor entered . [The old lady]1153-the old lady was short‐sighted ; and in [that room]5584-that room , where the light , concentrated on a few spots , left all the more shadow all round , [she]1153-the old lady did not at first notice the presence of [a stranger]661-a stranger . “[247-aunt claudia] Well , is [she]1756-your aunt gone ? ” [she]1153-the old lady asked savagely . “[1756-your aunt] [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is here , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , quietly . “[247-aunt claudia] Here ! ” exclaimed [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor — “[1756-your aunt] still in [this house]4073-this house ! ” “[1756-your aunt] And [she]1756-your aunt has remained , ” went on [Anne]171-anne , with a weighty coldness which often put down [the old lady]1153-the old lady ’s ebullitions , “[1756-your aunt] because [she]1756-your aunt wants to see [you]247-aunt claudia again . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin was standing by the piano . How [he]145-hamlin wished [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin at the devil for inflicting such a scene upon [him]145-hamlin ! “[1756-your aunt] The insolence ! ” muttered [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . But [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had come forward and stretched out [her]0-i hand . “[1756-your aunt] [I]0-i could not come here without seeing [you]247-aunt claudia , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ” [she]0-i said , in [her]0-i clear voice . “[247-aunt claudia] [I]0-i want to tell [you]247-aunt claudia that , badly , as [I]0-i behaved as [a child]623-a child , and cruelly unjust though [you]247-aunt claudia were towards [me]0-i , [I]0-i bear [you]247-aunt claudia no ill‐will , and only wish to ask for [your]247-aunt claudia forgiveness . ” [She]0-i had sat down opposite to [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s aunt]4652-hamlin ’s aunt scanned [her]247-aunt claudia from head to foot ; [she]0-i was taken by surprise , shaken throughout [her]0-i nature , and at a loss how to answer . “[358-sacha] So [you]247-aunt claudia are [Sacha Polozoff]358-sacha , ” said [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor at length , slowly . “[247-aunt claudia] [I]0-i know all the fine trash which [Anne]171-anne talks about [the woman]4801-the woman not being the same as [the child]660-the child — maybe ; [I]0-i hope so , for [your]247-aunt claudia sake . As to forgiveness , [you]247-aunt claudia have [mine]0-i : but forgiveness is only an empty word ; it does not cancel what has been done , neither from the memory of [God]195-god nor of [man]1134-man . Here ; [I]0-i forgive [you]247-aunt claudia , and take it for what it is worth . ” And [she]0-i stretched out [her]0-i hand with a bitter smile . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine stooped down and kissed that shaking old hand . “[0-i] Whatever [your]247-aunt claudia forgiveness is worth , [I]0-i take it joyfully ; it can not undo the past , and it can not put an end to injustice and hatred,—so far it is worthless . But to [me]0-i it gives a new life , because [I]0-i have been able at last to ask forgiveness , to admit all the mischief [I]0-i have ever done , and to cast away the faults of [my]0-i childhood from [my]0-i own clean self,”—she spoke very low , and with tears in [her]0-i voice , but with passion and pride . “[0-i] [I]0-i am happy that [you]247-aunt claudia feel so comfortable , ” replied [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , “[247-aunt claudia] and that [I]0-i have been conducive thereto . [I]0-i am happy also to make [your]247-aunt claudia acquaintance , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , and [I]0-i hope [you]247-aunt claudia will not deprive [[my]0-i nephew]2401-my nephew and niece of [your]247-aunt claudia society on [my]0-i account . ” [Sacha]358-sacha bowed ; the insult seemed to trickle off [her]358-sacha . [Anne]171-anne half wondered , half admired . [She]171-anne could not in the least understand the kind of character which prompted such a useless and hollow ceremony as this ; but as to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , this solemn act of self‐humiliation seemed necessary and just ; [she]171-anne admired [her]360-madame elaguine for having the courage to carry out [her]360-madame elaguine intention . “[247-aunt claudia] Good‐bye , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , as [Anne]171-anne accompanied [her]247-aunt claudia into [the anteroom]1189-the anteroom . “[247-aunt claudia] [I]0-i must beg [your]247-aunt claudia forgiveness a thousand , thousand times for having made a scene in [[your]247-aunt claudia house]4310-your house . [You]247-aunt claudia see , [I]0-i am [a badly brought‐up woman]2403-a badly brought‐up woman : [I]0-i was never taught to do anything except what [I]0-i liked ; and [I]0-i am what [I]0-i am , and must say what [I]0-i feel . ” [Her]0-i tone was very appealing . “[0-i] Will [you]0-i forgive [me]0-i , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , ” said [Anne]171-anne , in [her]171-anne earnest , solemn way , “[0-i] if [I]0-i tell [you]0-i , what it is perhaps a liberty to tell [you]0-i , that [I]0-i have always thought [[my]0-i aunt]4294-my aunt very unjust towards [you]0-i ? ” [The little thin woman]5590-the little thin woman looked up in [Anne]171-anne ’s face . “[0-i] [You]0-i are good , ” [she]5590-the little thin woman said . “[0-i] Will [you]0-i give [me]0-i a kiss ? ” [Anne]171-anne stooped down and kissed [her]5590-the little thin woman shyly on [her]5590-the little thin woman wan cheek . But a sort of shudder passed through [her]5590-the little thin woman as [her]5590-the little thin woman own lips touched that hot face , and grazed the light hair , which seemed to give out some faint Eastern perfume . [This woman]5573-this woman was so unlike anything [she]171-anne had ever seen — so unlike [her]5590-the little thin woman own simple self . “[0-i] [You]0-i will come and see [me]0-i — and see [[my]0-i children]3970-my children — won’t [you]0-i ? ” asked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[0-i] [I]0-i think it will do [me]0-i good to know [you]0-i . ” [She]5573-this woman was very excited , and [she]5573-this woman gasped as if [her]5573-this woman heart were beating like bursting . “[0-i] [I]0-i will come with [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” said [Anne]171-anne . “[145-hamlin] [She]2406-she is a strange creature , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [he]145-hamlin followed [Anne]171-anne up‐stairs from the door . “[2406-she] Did n’t [I]0-i tell [you]145-hamlin [she]2406-she was uncanny ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t see anything uncanny about [her]2406-she . [She]2406-she is very nervous and excitable — very Russian , [I]0-i should say — and accustomed always to follow [her]2406-she impulses ; but [I]0-i think [she]2406-she is [a brave little woman]2407-a brave little woman . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i ca n’t make [her]2406-she out . Did [you]145-hamlin notice [her]2406-she mouth ? it looks as if it would bite : and [she]2406-she has strange eyes ; [one]620-one looks into them , and finds [she]2406-she has merely drawn out [one]620-one ’s soul without showing [her]2406-she own . ” [Anne]171-anne laughed . “[2406-she] [Poor little woman]2410-poor little woman ! Fancy what [her]2406-she feelings would be if [she]2406-she ever knew all that ! [I]0-i wonder , by the way , whether [you]145-hamlin ever thought [me]0-i strange , and told [people]577-people that [I]0-i had . a mouth which would bite , and eyes in which [you]145-hamlin get drowned ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i always thought , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , looking at [Anne]171-anne , and seeing [her]171-anne again in that close‐fitting white bodice , with rolled‐up sleeves , bending [her]171-anne magnificent head over the iron‐board in [the little nursery]5592-the little nursery , with frescoes of blue skies , and blue seas , and ducks , and [people]577-people in [boats]1296-boats , at [the Villa Arnolfini—“I]5595-the villa arnolfini—“i[0-i] always thought that [you]145-hamlin had something strange in [you]145-hamlin , [Miss Brown]171-anne ; some terrible thing to do or to suffer in the future ; some great passion or action — [I]0-i do n’t know clearly what , but something heroic ; and [I]0-i think so now — ” [Anne]171-anne smiled ; but [she]171-anne took [his]145-hamlin words to heart , for somehow that same impression which [he]145-hamlin said [he]145-hamlin had received from [her]171-anne face [she]171-anne had had vaguely in [her]171-anne heart . “[0-i] [I]0-i hope the strangeness may consist in being [a tolerably well‐behaved and useful young woman]2412-a tolerably well‐behaved and useful young woman , ” [she]171-anne said , “[2413-a tolerably grateful one] and — [a tolerably grateful one]2413-a tolerably grateful one . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i WONDER whether [Anne Brown]171-anne has really spoken about that Cold Fremley business to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” remarked [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory to [[her]249-marjory sister]603-her sister one day , soon after [their]2414-their return to [town]821-town . “[171-anne] [I]0-i think [she]171-anne ’ll never do it , after all . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t see how [she]171-anne can , ” answered [Mary]324-mary leigh ; “[171-anne] at least [I]0-i ca n’t conceive doing such a thing . But [I]0-i do n’t think [we]2414-their must judge [Anne]171-anne by [ourselves]2414-their : when once [she]171-anne thinks something ought to be done , [she]171-anne is quite capable of forcing [herself]171-anne to do it . [Anne]171-anne is quite unlike [any one else]1701-any one else . ” “[171-anne] Fiddlestick ! ” cried [Marjory]249-marjory ; “[171-anne] [you]0-i do n’t know anything about [women]3959-women , [Mary]324-mary leigh . ” But despite [[her]249-marjory sister]603-her sister ’s superior knowledge of womankind and of everything else , [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh was in the right ; perhaps in some cases enthusiastic admiration gives a better clue to action than mere common‐sense . [Anne]171-anne really was made in such a way that when once [she]171-anne was persuaded that any course was the right one , no dislike which [she]171-anne might have to it , no thought of being considered queer , or improper , or quixotic , could restrain [her]171-anne from it . The thing became none the pleasanter to do ; but it was done unflinchingly : indeed there was in [Anne]171-anne an almost destructive quality of will , a power of ruthlessly cutting through all obstacles , the passing consciousness of which , joined with the consciousness of the many disagreeable things which it might at any moment force [her]171-anne to go through , produced in [her]171-anne a curious kind of pessimism , which , while it recognised the evil of [the world]496-the world , made that very recognition an incitement to struggle for good . [Anne]171-anne had made up [her]171-anne mind that [Hamlin]145-hamlin must have the horrible condition of [his]145-hamlin Cold [Fremley]380-cold fremley tenants explained to [him]145-hamlin . [She]171-anne fully appreciated the unseemliness , the painfulness , of such a revelation coming from [her]171-anne ; but as there appeared to be [no one else who could satisfactorily make it]5600-no one else who could satisfactorily make it to [him]145-hamlin , it must be made by [her]171-anne . “[0-i] It is very simple , ” [she]171-anne said to [herself]171-anne : and this was the most characteristic remark that [Anne]171-anne could ever make ; for it is curious how very much simpler life does become to [people who are in the habit of acting without regard for]5601-people who are in the habit of acting without regard for [their]5601-people who are in the habit of acting without regard for own feelings . But it was , though simple , difficult , not on [her]171-anne own account , but on [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s . In the first few days after [her]171-anne return from [Wotton]94-wotton , [she]171-anne had several times been on the point of broaching the subject , but [she]171-anne had desisted on noticing the absolute want of seriousness in [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s manner , the æsthetic vagueness and fickleness of [his]145-hamlin thoughts . “[0-i] [He]2417-he will do nothing practical in this mood , ” [she]171-anne said to [herself]171-anne ; and as , time after time , [she]171-anne watched for a propitious moment without finding it , [Anne]171-anne became painfully aware , as [one]620-one becomes aware of some deficiency in a valued piece of property only when it is pointed out , of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s want of seriousness , of [his]145-hamlin utter want of any habit of asking [himself]145-hamlin about [his]145-hamlin responsibilities , or indeed of thinking about anything except [himself]145-hamlin and the beautiful and weird things which delighted [him]145-hamlin . “[2417-he] Perhaps it is cowardice on [my]0-i part , ” [Anne]171-anne suddenly thought ; “[0-i] perhaps [I]0-i find that [he]2417-he is not fit to attend to the subject because [I]0-i dislike mentioning it . ” So it must be done at once . [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [she]171-anne knew , was alone in [[his]145-hamlin studio]1124-his studio ; [he]145-hamlin must have finished [his]145-hamlin afternoon ’s work , or very nearly , and there was no [Chough]379-hamlin , or [Lewis]353-lewis , or [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun on the horizon . So [Anne]171-anne closed the piano at which [she]171-anne had been practising some of [Chough]379-hamlin ’s favourite old music , and went down‐stairs . [She]171-anne had made up [her]171-anne mind ; but , as [she]171-anne went slowly to [the studio]795-the studio , [she]171-anne felt [her]171-anne heart begin to flutter and to beat , and a cold perspiration to start out in [her]171-anne forehead . For all [her]171-anne familiarity with [the æsthetic world]5605-the æsthetic world , in whose apprehension , as [[Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly ’s Yankee friend]5606-thaddy o’reilly ’s yankee friend had quietly remarked , “[0-i] right or wrong do n’t exist,”—for all [her]171-anne habit of reading poems in which every unmentionable shamefulness was used as so much vermilion or pale‐green or mysterious grey in a picturesque and suggestive composition,—Anne had retained a constitutional loathing for touching some subjects , which was like the blind instinctive horror of certain animals for brackish water or mud . When [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory had first taken [her]171-anne into [her]171-anne confidence , and told [her]171-anne of the pools of sin which stagnated among [the starving , unwashed , and unlettered million]5607-the starving , unwashed , and unlettered million , [Anne]171-anne had recoiled , and felt a sort of momentary horror for [Marjory]249-marjory , a sort of resentment at this foulness thus obtruded on to [her]171-anne ; and this feeling , which would sometimes still recur while talking with [[her]171-anne philanthropic friend]5608-her philanthropic friend , was perhaps the thing in all [her]171-anne life of which [Anne]171-anne was the most profoundly ashamed . [The æsthetes all round [her]171-anne]5609-the æsthetes all round her would let all [the world]496-the world rot away in physical hideousness rather than have that physical hideousness put before [their]5609-the æsthetes all round her eyes ; and [she]171-anne , was [she]171-anne not even worse , in [her]171-anne cowardly horror of seeing moral wounds and leprosies ? So [Anne]171-anne argued with [herself]171-anne ; and [she]171-anne would now face anything ; but the feeling of moral sickness was there , however bravely [she]171-anne might look at evil , and try and help to remedy it . “[0-i] [I]0-i am [a base creature]2418-a base creature , ” [Anne]171-anne thought as [she]171-anne felt [her]171-anne heart fluttering as if it would break loose , as [she]171-anne stood and knocked at [the studio]795-the studio door . “[0-i] Come in , ” cried [Hamlin]379-hamlin . [He]379-hamlin thought it was [the servant]4647-the servant , for at first [he]379-hamlin did not turn round , but continued writing at a beautiful , fantastically inlaid desk in a corner . “[0-i] It ’s [I]0-i , ” said [Anne]171-anne . [He]379-hamlin started up to meet [her]171-anne . “[0-i] How sweet of [you]0-i to come , [Madonna Anna]387-madonna anna ! ” [he]379-hamlin said , beaming ; “[387-madonna anna] [I]0-i was just wanting so much to see [you]0-i — [I]0-i do n’t know why — a sort of silly , nostalgic wish . It ’s ridiculous to be nostalgic about [a person who is on the first floor]2419-a person who is on the first floor , when [I]0-i am on [the ground floor]2420-the ground floor , is n’t it ? and yet it is so . [I]0-i was feeling quite an over‐ powering desire to see [you]0-i . And [you]0-i seem to have felt it , through the ceiling , carpets and all , do n’t [you]0-i ? ” [Anne]171-anne smiled faintly , but [her]171-anne heart sank . “[0-i] [I]0-i also wanted [you]0-i to see how [I]0-i have been getting on with [my]0-i Beatrice , ” [he]379-hamlin said , and rolled an easel into the middle of [the room]574-the room . [Anne]171-anne stood for a moment before the almost Giorgionesquely magnificent picture , looking vaguely at [the well‐known lady]5614-the well‐known lady — with those strange , half‐classic , half‐Semitic , and yet a little Ethiopian , features , those wide grey eyes , that pent‐roof of crisp , lustreless , black hair , those hollowed cheeks and tragic lips which had by this time become so familiar to the artistic world of [London]4-london . It never seemed to [her]171-anne that this could have anything to do with [her]171-anne , [this sombre , mystic , wistful woman of unreality]5615-this sombre , mystic , wistful woman of unreality . But [she]171-anne was not thinking of that ; [she]171-anne stood at the picture , but almost without seeing it . [Hamlin]379-hamlin was standing a little aside , looking from [her]171-anne to the picture , and from the picture to [her]171-anne , and humming the lines from [Dante]180-dante ’s sonnet , which [Chough]379-hamlin had set to music — “[0-i] Ch’ogni lingua divien tremando muta , Egli occhi non ardiscon di guardare . ” “[0-i] Certainly , ” [he]379-hamlin said to [himself]379-hamlin , “[180-dante] [Dante]180-dante had not a better [Beatrice]187-beatrice than this . ” “[180-dante] [I]0-i want to speak to [you]2421-you , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” said [Anne]171-anne , suddenly turning round . Something in [her]171-anne voice took [him]2421-you by surprise . “[145-hamlin] So much the better , ” [he]2421-you said , pulling forward a heavy arm‐chair , covered with old‐fashioned green brocade . [Anne]171-anne sat down . How was [she]171-anne to begin ? [She]171-anne had intended to prelude with some sort of apology for entering on such a subject ; but , somehow , now [she]171-anne could not apologise . “[145-hamlin] Do [you]2421-you remember [a hamlet near [Wotton]94-wotton]2422-a hamlet near wotton , close by [the river]4465-the river , called [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , slowly . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had just caught a look which [he]145-hamlin wanted for [his]145-hamlin picture , and [he]145-hamlin had taken up [his]145-hamlin painting things . “[145-hamlin] Yes , ” and [he]145-hamlin looked up from [his]145-hamlin palette in [Anne]171-anne ’s pale face , with the almost monochrome faint‐red lips and the delicately hollowed cheeks . “[145-hamlin] What about it ? [I]0-i remember it quite well . Oh yes , [a lovely spot]2424-a lovely spot ; and [we]2425-we went [there]4426-there one evening together . ” “[2425-we] Just so ; well , it appears that [this hamlet]2427-this hamlet , or rather group of [six or seven cabins]2428-six or seven cabins , belongs to [you]2421-you — is part of [the Wotton property]2429-the wotton property . ” “[0-i] Is it ? [I]0-i did n’t know that . Fancy [my]0-i being [the unsuspecting proprietor of [such a lovely place]2431-such a lovely place]2430-the unsuspecting proprietor of such a lovely place ! [I]0-i am so glad ; [I]0-i want to write a poem about it one day . ” “[0-i] And it appears , ” went on [Anne]171-anne , carefully steadying [her]171-anne voice , but keeping [her]171-anne eyes on the little cypress‐trees and conventional anemones of the Persian rug under [her]171-anne feet—“it[0-i] appears that the condition of [the people who live in [those houses]2433-those houses]2432-the people who live in those houses is very , very horrible ; [the cabins]2434-the cabins have barely more than one room , into which [the whole family]2435-the whole family is piled . ” “[0-i] Loathsome ! ” cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , with a shudder , “[0-i] and in such [a lovely spot]2424-a lovely spot . Do [you]2421-you remember the thick clotted masses of [the river]4465-the river dragging between [the meadow‐sweet and willow‐herb]2438-the meadow‐sweet and willow‐herb ? ” “[2421-you] It is very loathsome , ” went on [Anne]171-anne , a coldness coming all over [her]171-anne . “[2421-you] ’ [The people]871-the people are very wretched , poor , always ill of fever , with no more sense of right and wrong than cattle . ” “[2421-you] Very dreadful indeed , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , mixing [his]145-hamlin paints . “[2421-you] Of course nothing can be done — nothing ever can , [you]2421-you know — ” “[2421-you] Something can and must be done ! ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[2421-you] It appears that in consequence of this utter wretchedness and ignorance , and especially on account of the degrading effect of being all huddled together , [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women , [boys]1953-boys and [girls]1352-girls , all of [them]871-the people , in [one room which is [bedroom]2445-bedroom , [kitchen]2446-kitchen , [sitting‐room]2447-sitting‐room]2444-one room which is bedroom , kitchen , sitting‐room , everything at the same time,—it appears that [these miserable creatures]2448-these miserable creatures have gradually come to live worse than animals ; [they]2448-these miserable creatures grow , and let [[their]2448-these miserable creatures children]2449-their children in turn grow up in horrible , shameful sin . ” The difficulty of saying it had vanished ; [Anne]171-anne felt that , whether [she]171-anne would or would not , it must come out . [Her]171-anne voice had kept steady , but died out in terrible hoarseness ; and [her]171-anne wide‐opened eyes fixed themselves upon [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [Hamlin]145-hamlin let [his]145-hamlin hand with the palette drop on [his]145-hamlin knee , and listened with deep attention . “[2448-these miserable creatures] How very strange ! ” [he]145-hamlin said ; “[2448-these miserable creatures] how very strange — how tragic ! ” “[2448-these miserable creatures] It is tragic , ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[2448-these miserable creatures] Oh , [I]0-i think nothing in [the wide world]2450-the wide world can be more tragic ! What is the murder of the body to this ? or what is any crime which [one man]4265-one man can commit towards another , compared with [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women being pushed into wickedness by mere external circumstances , being condemned without knowing it , [mere blind , indifferent creatures]2454-mere blind , indifferent creatures , to befoul [their]2448-these miserable creatures souls in this way ? ” [Anne]171-anne had not the slightest thought of being eloquent , but [she]171-anne was , not only in [her]171-anne words , but in [her]171-anne face and look . [Hamlin]145-hamlin appreciated it ; [he]145-hamlin was struck . Such a view of evil and of fate had never presented itself to [him]145-hamlin ; [he]145-hamlin recognised how much newer and grander it was than the usual platitude about fatal passion in which [he]145-hamlin and [[his]145-hamlin school]5209-his school had indulged . “[0-i] Are [you]0-i quite sure of this ? ” [he]145-hamlin asked , with some interest . “[0-i] [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett gave one of [the Leighs]327-the leighs all the details of it . If [you]0-i would go to [her]376-harry collett , [she]376-harry collett would tell [you]0-i all about it ; [she]376-harry collett has been afraid , ashamed of mentioning it to [you]0-i , so [I]0-i have done it . But if only [you]0-i would speak to [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett now , [she]376-harry collett would explain to [you]0-i exactly that ought to be done . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not seem to attend . “[376-harry collett] It is awfully grand , ” [he]145-hamlin mused—“all[376-harry collett] the grander for the utter unconsciousness , involuntariness . It would make a splendid subject for a poem . [I]0-i always felt there must be something in [that county]2455-that county which should correspond to the tragic look of everything . So much [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun ’s notion that there is n’t anything poetical or terrible in reality . ” A sickening fear came over [Anne]171-anne . But [she]171-anne drove it from [her]171-anne : [she]171-anne tried to say to [herself]171-anne that [she]171-anne had expected this ; that [Hamlin]145-hamlin , being unaccustomed to any serious thought of the evil of [others]4163-others , and being [a poet]498-a poet , would at first take things in this way . “[376-harry collett] [Mrs Collett]376-harry collett says that there is hope of saving these miserable creatures by building [better dwellings]2324-better dwellings for [them]2457-them ; trying to turn [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley into [a village]2458-a village , and setting up [a school]2459-a school . [I]0-i have been thinking over it a great deal [myself]0-i . Of course [I]0-i ’m very ignorant . But [I]0-i ’ve heard that [the river]4465-the river ought to be valuable for water‐power , because there is no other one near ; so [I]0-i thought the simplest would be to try and induce [some one]1380-some one — or do it [yourself]2462-yourself — to set up [a factory there]2463-a factory there . That would give [the people]871-the people work , and give [them]871-the people ideas of decent living , and then [a school]2459-a school would have to be opened . ” The word [factory]5619-factory seemed to sear into [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s nerves . “[0-i] [A factory on [that river]2467-that river]2466-a factory on that river ? on [[my]0-i property]2468-my property ? to befoul [all that pure and exquisite country with smoke and machine refuse]2469-all that pure and exquisite country with smoke and machine refuse ! ” [he]145-hamlin cried indignantly . “[0-i] [One single factory]2470-one single factory need not befoul anything , ” said [Anne]171-anne , sternly . “[0-i] And all the smoke and machine refuse in [the wide world]2450-the wide world could not make that neighbourhood one‐hundredth part as foul as it is made by the sin of [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley . No , not one‐thousandth part as foul as [our]2472-our own hearts , if [we]2472-our let such an evil exist under [our]2472-our eyes . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin seemed moved and puzzled . “[380-cold fremley] It is very dreadful , ” [he]145-hamlin mused . “[0-i] [I]0-i really had no notion that such things go on nowadays . [One]620-one is apt to think [the world]496-the world much more commonplace than it is . [I]0-i will go to [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley some day soon . [I]0-i ’ll take [Lewis]353-lewis with [me]0-i , [he]353-lewis ’ll be very much interested in it . [I]0-i daresay , ” [he]145-hamlin added , “[0-i] that there ’s a great deal of exaggeration about it . But as to [the factory]2475-the factory , [I]0-i consider it would be against [my]0-i conscience to permit such a thing : there is no greater pollution in [England]37-england than [factories]2476-factories ; thank Heaven , there are as yet few in [our county]2477-our county ; and [I]0-i would rather die than spoil [that beautiful peaceful bit of ground]2478-that beautiful peaceful bit of ground . ” Against this [Anne]171-anne felt it useless to struggle . “[2479-you] Since [you]2479-you will not hear of the only plan which would easily improve the condition of [those people]2016-those people , ” [she]171-anne went on , “[2479-you] let [us]2481-us leave [the factory]2475-the factory alone ; it is not necessary : a few hundred pounds will amply pay for improving , enlarging [the six or seven houses of which Cold Fremley]2483-the six or seven houses of which cold fremley consists . As to draining , [every one]4712-every one says that were [that county]2455-that county drained , it would amply repay the expense by the superior quality of the crops . All that is wanted for the present , ” invocated [Anne]171-anne in despair , “[4712-every one] is that [the people]871-the people should have more room — that [they]871-the people should not herd like cattle — that [the growing children]2487-the growing children , at least , should not be forced into contact with all that vice . And all that can be gained by merely enlarging [the cottages]2488-the cottages . ” “[2479-you] Such a thing as [you]2479-you suggest would — besides being , in [my]0-i opinion , perfectly useless — involve a very heavy expense , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , coldly . “[2479-you] Not more , ” cried [Anne]171-anne , blazing up—“not[0-i] more than [you]0-i have been at in educating [me]0-i , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ! ” The words were scarcely out of [her]171-anne mouth when [she]171-anne repented of them . “[0-i] Perhaps , ” [she]171-anne added sullenly , “[0-i] that also has been a waste . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not answer ; [he]145-hamlin was taken by surprise , embarrassed . “[0-i] The cases are wholly dissimilar . The left hand may not ask the right hand what it has or has not been able to do . ” “[0-i] What do [you]0-i mean , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ? If [you]0-i have been spending more than [you]0-i can afford on [me]0-i — oh , do n’t think [I]0-i ’m not grateful — but please , please , spend no more . [This house]4073-this house might be sold . [You]0-i do n’t live in [it]4073-this house after all , and [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia would be just as happy at [Wotton]94-wotton . [The house]509-the house and furniture must be worth a good deal , and then there is the expense of housekeeping in [London]4-london . Do think of it . [I]0-i am sure [you]0-i could raise money enough in that way . ” “[0-i] [This house]4073-this house is not [mine]145-hamlin , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , quietly ; “[171-anne] [it]4073-this house was bought out of [your]171-anne capital ; and the expenses [you]171-anne mention are paid out of [your]171-anne income , not [mine]145-hamlin . ” [He]145-hamlin had wasted all this on [her]171-anne , and [the people on [[his]145-hamlin estate]5621-his estate]5620-the people on his estate lived in [foul , sinful hovels]5622-foul , sinful hovels ! A strange gratitude , mixed with horror , overcame [Anne]171-anne ; all the beautiful things about [her,—her]171-anne beautiful fantastic dress , which [Hamlin]145-hamlin always designed for [her]171-anne , [her]171-anne knowledge and good‐breeding,—all that had been paid for with that money , became loathsome to [her]171-anne . “[145-hamlin] It is not [mine]145-hamlin — not [mine]145-hamlin ; [I]0-i am [a mere beggar]2492-a mere beggar living off [your]145-hamlin charity , ” [she]0-i exclaimed—“living[2492-a mere beggar] off what [I]0-i have no right to , what ought to go to [them]2493-them — to [those poor sinful creatures at [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley]2494-those poor sinful creatures at cold fremley . Oh , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , sell [this house]4073-this house , sell the furniture , all , all . Enough has been done for [me]0-i ; [I]0-i do n’t want all these beautiful things in order to be happy ; [I]0-i could be happy anywhere , doing anything , if [I]0-i knew that there was one evil the less in [the world]496-the world . If there did not remain enough to live upon , [I]0-i could go out as [a governess]2497-a governess , or [a schoolmistress]5337-a schoolmistress . [I]0-i have learned quite enough to do that — indeed [I]0-i am in earnest — [I]0-i should be perfectly happy gaining [my]0-i bread as [I]0-i used to . Only let something be done for [those people]2016-those people — don’t let [me]0-i feel that every lovely thing [I]0-i look at , every beautiful thing [I]0-i hear , every word [you]2500-you say , every pleasure [I]0-i feel , is as sinful as those sinful lives ! ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin smiled ; [he]145-hamlin admired and disbelieved ; but what [a magnificent woman]5623-a magnificent woman [she]2500-you was ! what passion , what fervour under that cold exterior ! “[2500-you] There is no need for that , ” [he]145-hamlin said gently , looking at [Anne]171-anne with admiring and loving eyes . “[2500-you] [I]0-i am not so poor as that , and [I]0-i would starve rather than see [you]2500-you deprived of any single thing to which [you]2500-you have a right . ” “[2500-you] Then [you]2500-you will go to [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley ? [You]2500-you will see about it ? ” [He]145-hamlin was good and generous at bottom — [she]171-anne knew it ; and [she]171-anne could have fallen on [her]171-anne knees and cried like [a child]623-a child with [her]171-anne head upon [his]145-hamlin arm . “[2500-you] [I]0-i will go to [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley , ” [he]145-hamlin answered with alacrity . “[0-i] [I]0-i want to go [there]4426-there . [I]0-i want to study the whole matter — ” “[0-i] What do [you]0-i want to study it for ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , suddenly and terribly ; “[0-i] to improve matters , or — to write a poem ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do wish to write a poem , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who felt no shame for doing so , and resented being thus reproved . “[0-i] Certainly [I]0-i wish to write a poem . [You]2502-you made such a fuss about [my]0-i tearing up that ‘ Ballad of [the Fens’—well]107-the fens’—well , [I]0-i now see [my]0-i way to making use of all the best parts of it , and with a real tragic and passionate motive . As to improving matters , [I]0-i will look about [me]0-i . But [I]0-i totally disbelieve in the utility of giving [these people better dwellings]2503-these people better dwellings . Of course , ” [he]145-hamlin went on gently , but with that tone of knowledge of the evil of [the world]496-the world which [Anne]171-anne so much hated—“of[2504-you] course [you]2504-you , who are pure and upright , who can not conceive the reality of lust and the fascination of evil — [you]2504-you can never understand the hold which evil has in [this world]5351-this world ; [you]2504-you can not understand that the passion for sin may exist as there exists in [you]2504-you the passion for good ; that [most men]2506-most men receive in [[their]2506-most men father]902-their father ’s blood , in [[their]2506-most men mother]699-their mother ’s milk , the haschisch of sinful desire,—that the more [they]2506-most men grow , the more it grows in [them]2506-most men — that it is [their]2506-most men very life , and is perpetually seeking for aliment . Evil is ; it can not be stamped out . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s eyes sparkled , and [he]145-hamlin spoke with a flush ; but there was no excitement , no horror in [his]145-hamlin tone . [Anne]171-anne felt that [he]145-hamlin was reciting in prose what [he]145-hamlin would soon write in verse . “[2509-you] In short , ” [she]171-anne said , “[2509-you] [you]2509-you think the sinfulness of [the people of [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley]2510-the people of cold fremley fits very well into [the landscape]2511-the landscape ? [You]2509-you think it , as [you]2509-you said , very picturesque and grand ? ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin was [a man who could not easily keep at high moral tension]5626-a man who could not easily keep at high moral tension . “[2509-you] Well , yes , ” [he]145-hamlin answered ; “[2509-you] of course it is very shocking , and if anything could be done , why , [I]0-i should be glad . But [I]0-i know nothing can be done ; and although it is very much to be regretted , yet [I]0-i do n’t think [you]2509-you can deny that there is something very grand and tragic in this sin flowering like evil grasses in [that marsh]2512-that marsh . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i see , ” said [Anne]171-anne , faintly — everything seemed to be turning all round [her]171-anne ; “[0-i] good‐bye . ” “[0-i] [You]2509-you must n’t be angry with [me]0-i , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , following [her]171-anne to [the studio]795-the studio door . “[2509-you] [You]2509-you see [I]0-i , unfortunately , have much more experience of life and evil than [you]2509-you will ever have . [I]0-i know that fatality of sin ; and that makes [me]0-i take things in a different way from how [you]2509-you take them . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s voice sounded faint and distant to [Anne]171-anne , hollow like an echo in [a whispering chamber]5628-a whispering chamber . [She]171-anne went mechanically up‐stairs ; [she]171-anne did not know how [she]171-anne felt , but everything seemed surrounded by thick , clammy horror ; [the world]496-the world was going to pieces . When [she]171-anne had shut the door of [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room behind [her]171-anne , [she]171-anne threw [herself]171-anne with [her]171-anne face on [her]171-anne bed , and burst into an agony of half‐audible sobs . But when at length hours passed , and [the maid]4505-the maid came to ask whether [she]171-anne would come to tea , [Anne]171-anne felt no better ; a black despair weighed upon [her]171-anne . On [her]171-anne dressing‐table stood a Japanese jar , filled with delicate autumnal roses ; they had the pallor , the diaphanous purity which the frost gives to flowers , as approaching death gives it sometimes to [human creatures]5632-human creatures . [Anne]171-anne looked at them ; and then , without passion or excitement , [she]171-anne took them out of the vase , and threw them into the fire . [She]171-anne watched the petals shrivel and fall to black dust on the flame , and the leaves and stalks turn slowly , with a hissing noise , into glowing embers . Then [she]171-anne felt ashamed . The poor flowers were pure — they at least were clean — and [she]171-anne had destroyed them . And [Anne]171-anne buried [her]171-anne head in [her]171-anne hands , and began to sob once more . [THE Leigh girls]4986-the leigh girls never discovered which of [them]4986-the leigh girls was in the right ; and as [Anne]171-anne never made any further allusion to [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley , [they]4986-the leigh girls concluded that [she]171-anne had not spoken to [Hamlin]145-hamlin about it . [Hamlin]145-hamlin noticed no change in [her]171-anne , but then [he]145-hamlin never expected to see one : [Anne]171-anne became gradually more silent , more indifferent , more abrupt in [her]171-anne answers . [Some people]5310-some people said , “[2513-she] [She]2513-she is getting spoilt by being made too much of ; ” and others , like [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly , hinted that the vagaries and splendours of æsthetic society , the poems and music and improprieties of [Chough]379-hamlin and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , the nudities and [Elizabethan dramatists of [Lewis]353-lewis]5635-elizabethan dramatists of lewis , were beginning to pall upon [Miss Brown]171-anne . “[2513-she] [I]0-i ’ll bet anything , ” said [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly , “[2513-she] that as soon as [they]2514-they are married , [the new Mrs Hamlin]388-hamlin will abandon Mantegnesque costumes , will open a bill with Worth , and insist upon hiring [a house in [Belgravia]108-belgravia]2515-a house in belgravia for at least one season . ” So said [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly ; but it must be added that [he]284-thaddy o’reilly said it to [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , to alarm and anger whose hereditary high‐art passions was [the little journalist]4871-the little journalist ’s great delight . [Anne]171-anne still went out into [æsthetic society]5637-æsthetic society , [she]171-anne still listened to new poems and to literary discussions , [she]171-anne still sat to [Hamlin]388-hamlin and to [half‐a‐dozen other painters]5638-half‐a‐dozen other painters ; but when [people]577-people at concerts or the play used to point out [Miss Brown]171-anne as [the queen of æstheticism]5640-the queen of æstheticism , [they]577-people little guessed how far removed were the thoughts of [this queen]5641-this queen from [[her]5641-this queen realm]5642-her realm and [[her]5641-this queen subjects]5643-her subjects . Ever since that memorable conversation about [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley , beautiful things,—all the things — poetry , painting , music , romance — which had originally surrounded [Hamlin]388-hamlin with a sort of luminous emanation in [Anne]171-anne ’s eyes,—had grown loathsome to [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne knew that it was unfair and absurd , but [she]171-anne could not resist the feeling that all the fair forms and sound patterns and imaginary passions of poetry — nay , that the very beauty of nature , where any existed — were foul ; and [her]171-anne soul shrank from them as from contamination . [She]171-anne began to take a grim pleasure in that sordid ugliness which had , on [her]171-anne arrival in [London]4-london , given [her]171-anne such a shock , and to which [Hamlin]388-hamlin and [[his]5644-his friends]893-his friends were always shutting [their]577-people eyes . The fog , the black ooze , the melancholy monotony of griminess , the hideousness of [the men]4543-the men and women in [the streets]4115-the streets , jarred upon [her]171-anne much less than the beautiful pictures of Italian scenery which [Hamlin]388-hamlin hung up at [Hammersmith,—than]109-hammersmith,—than [the lovely , mysterious creatures in jewel‐coloured robes]5648-the lovely , mysterious creatures in jewel‐coloured robes , wandering in [distant countries of bliss]5649-distant countries of bliss and romance , which [Hamlin]388-hamlin painted . The poetry of pure beauty sickened [her]171-anne ; and [she]171-anne could not take up even the purest poems of [that school]5650-that school , not even the mere charming pieces of decoration of Morris , without putting them down with disgust . [She]171-anne began to feel a vague nostalgic longing after [her]171-anne own past : faint recollections of [[her]171-anne father]4143-her father ’s grimy , workshop at [Spezia]14-spezia , of [the poor little room where [[her]171-anne mother]1278-her mother had sat doing cheap dressmaking]5652-the poor little room where her mother had sat doing cheap dressmaking , returned to [her]171-anne . The life at [Florence]6-florence , the sordid life with [the Perrys]1062-the perrys , the tattered furniture and [ill‐swept rooms]5655-ill‐swept rooms , [the dirty and noisy kitchen]5656-the dirty and noisy kitchen with the haunting smell of sink ; the dull routine of washing and ironing and mending , of dressing and undressing [the refractory children]5657-the refractory children , of teaching [them]5657-the refractory children [their]5657-the refractory children letters and trying to keep [them]5657-the refractory children tidy ; the ill‐will , the muttered anger , the jeering scraps of song of [the other servants]5658-the other servants , who resented [Anne]171-anne ’s superiority,—all these recollections which had almost been effaced during [her]171-anne happy new life at [Coblenz]51-coblenz and in [London]4-london , returned to [her]171-anne , vivid as reality , and filled [her]171-anne with unaccountable yearning . And yet , when [she]171-anne asked [herself]171-anne what this meant , [she]171-anne could not but confess that [she]171-anne was different from what [she]171-anne had then been ; that [she]171-anne had absorbed too much of the new life ever to be happy in the old one — nay , that that very indignation with the mere selfish worship of beauty which made all things seem black in [her]171-anne eyes , would never have been possible had [she]171-anne remained [a mere servant]5659-a mere servant . [Hamlin]388-hamlin had redeemed [her]171-anne soul ; [he]5660-he had made [her]171-anne a thinking and feeling being — but what for ? [She]171-anne dared not admit to [herself]171-anne that it was merely in order that [she]171-anne should despise [him]5660-he . But [Anne]171-anne pushed aside these thoughts . [She]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne had no right to indulge in them — that [she]171-anne must give [her]171-anne mind to other things , [her]171-anne heart and [her]171-anne energy . Without exactly knowing what [she]171-anne could do , or even whether [she]171-anne could do anything at all , [she]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne must work — work with all [her]171-anne might ; for it seemed as if all the thoughts which [the people]871-the people about [her]171-anne refused to think , all the sympathy which [they]871-the people refused to feel , all the work which [they]871-the people refused to do , and all the sacrifices which [they]871-the people refused to make , must all be taken upon [herself]171-anne — as if [she]171-anne alone must bear this terrible weight of rejected responsibilities . So [Anne]171-anne worked . [[Her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Dick]379-hamlin had said that [no one]3899-no one could do any good in ignorance ; and [she]171-anne felt [herself]171-anne shamefully ignorant of all but useless things . [She]171-anne got together a whole heap of books and pamphlets on every possible kind of grievance and evil in [the world]496-the world ; [she]171-anne made [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory tell [her]171-anne all the dreadful things which [she]171-anne knew , show [her]171-anne all the dreadful things which [she]171-anne had seen . Of such things [Marjory]249-marjory and [[her]249-marjory young man]5665-her young man , [the East End curate]5485-the east end curate , could tell [her]171-anne but too many ; yet [Anne]171-anne was not satisfied . [She]171-anne sought the acquaintance of [[Marjory]249-marjory ’s colleagues]5667-marjory ’s colleagues in the work of helping [the poor]5668-the poor , and of [[Harry Collett]376-harry collett ’s fellow‐workers]5669-harry collett ’s fellow‐workers — [older men]5670-older men and [women]3959-women , whose account of the evil of [the world]496-the world , less exaggerated and poetical than [[Marjory]249-marjory ’s and [Harry]376-harry collett ’s]5673-marjory ’s and harry ’s , was still more grimly tragic . [They]5669-harry collett ’s fellow‐workers were hopeful nevertheless ; but [Anne]171-anne , returning [home]4170-home from [her]171-anne attendance on lectures , [her]171-anne ghastly rounds in [the slums,—home]5675-the slums,—home to [the lovely house]5676-the lovely house , with the Persian carpets , the 18th‐century hangings and furniture , the old majolica and Japanese ware , the flowers and the books of music,—returning [home]4170-home to the discussions on art and literature in [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s studio]1127-hamlin ’s studio and at [her]171-anne own dinner‐table,—Anne felt mere despair . For , it must be remembered , [Anne]171-anne had none of those consoling thoughts to fall back upon which religion , however conventional , affords . [[Her]171-anne father]4143-her father , [a Radical workman of the French school]5680-a radical workman of the french school , had brought [her]171-anne up with a few elementary ideas of right and wrong , and the faith that [all priests]5681-all priests , like [all kings]5682-all kings , were the curse of [the world]496-the world . [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon , [the kind‐hearted old prima donna who had taken charge of [her]171-anne in [her]171-anne earliest girlhood]5684-the kind‐hearted old prima donna who had taken charge of her in her earliest girlhood , had given [her]171-anne examples of only the most frivolous Voltairianism ; from [the servants]5568-the servants and [the Italians who surrounded [her]171-anne at [the Perrys]1062-the perrys]5686-the italians who surrounded her at the perrys , [she]171-anne had learned only a contempt for [the conscienceless mummeries of the lowest Catholicism]5688-the conscienceless mummeries of the lowest catholicism ; from [Mrs Perry]146-perry only a contempt , as great in [its]5689-its way , for the heartless conventionalism of mere social Protestantism ; and from [Hamlin]379-hamlin [himself]379-hamlin , and [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s friends]4949-hamlin ’s friends ( for at [Coblenz]51-coblenz [he]379-hamlin had stipulated that [Miss Brown]171-anne was not to be bored with religion ) , [she]171-anne had heard only of the religion of beauty . Of [[the men]4543-the men and women who used to come to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith and to [Wotton]94-wotton]5692-the men and women who used to come to hammersmith and to wotton , some , like [Chough]379-hamlin , professed Catholicism , and wrote mystical rhapsodies to [the Virgin Mary]5693-the virgin mary ; others , like [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , called [the Virgin]5694-the virgin [a prostitute]5695-a prostitute , and [God]195-god a highway murderer : [some]5035-some went in for imitating the näiveté of medieval Christianity ; yet [others]4163-others filled [their]4163-others books with hymns to [the gods , clean and foul , of paganism]5698-the gods , clean and foul , of paganism . There was a deal of vociferating on the subject ; a deal of abusive language both of the religious and the irreligious ; a deal of exhortation on the part of [men like [Hamlin]379-hamlin]5699-men like hamlin not to have the bad taste to muddle religion with poetry ; and on the whole , there was an atmosphere of absolute insincerity , in which , as in abstract politics ( for certain æsthetes were extreme retrogrades , and loathed civilisation ; while others would pour out by the hour revolutionary tirades of the most blood‐thirsty description ) , it appeared that religion was a mere personal hobby or poetical fiction : the usual conclusion being simply that [the world]496-the world was too disgusting a place for [a well‐constituted soul]5701-a well‐constituted soul ; that the century was empty , and heartless , and emasculate ; and that , as [the people in the ‘ Decameron ’]5702-the people in the ‘ decameron ’ fled from the plague , and told stories and sang songs in a pleasant villa all by [themselves]5702-the people in the ‘ decameron ’ , so also must [superior men]5703-superior men and [women]3959-women fly from the sordidness , the uninterestingness , the mediocrity , and incapacity for passion of reality , and entertain [one another]1971-one another with tales of romance and wonder in a fairy land , where the sole divinity was beauty , and where alone , among the lovely and noble things left by the past , noble natures could develop uncramped , according to the ideal of [the Greeks]5706-the greeks , of [medieval men]5707-medieval men , or of that most elevated genius , the late Théophile Gautier . To meet the terrible realities which were now being revealed to [her]5708-her , to answer [her]5708-her own painful craving after usefulness , [Anne]171-anne had therefore only a vain negative belief — the pessimism which is at the bottom of all æstheticism , the belief in the fatal supremacy of evil and ugliness . But in [Anne]171-anne this purely negative creed speedily became positive ; pessimism produced not a desire to abandon the odious reality and take refuge in mere imaginary happiness , but a frightful moral tension , a constant battle of [her]5708-her aspirations with [her]5708-her belief , of [her]5708-her conscience with [her]5708-her reason , a strain of rebellion against the inevitable . So , to the weight of the knowledge of evil , to the weight of the consciousness of the deadness of soul which surrounded [her]5708-her , was added in [Anne]171-anne the terrible sense of the injustice and callousness of nature and of fate , of the groundlessness of those instincts of good which left [her]5708-her no peace . But all this [no one]3899-no one ever guessed . [She]5708-her despised indulging [her]5708-her own wretchedness . [She]5708-her went on , behaving as usual , goading [herself]5708-her to practical concerns silently , letting [no one]3899-no one know of [her]5708-her misery , letting no thought of it waste a moment of [her]5708-her time . [Her]5708-her longing was to break the hateful solidarity between [herself]5708-her and the school of æsthetic indifferentism ; [her]5708-her instinct was , since [she]5708-her ( dependent as [she]5708-her felt [herself]5708-her on [a man]503-a man ’s charity ) could not practically help [others]4163-others , at least to understand and feel about all these subjects which [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [[his]379-hamlin friends]893-his friends tabooed . And with this haunting desire , [she]5708-her turned not merely to [Marjory Lee]249-marjory and [Harry Collett]376-harry collett , but instinctively also to [[her]5708-her cousin]1291-her cousin [Dick]379-hamlin . “[0-i] [I]0-i have read the books [you]2516-you lent [me]0-i to take into [the country]945-the country , ” [she]5708-her said , giving [him]2516-you back the various primers and pamphlets on economical subjects . “[0-i] Thank [you]2516-you so much for them , [Dick]379-hamlin . ” [They]5715-they were sitting alone in [the drawing‐room at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith]2047-the drawing‐room at hammersmith . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had called only once before , ceremoniously and briefly , and [he]223-richard brown would not have come this time either , if [Anne]171-anne had not written expressly to beg [him]223-richard brown to fetch back the books . [He]223-richard brown looked at [her]5708-her in [his]223-richard brown incredulous , contemptuous way . “[379-hamlin] Really , ” [he]223-richard brown said , “[379-hamlin] [my]0-i shabby old books are very much flattered by having been permitted to sojourn so long among such an assemblage of lovely things ; ” and [he]223-richard brown looked round [the room]574-the room at the pieces of embroidery and the Eastern carpets , the pictures and drawings , the quantities of Japanese porcelain and lacquer all round . “[0-i] How much out of place [they]2518-they do look , and how queer [they]2518-they must have felt among [[their]2518-they companions]2519-their companions ! Let [me]0-i see : two volumes on artistic furniture—‘Ballads of Old France’—‘Rossetti’—‘Contes de Gautier . ’ [I]0-i see — ” “[0-i] Those are [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s books , ” said [Anne]171-anne , quickly ; “[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin must have taken them out of [the library]4639-the library , or brought them up from [the studio]795-the studio . [I]0-i am not reading any of them . ” “[0-i] [You]0-i are reading nothing but sociology and political economy ; [I]0-i understand , ” went on [Brown]171-anne , with [his]223-richard brown placid sneer , which seemed , in [this frightfully masculine man]5718-this frightfully masculine man , to condemn in [Anne]171-anne [her]171-anne mind , [her]171-anne person , [her]171-anne manner , [her]171-anne character , and even [her]171-anne sex . “[0-i] Ah , well , [I]0-i can understand that ; it must be refreshing . Who is it — [Mr Pater]390-mr pater , or some such great gun of [yours]0-i — who says that the object of [the wise man]2522-the wise man is to make [his]2522-the wise man life consist in as many moments of thrilling impressions as possible ; that [the very wise people]2523-the very wise people get them out of art and song , and the less wise out of vice or out of philanthropy ? [You]0-i must know the passage better than [I.]0-i Well , [I]0-i suppose [you]0-i have got as many impressions out of art and song as possible , and ( being far too delicate in taste to try vice ) [you]0-i are seeing what can be got out of philanthropy . Is that it ? ” [Anne]171-anne frowned . “[0-i] Of course , ” [she]171-anne said , “[0-i] [you]0-i think it very clever to snub [me]0-i , [Dick]379-hamlin , and very manly ; just to treat [me]0-i as if [I]0-i could not possibly have either heart or brains . Maybe ; but it is a very cheap sort of sarcasm , and to make which [a man]503-a man like [you]0-i is not at all required . ” [Richard Brown]223-richard brown bit [his]223-richard brown black beard , and looked at [Anne]171-anne from beneath [his]223-richard brown beetle brows ; [he]223-richard brown threw [himself]223-richard brown a little back on [his]223-richard brown chair , and with [his]223-richard brown head on one side , [he]223-richard brown said , with affected indifference — “[0-i] [You]0-i do n’t mean to tell [me]0-i that [you]0-i have read those books except as [you]0-i would read — what shall [I]0-i say?—the ‘ History of Furniture , ’ or the ‘ Contes de Gautier , ’ [Anne]171-anne ? ” “[171-anne] Were [you]0-i ever ignorant about important vital subjects , [Richard]223-richard brown — ever conscious that it was [your]0-i duty as [a rational creature]2525-a rational creature to know something about [them]2526-them , and then snubbed by [a man who knew all about [them]2526-them , and to whom [you]0-i had applied to help [you]0-i]2527-a man who knew all about them , and to whom you had applied to help you ? ” [Brown]223-richard brown was silent for a moment . “[0-i] [I]0-i was [a poor lad]2528-a poor lad , working in [a factory]2529-a factory , and refusing [myself]0-i food and coals in order to buy books and papers”—he said crushingly—“and[0-i] [I]0-i never had an opportunity of asking [any one]4101-any one ’s assistance . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t see why there should be salvation only for [people who have gone through hardships]2531-people who have gone through hardships , nor why only [you]0-i and [those who have acted like [you]0-i]2532-those who have acted like you should be treated sincerely and seriously . Do [you]0-i think that because [I]0-i am [a woman who has been brought up among Persian rugs and Japanese pots]2533-a woman who has been brought up among persian rugs and japanese pots and [Burne Jones]382-burne jones ’s pictures,—because [I]0-i have gone to dinner‐parties three times a‐week , and read [Pater]390-mr pater and [Rossetti]381-rossetti and Gautier,—that [I]0-i may not therefore be as honestly anxious to know about the serious things of [the world]496-the world as [you]0-i were when [you]0-i worked in [a factory]2529-a factory , and went without dinner and without coals ? ” and [she]0-i fixed [her]0-i eyes on [[her]0-i cousin]1291-her cousin ’s ugly and powerful face , in which , for all its ugliness , one might have fancied [one]620-one saw something not wholly unlike that magnificent sibyl‐like face which [pre‐Raphaelite artists]5721-pre‐raphaelite artists had immortalised and caricatured . “[0-i] Seriously , and in [your]0-i heart , ” [she]0-i went on , as [Brown]223-richard brown made no reply , “[0-i] are [you]0-i unable to understand that perhaps it may require more real determination to try and learn such things when one is brought up in luxury in [an æsthetic house]2536-an æsthetic house , than when one has to buy books at the price of food and fire ? ” [Richard Brown]223-richard brown did not answer . [He]223-richard brown was [a frank man]5722-a frank man , and [he]223-richard brown frankly faced [Anne]171-anne ’s look , and in return looked long and searchingly at [her]171-anne ; and as the habitual look of bantering contempt had given way to a serious scrutiny , so now [he]223-richard brown gradually grew more gentle and earnest . “[171-anne] Forgive [me]0-i , [Anne]171-anne , ” [he]223-richard brown said , after a moment ; “[0-i] [I]0-i think [I]0-i may have been doing [you]171-anne injustice , and that [I]0-i may , to some degree , have been disgracing [myself]0-i . But , [you]171-anne see , [I]0-i am [a plain self‐made man]2537-a plain self‐made man , and it is difficult for [me]0-i to understand how . . . ” [Brown]171-anne rarely hesitated for the end of [his]223-richard brown sentence , but this time [he]223-richard brown did . “[0-i] To understand how there can be any conscience or seriousness in [a woman who has been willing to owe everything]2538-a woman who has been willing to owe everything to the generosity of an æsthete like [Mr Hamlin”—Anne]391-mr hamlin”—anne finished [his]223-richard brown sentence bitterly . [She]0-i went on—“Well[0-i] , [I]0-i know [you]2539-you could not believe that [an æsthete]1257-an æsthete could be generous and noble and chivalrous ; and now [you]2539-you can not understand how [a woman who has accepted [his]2541-a woman who has accepted his generosity generosity]2541-a woman who has accepted his generosity can be anything better than — than a piece artistic embroidery , or a Japanese cup , or a green tree , ” and [Anne]171-anne pulled the long pliable leaves of a palm passionately through [her]171-anne fingers . [Brown]171-anne ’s suspiciousness had tried to return ; but it was routed by [Anne]171-anne ’s firm look , by [Anne]171-anne ’s frank words . “[2544-you] It is terrible to think how prejudiced , how inaccessible to truth , one allows [one]620-one ’s self to become , ” answered [Brown]171-anne , “[2544-you] even though , Heaven knows , [one]620-one tries to be fair . What [you]2544-you say is true . [I]0-i could n’t understand [your]2544-you not being [a mere frivolous girl]2545-a mere frivolous girl , [Anne]171-anne ; and [I]0-i ca n’t well understand it yet . But what [you]2544-you tell [me]0-i [I]0-i will believe . ” “[2544-you] Thank [you]2539-you , [Dick]379-hamlin , ” said [Anne]171-anne , stretching out [her]171-anne hand . “[379-hamlin] [I]0-i do n’t think [we]2546-we are made to like [each other]594-each other much : [you]2539-you are too prejudiced , and haughty , and contemptuous ; and [I]0-i am too proud and too stiff‐necked . But [we]2546-we are both honest , so [we]2546-we might as well deal honestly and openly with [each other]594-each other , and try and understand [each other]594-each other ’s good points . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i am not accustomed to deal with semi‐professional beauties , to do the Petrarch to æsthetic Madonna mias , ” said [Brown]171-anne — that sneer of conscious masculinity and conscious self‐madeness coming over [him]379-hamlin again ; “[2544-you] [you]2544-you must excuse [my]0-i manner , [Anne]171-anne . ” But [he]379-hamlin met [Anne]171-anne ’s glance , and [his]379-hamlin tone changed once more . “[171-anne] [I]0-i will bring [you]2544-you some more books when [I]0-i return , ” [he]379-hamlin said . “[0-i] By the way , have [you]2544-you ever read any psychology ? ” “[2544-you] What is psychology ? Is it metaphysics ? [I]0-i have read [Hegel]2550-hegel — ” [Anne]171-anne stopped short , and then boldly added — “[2550-hegel] But it was only [Hegel]392-hegel ’s æsthetics , [you]0-i know . ” [Brown]171-anne smiled . “[0-i] [Hegel]392-hegel ’s æsthetics are not — well — not Posthlethwaite ’s æsthetics , ” [he]379-hamlin said ; “[0-i] this is not much more difficult . It is [Spencer]288-mrs spencer ’s sociology . [I]0-i will bring it [you]2544-you . [Good‐bye]393-good‐bye . ” After that visit , [Anne]171-anne began to see more of [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin . [He]1291-her cousin came sometimes to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith , and [he]1291-her cousin met [her]171-anne frequently at [the Leighs]327-the leighs . [Anne]171-anne did not feel that [she]171-anne completely liked [him]1291-her cousin . [He]1291-her cousin was pure‐minded , certainly , and generous , [a man devoted to progress even in its humblest forms]5724-a man devoted to progress even in its humblest forms ; [he]1291-her cousin had a powerful intellect and a more powerful will . But , somehow , there was in [him]1291-her cousin an indefinable coarseness of fibre , a want of appreciation , of sympathy with [other people]665-other people ’s ideals , a tendency to despise all those around [him]1291-her cousin , and to see meanness in all [those who were not in the same position]5726-those who were not in the same position , or who had not the same views and aims as [himself]1291-her cousin ; above all , an unconscious desire to domineer — a brutal , almost animal wish for supremacy , which [his]1291-her cousin knowledge of [his]1291-her cousin own purity and rectitude and self‐sacrificing power made [him]1291-her cousin accept and cherish as if it were a kind of holy spirit dwelling within [himself]1291-her cousin , and not merely the product of a brutal temperament , which a noble intellect and a generous heart had severed from all brutish interests , but which remained brutal none the less . [Anne]171-anne ’s pride , [her]171-anne consciousness of finer fibre than [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin ’s , made [her]171-anne shrink from seeking in [Richard Brown]223-richard brown for assistance in [her]171-anne arduous task of freeing [her]171-anne spirit from the slough of æsthetic selfishness ; [his]1291-her cousin suspiciousness of [her]171-anne motives , [his]1291-her cousin sarcasms , [his]1291-her cousin blindness to [her]171-anne purity of impulse , all this galled [her]171-anne ; but [she]171-anne submitted to be galled . [She]171-anne wished [her]171-anne soul at least to be free , though [her]171-anne body might remain , as it were , in bondage , and [Richard]223-richard brown stood at the door of that world of nobler endeavour which [she]171-anne longed to enter ; moreover , [her]171-anne stern spirit made [her]171-anne take a sort of pleasure in the very bitterness which [she]171-anne had to taste . If [Richard]223-richard brown had been sympathising , if [he]223-richard brown had met [her]171-anne half‐way and tried to help [her]171-anne on , [she]171-anne would have felt that [she]171-anne was bound to [him]223-richard brown , that [she]171-anne was battering [her]171-anne liberty once more ; and vaguely [Anne]171-anne knew that [she]171-anne must never be bound to [any one save [Hamlin]379-hamlin]5728-any one save hamlin — that little as [he]379-hamlin could understand [her]171-anne , [she]171-anne was obliged , for ever , to try and understand [him]379-hamlin . And sometimes even , though the sense of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s baseness , of [his]379-hamlin selfish æstheticism and [his]379-hamlin untruthful morbidness , weighed more upon [her]171-anne day by day , [Anne]171-anne would elaborately go over all that [he]379-hamlin had been to [her]171-anne — nay , all that , to the best of [his]379-hamlin power , [he]379-hamlin still was : [she]171-anne would sit for hours reading and re‐reading those treasured‐up letters whose arrival had made [her]171-anne so strangely happy at [Coblenz]51-coblenz ; ( how long , long ago it seemed , and how little [that schoolgirl]5729-that schoolgirl seemed to share of [her]171-anne identity ! ) and [Anne]171-anne , reading over those letters , carefully collecting together all the stances of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s generosity and delicacy and gentleness which [she]171-anne could remember — nay , mere looks and tones which had brought [home]4170-home formerly [her]171-anne love for [him]379-hamlin — made up out of them a simulacrum of [Hamlin]379-hamlin , and persuaded [herself]171-anne that [she]171-anne loved it , and that it was [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s real reality , the reality which had become spoilt by the horrible moral atmosphere , distorted , warped , but a reality nevertheless . Nay , sometimes the sense of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s weakness would come home to [her]171-anne , and with a pang make [her]171-anne feel how much [she]171-anne was bound to suffer , how much [she]171-anne was bound to do for [him]379-hamlin . [HAMLIN]379-hamlin had forgotten all about the business of [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley , except that [he]379-hamlin had stopped the printing of [his]379-hamlin book , and set to work remodelling the “[393-good‐bye] Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens , ” to the immense admiration of [Chough]379-hamlin and [Dennistoun , who were quite reconciled to realism now that it was allied with horrid sin]5731-dennistoun , who were quite reconciled to realism now that it was allied with horrid sin . But that [Anne]171-anne was at all alienated from [him]379-hamlin , never once entered [his]379-hamlin mind . [He]379-hamlin noticed , indeed , that [Anne]171-anne had grown much more serious of late , that [she]171-anne seemed less happy than some months before ; but for that [he]379-hamlin had [his]379-hamlin explanation . [He]379-hamlin believed that [her]171-anne character was suddenly maturing ( for [he]379-hamlin never guessed that [Anne]171-anne ’s nature was one of those which mature rapidly , and whose maturity means responsibility ) , and that there was brewing beneath that sombre exterior a storm of passion of which [he]379-hamlin was the object . That such a storm would come had been [his]379-hamlin persuasion from the very beginning of [his]379-hamlin acquaintance with [Anne]171-anne ; [he]379-hamlin had guessed in [her]171-anne some strange latent force , and to see it develop had been [his]379-hamlin wish . That long courtship , that purely Platonic familiarity , giving scope to so much poetic devotion , poetic gratitude , was always to end , in [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s expectation , with a sudden burst of passion , which should envelop [him]379-hamlin , give [his]379-hamlin cold nature the exquisite sensation of being fired , carried off by a more powerful temperament than [his]379-hamlin own . [Hamlin]379-hamlin had had many love‐affairs in [his]379-hamlin day , more or less pure or base ; [he]379-hamlin had , once or twice , been mastered by the stronger nature of [a woman]3960-a woman , but that had been mere brute passion , and what [he]379-hamlin desired was to rouse a passion terrifically overwhelming , but pure , intellectual , and with all the fearful violence of merely intellectual passions : a passion like that , which [he]379-hamlin always admired more than any other in literature , of [Heathcliff]394-heathcliff for [Catharine]395-catharine in ‘ Wuthering Heights,’—a passion such as [some men]5733-some men have felt for [a dead woman]5734-a dead woman . This [he]379-hamlin had always hoped from [Anne]171-anne , and in the expectation of this [he]379-hamlin had been confirmed by every new revelation of [her]171-anne character . Sometimes , when [Anne]171-anne sat listless in the midst of [[their]5735-their guests]549-their guests , [her]171-anne mind for away , [her]171-anne tragic face more sombre for the blackness that was in the world around [her]171-anne and in [her]171-anne own soul , [Hamlin]379-hamlin would watch [her]171-anne , and feel , with a pang of satisfaction , that [he]379-hamlin had not been mistaken in [her]171-anne . “[2551-she] [She]2551-she is not [a woman]3960-a woman , [she]2551-she is [a mere splendid statue]2553-a mere splendid statue ! ” [Lewis]353-lewis had once exclaimed angrily , as [he]353-lewis felt how utterly all that kind of occult sensual fascination , which [his]353-lewis pale mysterious face , [his]353-lewis vermilion lips , [his]353-lewis cat‐like green eyes , [his]353-lewis low droning voice , [his]353-lewis sultan‐like freedom of manner , [his]353-lewis sense of omniscience and omnipotence , [his]353-lewis own nature , strangely compounded of the beast and of [the dreamer]5737-the dreamer , indubitably exercised over [many women]5738-many women , how utterly it trickled off [Anne]171-anne — “[2551-she] [She]2551-she is not [a woman]3960-a woman , [Hamlin,—she]396-hamlin,—she has an intellect and a will , but [she]2551-she has no soul ; and one day [you]396-hamlin,—she will discover it . ” “[396-hamlin,—she] [She]2551-she is not a woman in the sense in which [you]396-hamlin,—she conceive [a woman]3960-a woman , ” answered [Hamlin]379-hamlin , contemptuously ; “[2551-she] and [she]2551-she is as incapable of what [you]396-hamlin,—she and most of [us]2556-us call passion , as is a statue . [She]2551-she has not one fibre of what [you]396-hamlin,—she could call womanhood in [her]2551-she — not one shred of the beast which lies at the bottom of all [our]2556-us natures has entered into [hers]2551-she ; [she]2551-she is [a woman of mere stone and ice and snow]2557-a woman of mere stone and ice and snow for [men like [you]396-hamlin,—she]2558-men like you . But just for that reason has [she]2551-she got a capacity for passion — for a passion which [you]396-hamlin,—she can never understand — such as [no other woman]2559-no other woman ever had . What are [all those precious women]2560-all those precious women — [Cleopatras]397-cleopatras and [Mary Stuarts]323-mary — call [them]2560-all those precious women whatever [you]396-hamlin,—she like , whom [we]2556-us think so poetical ? [Mere common harlots , decked out in poetical gewgaws]2561-mere common harlots , decked out in poetical gewgaws , at bottom nothing better than a [Madame Bovary]398-madame bovary , not so much as a [Manon Lescaut]399-manon lescaut . Mere filthy clay shaped into something comely . What is it to be loved by one of [them]2560-all those precious women ? [You]396-hamlin,—she might as well be loved by [a barmaid]2562-a barmaid . ” [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis ’s lip curled . “[2562-a barmaid] Certainly [Miss Brown]171-anne suits [you]396-hamlin,—she in [your]396-hamlin,—she present mood , [Walter]145-hamlin ; [I]0-i do n’t say not . But [you]396-hamlin,—she will find out later what it is to be in love with [a woman who is stone and ice and snow]2563-a woman who is stone and ice and snow for [men like [me]0-i]2564-men like me . [Madonna Laura]190-laura and [Beatrice]187-beatrice are all very fine ; but [[your]396-hamlin,—she ideal lady]2565-your ideal lady , [I]0-i repeat it , is [no woman at all]2566-no woman at all , but [a mere sexless creature]2567-a mere sexless creature , something like [Victor Hugo]296-victor hugo ’s handsome Enjolras in petticoats . Passion for humanity , for fame , for abstract excellence‐oh , as much of that as [you]396-hamlin,—she like ; but passion for so humble a thing as [a living man]2568-a living man ! Never ! ” “[353-lewis] Please leave the subject alone , [Lewis]353-lewis , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[353-lewis] [I]0-i do n’t care to have slugs creeping , even only in imagination , over [my]0-i lilies . Talk about [[your]396-hamlin,—she women]2569-your women , [[other men]1485-other men ’s women]2571-other men ’s women , as much as [you]396-hamlin,—she choose , but spare [me]0-i [your]396-hamlin,—she remarks about [Miss Brown]171-anne . ” [Chough]379-hamlin had been listening . [The excitable little poet of womanhood]5739-the excitable little poet of womanhood detested [Lewis]353-lewis , whose arrogance grated upon [him]353-lewis , and whose impurity of nature unconsciously offended the real innocence which underlay all [his]353-lewis grandiloquently improper verses . And [Chough]379-hamlin adored [Anne]171-anne ; [she]171-anne was , [he]379-hamlin often said , a quite new revelation of womanhood ; and [he]379-hamlin believed that , as passion was the one noble thing in [the world]496-the world , and as [Miss Brown]171-anne was [the noblest woman that had ever lived]5741-the noblest woman that had ever lived , that there must be a deal of passion in [Anne]171-anne . “[171-anne] There is passion of all sorts , ” said [Chough]379-hamlin , pulling [his]379-hamlin long black whiskers ; “[171-anne] the passion of the pure animal , the passion of [the mere human creature]2572-the mere human creature , and the passion of divine essences : the first is like [a lush tropical country]2573-a lush tropical country ; the second is like [the manifold sea]2574-the manifold sea ; the third is like [the high Alps , the highest strata of air]2575-the high alps , the highest strata of air , the purest light . The passion of divine essences is more terrible than any other , exactly because of its external nature : it is tragic . [Miss Brown]171-anne has that sort of passion — ” “[2576-idiot] [Idiot]2576-idiot , ” muttered [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; and yet [he]379-hamlin felt pleased at [Chough]379-hamlin ’s mystical corroboration of [his]379-hamlin ideas . Meanwhile there was one subject upon which [Anne]171-anne sympathised warmly with [Hamlin]379-hamlin , and that was [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin [Sacha]358-sacha . For all [her]171-anne evident theatricalness , [Anne]171-anne warmed towards [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . [She]171-anne saw in [her]171-anne something frank and fearless which appealed to [her]171-anne , and a pathetic helpless desire , as of a child which has been naughty but wants to learn how to be good , to retrieve [her]360-madame elaguine own wasted life , to save [[her]360-madame elaguine children]746-her children from what [she]360-madame elaguine had undergone [herself]360-madame elaguine ; above all , a wish to be in earnest without well knowing how to , a strain to be [a serious woman in the midst of the habits of a spoilt child and of a flirt]5744-a serious woman in the midst of the habits of a spoilt child and of a flirt . For [a spoilt child , unaccustomed to self‐control , impatient of small sacrifices , avid of excitement and novelty , avid of constant attention and admiration]5745-a spoilt child , unaccustomed to self‐control , impatient of small sacrifices , avid of excitement and novelty , avid of constant attention and admiration , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine certainly was ; and [a flirt]5746-a flirt as certainly also . [She]360-madame elaguine flirted with [every one]4712-every one , with [Hamlin]379-hamlin , with [as many of [[his]379-hamlin friends]893-his friends]5748-as many of his friends — [Chough]379-hamlin , [Lewis]353-lewis , and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun — as [he]379-hamlin took to [her]360-madame elaguine ; with [Anne]171-anne , with [the Leigh girls]4986-the leigh girls , with [the solemn schoolmasters]5751-the solemn schoolmasters and [schoolmistresses]5752-schoolmistresses , whom [she]360-madame elaguine interviewed for the benefit of [[her]360-madame elaguine children]746-her children ; [she]360-madame elaguine flirted — [you]5754-you saw it by [her]360-madame elaguine smile and [her]360-madame elaguine little childish laugh of recognition — with [the very housemaid who opened the door]5755-the very housemaid who opened the door ; [she]360-madame elaguine flirted with [every man]5756-every man , [woman]2081-woman , and [child]5758-child , with every dog or cat that [she]360-madame elaguine came across . “[2576-idiot] What [a flirt that woman]2577-a flirt that woman is , to be sure ! ” cried [Hamlin]379-hamlin , as [he]379-hamlin saw [every one of [[his]379-hamlin and [Anne]171-anne ’s friends]5760-his and anne ’s friends]5759-every one of his and anne ’s friends subjugated in an hour ’s visit by [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . And to be [a flirt]5746-a flirt was no recommendation to [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; [he]379-hamlin wanted to absorb all admiration , [he]379-hamlin wanted to inspire love ; flirts were [his]379-hamlin particular aversion . “[2577-a flirt that woman] What harm does [her]2578-her flirting do ? ” answered [Anne]171-anne ; “[2577-a flirt that woman] it merely makes [her]2578-her and those about [her]2578-her a little happier . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i thought [you]0-i cared only for serious , for [intense people]2579-intense people , [Miss Brown]171-anne — [you]0-i who are so serious and intense [yourself]0-i . ” “[0-i] Perhaps [I]0-i am too serious”—and [poor Anne]171-anne felt at the moment that [she]0-i certainly was too serious to be very happy ; “[0-i] but , however that may be , that is no reason why [[your]0-i cousin]4341-your cousin should not be [a flirt]5746-a flirt . As long as [a person]1140-a person can feel strongly and seriously on serious subjects , why quarrel with [him]2583-him or [her]2584-her for being childish about childish matters ? ” For experience had taught [Anne]171-anne the bitter truth that [people]577-people could be serious — heaven knows how serious!—like [the odious Lewis]353-lewis and like [Hamlin]379-hamlin [himself]379-hamlin , and yet have no fibre of sympathy or indignation ; and [her]171-anne experience of [flippant little Chough]379-hamlin , with [[his]379-hamlin tenderly cared for wife]5763-his tenderly cared for wife — of [flirtatious Marjory Leigh]249-marjory and [her]249-marjory humanitarian labours — had made [her]171-anne hope most from [the very people whose light nature [she]171-anne , so earnest and tragic , could understand least]5764-the very people whose light nature she , so earnest and tragic , could understand least . And to this category [she]171-anne added [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[2585-your] [[Your]2585-your cousin]4341-your cousin has strong sides to [her]4341-your cousin nature , [I]0-i am quite persuaded , ” [she]171-anne said . [Hamlin]379-hamlin shrugged [his]379-hamlin shoulders ; but nevertheless , though [he]379-hamlin highly resented [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s all‐round flirtatiousness , [he]379-hamlin was forced to admit to [himself]379-hamlin that [the little woman]4885-the little woman had , when [you]2585-your were in [her]4885-the little woman presence , a sort of magnetic fascination . What moved [Anne]171-anne was [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s vehement passion for [[her]360-madame elaguine children]746-her children , the long schemes which , to [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s ennui , [she]360-madame elaguine would enthusiastically dilate upon for [their]746-her children future ; and somehow , from words which [she]360-madame elaguine used to drop , it would seem that [she]360-madame elaguine had been in danger of losing [those children]4199-those children — that [she]360-madame elaguine was still exposed to having [them]4199-those children taken from [her]360-madame elaguine , or to being in some way separated from [them]4199-those children . [Anne]171-anne did not absolutely formulate to [herself]171-anne a hope of helping [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; but [she]171-anne felt vaguely that perhaps [she]171-anne , with [her]171-anne seriousness and determination , might help [the excitable and decidedly vague‐minded little woman]5768-the excitable and decidedly vague‐minded little woman to persist in and carry out [her]5768-the excitable and decidedly vague‐minded little woman ideas ; that here [she]171-anne had at last a chance of being useful . The first thing , [Anne]171-anne felt , was to bridge over the gulf of past animosity which still separated [Hamlin]379-hamlin from [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin — to take away from [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha the demoralising sense of being [an only half‐forgiven intruder]5770-an only half‐forgiven intruder . The great difficulty was [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor . [The old lady]1153-the old lady could not abate one tittle of [her]1153-the old lady hatred for [the Sacha of former days]5772-the sacha of former days . “[0-i] [I]0-i tell [you]2587-you [she]0-i is [a bad woman]2588-a bad woman , and [you]2587-you will find it out some day to [your]2587-you cost , ” [she]0-i would answer [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [The woman]4801-the woman is contained in [the child]660-the child : or rather [the woman]4801-the woman is only [the child altered and trimmed up to pass muster]2592-the child altered and trimmed up to pass muster — dressirt , as [[my]0-i friend]2593-my friend [Schopenhauer]400-schopenhauer says . ” “[400-schopenhauer] But , [Auntie Claudia]401-auntie claudia , ” persisted [Anne]171-anne , “[401-auntie claudia] if [a person]1140-a person can alter sufficiently to pass muster , why should [that person]4730-that person not alter also in obedience to [her]4730-that person awakened reason and conscience ? Why should [one]620-one not be able to shed the bad qualities of one ’s childhood , for quite new and good ones ? ” “[620-one] Because [one]620-one can not , [Anne]171-anne ; because the fox remains a fox , and the cat remains a cat , and the swine remains a swine . ” And [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor looked with cynical compassion at [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [I]0-i might have remained [a mere soulless servant]2598-a mere soulless servant , had [every one]4712-every one gone on [your]401-auntie claudia theory , ” answered [Anne]171-anne . “[4712-every one] No , [I]0-i can not agree with [you]401-auntie claudia , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia . [I]0-i think it is terrible to condemn [a woman]3960-a woman because [she]3960-a woman was [a good‐for‐nothing child]2601-a good‐for‐nothing child ; [I]0-i think it is terrible to shut [her]3960-a woman out from sympathy which might be a comfort and an encouragement to [her]3960-a woman if [she]3960-a woman be still in need of any . ” “[0-i] Ah , well , that is how [[you]401-auntie claudia young people of [to‐day]111-to‐day]2602-you young people of to‐day always talk . [You]401-auntie claudia would object to sending [criminals]2603-criminals to [the docks]3906-the docks , because it is shutting [them]2603-criminals out of improving society . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t see that the cases are parallel . [I]0-i merely ask that [a person]1140-a person be not condemned where [she]1140-a person could not be responsible . If [I]0-i thought that [any one]4101-any one were really and hopelessly vicious , a mere source of evil , [I]0-i think [I]0-i should do [my]0-i best to crush [them]4101-any one out , to trample upon [them]4101-any one . ” “[0-i] That is how [you]401-auntie claudia are , [Anne]171-anne , willing to be [a moral sick‐nurse]2607-a moral sick‐nurse or [a moral executioner]2608-a moral executioner . In a world where [every one has some horrid moral disease or is some horrid moral nuisance]2609-every one has some horrid moral disease or is some horrid moral nuisance , [you]401-auntie claudia will soon find that such a line as that leaves no time to live . However , as to [Sacha Polozoff]358-sacha — [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , [I]0-i suppose [I]0-i ought to call [her]360-madame elaguine — do whatever [you]401-auntie claudia please . [You]401-auntie claudia are [[your]401-auntie claudia own mistress]2610-your own mistress , and free to choose [[your]401-auntie claudia own friends]2611-your own friends . See as much of [the woman]4801-the woman as [you]401-auntie claudia please , as long as [you]401-auntie claudia do n’t expect [me]0-i to sympathise with [you]401-auntie claudia in [your]401-auntie claudia admiration , love , and awe of [her]4801-the woman . ” “[401-auntie claudia] [I]0-i do n’t feel any admiration or love or awe for [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . But [I]0-i think that [she]4801-the woman is [a comparatively young woman]2613-a comparatively young woman , very impulsive and rather injudicious , all alone here in [London]4-london ; and [I]0-i think [she]4801-the woman ought not to be shut out from [the only house which [she]4801-the woman has]2614-the only house which she has , as [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin , a sort of right to enter . ” “[401-auntie claudia] As [you]401-auntie claudia choose , [Anne]171-anne . Invite [her]4801-the woman , give up [the house]509-the house to [her]4801-the woman ; do what [you]401-auntie claudia please . But remember , when [you]401-auntie claudia have burnt [your]401-auntie claudia fingers , that [I]0-i told [you]401-auntie claudia [you]401-auntie claudia were playing with fire . ” So [Anne]171-anne had [her]171-anne way . And [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine came often to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith . [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [Anne]171-anne did [their]5773-their best to prevent [her]360-madame elaguine meeting [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ; [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was received mainly in [the studio]795-the studio , where , little by little , and at first seemingly casually , [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s friends]4949-hamlin ’s friends would drop in to meet [her]360-madame elaguine . [She]360-madame elaguine was [a curiously fascinating little woman]5776-a curiously fascinating little woman . Education , in any regular sense , [she]360-madame elaguine seemed never to have had ; [she]360-madame elaguine was grotesquely ignorant about a great many things , and laughed at it [herself]360-madame elaguine . “[0-i] [I]0-i am teaching [myself]0-i arithmetic in order to teach [[my]0-i boy]2373-my boy a little before [he]2373-my boy goes to [school]1094-school , ” [she]360-madame elaguine would say — or spelling , or grammar , or something similar . On the other hand , [she]360-madame elaguine had a lot of superficial accomplishments , like [most Russians]402-most russians : [she]360-madame elaguine spoke four or five languages with tolerable correctness and extraordinary fluency ; [she]360-madame elaguine had , in some mysterious manner , acquired Greek . [She]360-madame elaguine read little , and that little mainly novels and poetry ; but , with [her]360-madame elaguine Russian rapidity to adapt [herself]360-madame elaguine to a new position , [she]360-madame elaguine had scarcely realised that [she]360-madame elaguine had been accidentally drafted into æsthetical society , before [she]360-madame elaguine had got æsthetic literature , æsthetic gossip , and æsthetic modes of feeling at [her]360-madame elaguine finger‐ends . [She]360-madame elaguine immediately understood the relative positions of [Hamlin]145-hamlin , of [Chough]379-hamlin , of [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , of [Lewis]353-lewis , and of [all the others]880-all the others ; and was able to talk to each as [he]5778-he best liked to be talked to . [She]360-madame elaguine began with a passion for [Alfred de Musset]403-alfred de musset , for [Gautier]343-gautier , for [Catulle Mendès]404-catulle mendès , and [she]360-madame elaguine rapidly became an enthusiast for [Swinburne]383-swinburne , for [Rossetti]381-rossetti , for [Chough]379-hamlin , and , above all , “[0-i] for that genius , [Monsieur mon cousin]2619-monsieur mon cousin . ” [She]360-madame elaguine let [herself]360-madame elaguine be talked to about æsthetic dresses , gravely listening ( with only a little side‐look of amusement at [Hamlin]379-hamlin or [Anne]171-anne ) to [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ’s strictures on modern costumes , on stays , and heels , and tight waists and full skirts ; and [she]360-madame elaguine immediately set to work untrimming [her]360-madame elaguine frocks and making them up into wondrous garments , not at all like what [any æsthetic woman]5779-any æsthetic woman had ever worn in [her]0-i life , but queer , fantastic , delightful , neither Greek nor medieval , but individual and quaint and fascinating . “[0-i] Dressmaking , as long as only pins are required , is [my]0-i one talent , [my]0-i one accomplishment , ” [she]360-madame elaguine would say , when [any one]4101-any one admired the capricious garments , in which [she]360-madame elaguine looked sometimes like [a schoolgirl]5781-a schoolgirl , and sometimes like a page in [woman]2081-woman ’s clothes , and sometimes almost like [a little nun]5783-a little nun . But this was not the case . Without ever having learned , [she]360-madame elaguine sang with wonderful charm : a small , childish , high voice , which trilled out Russian and Spanish and French folk‐songs , and which had a strange , hot , passionate power of singing those German songs which poor [Anne]171-anne , for all [her]360-madame elaguine fine voice ( which [Chough]379-hamlin used distressingly to compare with that of [various equivocal singers of former days]5784-various equivocal singers of former days ) and [her]360-madame elaguine conscientious learning , could never succeed in rendering . But the fact was that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s personality was surrounded by a vague halo and shimmer of talents : [she]360-madame elaguine had never learned to do anything , yet [she]360-madame elaguine could somehow do everything ; [she]360-madame elaguine could write fearfully misspelt but fascinating letters and bits of verse and prose ; [she]360-madame elaguine could mimic and act . “[0-i] [She]0-i is [a first‐rate actress]2620-a first‐rate actress , ” was one of the first things which [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , who seemed at once singularly attracted and puzzled by [her]0-i , found to say about [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[0-i] [You]2621-you think that because [she]0-i sometimes looks a little like [Sarah Bernhardt]384-sarah bernhardt , ” answered [Hamlin]379-hamlin , who never cared much to hear [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin praised , since everything which was praised in [her]0-i seemed to point to a deficiency in [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [I]0-i think [she]0-i is [an actress]2622-an actress because [I]0-i see it , ” answered [Lewis]353-lewis , in [his]353-lewis positive way . “[0-i] For [my]0-i part , [I]0-i do n’t think any of [you]2621-you half appreciate all that there is in [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . ” “[2623-a nice little kittenish , intelligent flirt] [A nice little kittenish , intelligent flirt]2623-a nice little kittenish , intelligent flirt ; just the same as [a hundred Russian women one has known]2624-a hundred russian women one has known , ” said [Hamlin]379-hamlin . [Lewis]353-lewis shook [his]353-lewis head . “[2624-a hundred russian women one has known] [That woman]1707-that woman is not [a mere ordinary flirt]2626-a mere ordinary flirt . [She]1707-that woman has an almost unique temperament : [she]1707-that woman is [a first‐rate medium]2627-a first‐rate medium ; [I]0-i feel it . ” “[1707-that woman] [You]0-i have felt so many [people]577-people to be [first‐rate mediums]2629-first‐rate mediums , [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis , ” said [Anne]171-anne , scornfully . “[364-mr lewis] Do [you]0-i remember , [you]0-i thought once that [I]0-i was [one]620-one . ” “[0-i] So [I]0-i did . But this time [I]0-i ’m not mistaken ; ” and [he]353-lewis gave [Anne]171-anne one of those looks of fierce aversion which , loathing [him]353-lewis as [she]171-anne did , [she]171-anne rather liked from [the little painter]5786-the little painter . However , [Lewis]353-lewis proved right this time . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had scarcely ever heard about spiritualism , but [she]360-madame elaguine threw [herself]360-madame elaguine into it with all [her]360-madame elaguine Russian ardour , and in a very short time , under [Lewis]353-lewis ’s guidance , became [a great adept]5787-a great adept . [Lewis]353-lewis declared that [he]353-lewis had never met so gifted a medium in [his]353-lewis life ; and , indeed , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine showed a perfectly marvellous power of going off into trances , reading thoughts , and otherwise communicating with spirit‐land . [A young doctor]5788-a young doctor , [one of [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory ’s hygienic demigods , whom [she]5788-a young doctor brought to call on [Anne]171-anne]5789-one of marjory leigh ’s hygienic demigods , whom she brought to call on anne , once met [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith . [Anne]171-anne noticed the way in which [he]5788-a young doctor watched [her]360-madame elaguine face and manner ; [she]360-madame elaguine seemed somehow to interest [him]5788-a young doctor as a problem . “[0-i] Why were [you]2631-you staring so at [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin ? ” asked [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory when [the Russian]5582-the russian had left . “[2631-you] Staring at [her]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin ? ” answered [the Professor]5791-the professor , vaguely . “[2631-you] [She]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin is [a very pretty woman]2633-a very pretty woman , and very charming , ” said [Anne]171-anne ; “[2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin] [I]0-i think that is sufficient explanation . ” “[0-i] Well , ” said [the young doctor]5792-the young doctor , [a rough , brusque creature]5793-a rough , brusque creature , “[0-i] that was n’t exactly the reason . [I]0-i was thinking how very — well , to put it plainly — how very hysterical a subject that [lady]2634-lady looks . ” “[0-i] What do [you]0-i mean by hysterical ? ” said [Anne]171-anne , quickly . “[0-i] [She]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin is very nervous , but [she]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin does n’t seem to [me]0-i to be at all subject to any kind of fits . ” “[2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin] That ’s not what [we]2635-we mean by hysteria , ” exclaimed [the doctor]5794-the doctor . “[2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin] Hysteria is n’t a fit of hysterics ; it is a condition of morbid nervous excitability , usually accompanied by a certain loss of will‐power . [Hysterical subjects]2636-hysterical subjects are [a kind of milder mad men]2637-a kind of milder mad men and [women]3959-women ; [[their]2636-hysterical subjects characters]2639-their characters undergo curious modifications ; [they]2636-hysterical subjects have n’t the same responsibilities as [others]4163-others . [I]0-i wonder whether [that lady]2641-that lady is not [a spiritualist,—she looks like it]2642-a spiritualist,—she looks like it . ” “[2641-that lady] [She]2641-that lady has let [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis , who has gone in a good deal for that sort of thing , mesmerise [her]2641-that lady once or twice , ” answered [Anne]171-anne . “[364-mr lewis] [I]0-i do n’t believe in that rubbish [myself]0-i . ” “[0-i] Nor do [I.]0-i But there is this much of truth in it , that some sorts of temperaments are naturally inclined to it , and that it reacts upon [them]2636-hysterical subjects . And [I]0-i should think it would be the case with [that lady]2641-that lady . ” “[2641-that lady] But surely , ” hesitated [Anne]171-anne , “[2641-that lady] [people who are in good health — who have never had any kind of nervous illness or shock]2644-people who are in good health — who have never had any kind of nervous illness or shock — don’t get into that state . ” “[2644-people who are in good health — who have never had any kind of nervous illness or shock] Oh yes , [they]2644-people who are in good health — who have never had any kind of nervous illness or shock do . It is often hereditary ; one or two , or even sometimes [only one , depraved ancestor]2645-only one , depraved ancestor will do it for [you]2646-you . ” The recollection of all [she]171-anne had heard of [[Sacha]358-sacha ’s horrible profligate old Russian father]5795-sacha ’s horrible profligate old russian father , of [[her]358-sacha violent and weak and constantly ailing mother]5796-her violent and weak and constantly ailing mother , flashed across [Anne]171-anne . And then came also the remembrance of those portraits at [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall — of [those generations of weak and depraved planters , who had been [the grandfathers and granduncles of [Sacha]358-sacha as well as of [Hamlin]145-hamlin]5798-the grandfathers and granduncles of sacha as well as of hamlin]5797-those generations of weak and depraved planters , who had been the grandfathers and granduncles of sacha as well as of hamlin . And any remaining ill‐will which [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s stories had left was swept away . [Anne]171-anne did not like [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , in the same way that [she]171-anne liked [the Leighs]327-the leighs or even [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ; but [she]171-anne felt a sudden strong compassion for [her]360-madame elaguine . Perhaps , [she]171-anne thought , there is more goodness in [the world]496-the world than [I]2645-only one , depraved ancestor guessed . And it seemed to [her]171-anne that [this giddy little woman , with [her]5800-this giddy little woman , with her passionate desire for the welfare of her children passionate desire for the welfare of [[her]5800-this giddy little woman , with her passionate desire for the welfare of her children children]746-her children]5800-this giddy little woman , with her passionate desire for the welfare of her children , [this woman who had struggled through the disadvantages of hereditary weakness and corrupt training]5802-this woman who had struggled through the disadvantages of hereditary weakness and corrupt training , was a sort of [a hero]5803-a hero . AUTUMN turned to winter , and at last [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s long‐expected , much‐talked‐of book of new poems made its appearance . In [her]171-anne gradual estrangement from [Hamlin]145-hamlin , in the gradual replacing of the ideal creature whom [she]171-anne had so fervently loved by a reality by which [she]171-anne was beginning to be repelled , [Anne]171-anne had hung some of [her]171-anne last hopes to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s poetry . [She]171-anne would often say to [herself]171-anne that , after all , [Hamlin]145-hamlin made no pretence to being anything more than an artistic nature ; that [he]145-hamlin was [a great artist]5804-a great artist , born to give [the world]496-the world a certain amount of pleasure , and that [she]171-anne had no right to ask of [him]145-hamlin to be anything else . What could [she]171-anne , willing as [she]171-anne was to sympathise and to work,—what could [a man like [Richard Brown]223-richard brown]5806-a man like richard brown , with all [his]145-hamlin self‐sacrificing energy and ability , do for mankind that might compare with what had been done by [Leonardo]405-leonardo , by [Mozart]331-mozart , by [Keats]239-keats — [men as solely artistic]5807-men as solely artistic as [Hamlin]145-hamlin ? and [Hamlin]145-hamlin was [a great poet]1720-a great poet , and would become [a greater one]5809-a greater one — of that [Anne]171-anne felt persuaded , for [his]145-hamlin work was steadily improving , and there were things in this book which [she]171-anne recognised as having the highest merit . So [she]171-anne clung to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s poetry as to an anchor for [his]145-hamlin nobility and for [her]171-anne affection . At length the volume was published . [Hamlin]145-hamlin arrived at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith one morning and placed a copy of it by the side of [Anne]171-anne ’s plate at breakfast . “[2645-only one , depraved ancestor] It is the first copy , ” [he]145-hamlin said , “[2645-only one , depraved ancestor] and as such , belongs to [you]2647-you . ” “[2645-only one , depraved ancestor] Thank [you]2648-you , ” said [Anne]171-anne , flushing with pleasure ; for , opening the book , [she]171-anne found on the fly‐leaf a little poem , imitated from the love‐songs of [the Tuscan peasants]5810-the tuscan peasants , in which [Hamlin]145-hamlin dedicated the volume to [her]171-anne ; it was beautiful and simple and almost solemn — the very flower of that distant and poetic love which [he]145-hamlin professed towards [her]171-anne . “[2648-you] [You]2648-you have put in the ‘ Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens ’ after all ! Oh , thank [you]2648-you so much , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ! [You]2648-you know [I]0-i always thought it the best thing [you]2648-you have ever done , ” [she]0-i exclaimed . [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not answer ; perhaps because [he]145-hamlin was aware that this “[2648-you] Ballad of [the Fens]349-the fens , ” rewritten under the influence of [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , was not the same as the one which [he]145-hamlin had torn up three months before . [Anne]171-anne soon discovered it : reading through the still uncut sheets , [she]171-anne found that instead of the story of married love , which had called down the wrath of [the whole school]1498-the whole school , [Hamlin]145-hamlin had set in [his]145-hamlin beautiful descriptions a ghastly tale which [she]171-anne scarcely required more than to glance at . So this was all that had come of [her]171-anne having mentioned [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley to [him]145-hamlin ! “[0-i] [I]0-i think [I]0-i have made the story more tragic and more in harmony with the surrounding nature . [I]0-i always felt that [I]0-i needed some more powerful and terrible situation . Like this , [I]0-i think the effect is sufficiently worked out , do n’t [you]2649-you think ? ” “[2649-you] Yes , ” said [Anne]171-anne , icily . There was the description of the sunset on [the fens]5812-the fens , of [the broad slow river flowing between [low green banks]5814-low green banks]5813-the broad slow river flowing between low green banks , its clotted masses reflecting the red sunset embers ; the description of the whole scene as [they]5815-they had witnessed it ; and then a description of [the people of [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley]2510-the people of cold fremley , of [their]2510-the people of cold fremley lives and sins , in which [she]171-anne could almost recognise [her]171-anne own words in which [she]171-anne had vainly pleaded for [them]2510-the people of cold fremley that memorable afternoon in [[his]145-hamlin studio]1124-his studio . A cold terror prevented [Anne]171-anne from turning at once to the sonnets . But after all , had [he]145-hamlin not , as it were , promised to abide by [her]171-anne choice ? had [he]145-hamlin not submitted , however reluctantly , to the condemnation of those twelve sonnets ? [Anne]171-anne felt ashamed of [her]171-anne own suspicions and fears ; [she]171-anne boldly turned to the end of the book , peeped between the leaves — “[2649-you] Desire — XII . Sonnets . ” [Anne]171-anne did not know what was the feeling which filled [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne had never felt it before . It was too cold to be indignation , too self‐possessed to be horror : [she]171-anne seemed surrounded by an icy atmosphere , through which [she]171-anne saw [Hamlin]145-hamlin as through a mist . [He]145-hamlin had broken [his]145-hamlin word , and for what ? To attribute to [himself]145-hamlin vicious thoughts and feelings which [he]145-hamlin had never had . [Anne]171-anne said not a word ; [the man who was capable of acting thus]5818-the man who was capable of acting thus could not understand if [he]145-hamlin were chidden for it . [Breakfast]406-breakfast passed gloomily , talking little , or of indifferent things . [Hamlin]145-hamlin was evidently ruffled by this reception of [his]145-hamlin book . “[2649-you] Are [you]2650-you going to sit to [me]0-i this morning , [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ” [he]145-hamlin asked with some irritation , as [he]145-hamlin rose from table . “[0-i] [I]0-i will , if [you]2650-you wish [me]0-i to . ” [Anne]171-anne ’s voice smote [him]145-hamlin as if [he]145-hamlin had opened the window to a snowstorm . “[2650-you] Have [you]2650-you anything else to do ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i always have plenty to do , [you]2650-you know . If [you]2650-you do n’t want [me]0-i , [I]0-i shall go out with [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory . ” “[249-marjory] So much the better . [I]0-i do n’t feel as if [I]0-i could work successfully this morning , and [I]0-i should be sorry to detain [you]2650-you for nothing at all . [I]0-i will go and ask [[my]0-i cousin]4336-my cousin whether [she]4336-my cousin would care to see [[Lewis]364-mr lewis ’s studio]2652-lewis ’s studio . This weather is very depressing . ” “[4336-my cousin] Very , ” answered [Anne]171-anne . [Anne]171-anne went out with [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , who was on a round of visiting [poor people at [Lainbeth]112-lainbeth]5819-poor people at lainbeth . [They]5820-they were joined by [Harry Collett]376-harry collett . [He]364-mr lewis stood in great awe of [[his]364-mr lewis future bride]5821-his future bride ’s superior wisdom and dogmatic manner ; but it was touching to see how completely [these two creatures]5822-these two creatures — [the shy and mystical curate]5823-the shy and mystical curate , and [the masterful and rationalistic young woman]5824-the masterful and rationalistic young woman , who was wo nt to tell [him]364-mr lewis that some day [he]364-mr lewis should be persuaded that only secular work was really useful , and [the Church]868-the church ought to be disestablished — understood [each other]594-each other , and sympathised in [their]5822-these two creatures best endeavours . “[4336-my cousin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin has brought out a new book , ” said [Collett]376-harry collett to [Anne]171-anne . “[145-hamlin] How proud [you]2653-you must be , [Miss Brown]171-anne ! [he]145-hamlin has been quite [another man]4053-another man , twice as cheerful and devoted to [his]145-hamlin art , since [he]145-hamlin has known [you]2653-you . For [a poet like [him]145-hamlin]2655-a poet like him , so sensitive and easily depressed , it must be a great thing to have [a noble woman]2656-a noble woman to encourage [him]145-hamlin . ” [Anne]171-anne did not answer . [She]171-anne felt alone — alone as in [a desert]5827-a desert , without an ear to hear [her]171-anne , or a hand to touch [hers]171-anne . Often did that sensation recur to [her]171-anne now ; a sensation as of dragging wearily and alone along [an ice‐bound road]5828-an ice‐bound road , under a grey wintry sky , weary and solitary , but with the knowledge that the more solitary and weary [she]171-anne felt , the more was [she]171-anne bound to plod on . Things that happened seemed spectral . Here in [London]4-london [she]171-anne saw less of [Hamlin]145-hamlin than in [the country]945-the country ; [he]145-hamlin was going about with [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends , [he]145-hamlin was at [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin ’s . [She]171-anne did not know or care where . [People]577-people talked a great deal about the new book ; and only [Anne]171-anne was silent . “[2657-you] [You]2657-you do n’t like [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s new book , ” said [Richard Brown]223-richard brown to [her]171-anne one evening , fixing [his]223-richard brown eyes upon [her]171-anne in [his]223-richard brown ruthless way . [He]223-richard brown came often now ; [he]223-richard brown had apparently got to believe in [her]171-anne , and [he]223-richard brown even held out a possibility to [her]171-anne , if [she]171-anne continued to work steadily , reading and attending lectures , that [she]171-anne might by the summer‐time be able to offer [herself]171-anne to teach the elements of political economy at [the Working Women ’s Club]5833-the working women ’s club . “[2657-you] [You]2657-you do n’t like [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s new book . ” It was not a question , but an assertion , and [Anne]171-anne felt it as a taunt . “[2657-you] [I]0-i like some things in it extremely , ” [she]0-i answered boldly ; “[0-i] but [I]0-i dislike and disapprove of some others . ” [Brown]171-anne made a characteristic upward movement with one of [his]223-richard brown big black eyebrows . “[0-i] [I]0-i thought that [[you]2657-you æsthetic folk]2658-you æsthetic folk never disapproved of anything — that it was against the canons of art to disapprove . ” “[2657-you] [I]0-i am not [an æsthete]1257-an æsthete , [Richard]223-richard brown . If [I]0-i were , [I]0-i should not be trying to learn the things in which [you]223-richard brown take interest . ” “[145-hamlin] True . And does [Hamlin]145-hamlin know that [you]2657-you dislike and disapprove of some of [his]145-hamlin poems ? ” For a moment [Anne]171-anne did not answer . [Brown]171-anne ’s question was like an insolent attempt to see into [her]171-anne heart . Yet what right had [she]171-anne to hide anything ? “[145-hamlin] [He]145-hamlin knows exactly what [I]0-i think about all [his]145-hamlin poems ; but [he]145-hamlin does not , naturally , agree with [me]0-i in all [my]0-i views . ” [She]171-anne was determined to keep [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin at a distance . [He]145-hamlin had hated [her]171-anne ever becoming connected with æsthetic society , and [he]145-hamlin tried to force [her]171-anne to admit that [she]171-anne regretted it . But [Brown]171-anne had an inveterate hatred which [he]145-hamlin could not put aside . “[145-hamlin] Have [you]2660-you seen the review in the ‘ Saturday Gazette ’ ? ” [he]145-hamlin asked . The review was one of the few bad ones which [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s book had had , among a chorus of good ones . But it was written by [a rabid enemy of pre‐Raphaelite poetry]5835-a rabid enemy of pre‐raphaelite poetry ; and who had taken the occasion of this book to show up what [he]145-hamlin considered the pestilent moral condition of [the whole school]1498-the whole school . “[2660-you] Yes ; [I]0-i have . It is a very unjust and violent attack , and quite indiscriminating . ” “[2661-it] So [I]0-i thought . Still , what [it]2661-it quoted from the sonnets called Desire seemed , so far , to bear out its statements . What do [you]2660-you think ? ” “[2660-you] [I]0-i think , ” answered [Anne]171-anne slowly , and choking [her]0-i pride and emotion , “[0-i] that all [he]2662-he says about those sonnets is quite correct . [I]0-i think it is most regrettable that they should have been published . But [I]0-i think that in writing them [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin was merely following the vicious traditions of [[his]2662-he school]5209-his school ; and [I]0-i know that [he]2662-he is , in reality , [a perfectly pure‐minded man]2664-a perfectly pure‐minded man . And , ” [she]0-i added , as if to put an end to the conversation , “[2662-he] [he]2662-he is [the man to whom [I]0-i owe more gratitude than [any woman]1339-any woman ever owed to [any man]1338-any man]2665-the man to whom i owe more gratitude than any woman ever owed to any man . ” [Brown]171-anne did not press the conversation . [He]2662-he understood . [He]2662-he had of late been getting to comprehend [Anne]171-anne ’s character ; [he]2662-he recognised [her]171-anne serious unselfishness , [her]171-anne indomitable desire for good ; [he]2662-he saw in [her]171-anne a strange straining dissatisfaction — a something which was as the beating of a bird ’s wings against its cage . And now [he]2662-he understood whence it came . “[2668-she] [She]2668-she has made [her]2668-she choice and must abide by it , ” [he]2662-he said sternly to [himself]2662-he , remembering that scene when [he]2662-he had tried vainly to dissuade [her]171-anne from accepting [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s offer , and [she]171-anne had answered , “[2668-she] [I]0-i love [him]2669-him ! ” “[2669-him] [She]2668-she has sold [her]2668-she soul into bondage , and must accept the isolation and silence and uselessness of [a slave]2670-a slave . ” But then , as [he]2662-he said good night and looked at that noble face , whose tragic intensity of rectitude was now revealed to [him]2662-he , [Richard Brown]223-richard brown could not help feeling a pang . “[4378-poor child] [Poor child]4378-poor child ! ” [he]2662-he said to [himself]2662-he ; and wished [he]2662-he had proved less of [a prophet]5837-a prophet than [he]2662-he believed [himself]2662-he to have done . [He]2662-he began , in consequence , to feel a little ashamed of [himself]2662-he , and came oftener to see [Anne]171-anne . [He]2662-he was [a brilliant man]5838-a brilliant man when [you]5839-you got [him]2662-he on [his]2662-he own subjects , warm‐hearted , self‐sacrificing , ambitious , eloquent ; and [he]2662-he had always a number of practical schemes at heart . Originally a hand at [a foundry]5840-a foundry , [he]2662-he had for some time , like [[Anne]171-anne ’s father]5841-anne ’s father , been smitten with communistic theories ; but instead of being tempted into becoming [a socialistic demagogue]5842-a socialistic demagogue , [he]2662-he had , when [he]2662-he was about twenty‐five , given up [the little workman]5843-the little workman ’s newspaper , of which [he]2662-he was [editor and chief author]5844-editor and chief author , and deliberately set to work studying economical and social questions in the intervals of [his]2662-he work , carefully suspending [his]2662-he judgment during the while . To [a man as impetuous and ambitious as [Brown]171-anne , to whom the easy and tempting path of [party leader]5846-party leader lay open]5845-a man as impetuous and ambitious as brown , to whom the easy and tempting path of party leader lay open , such a course must have meant a terrible and long‐sustained effort of self‐control . But [his]2662-he indomitable conscience and will had carried [him]2662-he through it ; and now [he]2662-he was reaping the unexpected reward of [his]2662-he forbearance . While slowly working [his]2662-he way in business and studying the subjects which were dearest to [him]2662-he , [he]2662-he had managed also to cultivate a mechanical genius , which seemed in some way hereditary in [the family of [[Anne]171-anne ’s father]5841-anne ’s father , who , in happier circumstances , might perhaps have been [a brilliant inventor]5849-a brilliant inventor instead of [a starving expatriated workman]5850-a starving expatriated workman]5847-the family of anne ’s father , who , in happier circumstances , might perhaps have been a brilliant inventor instead of a starving expatriated workman . [He]2662-he had made valuable improvements in [the foundry of which [he]2662-he had become [the foreman]5852-the foreman]5851-the foundry of which he had become the foreman , and had now , for the last two years , been [the chief partner and [virtual director of the business]5854-virtual director of the business]5853-the chief partner and virtual director of the business , with a fair livelihood in the present , and a large fortune and great influence in the immediate future . But money and influence were nothing to [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ; or rather , influence to [him]2662-he meant merely the triumph of [his]2662-he own philanthropical schemes . Selfish [he]2662-he undoubtedly was , but [his]2662-he selfishness , [his]2662-he vanity , [his]2662-he pride , [his]2662-he ambition , were drafted off into the service of [others]4163-others . [Anne]171-anne listened with enthusiasm , but not unmixed with sadness , to [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin ’s projects for educating [the lower classes]4974-the lower classes , for bringing home to [the upper classes]5858-the upper classes [their]5858-the upper classes own responsibilities ; [they]5858-the upper classes had the charm of dreams , but of the dreams of [a man who seemed able to make what [he]2662-he desired into reality]5859-a man who seemed able to make what he desired into reality . Even in [this æsthetic society , which had looked upon [him]2672-him with suspicion and loathing]5860-this æsthetic society , which had looked upon him with suspicion and loathing , [Richard Brown]223-richard brown got a certain importance . [He]223-richard brown would spend hours with [old [Saunders]290-andrew saunders [the painter]5449-the painter]5861-old saunders the painter , and [[his]290-andrew saunders daughter]5208-his daughter , [the enthusiastic Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , discussing the way of introducing more beautiful patterns into trade , and of getting up schools of design and loan exhibitions for [the poorer classes]5864-the poorer classes . “[4378-poor child] [He]2672-him is [a man of the middle ages]2673-a man of the middle ages ! ” [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer would enthusiastically exclaim ; “[2673-a man of the middle ages] if only [we]2674-we had a few more like [him]2672-him , [we]2674-we should soon build [cathedrals]2675-cathedrals and [town‐halls]2676-town‐halls like those of the fourteenth century . ” “[2672-him] [He]2672-him is [a canny Radical]2677-a canny radical , ” answered [[her]288-mrs spencer father]4143-her father , “[2677-a canny radical] but [a gude sort of man]2678-a gude sort of man . For [my]0-i part , [I]0-i do n’t much believe in educating [the lower classes]4974-the lower classes up to art , but there ’s no harm in trying , and , at least , [we]2674-we shall get better‐made chairs and tables for [our]2674-we money . ” [Chough]379-hamlin was equally enthusiastic . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was anxious to get up some concerts at [a kind of [workman]5867-workman ’s union at which [he]223-richard brown presided]5866-a kind of workman ’s union at which he presided ; and [Chough]379-hamlin — yes , [the great Chough [himself]379-hamlin , who hinted mysteriously that [[his]379-hamlin father]2207-his father ( who was [an apothecary at [Limerick]113-limerick]5870-an apothecary at limerick ) was [a duke]1651-a duke , but that [he]379-hamlin would rather die than succeed to the title]5868-the great chough himself , who hinted mysteriously that his father ( who was an apothecary at limerick ) was a duke , but that he would rather die than succeed to the title — was prevailed upon to take the musical direction upon [himself]379-hamlin . While these schemes were going on , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine met [Richard Brown]223-richard brown . There was something in [this big , burly , rather brutal man]5872-this big , burly , rather brutal man , which immediately fascinated [the nervous little Russian woman]5873-the nervous little russian woman : [she]360-madame elaguine sat at [Brown]223-richard brown ’s feet , [she]360-madame elaguine listened with rapture to [his]223-richard brown theories , [she]360-madame elaguine threw [herself]360-madame elaguine headlong into the plan of the concerts ; [she]360-madame elaguine offered to perform , to teach , to do whatever [Brown]223-richard brown might wish . [Hamlin]379-hamlin was thoroughly disgusted with [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin [Sacha]358-sacha , who had hitherto known no divinity save [him]379-hamlin and pure beauty , when [he]379-hamlin saw [her]358-sacha devoting [herself]358-sacha to humanitarianism , personified in what [he]379-hamlin called “[2680-that shoddy philanthropical black brute] [that shoddy philanthropical black brute]2680-that shoddy philanthropical black brute . ” [He]379-hamlin became vehemently devoted to [Anne]171-anne . [He]379-hamlin seemed to repent of [his]379-hamlin book . [He]379-hamlin declared [himself]379-hamlin sick of [London]4-london and of [æsthetic society]5637-æsthetic society . “[2680-that shoddy philanthropical black brute] [I]0-i must turn over a new leaf , ” [he]379-hamlin said . “[0-i] [I]0-i feel [I]0-i must , or sink into being no better than [Chough]379-hamlin or [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun . But [I]0-i am too weak to turn it over alone . Will [you]2681-you help [me]0-i , [Miss Brown?”—and]407-miss brown?”—and [he]379-hamlin looked at [her]2681-you with [his]379-hamlin slow , beautiful glance of Platonic love . [Anne]171-anne smiled sadly . “[407-miss brown?”—and] [No one]3899-no one can help [any one]4101-any one , [I]0-i am beginning to fear ; and [I]0-i least of all . ” [She]171-anne had got so accustomed to these sudden returns of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s , to these false starts , these longings after a healthier moral and intellectual atmosphere , which came to nothing . [She]171-anne saw so plainly the hopeless weakness and thinness of [his]379-hamlin nature ; and yet in such moments [she]171-anne could not help feeling some of that old love for [this beautiful , delicate , idealistic , chivalrous creature whom [she]171-anne knew to be mere selfishness and vanity]5876-this beautiful , delicate , idealistic , chivalrous creature whom she knew to be mere selfishness and vanity . If only [he]379-hamlin would remain thus at least . “[0-i] Perhaps [you]2681-you are right , ” answered [Hamlin]379-hamlin , leaning over the piano at which [she]171-anne was seated ; “[2681-you] but [I]0-i feel [myself]0-i sick of this life , this poetry . All is false , false , hollow , and empty . [My]0-i verses are untrue , [my]0-i pictures are mere Christmas cards ; even with [you]2681-you as [a model]1105-a model , [I]0-i feel [I]0-i am always repeating the same wearisome insipid trick of eyes , and mouth , and neck . Oh , [I]0-i do n’t know what to do ! ” It was but too true . That school of mere beautiful suggestion , which scorned reality and mechanical skill as a bird scorns the ground , was fast sinking into nullity . [Anne]171-anne had often remarked it in comparing the works of [various masters]5877-various masters ; [she]171-anne had noticed the stray sentences , not meant for [her]171-anne , dropped by [painters of other schools]5878-painters of other schools . “[408-bastien‐lepage] Go to [Paris]42-paris and study for a year or so under [Bastien‐Lepage]408-bastien‐lepage , or [Henner]409-henner , or [Duran]410-duran , ” [she]171-anne said , with a smile at the vanity of [her]171-anne own words . [Hamlin]379-hamlin could not even conceive that [she]171-anne was in earnest , that [any one]4101-any one could dream of seeing anything in modern French painting , that [any one]4101-any one could be so mad as to think of [his]379-hamlin studying . “[410-duran] Yes , ” [he]379-hamlin cried , “[2687-them] that is the only art that can live in [our]2685-our day ! [Ours]2685-our is [a mere phantom]2686-a mere phantom ; [our]2685-our poetry is a phantom ; [they]2687-them come round [us]2685-our imploring [us]2685-our to give [them]2687-them life , like the ghosts round [[Odysseus]411-odysseus ’s trench]2688-odysseus ’s trench . But who shall give [them]2687-them life ? Where shall [we]2685-our get the life‐blood of passion whereon to feed and revivify [them]2687-them ? ” And [he]379-hamlin suddenly turned round and looked at [her]171-anne with great yearning eyes . [Hamlin]379-hamlin was genuinely unhappy , though [he]379-hamlin did not guess that [his]379-hamlin unhappiness was due to vacuity , to slighted vanity , to the sudden infatuation of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine for [a shoddy philanthropist]5881-a shoddy philanthropist . [He]379-hamlin longed for passion as , in hot climates , after months of faint sultriness , one longs for rain and wind ; and [he]379-hamlin looked at [Anne]171-anne as one might watch the dark clouds hanging on [the hills]5385-the hills , the dark clouds which hold the storm for which one is thirsting . Oh for a strong passion!—it would revive [him]379-hamlin , revive [his]379-hamlin art . [Hamlin]379-hamlin did not say it to [himself]379-hamlin in so many words , but [he]379-hamlin felt it . [He]379-hamlin talked long and vehemently about the necessity of going outside [one]620-one ’s self , of transmuting one ’s consciousness into that of [another]5884-another , of having something beyond [one]620-one ’s self to live for . [He]379-hamlin told [Anne]171-anne , always with those yearning eyes fixed upon [her]171-anne , that what was wanted to revive [the world]496-the world and art ( and by [the world]496-the world [he]379-hamlin meant [himself]379-hamlin ) was passion ; but not the mere sultry passion which [[his]379-hamlin school]5209-his school had sung about , which merely enervated and sent to sleep , but the clear cold air , the whirlwinds and thunderstorms of ideal love — of love such as [Dante]180-dante had felt for [Beatrice]187-beatrice , and [Heathcliff]394-heathcliff for [Cathey]412-cathey . It was very eloquent and beautiful what [he]379-hamlin said about this love , which was something vague and quite unselfish and outside one ’s self,—a sort of act of adoration and purification and renunciation,—a meeting of [two souls which vibrated in unison]5889-two souls which vibrated in unison in [their]5889-two souls which vibrated in unison desire for the good and the noble . While [he]379-hamlin spoke , [Anne]171-anne almost believed that [he]379-hamlin was sincere ; sincere , indeed , [he]379-hamlin was , but according to [his]379-hamlin nature , not [hers]171-anne . [She]171-anne felt the tears coming into [her]171-anne eyes , and a vague wish to throw [herself]171-anne into [his]379-hamlin arms and implore [him]379-hamlin to cast aside [his]379-hamlin selfish habits , to live for the life of [other men]1485-other men and for [her]171-anne love , came to [her]171-anne heart . But when , suddenly , [their]5889-two souls which vibrated in unison conversation was interrupted by the entry of [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , it all ebbed back , till [her]171-anne whole nature seemed to burst . [She]171-anne felt that [he]379-hamlin did not know what [he]379-hamlin was saying , what [he]379-hamlin did not comprehend what [he]379-hamlin was wanting ; [she]171-anne felt the uselessness of saying to [this man]1239-this man that [the world]496-the world and [herself]171-anne were waiting for [him]379-hamlin to love [them]5889-two souls which vibrated in unison , that [her]171-anne whole nature was sickening for want of [one with which to vibrate in harmony of desire for the good and the noble]5893-one with which to vibrate in harmony of desire for the good and the noble . [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley , the sonnets , a hundred little words and looks which had made the chasm between them , returned to [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne felt once more alone , terribly and hopelessly alone . And still , when [she]171-anne met [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Dick]379-hamlin , and realised how different [he]379-hamlin was , how genuine and strong and passionate for good , [she]171-anne could not help experiencing a sort of repulsion from [him]379-hamlin , and a melancholy , hopeless throwing of [herself]171-anne back on to [the unreal Hamlin]379-hamlin . [She]171-anne felt that [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , with all [his]223-richard brown nobility and energy of nature , would never have done for [her]171-anne what [Hamlin]379-hamlin had done , would never have been for [her]171-anne what [Hamlin]379-hamlin had been ; that [he]223-richard brown would never have singled [her]171-anne out , [her]171-anne [a mere servant]5659-a mere servant , and guessed that in [her]171-anne there was a soul which could love and could aspire . But after all , why had [Hamlin]379-hamlin singled [her]171-anne out ? and what had [he]379-hamlin guessed in [her]171-anne , what had [he]379-hamlin hoped from [her]171-anne ? That line of [Rossetti]381-rossetti ’s , which [Hamlin]379-hamlin admired more than any other , which [he]379-hamlin so often quoted — “[2687-them] Beauty like [hers]2689-hers is genius , ” — returned to [her]171-anne with a chill ; and [she]171-anne felt that [Hamlin]379-hamlin wanted , expected from [her]171-anne that sort of passion which [he]379-hamlin had spoken of to revive [him]379-hamlin and [his]379-hamlin art . It seemed to [her]171-anne as if [she]171-anne had been sold in [the slave‐market]5896-the slave‐market , and were being told “[2687-them] now love . ” [RICHARD BROWN]223-richard brown did not let [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine sit at [his]223-richard brown feet very long . After about a fortnight of extremely assiduous visits at [the Russian lady ’s house at [Kensington]114-kensington]5897-the russian lady ’s house at kensington , during which [he]223-richard brown poured out to [the enthusiastic little woman]5898-the enthusiastic little woman all [his]223-richard brown philanthropical schemes , [Richard]223-richard brown suddenly gave up calling , and even avoided meeting [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine at [other houses]5899-other houses . “[2687-them] Why have [you]2690-you deserted [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine so suddenly ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne of [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin . To confess the truth , [Anne]171-anne was rather malicious in [her]171-anne question . [She]171-anne had speedily recognised the vanity , or rather the self‐sufficiency , the belief in [his]223-richard brown own irresistible uniqueness , which was the leaven of [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin ’s virtues , and [she]171-anne had been amused from the first at seeing how [this earnest philanthropist]5901-this earnest philanthropist had let [himself]223-richard brown be caught by [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s conscious or unconscious instinct of flirtation ; and now , [she]171-anne thought , [Dick]379-hamlin has suddenly awaked from [his]379-hamlin dream of having fascinated and converted [her]360-madame elaguine . [Anne]171-anne smiled as [she]171-anne asked the question , but there was sadness as well as amusement in [her]171-anne smile . In [his]379-hamlin way — [his]379-hamlin blind , self‐satisfied , unselfish way — [Dick]379-hamlin was as vain as [Hamlin]379-hamlin : wherever [she]360-madame elaguine looked vanity and hollowness met [her]360-madame elaguine , and [she]360-madame elaguine [herself]360-madame elaguine could not even conceive what vanity was . “[2690-you] Why have [you]2691-his deserted [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ? ” repeated [Anne]171-anne . [Brown]171-anne suddenly raised [his]2691-his big , rough , black head from the review which [he]2691-his had been mechanically looking at , and answered , looking straight in front of [him]2691-his — “[2691-his] Do n’t speak to [me]0-i about [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; [she]360-madame elaguine is [an odious woman]2135-an odious woman . ” There was something brief and silencing in [his]2691-his tone which surprised [Anne]171-anne and precluded further questions . “[360-madame elaguine] In fact , ” added [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , “[360-madame elaguine] if it were not that [a woman like [you]2694-you]2693-a woman like you will never even understand what [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is made of , [I]0-i should peremptorily say that [she]360-madame elaguine is not a person for [you]2694-you to know . ” [Anne]171-anne was indignant , and yet , at the same time , a little shocked . “[360-madame elaguine] Why , what has [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine done ? ” “[360-madame elaguine] Done ! ” answered [Brown]171-anne , half waiving the subject , and half insisting upon it , as [self‐important men]5902-self‐important men frequently do . “[360-madame elaguine] Why , [she]360-madame elaguine has done nothing . But that makes no difference ; [she]360-madame elaguine ’s [an odious woman]2135-an odious woman . ” [Anne]171-anne laughed bitterly . [The whole world]4244-the whole world seemed so awry , [every one]4712-every one seeing everything through the crooked spectacles of [his]4712-every one own vanity . Now here was [Dick]379-hamlin insinuating evil against [a woman]3960-a woman because [he]379-hamlin had been such a big baby as to fancy [her]3960-a woman in love with [him]379-hamlin . “[2135-an odious woman] [Men]4644-men are very unjust ! ” cried [Anne]171-anne ; “[4644-men] [they]4644-men always trump up some mysterious sin to justify [their]4644-men unreasonable aversions . ” [Brown]171-anne reddened , and was on the point of saying something . But [he]379-hamlin checked [himself]379-hamlin , and merely remarked — “[4644-men] Oh , of course [women]3959-women always fancy that [they]3959-women understand [each other]594-each other better than [a man]503-a man can . ” “[3959-women] So [they]3959-women can ! [A woman]3960-a woman can always understand [another woman]4381-another woman better than [a man]503-a man can , who attributes all sorts of nasty masculine faults to [women]3959-women , or [suspects imaginary feminine ones]2704-suspects imaginary feminine ones , when [he]503-a man does n’t see clear . Oh yes , [I]0-i know : [every woman]2705-every woman is weak , vain , [a creature of impulse and passion]2706-a creature of impulse and passion , something half‐way only between [the man]757-the man and [the child]660-the child , as [I]0-i read in a French paper , with a kind of sham character , like the backbones of cartilage or jelly of [some lower creatures]2709-some lower creatures ! ” [Brown]171-anne shook [his]5906-his head . “[2710-most women] [Most women]2710-most women are like that , but not all ; not [you]2711-you , [Anne]171-anne , for instance . ” “[171-anne] Thank [you]0-i , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , scornfully . “[0-i] But [all women]2712-all women , at least [all noble women]2713-all noble women , are unable to judge of [other women]1523-other women . How should [they]2712-all women judge ? It is only [a man]503-a man , or [a base woman]2716-a base woman , who knows of the mud out of which many women , like [many men]2717-many men , are moulded . ” “[620-one] [One]620-one does not need to be base to know that , ” said [Anne]171-anne , half to [herself]171-anne ; and [she]171-anne thought of the mud which [she]171-anne had discovered in [her]171-anne own silver idol . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t think [we]2719-we are alluding to the same thing , ” said [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin , turning off the conversation . “[0-i] Mere vanity , and the injustice of vanity , ” said [Anne]171-anne to [herself]171-anne , and [her]171-anne pessimism became more confirmed . But later , although [she]171-anne continued to believe quite equally in [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s vanity , [she]171-anne began to suspect that there had been in [this coarse‐looking man]5907-this coarse‐looking man a movement of modesty , an unwillingness to let [her]171-anne eyes rest upon some nasty thing which [he]5907-this coarse‐looking man had seen . But of this , at present , [she]171-anne had no idea , and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , although [she]360-madame elaguine did not find much in common with [her]171-anne , became for [Anne]171-anne another victim of the vanity and injustice of [the world]496-the world . [They]2719-we saw a good deal of [the little woman]4885-the little woman now . [Anne]171-anne thought [she]171-anne understood [her]4885-the little woman thoroughly , and owned to [herself]171-anne that [she]171-anne had not understood [her]4885-the little woman at first . [She]171-anne recognised that [the little woman]4885-the little woman had much more character than [she]171-anne had at first imagined ; and the impression of frailness , childishness , and helplessness which something in [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s appearance , manner , and voice had at first given [her]171-anne , wore away so completely that [she]171-anne could scarcely believe it had ever existed . Eccentric and irresponsible [she]4885-the little woman still seemed , always rushing from one enthusiasm to another , always thirsting for excitement ; but [Anne]171-anne found that instead of [a childish girl who could lean upon [her]171-anne]5911-a childish girl who could lean upon her , [she]171-anne had to deal with [a woman]3960-a woman , undisciplined and capricious indeed , but still , in many respects , [more of [a woman]3960-a woman than [herself]171-anne]5913-more of a woman than herself . [She]4885-the little woman was flighty and giddy like [[her]4885-the little woman own little girl]5915-her own little girl in many respects , and fully as ignorant of many things ; but [she]4885-the little woman had a knowledge of sides of life which [Anne]171-anne instinctively guessed , and from which [she]4885-the little woman recoiled . With an extraordinary love of the beautiful , the fantastic , and the ideal , which , as it made [her]4885-the little woman dress [herself]4885-the little woman in queer ingénue little costumes , also made [her]4885-the little woman mould [her]4885-the little woman conduct , ideas , and words rather theatrically in obedience to a conception of something striking and pretty,—Madame [Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had , at the same time , a vein — no , [Anne]171-anne thought it must be a mere exterior dab , not due to [her]4885-the little woman inner nature , but to [her]4885-the little woman Russian and Continental education — of coarseness , which surprised and pained [Miss Brown]171-anne . Once or twice , in [Anne]171-anne ’s presence , [she]360-madame elaguine alluded to things in a manner which gave [Anne]171-anne a shock ; and [Anne]171-anne , who , half Italian as [she]171-anne was , and wholly fearless and unprudish , would ask [herself]171-anne what right [she]171-anne had had to feel like that ; [she]171-anne would analyse [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s words , and find them , when measured by a Continental standard , very harmless ; yet somehow , though [she]171-anne told [herself]171-anne that [she]171-anne was stupid and unjust , something of the painful impression would remain . Also , [she]171-anne could not conceive how [a woman]3960-a woman could like to sit for hours , as [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine did , on the score of spiritual séances , with [a man like [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis]5917-a man like edmund lewis . [She]171-anne never heard [him]5917-a man like edmund lewis talk on anything objectionable to [the Russian]413-the russian ; and yet there was something to [her]171-anne inconceivable in the endurance of [this man]1239-this man by [a young woman]581-a young woman . [Anne]171-anne came to the conclusion that [she]171-anne must be growing horribly prejudiced and unjust ; and the less [she]171-anne could sympathise with some of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s tastes ( though there was nothing really objectionable in them ) the more did [she]171-anne force [herself]171-anne to try and understand , and make allowance for , and help [the little woman]4885-the little woman . And one day [Anne]171-anne ’s sympathies were really enlisted for [her]171-anne . It was about Christmas , and [Anne]171-anne had prevailed upon [Hamlin]379-hamlin to accompany [her]171-anne and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine to a pantomime , to which [the Russian]5582-the russian was taking [[her]5582-the russian little girl]5922-her little girl , and [Anne]171-anne [the two Chough children]5923-the two chough children . [Anne]171-anne amused [herself]171-anne heartily , as [she]171-anne always did , at every sort of theatrical performance , with the love of shows and acting in [her]171-anne Italian blood ; [she]171-anne was so happy laughing with [the children]3862-the children , while [Hamlin]379-hamlin talked with [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin and [Chough]379-hamlin in the back of the box , that that evening long remained a sort of oasis in the dreariness of [her]171-anne inner life . There was a tremendous crush in [the lobbies]5926-the lobbies and on the stairs ; . and while [Chough]379-hamlin shoved on [[his]379-hamlin two children]5927-his two children , and [Hamlin]379-hamlin tried to make way through [the crowd]864-the crowd for [[his]379-hamlin frail little cousin]5929-his frail little cousin , who looked as if [she]5929-his frail little cousin would be knocked over and trampled like a feather , [Anne]171-anne , towering through [the throng]5930-the throng ( and [people]577-people turned to look at that magnificent pale face , set in crisp black hair , and said to [each other]594-each other , “[5933-the famous pre‐raphaelite beauty ”] Look there ; that ’s [Miss Brown]171-anne , [the famous pre‐Raphaelite beauty ”]5933-the famous pre‐raphaelite beauty ” ) , held [[Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha ’s little girl]5934-sacha elaguine ’s little girl close in front of [her]171-anne , calmly making [the crowd]864-the crowd divide as [a ship]5936-a ship divides [the water]4411-the water . [They]5938-they were fairly out of [the theatre]4193-the theatre , on the steps looking out into [the street]842-the street , with the gas burning dim in the fog , and the long splashes of yellow light on pavement and wet cab‐tops , waiting in the damp cold , while [Chough]379-hamlin called [[their]5938-they carriage]1360-their carriage , and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , leaning on [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s arm , [the two little Choughs by [her]360-madame elaguine side]5942-the two little choughs by her side , had heaved a sigh of relief , and exclaimed — “[5933-the famous pre‐raphaelite beauty ”] Oh , how delicious it is to be in the cold , and fog , and dark , after [that theatre]2720-that theatre ! — ” When [little Hélène Elaguine]414-little hélène elaguine , who was holding [Anne]171-anne ’s hand , and see‐sawing from one leg to another — while staring at [the men in opera hats and comforters]5943-the men in opera hats and comforters , and [the ladies]4923-the ladies and [children]570-children huddled in furs , and [the policemen]5946-the policemen and [cabmen who passed in front]5947-cabmen who passed in front — suddenly gave a piercing shriek , and threw [herself]414-little hélène elaguine into [Anne]171-anne ’s arms , clinging to [her]171-anne and burying [her]414-little hélène elaguine head in [her]414-little hélène elaguine pelisse . “[5933-the famous pre‐raphaelite beauty ”] Good heavens ! what ’s the matter , [child]5758-child ? ” cried [Anne]171-anne , mechanically clasping [the little girl]5948-the little girl round the waist . “[5758-child] What ’s the matter ? ” cried [Hamlin]379-hamlin , who had not seen this action . But [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had let go [his]379-hamlin arm and darted forward , white as ashes , and seized [[her]360-madame elaguine child]5949-her child from [Anne]171-anne , and cried—“Let[5933-the famous pre‐raphaelite beauty ”] [us]2722-us go ! let [us]2722-us go ! ” in an agonised voice . [The carriage]810-the carriage came up , and [she]360-madame elaguine jumped into it , scarcely giving [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [Anne]171-anne time to follow , and leaving [Chough]379-hamlin and [[his]379-hamlin children]4938-his children amazed before [the theatre]4193-the theatre door . [The carriage]810-the carriage stopped at [her]360-madame elaguine door in [Kensington]114-kensington . “[0-i] [I]0-i can not pass this night alone with only [Helen]415-helen and [the servants]5568-the servants ! [I]0-i can not , [I]0-i can not ! ” And [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine burst into tears , strangely intermingled with hysterical laughs . “[2724-they] [They]2724-they want to take [[my]0-i child]2725-my child away ; [they]2724-they are trying it again ! ” “[2724-they] What is to be done ? ” asked [Hamlin]379-hamlin . “[2724-they] [I]0-i will stay to‐night with [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , ” said [Anne]171-anne , with decision ; “[360-madame elaguine] if [you]2726-you will go to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith and tell [[Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia ’s maid]2727-aunt claudia ’s maid that [[your]2726-you cousin]4341-your cousin was feeling ill , and [I]0-i am staying with [her]2727-aunt claudia ’s maid till to‐morrow . Help [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine out , will [you]2726-you ? ” [Hamlin]379-hamlin lifted [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin out of [the carriage]810-the carriage , while [Anne]171-anne took charge of [the child]660-the child , whom [its nurse]5957-its nurse carried up in a condition of lethargic sleep . When [they]5958-they were in [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s drawing‐room]5959-madame elaguine ’s drawing‐room , [the Russian]5582-the russian took [the child]660-the child in [her]5582-the russian arms , and flinging [herself]5582-the russian on a sofa , burst out crying , [her]5582-the russian sobs interrupted by moaning complaints that [some one]1380-some one wanted to take [[her]5582-the russian child]5949-her child away . “[2726-you] [I]0-i will go to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith now , and leave [you]2729-you with [her]2730-her , ” whispered [Hamlin]379-hamlin to [Anne]171-anne , who had knelt down by the side of the sofa . “[0-i] [I]0-i will come to‐morrow morning for news ; good night . ” “[0-i] Good night , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , under [her]171-anne breath . But [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine heard . [She]360-madame elaguine started up , and looking wildly about — “[0-i] Oh , do n’t leave [me]0-i alone yet ! ” [she]360-madame elaguine cried . “[0-i] [Miss Brown]171-anne will remain , [Sacha]386-sacha , ” said [Hamlin]379-hamlin . “[386-sacha] Oh , do n’t leave [me]0-i yet , [Walter]145-hamlin ! ” repeated [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[0-i] [I]0-i am afraid — [I]0-i am afraid of [Miss Brown]171-anne . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i think [you]145-hamlin had better remain , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” whispered [Anne]171-anne ; “[145-hamlin] [she]171-anne will probably be quiet in a minute or two . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin took a chair near the table , and looked on in surprise . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was stretched on the sofa , [[her]360-madame elaguine sleeping child]5964-her sleeping child pressed close to [her]360-madame elaguine ; [her]360-madame elaguine little head , with its short pale curls , thrown back ; [her]360-madame elaguine eyes half closed , moaning and gasping and sobbing ; and [Anne]171-anne , kneeling by [her]360-madame elaguine side , looking anxiously into that curious , convulsed face . “[171-anne] Do [you]2731-you think [she]171-anne is going to faint ? ” asked [[Hamlin]145-hamlin of [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin ’s Swiss maid , who stood by , the picture of self‐satisfied composure]5965-hamlin of his cousin ’s swiss maid , who stood by , the picture of self‐satisfied composure . “[2731-you] Oh no — [Monsieur]2732-monsieur need be under no apprehension . [Madame]360-madame elaguine often had de ces crises ; [Madame]360-madame elaguine was often frightened like that . It was the first time since [Madame]360-madame elaguine was in [England]37-england , but it was quite common . [Madame]360-madame elaguine , ” added [the servant]4647-the servant quietly , “[360-madame elaguine] has probably seen [[her]360-madame elaguine black man]2733-her black man — ” “[2734-what black man] [What black man]2734-what black man ? ” asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha had suddenly raised [herself]386-sacha on [her]386-sacha elbow,—as if [she]386-sacha had heard [the maid]4505-the maid ’s words . “[2734-what black man] Take [Mademoiselle Hélène]416-mademoiselle hélène to bed , [Sophie]417-sophie , ” [she]386-sacha said quietly . “[417-sophie] Sha n’t [I]0-i take [her]416-mademoiselle hélène ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne . “[417-sophie] [Sophie]417-sophie knows how to manage [her]416-mademoiselle hélène , ” answered [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; and sitting up , [she]360-madame elaguine drew [the half‐wakened child]5969-the half‐wakened child close to [her]360-madame elaguine and kissed [her]5969-the half‐wakened child with convulsive passion . Yet [she]360-madame elaguine let [the maid]4505-the maid carry off [the little one]652-the little one , and merely let [herself]360-madame elaguine slip down on the couch with a moan , putting aside [her]360-madame elaguine heavy fur and passing [her]360-madame elaguine hands through [her]360-madame elaguine pale blond hair , and moaning . “[417-sophie] Do n’t [you]2735-you think [you]2735-you had better go ? ” said [Anne]171-anne to [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[2735-you] [I]0-i will look after [[your]2735-you cousin]4341-your cousin . ” [She]0-i would loathe to have [Hamlin]145-hamlin sitting there , looking at [her]0-i , if [she]0-i were in [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s condition . [Hamlin]145-hamlin rose . “[0-i] Stop a minute , ” said [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin faintly , turning round and fixing [her]1267-his cousin vague northern blue eyes on [him]145-hamlin ; “[0-i] stop a minute , [Walter]145-hamlin . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin remained standing , [his]145-hamlin eyes involuntarily fixed upon the curious spectacle of [this prostrate little figure , panting and gasping as if going to die]5973-this prostrate little figure , panting and gasping as if going to die , and half unconscious of [any one]4101-any one ’s presence — [her]1267-his cousin cloak thrown back on the sofa , [her]1267-his cousin hair tangled , [her]1267-his cousin bare arms and neck ( for it was one of [her]1267-his cousin caprices always to go the play , even to the pantomime , full dress ) half covered by the fur of [her]1267-his cousin pelisse and the lace of [her]1267-his cousin dress . “[145-hamlin] Stay a minute ; [I]0-i want to explain , ” repeated [the Russian]5582-the russian , in a faint voice . “[0-i] [Anne]171-anne — dear [Anne]171-anne — where are [you]171-anne ? ” “[171-anne] Here [I]0-i am , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , in [her]0-i cheerful strong voice ; “[0-i] do [you]0-i want anything , dear [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i want [you]171-anne , ” and [Sacha]386-sacha flung [her]386-sacha arms round [Anne]171-anne ’s neck , and drew [her]386-sacha dark head close to [her]386-sacha own little pale yellow one . [Anne]171-anne felt [her]171-anne arms tighten passionately round [her]171-anne , [her]171-anne little hand tighten convulsively round [her]171-anne neck , as if [the half‐fainting woman]5976-the half‐fainting woman would throttle her,—but [she]171-anne felt no fear , only a vague , undefinable repulsion . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine sighed a long sigh of relief , and loosened [her]360-madame elaguine hold ; but [she]360-madame elaguine kept [Anne]171-anne ’s face near [hers]360-madame elaguine , and kissed [her]171-anne with hot lips on the forehead . “[0-i] [Dear Anne]418-anne , ” [she]360-madame elaguine said , “[0-i] forgive [me]0-i . ” “[0-i] There is nothing to forgive , ” said [Anne]418-anne , trying to get loose and to rise to [her]418-anne feet . But [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine kept [her]418-anne down in [her]418-anne kneeling posture , [her]360-madame elaguine arm always round [Anne]418-anne ’s shoulder . “[0-i] [I]0-i must explain it all to [you]418-anne , ” [she]0-i said , in a slow , vague tone , fixing [her]0-i eyes upon [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[0-i] Do n’t think [me]0-i very foolish or mad ; but [I]0-i thought [they]2737-they were again trying to carry off [my]0-i little [Helen,—they]419-helen,—they have tried before,—and [they]2737-they keep writing to [me]0-i , telling [me]0-i that [they]2737-they will carry off [Helen]415-helen or kill [me]0-i . [I]0-i do n’t care about that,—but [Helen]415-helen ! ” and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine hid [her]360-madame elaguine face in [Anne]418-anne ’s iron‐black hair . [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked on as in a dream . It was a curious sight , [these two women]5977-these two women , so different , and yet both so young and beautiful , [the one clinging so to the other]5978-the one clinging so to the other ; and of the two , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , whom [he]145-hamlin had never thought regularly handsome , with [her]360-madame elaguine thin , strange face , and red lips , and wild eyes , seemed to [him]145-hamlin at this moment [the stranger]5979-the stranger and more beautiful of [the two]1016-the two . “[0-i] [I]0-i want to explain it all , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[145-hamlin] [Walter]145-hamlin , give [me]0-i that box — [the little Indian inlaid one on the writing‐table]2738-the little indian inlaid one on the writing‐table — there , next to the palm‐tree . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin brought the box ; and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , without letting go [her]360-madame elaguine hold of [Anne]418-anne , pressed a spring and opened it . It was full to the brim of letters — some large and folded in [their]5977-these two women envelopes , others mere scraps of paper . [She]360-madame elaguine took some out , and spread them on [her]360-madame elaguine knees . “[145-hamlin] Look , ” [she]360-madame elaguine said , letting [Anne]418-anne go , so that [she]360-madame elaguine could , while still kneeling , see the papers . [Anne]418-anne raised [herself]418-anne , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin approached . “[145-hamlin] Look at these , ” said [the Russian]5582-the russian , carefully handling the soiled and crumpled pieces of paper ; “[145-hamlin] these are to [me]0-i what love‐letters are to [other women,—they]2739-other women,—they are [my]0-i life — [my]0-i past , and [my]0-i future . ” And [she]5582-the russian fixed [her]5582-the russian eyes wildly on [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[2739-other women,—they] As [other women]1523-other women have lived on knowing that [they]1523-other women were loved and would always be loved , so [I]0-i have lived , ever since [I]0-i was twenty , knowing that [I]0-i was surrounded by [invisible enemies]2741-invisible enemies , who would either put a sudden end to [my]0-i life or protract it with [their]2741-invisible enemies tortures . Ah ! [I]0-i know [you]2742-you think [me]0-i giddy , and fickle , and childish ; but [you]2742-you do n’t know that [I]0-i try to lose [my]0-i wits in order that [I]0-i may gain some peace ! ” [her]5582-the russian voice burst out hot and passionate . [Anne]418-anne and [Hamlin]145-hamlin were shyly fingering the papers ; [they]1523-other women were all in the same hand — a curious , crabbed , left‐handed character — some in French , some in English , some in Russian , but all brief and to the same purpose : initials of which neither [Anne]418-anne nor [Hamlin]145-hamlin understood the meaning at the head , and below a threat of something terrible , sometimes left vague , sometimes outspoken , as death , to what was styled [the traitress]5982-the traitress . [Many of [them]1523-other women]5983-many of them said that what could not be visited on [the mother]1950-the mother should be visited on [the children]3862-the children , and [all]5986-all concluded with saying that wherever [the traitress]5982-the traitress went [she]5582-the russian would be followed by invisible eyes and footsteps . “[0-i] It was all [my]0-i fault in the beginning , ” began [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , covering [her]0-i eyes with [her]0-i hands ; “[0-i] but [I]0-i was very young , ignorant , and lonely ; and after all , what harm did [I]0-i do ? [I]0-i had been married when [I]0-i was only seventeen to [a man whom [I]0-i thought of as [a father]2744-a father]2743-a man whom i thought of as a father ; and little by little , when [I]0-i found what sort of man [he]2743-a man whom i thought of as a father was — how base , and coarse , and cunning — [I]0-i began to feel very lonely and empty‐hearted . [I]0-i was too young to care for [[my]0-i children]3970-my children , who were [babies]2746-babies , and [I]0-i was [a baby]2747-a baby [myself]0-i . But it was all so lonely , and [the world]496-the world so mean about [me]0-i . [I]0-i longed to be of some use , and able to sacrifice [myself]0-i for something . And [a man]503-a man was sent across [my]0-i path , twice as old as [myself]0-i , whom [I]0-i looked upon as [a father]2744-a father , and who treated [me]0-i as [a child]623-a child ; and [this man]1239-this man used to talk to [me]0-i , when [[my]0-i husband]4038-my husband left [me]0-i all alone to run after [low women]2754-low women , and tell [me]0-i all about the miserable condition of [Russia]115-russia , and how all the good was being stamped out , and only selfishness , and injustice , and corruption triumphed . [He]1239-this man was [a Nihilist]2755-a nihilist [himself]1239-this man , and [one of [[their]2757-their chief men]2758-their chief men]2756-one of their chief men — [a wonderful man , who seemed so cold , and just , and honest]2759-a wonderful man , who seemed so cold , and just , and honest . So , little by little , [he]1239-this man converted [me]0-i to [his]1239-this man ideas , and [I]0-i got to know [other Nihilists]2760-other nihilists , [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women , and heard a great deal about all sorts of terrible doings . [I]0-i felt so happy and heroic — [I]0-i was [a fool]4435-a fool , [you]2764-you see . Then [I]0-i suddenly discovered that [[my]0-i hero]2765-my hero was quite different from what [I]0-i thought — that [he]1239-this man had gained all this power over [me]0-i only in hopes of making shameful use of it , and had cornpromised [me]0-i with [[his]1239-this man party]2766-his party merely to make [me]0-i [[his]1239-this man mistress]1072-his mistress . When [I]0-i understood it , [I]0-i drove [him]1239-this man away , and threatened to tell all to [[my]0-i husband]4038-my husband ; and then [he]1239-this man swore to get the better of [me]0-i , and to use all the power of [his]1239-this man society to bring [me]0-i , as [he]1239-this man called it , to reason . For two years , while [[my]0-i husband]4038-my husband was alive , [I]0-i struggled with [him]1239-this man , and [he]1239-this man kept on threatening and hoping to frighten [me]0-i . But when [[my]0-i husband]4038-my husband died , [I]0-i sold all the Russian property , and was preparing to leave [the country]945-the country , and then [that man who hated [me]0-i , just because in [his]1239-this man way [he]1239-this man had loved [me]0-i , denounced [me]0-i to [[his]1239-this man society]2773-his society]2772-that man who hated me , just because in his way he had loved me , denounced me to his society as [a traitor to the Nihilist cause]2774-a traitor to the nihilist cause , and as [a person to be hunted down]2775-a person to be hunted down . And so , ever since , [I]0-i have been persecuted with all the might of [the Nihilists wielded by [this man]1239-this man]2776-the nihilists wielded by this man ; and although [I]0-i have been hundreds of times on the point of denouncing [him]1239-this man and [[his]1239-this man associates]2778-his associates to [the Government]2779-the government , [I]0-i have never done so , because [I]0-i am still [a Nihilist]2755-a nihilist at heart , and hate [the Russian Government]2781-the russian government as much as [I]0-i hate [him]1239-this man ; and [he]1239-this man , who knows it , knows [I]0-i can not defend [myself]0-i , and employs [his]1239-this man power in tormenting [me]0-i . ” A convulsion passed across [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s face ; it dropped , like that of [a dying person]5988-a dying person . But [she]360-madame elaguine started up suddenly , and went on with [her]360-madame elaguine story . For ten years nearly [she]360-madame elaguine had been persecuted in this mysterious way ; threatening letters had come to [her]360-madame elaguine by all manner of conveyances,—brought by the post , found on [her]360-madame elaguine table , dropped by invisible hands at [her]360-madame elaguine feet . Attempts had been made to poison [her]360-madame elaguine , stopped just in time to let [her]360-madame elaguine know of them — for the object seemed rather to make [her]360-madame elaguine life unbearable than to take it away ; burning spirits of wine had been poured under [her]360-madame elaguine door ; twice [she]360-madame elaguine had been shot at . But the most terrible part of the persecution had come when [they]5989-they had discovered [her]360-madame elaguine passionate love for [[her]360-madame elaguine little girl]5922-her little girl ( [the boy]3866-the boy , now at school , [they]5989-they had somehow let alone ) . Several times , in various places ( for [she]360-madame elaguine was always on the move , flying [[her]360-madame elaguine enemies]5992-her enemies ) , attempts had been made to carry off [the child]660-the child ; once , at [Cannes]116-cannes , [she]360-madame elaguine had gone to the window just in time to see [a man]503-a man snatch up [the child , who was playing in the garden , and to fire off a revolver]5995-the child , who was playing in the garden , and to fire off a revolver at [him]503-a man . “[1239-this man] If [I]0-i had killed [[my]0-i child]2725-my child , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , savagely , “[0-i] it would have been better than to see [her]2725-my child carried away from [me]0-i . ” [The individual who had made these attempts]5996-the individual who had made these attempts [she]360-madame elaguine described as being very dark , as if [his]5996-the individual who had made these attempts complexion had been altered by overdoses of nitrate of silver . And [this man]1239-this man would every now and then , at unexpected moments , reappear , and [his]5996-the individual who had made these attempts reappearance meant some fresh outrage . Poor little [Helen]415-helen had suddenly seen [him]1239-this man , or thought [she]415-helen had seen [him]1239-this man , among [the crowd coming out of [the theatre]4193-the theatre]5998-the crowd coming out of the theatre ; and this had produced [the child]660-the child ’s sudden fit . “[2725-my child] Ever since [I]0-i have come to [London]4-london , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , “[0-i] [I]0-i have been comparatively quiet . [I]0-i was almost forgetting all about [my]0-i misfortunes , or thinking [I]0-i was forgotten — and here it begins afresh ; ” and [she]0-i burst into tears . “[415-helen] Oh why , why can not [I]0-i be permitted to be happy for a little while — only a little while ? ” [she]0-i cried . [Anne]418-anne had listened [awe‐stricken]420-awe‐stricken . [She]418-anne had always thought there was something mysterious about [this giddy little woman]6001-this giddy little woman . This frightful undeserved calamity struck down [her]418-anne imagination ; what right had [she]418-anne ever to feel unhappy in the presence of such misery as this ? “[415-helen] Perhaps , ” [she]0-i suggested timidly—“perhaps[415-helen] it may have been [Helen]415-helen ’s fancy . As [she]415-helen is used to the idea of [this black man]2783-this black man , [she]415-helen may have imagined , being tired and overexcited from the play , that [she]415-helen saw [him]2783-this black man among [the crowd]864-the crowd . ” “[415-helen] Oh no , no , it was [he]2783-this black man , really [he]2783-this black man , ” moaned [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , turning over on the sofa and burying [her]360-madame elaguine face in its cushions . “[2783-this black man] [You]2785-you must go now , ” whispered [Anne]418-anne to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “[2785-you] there is no earthly use in [your]2785-you staying . [I]0-i will sit up with [her]415-helen till [she]415-helen be quiet . Good night . ” “[0-i] Good night ; ” and [Hamlin]145-hamlin , as [he]145-hamlin noiselessly opened the door , cast a last glance at that singular group in the rose‐coloured light of [[[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin ’s lamp,—Sacha]6003-his cousin ’s lamp,—sacha , with [her]415-helen fur and lace all in disarray , gasping on the couch , [her]415-helen bare throat heaving , and one of [her]415-helen thin white arms hanging loosely by [her]415-helen side ; and [Anne Brown]171-anne , in [her]171-anne long plain white dress of high art simplicity of cut , stooping over [her]171-anne . For some time [Anne]171-anne sat by [Sacha]386-sacha ’s side , holding [the Russian]5582-the russian ’s hot hand . “[0-i] Is [Walter]145-hamlin gone ? ” suddenly asked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , turning [her]360-madame elaguine head . “[145-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin went some minutes ago . ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine raised [herself]360-madame elaguine and sat up on the sofa , and passed [her]360-madame elaguine little hands through [her]360-madame elaguine disorderly yellow hair . “[145-hamlin] Give [me]0-i a kiss , [Annie]171-anne , ” [she]360-madame elaguine said . [Anne]171-anne stooped down and kissed [her]360-madame elaguine . “[171-anne] Perhaps [I]0-i had better go to bed now , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[0-i] Shall [I]0-i help [you]145-hamlin to undress ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , who feared that [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin might have another fit of hysterics . “[0-i] Oh no ; call [Sophie]417-sophie — [she]417-sophie will undress [me]0-i . ” On [Anne]171-anne ’s call , [the Swiss maid]6006-the swiss maid emerged from [the next room]3870-the next room . “[417-sophie] Put [me]0-i to bed , ” ordered [Sacha]386-sacha , rising and leaning on the arm of the sofa . “[417-sophie] May [I]0-i really not help [you]145-hamlin ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , for [the maid]4505-the maid looked so indifferent , nay , so sulky , and [she]4505-the maid seemed to handle [[her]4505-the maid mistress]6009-her mistress so roughly , that [Miss Brown]171-anne wondered how [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , in [her]360-madame elaguine state of nerves , could endure to be helped by [her]360-madame elaguine . [Anne]171-anne waited till [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was in bed . “[0-i] [I]0-i have made up the bed for [Mademoiselle]416-mademoiselle hélène in [the spare room]2786-the spare room , ” said [the maid]4505-the maid , looking at [Anne]171-anne with a curious insolence ; and [she]4505-the maid led [her]171-anne up‐stairs . [Anne]171-anne did not put out the lamp , and [she]171-anne did not undress . [She]171-anne could not sleep ; and [she]171-anne felt miserable at the notion of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine being left all alone on [the first floor]559-the first floor . What if [the little woman]4885-the little woman should wake up with a panic , if [she]171-anne were to fancy that [some of [[her]171-anne mysterious persecutors]6014-her mysterious persecutors]6013-some of her mysterious persecutors were hiding in [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room ? [Anne]171-anne took the lamp , and silently descended into [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room . All was quiet . [She]171-anne sat down in an arm‐chair , and made up the dying fire . [She]171-anne felt very restless and unable to sleep . The whole scene of this night and [Sacha]386-sacha ’s revelations had shaken [her]171-anne nerves and gone to [her]171-anne imagination . In [her]171-anne half‐drowsy , dreamy condition , everything seemed to [her]171-anne strange and eerie in [this room]6017-this room , which was so unlike [her]171-anne own at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith . [It]6017-this room was full of pretty things , but in great confusion ; [Sacha]386-sacha ’s piano was still open , with a book of [Rubinstein]421-rubinstein ’s songs on it . There was a heap of dog’s‐eared French novels and recent volumes of poetry on the table , and [the whole room]6018-the whole room was heavy with the scent of some Eastern drug and of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s Turkish cigarettes . On the table by [Anne]171-anne ’s side were some books : [she]171-anne took up one , and opened it at random ; it was [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s new volume . At the head of the page was the title , “[0-i] Desire — XII . Sonnets , ” and all along the margin was a faint line in pencil , and the words , in a childish hand , “[0-i] How beautiful ! and how TRUE ! ” THE notion that [a man]503-a man was waiting , thirsting for [her]171-anne love , would have been enough for [many a woman in [Anne]171-anne ’s position]6020-many a woman in anne ’s position — [many a woman more gifted than [Anne]171-anne]6021-many a woman more gifted than anne , and more conscious of [her]171-anne gifts , especially if [the man who thus tacitly implored [her]171-anne to love and kindle love in [him]6022-the man who thus tacitly implored her to love and kindle love in him]6022-the man who thus tacitly implored her to love and kindle love in him , were , like [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [the former object of passionate worship]6023-the former object of passionate worship . But with [Anne Brown]171-anne it was different . [Some few women]6024-some few women seem to be born to have been [men]4644-men , or at least not to have been [women]3959-women . To [them]6024-some few women love , if it come , will be an absorbing passion , but a passion only of brief duration , the mere momentary diversion into a personal and individual channel of a force which constitutes [the whole moral and intellectual existence , whose object is an unattainable ideal of excellence , and whose field]6027-the whole moral and intellectual existence , whose object is an unattainable ideal of excellence , and whose field is the whole of [the world in which there is injustice , and callousness , and evil]6028-the world in which there is injustice , and callousness , and evil . [Such women]6029-such women may be very happy if [they]6029-such women love [a man]503-a man with [their]6029-such women eyes open — love [him]503-a man as a mere secondary concern , as [a mere trusty companion in the struggle after the ideal]6031-a mere trusty companion in the struggle after the ideal ; but if [they]6029-such women love in [a man]503-a man what momentarily seems to be that ideal , if [they]6029-such women love with all the force of [their]6029-such women nature , a terrible reaction of vacuity and despair must soon come . As with [[their]6029-such women lovers]4925-their lovers and [husbands]710-husbands , so also with [[their]6029-such women children]2449-their children : [they]6029-such women can not blissfully concentrate all [their]6029-such women passion upon [them]6029-such women ; such love will soon become narrow and bitter for [them]6029-such women . [They]6029-such women are indeed sent into [the world]496-the world ( if any of [us]6037-us is ever sent for any purpose ) to be [its Joans of [Arc]117-arc]6038-its joans of arc — to kindle from [their]6029-such women pure passion a fire of enthusiasm as passionate , but purer than it is given to [men]4644-men to kindle : [they]6029-such women are not intended to be , except as a utilisation of what is fatally wasted , either [wives]5265-wives or [mothers]5266-mothers . [Masculine women]6042-masculine women , [mere men in disguise]6043-mere men in disguise , [they]6042-masculine women are not : the very strength and purity of [their]6042-masculine women nature , its intensity as of some undiluted spirit , is dependent upon [their]6042-masculine women cleaner and narrower [woman]2081-woman ’s nature , upon [their]6042-masculine women narrowness and obstinacy of [woman]2081-woman ’s mind ; [they]6042-masculine women are , and can only be , [true women]6046-true women ; but [women]3959-women without [woman]2081-woman ’s instincts and wants , sexless — [women]3959-women made not for [man but for humankind]6050-man but for humankind . [Anne Brown]171-anne was one of these . [She]171-anne had no idea that [she]171-anne was of this strange , rare stuff of [heroines]1005-heroines ; [she]171-anne had no notion that [she]171-anne was at all superior to the ordinary run of [her]171-anne sex ; indeed it was [her]171-anne perfect ignorance of [her]171-anne own exceptional nature which caused most of [her]171-anne wretchedness , making [her]171-anne at once more impatient with the weakness of [others]4163-others , and more impatient with [her]171-anne own difficulty of being satisfied . Love , therefore , was not for [her]171-anne a happiness , nor an ideal , nor even a compensation . In an intensely earnest nature like [hers]171-anne , a few years are worth a lifetime : everything is understood , endured much sooner ; all that can be felt , for pleasure or pain , is rapidly exhausted , and the character remains early , with all its human lusts and vanities burnt out like the gases in green wood , ready to become the fuel for unindividual ideal passion . So at twenty‐three , [Anne]171-anne had , so to speak , loved out [her]171-anne love , [her]171-anne passionate adoring love , as [she]171-anne had dreamed out the dreams of [her]171-anne life ; anything that might still come would be but a faint momentary flicker of sentiment , a detail in [her]171-anne life , and no more . So when [Hamlin]145-hamlin had , in [his]145-hamlin veiled way , made [her]171-anne to understand what [he]145-hamlin hoped , what [he]145-hamlin desired , what [he]145-hamlin expected , what ( [she]171-anne could not help saying to [herself]171-anne ) [he]145-hamlin had bargained for , of [her,—the]6053-her,—the thought of this love , which [she]171-anne could no longer feel , and which [she]171-anne was expected to give — of this love which was to be merely the highest selfish pleasure , the most precious ( because the most refined ) , æsthetic lust of [a selfish æsthetic voluptuary]6054-a selfish æsthetic voluptuary , [Anne]171-anne experienced a sense of horror and self‐debasement . So this was what [Hamlin]145-hamlin was waiting for — this which made [him]145-hamlin play that comedy of respectful distant adoration , of freedom of choice in [her]171-anne , of absence of all rights in [himself]145-hamlin — this that [her]171-anne solid mass of soul should slowly take fire , and smoulder , and , leaping up in inextinguishable flame , set [him]145-hamlin also ablaze . Hitherto [Anne]171-anne had been unhappy from [her]171-anne isolation , from [her]171-anne gradual discovery that [the man whom [she]171-anne had loved as [an ideal of nobility]6056-an ideal of nobility]6055-the man whom she had loved as an ideal of nobility must be scorned as [a mere weak‐spirited and morbid‐minded artistic automaton,—a mind]6057-a mere weak‐spirited and morbid‐minded artistic automaton,—a mind creating beautiful things from sheer blind necessity , as a violin gives out beautiful sounds , but soulless , like the mere instrument of wood and string . [She]171-anne had been unhappy because [she]171-anne was alone , terribly alone ; but now [she]171-anne was unhappy because [she]171-anne had discovered that [she]171-anne was in bondage , surrounded by walls , [a slave]2670-a slave . And now that [she]171-anne yearned for the icy sense of isolation with which [she]171-anne had lived a few weeks back , as [a prisoner in [a fortress]6060-a fortress]6059-a prisoner in a fortress might yearn for [the desert]6061-the desert , [she]171-anne found also that [she]171-anne could no longer drift on indifferent , enduring the present , and hoping for the future . [She]171-anne could no longer vaguely say to [herself]171-anne , as [she]171-anne had so often said before , that [Hamlin]145-hamlin might be redeemed , that [he]145-hamlin might yet become once more an object of [her]171-anne love : for it had become plain to [her]171-anne that [her]171-anne future was settled ; that whatever [Hamlin]145-hamlin was , [he]145-hamlin was [[her]171-anne master]6062-her master , [[her]171-anne proprietor]6063-her proprietor ; and that , lovable or not lovable to [her]171-anne nature , [he]145-hamlin expected , counted upon [her]171-anne love . This new feeling made [Anne]171-anne ’s life — that life which was so completely a life of [the world within]6064-the world within , not of [the world]496-the world without — insupportable in a new way . Isolated [she]171-anne could live , but not caged . [Her]171-anne whole soul sickened ; [she]171-anne no longer thought of trying to influence [Hamlin]145-hamlin , of trying to help [others]4163-others ; all [her]171-anne energies were concentrated upon helping , upon freeing [herself]171-anne . “[0-i] There is something the matter with [Anne Brown]171-anne , ” said [Sacha]386-sacha one day to [[her]386-sacha cousin]1291-her cousin . “[0-i] What is it ? ” “[171-anne] [Miss Brown]171-anne always looks very serious , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , affecting indifference . “[171-anne] [She]171-anne has a tragic sort of face even when [she]171-anne is quite happy . It is one of [her]171-anne great peculiarities , and to [me]0-i [her]171-anne charms ; but for some time [I]0-i could not realise that [she]171-anne was really happy . ” “[171-anne] That ’s not it , ” cried [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , impatiently . “[171-anne] [I]0-i know [Anne]171-anne when [she]171-anne ’s happy and [Anne]171-anne when [she]171-anne ’s unhappy . [She]171-anne does n’t look merely grave and tragic as [she]171-anne used to — [she]171-anne looks perplexed , and pained , and worried ; [she]171-anne ’s not happy in [her]171-anne life . ” “[171-anne] [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” said [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , in [his]353-lewis drawling , clammy voice , fixing [his]353-lewis conquering eyes on [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine with a quiet , insolent smile—“Miss[171-anne] [Brown]171-anne is [a woman]3960-a woman , although [she]171-anne looks like [a goddess]759-a goddess ; and even [goddesses]2789-goddesses , [you]2790-you know , could not help being [women]3959-women too . ” [The Russian]5582-the russian laughed . “[171-anne] Always the fatuity of [these men]2792-these men ! ” [she]171-anne cried , and turned contemptuously on [her]171-anne heel . [Hamlin]145-hamlin did not answer , but a feeling of satisfaction came over [him]145-hamlin . [Anne]171-anne was unhappy ; and in a nature like [hers]171-anne , [he]145-hamlin said to [himself]145-hamlin , love must be unhappiness . But when [he]145-hamlin saw [Lewis]353-lewis and [[his]353-lewis cousin]1267-his cousin alone [he]145-hamlin felt annoyed ; and [he]145-hamlin fell upon [their]2792-these men spiritualistic practices with a perfect rabidness of scorn . [Anne]171-anne little knew that [she]171-anne was watched ; [she]171-anne did not care what might or might not be thought of [her]171-anne by [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha , by [Chough]379-hamlin , by [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , by any of [these people whom [she]171-anne despised]6070-these people whom she despised ; and as to [Hamlin]379-hamlin , an instinct told [her]171-anne that [he]379-hamlin would never guess what it was that troubled [her]171-anne . So [Anne]171-anne kept [her]171-anne pain to [herself]171-anne ; but sometimes the despair of being thus enslaved became too strong for endurance , and [she]171-anne longed for [some one to whom to confide it]6071-some one to whom to confide it . Every word , every look , every piece of attention , every show of indifference on [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s part , seemed to mean the same thing : that [he]379-hamlin expected [her]171-anne to love [him]379-hamlin — everything seemed to allude and point to that . [The only women with whom [she]171-anne was at all really intimate]6072-the only women with whom she was at all really intimate were [the Leighs]327-the leighs ; but [Anne]171-anne could not say a word to [them]6072-the only women with whom she was at all really intimate , could not ask [their]6072-the only women with whom she was at all really intimate advice . [She]171-anne could never , [she]171-anne thought , make [either of [these girls]1402-these girls]6073-either of these girls enter into [her]171-anne situation , comprehend [her]171-anne feelings , make [her]171-anne understand that [she]171-anne was not ungrateful , and that [Hamlin]379-hamlin was not ungenerous . Yet [she]171-anne felt the terrible need of [some one]1380-some one to counsel [her]171-anne — to take some of the frightful responsibility either of ingratitude or of degradation from off [her]171-anne — to show [her]171-anne either how to get out of the situation , or how to submit to it . [Such a person there]6076-such a person there was — [a person who might help [her]171-anne , who might even understand [her]171-anne]6077-a person who might help her , who might even understand her ; but something told [Anne]171-anne that [she]171-anne must not have recourse to [him]379-hamlin , to [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Dick]379-hamlin . Perhaps it was vanity , perhaps a knowledge that [Richard Brown]223-richard brown would triumph over this miserable ending to what [he]223-richard brown had always opposed ; a fear lest [he]223-richard brown might misunderstand [Hamlin]379-hamlin , and bespatter what was the one beautiful thing in [his]223-richard brown life — [his]223-richard brown raising up of [Anne]171-anne . For it was a curious point that , contemptible as [Hamlin]379-hamlin had become to [Anne]171-anne , and unworthy in [her]171-anne own eyes of [her]171-anne love , [she]171-anne could not endure the idea of [any one else]1701-any one else understanding this , of [any one else]1701-any one else attacking [Hamlin]379-hamlin . None of [them]6081-them , [she]171-anne felt , could understand what [Hamlin]379-hamlin had done for [her]171-anne ; what [he]379-hamlin had been — nay , what , as a beloved piece of the past , [he]379-hamlin still was — to [her]171-anne ; only [she]171-anne could measure what [she]171-anne owed to [him]379-hamlin , and only [she]171-anne , therefore , might weigh the bad in [him]379-hamlin against the good . For even when [she]171-anne was most overcome with the sense of the moral prison which was closing round [her]171-anne , to cripple [her]171-anne life and break [her]171-anne spirit , [Anne]171-anne could not wish that the past had been otherwise — that [she]171-anne had never met [Hamlin]379-hamlin , never contracted a debt towards [him]379-hamlin , never loved [him]379-hamlin . Bleak and dark as might be the present , [she]171-anne would not ever have given up that past,—that sudden flaming up of [her]171-anne life , that one spell of hope and trustfulness , and admiration and love , which must serve [her]171-anne for all [her]171-anne existence : to have had that was always sweet , to have been given it was always a reason for gratitude . Moreover , [Anne]171-anne could not now contemplate what [she]171-anne would have been had [she]171-anne never met [Hamlin]379-hamlin . To [her]171-anne stern and idealising nature , to have remained without knowledge , without responsibility , without sympathy , without sense of right or wrong , morally only half developed , only half alive , as [she]171-anne had been during [her]171-anne earlier girlhood , was unendurable . [She]171-anne would not , for all the pain and humiliation which it might cost [her]171-anne , have forfeited the finer fibre , the clearer vision which had shown [her]171-anne that [she]171-anne was indebted therefor to [a man whom [she]171-anne despised]6082-a man whom she despised . No ; [she]171-anne could not , even in thought , relinquish the past . But what of the future ? The question laid hold of [Anne]171-anne ’s mind , and for some weeks rode it like [an incubus]6083-an incubus . How many of [us]6084-us have thus let a hopeless problem get hold of [our]6084-us whole nature , and make it move , day after day , week after week , in the frightful treadmill of its vicious circle ? Every night [Anne]171-anne lay down to sleep with [her]171-anne doubts half solved , [her]171-anne mind half made up , only to wake up the next day with all [her]171-anne doubts reinforced and all [her]171-anne resolutions scattered . Such a condition is not due to weakness or indecision of character ; nay , it is probably only [the earnest minds , the most capable of serious decisions , who can thus go on living in suspense , resisting the temptation of a decision , enduring the monotonous recurrence of a struggle of motives and of thought]6085-the earnest minds , the most capable of serious decisions , who can thus go on living in suspense , resisting the temptation of a decision , enduring the monotonous recurrence of a struggle of motives and of thought ; it is the effort , this frightful mental instability , at retaining moral life where life would easily be extinguished ; it is the weary tramp up and down with cold cramped limbs of [the prisoner who knows that were [he]6086-the prisoner who knows that were he to stop to stop]6086-the prisoner who knows that were he to stop , were [he]6086-the prisoner who knows that were he to stop to lie down , [he]6086-the prisoner who knows that were he to stop would have rest , but also death . Almost unintentionally [Anne]171-anne kept asking [herself]171-anne what steps [she]171-anne could take to be free . [She]171-anne used , in moments of weakness and weariness of heart , to go over schemes of independence , to indulge in day‐dreams of self‐supporting liberty . [She]171-anne who , a few months ago , had dreamed of raising [the lower classes]4974-the lower classes , of spreading higher knowledge and ideals among [them]4974-the lower classes , of awakening [the more fortunate parts of society]6088-the more fortunate parts of society to [their]6088-the more fortunate parts of society sense of responsibility,—she whose whole energy had been taken up in silent projects for bettering , no matter how little , [the world]496-the world , bettering [the poor]5668-the poor by making [them]5668-the poor think and enjoy , bettering [the rich]6091-the rich by making [them]5668-the poor feel ; giving [the shop‐girls of [the Women]6093-the women ’s]6092-the shop‐girls of the women ’s Club a glimpse into the world of imagination , and giving [Hamlin]379-hamlin a glimpse into the world of reality,—she was now thinking of how [she]171-anne might earn [her]171-anne bread , how [she]171-anne might live as [a teacher]4134-a teacher or [a governess]2497-a governess . Talking with [the Leighs]5461-the leighs and [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin , [she]171-anne used shyly , and with a desire to deceive very foreign to [her]171-anne , to put questions , seemingly purely abstract , as to what [a poor girl with a certain amount of education]6098-a poor girl with a certain amount of education could best do — as to what was required of [a schoolmistress]5337-a schoolmistress or [a governess]2497-a governess . And , while telling [herself]171-anne that it was all useless — that [she]171-anne was bound by the past , however much [she]171-anne might try and cut [herself]171-anne loose from the present — [Anne]171-anne mechanically gave [her]171-anne time to studying , no longer to be more worthy of [Hamlin]379-hamlin , or more useful in [the world]496-the world , but to enable [herself]171-anne to gain a livelihood if . . . Ah ! well , when [she]171-anne asked [herself]171-anne plainly what that “[171-anne] if ” meant , [she]171-anne had to answer that [she]171-anne scarcely knew : if [the slave‐owner]6102-the slave‐owner should say to [[his]6102-the slave‐owner slave]4402-his slave , “[171-anne] Go — [I]0-i am tired of [you]2793-you ; ” if [the man who had bought the precious statue or picture]6104-the man who had bought the precious statue or picture should weary of it and wish to exchange it . And [Anne]171-anne had to admit to [herself]171-anne that [Hamlin]379-hamlin was not [the man to feel or act like this]6105-the man to feel or act like this . Nay sometimes , when [she]171-anne had indulged in a day‐dream of freedom — when [she]171-anne had let [herself]171-anne go to the vain belief that [Hamlin]379-hamlin would one day awaken to the sense that [this woman]5573-this woman was not [his]379-hamlin ideal , as [she]171-anne had awakened to the sense that [he]379-hamlin was not [hers]5573-this woman — when [she]171-anne had worked out the details of [her]171-anne half‐starving life of independence , [her]171-anne return to [her]171-anne old drudgery ( but with a freer spirit ) , [her]171-anne hard struggle as [a teacher of [little children]6108-little children]6107-a teacher of little children , or [a shop‐girl]6109-a shop‐girl , or at best [a schoolmistress,—the recollection of the past]6110-a schoolmistress,—the recollection of the past would suddenly overpower [her]171-anne — the recollection of what [she]171-anne had been , what [she]171-anne had hoped — the recollection of [her]171-anne love of that debt which [she]171-anne was now devising a means of paying off,—and poor [Anne]171-anne would burst into tears . But that debt , [she]171-anne felt , could not be paid off . [She]171-anne might support [herself]171-anne in the future , but how could [she]171-anne get rid of the past ? If [she]171-anne lived on dry bread for the rest of [her]171-anne life , [Hamlin]379-hamlin would still have done for [her]171-anne what [she]171-anne believed that [no other man]1078-no other man had ever done for [a woman]3960-a woman ; if [she]171-anne could save up every penny of earnings and place before [him]379-hamlin all that [he]379-hamlin had ever spent for [her]171-anne education , would it not be the basest , vilest mockery and cheat , and could [she]171-anne repay the love which [he]379-hamlin had felt , the trustfulness which [he]379-hamlin had shown ? Repay it [she]171-anne never could ; for love and trustfulness [she]171-anne could not give in return ; and [she]171-anne must ever remain in [his]379-hamlin debt , remain [his]379-hamlin to do [his]379-hamlin bidding . And yet at times the question arose in [her]171-anne , What right had [she]171-anne to pay a debt at the price of [her]171-anne honour ? To become [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife when [she]171-anne did not love [him]379-hamlin , to pretend love which [she]171-anne did not feel , this was in [Anne]171-anne ’s eyes , measured by [her]171-anne stern measure of right and wrong , a prostitution ; and could it be honourable to let [herself]171-anne be dishonoured ? But [Anne]171-anne cast this thought behind [her]171-anne ; [Hamlin]379-hamlin , by binding only [himself]379-hamlin and leaving [her]171-anne free , had by [his]379-hamlin chivalrous generosity really bound [her]171-anne ; if to possess [her]171-anne , and as much of [her]171-anne life and love as [she]171-anne could give , would make [Hamlin]379-hamlin happy , [he]379-hamlin had a right to it . The strain , [Anne]171-anne felt , was becoming too much for [her]171-anne ; this question of [her]171-anne own future , of [her]171-anne own dignity and undignity , was swallowing up [her]171-anne whole nature , neither more nor less than the nature of [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [[his]379-hamlin friend]696-his friend was swallowed up by [their]6115-their æsthetical feelings . [Anne]171-anne recognised , with terror , that [she]171-anne was deteriorating ; that [she]171-anne was beginning to care nothing for [others]4163-others in this preoccupation about [herself]171-anne ; and that such a thing should happen — that [she]171-anne too should lose [her]171-anne more generous feelings — was a greater degradation than any other which could come over [her]171-anne . This shame and this misfortune alone it was in [her]171-anne power to prevent , and [she]171-anne determined to prevent it . [She]171-anne did [her]171-anne best to put aside all questions of [her]171-anne own future , to accustom [herself]171-anne to wait for what might happen , what [she]171-anne might be summoned to do , and [she]171-anne threw [herself]171-anne with more ardour than ever ( trying to escape from the contamination , not merely , as before , of the selfishness of [others]4163-others , but of [her]171-anne own ) into such studies and questions as concerned wider interests than [her]171-anne own . [Anne]171-anne ’s earnest nature , lacking the happy faculty of being absorbed by present feelings , had always been very subject to a dull moral pain at the evil in [the world]496-the world , storms from the great Sahara of misery which would lower over [her]171-anne own oasis of happiness , clogging its atmosphere and blighting its greenness . But now [her]171-anne efforts not to brood over [her]171-anne own unhappiness , resulted merely in [her]171-anne brooding almost unceasingly over the unhappiness of [others]4163-others . And gradually , to the sense of the misery of [the world]496-the world , became superadded the terrible sense of the injustice of [that world]6121-that world ’s arrangements : from being indignant with the callousness of [men]4644-men , [Anne]171-anne became indignant , with the same cold and sombre indignation , at the callousness of [God]195-god . [She]171-anne felt [herself]171-anne alone , isolated , separated not only from [the men and women surrounding [her]171-anne]6123-the men and women surrounding her , but separated in spirit from the whole scheme of things . And to [her]171-anne , the greater part of whose life was in [her]171-anne aspirations , this gradual removal of anything to which to aspire , this gradual destruction of [every ideal with which to sympathise , such a condition of moral loneliness]6124-every ideal with which to sympathise , such a condition of moral loneliness was , as [Anne]171-anne once said to [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin , worse than death . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had somehow , that day , been more sympathising with [Anne]171-anne than usual . Had [she]171-anne not been too much engrossed , [she]171-anne might have noticed that [he]223-richard brown watched [her]171-anne face , listened to [her]171-anne words , not merely now with gentleness and friendliness , but with a kind of suppressed admiration and wonder . “[0-i] Nothing is so bad as death , ” answered [Richard]223-richard brown ; “[0-i] because , once dead , [we]2794-we can no longer feel , [we]2794-we can no longer judge , or sympathise , or strive . ” [Anne]171-anne looked up from the frock which [she]171-anne was making for one of the little Choughs , whose wardrobe was getting into a lamentable condition . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t mean that [we]2794-we are so useful when [we]2794-we are dead , but [we]2794-we are less unhappy . [You]2795-you talk of feeling , and sympathising , and judging , and striving : what can [we]2794-we feel , and sympathise with , and judge , except the miserableness of [men]4644-men , and [their]4644-men weakness and badness , and the horrible arrangement of [the world]496-the world which makes [them]4644-men such ? and after what can [we]2794-we strive , except vainly to release [ourselves]2794-we from that abominable order of [the world]496-the world ? ” [Richard Brown]223-richard brown looked at [Anne]171-anne for a moment in silence . [He]223-richard brown was [a singularly unæsthetic man]6126-a singularly unæsthetic man , and confusing beauty with mere utility , [he]223-richard brown had never well understood the beauty which [artistic people]1852-artistic people chose to see in this strange , uncommon , sombre face , so unlike that of [any one else]1701-any one else , and which seemed to have no prototype either in [man]1134-man or [woman]2081-woman . But now [he]223-richard brown felt that [Anne]171-anne was beautiful , and very beautiful . “[2799-all mankind] [All mankind]2799-all mankind is gradually releasing itself from what [you]2800-you call this evil arrangement of [the world]496-the world , ” [he]223-richard brown answered ; “[2800-you] or rather , the very perception that such an arrangement is evil is teaching mankind,—I mean all that much of [mankind which makes the rest]2802-mankind which makes the rest move on , to rearrange [the world]496-the world , and out of the bad to make the good . ” [Anne]171-anne shrugged [her]171-anne shoulders contemptuously . “[2800-you] Why was the arrangement made if it was evil ? ” [she]171-anne asked . “[2800-you] Because , ” said [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin , watching [her]171-anne face as [he]223-richard brown let [his]223-richard brown words drop—“because[2800-you] there was no sense of good and evil at the beginning ; because it is only [man who has conceived that the pleasure of others]2804-man who has conceived that the pleasure of others is good , and the pain of [others]4163-others is evil ; and because , therefore , [only man]2806-only man can be expected to reorganise [the world]496-the world so that the good of [others]4163-others be sought and the evil of [others]4163-others avoided . It is only [man]1134-man living with [men]4644-men , and feeling [their]4644-men miseries in [his]1134-man own , and [their]4644-men happiness in [his]1134-man own , who can be anxious for justice and impatient of injustice . How can [you]2812-you expect it of nature ? ” [Anne]171-anne did not answer , but remained for a moment with [her]171-anne hands folded over [her]171-anne work , looking out of the window . Outside there was only yellow fog , and leafless spectral branches ; yet [her]171-anne onyx‐grey eyes opened slowly , as if [she]171-anne were taking in some faint but glorious vision . “[2812-you] What right have [you]2812-you to expect such feelings except from [men]4644-men and [women]3959-women ? ” went on [Brown]171-anne ; “[3874-the gods] [the gods]3874-the gods , [you]2812-you know , have other things to do . [I]0-i suppose , ” [he]6132-he added bitterly , “[0-i] that [they]3874-the gods had a godlike life like [[their]3874-the gods representatives]2816-their representatives , [the poets]1623-the poets and [artists]1500-artists , on [earth]2819-earth , creating only for [their]3874-the gods amusement , and keeping every disagreeable sight , or sound , or feeling , or suspicion away from [them]3874-the gods . ” [Anne]171-anne was accustomed to such hits at [Hamlin]144-hamlin ; they were too true to be refuted , and too spiteful to be accepted ; and now [she]171-anne was too much absorbed to notice any of them . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t know exactly what [you]0-i are driving at , [Dick]379-hamlin , ” [she]0-i said . “[379-hamlin] [I]0-i do n’t understand [your]0-i theory about [man]1134-man and [God]195-god , and right and wrong ; it is misty to [me]0-i . But still it seems — [I]0-i do n’t know how — as if , could [I]0-i only understand it , it would make a great difference to [me]0-i . ” “[195-god] It must make a great difference to [every honest person]2821-every honest person . [You]0-i have no religion , [Anne]171-anne . ” “[171-anne] No . [I]0-i thought religion was all bosh ; merely a sort of silly pretty delusion , like love and all that ; ” and [Anne]171-anne thought bitterly how [her]171-anne own only religion , [her]171-anne love for [Hamlin]379-hamlin , [her]171-anne desire to become worthy of [his]379-hamlin goodness , had lamentably betrayed [her]171-anne . “[0-i] Without religion life is death , ” said [Brown]171-anne , with [his]379-hamlin positivistic solemnity . [Anne]171-anne looked at [him]379-hamlin contemptuously ; [she]171-anne had so often heard [people]577-people talk solemnly like that . Did not [Hamlin]379-hamlin talk in that way about the religion of beauty , and Dennistoun about the religion of love , by which [he]379-hamlin meant lust ? “[0-i] It is all very fine ; but [I]0-i do n’t much believe in religions . There is nothing worth worshipping ; all is fetish , at best half silver and half clay . ” “[0-i] [You]0-i do n’t believe in any religion , [Anne]171-anne , because [you]0-i have never tried to find one . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i have looked in the Gospel , and in the ‘ Imitation of Christ , ’ and in [my]0-i own heart , [Dick]379-hamlin ; and what [I]0-i have found there is ignored in the scheme on which [the world]496-the world is made ; because [I]0-i have read there of love and justice and mercy , and [I]0-i have not found the love and justice and mercy which presided over creation . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i told [you]0-i that [the world]496-the world was not made by [man]1134-man , and that it is [man who has conceived good and evil]2825-man who has conceived good and evil . [I]0-i always told [you]0-i , [Anne]171-anne , that it was a great pity that [you]0-i should read only books upon details of science , like political economy and so forth , and refuse to get general ideas of what is and what is not the belief of [our]2826-our age . ” “[0-i] Detail knowledge — [I]0-i mean knowledge of political economy and physiology and so forth — is useful ; it can be applied , it can serve to make [people]577-people a little less wretched . What is the use of [your]0-i general ideas ? Oh , [I]0-i know ; the religion of truth , the worship of ideas , & c. , & c. [I]0-i do n’t see that it is a bit nobler to worship truth than to worship beauty ; [your]0-i religion of science is only another form of selfish æstheticism : [[your]0-i friends]1635-your friends hanker after knowledge , as [[my]0-i friends]1822-my friends hanker after beautiful pictures , and music , and poetry , and [women]3959-women ; and as [[my]0-i people]2831-my people dignify [their]2831-my people appetites with the name of religion of beauty , so do [yours]0-i sanctify [theirs]2831-my people as the worship of truth . All that merely makes [the world]496-the world more cold and black in [my]0-i eyes . ” “[0-i] These general ideas , ” answered [Brown]171-anne , “[0-i] are what prevent [me]0-i from being as wretched as [you]0-i are . Do [you]0-i call that useless ? ” “[0-i] That is just what [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin says about beauty , and [Chough]379-hamlin about the Eternal Feminine . But [I]0-i do n’t see that [the world]496-the world gains by this devotion . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i know nothing of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s or [Chough]379-hamlin ’s opinions , ” interrupted [Brown]171-anne , impatiently ; “[0-i] but [I]0-i know that if [you]0-i permit [yourself]0-i to continue in this kind of pessimism [you]0-i will enervate [your]0-i soul , [Anne]171-anne . It seems very noble and austere , and all that sort of bosh ; but there is just the same fascination in it as there is in any morbid excitement , and just the same debasement of [the individual]2834-the individual in indulging therein . ” [His]379-hamlin words seemed to go through [Anne]171-anne . Was [she]171-anne becoming selfish , weak , self‐indulgent ? The terror of it sickened [her]171-anne . And was everything , however noble it seemed — love , beauty , nay , even [her]171-anne indignation at [the world]496-the world ’s evil — only a snare ? “[0-i] Will [you]0-i teach [me]0-i , [Dick]379-hamlin ? ” [she]0-i said , after a moment . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t much believe in [your]0-i religion — positivism , [I]0-i suppose it is — for all religions seem to [me]0-i to turn out , oh , so empty , after promising so much . But if [you]0-i will tell [me]0-i , or give [me]0-i books to read , [you]0-i know [I]0-i will do [my]0-i best to understand . ” “[0-i] [You]2835-you are [a noble girl]2836-a noble girl , [Anne]171-anne , ” said [Brown]171-anne half audibly , fixing [his]379-hamlin eyes on [Anne]171-anne ’s . “[2836-a noble girl] [I]0-i did not think there was [a woman so strong , and truthful]2837-a woman so strong , and truthful , and fair‐minded as [you]2835-you — well — in [the whole world]4244-the whole world . ” “[0-i] [You]0-i always think [people]577-people base , [Dick]379-hamlin , ” [she]171-anne answered sadly . “[0-i] It is a wretched mistake , but not so bad a one for [yourself]0-i as always to think [them]577-people noble . ” [Richard Brown]223-richard brown lent [Anne]171-anne a number of books , and [he]379-hamlin often came of an evening when [Hamlin]379-hamlin was gone to [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s spiritual séances]6135-madame elaguine ’s spiritual séances ( for despite [his]379-hamlin scepticism [he]379-hamlin found [himself]379-hamlin attracted by the mysticism with which [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis had easily infected [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin ) , and talked [them]577-people over with [her]1267-his cousin . [He]379-hamlin took [her]171-anne also to hear the lectures of [a friend of [his]379-hamlin]6137-a friend of his , [a red‐haired young man of genius , dying of consumption , who had for truth and righteousness a passion such as other men]6138-a red‐haired young man of genius , dying of consumption , who had for truth and righteousness a passion such as other men may have for sport , and who was [the chief preacher of the secular and scientific religion with which [Brown]223-richard brown was imbued , and with which [he]223-richard brown was seeking to imbue [Anne]171-anne]6139-the chief preacher of the secular and scientific religion with which brown was imbued , and with which he was seeking to imbue anne . [Anne]171-anne was not so quick in being converted as [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin had expected ; [she]171-anne was slow of thought , and [her]171-anne earnestness , [her]171-anne honesty , perhaps also a painful remembrance of so many other deluded hopes , made [her]171-anne sceptical . But , little by little , [Anne]171-anne was converted ; and , as [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin had foretold , [she]171-anne was happier . [The world]496-the world and its contradictions became simpler in [her]171-anne eyes , and [she]171-anne became once more confident of good . Moreover , what [Brown]171-anne never guessed , [her]171-anne new faith in the triumph of right , [her]171-anne new belief in the necessity of doing [one]620-one ’s duty for the sake of [mankind]5019-mankind and of progress , had at once given [her]171-anne a more serene determination to accomplish [her]171-anne duty towards [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; and , what was more important , it had taken away [her]171-anne thoughts a little from [her]171-anne own position of impotence and isolation and probable degradation . And perhaps , unconsciously also to [Anne]171-anne , [she]171-anne felt less isolated now : [she]171-anne felt as if in [this rough , brutal , vain philanthropist]6145-this rough , brutal , vain philanthropist , who was so honest , for all [his]6145-this rough , brutal , vain philanthropist petty vanity , and who was so desirous of [her]171-anne good , despite all [his]6145-this rough , brutal , vain philanthropist former contemptuousness , [she]171-anne had gained what [she]171-anne had never had , and had yet always vaguely wanted,—some one for [her]171-anne to understand and to understand [her]171-anne , to help and be helped by — not an ideal being to adore as [she]171-anne had adored [Hamlin]379-hamlin , but [a good , wholesome , strong reality whom [she]171-anne could love as [a brother]6147-a brother]6146-a good , wholesome , strong reality whom she could love as a brother . “[0-i] [I]0-i owe a great deal to [you]2840-you , dear old [Dick]379-hamlin , ” [she]0-i said one day , taking [his]2840-you hand ; “[379-hamlin] [I]0-i am so glad [I]0-i would not let [you]2840-you continue to despise [me]0-i . ” [Brown]171-anne flushed , and [his]2840-you cynical smile failed [him]2840-you . “[2840-you] Despise [you]0-i ? Oh [Anne]171-anne , how could [I]0-i — ” [he]2840-you exclaimed . But suddenly [he]2840-you checked [himself]2840-you . END OF THE SECOND VOLUME . WHILE [Anne]171-anne was being indoctrinated with [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin ’s philosophical theories , [Hamlin]379-hamlin had little by little let [himself]379-hamlin be drawn into [the little clique of more mystical and Bohemian pre‐Raphaelites whom [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis had collected round [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine]6149-the little clique of more mystical and bohemian pre‐raphaelites whom edmund lewis had collected round madame elaguine . [The old‐fashioned , long‐established æsthetes , who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in [themselves]6150-the old‐fashioned , long‐established æsthetes , who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in themselves and their kith and kin , and who strangely muddled together the theories of an esoteric school and the prejudice of the untravelled briton and [their]6150-the old‐fashioned , long‐established æsthetes , who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in themselves and their kith and kin , and who strangely muddled together the theories of an esoteric school and the prejudice of the untravelled briton kith and kin , and who strangely muddled together the theories of [an esoteric school]6151-an esoteric school and the prejudice of [the untravelled Briton]6152-the untravelled briton]6150-the old‐fashioned , long‐established æsthetes , who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in themselves and their kith and kin , and who strangely muddled together the theories of an esoteric school and the prejudice of the untravelled briton , decidedly set [their]6150-the old‐fashioned , long‐established æsthetes , who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in themselves and their kith and kin , and who strangely muddled together the theories of an esoteric school and the prejudice of the untravelled briton face against [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . [They]6150-the old‐fashioned , long‐established æsthetes , who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in themselves and their kith and kin , and who strangely muddled together the theories of an esoteric school and the prejudice of the untravelled briton had not liked [Anne Brown]171-anne because [she]171-anne was not sufficiently engaging ; but [they]6150-the old‐fashioned , long‐established æsthetes , who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in themselves and their kith and kin , and who strangely muddled together the theories of an esoteric school and the prejudice of the untravelled briton thoroughly hated [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha because [she]386-sacha was too fascinating . “[2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman] [A nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman , ” said [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , who was [the spokeswoman of the party]6153-the spokeswoman of the party ; “[2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman] [a woman with no sense of responsibility whatever]2842-a woman with no sense of responsibility whatever . Did [you]2843-you hear the way in which [she]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman spoke of [those horrible French painters]2844-those horrible french painters ? That [she]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman actually dared to talk to [papa]3893-papa about that [Monsieur Page]422-monsieur page , vulgar , base creature that [he]422-monsieur page is ! ” And [the older people]6154-the older people , and [the women of the æsthetic world]6155-the women of the æsthetic world — [the spinsters with dishevelled locks and overflowing hearts]6156-the spinsters with dishevelled locks and overflowing hearts , who kept little garlanded lamps before the photographs of [puny English painters and booted and red‐shirted American poets]6157-puny english painters and booted and red‐shirted american poets , all agreed with [her]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman . But [the younger men]6158-the younger men merely laughed , and neglected [the solemn , smut‐engrained parlours of [Bloomsbury]82-bloomsbury]6159-the solemn , smut‐engrained parlours of bloomsbury , [the chilly , ascetic studios of [Hampstead]83-hampstead]6160-the chilly , ascetic studios of hampstead , for [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s curious , disorderly , charming house in [Kensington]114-kensington]6161-madame elaguine ’s curious , disorderly , charming house in kensington — [the house patched up with old lodging‐house]6162-the house patched up with old lodging‐house furniture and all manner of Eastern stuffs and brocades , crowded with [a woman]3960-a woman ’s nick‐nacks , strewn with French novels and poems , and redolent of cigarettes and Russian perfumes . For there was in [this delicate , nervous little creature]6164-this delicate , nervous little creature , eaten up with love of excitement , something which acted as a spell upon [most men]2506-most men ; and it was curious to see how [she]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman managed to make [them]2506-most men all in love with [her]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman , and at the same time excite no jealousy . “[2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman] Do [you]2846-you think [Circe]177-circe ’s pigs were jealous of [each other]594-each other ? ” asked [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , when this peculiarity was pointed out to [her]288-mrs spencer by [Chough]379-hamlin . “[177-circe] Reduce [people]577-people to a certain level , and [they]577-people will be satisfied with equality . ” [Lewis]353-lewis explained it as being due to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s magnetic power . Whether [the Russian]413-the russian had been fully converted to [his]353-lewis spiritualistic theories , or , indeed , whether it was possible to make [her]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman believe seriously in anything , it is impossible to say . But [she]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman had caught the spiritualistic infection from [Lewis]353-lewis as a tinder catches fire . Nothing in [the world]496-the world could suit [her]0-i better : spiritualism appealed to [her]0-i love of excitement and mystery , to an idealistic and mystical strain which made [her]0-i hanker after strange supersensuous contacts and occult affinities ; moreover , if ever there was [a woman of whom one might believe that [she]0-i could vibrate with disembodied passion , and come in contact with [an uncorporeal world]6168-an uncorporeal world]6167-a woman of whom one might believe that she could vibrate with disembodied passion , and come in contact with an uncorporeal world , it was [this emaciated , nervous , hysterical creature , who lived off coffee and cigarettes , and lived , as it seemed]6169-this emaciated , nervous , hysterical creature , who lived off coffee and cigarettes , and lived , as it seemed , only with [her]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman restless mind , and not at all with [her]2841-a nasty , ignorant , frivolous little woman frail , incapable body . “[0-i] [I]0-i feel sometimes , ” [she]0-i would say to [[her]0-i friends]1459-her friends , “[0-i] as if [I]0-i mixed with the living as smoke mingles with air — seeing [them]2849-them move before [me]0-i , but unable to clutch them or be clutched by [them]2849-them , coming in contact only with [their]2849-them passions . [I]0-i feel as if [I]0-i could more easily live with the dead — mix more easily with [them]2849-them . It is terrible . [I]0-i sometimes fancy that [I]0-i shall fall in love with [some dead creature]2850-some dead creature , and [my]0-i life be sucked away by him,”—and [she]0-i gave a little shudder . [Cosmo Chough]248-chough listened spell‐bound with admiration , twisting and untwisting [his]6171-his long black whiskers . What [a woman]3960-a woman was this ! And [he]6171-his ruminated over a new chapter of [his]6171-his Triumph of Womanhood , of which [Sacha Elaguine—“Sacha]423-sacha[0-i] quite short , ” as [she]423-sacha bade [[her]423-sacha friends]1459-her friends call [her]423-sacha — should be [the heroine]1997-the heroine . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis smiled [his]353-lewis sensual lazy smile , which [one]620-one knew that [he]353-lewis imagined to be the prototype of the cruel and lustful mysterious smile of [the men]4543-the men and [women]3959-women , and creatures neither one nor the other or both , who came from beneath [his]353-lewis fantastic pencil . “[0-i] Has it never occurred to [you]2851-you , ” [he]353-lewis said , in [his]353-lewis luscious voice , stooping over [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s chair , “[0-i] that [you]2851-you may rather be a dead creature [yourself]2851-you — [a vampire]2293-a vampire come to suck out [some one]1380-some one ’s life‐blood ? ” “[2293-a vampire] Confound that [Lewis]353-lewis ! ” thought [Chough]248-chough . “[353-lewis] Why must such ideas occur to [him]353-lewis , [a mere damned painter]2854-a mere damned painter , and not to [me]0-i , who am [a poet]498-a poet ? ” and [he]353-lewis made a note of [the vampire]6178-the vampire . [Hamlin]379-hamlin was standing by , smoking [his]379-hamlin cigarette sullenly . [He]379-hamlin did not like these sort of liberties which [Lewis]353-lewis took with [[his]353-lewis cousin]1267-his cousin ; [he]353-lewis had even of late warned [her]1267-his cousin that , although [[his]353-lewis friend]696-his friend was [an excellent fellow]6181-an excellent fellow , too great intimacy with [him]696-his friend might prove disagreeable to [her]1267-his cousin . “[498-a poet] What a carrion‐feeding fancy [you]353-lewis have , [Lewis]353-lewis ! ” [he]353-lewis exclaimed , frowning . “[353-lewis] [One]620-one would think [you]353-lewis lived on corpses , in order to be more in harmony with those beasts of spirits of [yours]353-lewis . ” [Lewis]353-lewis laughed triumphantly ; but [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , to [his]353-lewis amazement , cut [him]353-lewis short by saying — “[353-lewis] [Your]353-lewis idea may be very amusing , [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis ; but [I]0-i do n’t think it is exactly the style of thing for [a man]503-a man to say to [a woman]3960-a woman . ” [Lewis]353-lewis , who was never abashed , merely raised [his]353-lewis eyebrows . “[0-i] [I]0-i thought [you]353-lewis were superior to [your]353-lewis sex , ” [he]353-lewis answered . “[0-i] If [Lewis]353-lewis dare to talk to [you]353-lewis like that , ” whispered [Hamlin]379-hamlin to [Sacha]423-sacha , “[353-lewis] [I]0-i shall horsewhip [him]353-lewis one of these days . ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine pressed [his]353-lewis fingers in [her]360-madame elaguine little hot hand . “[353-lewis] [You]353-lewis are good , ” [she]360-madame elaguine answered , in what was like the buzz of a gnat , but infinitely caressing ; “[353-lewis] but poor [Lewis]353-lewis means no harm : [he]353-lewis is very bon enfant . [You]353-lewis are too pure and proud to understand [other men]1485-other men . Ah , [Anne]171-anne is [a happy woman]2860-a happy woman ! ” The last words were scarcely more than a little sigh to [herself]171-anne ; but [Hamlin]379-hamlin caught them , and reddened . “[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne is very cold , ” [he]353-lewis said briefly ; then added , as if to justify [himself]353-lewis in [his]353-lewis own eyes—“I[171-anne] suppose all very passionate natures are . ” [Sacha]423-sacha shook [her]423-sacha little thin childish head . “[171-anne] Oh no — not all . ” [Miss Brown]171-anne went but rarely to [the house of [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin]6182-the house of hamlin ’s cousin . [She]171-anne was extremely sorry for [the poor little woman]6184-the poor little woman ’s misfortunes ; and asking [herself]171-anne what [she]171-anne would have been had [she]171-anne had [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s past , [she]171-anne often admired how [the Russian]5582-the russian had kept [her]6184-the poor little woman independence and self‐respect , and serenity and cheerfulness . Yet , while [she]171-anne believed [herself]171-anne fully to appreciate [Sacha]423-sacha , and invariably defended [her]423-sacha against the jealous prudery of [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer and [[her]288-mrs spencer clique]6186-her clique , [Anne]171-anne somehow felt no desire to see much of [her]423-sacha . [She]171-anne set it down to [her]171-anne own narrowness and coldness of temper . “[171-anne] [I]0-i am too one‐sided to have [friends]4095-friends , ” [she]0-i used to say to [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh ; “[0-i] [I]0-i feel that [I]0-i do n’t do justice enough to [people]577-people , however much [I]0-i try , and that [my]0-i heart does not go out to meet [them]577-people enough . [I]0-i think [I]0-i would do [my]0-i best for [them]577-people ; but [I]0-i ca n’t love [them]577-people or be loved . ” [Poor Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh was silent . [Anne]171-anne — [this beautiful noble , distant , somewhat inscrutable [Anne]171-anne]6187-this beautiful noble , distant , somewhat inscrutable anne — was [the idol of [the enthusiastic Irish girl]6189-the enthusiastic irish girl]6188-the idol of the enthusiastic irish girl . [She]171-anne had often longed to tell [her]2863-her so ; [she]171-anne longed , at this moment , to put [her]171-anne arms round [Anne]171-anne ’s neck , and say quite quietly—“I[2863-her] love [you]2863-her , [Anne]171-anne ; ” but [she]171-anne had not the courage . How much may this sort of cowardice , called reticence , cheat [people]577-people of ? The knowledge that there is a loving heart near one , that there is [a creature whom [one]620-one can trust]6191-a creature whom one can trust , that [the world]496-the world is not a desert,—all this might be given , but is not . And the other regrets , perhaps throughout life , that word which remained unspoken , that kiss which remained ungiven , and would have been as the draught of water to [the wearied traveller]6194-the wearied traveller . Anyhow [Anne]171-anne , while thinking that [she]171-anne liked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , somehow did not care to see much of [her]360-madame elaguine . What [she]171-anne could do for [her]360-madame elaguine [she]171-anne did willingly . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine wanted [the child]660-the child to learn English , but made a fuss about letting [her]660-the child have [a governess]2497-a governess . “[171-anne] [[My]0-i child]2725-my child ’s mind must be [my]0-i own mind , ” [she]0-i said . But as [she]171-anne went on grieving at [little Helen]415-helen ’s ignorance , and [her]171-anne own incapacity , from want of schooling and want of strength , to teach [her]660-the child , [Anne]171-anne offered to teach [the child]660-the child together with [the little Chough girls , who were still [[her]171-anne pupils]5338-her pupils]6198-the little chough girls , who were still her pupils . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was rapturously grateful ; but [Helen]415-helen was so completely spoilt , that [she]415-helen could be brought to [Anne]171-anne only when [she]171-anne fancied it [herself]171-anne , and [Anne]171-anne found [her]415-helen so demoralised that [she]171-anne really did not like to bring [her]415-helen in contact with [the Choughs]367-the little choughs . “[0-i] When [poor little Helen]415-helen is ten , then [you]2865-you must moralise [her]415-helen , ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine would say ; and [Helen]415-helen was within week of being ten , and [Anne]171-anne , much as [she]171-anne disliked asking [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine anything , urged that [she]171-anne should begin to be taught . Moreover , [Anne]171-anne ’s time was too much taken up reading under [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s directions , and [her]171-anne thoughts were too much preoccupied to make [her]171-anne feel at all sociable , even had [she]171-anne not felt an instinctive repugnance to the sort of company , headed by [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , which [she]171-anne knew [she]171-anne would meet at [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s . However , one evening [she]171-anne could not refuse [Sacha]423-sacha ’s invitation , more especially as [the latter]6200-the latter , evidently to please [Anne]171-anne , had invited [[her]171-anne friends]1459-her friends [the two Leighs]6202-the two leighs . It was a grand spiritualistic séance . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was in great excitement , and [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis was radiant . But [Hamlin]379-hamlin looked bored and pressed . “[2865-you] [I]0-i hate all this vulgar twaddle of spiritualism , ” [he]379-hamlin said impatiently to [Anne]171-anne . [Anne]171-anne loathed it : the triviality disgusted [her]171-anne , the giving up of [one]620-one ’s will to [another]5884-another revolted [her]171-anne , and [she]171-anne could not understand how [a woman]3960-a woman could endure to be handled and breathed upon by [a man like [Lewis]353-lewis]6206-a man like lewis . [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh was half excited and half amused ; [Marjory]249-marjory , [the strong‐minded scoffer]6207-the strong‐minded scoffer , had determined to unmask some sort of trickery . The séance , to which [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis had brought [a famous professional medium]6208-a famous professional medium , was very much like any other séance : [a darkened room]6209-a darkened room , a company of [people partly excited , partly bored]6210-people partly excited , partly bored ; expectation , disappointment , faith , incredulity ; moving of tables and rapping , faint music , half visible hands . “[0-i] The whole boxful , machinery complete , all the newest tricks , eighteenpence , ” as [little Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly fiippantly remarked to [Anne]171-anne . How could [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine have patience with such rubbish ? wondered [Miss Brown]171-anne . What excitement could [that excitement‐loving little woman]6211-that excitement‐loving little woman , with a real mystery in [her]6211-that excitement‐loving little woman own life , find in all this stale shibboleth ? “[2866-you] [You]2866-you ca n’t think what a strange , delightful sensation [I]0-i have at these moments , ” said [Sacha]423-sacha to [Hamlin]379-hamlin , as [her]0-i little soft hand touched [his]379-hamlin . “[0-i] [I]0-i seem to feel the whole current of [your]2866-you life streaming through [me]0-i , and mingling with [mine]0-i . It is like an additional sense . Do [you]2866-you understand that , [Anne]171-anne ? ” “[2866-you] No , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , briefly . “[2866-you] [I]0-i feel [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s fingers touching [mine]0-i , and that ’s all . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin somehow admired [Anne]171-anne ’s answer ; [he]145-hamlin was glad it was so,—had [she]171-anne felt like [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , something would have spoilt in an ideal of [his]145-hamlin ; and yet [Anne]171-anne ’s coldness annoyed [him]145-hamlin . “[145-hamlin] [The spirits]2867-the spirits are reluctant ; there are too many sceptics in [the room]574-the room , ” said [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , angrily . “[2867-the spirits] Great as is the power of some of [us]2869-us — as , for instance , of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine — [I]0-i feel that there is something acting as a non‐conductor,—some very chilly nature here . ” But nevertheless , when [the company]1514-the company was giving up the séance as spoilt , mysterious sounds were heard , and something luminous , which was immediately identified as a pair of spirit‐hands , was seen to float over the table . “[424-spirit‐hands] [Spirit‐hands]424-spirit‐hands ! ” whispered [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . “[424-spirit‐hands] Wash‐leather gloves painted over with luminous paint , ” whispered [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly . “[424-spirit‐hands] A wreath ! ” whispered [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . Something round , like a wreath , did seem to float , supported by [the spirit‐hands]6214-the spirit‐hands . [Some]5035-some said it was oak , others cypress , others myrtle ; but it soon became apparent that it was bay . “[424-spirit‐hands] For [Hamlin]145-hamlin ! ” whispered [the guests]4917-the guests to [each other]594-each other . The wreath floated unsteadily over the heads of [the party]1060-the party ; but , as it passed [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , [that evil‐minded young materialist]6219-that evil‐minded young materialist quickly snatched at it , but it was whisked away by the indignant spirits . There was a murmur of indignation ; but indignation turned into triumph when suddenly the wreath reappeared , and hovered for two good minutes over [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s head . There was a cry of admiration , and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine clapped [her]360-madame elaguine hands . But [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory struck a light , and lit the candle by [her]249-marjory side . [She]249-marjory could see faintly [the excited faces all round]6220-the excited faces all round , and among [them]6220-the excited faces all round the pale face of [Anne Brown]171-anne , scornful and angry , fixed upon that of [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who was flushed , hesitating , surprised . “[0-i] [I]0-i am glad [the spirits]2867-the spirits have such good taste in poetry , ” said [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , quietly ; “[0-i] but it is a pity that [they]2867-the spirits should not have crowned [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , like [Petrarch]425-petrarch and [Corinne]426-corinne , with real laurels . ” And [she]0-i stretched out something in the palm of [her]0-i hand . [Every one]4712-every one crowded round , and took it up by turns . It was a leaf , torn and broken , of green laurel which [she]0-i had pulled off when the crown had passed over [her]0-i ; but the green laurels were masses of stamped paper , and left a green stain in the hand . “[2867-the spirits] It does smack a little of a French pensionnat de demoiselles distribution of prizes ; [you]2871-you will get the little book dorésur tranches , ‘ Avec l’approbation de Monseigneur l’Archevêque de [Tours]119-tours , ’ and ‘ Prix décerné à M. [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin , ’ written inside , at the next séance , ” cried [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly . “[145-hamlin] Well , it is consoling to see how [[our]2872-our beloved dead]2873-our beloved dead keep up the simple habits of the living . ” There was a titter . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine burst out laughing . [Hamlin]145-hamlin laughed , but [he]145-hamlin looked black as thunder . “[2874-you] [You]2874-you brought that piece of green paper with [you]2874-you ! ” cried [Lewis]353-lewis furiously at [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory . “[2874-you] [You]2874-you brought it to insult and delude [us]2872-our ! It is disgraceful . ” “[0-i] [[My]0-i dear]4237-my dear [Lewis]353-lewis , ” said [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly , gently , “[0-i] remember that [you]353-lewis are still [a gentleman]662-a gentleman , and [not yet a spirit]2877-not yet a spirit . ” “[662-a gentleman] Had [I]0-i known that there was to be any crowning , [I]0-i should certainly have brought something better than paper laurels , ” said [Marjory]249-marjory , fiercely . “[0-i] [I]0-i never thought [spirits]2878-spirits were reduced to such expedients as these . ” The séance came to an end . The lamps were lit . [The medium]6222-the medium dismissed with considerable contumely . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis went away in a huff ; and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , who cared in spiritualism only for those strange thrills which [she]360-madame elaguine had before described , laughed a great deal about the matter , and settled down to make music with [Cosmo Chough]248-chough . [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked as if [he]145-hamlin wished [himself]145-hamlin a thousand miles away . [He]145-hamlin would speak with [no one]3899-no one ; [he]145-hamlin was angry with [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin for having let [him]145-hamlin in for such a ridiculous scene , and angry with [the rest of [the company]1514-the company]5457-the rest of the company for having witnessed it ; [he]145-hamlin had no command over [his]145-hamlin looks ; and while [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s curious , warm , childish voice throbbed passionately through [Schumann]242-schumann ’s songs , or while [people]577-people took [their]577-people tea and talked , [he]145-hamlin sat aside , in the doorway of [the next room]3870-the next room , like [a whipped child]6229-a whipped child . “[2878-spirits] What [a baby]2747-a baby [Walter]145-hamlin is ! ” whispered [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , laughing , to [Chough]248-chough . But [Anne]171-anne did not laugh . [She]171-anne felt the humiliation not of the paper laurels , but of that radiant look which [she]171-anne had seen in [Hamlin]145-hamlin when the lights had first been lit . And [she]171-anne was indignant with [Hamlin]145-hamlin for taking this ridiculous business so tragically , and at the same time sorry for [his]145-hamlin poor , wounded , unsympathised‐with vanity . [She]171-anne left the piano , where [she]171-anne had been sitting near [Sacha]423-sacha , and went to [him]145-hamlin where [he]145-hamlin sat disconsolately looking over a heap of newspapers in [the next room]3870-the next room . [She]171-anne did not allude to the scene . What use was it chiding [him]145-hamlin ? [He]145-hamlin could never understand . [She]171-anne talked to [him]145-hamlin about the picture which [he]145-hamlin was painting , about [the people]871-the people , anything to make [him]145-hamlin feel that [she]171-anne was sorry for [him]145-hamlin . [Hamlin]145-hamlin was bitter against [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends ; [he]145-hamlin began once more [his]145-hamlin tirades against modern art and poetry , its lifelessness and weakness ; [he]145-hamlin again declared [himself]145-hamlin longing for a different life ; [he]145-hamlin again , passionately and delicately , called upon [Anne]171-anne , in [his]145-hamlin veiled way , to redeem [him]145-hamlin . [Anne]171-anne listened sadly . [She]171-anne knew it all so well by heart , this vain talk which was to be the daily bread of [her]171-anne soul . Suddenly [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s eye fell upon [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , who was seated talking with [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly in the recess of a window . “[2878-spirits] [I]0-i wonder [you]2880-you can endure [that girl]3982-that girl , [Miss Brown]171-anne ! ” [he]145-hamlin cried , “[2878-spirits] much less make [her]3982-that girl [[your]2880-you friend]4335-your friend . ” “[249-marjory] [Marjory]249-marjory may sometimes be rude , and it was perhaps not very good manners to interrupt the séance as [she]249-marjory did , although [I]0-i quite sympathise with [her]249-marjory ; but [she]249-marjory is [a capital girl]2883-a capital girl , and just [one of the most trustworthy persons [I]0-i know]2884-one of the most trustworthy persons i know . ” “[249-marjory] [She]249-marjory is [a humbug]2885-a humbug ! ” exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin , crossly and violently . “[249-marjory] Does n’t [she]249-marjory set up for philanthropy , and self‐sacrifice , and all that ? and then [she]249-marjory goes to parties dressed in that way — a fit beginning for [the wife of [an East End curate]2887-an east end curate]2886-the wife of an east end curate , for [a man like [Harry Collett]376-harry collett]2888-a man like harry collett ! ” “[249-marjory] [Marjory]249-marjory ’s dress does not cost more than [Harry Collett]376-harry collett ’s coats , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , quietly . “[249-marjory] [[You]2889-you men]2890-you men never understand such things , and think because [a girl]4122-a girl ’s dress is showy that it is expensive . Of course [Marjory]249-marjory does n’t wear æsthetic things , and it would be absurd if [she]249-marjory did ; but [I]0-i happen to know that [she]249-marjory made that particular dress entirely with [her]249-marjory own hands . ” “[249-marjory] [I]0-i know nothing about the dress , except that [a wife of [Harry Collett]376-harry collett ’s]2892-a wife of harry collett ’s should not go about like a peacock . But [I]0-i do know , ” cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , fiercely , “[0-i] that it is disgraceful for [a girl engaged to marry]2893-a girl engaged to marry , and to marry [a man like [Harry]376-harry collett]2894-a man like harry , to sit the whole evening in a corner , letting [a jackanapes like [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly]2895-a jackanapes like o’reilly make love to [her]249-marjory . ” “[295-o’reilly] [Marjory]249-marjory has been sitting with [Mr O’Reilly]2896-mr o’reilly only about ten minutes , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , indignantly , “[249-marjory] and [she]249-marjory has known [him]2896-mr o’reilly ever since [they]2897-they were [babies]2746-babies . [I]0-i think it is too ridiculous if [a girl]4122-a girl ca n’t talk to [a young man at a party]2900-a young man at a party without being treated as if [she]4122-a girl were committing an infidelity . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t say that [any other girl]2901-any other girl talking to [any other young man]2902-any other young man is to blame , ” said [Hamlin]145-hamlin , still hotly ; “[0-i] but [I]0-i say that [a woman who can let [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly flirt with [her]2903-a woman who can let o’reilly flirt with her throughout the evening throughout the evening]2903-a woman who can let o’reilly flirt with her throughout the evening is [no wife for [Collett]376-harry collett]2904-no wife for collett ; and [I]0-i have a good mind to write and tell [him]2896-mr o’reilly so , ” and [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked dignified . [Anne]171-anne did not answer at first . [She]171-anne was filled with contempt for [this vain childish ill‐humour]6233-this vain childish ill‐humour , which was taking the proportions of rabid hatred . “[0-i] [Marjory]249-marjory is [[my]0-i friend]2593-my friend , ” [she]0-i at last said , “[249-marjory] and [I]0-i think that the less [you]0-i talk such nonsense as about writing to [Mr Collett]427-mr collett , the better . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i will , upon [my]0-i word ! ” exclaimed [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[0-i] [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory is [a friend of [yours]0-i]2906-a friend of yours , but [she]249-marjory is [an infamous flirt all the same]2907-an infamous flirt all the same ! ” “[249-marjory] Why does [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin glare at [me]0-i like that ? ” asked [Marjory of Anne]428-anne a little later . “[145-hamlin] [One]620-one would think it was [my]0-i fault that [the spirits]2867-the spirits crowned [him]427-mr collett with paper laurels and not with bay‐leaves . ” [ANNE]428-anne had forgotten all about the séance , when , about a week later , [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh arrived at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith in a state of extreme excitement . “[2867-the spirits] What is the matter , [Mary]324-mary leigh ? ” asked [Anne]428-anne , wondering at [her]324-mary leigh flushed face , which was usually so quiet . “[324-mary leigh] Nothing — nothing , ” said [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , looking impatiently at [some visitors who were present]6234-some visitors who were present . “[324-mary leigh] [I]0-i spoilt two copper plates this morning , and shall have no etchings worth exhibiting . [I]0-i suppose that has put [me]0-i out of sorts . ” But [the visitors]5424-the visitors had scarcely turned [their]5424-the visitors backs , when [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh turned suddenly towards [Miss Brown]171-anne . “[0-i] Oh [Anne]171-anne dear , a dreadful , shameful thing has happened ! and [I]0-i have come to [you]171-anne to know what it means , because [I]0-i ca n’t help thinking that [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has had something to do with it , and poor [Marjory]249-marjory is so miserable . ” “[249-marjory] What is it ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , a vague terror coming over [her]171-anne . “[249-marjory] Why , [Marjory]249-marjory got this letter to‐day from [Harry Collett]376-harry collett ; [he]145-hamlin has been staying with [[his]145-hamlin mother]5488-his mother at [Wotton]94-wotton for the last week . Read it , and [you]171-anne will understand . ” [Miss Brown]171-anne took the letter , evidently much pulled about and read and re‐read , from [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , and smoothed it out and read it slowly ; while [[her]171-anne friend]6236-her friend sat by , looking anxiously at [her]171-anne face . The letter was from [Marjory]249-marjory ’s intended . [Harry Collett]376-harry collett told [her]171-anne , with a dignity and gentleness , a desire not to hurt [the one who had hurt [him]145-hamlin]6237-the one who had hurt him , and an incapacity of hiding [his]145-hamlin great pain , which nearly made [Anne]171-anne cry , that [his]145-hamlin eyes had at length been opened to the undesirableness of a marriage which , however much wished for by [him]145-hamlin , could not satisfy all the claims of a nature [llke Marjory]249-marjory ’s . “[171-anne] Much as [I]0-i have looked forward to [our]2911-our marriage , ” wrote [poor Harry]376-harry collett , “[0-i] [I]0-i could not possibly be happy if [I]0-i suspected that it did not give [you]2912-you everything which [you]2912-you have a right to require from life . [I]0-i thank [God]195-god for having sent [me]0-i a warning in time , for having let [me]0-i understand what [your]2912-you generosity and [my]0-i infatuation would have hidden to [me]0-i — namely , that [your]2912-you thoughts have , despite [your]2912-you will , turned elsewhere ; that [your]2912-you nature requires a life of greater cheerfulness and variety than [I]0-i could hope to give it . And , indeed , [I]0-i am beginning also to understand that [I]0-i was trying to reconcile the irreconcilable — that [a man who has elected a life among the poor]2913-a man who has elected a life among the poor , has no right to share [its]2914-its privations with [any one]4101-any one , much less with [any one dear to [him]2913-a man who has elected a life among the poor]2916-any one dear to him ; and [I]0-i see that [I]0-i was on the verge of committing the sin of sacrificing [your]2912-you happiness to [my]0-i vocation , or rather to [my]0-i unmanly desire to have the hardness of [my]0-i vocation sweetened at [your]2912-you expense . Please do not fancy that [I]0-i think at all badly of [you]2912-you ; [I]0-i think badly only of [my]0-i own blindness . ” But [the poor curate]6238-the poor curate ’s angelic nature could not resist the temptation of a fling at [[his]6238-the poor curate supposed rival]6239-his supposed rival . “[0-i] [I]0-i am only surprised — but [my]0-i surprise may be due to [my]0-i ignorance , ” [he]6238-the poor curate added , “[0-i] at [the person who engrosses [your]2912-you thoughts]2917-the person who engrosses your thoughts . [I]0-i should never have thought [you]2912-you could seriously care for [a shallow creature like [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly]2918-a shallow creature like o’reilly . [I]0-i wish [you]2912-you to be happy , but [I]0-i fear [you]2912-you will not be solidly happy with [him]2918-a shallow creature like o’reilly . ” “[0-i] Do [you]2912-you understand ? ” cried [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , impatiently ; “[1380-some one] [some one]1380-some one has written to [Harry]376-harry collett some horrid lies about [Marjory]249-marjory and [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly . Oh , [I]0-i think it is too shameful ! [Marjory]249-marjory , who has not seen [Thaddy O’Reilly]284-thaddy o’reilly more than twice in the last six months ; and , ” added [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , with an agony in [her]0-i voice , “[249-marjory] [I]0-i fear — oh , [I]0-i fear — [Anne]171-anne , that it must have been [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin who did it . ” [Anne]171-anne did not look up from the letter . [She]171-anne was very white , and [her]171-anne face full of shame . “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i fear it must , ” [she]171-anne answered , half audibly . “[145-hamlin] But what is the meaning of it ? ” cried [Mary]324-mary leigh . “[171-anne] What can [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin know about the matter ? Why , [he]145-hamlin scarcely ever sees [Marjory]249-marjory . [I]0-i do n’t believe [he]145-hamlin had seen [her]249-marjory for nearly six weeks before that party at [Madame Elaguine ’s]360-madame elaguine . Oh , [Anne]171-anne , do [you]171-anne think it is [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , [that horrid little Russian]2920-that horrid little russian , who did it ? ” “[360-madame elaguine] Oh no , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , quickly , “[360-madame elaguine] [I]0-i know [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha has not done it ; [I]0-i do n’t believe [she]386-sacha is capable of doing it . ” “[386-sacha] Then [you]171-anne think ? . . . ” “[171-anne] [I]0-i fear — [I]0-i fear [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin did it . ” There was a dead silence . Poor [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh was torn by [her]324-mary leigh indignation for [[her]324-mary leigh sister]603-her sister , and [her]324-mary leigh pain at the shame cast upon [her]324-mary leigh admired [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and through [him]145-hamlin upon [her]324-mary leigh adored [Anne]171-anne . “[145-hamlin] What can [I]0-i do ? If only [I]0-i knew the grounds of the accusation , ” [she]0-i said desperately , “[0-i] [I]0-i know [I]0-i could explain [them]2921-them away to [Harry]376-harry collett . [I]0-i know that [Marjory]249-marjory could , but [she]249-marjory wo n’t . ” “[249-marjory] Has [Marjory]249-marjory not answered [Mr Collett]427-mr collett ? ” [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh shook [her]324-mary leigh head . “[249-marjory] [Marjory]249-marjory is too proud and self‐willed . [She]249-marjory is disgusted with [Harry]376-harry collett . [She]249-marjory wo n’t hear [his]427-mr collett name mentioned ; it is useless . Oh , it is dreadful to see people who care for [each other]594-each other so much separated in this way , by a mere vile groundless calumny , which one can not even refute . ” [Anne]171-anne passed [her]171-anne hand across [her]171-anne forehead . “[145-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has done it , ” [she]171-anne said slowly , and with an effort , “[145-hamlin] and [he]145-hamlin must undo it . ” “[145-hamlin] How can one make [him]145-hamlin undo such a thing ? ” cried [Mary]324-mary leigh , hopelessly . “[0-i] [I]0-i will tell [him]145-hamlin that [he]145-hamlin was wrong , and make [him]145-hamlin write to [Harry Collett]376-harry collett . ” “[145-hamlin] Oh [Annie]171-anne dear , [you]171-anne are good”—and [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh threw [herself]324-mary leigh on [Anne]171-anne ’s neck—“for[171-anne] [I]0-i know how dreadful , how terrible it must be for [you]171-anne to tell [him]145-hamlin that [he]145-hamlin has acted badly . ” “[171-anne] It is not the first time , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , mournfully . “[171-anne] Leave [me]0-i the letter , will [you]171-anne , [Mary]324-mary leigh dear ? ” [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh left the letter with [Miss Brown]171-anne ; and that evening , as [Anne]171-anne was sitting with [Hamlin]145-hamlin after dinner , [she]171-anne suddenly dashed into the subject . “[171-anne] Do [you]171-anne remember saying , the other night , at [[your]171-anne cousin]4341-your cousin ’s , that [you]171-anne would write to [Harry Collett]376-harry collett about the flirtation which [you]171-anne took it upon [yourself]171-anne to imagine between [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory and [Mr O’Reilly]2924-mr o’reilly ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne . [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked puzzled . “[0-i] [I]0-i remember something or other , ” [he]145-hamlin said evasively . “[0-i] Did [you]171-anne write to [Harry Collett]376-harry collett ? ” “[171-anne] [I]0-i had occasion to write to [Collett]376-harry collett about some books [I]0-i had left at [Wotton]94-wotton , and which [I]0-i wanted [him]2924-mr o’reilly to bring up to [town]821-town on [his]2924-mr o’reilly return . ” “[0-i] But did [you]171-anne mention about [Marjory]249-marjory and [Mr O’Reilly]2926-mr o’reilly ? ” “[171-anne] [I]0-i may have”—Hamlin spoke [absently—“yes]429-absently—“yes[171-anne] , [I]0-i suppose [I]0-i did . What of it ? ” “[171-anne] What of it ? ” cried [Anne]171-anne , indignantly ; “[171-anne] why , this much , that [you]171-anne have made [two people]2927-two people perfectly miserable , and that [Marjory]249-marjory ’s marriage with [Mr Collett]427-mr collett is broken off , ” and [she]171-anne handed [him]427-mr collett the letter . [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked at it with an air of puzzled indifference . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t understand what it ’s all about , ” [he]427-mr collett said , coolly and serenely , returning the letter to [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] Then [you]171-anne did not say anything about [Marjory]249-marjory to [Mr Collett]427-mr collett ? ” “[171-anne] Yes — [I]0-i did — [I]0-i certainly think [I]0-i did . [I]0-i ca n’t exactly remember what it was . [You]171-anne know how [one]620-one writes letters ; [one]620-one forgets the next day . ” [Anne]171-anne looked at [him]427-mr collett with wonder . So after having , momentarily at least , made [two people]2927-two people as unhappy as was well possible , this was how [he]427-mr collett took the revelation of the results of [his]427-mr collett doings . “[145-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” said [Anne]171-anne , sternly , “[145-hamlin] [you]145-hamlin know that [you]145-hamlin never believed that [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory was really flirting with [O’Reilly]295-o’reilly ; and [you]145-hamlin know that [you]145-hamlin wrote to [Harry Collett]376-harry collett , and made [him]145-hamlin believe that [she]249-marjory cared for [another man]4053-another man . ” “[145-hamlin] [I]0-i do n’t know anything about [Miss Leigh]332-miss leigh ’s doings . [I]0-i remember noticing [her]249-marjory talking very assiduously that evening with [Thaddy]284-thaddy o’reilly . Perhaps it was all fancy of [mine]0-i ; [I]0-i have no doubt it was . [I]0-i just mentioned it to [Collett]376-harry collett as [I]0-i might mention anything else . [I]0-i never dreamed that it would annoy [him]145-hamlin . ” “[0-i] [You]0-i thought it would merely annoy [her]249-marjory ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , reproachfully . “[0-i] [I]0-i really know nothing about the matter . [I]0-i ’m not responsible for what [I]0-i may have thought or written a week ago , much less for all these complications , which [I]0-i never dreamed of . ” “[0-i] Did [you]0-i suppose , then , that [Harry Collett]376-harry collett would be utterly indifferent to being given to understand that [Marjory]249-marjory cared for [another man]4053-another man , and was not [the fit wife]2932-the fit wife for [an East End curate]2887-an east end curate , as [you]0-i expressed it ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t know . [I]0-i wrote , and thought no more about it . If [they]2934-they have gone and quarrelled about it , [I]0-i ’m very sorry — and that ’s all [I]0-i can say . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s tone was bored and slightly impatient . [He]145-hamlin had evidently not the smallest shame or regret for what [he]145-hamlin had done . “[0-i] Since [you]0-i are sorry — since [you]0-i did write that to [Collett]376-harry collett , ” said [Anne]171-anne , trying to speak as gently as [possible—“you]6242-possible—“you[0-i] will , [I]0-i trust , do what [you]0-i can to repair this mischief . [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory is too indignant with [Harry]376-harry collett to answer [him]2935-him at all . Will [you]0-i write to [him]2935-him and tell [him]2935-him that it was all a mistake — all owing to [your]0-i having been annoyed with [Marjory]249-marjory on account of that laurel crown business — and that there was no foundation for all [you]0-i said ? [You]0-i will make amends , wo n’t [you]0-i ? Do write at once . ” [Hamlin]145-hamlin had risen from [his]145-hamlin seat , and [his]145-hamlin face had taken a curious obstinate look . “[0-i] [I]0-i ’m very sorry [I]0-i ca n’t obey [you]0-i , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” [he]145-hamlin said , “[171-anne] but it appears to [me]0-i that [you]0-i wish [me]0-i to write [myself]0-i down [a liar]2201-a liar . If [these people]2323-these people choose to fall out because of a word of mine , [I]0-i see no reason to apologise . It is [their]2323-these people concern , not [mine]0-i . ” “[0-i] Was it [your]0-i concern to write to [Collett]376-harry collett , then ? Was it [your]0-i concern to take such a responsibility ? ” “[0-i] [Every one]4712-every one may write whatever passes through [his]4712-every one head . [I]0-i thought [Miss Leigh]332-miss leigh a flirt last week ; [I]0-i do n’t now . As to responsibilities , [I]0-i repudiate such things . ” “[0-i] [No one]3899-no one can repudiate such things , ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[3899-no one] [You]0-i have done mischief , and with a few strokes of the pen [you]0-i can repair it . Oh , [you]0-i must write , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin — [you]0-i must . ” “[145-hamlin] If [I]0-i write , ” answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin , hotly , “[0-i] [I]0-i shall just tell [Collett]376-harry collett that [I]0-i do think [Miss Leigh]332-miss leigh a flirt . [I]0-i can not refuse to write , but [I]0-i refuse to eat [my]0-i words . Have [you]376-harry collett paper and a pen ? ” [He]145-hamlin had gone to [Anne]171-anne ’s writing‐table . [Anne]171-anne put [her]171-anne arm over it . “[376-harry collett] [You]376-harry collett have told a falsehood once , [you]376-harry collett shall not tell it twice , ” [she]171-anne said . “[376-harry collett] [I]0-i said that merely to show [you]376-harry collett how impossible [your]376-harry collett request was . After all , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear [Miss Brown]171-anne , [a man]503-a man does owe something to [himself]503-a man and to [his]503-a man name , and there is such a thing as proper pride . ” “[171-anne] Is there ? ” answered [Anne]171-anne , and the words were like drops of freezing water . “[0-i] [I]0-i thought , ” [she]171-anne added , the remembrance of what [he]503-a man had answered when [she]171-anne had entreated [him]503-a man not to slander [himself]503-a man in those sonnets “[0-i] Desire , ” “[2942-your school] that [[your]376-harry collett school]2942-your school considered it legitimate for [a man]503-a man to say that [he]503-a man had committed no matter what baseness , even those which [he]503-a man had not . But [I]0-i see , ” and [Anne]171-anne ’s indignation blazed up , “[0-i] that [you]376-harry collett want sometimes to be considered wicked , but that [you]376-harry collett succeed only in being mean . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i think that is a little hard upon [me]0-i , ” [he]503-a man answered mournfully and bitterly , and left [the room]574-the room . [He]503-a man was thinking of all [he]503-a man had done for [Anne]171-anne — all that [he]503-a man had done and left undone . [Anne]171-anne remained seated , looking into the fire , for some moments . Then [she]171-anne went to [her]171-anne desk and took paper and an envelope . “[0-i] [DEAR MR COLLETT]427-mr collett , ” [she]171-anne wrote slowly , “[427-mr collett] [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh has just shown [me]0-i [your]427-mr collett letter to [Marjory]249-marjory , which has greatly shocked and grieved [me]0-i . As [I]0-i know that [the person who misled [you]427-mr collett about [Marjory]249-marjory and [Mr O’Reilly , between whom there has never been a shadow of a flirtation]2945-mr o’reilly , between whom there has never been a shadow of a flirtation]2944-the person who misled you about marjory and mr o’reilly , between whom there has never been a shadow of a flirtation , is [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , [I]0-i feel bound to tell [you]427-mr collett , not only that to [my]0-i knowledge [Marjory]249-marjory has not seen [Mr O’Reilly]2946-mr o’reilly except once since [your]427-mr collett departure ; but also , as having been present on the occasion of the supposed flirtation , that [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin imagined the flirtation , and wrote to [you]427-mr collett about it merely because [he]145-hamlin was in an ill temper , and because [Marjory]249-marjory had annoyed [him]145-hamlin that evening by detecting a fraud in the spiritualistic séance in which [we]2947-we were engaged . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has [himself]145-hamlin just told [me]0-i that [he]145-hamlin does not any longer believe in the flirtation , and had no notion of creating any mischief . So , as [he]145-hamlin is not writing to [you]427-mr collett [himself]145-hamlin , [I]0-i feel bound to tell [you]427-mr collett the real state of affairs , and [I]0-i trust [you]427-mr collett will immediately let [Marjory]249-marjory know that [your]427-mr collett suspicions were groundless , as [she]249-marjory is very unhappy , and indignant with [your]427-mr collett letter.—Believe [me]0-i , dear [Mr Collett]427-mr collett , [yours]427-mr collett sincerely , [ANNE BROWN]171-anne . ” [Anne]171-anne stopped several times in course of writing , and read and re‐read [her]171-anne letter . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had refused to make amends ; well , [she]171-anne must make them for [him]145-hamlin : the matter was simple , and it was [Anne]171-anne ’s character , whenever [she]171-anne saw the right course , to take it without hesitation , however painful to [her]171-anne . Like [many very honest and firm people]6244-many very honest and firm people , [she]171-anne had something destructive in [her]171-anne temper ; [she]171-anne could , as [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha had said , sacrifice [herself]171-anne and [others]4163-others with a sort of sullen savage satisfaction . It was a humiliation for [Hamlin]145-hamlin , but [he]145-hamlin had deserved it ; it was a bitter humiliation for [herself]171-anne , but [her]171-anne debt of gratitude towards [Hamlin]145-hamlin forced [her]171-anne to take the consequences of the bad that was in [him]145-hamlin as well as the good . To admit that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had , from [mere womanish ill‐temper]6246-mere womanish ill‐temper , calumniated [a friend]4706-a friend , wantonly and thoughtlessly made two loving natures mistrust [each other]594-each other , and that [he]145-hamlin had then refused to repair the mischief of [his]145-hamlin own making,—this was intolerably bitter to [Anne]171-anne ; still it had to be done . [She]171-anne put the letter on the hall table , and bade [the servant]4647-the servant post it without delay . Then [she]171-anne felt the full ignominy of the matter ; and [her]171-anne whole nature recoiled from [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s . Nay , it did not recoil ; there was no reality to shrink from . [Anne]171-anne no longer felt horror as [she]171-anne had done when [he]145-hamlin had given [her]171-anne that poem about [Cold Fremley]380-cold fremley ; [she]171-anne rccognised that [his]145-hamlin fault was negative , that [his]145-hamlin moral evil was moral nullity — the utter incapacity in [this man]1239-this man , who had acted so chivalrously towards [her]171-anne , of perceiving when [he]145-hamlin was doing a mean thing . And the thought that [she]171-anne would be chained for ever to the side of [a man whose whole nature was merely æsthetic , who was wholly without moral nerves or moral muscles]6251-a man whose whole nature was merely æsthetic , who was wholly without moral nerves or moral muscles , filled [her]171-anne with despair . The next day , [Hamlin]145-hamlin sent word that [he]145-hamlin had to go and see some pictures at [Oxford]101-oxford , and would be away for two days . [Anne]171-anne felt a vague hope that [he]145-hamlin was ashamed of [himself]145-hamlin . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine called , and with [her]360-madame elaguine came [Cosmo Chough]248-chough . The conversation , to [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s annoyance , turned upon the spiritualistic séance of the previous week . “[171-anne] What [a fool]4435-a fool [Walter]145-hamlin is ! ” exclaimed [Sacha]386-sacha . “[4435-a fool] Fancy [his]145-hamlin moping in a corner because the spirits crowned [him]145-hamlin with paper laurels ! [I]0-i ca n’t understand [a man]503-a man not having more brass , not putting a better face on things . But [Walter]145-hamlin is [a curious creature]2950-a curious creature : in many respects [he]145-hamlin is not [a man]503-a man but [a child]623-a child . [He]145-hamlin has seen a great deal of life , and yet in many things [he]145-hamlin is like [a girl of fifteen]2953-a girl of fifteen . ” “[145-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” said [Anne]171-anne , evasively , “[145-hamlin] has an essentially artistic nature ; the realities of [the world]496-the world do n’t appeal much to [him]145-hamlin . ” “[145-hamlin] Unless [an artist]3956-an artist feel the realities of [the world]496-the world , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , eating some of the petals of the roses that were at [her]360-madame elaguine elbow , “[145-hamlin] [his]145-hamlin art will be very thin . Life must stain [the artist]2957-the artist with its colours , or [his]145-hamlin art will be tintless . ” [Anne]171-anne had often said those same words to [herself]171-anne ; yet somehow [she]171-anne knew that in [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha ’s mouth they had a different meaning ; and [she]171-anne felt it , when , with [her]171-anne curious , half‐childlike , and yet infinitely conscious smile , [she]171-anne turned to [Chough]248-chough . “[145-hamlin] Do n’t [you]145-hamlin think so , [Signor Cosmo]430-signor cosmo ? ” [Cosmo Chough]248-chough pretended that [he]145-hamlin understood , as [he]145-hamlin always did , whenever [he]145-hamlin thought that passion and the Eternal Feminine were in question ; [he]145-hamlin tightened [his]145-hamlin black moustachioed lips into a long grimace , and bowed in deferential agreement . “[145-hamlin] Of course , ” said [the little man]4944-the little man , sticking [his]4944-the little man single eye‐glass in [his]4944-the little man eye , “[145-hamlin] [we]2958-we all know that [[our]2958-we friend]2959-our friend [Hamlin]145-hamlin will never get out of life all that perfume , that narcotic and bitter‐sweet fiavour , which [some other men]2960-some other men taste , to be poisoned for ever , with [their]2960-some other men first mouthful of honey . [Hamlin]145-hamlin is , in some respects , a little more and a little less than [a man]503-a man . ” “[503-a man] A goose , in short , ” laughed [Sacha]386-sacha . “[503-a man] [He]145-hamlin is , purely and simply , [an artist]3956-an artist . Passions , senses , all the things which belong to [other men]1485-other men ’s personality , belong to [him]145-hamlin only as factors of [his]145-hamlin art . And this is perhaps not to be regretted , but to be rejoiced in . There is terrible danger of [the artist]2957-the artist being swallowed up by [the man]757-the man . Of [the poets whom [God]195-god sends on [earth]2819-earth]2966-the poets whom god sends on earth , two‐thirds are lost to [mankind]5019-mankind : [their]5019-mankind passions , which should be merely so many means of communication between [their]5019-mankind soul and [the universe]2969-the universe , eat [them]5019-mankind up ; or rather [they]5019-mankind feed [themselves]5019-mankind on what should become [the world]496-the world ’s honey . And even of [those who are not lost entirely]2971-those who are not lost entirely , how many are there not whose lives are engulfed by passions ; to whom , alas ! what [they]5019-mankind sing is but the wretched shadow of what [they]5019-mankind feel ! ” And [Chough]248-chough sighed , and fixed [his]145-hamlin eyes on [his]145-hamlin lacquered boot‐tips , as much as to intimate that [he]145-hamlin , who lived on mutton‐chops and spent [his]145-hamlin life nursing [an epileptic wife]6253-an epileptic wife , was of [that Caliph Vathek kind]6254-that caliph vathek kind . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine laughed ; but [Chough]248-chough thought it was at [Hamlin]145-hamlin , and frowned . “[5019-mankind] Herein lies [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s advantage ; [he]145-hamlin is [the pure artist]2972-the pure artist . And , mark [me]0-i , ” [he]145-hamlin said , looking fiercely around [him]145-hamlin , “[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin is none the worse for that . No , rather the better . [I]0-i know [no man]4317-no man to compare with [Hamlin]145-hamlin as [a mere person]2974-a mere person ; to compare with [him]145-hamlin not merely in genius , but in kindliness of temper , in purity of soul , in delicacy of thoughts . [He]145-hamlin is not merely [a great artist]5804-a great artist , but a work of art ; [he]145-hamlin is like a picture of [Sir Galahad]217-sir galahad vivified , or like [a sonnet of Dante turned into flesh]2976-a sonnet of dante turned into flesh — and [I]0-i think [Miss Brown]171-anne will agree with [me]0-i . ” “[171-anne] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” said [Anne]171-anne , slowly , “[145-hamlin] is [a very generous man]2977-a very generous man and [a very chivalric man]2978-a very chivalric man , and , ” [she]171-anne added , feeling as if [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine were looking into [her]171-anne soul , and as if [she]0-i must read ingratitude written in it , “[0-i] [I]0-i feel that [I]0-i am indebted to [him]145-hamlin not merely for all [he]145-hamlin has done for [me]0-i , but for the way in which [he]145-hamlin has done it — ” “[145-hamlin] Oh no , no ! ” exclaimed [the polite little poet , to whom [Anne]171-anne was quite [the goddess]6256-the goddess]6255-the polite little poet , to whom anne was quite the goddess , “[145-hamlin] do n’t say that , [Miss Brown]171-anne ; [you]171-anne can never owe anything to [any one]4101-any one . Whatever [a man]503-a man can do , is a tribute which [his]503-a man nature forces [him]503-a man to lay down at [[your]171-anne shrine]2981-your shrine . ” “[620-one] Yes , ” mused [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , following out the pattern of the carpet with [her]360-madame elaguine parasol “[620-one] indebted — that is how [one]620-one must feel towards [Walter]145-hamlin — indebted for the pleasure , & c. , & c. , of so charming an acquaintance ; but love — one ca n’t love where there is only artistic instinct to meet one — ” “[0-i] [I]0-i know nothing about such matters , ” said [Anne]171-anne , quietly . “[0-i] But , perhaps — [Hamlin]145-hamlin may be [a sort of child of genius]2983-a sort of child of genius , and the man , [the man who feels may come later]2984-the man who feels may come later , ” finished [the Russian]5582-the russian . “[2984-the man who feels may come later] When [people]577-people do n’t feel , [they]577-people do n’t feel , ” said [Anne]171-anne , sternly ; “[577-people] [I]0-i mean — morally . ” “[577-people] By the way , ” exclaimed [Chough]248-chough , “[577-people] [I]0-i am reading such a delightful book — have [you]0-i ever read it , [Madame Elaguine?—The]431-madame elaguine?—the Letters of [Mademoiselle Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé — ” “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] Who was [Mademoiselle Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne absently , forgetting that experience had taught [her]171-anne that it was safer not to inquire too curiously into [[Mr Chough]248-chough ’s heroines]6258-mr chough ’s heroines . “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] [I]0-i suppose [she]432-mademoiselle aïssé was [some improper lady]2986-some improper lady or other — all [[your]0-i poetic ladies]2987-your poetic ladies were , were n’t [they]2987-your poetic ladies ? ” asked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[2987-your poetic ladies] Something like [[your]0-i Belle Heaulmière , whom [you]0-i insisted on talking about at [poor [Lady Brady]433-lady brady ’s party]2989-poor lady brady ’s party]2988-your belle heaulmière , whom you insisted on talking about at poor lady brady ’s party , although [I]0-i kept making signs to [you]0-i the whole time . ” “[0-i] Improper ? ” exclaimed [Chough]248-chough . “[0-i] [Mademoiselle Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé was the soul of virtue — [the purest woman]2990-the purest woman — of the eighteenth century . ” “[0-i] Tell [us]2991-us about [this purest woman of — the eighteenth century]2992-this purest woman of — the eighteenth century , ” laughed [Sacha]386-sacha . “[2992-this purest woman of — the eighteenth century] [She]432-mademoiselle aïssé was [the daughter of [kings]4166-kings]2993-the daughter of kings ; [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé name was originally [Ayesha]434-ayesha , like [the wife of [the Prophet]2996-the prophet]2995-the wife of the prophet — but [she]432-mademoiselle aïssé became [a slave]2670-a slave , and was sold as [a child]623-a child to [M. de Ferréol]435-m. de ferréol — [I]0-i think that was [his]435-m. de ferréol name — who was ambassador at [Constantinople]121-constantinople . [M. de Ferréol]435-m. de ferréol sent [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé to [[his]435-m. de ferréol sister‐in‐law]2999-his sister‐in‐law in [Paris]42-paris to educate . [Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé grew up [the most refined and accomplished woman,—you]3000-the most refined and accomplished woman,—you should read [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé letters — perfect gems!—and marvellously beautiful . Life was just opening to [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé , and love also , when [M. de Ferréol]435-m. de ferréol returned from [Constantinople]121-constantinople , and said to [this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature : ‘ [You]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature are [[my]0-i slave]3002-my slave ; [I]0-i bought [you]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature , [I]0-i educated [you]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature ; now love [me]0-i . ’ ” [Chough]248-chough paused and looked round [him]435-m. de ferréol to watch the effect of [his]435-m. de ferréol eloquence . But [his]435-m. de ferréol eyes fell upon [Anne]171-anne . [She]171-anne was very white . “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] Well — and what did [Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé answer ? ” asked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] [Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé answered — let [me]0-i see , what did [Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé answer?—oh , [I]0-i should spoil [your]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature pleasure were [I]0-i to tell it [you]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature . [I]0-i will bring [you]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature the book , dear [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , and [you]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature shall tell [me]0-i what [you]3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature think of it . ” [Anne]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne had betrayed [herself]171-anne . To [Sacha]386-sacha , [she]171-anne hoped , [she]171-anne believed not — but to [Chough]248-chough . [The little poet]4698-the little poet , in [his]4698-the little poet trumpery way , was really attached to [Anne]171-anne , whom [he]4698-the little poet considered as [[his]4698-the little poet guardian angel]6260-his guardian angel ; and perhaps [his]4698-the little poet affection had made [him]4698-the little poet understand . “[3001-this exquisite , proud , and pure‐minded creature] What became of [Mademoiselle Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , some time later , as [she]171-anne stood by the piano where [Chough]248-chough was playing . [Chough]248-chough looked up . “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] Oh — why — [she]432-mademoiselle aïssé — in short — afterwards — [she]432-mademoiselle aïssé died . ” “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] Would [you]3003-you like to see the book ? ” asked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; “[3003-you] [I]0-i have some others on hand at present . [Mr Chough]248-chough shall send it to [you]3003-you — ” “[248-chough] Oh no , thank [you]0-i , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , “[0-i] [I]0-i have a heap of books to get through ; and — [I]0-i do n’t care what happened to [Mademoiselle Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé . ” “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] [You]3003-you are very hard‐hearted , [Anne]171-anne . ” “[432-mademoiselle aïssé] [She]432-mademoiselle aïssé would not have objected to [M. de Ferréol]435-m. de ferréol if [she]432-mademoiselle aïssé had remained [a mere little Turkish slave‐girl]3004-a mere little turkish slave‐girl ; [she]432-mademoiselle aïssé would have thought [him]435-m. de ferréol a sort of God . [She]432-mademoiselle aïssé had no business to let [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé education make [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé squeamish . ” “[3005-a nasty old ambassador] [A nasty old ambassador]3005-a nasty old ambassador ! ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “[3005-a nasty old ambassador] [I]0-i think it was awfully hard upon [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé , [poor thing]3006-poor thing ! And was [she]432-mademoiselle aïssé in love with [some one else]1193-some one else , [Mr Chough]248-chough ? ” WHEN [Chough]248-chough first told [her]171-anne the story of [Mademoiselle Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé , it was as if [Anne]171-anne had been suddenly confronted by [her]171-anne own wraith , surrounded by strange and tragic lights ; and the shock was very violent . But [Miss Brown]171-anne was too honest not to see after a minute that between [her]171-anne and [Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé there was an unfathomable difference . [M. de Ferréol]435-m. de ferréol was [a mere experimentalising old roué]6261-a mere experimentalising old roué , who had had [a mistress]6262-a mistress prepared as [he]435-m. de ferréol might have had a goose fattened ; and what [he]435-m. de ferréol claimed of [Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé was [her]432-mademoiselle aïssé infamy . [Anne]171-anne ’s conscience smote [her]171-anne ; [she]171-anne was very ungrateful . And [she]171-anne thought over all those scenes at [the Villa Arnolfini]734-the villa arnolfini , at [Florence]6-florence , nay , here in [England]37-england not so long ago ; [she]171-anne thought of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s generosity and delicacy of mind — of the quixotic way in which [he]145-hamlin had bound [himself]145-hamlin while leaving [her]171-anne free — of the chivalrous way in which [he]145-hamlin had dowered [her]171-anne , making [her]171-anne feel almost as if all this money , which placed [her]171-anne on [his]145-hamlin own level , was [her]171-anne own inheritance , and not [his]145-hamlin charity . [She]171-anne remembered all the respect , which was more of [a brother]6147-a brother than of [a lover]6265-a lover , with which [he]145-hamlin treated [her]171-anne — the constant manner in which [he]145-hamlin hid all [her]171-anne obligations to [him]145-hamlin , never letting any taunt or harsh word of [hers]171-anne get the better of [his]145-hamlin resolution that [Anne]171-anne should feel that [she]171-anne owed nothing to [him]145-hamlin , and that [he]145-hamlin craved for [her]171-anne love as [he]145-hamlin might have done for that of [a queen]6266-a queen . And it came home to [her]171-anne how pure , nay , how poetically and romantically noble was the love which [he]145-hamlin asked for ; and [she]171-anne felt almost wicked when [she]171-anne reflected that what [he]145-hamlin wanted was to make [her]171-anne into the very highest thing which [a man]503-a man can make [a woman]3960-a woman — a sort of [Beatrice]187-beatrice , a creature to love whom will be spiritual redemption . All these things did [Anne]171-anne say to [herself]171-anne ; but it cost [her]171-anne an effort , and the strain could not be kept up . The fact was that [she]171-anne had , in [her]171-anne terror of being unjust , refused to listen to [her]171-anne own plea . But it came back to [her]171-anne like an overwhelming flood . [She]171-anne could not love [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; [her]171-anne soul recoiled from contact with [his]145-hamlin as [her]171-anne body might have recoiled from the forced embrace of a corpse : such a union , it seemed , would mean the death of [her]171-anne own nature . To be [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife , to spend all [her]171-anne life by [his]145-hamlin side , hopelessly watching [his]145-hamlin growing callousness to everything for which [she]171-anne felt born,—to feel one generous impulse after another gradually waxing feebler , one energy after another for good becoming paralysed by the deathly moral chill of [his]145-hamlin utter heartlessness,—was this not much worse than any mere dishonour of the body , this prostitution of the spirit ? [Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé ’s soul at least was free ; [[her]171-anne Ferréol]6270-her ferréol could not deprive [her]171-anne of [her]171-anne moral freedom , [her]171-anne aspirations , [her]171-anne powers of self‐sacrifice ; but with [her]171-anne , [Anne Brown]171-anne , it was different . And [she]171-anne repeated to [herself]171-anne with bitterness the warning words which [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had spoken in vain so long , long ago : “[248-chough] [You]3008-you will be [his]3009-his to do what [he]3009-his chooses ; worse than [[his]3009-his slave]4402-his slave , [his]3009-his mere chattel and plaything . ” How little [Dick]379-hamlin had guessed the much more terrible meaning which these words would come to have for [her]171-anne ! Unconsciously [Anne]171-anne ’s mind reverted to the business of [Marjory]249-marjory and [Harry Collett]376-harry collett ; and [her]171-anne mind ’s eye rested for a moment upon [those two lovers]6271-those two lovers , to each of whom , through whatsoever of discrepancy there might be , [the other]1030-the other represented [his]6273-his or [her]6274-her highest ideal , [that other ’s opinion [his]6273-his or [her]6274-her highest conscience]6275-that other ’s opinion his or her highest conscience ; not passionately in love , like [Othello]436-othello and [Desdemona]437-desdemona , or Romeo and [Juliet]438-juliet , but persuaded to [their]6271-those two lovers inmost soul that in living by [each other]594-each other ’s side , and sympathising with and helping in the other ’s work , each would be fulfilling [his]6273-his or [her]6274-her best destiny in [the world]496-the world . [Another woman]4381-another woman situated like [Anne]171-anne might have let [herself]4381-another woman be tempted into cynicism by unconscious envy ; but this was not within [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s honest , and open‐eyed , and stern nature . [She]171-anne never once said to herself—“Marjory[376-harry collett] and [Harry]376-harry collett will awake one day from [their]3011-their dream . ” [She]171-anne had dreamed , alas ! and had awakened ; but [she]171-anne recognised that [these two]6279-these two were broad awake , and that [their]3011-their happiness was a reality . [Anne]171-anne looked at [these two lovers]6280-these two lovers for a moment , but without any envy or bitterness . It never even entered [her]171-anne mind to covet [their]3011-their happiness , to imagine that [she]171-anne might have a right to anything similar . [Anne]171-anne , though leaning towards socialism in [her]171-anne theories , was not in the least a communistic mind ; [she]171-anne did not ask , “[376-harry collett] Why should [I]0-i not get the same advantages as [[my]0-i neighbours]3012-my neighbours ? ” [She]171-anne envied [no one]3899-no one the prize in the lottery ; [she]171-anne begged only for a chance . To be [the wife of [a man whom [she]171-anne loved , and who loved [her]171-anne]6283-a man whom she loved , and who loved her — to be [the companion and helpmate of some one who was striving after [her]171-anne own ideals]6284-the companion and helpmate of some one who was striving after her own ideals]6282-the wife of a man whom she loved , and who loved her — to be the companion and helpmate of some one who was striving after her own ideals ; such hankerings had never passed through [her]171-anne mind — or , if [they]3011-their had , they had long since been banished . What [Anne]171-anne longed for , what [her]171-anne soul hungered after , was merely negative freedom . Freedom to sympathise and to aspire — to do whatever little [she]171-anne still might to carve [herself]171-anne out a spiritual life of [her]171-anne own , no matter how mean and insignificant ; freedom to live in that portion of [her]171-anne which was most worthy of life . To gain [her]171-anne bread , no matter how harshly ; to be of some use , to teach at [a school]2459-a school or [nurse]713-nurse at [a hospital]6287-a hospital ; nay , to be able merely to encourage [others]4163-others to do what [she]171-anne might not,—this was all that [Anne]171-anne asked ; and this , in [her]171-anne future as [the wife of [Hamlin]379-hamlin]6289-the wife of hamlin , as the queen of this æsthetic world , which seemed to poison and paralyse [her]171-anne soul , was what [she]171-anne knew [she]171-anne could not have , what [she]171-anne knew [she]171-anne must do without . “[0-i] [I]0-i am [a selfish brute]3013-a selfish brute , ” [she]171-anne suddenly said to [herself]171-anne , “[3013-a selfish brute] wasting the time which is still mine,”—and [she]171-anne took down [her]171-anne books of political economy , and tried to fix [her]171-anne attention upon them , and think out a scheme of the lessons and exercises which [she]171-anne would give to [the shop‐girls at [the Working Women ’s Club]5833-the working women ’s club]6290-the shop‐girls at the working women ’s club . But what was the use of doing this ? [Hamlin]379-hamlin , [she]171-anne knew , loathed the notion of [her]171-anne teaching at [the Club]6292-the club ; [he]379-hamlin would never let [her]171-anne teach [there]4426-there ; and , once [[his]379-hamlin wife]700-his wife , [she]171-anne understood [him]379-hamlin sufficiently to be fully aware that [he]379-hamlin would consider [himself]379-hamlin completely empowered to make [her]171-anne do or leave alone whatever [he]379-hamlin chose . Still [Anne]171-anne tried to work on courageously . In the afternoon [she]171-anne went to hear one of [Professor Richmond]439-professor richmond ’s lectures . This was [the fervent young positivist whom [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin so much admired , and whose intense moral convictions had done a good deal to keep [Anne]171-anne out of the slough of desponding pessimism round which [she]171-anne had been some time hovering]6295-the fervent young positivist whom cousin dick so much admired , and whose intense moral convictions had done a good deal to keep anne out of the slough of desponding pessimism round which she had been some time hovering . [Andrew Richmond]440-richmond was [a man who had many slanderers]6296-a man who had many slanderers , many of whom [he]440-richmond has now left behind [him]440-richmond — [their]6297-their misrepresentations having been more long‐lived than [he]440-richmond ; for [he]440-richmond had passed through many phases of thought , and , being perfectly honest , [he]440-richmond had never been able to become unjust to any , and thus had made [enemies]6298-enemies not merely among [the men whose beliefs [he]440-richmond had abandoned]6299-the men whose beliefs he had abandoned , but among [those also whose beliefs [he]440-richmond had accepted without accepting [their]6300-those also whose beliefs he had accepted without accepting their follies follies]6300-those also whose beliefs he had accepted without accepting their follies . [He]440-richmond stood very alone ; and it was perhaps this isolation — this obvious indifference of [the man]757-the man to all save [his]440-richmond own reason and conscience — which added to the solemnity of [his]440-richmond convictions ; and made [him]440-richmond appear , more than [any one else]1701-any one else , in the light of [a priest of morality]6303-a priest of morality , of [a prophet of the advent of justice]6304-a prophet of the advent of justice . [Anne]171-anne had never spoken to [Richmond]440-richmond ; but [she]171-anne felt that , of [all human souls]6305-all human souls , [this one]6306-this one did the most to keep up the courage of [her]171-anne own . This was one of the last discourses which [the poor dying positivist]6307-the poor dying positivist ever delivered ; and it was the more earnest for the sense of [his]440-richmond approaching end . [He]440-richmond spoke this time , or , as [his]440-richmond ridiculers called it , [he]440-richmond preached upon the relation of duty to progress ; upon the value of each good impulse carried out , and each evil one resisted , in making morality more natural and spontaneous in [the world]496-the world ; and [he]440-richmond insisted especially upon the danger , to [people whose ideas of right and wrong rested no longer upon any priestly authority]6309-people whose ideas of right and wrong rested no longer upon any priestly authority , of [the individual]2834-the individual sophisticating [himself]2834-the individual into the belief that in yielding to the preferences of [his]2834-the individual own nature [he]2834-the individual was following the highest law , and that any special usefulness ought legitimately to be bought at the expense of departing from the moral rules of [the world]496-the world . “[0-i] The danger of [our]3014-our epoch of moral transition , ” [he]440-richmond said , “[2834-the individual] lies in the temptation of [the individual]2834-the individual to say to himself—‘If [I]0-i am willing to sacrifice [myself]0-i , have [I]0-i not a right also to sacrifice the established opinions of [others]4163-others ? ’ ” “[0-i] [I]0-i detest [that man Richmond]3017-that man richmond , ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had once said ; “[3017-that man richmond] [he]3017-that man richmond puts an end to all self‐sacrifice . ” “[3017-that man richmond] If [you]3018-you mean the sacrifice of one ’s peace of mind and social dignity to the passion of [another person]3019-another person and to [one]620-one ’s own , [he]3017-that man richmond certainly does , ” [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had answered sternly . At the door of [the lecture‐room]6312-the lecture‐room [Anne]171-anne met [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin . “[3017-that man richmond] Are [you]3018-you driving to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith ? ” [he]1291-her cousin asked . “[3018-you] No ; [I]0-i am going to walk . ” [Anne]171-anne had made it a rule for the last two or three months to deprive [herself]171-anne of all luxuries . [She]171-anne did not wish to enjoy everything that [she]171-anne had a right to ; [she]171-anne had also a stern pleasure in doing the things most repugnant to [her]171-anne ; and a walk through [the [London]4-london streets]6314-the london streets , in murky spring weather , was to [Anne]171-anne ’s Italian temper , nurtured with æsthetic delicacy , one of the most disagreeable of expeditions . “[0-i] But it is drizzling and horribly muddy , ” said [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , looking at [her]171-anne as [he]223-richard brown buttoned [her]171-anne ulster over [her]171-anne massive figure . “[0-i] Surely [Hamlin]379-hamlin will be very much shocked if [you]3018-you come into [the house]509-the house with mud on [your]3018-you shoes ? But if [you]3018-you are really going to walk [I]0-i will accompany [you]3018-you , if [you]3018-you do n’t mind , because [I]0-i ’m going in that direction . ” “[0-i] Where are [you]0-i going ? ” “[0-i] To [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith ; [I]0-i have some business [there]4426-there . ” [And Brown]223-richard brown looked once more at [[his]223-richard brown cousin]1267-his cousin as [he]223-richard brown opened [his]223-richard brown umbrella over [her]3018-you . “[0-i] Will [you]3018-you take [my]0-i arm , [Anne]171-anne ? ” [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was not [a lady ’s man]6316-a lady ’s man , and there was something awkward and unaccustomed in [his]223-richard brown request . “[3018-you] [I]0-i am big enough to take care of [myself]0-i , [I]0-i think , [Dick]379-hamlin . And [I]0-i know [you]379-hamlin hate having [women to drag along]3023-women to drag along ; [I]0-i have watched [you]379-hamlin going into dinner‐parties often enough . ” “[0-i] It is out of [my]0-i line , [you]379-hamlin ’re right . ” For some time [they]6317-they walked along in silence through [the black oozy streets]6318-the black oozy streets , crammed with barrows of fruit , round which gathered [the draggled dripping women]6319-the draggled dripping women , [[their]6319-the draggled dripping women babies]6320-their babies huddled up in [their]6319-the draggled dripping women torn shawls , [their]6319-the draggled dripping women hair untidy and dank beneath [their]6319-the draggled dripping women once lilac or pale‐pink smut‐engrained bonnets ; the cabs , shining blue‐black , ploughed through the mud ; the heavy drays splashed from gutter to gutter ; [the houses]2332-the houses were black and oozy ; the very raindrops on the railings looked black ; the sky was a dirty dull‐grey waste ; only the scarlet letter‐boxes stood out coloured in the general smutty , foggy , neutral tint . “[379-hamlin] Do [you]379-hamlin remark that [public‐houses]3024-public‐houses are the only places which make an attempt at architecture and ornament ? ” said [Dick]379-hamlin grimly , as [they]6317-they passed the ground‐glass windows and colonnade and coloured glass globes of [one of [these establishments]6323-these establishments]6322-one of these establishments . “[379-hamlin] Did it not strike [you]379-hamlin , [Italian]441-italian as [you]379-hamlin are , that in [this country]3025-this country , which has invented high art , the only things called [palaces]3026-palaces , except those inhabited by [royalty]3027-royalty , are [pot‐houses]3028-pot‐houses ? Why do [[your]379-hamlin æsthetic friends]3029-your æsthetic friends keep all [their]3029-your æsthetic friends æstheticism for indoors ? Why do n’t [they]3029-your æsthetic friends build [themselves]3029-your æsthetic friends houses which will be some pleasure to [the poor people who pass]3030-the poor people who pass ? ” Always that indirect attack upon [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [[his]379-hamlin friends]893-his friends : it was just and reasonable ; yet , coming from [Brown]223-richard brown , it somehow grated upon [Anne]171-anne . “[3029-your æsthetic friends] That will come later , ” [she]0-i said . “[3029-your æsthetic friends] The first thing is that [the upper classes]5858-the upper classes become accustomed to beautiful things . [You]379-hamlin ca n’t expect [them]5858-the upper classes to mind hideous outsides to [[their]5858-the upper classes houses]752-their houses if [they]5858-the upper classes are indifferent to hideous insides . [I]0-i do n’t think , ” [she]0-i added boldly , “[0-i] that æstheticism has had much generosity of aspiration in it so far , except in [isolated men]3033-isolated men like [Ruskin]325-mr ruskin and [Morris]326-morris ; but [I]0-i am sure it will eventually improve some matters even for [the lower classes]4974-the lower classes . ” “[442-nero] [Nero]442-nero rebuilt [Rome]28-rome , did n’t [he]442-nero , ” sneered [Brown]223-richard brown , “[442-nero] after [he]442-nero had amused [himself]442-nero burning [it]28-rome down ? ” [They]6325-they fell to talking about the lecture , and then about [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s plans . “[442-nero] [I]0-i hope to get into [Parliament]122-parliament next elections , ” [he]223-richard brown said , “[0-i] and then [I]0-i shall retire from [[Mr Gillespie]443-mr gillespie ’s firm]3035-mr gillespie ’s firm . ” “[443-mr gillespie] Why ? [They]3035-mr gillespie ’s firm say [you]0-i can make a big fortune if [you]0-i keep on . ” “[3035-mr gillespie ’s firm] [I]0-i have quite money enough ; [I]0-i am [a rich man]4395-a rich man . [You]3037-you would n’t have thought that possible , would [you]3037-you , [Nan]171-anne , two or three years ago ? Almost as rich as [Hamlin]379-hamlin , do [you]3037-you know , [young woman]3038-young woman ? ” and [he]223-richard brown turned and looked at [her]3038-young woman . There was a curious expression , what [she]3038-young woman could not understand , except that it was defiant , in [Dick]379-hamlin ’s face . “[0-i] [I]0-i am glad to hear it . It is a fine thing to have money ; it enables [one]620-one to do generous things — like what [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin did for [me]0-i , for instance . ” [Anne]171-anne could not have explained why [she]3038-young woman felt bound , at this particular moment , to throw [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s generosity in [[her]3038-young woman cousin]1291-her cousin ’s face . “[145-hamlin] Ah , well , ” answered [Brown]171-anne , suppressing something [he]145-hamlin had been about to retort , “[145-hamlin] of course [I]0-i could not formerly have done what [he]145-hamlin did for [you]3038-young woman ; but [I]0-i would have gladly spent every shilling [I]0-i had , [Anne]171-anne , to educate [you]3038-young woman , so that [[your]3038-young woman father]3947-your father might have been proud of [you]3038-young woman . ” “[3038-young woman] [I]0-i know [you]3038-young woman would , [Dick]379-hamlin — [you]3038-young woman are very kind . ” And yet , thought [Anne]171-anne , until [he]3038-young woman had been piqued by [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s offer , [he]3038-young woman had forgotten all about [her]171-anne . “[3038-young woman] But why do [you]3038-young woman intend to leave [your]3038-young woman business ? ” “[3038-young woman] Because [I]0-i want to give [myself]0-i up entirely to studying social questions , and [my]0-i business would suffer if [I]0-i gave it only partial attention . ” And [he]3038-young woman proceeded to explain the various questions which [he]3038-young woman intended studying , the various evils into whose reason [he]3038-young woman wished to look . “[3038-young woman] Reform has been too much the leisure‐time amusement of [men]4644-men , ” [he]3038-young woman said . “[3038-young woman] [People]577-people have thought that it requires less training to touch , nay , to sound , social wounds , than to set a broken arm or dress a wound . [We]3043-we must find the scientific basis for [our]3043-we art . And it is a very , very long art , and life is very , very short . For [my]0-i part , [I]0-i feel that [my]0-i knowledge is to what it should be what the knowledge [you]3044-you may get out of [a school primer of physiology]3045-a school primer of physiology is to the knowledge required by [a great surgeon]3046-a great surgeon . [I]0-i do n’t suppose [I]0-i or [any of [[my]0-i generation]3048-my generation]3047-any of my generation will succeed in doing much practical good ; but [we]3043-we shall have made [the public]1781-the public ready for certain views on [[our]3043-we subjects]3050-our subjects , and rendered it easier for [[our]3043-we practical followers]3051-our practical followers to get [their]3051-our practical followers education . There is nothing very glorious to be done at present : no giving out of brilliant new ideas or making of successful revolutions ; only [patient grubbing at facts]3052-patient grubbing at facts and [patient working on the public mind]3053-patient working on the public mind . ” “[3053-patient working on the public mind] Is that enough for [an ambitious man]3054-an ambitious man ? ” “[620-one] [One]620-one must pocket [one]620-one ’s ambition . What [we]3043-we want is knowledge , not conspicuous personalities . ” [Anne]171-anne was silent . [Dick]379-hamlin ’s words were like military music to [her]171-anne . Oh to be able to join [him]379-hamlin , to march by [his]379-hamlin side , to carry [his]379-hamlin arms ! “[620-one] Go on [Dick]379-hamlin , please . It does one good to hear of these things . ” [Dick]379-hamlin went on . “[3057-you] [You]3057-you must not overwork [yourself]3057-you , ” said [Anne]171-anne , anxiously . “[3057-you] Just think if [you]3057-you were to break down , as [so many men]3058-so many men have done — as poor [Richmond]440-richmond is doing . ” “[440-richmond] Oh , [I]0-i am strong . The only thing which concerns [me]0-i is [my]0-i sight . [I]0-i find [I]0-i am already unable to read of an evening . There ’s no danger of blindness , but [the doctor]5794-the doctor says [I]0-i must not work by candle‐light . Oh , there ’s no mischief . [I]0-i shall engage [a secretary]3060-a secretary . [I]0-i know plenty of [young men who would come , even for a small salary]3061-young men who would come , even for a small salary . There is [the son of one of [[our]3063-our head workmen]3064-our head workmen , [a very intelligent lad]3065-a very intelligent lad , of whom [I]0-i am thinking ; but perhaps [he]3065-a very intelligent lad is not sufficiently educated yet]3062-the son of one of our head workmen , a very intelligent lad , of whom i am thinking ; but perhaps he is not sufficiently educated yet . [I]0-i must have [some one who knows German and French]3066-some one who knows german and french , and so forth . ” [Anne]171-anne felt a lump in [her]171-anne throat . Oh that [she]171-anne had been [a man]503-a man , instead of being [this useless , base creature of mere comely looks]6328-this useless , base creature of mere comely looks , [a woman , set apart for the contemplation of æsthetes]6329-a woman , set apart for the contemplation of æsthetes ! If [she]171-anne had been [a man]503-a man , and could have helped [a man like [Richard Brown]223-richard brown]5806-a man like richard brown ! “[3066-some one who knows german and french] But [I]0-i am not certain of [my]0-i plans just yet , ” added [Brown]223-richard brown , and [he]223-richard brown dropped the subject . [They]6332-they walked on for some moments in silence ; then [he]223-richard brown began questioning [her]171-anne about [Lewis]353-lewis , and [Chough]379-hamlin , and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun . “[0-i] [Chough]379-hamlin is [a dear good little man]3067-a dear good little man , ” said [Anne]171-anne ; “[379-hamlin] [he]379-hamlin is very absurd and vain , and fond of talking and writing about wicked things , which [I]0-i am sure [he]379-hamlin does n’t understand any more than [I.]0-i But [he]379-hamlin is so self‐sacrificing , and warm‐hearted , and true . [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , [poor creature]3068-poor creature , is very morbid and faddy , and , [I]0-i think , hates [me]0-i ; but [I]0-i am very sorry for [him]347-dennistoun . As to [Lewis]353-lewis , [he]353-lewis may be [a very good man]3069-a very good man , but [I]0-i do n’t like [him]353-lewis — ” “[0-i] [I]0-i suppose [you]0-i have heard what [people]577-people say,—that [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis had rather a bad influence upon [Hamlin]379-hamlin some years ago — in short , made [him]379-hamlin take to eating opium , or haschisch , or something similar ? ” “[364-mr lewis] No — [I]0-i had never heard that , ” and [Anne]171-anne seemed suddenly to understand [her]0-i instinctive horror of [Lewis]353-lewis . “[0-i] Does [Hamlin]379-hamlin see much of [him]353-lewis now ? ” “[379-hamlin] A great deal — more than [I]0-i can at all sympathise with . [Lewis]353-lewis is rather a sore subject between [us]3071-us ; [he]353-lewis knows [I]0-i do n’t like [him]353-lewis , and yet [he]353-lewis is very fond of [him]353-lewis . ” “[353-lewis] [I]0-i suppose [Lewis]353-lewis flatters [him]353-lewis very much . ” “[353-lewis] [I]0-i suppose so . ” [Anne]171-anne resented being thus cross‐questioned about [Hamlin]379-hamlin , but [she]0-i was quite unable to prevaricate in [her]0-i answers — [her]0-i nature was too frank , and [Richard]223-richard brown ’s questions were too direct . “[353-lewis] [You]0-i are not very happy with [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” [he]223-richard brown suddenly asked , or rather affirmed . [Anne]171-anne flushed , but did not answer at once . “[0-i] [I]0-i have an unlucky temper , ” [she]0-i said , after a moment . “[0-i] [I]0-i am too exacting with [people]577-people . [I]0-i ca n’t get out of [my]0-i own individuality sufficiently , [I]0-i fear . ” [Richard]223-richard brown looked at [her]0-i with pity , and at the same time with that implacable scrutiny of [his]223-richard brown . “[0-i] [You]0-i feel [your]0-i nature narrowed by all this æsthetic world around [you]0-i , ” [he]223-richard brown said . “[0-i] [You]0-i find [these men]2792-these men selfish , mean , weak , shallow — ” “[379-hamlin] [Chough]379-hamlin is not selfish . As to [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun and [Lewis]353-lewis , [I]0-i told [you]0-i [I]0-i disliked [them]2792-these men . ” “[0-i] [You]0-i are equivocating , [Anne]171-anne . [You]0-i know [I]0-i am not speaking of [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun , or [Lewis]353-lewis , or [Chough]379-hamlin . [You]0-i find that [Hamlin]379-hamlin drags [you]0-i down , freezes all [your]0-i best aspirations . ” [Anne]171-anne turned very white and trembled . “[379-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin is [a poet]498-a poet , [an artist]3956-an artist ; [he]145-hamlin is not [a philanthropist]3076-a philanthropist or [a thinker]3077-a thinker . But [he]145-hamlin has done for [me]0-i more than [I]0-i believe [any man]1338-any man has ever done for [any woman]1339-any woman . ” “[145-hamlin] But — [you]0-i do n’t love [him]145-hamlin ? ” [Richard]223-richard brown had stopped as [they]6333-they walked along [the Hammersmith embankment]6334-the hammersmith embankment . [It]6334-the hammersmith embankment was [a very quiet spot]6335-a very quiet spot , and [not a soul]6336-not a soul was out in the thin , grey , drizzly fog . [Anne]171-anne hesitated for a moment . “[0-i] [I]0-i feel very much attached to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin on account of [his]145-hamlin generosity towards [me]0-i — and [I]0-i feel [I]0-i can never repay it . ” [She]0-i did not look in [Brown]171-anne ’s face as [she]0-i answered , but stared vaguely at [the river]4465-the river , at the dripping trees , the grey willow branches pulled backwards and forwards by the grey current ; at [the houses opposite]6338-the houses opposite , and the boats dim in the fog . “[0-i] [You]0-i do n’t love [him]145-hamlin ? ” repeated [Richard]223-richard brown in a whisper . “[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne , answer [me]0-i . ” “[171-anne] [I]0-i do n’t see what right [you]0-i have to ask [me]0-i such a question , [Richard]223-richard brown . ” “[223-richard brown] No ? Well , [I]0-i do — and [you]0-i shall see why . [You]171-anne are not [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife ; why should [you]0-i try and tell lies ? Do [you]0-i or do [you]0-i not love [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [Anne]171-anne ? ” [Anne]171-anne looked for a moment at the swirling waters , at the willow twigs whirled hither and thither . “[0-i] [I]0-i suppose [I]0-i do not . ” There was a pause . “[0-i] [You]0-i do not love [him]145-hamlin , and [you]0-i still contemplate marrying [him]145-hamlin ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i contemplate nothing at all . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has not yet asked [me]0-i to marry [him]145-hamlin , and perhaps [he]145-hamlin never may . ” “[145-hamlin] Nonsense , [Anne]171-anne . And when [he]145-hamlin does ask [you]171-anne , what will [you]171-anne answer ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i shall answer Yes . [I]0-i am bound to do it . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has done all , all for [me]0-i . If [he]145-hamlin wish to marry [me]0-i , [I]0-i can not refuse [him]145-hamlin the only thing which [I]0-i can give in return for [his]145-hamlin generosity . ” [Richard Brown]223-richard brown burst into a strange shrill laugh . “[171-anne] The only thing which [you]171-anne can give in return for [his]145-hamlin generosity ! ” [he]223-richard brown exclaimed , but always in the same undertone . “[171-anne] Who first made use of those words , [Nan]171-anne ? The only thing which [you]171-anne can give in return for [his]145-hamlin generosity ! Did not [some one]1380-some one use those very words to [you]171-anne , long , long ago in [Florence]6-florence , when [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin first proposed to educate [you]171-anne , and [[your]171-anne cousin]4341-your cousin said that [you]171-anne were running the risk of selling [yourself]171-anne ? But , by [God]195-god ! [you]171-anne shall not sell [yourself]171-anne , [Anne]171-anne . Do [you]171-anne know what [you]171-anne are giving [him]145-hamlin in return for what [you]171-anne call [his]145-hamlin generosity?—that is to say , in return for the whim which made [him]145-hamlin educate [a beautiful woman]1798-a beautiful woman , that [he]145-hamlin might show [her]1798-a beautiful woman off and have [a beautiful wife]3084-a beautiful wife , if [he]145-hamlin chose . Do [you]171-anne know what it is ? [Your]171-anne love , eh ? [You]171-anne have none to give ; [you]171-anne have said so [yourself]171-anne . [Your]171-anne body ? [your]171-anne honour ? Nay , [every prostitute]3085-every prostitute , [every kitchen slut]3086-every kitchen slut can give [him]145-hamlin that . And [I]0-i suppose such things do not exist for [a delicately nurtured lady]3087-a delicately nurtured lady , [a ward of [Mr Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s]3088-a ward of mr walter hamlin ’s . No ; [you]171-anne are giving [him]145-hamlin [your]171-anne soul , selling it to [him]145-hamlin , prostituting it as [any common woman]3089-any common woman would prostitute [her]3089-any common woman body . ” “[223-richard brown] [Richard]223-richard brown , ” said [Anne]171-anne , hotly , “[223-richard brown] [you]223-richard brown are [[my]0-i cousin]4336-my cousin , and have been very good to [me]0-i , but that gives [you]223-richard brown no right to insult [me]0-i . ” “[0-i] [My]0-i words are ugly ; and what are the things which [you]171-anne would do ? [Anne]171-anne , [you]171-anne shall listen to [me]0-i , ” and [he]223-richard brown laid [his]223-richard brown hand heavily on [her]171-anne arm . “[171-anne] [You]223-richard brown can make [me]0-i stand here , ” [she]0-i answered icily , “[223-richard brown] but [you]223-richard brown can not make [me]0-i listen . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i can make [you]223-richard brown listen . Oh , [Anne]171-anne , ” and [his]223-richard brown voice became suddenly supplicating , “[171-anne] do not be womanish , and refuse to listen because [I]0-i speak disagreeable things . Answer [me]0-i , on [your]171-anne honour : have [I]0-i a right to let [you]171-anne sacrifice [your]171-anne happiness , [your]171-anne honour , [your]171-anne usefulness in [the world]496-the world , to let [you]171-anne defile and ruin all these , by becoming what is equivalent to [a mere legalised mistress]3092-a mere legalised mistress — [the wife of [a man whom [you]171-anne despise]3094-a man whom you despise]3093-the wife of a man whom you despise ? [You]171-anne have a debt towards [Hamlin]145-hamlin : [I]0-i grant it , though [you]171-anne must be well aware how little real generosity there was in [his]145-hamlin choice of [you]171-anne ; but [you]171-anne have a debt also towards [yourself]171-anne . [You]171-anne have no right to pay for [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s kindness by the falsehood , the degradation , of marrying [a man whom [you]171-anne do not love]3095-a man whom you do not love , by the sacrifice of all the nobler part of [your]171-anne nature which [that man]1086-that man will crush out in [you]171-anne . ” “[1086-that man] If there is anything noble in [me]0-i , [Dick]379-hamlin , [no one]3899-no one can ever crush it out ; and [I]0-i do not see what real degradation there will be in honestly carrying out [my]0-i part of a bargain which has been honestly carried out towards [me]0-i . ” [Richard]223-richard brown paused for a minute . “[0-i] But , ” [he]223-richard brown cried , “[171-anne] [you]171-anne mistake , [Anne]171-anne ; [you]171-anne forget what that bargain was . ” “[0-i] No , [I]0-i do not . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin promised to marry [me]0-i whenever [I]0-i should ask [him]145-hamlin to do so , and — ” “[145-hamlin] And [he]145-hamlin left [you]171-anne free , perfectly free to marry [him]145-hamlin or not as [you]171-anne pleased ! ” “[145-hamlin] [He]145-hamlin left [me]0-i free ; and it is just that generosity of [his]145-hamlin , in binding [himself]145-hamlin , and not [me]0-i , which obliges [me]0-i , if [he]145-hamlin wants [me]0-i , to say Yes . ” “[145-hamlin] That is an absurd quibble , [Anne]171-anne . If [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s leaving [you]171-anne free bound [you]171-anne all the more , why , then , [he]145-hamlin did not leave [you]171-anne free , and [you]171-anne need not be bound by a piece of magnanimity which never existed . ” “[145-hamlin] On the contrary , [you]171-anne are quibbling , [Dick]379-hamlin . [You]171-anne know very well that [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin meant to leave [me]0-i free ; and it is for this intention that [I]0-i am , more than for anything else , grateful . ” [Richard]223-richard brown turned round . “[0-i] Fool that [I]0-i am ! ” [he]145-hamlin cried , “[0-i] to believe in [you]171-anne and not see through [[your]171-anne woman]3098-your woman ’s tergiversation ! [You]171-anne say [you]171-anne do not love [Hamlin]145-hamlin , but [you]171-anne do ; [you]171-anne may despise [him]145-hamlin , feel [his]145-hamlin emptiness — [I]0-i grant it all — be dissatisfied with [him]145-hamlin . Oh , [I]0-i know it ! But [you]171-anne love [him]145-hamlin all the same , and [you]171-anne would not for [the world]496-the world give [him]145-hamlin up , even if [he]145-hamlin asked [you]171-anne to . ” [Anne]171-anne laughed bitterly . “[3959-women] The usual generalisations about [women]3959-women . Because [I]0-i will not do a dishonourable thing , [I]0-i must needs be [a self‐deluding fool]3101-a self‐deluding fool . No ; [I]0-i do not love [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [I]0-i love [him]145-hamlin no more than this ! ” And [Anne]171-anne broke a twig off a bush and threw it into [the stream]6339-the stream . “[0-i] [You]0-i do not ? Then , if [Hamlin]145-hamlin were to release [you,—if]3102-you,—if [he]145-hamlin were to say , ‘ [I]0-i want to marry [some one]1380-some one else,’—would [you]171-anne — would [you]171-anne not regret [him]145-hamlin , [his]145-hamlin poetry , [his]145-hamlin good looks , [his]145-hamlin fame , [his]145-hamlin fortune ? ” “[171-anne] It would be the happiest day of [my]0-i life ! ” cried [poor Anne]171-anne , despairingly . “[171-anne] Then that day must come . [Anne]171-anne , [I]0-i can not see [you]171-anne sacrificed . [I]0-i can not see [you]171-anne lost to [yourself]171-anne and to [the world]496-the world . [You]171-anne must not marry [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [I]0-i will provide for [you]171-anne ; [I]0-i will take care of [you]171-anne . [You]171-anne shall help [me]0-i in [my]0-i work ! ” “[171-anne] [Poor Dick]229-dick ! ” said [Anne]171-anne gently , touched by this enthusiasm , “[229-dick] [you]229-dick are very good ; but [I]0-i fear — [I]0-i fear [I]0-i shall never have any need of [your]229-dick help ; and [I]0-i would never burden [another man]4053-another man — never have a debt again — if [I]0-i were remitted this one . ” “[171-anne] [You]171-anne would have no debt , ” cried [Brown]171-anne . “[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne , [I]0-i am not [a woman ’s man]3106-a woman ’s man . [I]0-i do n’t know how to say such things . But ever since [I]0-i have got really to know [you]171-anne , [I]0-i have felt if only [I]0-i could have such [a woman]3960-a woman as that always by [my]0-i side — to tell [her]3960-a woman all [my]0-i plans , and be helped in all [my]0-i work . . . ” [Richard]223-richard brown looked straight before [him]223-richard brown : [Anne]171-anne could see [his]223-richard brown face quiver . A coldness came all over [her]171-anne : a coldness and a heat . [She]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne must cry out . It was too sudden , too wonderful . The vision of being [[Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s wife]6340-richard brown ’s wife overcame [her]171-anne like some celestial vision [a fasting saint]6341-a fasting saint . But [she]171-anne made an effort over [herself]171-anne . “[3960-a woman] [I]0-i am bound , bound , ” [she]171-anne said ; “[3960-a woman] but if ever [I]0-i be released . . . ” [She]171-anne hesitated : the longing for what [she]171-anne knew [herself]171-anne to be renouncing was too great . “[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne , ” cried [Richard]223-richard brown , seizing [her]171-anne hand , “[171-anne] [I]0-i love [you]171-anne — [I]0-i love [you]171-anne — [I]0-i want [you]171-anne — [I]0-i must have [you]171-anne ! ” It was like the outburst of another nature , a strange , unsuspected ego , bursting out from beneath [the philanthropist]6342-the philanthropist ’s cool and self‐sacrificing surface . That sudden contact gave [Anne]171-anne a shock which woke [her]171-anne , restored [her]171-anne to [herself]171-anne ; it horrified [her]171-anne almost . [She]0-i made [him]229-dick let go [her]0-i hand . “[0-i] If ever [I]0-i be released , ” [she]0-i said , “[0-i] [I]0-i will remain free . [I]0-i do not love [you]0-i , [Dick]229-dick . ” [She]0-i was sorry the moment after [she]0-i had said it . “[229-dick] [I]0-i have gone too far , ” cried [Richard]223-richard brown . “[0-i] Good‐bye , ” said [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] [We]3108-we have been talking too long — and — [you]0-i wo n’t resume the subject , will [you]0-i ? ” There was a command , a threat implied in [her]171-anne voice . [Brown]223-richard brown somehow felt ashamed of [himself]223-richard brown . “[0-i] Not since [you]0-i wish it , ” [he]223-richard brown said flatly . “[0-i] Good‐bye , ” said [Anne]171-anne . And [she]171-anne walked away and entered [the house]509-the house — [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s house]4611-hamlin ’s house . THE sudden revelation of [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin ’s feeling was more than a shock , it was a blow to [Anne]171-anne . In [her]171-anne loneliness , in [her]171-anne dreary waiting for the hour of sacrifice , [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s friendship had , almost without [her]171-anne knowing it , been [her]171-anne great consolation and support . It had given [her]171-anne a sense of safety and repose to think that , in the midst of all the morbid passion and fantastic vanity which seemed to surround [her]171-anne , there was a possibility of honest companionship , of affection which meant merely reciprocal esteem and sympathy in the objects of life ; wholesome prose in the middle of unhealthy poetry . This was now gone : [Richard Brown]223-richard brown loved [her]171-anne , wanted [her]171-anne ; it was the old nauseous story over again ; the sympathy , the comradeship , the quiet brotherly and sisterly affection had all been a sham , a sham for [her]171-anne and for [himself]223-richard brown . Was [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor right , and was there , of really genuine and vital in [the world]496-the world , only the desire of [the man]757-the man for [the woman]4801-the woman and of [the woman]4801-the woman for [the man]757-the man , with all its brood of vanity and baseness , and all its trappings of poetry and sympathy and self‐sacrifice ? [Anne]171-anne looked round [her]171-anne , and [she]171-anne saw men like [Chough]379-hamlin and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun and [Lewis]353-lewis , base or doing [their]6351-their best to become it ; [Hamlin]379-hamlin , [her]171-anne girlish ideal of poetical love , had gone the same way ; and now [the one man who had remained to [her]171-anne as [an object of friendship and respect]6353-an object of friendship and respect , [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Dick]379-hamlin]6352-the one man who had remained to her as an object of friendship and respect , her cousin dick , had preached against selfish æstheticism , had talked [her]171-anne into [his]379-hamlin positivistic philanthropy — had conjured [her]171-anne to respect [her]171-anne nobler nature , [her]171-anne soul , [her]171-anne generous instincts — had supplicated [her]171-anne not to degrade [herself,—nay]379-hamlin , had quibbled with right and wrong , had urged [her]171-anne to break [her]171-anne trust,—what for ? that [he]379-hamlin might satisfy [his]379-hamlin whim of possessing [her]171-anne . The solitude and the chilliness around [Anne]171-anne had increased ; [she]171-anne wished for good , but [she]171-anne disbelieved in its existence . Add to this that [she]171-anne felt [she]171-anne was now no longer at liberty to see so much of [Dick]379-hamlin as [she]171-anne had formerly done ; instead of a consolation and a support , [his]379-hamlin presence seemed to [her]171-anne now more of a danger and an insult . So [she]171-anne waited , hopeless and solitary , for the hour of the sacrifice to strike ; for [Hamlin]379-hamlin to claim [her]171-anne . To fulfil that debt , to suffer that moral death‐blow , seemed to [her]171-anne now the one certainty , the one aim of [her]171-anne life . Such was the bulk of [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s condition ; but there were streakings of another colour which made it , on the whole , only more gloomy . The possibility , the vision which had for a moment been projected on to [her]171-anne mind , of becoming [[Richard Brown]223-richard brown ’s wife]6340-richard brown ’s wife , of sharing in all those thoughts and endeavours which were [her]171-anne highest ideal , would return to [her]171-anne every now and then in strange sudden gleams . And this possibility , or rather this which was an impossibility , made the real necessity of [her]171-anne life only the gloomier for the contrast . [Anne]171-anne had vaguely aspired after a life of nobler sympathies and stronger aims , but [she]171-anne had never gone so far as to dream of sharing the life of [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin ; and [she]171-anne thought that , had matters been different , had [she]171-anne been free , had [Hamlin]379-hamlin not claimed [her]171-anne , had [Richard]223-richard brown not loved [her]171-anne ( for [his]223-richard brown love , [his]223-richard brown selfish tempting [her]171-anne away from [her]171-anne duty , seemed to [her]171-anne a sort of dishonour to [him]223-richard brown and [her]171-anne ) , [she]171-anne would have had the fulfilment of [her]171-anne most far‐fetched desires within [her]171-anne grasp,—merely increased moral numbness , the sullen pain of resignation , towards a fate which was too slow in coming . [Anne]171-anne did not pay much heed to [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [his]379-hamlin doings : it seemed to [her]171-anne , whose life in the last months had appeared like years , that it was always the same monotony ; [Hamlin]379-hamlin was waiting for [her]171-anne to fall in love with [him]379-hamlin , watching whether [she]171-anne was not in love already ; offering [her]171-anne , in those vague , Platonic , elegiac speeches of [his]379-hamlin about the necessity of a higher life of which [he]379-hamlin no longer had much hope , of a pure passion which [he]379-hamlin feared [he]379-hamlin was unworthy to experience , an opportunity for saying “[0-i] [I]0-i will teach [you]3109-you how to love . ” Veiled in Dantesque mysticism , muffled in Shakespearian obscurity , such was , to [her]171-anne who understood and was expected to understand , the gist of all the poems which [he]379-hamlin wrote . The day would come , [Anne]171-anne saw it clearly , when some trifling quarrel , some trifling jealousy , some rebuff to [his]379-hamlin vanity , or some sense of more than usual vacuity , would get the better of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s patience , and when [he]379-hamlin would say to [Anne]171-anne that [he]379-hamlin loved [her]171-anne and that [her]171-anne love was [his]379-hamlin life . [She]171-anne had gone over it all so often in fancy , with the bitter sarcasm of understanding that whole , to [her]171-anne so tragic , little comedy . But had [she]171-anne been a person more observant and penetrating than [she]171-anne was ( for [her]171-anne long delusion about [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Richard]223-richard brown plainly shows that [she]171-anne was neither ) , or had [she]171-anne been less engrossed in [her]171-anne own conception of events , [Miss Brown]171-anne might have noticed , as spring turned into summer , that certain slight changes were taking place in [Hamlin]379-hamlin . [He]379-hamlin had , without any intentional rupture , taken to seeing much less of [Chough]379-hamlin and [Dennistoun]347-dennistoun ; [he]379-hamlin scarcely ever visited [[his]379-hamlin old master]6358-his old master , [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , or [any others of [the school]1304-the school]6359-any others of the school ; [he]379-hamlin refused invitations to parties , or if [he]379-hamlin had accepted , found them too great a bore at the last moment ; [the only house , except that at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith , which [he]379-hamlin frequented]6361-the only house , except that at hammersmith , which he frequented , was [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s]6362-madame elaguine ’s . [He]379-hamlin used to attend all [her]360-madame elaguine spiritualistic séances , and alternate between finding spiritualism a vulgar fraud and a mystic possibility ; [he]379-hamlin used to quarrel with [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , and at the same time to seek [his]379-hamlin company more than [any other man]5352-any other man ’s . [He]379-hamlin would vacillate also between the most extreme opinions about [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin [Sacha]386-sacha . One day [he]379-hamlin would entertain [Anne]171-anne by the hour about [her]171-anne virtues , [her]171-anne talents , [her]171-anne persecution ; the next [he]379-hamlin would be captiously fault‐finding , accusing [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine of being [a brainless little flirt]6365-a brainless little flirt , [a mere ordinary Russian , who cared only for excitement and being perpetually en scène]6366-a mere ordinary russian , who cared only for excitement and being perpetually en scène . “[0-i] What is the use of asking [people]577-people to be intense when it is not [their]577-people nature ? ” [Anne]171-anne would ask , not without bitterness in [her]171-anne own heart . “[0-i] If [you]3111-you find [a pleasant friend]3112-a pleasant friend , be satisfied and thankful for [your]3111-you good luck . ” Be it as it may , [Hamlin]379-hamlin was restless , subject to strange ups and downs of humour , sometimes in a state of vague unaccountable cheerfulness , sometimes horribly depressed . To [any one but [Anne]171-anne]6367-any one but anne it would have occurred that there must be some novelty in [his]379-hamlin life . But [Anne]171-anne did not see ; indeed , from a sort of instinct , [she]171-anne observed [Hamlin]379-hamlin as little as possible : [she]171-anne had loved [him]379-hamlin when [she]171-anne had not known [him]379-hamlin ; the less [she]171-anne saw , except [his]379-hamlin gentle , chivalric , poetic , idealising surface , the better . But one day — it might be a fortnight after the memorable walk [home]4170-home from [Richmond]440-richmond ’s lecture — [Anne]171-anne found among [her]171-anne letters one , evidently delivered by hand or dropped into the letterbox , the address upon which . puzzled [her]171-anne considerably . It was not merely that the handwriting was unknown to [her]171-anne , but that it was so utterly unlike any human handwriting that could be conceived ; it was like [a child]623-a child ’s elaborate copy of print , but executed with a precision , and at the same time a certain artistic chic , of which [a child]623-a child is incapable . Had [she]171-anne been in [Italy]1-italy , [Anne]171-anne would have expected to find within that envelope one of those marvellously written out and illuminated sonnets which [certain needy individuals]6371-certain needy individuals , [counts]6372-counts and [marquises]6373-marquises fallen into bad circumstances and anxious to redeem [their]3113-their only bed from [the pawnbroker]6374-the pawnbroker ’s , serve up at regular intervals to [English and Americans]6375-english and americans , “[0-i] the many illustrious qualities of whose mind and heart , as well known as [[their]3113-their noble family]3114-their noble family , ” are supposed to include munificence to [beggars]6376-beggars . To [Anne]171-anne ’s astonishment the letter which [she]171-anne found actually was in Italian . But it was Italian of [Stratford‐atte‐Bow]123-stratford‐atte‐bow , and [her]171-anne first impulse was to burst out laughing . But the next moment [she]171-anne reddened with surprise and indignation . “[444-madonna mia] [MADONNA MIA]444-madonna mia , ” began this epistle , which had evidently been concocted with a ‘ Decameron ’ and [a Baedeker]445-a baedeker ’s travelling phrase‐book , and which sounded like English written by [a German waiter who should have taken to [Spenser]446-spenser after the first dozen lessons,—“Inasmuch[3115-the honest] as it always is the duty of [the honest]3115-the honest]6377-a german waiter who should have taken to spenser after the first dozen lessons,—“inasmuch as it always is the duty of the honest to warn the unsuspecting , and [the most honourable]3116-the most honourable are always those who suspect least , [[your]3117-your true friend]3118-your true friend and well‐wisher desires [you]3117-your may keep an eye upon the machinations of [a base woman]2716-a base woman ; and be on [your]3117-your guard against the friendship [ underlined ] of [cousins]2104-cousins . ” [Anne]171-anne turned the note round and round , and read and re‐read it , [her]171-anne heart beating as if [she]171-anne had received a slap in the face . “[2104-cousins] The friendship of [cousins]2104-cousins . ” [Her]171-anne first thought was that this was an allusion to [herself]171-anne and [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ; [some one]1380-some one had understood what [she]171-anne had not , and was suspecting what was not true . But then [her]171-anne mind picked up that other mysterious phrase , “[2716-a base woman] the machinations of [a base woman]2716-a base woman . ” [The cousins]6379-the cousins were not [herself]171-anne and [Dick]379-hamlin , but [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha , and that was [the base woman]6380-the base woman alluded to . It was as if a great light had shone in [Anne]171-anne ’s face ; [she]171-anne was dazzled , dazed . The friendship of [two cousins]6381-two cousins ! Was there , then , more than friendship between [them]6381-two cousins ? Did [Hamlin]379-hamlin love [Sacha]386-sacha , or [Sacha Hamlin]447-hamlin ? [Anne]171-anne gave a great sigh ; but it was a sigh of relief,—the sigh of [the drowning wretch who is dragged on [shore]6383-shore]6382-the drowning wretch who is dragged on shore — the sigh of [the hunted fugitive who sees [his]6384-the hunted fugitive who sees his pursuers pursuers]6384-the hunted fugitive who sees his pursuers turn back . The friendship of [cousins]2104-cousins ? Why , then , [she]171-anne was saved , [she]171-anne was free ! But [her]171-anne excitement lasted only a minute . Was [she]171-anne to believe an anonymous letter , evidently malicious , evidently intended to slander [an innocent woman]6386-an innocent woman , to sow discord or to ruin [her]6386-an innocent woman own happiness ? It was evidently from [an enemy of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s]6387-an enemy of madame elaguine ’s ; it could not be from [a friend of [her]171-anne own]6388-a friend of her own ; for [a friend]4706-a friend would have spoken to [her]171-anne clearly and openly , or would have spared [her]171-anne what , in the eyes of [the world]496-the world , which regarded [her]171-anne as [[Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s affianced bride]6391-hamlin ’s affianced bride , must have been a horrible revelation . It was an infamous or ridiculous calumny . From whom did it come ? [Anne]171-anne thought for a long time ; [she]171-anne counted up [[her]171-anne own enemies]6392-her own enemies and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s . At one moment [she]171-anne suspected [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , at another [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ; but [she]171-anne was too honest to credit [any one of [them]6394-them]6393-any one of them with such a piece of treachery . [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s mysterious enemies]6395-madame elaguine ’s mysterious enemies — yes , it must be [they]6395-madame elaguine ’s mysterious enemies ! thought [Anne]171-anne ; it must be a new trick of [theirs]6395-madame elaguine ’s mysterious enemies , a device for alienating [her]171-anne from [[her]171-anne new friends]6396-her new friends . [Anne]171-anne ’s heart sank . Why must such terrible temptations be put upon [her]171-anne ? [Miss Brown]171-anne meditated for some time upon what [she]171-anne ought to do . [She]171-anne felt indignant with [the mysterious author of the letter]6397-the mysterious author of the letter ; and [she]171-anne felt that , as it contained a slander , it was [her]171-anne duty to let [those whom it accused]6398-those whom it accused know the whole matter . Should [she]171-anne show that paper to [Hamlin]447-hamlin ? Once in [her]171-anne life , [Anne]171-anne gave way to a movement of cowardice . That letter , shown by [her]171-anne to [Hamlin]447-hamlin , would , [she]171-anne knew , bring the catastrophe . [Hamlin]447-hamlin would be furious and delighted ; [he]447-hamlin would think [she]171-anne was jealous and unhappy ; [he]447-hamlin would on the spot declare that [he]447-hamlin loved [her]171-anne , and ask [her]171-anne to be [[his]447-hamlin wife]700-his wife . This consummation of [her]171-anne sacrifice , which , in the dull apathy of the last fortnight , [she]171-anne had almost prayed for , now terrified [her]171-anne . When it came , [she]171-anne was ready ; but to hasten it — to bring it down untimely on [herself]171-anne — to do that , [Anne]171-anne had not the heart . After all , it concerned [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine most , and [she]171-anne would doubtless have some clue to [the writer of the letter]6400-the writer of the letter , and consequently take the matter less to heart . [Anne]171-anne determined to show the letter to [her]360-madame elaguine . [She]171-anne thought [she]171-anne would go to [her]360-madame elaguine at once , or write ; but a faint , faint , almost unconscious instinct of self‐preservation bade [her]171-anne wait awhile ; wait till [she]171-anne should have an opportunity of seeing [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine in the natural course of events . [Miss Brown]171-anne had made up [her]171-anne mind that the mysterious letter had no sort of truth in it ; yet despite this decision , which lay , cut and dry , on the surface of [her]171-anne consciousness , a hidden imperceptible movement was going on within [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne seemed suddenly to remember things which [she]171-anne had not at the time noticed , to see things which had not before existed , and must still have been there yesterday as well as to‐day . Things which had been meaningless acquired a meaning ; things which had seemed without connection began to group [themselves]6401-themselves . A change had taken place of late in [Hamlin]447-hamlin ; [he]447-hamlin had become solitary and morose , and more than usually up and down in spirits — [he]447-hamlin had seen only [Sacha]447-hamlin and [her]360-madame elaguine . How much had [he]447-hamlin seen of [Sacha]447-hamlin ? [Anne]171-anne did not know , but [she]171-anne imagined a great deal . Then [she]171-anne remembered how [he]447-hamlin had taken to finding fault with [the little woman]4885-the little woman , to running [her]4885-the little woman down systematically to [himself]447-hamlin and to [Anne]171-anne . Could it be that [he]447-hamlin felt [himself]447-hamlin tempted to break [his]447-hamlin engagement ? [Anne]171-anne knew [Hamlin]447-hamlin too well by this time to credit [him]447-hamlin with that . If such a thing should happen,—if , finding insensibly that [Anne]171-anne was not what [he]447-hamlin had imagined , disappointed with [her]171-anne coldness , hurt by [her]171-anne censoriousness , and attracted by [a woman who was everything that [she]171-anne was not]6403-a woman who was everything that she was not — [Hamlin]447-hamlin should ever come to feel for [Sacha]447-hamlin more than mere friendship , it was not in [his]447-hamlin nature to perceive [his]447-hamlin danger and to struggle ; [he]447-hamlin would let [himself]447-hamlin go to sleep in the pleasantness of a new sensation , [he]447-hamlin would drift on vaguely , and start up in surprise . A new love was for [him]447-hamlin the most poignant of temptations,—a new love in its still half‐unconscious , Platonic , vague condition ; and [he]447-hamlin was not [a man to resist such a temptation]6404-a man to resist such a temptation ; indeed [he]447-hamlin had gone through life with the philosophy that [a poet]498-a poet may dally with any emotion , however questionable , as long as [he]447-hamlin does not actually commit a dishonourable action . Oh no , [Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s ups and downs could not be struggles or remorse ; so [Anne]171-anne decided that it was all fancy , all calumny . And [she]171-anne determined to give the letter to [Sacha]447-hamlin on the first opportunity . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine at last made up [her]360-madame elaguine mind that [[her]360-madame elaguine little [Helen]415-helen]6406-her little helen ought to learn something ; and with the impulsiveness of [her]360-madame elaguine nature , [she]360-madame elaguine determined that [she]360-madame elaguine , whom [she]360-madame elaguine had always kept under [her]360-madame elaguine own eyes , should go to [school]1094-school . Why there should be such a swing of the pendulum , and why [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine should not rather hire [a governess]2497-a governess to teach [the child]660-the child in [[her]360-madame elaguine own house]4978-her own house , [Miss Brown]171-anne could not explain , except by the capriciousness , the tendency always to be in extremes , of [[Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin . Anyhow , [Sacha]447-hamlin had determined that [Helen]415-helen must soon go to [school]1094-school , and [she]0-i had written to [Anne]171-anne begging [her]171-anne , before [the child]660-the child went , to permit [her]171-anne to share for a week or two the lessons which [Miss Brown]171-anne was giving [the little Choughs]367-the little choughs . “[0-i] [I]0-i know , ” [she]0-i wrote , “[0-i] that [[my]0-i poor little child]3123-my poor little child is not fit to be turned loose among [other children]3124-other children yet ; [I]0-i know [she]3123-my poor little child is too ignorant , too sensitive , too much accustomed to life with [[her]3123-my poor little child elders]3125-her elders . To learn with [[Mr Chough]248-chough ’s children]3126-mr chough ’s children , to play with [them]3126-mr chough ’s children , will take the keen edge off ; and also , [I]0-i know , [[my]0-i dearest]3127-my dearest [Anne]171-anne , that if anything can make this ( [I]0-i fear , alas ! alas ! to [my]0-i shame ) over‐sensitive and self‐willed little savage more human , more desirous of being good , and of raising [herself]3123-my poor little child , it will be [your]171-anne influence . [I]0-i have often felt what it would have been for [me]0-i to have had [a friend]4706-a friend like [you]171-anne , and [I]0-i feel what it will be for [[my]0-i child]2725-my child . ” [Anne]171-anne was touched by this letter . [Poor Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , although [she]360-madame elaguine did care too much for [Baudelaire]344-baudelaire and [Gautier]343-gautier , and did tell too many anecdotes about [[married women]6414-married women ’s lovers]6415-married women ’s lovers and [married men]6416-married men ’s cocottes for [Anne]171-anne ’s taste , was yet [a good and brave little woman]6417-a good and brave little woman ; and [she]360-madame elaguine must be helped , if [one]620-one could help [her]360-madame elaguine . And [Anne]171-anne was doubly indignant about that anonymous letter [she]171-anne put in [her]171-anne pocket , and went to call on [[Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was in one of [her]360-madame elaguine unstrung moments . [Anne]171-anne found [her]360-madame elaguine lying on a sofa , a heap of books about [her]360-madame elaguine , reading none , fidgety and vacant . [She]171-anne brightened up for a moment on [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s entry , and received [her]360-madame elaguine with a kind of rapturous gratitude , quite out of all proportion ; but [she]360-madame elaguine speedily relapsed into [her]360-madame elaguine depressed condition . [Anne]171-anne thought it better not to introduce the business at once . “[0-i] [I]0-i want to know , ” [she]0-i said , “[3130-you] why [you]3130-you are suddenly so anxious to send [[your]3130-you little [Helen]415-helen]3131-your little helen to [school]1094-school , when [you]3130-you said , only a few days ago , that [you]3130-you could not bear even that [a stranger]661-a stranger should have any influence upon [her]415-helen . ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine hesitated . “[3130-you] Oh , dear [Anne]171-anne , ” [she]0-i suddenly exclaimed , “[3130-you] [I]0-i am [a poor , weak , vacillating creature]3134-a poor , weak , vacillating creature , always in excesses . [You]171-anne must have pity on [me]0-i . [I]0-i suppose it is just because [I]0-i was so horribly selfish about [[my]0-i child]2725-my child that [I]0-i have been crushed suddenly with the necessity of sacrificing [my]0-i feelings completely . It comes home to [me]0-i — and oh , [you]171-anne can not think what it means to me!—that [I]0-i am ruining [[my]0-i child]2725-my child , that [she]2725-my child will turn out merely another [myself]0-i — [another wretched , weak , unhappy creature , with just morality enough to make [her]2725-my child utterly miserable]3137-another wretched , weak , unhappy creature , with just morality enough to make her utterly miserable , and just common‐sense enough to make [her]2725-my child feel [her]2725-my child own silliness . It is a terrible thing for [a mother]2075-a mother to say ; but it is true , and [I]0-i must say it : [I]0-i am not fit to bring up [[my]0-i own child]3139-my own child — [I]0-i am not worthy to do it . ” [Anne]171-anne looked at the Russian , who had raised [herself]0-i on [her]0-i sofa convulsively , and thatched and torn to pieces a flower which was lying on [her]0-i , with a great look of pity . “[0-i] [I]0-i am not bad ! ” cried [Sacha—“I]448-sacha—“i[0-i] am not bad ! [I]0-i want to be good ; but [I]0-i ca n’t . Oh , and [I]0-i ca n’t teach [[my]0-i child]2725-my child anything , not even the multiplication table , ” and [she]0-i suddenly burst out laughing . [Anne]171-anne did not know whether to cry or to laugh . “[0-i] [I]0-i quite understand [your]0-i wishing that [Helen]415-helen should get the habit of work , and should learn something , ” [she]0-i said , in [her]0-i business‐like way ; “[0-i] but [I]0-i can not see the advantage of sending [her]415-helen to [school]1094-school . [She]415-helen is far too nervous and delicate , and far too much accustomed to indulgence , to get anything but harm from [a school]2459-a school . Were [she]415-helen [a mere strong , sturdy , spoilt child]3143-a mere strong , sturdy , spoilt child , it would do [her]415-helen an immense deal of good ; but [a child]623-a child , [you]0-i admit it [yourself]0-i , so morbidly and almost physically sensitive , would only be miserable at [school]1094-school , and probably be terrified by unaccustomed discipline and want of sympathy . Do n’t [you]0-i think it would be wiser to get [Helen]415-helen [a thoroughly good governess]3146-a thoroughly good governess , so that [she]415-helen could learn something , and yet be in [[your]0-i house]4310-your house ? ” “[0-i] [I]0-i wo n’t have [a governess]2497-a governess ; [they]3149-they are all good‐for‐nothings . [I]0-i wo n’t have [spies]3150-spies in [the house]509-the house ! ” exclaimed [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , vehemently . “[0-i] Nonsense ! ” said [Anne]171-anne ; “[3150-spies] how can [you]0-i talk like that ? [You]0-i know that [governesses]3152-governesses are just as good as [schoolmistresses]5752-schoolmistresses ; and for [you]0-i and [Helen]415-helen such a plan would be in every way preferable . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i wo n’t have any one in [the house]509-the house to pry into [my]0-i affairs ! ” repeated [Sacha]447-hamlin , hotly . “[415-helen] [Helen]415-helen must go to [school]1094-school . ” [Anne]171-anne felt angry with [the little woman]4885-the little woman . “[415-helen] Of course it is for [you]0-i to choose , ” [she]0-i said ; “[415-helen] but [I]0-i confess [I]0-i ca n’t see why [you]0-i should not have [a governess]2497-a governess any more than [other people]665-other people . ” [She]0-i felt as if there were something wrong here . “[2497-a governess] And do [you]0-i forget what [my]0-i life is ? ” cried [Sacha]447-hamlin ; “[0-i] do [you]0-i forget that [I]0-i am [the daily , hourly victim of unseen enemies]3158-the daily , hourly victim of unseen enemies ? Would [you]0-i have [me]0-i admit [some one to [[my]0-i house]3160-my house]3159-some one to my house , that [she]3159-some one to my house might play into [their]3161-their hands , or , at all events , pry into [my]0-i misfortune ? ” [Anne]171-anne had forgotten that . How unjust [she]171-anne was ! “[3159-some one to my house] True , ” [she]0-i said ; “[3159-some one to my house] [I]0-i think [we]3162-we might find [a governess who , even under [your]0-i circumstances , might be safely admitted into [the house]509-the house]3163-a governess who , even under your circumstances , might be safely admitted into the house . But [I]0-i can understand [your]0-i unconquerable aversion to the idea , so [we]3162-we had better look out for [a school]2459-a school , and , till [one]620-one is found , [I]0-i shall be delighted if [you]0-i will send [Helen]415-helen to [me]0-i . [I]0-i fear [I]0-i ca n’t do much for [her]415-helen , but at all events [she]415-helen will meet [the Choughs]3167-the choughs , who are [very good little girls]3168-very good little girls . ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine rose , and , to [Anne]171-anne ’s immeasurable surprise , [she]360-madame elaguine flung [herself]360-madame elaguine on [her]360-madame elaguine neck , and began to sob . “[3167-the choughs] Oh [Anne]171-anne , dearest [Anne]171-anne , ” [she]360-madame elaguine said , “[171-anne] [you]171-anne are so good to [me]0-i — so good , so very good — and [I]0-i do n’t deserve it at all — indeed [I]0-i know [I]0-i do n’t . ” “[0-i] Nonsense ; [you]171-anne are unwell and unstrung about [Helen]415-helen , and [you]171-anne are just making [yourself]171-anne miserable . Do try and be quiet , and reflect that there is nothing whatever to be miserable about . ” [Somehow]449-somehow or other [Miss Brown]171-anne , for all [her]171-anne good‐nature , always had a harsh instinct whenever [she]171-anne saw [Sacha]447-hamlin in such a condition as this — an instinct that [the Russian]413-the russian could prevent it — that such fits of tears and abjectness were mere self‐indulgence , and self‐indulgence which was utterly incompatible with [Anne]171-anne ’s idea of self‐respect . But [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine could not be reined in . [She]360-madame elaguine fell back in an arm‐chair in an agony of hysterical sobbing , mixed with ghastly laughing . “[171-anne] It is not nonsense ; it is true — it is true ; [I]0-i do n’t deserve it . [I]0-i deserve that [you]171-anne should hate [me]0-i . Oh [Anne]171-anne , [you]171-anne must hate [me]0-i ; but it is not [my]0-i fault . [I]0-i hate [him]3169-him ! [I]0-i have always hated [him]3169-him ! [I]0-i have told [him]3169-him so ; but [he]3169-him wo n’t believe . Oh , indeed it is not [my]0-i fault . But of course [you]171-anne hate [me]0-i , [you]171-anne . . . ” and [she]0-i suddenly burst out laughing . [Anne]171-anne was very white . [She]0-i had heard and [she]0-i had understood ; but [she]0-i had no right to have heard or to have understood . Suddenly [Sacha]447-hamlin started up and looked strangely about [her]0-i . “[171-anne] What ! [you]171-anne are here ? ” [she]0-i asked , with a start as if of terror . “[171-anne] Oh , what have [I]0-i been talking about ? Oh , [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i have been talking nonsense ! ” “[0-i] [Poor little woman]2410-poor little woman ! ” said [Anne]171-anne ; “[171-anne] yes , [you]171-anne have been talking nonsense ; [you]171-anne are afraid of having [a governess]2497-a governess for [Helen]415-helen , lest — ” “[2497-a governess] Ah ! ” cried [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , with a sigh of relief . “[2497-a governess] Oh , [you]171-anne do n’t know what it is to have such a fit . [One]620-one feels [one]620-one is talking lies , and yet that one must go on . [I]0-i never had any such things before [they]3174-they began to persecute [me]0-i . It is almost the worst part of [my]0-i misfortune . Fancy seeing , feeling [one]620-one ’s self becoming day by day more abject , and being unable to stop it . Oh , [I]0-i still feel so frightened ! something dreadful must have happened while [I]0-i had that fit just now . Do call for some tea , [Anne]171-anne , [darling]4379-darling ; [I]0-i feel so shaken , as if something had happened . ” “[0-i] [You]171-anne will feel all right when [you]171-anne have had some tea , ” said [Anne]171-anne . “[3174-they] Tell [me]0-i , have [they]3174-they , have [those people]2016-those people been frightening [you]171-anne of late ? ” [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine nodded . “[3174-they] Only last night ; [you]171-anne do n’t know what happened . [I]0-i did n’t intend telling [you]171-anne — look here — but it is that that has put [me]0-i into such a state , ” and opening the door of [[her]360-madame elaguine bedroom]4654-her bedroom , [Sachs]450-sachs pointed to the wall opposite . Over [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s bed hung a painted portrait of [little Helen]415-helen ; but where the face should have been was a dark spot . “[3174-they] Good heavens ! what have [they]3174-they done ? ” cried [Anne]171-anne . “[3174-they] Oh , [they]3174-they have only cut out [Mademoiselle Hélène]416-mademoiselle hélène ’s face , ” said [the Swiss maid]6006-the swiss maid , who was sitting in [the room]574-the room , with a shrug . “[3174-they] For [my]0-i part , [I]0-i am accustomed to such tricks , and so , [I]0-i should think , must be [Madame]360-madame elaguine also . ” Something cynical and insolent in [the woman]4801-the woman struck [Anne]171-anne very much . “[360-madame elaguine] How horrible ! ” [she]0-i said , leading [Sacha]447-hamlin back to [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room . “[360-madame elaguine] [I]0-i can quite understand [your]3178-you being excited to‐day , and feeling anxious about [Helen]415-helen . ” “[3178-you] It is because of that , ” said [Sacha]447-hamlin , with clenched teeth , “[0-i] that [I]0-i want to send [Helen]415-helen to [school]1094-school . [She]415-helen will be safer [there]4426-there than [here]3884-here . If things go on as now , [I]0-i shall have to send [Helen]415-helen to [a convent]3182-a convent ; [I]0-i am no protection to [her]415-helen . ” “[3178-you] [You]3178-you must marry , and have [a husband]4417-a husband to take care of [you]3178-you , ” said [Anne]171-anne , quietly . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine turned scarlet . Was [she]360-madame elaguine afraid of having let out [her]360-madame elaguine secret ? But to [Anne]171-anne ’s surprise , instead of looking anxious , a sudden look of triumphant amusement passed over [her]360-madame elaguine face , a strange brazen look , and [she]360-madame elaguine burst out laughing — “[4417-a husband] Ah yes , marry!—that would be a fine idea!—and whom , pray ? Perhaps [Lewis]353-lewis or [Chough]248-chough . True — [I]0-i forgot — [he]4417-a husband has [a wife]4932-a wife ! Ah no , a rolling stone like [me]0-i must always be solitary . ” “[3178-you] [You]3178-you need not always be a rolling stone , ” said [Anne]171-anne , gently . “[3178-you] But [I]0-i must go — good‐bye , dear [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . ” At the door [she]171-anne met [Hamlin]447-hamlin . It seemed to [her]171-anne that [he]447-hamlin looked guilty , and coloured . “[360-madame elaguine] [I]0-i have been to see [[your]0-i cousin]4341-your cousin ; [she]4341-your cousin has had another horrid trick played to [her]4341-your cousin . Go up to [her]4341-your cousin , it will do [her]4341-your cousin good to see [you]0-i ; [she]4341-your cousin is very lonely , [poor little woman]2410-poor little woman . ” [Hamlin]447-hamlin was unnerved by the allusion to the persecution . [He]447-hamlin stood silent for a moment , with a long lingering look on [Anne]171-anne , like [a man making a mental comparison]6426-a man making a mental comparison . “[0-i] [You]0-i are very good , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ” [he]447-hamlin said , slowly ; “[171-anne] there is [no other woman in [the world]496-the world]3187-no other woman in the world like [you]0-i . ” “[447-hamlin] [Sacha]447-hamlin has been more tried than [I]0-i , ” answered [Anne]171-anne . And [Hamlin]447-hamlin went up and [Miss Brown]171-anne went out . [MISS BROWN]171-anne did not hand over the anonymous letter either to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine or to [Hamlin]447-hamlin . [She]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne had now no longer a right to do so . [Sacha]447-hamlin had , in the vague pouring out of words of that fit which [Anne]171-anne had witnessed , let out [her]171-anne secret ; but [Anne]171-anne had no right to use it or to act upon it . [She]171-anne could only watch and wait . Wait!—but in what a different spirit ! Wait , not for the hour of death , but for the moment of freedom , of complete freedom . “[447-hamlin] What has happened to [you]0-i ? ” asked [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , meeting [her]0-i on [her]0-i way back from [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s]6362-madame elaguine ’s . “[447-hamlin] Why , [you]0-i look quite [another being]3189-another being , [Anne]171-anne — as if [some one]1380-some one had left [you]0-i a fortune ! ” “[3899-no one] [No one]3899-no one has left [me]0-i anything , ” said [Anne]171-anne . “[3899-no one] [I]0-i feel very happy , that ’s all . ” “[0-i] But where in all this wretched [London]4-london have [you]0-i been that [you]0-i should feel happy ? ” [Anne]171-anne laughed . “[0-i] [I]0-i have been to see [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . ” [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer frowned . “[360-madame elaguine] Well , that would n’t be enough to make [me]0-i feel happy , [I]0-i confess . Was [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin [there]4426-there ? [I]0-i believe it ’s [his]145-hamlin safest address now , is n’t it ? ” “[145-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin was [there]4426-there , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , sternly . “[145-hamlin] Mark [my]0-i words ! ” said [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer that evening to [[her]0-i father]4143-her father and [husband]706-husband , and to [one or two of [those well‐thinking æsthetes de la vieille roche]6431-those well‐thinking æsthetes de la vieille roche , whom [Hamlin]145-hamlin had basely deserted]6430-one or two of those well‐thinking æsthetes de la vieille roche , whom hamlin had basely deserted . “[145-hamlin] Mark [my]0-i words ! [Anne Brown]171-anne has got impatient with all this philandering of [Walter]145-hamlin ’s about [that precious Russian of [his]145-hamlin]3194-that precious russian of his . There has been a grand scene , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin has come round to reason . [I]0-i met [her]3195-she returning from [that Elaguine woman]3196-that elaguine woman ’s to‐day , and [she]3195-she never looked so happy in [her]3195-she life . [She]3195-she said [Hamlin]145-hamlin had been [there]4426-there , and [I]0-i know that [she]3195-she gave [them]3198-them both a bit of [her]3195-she mind . [She]3195-she ’s [a proud woman]3199-a proud woman , [Anne Brown]171-anne , and could squash [that little Russian vixen]3200-that little russian vixen like that ! ” “[3200-that little russian vixen] But , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear [Edith]286-edith , ” objected [[her]286-edith father]4143-her father , seated among [an admiring crowd in [[his]4143-her father dusty studio at [Hampstead]83-hampstead]6434-his dusty studio at hampstead]6433-an admiring crowd in his dusty studio at hampstead , among [his]4143-her father ghastly Saviours on [gilded grounds]6435-gilded grounds , and Nativities , in despite of perspective—“how[286-edith] de [ye]286-edith know that there ’s ever been any philandering between [’em]3202-’em ? ” “[286-edith] Oh [papa]3893-papa , really now [you]3893-papa are too provoking ! ” “[3893-papa] Oh , [Mr Saunders]451-mr saunders , how do [we]3204-we know anything ? ” chorussed [the two or three elderly poetesses]6436-the two or three elderly poetesses and [untidy Giottesque painters of the circle]6437-untidy giottesque painters of the circle . “[451-mr saunders] P’raps [ye]286-edith do n’t know anything , any of [ye]286-edith ! ” [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer sighed , as much as to say , “[451-mr saunders] See what it is to be [the long‐suffering daughter of the greatest genius in [the world]496-the world]3205-the long‐suffering daughter of the greatest genius in the world , and pity [me]0-i ! ” [Cosmo Chough]248-chough had been reading some of [his]3207-he ‘ Triumph of Womanhood , ’ lying on the hearth‐rug in [the studio]795-the studio . “[3207-he] Do [you]286-edith think [he]3207-he has proposed ? ” [he]3207-he asked , darting up , with beaming eyes . “[3207-he] Proposed ! [I]0-i should think so , and been told not to play such tricks again . ” “[0-i] Ah ! ” cried [Chough]248-chough , “[0-i] thank heaven . [I]0-i — [I]0-i — ” but [he]3207-he stopped . “[0-i] [You]286-edith shall send [Anne]171-anne [your]171-anne Ginevra in [the Tomb]3208-the tomb , [papa]3893-papa , as a wedding present . ” “[3893-papa] Do n’t be in too great a hurry , ” said [old Saunders]451-mr saunders ; whereupon [he]451-mr saunders was jeered at with all the respect due to so great [an artist]3956-an artist . For the first time after so long , [Anne]171-anne felt happy . A load was off [her]171-anne mind . That [Hamlin]145-hamlin should love [Sacha]447-hamlin , and [Sacha Hamlin]447-hamlin , was the miracle which alone could release [her]171-anne , and releasing [her]171-anne , put an end at the same time to the horrible false position into which [Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s self‐engagement to [a woman so different from [himself]447-hamlin created for [him]447-hamlin also in the future]6440-a woman so different from himself created for him also in the future . And now only did it strike [Anne]171-anne that perhaps [she]171-anne had no right towards [Hamlin]447-hamlin to pay off [her]171-anne debt of gratitude at the expense of what might be [his]447-hamlin future misery as well as [hers]171-anne . Had [Hamlin]447-hamlin been sufficiently infatuated to wish to marry [a woman whom [he]447-hamlin did not really and solidly love]6441-a woman whom he did not really and solidly love , would it have been right on [her]171-anne part to let [him]447-hamlin have [his]447-hamlin way ? All these doubts , which [she]171-anne had previously put behind [her]171-anne , as mere selfish sophistry to tempt [her]171-anne from [her]171-anne duty , now rushed [home]4170-home to [her]171-anne . But they came no longer to torment , but to add to the relief , the cessation of bondage . [Hamlin]447-hamlin would never , [she]171-anne said to [herself]171-anne , have been really happy with [her]171-anne as [a wife]4932-a wife ; and now it happened that [he]447-hamlin had met [the woman who , whatever [her]171-anne shortcomings , seemed to suit [him]447-hamlin]6444-the woman who , whatever her shortcomings , seemed to suit him . That [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha was [an undisciplined , thoughtless , rather sensuous woman , loving excitement and art]6445-an undisciplined , thoughtless , rather sensuous woman , loving excitement and art , and indifferent to abstract good and evil , [Anne]171-anne fully admitted ; but were not these the very qualities which would make [her]171-anne appreciate what in [Hamlin]447-hamlin was original and charming , and blind [her]171-anne , for [her]171-anne happiness ( and added [Anne]171-anne , convinced by sad failure of the futility of trying to change [people]577-people ’s nature ) and for [his]447-hamlin , to [his]447-hamlin weak sides ? And [Sacha]386-sacha had just that exuberant passionateness , more of the temperament and the fancy than of the heart , which [Hamlin]447-hamlin required , and which [she]171-anne , [Anne]171-anne , so lamentably lacked . For [Sacha]386-sacha also it would mean a new life : it would mean , for [the poor , excitable little woman , always defrauded of affection and of an object of adoration]6447-the poor , excitable little woman , always defrauded of affection and of an object of adoration , a reality in [her]171-anne life , something to love , to worship , to pet , to flatter — something to make [her]171-anne forget [her]171-anne miserable bedraggled childhood , [her]171-anne wretched married life , [her]171-anne persecution and [her]171-anne maladies . This it would mean to [them]6448-them ; and to [Anne]171-anne it would mean . . . Ah ! [Anne]171-anne did not dare to think what it would mean for [her]171-anne ; [she]171-anne was not yet sure . [She]171-anne might be mistaken , [she]171-anne was still bound to doubt . And still , that great bliss , at which [Anne]171-anne was afraid to look , meant only what to [other women]1523-other women would have been a poor gift : liberty to gain [her]171-anne bread , to feel and think for [herself]171-anne — a life ’s solitude . Days passed on ; and [Anne]171-anne , instead of being , as [she]171-anne expected , disappointed , was confirmed by every little thing in [her]171-anne belief . On one pretext or other , [Hamlin]447-hamlin was perpetually at [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s . The latest excuse for seeing [her]171-anne was to paint [her]171-anne portrait ; so , for a number of days , [Sacha]447-hamlin came every morning to [the house at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith]4915-the house at hammersmith , and spent a couple of hours at least closeted with [Hamlin]447-hamlin in [the studio]795-the studio . [Anne]171-anne usually received [her]171-anne , and [she]171-anne frequently stayed to lunch ; and [Miss Brown]171-anne could not help feeling indignant at the coolness with which [Hamlin]447-hamlin amused [himself]447-hamlin playing with [two women]6452-two women : [he]447-hamlin was perpetually trailing after [Sacha]447-hamlin , [he]447-hamlin was perpetually , [she]171-anne felt persuaded , talking about life and love and [himself]447-hamlin in a way which was equivalent to making love to [the little woman]4885-the little woman ; and yet , [he]447-hamlin would still come and sit at [Anne]171-anne ’s feet , and represent [himself]447-hamlin as [the dejected and heartbroken creature whom only [a strong and pure woman]6455-a strong and pure woman could help]6454-the dejected and heartbroken creature whom only a strong and pure woman could help . Once , [Miss Brown]171-anne had considerable difficulty in restraining [herself]171-anne when , after a day spent with [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , [he]447-hamlin came in the evening to [her]171-anne , and began the usual talk about [his]447-hamlin soul being shrivelled up . “[0-i] [I]0-i feel [I]0-i am not worthy to live ! ” [he]447-hamlin exclaimed . “[0-i] [I]0-i have become too weak and selfish to enjoy [the world]496-the world ; [I]0-i feel that [I]0-i am sinking into a bog of meanness and sensuality ; and yet [I]0-i can not even become the mere beast that [I]0-i ought — the mere beast that would be satisfied with the mud . [I]0-i keep looking up , and longing for higher things which [I]0-i can not attain . ” “[0-i] How very sad ! ” said [Anne]171-anne , icily ; “[0-i] what a pity [you]0-i ca n’t make up [your]0-i mind ! it would save [you]0-i much valuable time . But then , [I]0-i suppose , it always comes in usefully for sonnets . That is the great advantage of being [a poet]498-a poet . ” [Hamlin]447-hamlin was silent . [He]447-hamlin had — [she]171-anne felt sure , and [she]171-anne was indignant as if at an affront — imagined that [he]447-hamlin might tempt [her]171-anne into saying—“I[0-i] will raise [you]0-i , ” while [[his]447-hamlin poor , giddy , irresponsible cousin]6457-his poor , giddy , irresponsible cousin was being dragged further and further into a passion which [she]171-anne would never recover from — for [she]171-anne , at least , had a heart and [he]447-hamlin had none . “[0-i] [You]0-i despise [me]0-i ! ” cried [Hamlin]447-hamlin , after a minute . “[0-i] [I]0-i thought [your]0-i indecision between the bog and the stars rather contemptible , certainly , just now . But [I]0-i now see that such conditions are as necessary to [you]0-i as [a poet]498-a poet as are [your]0-i lay figures and studio properties to [you]0-i as [a painter]500-a painter . It was [my]0-i ignorance . ” [Hamlin]447-hamlin fixed [his]447-hamlin eyes on the ground . [He]447-hamlin looked very weak and miserable , and like [a man who feels that [he]6458-a man who feels that he has dishonoured himself in some way has dishonoured [himself]6458-a man who feels that he has dishonoured himself in some way in some way]6458-a man who feels that he has dishonoured himself in some way . But to [Anne]171-anne it was all merely a piece of acting — the climax of that long and nauseous comedy of self‐reproach and self‐sympathising , of pretending to hanker after evil and good , that was equally indifferent to him,—that comedy which had begun long ago in [his]447-hamlin letters to [her]171-anne at [Coblenz]51-coblenz , which [she]171-anne had watched with admiration , and love , and agony at first , and with contempt and disgust at last . And [she]171-anne was hardened towards [him]447-hamlin . [She]171-anne could have said to him—“Go[0-i] and marry [Sacha]447-hamlin ! ” only that at this moment such a notion seemed an insult to [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , and that a horrible fear possessed [her]171-anne that [he]447-hamlin would seize upon that , and try and work [her]171-anne and [her]171-anne anger into this very patchwork of artificial and morbid sentiment over which [he]447-hamlin was for ever gloating . Once or twice , indeed , it did occur to [Anne]171-anne that perhaps this whole flirtation with [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had been got up by [Hamlin]447-hamlin for [her]171-anne , benefit ; that [he]447-hamlin was playing with the heart of [the foolish little woman]6460-the foolish little woman ( who did not realise that [he]447-hamlin was making [her]6460-the foolish little woman love [him]447-hamlin ) merely to provoke [Anne]171-anne ’s jealousy — to move [her]171-anne by this means , since [he]447-hamlin had failed by every other . But even if it had been thus begun , and [Miss Brown]171-anne shrank from believing that [Hamlin]447-hamlin would have been so deliberately base , it was clear that the comedy had become reality — that [he]447-hamlin cared for [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin and [she]171-anne for [him]447-hamlin . Perhaps — perhaps — all this remorse was real after all . But [Anne]171-anne ’s heart had got hardened against [him]447-hamlin : [she]171-anne could no longer , do what [he]447-hamlin liked , believe that there was anything genuine in [him]447-hamlin . Meanwhile [Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s perpetual attendance on [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had become apparent to [every one]4712-every one ; and even [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer admitted to [[her]288-mrs spencer father]4143-her father that [Hamlin]447-hamlin could not have proposed that day [she]288-mrs spencer had met [Anne]171-anne . “[447-hamlin] That is to say — mind [you]3214-you , [I]0-i daresay [he]3215-he actually did propose ; but [that wretched woman]3216-that wretched woman somehow contrived to talk [him]3215-he over again . [I]0-i believe [she]3216-that wretched woman ’s capable of everything ! ” “[3216-that wretched woman] Well , [[my]0-i dear]4237-my dear , ” said [[her]288-mrs spencer father]4143-her father , “[3216-that wretched woman] it goes a little against [your]4237-my dear theory that [Miss Brown]171-anne looks just as happy as possible . ” “[171-anne] Because [she]3216-that wretched woman ’s too honourable to believe ! ” exclaimed [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ; and forgetting the many acrimonious remarks in which [she]288-mrs spencer had indulged against [Miss Brown]171-anne , and the many times [she]288-mrs spencer had sighed at [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin taking up with a “[3216-that wretched woman] mere soulless Italian ” instead of with this or the other Sappho or Properzia dei Rossi of [[her]288-mrs spencer circle]6465-her circle , [she]288-mrs spencer added—“I[3218-one of the noblest women in the world] always knew that [Anne]171-anne was [one of [the noblest women in [the world]496-the world]3219-the noblest women in the world]3218-one of the noblest women in the world ; and [the nobler women]3221-the nobler women are , the less will [they]3221-the nobler women believe in the baseness of [men]4644-men . For [my]0-i part , [I]0-i think love and marriage are the greatest curses of [a woman]3960-a woman ’s life . ” In which [sentiment poor Mr Spencer]357-mr spencer modestly acquiesced . “[0-i] [I]0-i shall have to warn [her]171-anne some day , if [no one else]1033-no one else has the courage to do so , ” [she]0-i said . Of course [no one else]1033-no one else did have the courage . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis became every day more and more offensive in manner to [Miss Brown]171-anne ; [he]353-lewis hated [her]171-anne , and [he]353-lewis enjoyed seeing [her]171-anne what [he]353-lewis considered ousted . [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , although [she]171-anne went on abusing [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine for being [the Sacha of other days]6467-the sacha of other days , lived too much in [[her]171-anne bedroom]4654-her bedroom , saw too little of what was going on even in [the house]509-the house , to guess at anything . [Mary]324-mary leigh and [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory looked on in wonder and indignation ; but [Anne]171-anne ’s calm and cheerful manner forbade [their]6470-their saying anything . Did not [Anne]171-anne know better than [any one]4101-any one how [Hamlin]145-hamlin felt towards [her]171-anne ? and if [Anne]171-anne was satisfied , must it not all be a delusion ? “[0-i] Besides , [Hamlin]145-hamlin is too honourable , ” said [Mary]324-mary leigh , forgetting about the letter to [Harry Collett]376-harry collett ; “[145-hamlin] and how could [a poet]498-a poet , [an artist]3956-an artist , prefer [an odious , rowdy , hysterical creature]3227-an odious , rowdy , hysterical creature like [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine to such a being as [Anne Brown]171-anne ? ” The mere thought seemed a profanation . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t think [Hamlin]145-hamlin is a bit noble , ” said [Marjory]249-marjory , sternly ; “[145-hamlin] and [such a little wretch]3228-such a little wretch is just likely to pamper [his]145-hamlin vanity — and [Anne]171-anne is too honest to do that . ” “[171-anne] [Every man]5756-every man has a nobler and a baser side , ” said [Harry Collett]376-harry collett , mercifully . “[171-anne] [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ( though [I]0-i think it very uncharitable to hate [her]360-madame elaguine because [she]360-madame elaguine is a little rowdy , and [I]0-i ’m sure [she]360-madame elaguine ’s quite innocent ) may flatter [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s worse part . But [the nobler]3230-the nobler will always have its way , and with it [Miss Brown]171-anne . [Walter]145-hamlin is weak , but [he]145-hamlin can see the difference between [an inferior woman]3231-an inferior woman and [a superior one]3232-a superior one . Besides , after all , [she]171-anne is [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , and [I]0-i see no reason to go tittle‐tattling because [two cousins]6381-two cousins are [friends]4095-friends . ” “[0-i] That ’s the way [Harry]376-harry collett pays off [Hamlin]145-hamlin for writing that beastly letter about [me]0-i ! ” said [Marjory]249-marjory to [[her]249-marjory sister]603-her sister , when [Mr Collett]427-mr collett was gone . “[145-hamlin] How [I]0-i do hate evangelical charity ! how [I]0-i do wish [Harry]376-harry collett had just a little of the bad in [him]145-hamlin ! ” [Mary]324-mary leigh laughed , and catching hold of [Marjory]249-marjory , kissed [her]603-her sister . “[0-i] What do [you]0-i mean ? ” cried [Marjory]249-marjory , indignantly breaking loose . “[0-i] [I]0-i mean , [Marjory]249-marjory dear , that though [you]249-marjory imagine the contrary , [you]249-marjory are very , very glad that [Harry]376-harry collett is just what [he]145-hamlin is . ” “[0-i] Well , perhaps [I]0-i am . But still , oh , [I]0-i do hate . . . ” And thus [the Leighs]327-the leighs , being very happy [themselves]327-the leighs , forgot [Anne Brown]171-anne ’s supposed grievances , even as the best of [us]6473-us , being happy , will forget the wrongs of [others]4163-others . But there was [one person who could not forget what seemed to [him]145-hamlin the most frightful sacrilege in [the world]496-the world]6475-one person who could not forget what seemed to him the most frightful sacrilege in the world ; and [that person]4730-that person was [Mr Cosmo Chough]248-chough . [He]4730-that person considered [himself]4730-that person as [the assistant high priest of the divinity called [Anne Brown]171-anne]6478-the assistant high priest of the divinity called anne brown , and [he]4730-that person believed that it was [his]4730-that person duty to bring back [the high priest]6479-the high priest in person , namely [Hamlin]145-hamlin , to the worship from which the powers of evil had momentarily seduced [him]4730-that person . But [he]4730-that person thought it more simple to apply to [the offended goddess]6480-the offended goddess than to [[her]6480-the offended goddess recalcitrant priest]6481-her recalcitrant priest , who , to tell the truth , had treated [his]4730-that person vague remarks with considerable scorn . Accordingly , one day ( [June]452-june had come round now ) [Miss Brown]171-anne was informed that [Mr Cosmo Chough]248-chough desired to see [her]171-anne . “[0-i] How ao [you]3236-you do , [Mr Chough]248-chough ? ” said [Anne]171-anne , stretching out [her]171-anne hand to [the little man , who came in with even more than usually brushed coat and hat , and more than usually blacked boots]6482-the little man , who came in with even more than usually brushed coat and hat , and more than usually blacked boots , [his]6482-the little man , who came in with even more than usually brushed coat and hat , and more than usually blacked boots lips squeezed into a long , cat‐like grimace of solemnity , [his]6482-the little man , who came in with even more than usually brushed coat and hat , and more than usually blacked boots brows knit gloomily , and walking on the tips of [his]6482-the little man , who came in with even more than usually brushed coat and hat , and more than usually blacked boots toes like [an operatic conspirator]6483-an operatic conspirator . [Mr Chough]248-chough sat down and sighed . “[248-chough] Will [you]3236-you have some tea ? ” asked [Miss Brown]171-anne , with [her]171-anne hand on the bell . [The poet of womanhood]6484-the poet of womanhood darted up , laid one hand lightly on [Anne]171-anne ’s arm , and opening and straightening out the other with an eloquent gesture , said — “[0-i] Excuse [me]0-i . [I]0-i would rather have no tea . [I]0-i want [your]3236-you attention — [your]3236-you best attention — seriously and at once . ” [Anne]171-anne could not help smiling . “[0-i] [You]3236-you can have both some tea and [my]0-i best , [my]0-i very best attention , ” [she]0-i said . [Mr Chough]248-chough sighed , and waited gloomily until tea had been brought , absolutely refusing to open [his]3236-you lips . “[3236-you] Have [you]3236-you brought something to read to [me]0-i ? ” asked [Anne]171-anne , thinking it might be some new bit of the ‘ Triumph of Womanhood , ’ which [Cosmo Chough]248-chough most innocently read to [all the ladies of [his]3236-you acquaintance]6485-all the ladies of his acquaintance , only [Anne]171-anne having the courage to say every now and then , “[3236-you] [I]0-i think that had better be omitted , [Mr Chough]248-chough . [I]0-i think [people]577-people will give it a bad meaning which perhaps [you]3236-you do n’t intend . ” “[577-people] [I]0-i have nothing to read , ” answered [Chough]248-chough , solemnly . “[577-people] [I]0-i have come to ask [your]3236-you advice about a matter more important than any literary one . ” “[0-i] [You]3236-you shall have it if [I]0-i can give any . Go on , [Mr Chough]248-chough . ” “[248-chough] Well , then , ” began [Cosmo]248-chough , stooping forward on [his]6486-his chair and frowning , “[0-i] let [me]0-i premise that [I]0-i have [two friends whom [I]0-i greatly value]3238-two friends whom i greatly value . [I]0-i am not at liberty to mention [their]3238-two friends whom i greatly value names ; but [I]0-i will call [one the Duke]3239-one the duke , and [the other la Marquise]3240-the other la marquise . ” “[0-i] Oh ! ” cried [Anne]171-anne , laughing , “[0-i] [I]0-i fear [I]0-i ca n’t give [you]3236-you any advice about [such exalted people as that]3241-such exalted people as that . [I]0-i am [a woman of the people]3242-a woman of the people , and have never known [a duke]1651-a duke in [my]0-i life . ” “[1651-a duke] One moment ’s patience , [dear Miss Brown]171-anne . [This Duke]3244-this duke — who lives — well , let [us]3245-us say [he]3244-this duke has a magnificent hôtel entre cour et jardin in [Paris]42-paris , has been affianced ever since [his]3244-this duke childhood to [the Marquise]3246-the marquise , who is the most beautiful and divine woman in [the world]496-the world , as [he]3244-this duke , indeed , is [the most accomplished gentleman]3248-the most accomplished gentleman , besides being [[my]0-i dearest friend]3249-my dearest friend ; and [they]3250-their have been looking forward to a union which will make [their]3250-their happiness , and that of [[their]3250-their friends]3251-their friends , perfect . Do [you]3252-you follow that ? But now — ” and [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , stretching out one long thin leg , so as to display [his]3244-this duke small foot and the martial wrinkles of [his]3244-this duke boot , and propping [his]3244-this duke elbow on [his]3244-this duke other knee—“now[3253-mark] , [mark]3253-mark . There comes into [our]3254-our perfect duet a discordant voice . [A certain lady , whom [I]0-i will designate as the Queen of Night”—and]6487-a certain lady , whom i will designate as the queen of night”—and [he]3244-this duke made [his]3244-this duke cat ’s grimace , and pausing , looked mournfully at [Miss Brown]171-anne , who sat quietly by , bending over a piece of embroidery which [she]171-anne was doing from a design by [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “[6487-a certain lady , whom i will designate as the queen of night”—and] Well ! ” “[6487-a certain lady , whom i will designate as the queen of night”—and] Well , [this lady]3255-this lady , by some occult power of which [I]0-i can not judge , gains possession of the fancy of [the Duke]3256-the duke — not of [his]3256-the duke heart,—he still continuing to love [the Marquise coralment]3257-the marquise coralment , as [the trouvères say,—and]3258-the trouvères say,—and in short leads [him]3256-the duke , without however , as [I]0-i said , in the least diminishing [his]3256-the duke passionate love for [the Marquise]3246-the marquise , into acts , or at least appearances , which , to the mind of [the vulgar]3260-the vulgar are incompatible with such love . What do [you]3261-his say to that ? ” Little by [little Miss Brown]171-anne had guessed what [Chough]248-chough was hiding beneath this grotesque piece of romancing . “[0-i] [I]0-i say that [the vulgar]3260-the vulgar are probably right ; and that [the Marquise]3246-the marquise , for all the coral love of [the Duke]3256-the duke , had better throw [him]3256-the duke over , if [she]3246-the marquise has a grain of self‐respect . Will [you]3261-his have another cup , [Mr Chough]248-chough ? ” [Anne]171-anne spoke coldly and indifferently ; and [Chough]248-chough , who , despite [his]3261-his vaunted knowledge of the human heart , was [the most obtuse of [good‐hearted little people]6489-good‐hearted little people]6488-the most obtuse of good‐hearted little people , actually prided [himself]3261-his upon having put [his]3261-his case so delicately , that [Miss Brown]171-anne could not even guess as yet that [she]3246-the marquise was alluded to . “[3261-his] But [the Duke]3256-the duke would die were [he]3256-the duke to lose [her]3246-the marquise ! [The Queen of Night]4214-the queen of night , who is [a wicked fairy]3267-a wicked fairy — une méchante fée — une fernme serpent — une mélusine , enfin tout ce qu’il vous plaira ” ( [Chough]248-chough always liked to show off [his]3261-his French)—“has[4214-the queen of night] fascinated only [his]3261-his fancy , not [his]3261-his heart . It would be most unfair if [he]3261-his were to lose [the Marquise]453-the marquise . Well , to proceed ; the remedy would easily be found . [La Marquise]453-the marquise , like [all passionately loving women]3268-all passionately loving women , is a little cold and proud — tant soit peu hautaine et glaciale — need only thaw towards [the Duke]3256-the duke . [She]3246-the marquise need only say or make [a friend]4706-a friend tell [him]3261-his , that [she]3246-the marquise adores [him]3261-his and that [he]3261-his is [her]3246-the marquise sole happiness — and see ! [the Queen of Night]4214-the queen of night ’s spells are forthwith broken by the power of true love — the Eternal Womanhood reasserts its right , and all is happy again . But the mischief is , that there is no means of bringing this home to [the lady]3881-the lady . Lately , indeed , [a trusty and respectful friend]3273-a trusty and respectful friend , [an Italian]3901-an italian — [a poet of some small distinction]3275-a poet of some small distinction , [I]0-i may add — ventured so far as to acquaint [her]3881-the lady of the public rumour concerning — [I]0-i mean concerning [the Duke]3256-the duke and [the Queen of Night]4214-the queen of night — in an anonymous letter . . . ” [Miss Brown]171-anne suddenly sat bolt‐upright , and fixing [her]171-anne eyes on [Chough]248-chough , said — “[0-i] [You]0-i do n’t mean to say that [you]0-i — [you]0-i actually concocted that ridiculous missive ? ” “[0-i] Ridiculous missive ! What ridiculous missive ? ” asked [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , striking an attitude . “[0-i] Well , [I]0-i ought rather to say that most ungentlemanly anonymous letter , written in Italian which would make a cat laugh . ” “[0-i] Ungentlemanly ! ungentlemanly ! ” howled [Chough]248-chough ; but in reality what [he]3278-the friend who respects you most in the whole world was thinking of was [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s stricture upon [the Italian]441-italian . “[0-i] Oh , [Miss Brown]171-anne ! ” [he]3278-the friend who respects you most in the whole world cried , after a minute , “[171-anne] and it is possible that [you]171-anne should so far have misunderstood [the friend who respects [you]171-anne most in [the whole world]4244-the whole world]3278-the friend who respects you most in the whole world , as to have supposed that that letter had any evil intention ? Is it possible that [you]171-anne , who have of all people in [the world]496-the world been kindest to [me]0-i , who have been as [a mother to [[my]0-i children]3970-my children]3281-a mother to my children — that [you]171-anne should have such an opinion of [me]0-i ? ” [Poor Cosmo]454-poor cosmo had let go all [his]454-poor cosmo affectation ; [he]454-poor cosmo wrung [his]454-poor cosmo hands in real distress , and [he]454-poor cosmo actually seemed to be crying . “[3283-oh fool] [Oh fool]3283-oh fool , [fool]3284-fool that [I]0-i was , trying to do good , and merely making [myself]0-i seem [an odious ungrateful wretch]3285-an odious ungrateful wretch ! ” [His]454-poor cosmo sorrow was so genuine that [Miss Brown]171-anne felt quite sorry for [him]454-poor cosmo . “[3284-fool] Come , come , [dear Mr Chough]248-chough , ” [she]171-anne said , “[248-chough] do n’t distress [yourself]248-chough . [I]0-i think [you]248-chough did a rather improper thing , but [I]0-i am quite persuaded that [you]248-chough merely wished to do good . ” And [she]171-anne stretched out [her]171-anne hand . [Chough]248-chough struck [his]454-poor cosmo head with [his]454-poor cosmo fist . “[0-i] Ah , [you]248-chough are good — [you]248-chough are too good — dear , dear [Miss Brown]171-anne ! but [I]0-i shall never recover from it — never . To think [I]0-i only wished to do good — and [you]248-chough think [me]0-i [a slanderer]3286-a slanderer ! ” “[248-chough] Oh no , ” said [Anne]171-anne , quietly , “[248-chough] [I]0-i do n’t think it for a moment . [I]0-i know that all that letter contained was true , except that [you]248-chough were unjust to one of [the parties]3287-the parties ; for [I]0-i am sure [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is not at all base , and has no conception of what [she]360-madame elaguine is drifting into . ” [Chough]248-chough gaped in astonishment . “[248-chough] [You]248-chough believe it to be true , and yet . . . ” “[248-chough] How can [I]0-i help believing by this time what [every creature]3288-every creature can see , and what every creature , except [themselves]3288-every creature perhaps , must and does see as clear as the sun at noon ? ” [Anne]171-anne spoke very composedly . “[248-chough] But if that is the case — if [you]248-chough know — why then , how is it that [you]248-chough don’t — well , that [you]248-chough do n’t put a stop to it ? ” “[248-chough] One ca n’t put a stop to what has already taken place . ” “[248-chough] Oh , but [you]248-chough can — [you]248-chough can — and it was in hopes of [your]248-chough doing it that [I]0-i wrote that letter . It is to entreat [you]248-chough to do it that [I]0-i have come now , [dear]4117-dear , [dear [Miss Brown]171-anne]3290-dear miss brown , to supplicate , to implore [you]248-chough . . . ” “[0-i] To do what ? ” There was a freezing indifference in [her]0-i voice . “[0-i] To do what ? Why , to do everything and anything ! [Dearest Miss Brown]455-dearest miss brown , [I]0-i know , [I]0-i understand fully , that [Hamlin]145-hamlin has acted unworthily towards [you]248-chough . [I]0-i know , [I]0-i admit , that to [a woman like [you]248-chough]2693-a woman like you — all passion , all nobility — [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s behaviour must be odious . But would it not be worthy of [you]248-chough to reflect that [Hamlin]145-hamlin is [a poet]498-a poet , and acting merely as [a poet]498-a poet must act ? [A poet]498-a poet is [a double‐natured creature]3295-a double‐natured creature , [a baser and a nobler nature]3296-a baser and a nobler nature , and [his]498-a poet whole life consists merely in receiving as many and various impressions as both [his]498-a poet natures can receive . [A poet]498-a poet must know the stars , and know the mud beneath [his]498-a poet feet ; [he]498-a poet must drink the milk and the absinthe of life,—he must love purely and impurely , with [his]498-a poet heart , with [his]498-a poet fancy , and with [his]498-a poet senses — ah , [you]248-chough frown!—well , but such [the poet]5371-the poet is , such is [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [His]145-hamlin soul loves and adores [you]248-chough ; what if , at the same time , [his]145-hamlin baser nature , [the satyr in the god]3299-the satyr in the god , be caught elsewhere ? [He]145-hamlin loves [you]248-chough none the less ; yes , [he]145-hamlin loves [you]248-chough even at the moment . . . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i think this all rather disgusting , do n’t [you]0-i , [Mr Chough]248-chough ? ” said [Anne]171-anne , sternly . “[248-chough] Nay , have patience — for the sake of [Hamlin]145-hamlin , for the sake of [your]248-chough own noble goodness ! [He]145-hamlin loves [you]248-chough : and it requires but a look , a word , a message , to make [him]145-hamlin forget that other love , to make it evaporate like opium‐fumes . Oh say this word — say it — and blow that ugly cloud of impure love from off the fair resplendent face of [his]145-hamlin devotion to [you]248-chough ! Write to [him]145-hamlin — speak to [him]145-hamlin . Empower [me]0-i , [oh dearest lady]3300-oh dearest lady , to tell [him]145-hamlin that [you]248-chough love [him]145-hamlin , and that this wretched fancy of [his]145-hamlin is making [you]248-chough miserable ! ” “[145-hamlin] It is not , ” answered [Anne]171-anne , harshly ; “[145-hamlin] it is not doing anything of the sort , and it is no more a fancy than [his]145-hamlin love for [me]0-i . As to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , [she]360-madame elaguine is in every way fit to be [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife . ” “[360-madame elaguine] [[His]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife ! ” screamed [Chough]248-chough , and looked as if [he]145-hamlin would faint ; “[700-his wife] and [you]248-chough would let [your]248-chough resentment go thus far — [you]248-chough would let the nettles choke the roses , the impure passion choke the pure one , [you]248-chough would sacrifice [him]145-hamlin and [yourself]248-chough — [you]248-chough would let [him]145-hamlin . . . ” “[248-chough] [I]0-i would let [him]145-hamlin marry [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin . There is no impurity about it , so please do n’t revert to that , [Mr Chough]248-chough . [She]360-madame elaguine is just [the woman who might make [him]145-hamlin happy]3304-the woman who might make him happy ; the inclination is perfectly natural and proper . ” [Chough]248-chough started up . “[360-madame elaguine] Oh , [[you]248-chough saint]3305-you saint ! [[you]248-chough noble heroic woman]3306-you noble heroic woman ! ” [he]145-hamlin cried , kissing [Anne]171-anne ’s dress enthusiastically . “[360-madame elaguine] What are [you]248-chough doing , [Mr Chough]248-chough ? ” [she]171-anne asked angrily . “[248-chough] [I]0-i am kissing the holiest thing [I]0-i shall ever touch , ” answered [the little man]4944-the little man solemnly . “[0-i] Yes ! [you]248-chough are [a saint]924-a saint , [an Alkertis]3308-an alkertis , an Iphigenia ! But [we]3309-we will not let the monstrous self‐sacrifice take place ! No , by heaven ! never , never ! [You]248-chough shall not give up [your]248-chough happiness ; [I]0-i will speak to [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [I]0-i will tell [him]145-hamlin all , all — that [you]248-chough love [him]145-hamlin . . . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i do not love [Hamlin]145-hamlin , ” said [Anne]171-anne sternly , pronouncing every word clearly and slowly . “[0-i] [You]248-chough do not love [Hamlin!—you]456-hamlin!—you do not want — ” [Poor little Chough]248-chough was so utterly dumfounded that [he]145-hamlin had not the breath to finish [his]145-hamlin sentence . “[248-chough] [You]248-chough have obliged [me]0-i to say what [I]0-i never intended to say to [any one]4101-any one , ” said [Anne]171-anne . “[0-i] No ; [I]0-i do not love [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; and if [he]145-hamlin marry [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , [I]0-i shall be happier than [I]0-i thought [I]0-i ever could be . ” “[248-chough] [You]248-chough love [another]5884-another ! ” whispered [Chough]248-chough , [his]145-hamlin eyebrows and whiskers standing on end . “[5884-another] Neither [him]145-hamlin nor [any one else]1701-any one else . ” “[5884-another] Then why — why have [you]248-chough not told [him]145-hamlin so ? Why make the sacrifice of [your]248-chough inclinations — because , marrying [him]145-hamlin , [you]248-chough would be — why ? ” “[145-hamlin] [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has done everything for [me]0-i . [I]0-i was [a penniless , ignorant servant]3314-a penniless , ignorant servant . [He]145-hamlin had [me]0-i taught , [he]145-hamlin gave [me]0-i [his]145-hamlin money , [he]145-hamlin gave [me]0-i more kindness and trustfulness and generosity than [any man]1338-any man ever gave [any woman]1339-any woman [I]0-i think , and [I]0-i must pay [my]0-i debt . If [he]145-hamlin wants [me]0-i , [he]145-hamlin shall have [me]0-i . If not , so much the better for [me]0-i . ” There was a silence . [Anne]171-anne took up [her]171-anne piece of work ; [Chough]248-chough sat rapping gently on the table with [his]3317-you finger‐tips , looking wonderingly at [her]171-anne . At last [Miss Brown]171-anne spoke . “[3317-you] [You]3317-you have got [my]0-i secret out of [me]0-i , [Mr Chough]248-chough . [I]0-i do n’t believe much in [you]3317-you poets ; and [I]0-i think [you]3317-you are [a giddy]3318-a giddy , often [a foolish man]3319-a foolish man . But [I]0-i think [you]3317-you are [a gentleman at heart]3320-a gentleman at heart , and [a good man]3321-a good man ; and as such , [I]0-i trust [you]3317-you never to let out , either by speech or hint or look , positively or negatively , a word of what [I]0-i have told [you]3317-you . If [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin marry [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , so much the better ; if [he]145-hamlin marry [me]0-i , so much the worse . But what must be , must be . And come what may , [I]0-i depend upon [you]3317-you , as [the only friend upon whom [I]0-i can rely]3323-the only friend upon whom i can rely , to forget all that [I]0-i have told [you]3317-you to‐day . Will [you]3317-you promise ? ” [Miss Brown]171-anne looked very solemn ; and [Chough]248-chough was overcome by an almost religious awe . “[3317-you] [I]0-i promise never to reveal , ” [he]145-hamlin said quietly , “[0-i] but [you]3317-you must not ask [me]0-i to forget ; [I]0-i have neither the power nor the right to forget the best thing [I]0-i have known in [my]0-i life . Goodbye , [Miss Brown]171-anne , and [God]195-god bless [you]3317-you ! ” And [Anne]171-anne , who believed only in right and wrong , felt really the better and stronger for the blessing of [the preposterous little poet of [Messalina]365-messalina]6491-the preposterous little poet of messalina [and [Lucrezia Borgia]457-and lucrezia borgia , who declared himself to be an atheist when he did not declare himself to be a catholic mystic , who declared [himself]457-and lucrezia borgia , who declared himself to be an atheist when he did not declare himself to be a catholic mystic to be an atheist when [he]457-and lucrezia borgia , who declared himself to be an atheist when he did not declare himself to be a catholic mystic did not declare [himself]457-and lucrezia borgia , who declared himself to be an atheist when he did not declare himself to be a catholic mystic to be [a Catholic mystic]6492-a catholic mystic]457-and lucrezia borgia , who declared himself to be an atheist when he did not declare himself to be a catholic mystic . SOME time after this conversation with [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , a circumstance took place which caused great momentary excitement , and considerably unsettled [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s mind . The summer had come with a sudden rush ; and [Hamlin]145-hamlin had had the notion of taking [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt and [Miss Brown]171-anne , and [two or three friends]6494-two or three friends , to spend a week at [Wotton]94-wotton . Among [these friends]6495-these friends was [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . That [Hamlin]145-hamlin should care to take [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin to [the house where [she]1267-his cousin had played so lamentable a part in [her]1267-his cousin childhood]6497-the house where she had played so lamentable a part in her childhood ; that [Sacha]447-hamlin should endure to confront [those invisible ghosts of [[her]1267-his cousin uncle]6499-her uncle , [[her]1267-his cousin cousins]6500-her cousins , [[her]1267-his cousin own former self]6501-her own former self , of all the shameful past , which haunted [that house]6502-that house]6498-those invisible ghosts of her uncle , her cousins , her own former self , of all the shameful past , which haunted that house , was quite incomprehensible to [Anne]171-anne . But day by day [she]1267-his cousin was forced to recognise that [she]1267-his cousin was surrounded by incomprehensible ways of feeling and thinking , that [she]1267-his cousin was , in a way , like [a person solitary among mankind from deafness or blindness]6503-a person solitary among mankind from deafness or blindness , from incapacity to put [herself]1267-his cousin in [their]6498-those invisible ghosts of her uncle , her cousins , her own former self , of all the shameful past , which haunted that house place ; and recognising this , [she]1267-his cousin recognised also , with [her]1267-his cousin unflinching justice , that [she]1267-his cousin had no right to hastily condemn the things which [she]1267-his cousin could not understand . So when [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , on the evening of [her]360-madame elaguine arrival at [Wotton]94-wotton , insisted on wandering all over [the once familiar house]6504-the once familiar house , and openly said that [she]360-madame elaguine felt a pleasure , the bitter pleasure of self‐inflicted penance , in confronting the past , in humiliating [her]360-madame elaguine present self by the company of [her]360-madame elaguine former self , [Anne]171-anne merely said to [herself]171-anne that [she]171-anne could not conceive [a woman]3960-a woman feeling like that — but that , nevertheless , this theatrical and hysterical excitement might , after all , lead to as good a result as [her]360-madame elaguine own silent and painful solitary self‐absorption . “[195-god] [She]3324-she is [a brazen creature]3325-a brazen creature ! ” [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia had cried , when [she]247-aunt claudia heard that [Sacha]447-hamlin was going to [Wotton]94-wotton ; “[3325-a brazen creature] corrupt like [[her]3324-she father]4143-her father , and fantastic like [[her]3324-she mother]1278-her mother . [She]3324-she must get [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer or [some one else]1193-some one else to chaperon [her]3324-she in [that house]6502-that house , if indeed [she]3324-she wants any one . [I]0-i shall stay behind . As to [you]3330-you , [Annie]171-anne , [you]3330-you are at liberty to go or not go , of course . ” “[0-i] [I]0-i shall go , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ” [Anne]171-anne had answered resolutely , “[247-aunt claudia] because [I]0-i do n’t see that [I]0-i have a right to imply by [my]0-i absence that [I]0-i disapprove of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s going to [Wotton]94-wotton . [I]0-i neither approve nor disapprove ; and [I]0-i think that , however little [we]3331-we may sympathise with [her]360-madame elaguine notions of self‐humiliation , [we]3331-we must give [her]360-madame elaguine the benefit of supposing that [she]360-madame elaguine is honest in them . ” So [Anne]171-anne had gone . The self‐humiliation of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , and the hours [she]360-madame elaguine had spent in [[her]360-madame elaguine room]1374-her room — [she]360-madame elaguine had asked for [the room which had been [hers]360-madame elaguine as [a child]623-a child]6507-the room which had been hers as a child — crying over the past , did not prevent [her]360-madame elaguine being in excessively high spirits the evening following [their]6509-their arrival and the successive one . It would seem as if the painful associations in which [she]360-madame elaguine had steeped [herself]360-madame elaguine had produced a reaction in [her]360-madame elaguine whole nature . [She]360-madame elaguine was childishly , almost uproariously gay , played with [little Helen]415-helen the greater part of the afternoon , and after dinner treated [the company]1514-the company — that is to say , [Anne]171-anne , [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , [Lewis]353-lewis , and [Hamlin]447-hamlin — to a perfect concert of all manner of wild gipsy songs , Spanish and Russian , sung with a fury which amounted almost to genius ; and followed these up with little French songs , old and new , picked up heaven knows where — from operettes , from [peasants]826-peasants , from books — the words of which and the astonishing gaminerie with which they were delivered , amused [Lewis]353-lewis to fits of laughing , threw Chough into enthusiasm , annoyed [Hamlin]447-hamlin a little , puzzled poor [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , and made [Anne]171-anne reflect , as charitably as [she]171-anne could , upon the different standards of propriety which seemed to exist for [Englishwomen]6512-englishwomen and for [Russians]402-most russians . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s songs made [Anne]171-anne feel quite uncomfortable and angry ; but [she]171-anne said nothing , seeing [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , who could tolerate any amount of impropriety as long as it was medieval and poetic , was evidently putting down this French levity as a mark of [the Russian woman]6513-the russian woman ’s depravity ; and [she]171-anne felt somehow , that though [she]171-anne was annoyed [herself]171-anne , and annoyed with good cause , [she]171-anne must not back up [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer ’s prejudiced indignation . [Cousin Sacha]359-sacha seemed to take a pleasure in vexing [Hamlin]447-hamlin , in shocking [Anne]171-anne , in making [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer think [her]171-anne [a wicked creature]6514-a wicked creature ; [she]171-anne sang on , in [her]171-anne devil‐may‐care , street‐boy way , with a malicious , childish impudence in [her]171-anne face ; then suddenly , when [she]171-anne saw [Hamlin]447-hamlin get positively black at what [he]447-hamlin considered [her]171-anne bad taste — suddenly dropped from [her]171-anne leste French couplets into a strange , wild , Spanish gipsy song , sad and despairing beyond saying . [She]171-anne looked very fascinating , as [she]171-anne sat near the window , resting [her]171-anne guitar on [her]171-anne knee , [her]171-anne tiny feet and embroidered stockings very visible beneath the lace flounces and frills of [her]171-anne thistle‐down dress ; [her]171-anne deep , Russian blue eyes looking , as it seemed , rather into the past than the present , [her]171-anne whole slight , even emaciated , body and face tense with a sort of hysterical emotion . Suddenly [she]171-anne threw the guitar on the sofa . “[360-madame elaguine] Bah ! ” [she]171-anne cried , “[360-madame elaguine] what is the use of singing sad things when one is sad ? and what is the use of pretending to be merry , and shocking [people]577-people with polissoneries when one feels as old and dismal as at ninety ? [I]0-i hate music . ” And [she]171-anne walked through the French window on to [the wide terrace which surrounded one side of [the house]509-the house]6515-the wide terrace which surrounded one side of the house and overlooked [the lawn]6517-the lawn . “[0-i] The only good thing , ” [she]171-anne said , “[0-i] in [this world]5351-this world is tobacco‐smoke . If , ” turning with affected deference and timidity to [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , who considered [a woman who smoked as little short of an adventuress]6518-a woman who smoked as little short of an adventuress , “[3334-you] [you]3334-you have no objection , [these gentlemen]5073-these gentlemen and [I]0-i will have a smoke . ” “[0-i] Oh , pray do n’t mind [me]0-i , ” snorted [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , stalking back into [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room , and sitting down near the window . [The three men]6520-the three men immediately produced cigars and cigarettes and matches . “[0-i] No , thank [you]3336-you , [Walter]145-hamlin , ” said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; “[145-hamlin] [your]3336-you cigarettes are too weak for [me]0-i — too ladylike , like [[their]3337-their owner]3338-their owner , for [a badly brought up woman]3339-a badly brought up woman . [I]0-i must make mine [myself]0-i . ” And [she]0-i went into [[her]0-i bedroom]4654-her bedroom , [the last room opening out to [the terrace]5100-the terrace]6522-the last room opening out to the terrace , to fetch [her]0-i box of tobacco and [her]0-i cigarette‐papers . In a minute [she]0-i returned , whistling , in a curious bird‐like whistle , below [her]0-i breath , and rolling a cigarette in [her]0-i fingers . [Some of [the party]1060-the party]6524-some of the party were seated , some standing . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine came to where [Miss Brown]171-anne was seated , looking into [the twilight park]6526-the twilight park . “[0-i] [Dear Annie]418-anne , ” [she]360-madame elaguine murmured , putting [her]360-madame elaguine arm round [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s neck , in [her]360-madame elaguine childish way , and which yet always affected [Anne]171-anne as might the caress of a lamia ’s clammy scales . “[418-anne] [I]0-i fear , ” [she]360-madame elaguine said , putting [her]360-madame elaguine face close to [Anne]171-anne , and lowering [her]360-madame elaguine voice to a whisper , “[418-anne] that [you]418-anne must have thought [me]0-i horribly vulgar and undignified and indecent just now . [I]0-i do n’t know why [I]0-i sang all those nasty songs ; [I]0-i suppose it was to vex [Walter]145-hamlin . [I]0-i do n’t like them [myself]0-i . But sometimes a sort of horrible desire , a kind of demon inside [me]0-i , makes [me]0-i wish to do something which [I]0-i know is disgusting ; [I]0-i feel as if [I]0-i could be the lowest of [women]3959-women , just from perversity . Ah , it is sickening . ” [Anne]171-anne did not answer . “[447-hamlin] Where did [you]3341-you learn those wonderful little Burgundian couplets , [Sacha]447-hamlin ? ” asked [Lewis]353-lewis , in [his]353-lewis sultan‐like familiar way . [He]353-lewis had a trick of calling [her]3341-you [Sacha]447-hamlin every now and then , as [he]353-lewis had tried , but failed , to call [Miss Brown Annie]458-anne . “[0-i] [I]0-i do n’t know . [I]0-i ought not to have learned them at all ; and [I]0-i ought not to have sung them before [a man like [you]3341-you]3342-a man like you , who notices all [the nastiness there is in anything , and a great deal more besides]3343-the nastiness there is in anything , and a great deal more besides , ” answered [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , coldly . “[3341-you] What a Southern evening ! ” exclaimed [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , looking up at the blue evening sky , singularly pure and blue and high , twinkling with stars , and against which the distant trees stood out clear like the sidescenes of [a theatre]976-a theatre . “[3341-you] It is sad that [our]3344-our cigars should have to do for fireflies,—to be the only thing imitating that , ” and [he]353-lewis pointed at the sky . “[3341-you] A lit cigar is the only imitation of the stars which [[people]577-people like [ourselves]3344-our]3346-people like ourselves can attempt , ” said [the Russian]5582-the russian . “[3341-you] It ’s so in everything — [our]3344-our poetry , [our]3344-our passions — nothing but cigar‐lights for stars ; do n’t [you]3341-you think so , [Annie]458-anne ? ” “[458-anne] What ’s that ? ” asked [Chough]248-chough , suddenly . [They]3344-our looked up at [his]353-lewis startled voice . “[458-anne] What ’s what ? ” asked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , quietly . “[458-anne] Have [you]3341-you seen the ghost of Imperia of [Rome]28-rome , [Mr Chough]248-chough ? ” “[248-chough] What the deuce is that ? ” exclaimed [Lewis]353-lewis . In the midst of the general blue dusk , one of the cedars on [the lawn]6517-the lawn , and a screen of trees beyond , had suddenly burst into sight , enveloped in a bright light , which made the grass all round burn out a vivid yellowish‐green against the darkness . [Anne]458-anne turned round quickly and looked behind [her]458-anne . “[248-chough] [The house]509-the house is on fire ! ” [she]458-anne cried . “[248-chough] [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s room]3348-madame elaguine ’s room ! ” And before [the others]881-the others could understand , [she]0-i had rushed towards the other end of [the terrace]5100-the terrace . The light , which had suddenly illumined [the piece of lawn]6532-the piece of lawn , the trees opposite , did issue , a brilliant broad sheet like that of large chandelier , from out of the open window of [[Sacha]447-hamlin ’s room]6533-sacha ’s room . “[248-chough] Good heavens ! ” cried [Hamlin]447-hamlin , “[3341-you] [you]3341-you must have set the curtains on fire with the match of [your]3341-you cigarette ! ” “[3341-you] No , no , ” cried [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , “[3341-you] [I]0-i lit [my]0-i cigarette [here outside]3349-here outside ; it must be . . . ” and [she]360-madame elaguine rushed wildly after [Anne]458-anne into [[her]458-anne bedroom]4654-her bedroom . An extraordinary spectacle met [Miss Brown]458-anne first , and [the rest of [the party]1060-the party]1059-the rest of the party an instant or two later . [The large old‐fashioned bed of [Cousin Sacha]359-sacha , which stood in the centre of [the room]574-the room]6537-the large old‐fashioned bed of cousin sacha , which stood in the centre of the room , was burning , blazing like a Christmas pudding , [its]6537-the large old‐fashioned bed of cousin sacha , which stood in the centre of the room whole top , coverlet and pillows , turned into a roaring mass of bluish flame , whence arose an acrid stifling smell . “[3350-they] [They]3350-they have done it ! [they]3350-they have done it ! ” shrieked [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , throwing [herself]360-madame elaguine into [Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s arms . “[3350-they] [They]3350-they want to kill [me]0-i ! [they]3350-they have always said so ! ” But before [he]447-hamlin had had time to answer , [she]360-madame elaguine had rushed off into [a neighbouring room]6539-a neighbouring room , and , with a presence of mind most unexpected in [her]360-madame elaguine , returned with a heap of woollen blankets which [she]360-madame elaguine had dragged off a bed . “[3350-they] Pour the water on this ! ” [she]360-madame elaguine cried to [Anne]458-anne , who , with [her]458-anne strong arms , had immediately dashed the contents of a bath on to the flames . “[3350-they] Soak this ! it is useless throwing water on the flames ; ” and taking the soaking blankets , [the little woman]4885-the little woman threw them dexterously on to the blazing bed , among the hissing of the smoke and fire . In a minute [every one]4712-every one had brought blankets , cushions , water ; [the servants]5568-the servants had run up ; and in about five minutes the flames were extinguished . The damages were very trifling compared with the appearance of danger . The fire had not spread beyond the surface of the bed , and consumed only the upper layer of bedding . But the sight of that expanse of waving blue flame had been frightful , and it seemed impossible to realise that no harm had been done . “[353-lewis] How has it happened?”—“How have [they]3350-they done it?”—“Send[353-lewis] to [the police station]3351-the police station . ”—“Scour [the park!”—every[353-lewis] one]6543-the park!”—every one was talking at the same time . “ [I]447-hamlin ’ll go down into [the park]6544-the park and have a good hunt , ”[447-hamlin] said [Hamlin]447-hamlin , taking down one of the guns which hung in [the hall]550-the hall ; “ [they]3350-they ca n’t have got far yet . ”[447-hamlin] “ [I]353-lewis do n’t think [you]288-mrs spencer ’ll catch [them]3350-they , ”[353-lewis] answered [Lewis]353-lewis , in [his]353-lewis drawling ironical way . “ [We]3353-they ’re not in [Russia]115-russia , [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis , ”[288-mrs spencer] rejoined [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , bridling up ; “ here [any one]4101-any one can be caught ; it ’s not [an incompetent police]6546-an incompetent police as abroad . ”[288-mrs spencer] “ Some things ca n’t be caught , ”[353-lewis] said [Lewis]353-lewis , with an odd wise smile . While [they]3353-they were standing discussing in [the hall]550-the hall , [they]3353-they were startled by a sudden thump on the floor . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine [, who had hitherto been singularly calm and energetic]3355-, who had hitherto been singularly calm and energetic , had fallen in a half‐fainting condition , like a column on to the ground . [She]360-madame elaguine was carried in to a couch in [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room , and [Anne]458-anne called [the Swiss maid]6006-the swiss maid , who came , with that sort of insolent indifference to the condition of [[her]458-anne mistress]6009-her mistress , which had struck [Miss Brown]458-anne on more than one similar occasion . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was in a state of hysterical panic — [she]360-madame elaguine wept , and laughed , and talked , and moaned ; but [she]360-madame elaguine absolutely refused to be put to bed , and insisted with great violence that some of [the company]1514-the company should remain about [her]360-madame elaguine . [She]458-anne kept [Hamlin]447-hamlin seated by the side of the sofa , [his]447-hamlin hand in [hers]458-anne , until the arrival of [the police]3360-the police , and of [neighbours who had heard of the burning bed]3361-neighbours who had heard of the burning bed , obliged [him]447-hamlin and [the men]4543-the men to leave [her]360-madame elaguine . As soon as only [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer and [Anne Brown]171-anne remained , [she]458-anne became more calm , and merely lamented over [her]458-anne fate , and over the probability that some day [[her]458-anne enemies]5992-her enemies would really succeed in killing either [her]458-anne or [[her]458-anne child]5949-her child . A curious coincidence occurred , which remained impressed in [Anne]171-anne ’s mind . While [the rest of [the party]1060-the party]1059-the rest of the party , including [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , were examining [the house]509-the house in company with [the policemen]5946-the policemen , [Miss Brown]171-anne , who was seated near [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s sofa — a sense of unreality , as of being at the play , filling [her]171-anne whole nature after that terrible sight of the blazing bed — mechanically opened a book which was lying on the table at [her]171-anne elbow . It was [a child]623-a child ’s story which [she]171-anne had bought on a railway bookstall and given to [little Helen Elaguine]415-helen to keep [her]415-helen quiet during the journey to [Wotton]94-wotton . Mechanically [her]171-anne eye ran along the page ; but suddenly it stopped , as [she]171-anne read the following sentence , printed in rather larger type than the rest — “ And [they]5946-the policemen never forgot , as long as [they]5946-the policemen lived , that terrible burning bed . ”[171-anne] For a moment the words echoed through [Anne]171-anne ’s mind as merely so much sound ; but , as is the case when [we]3370-we hear a name which awakens associations which [we]3370-we can not at first define to [ourselves]3370-we , [she]171-anne was conscious at the same time of an effort to adjust [her]171-anne faculties , to seize a meaning which was there , but which [she]171-anne could not at once grasp . “ And [they]5946-the policemen never forgot , as long as [they]5946-the policemen lived , that terrible burning bed . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne kept on repeating those words to [herself]171-anne . They made [her]171-anne restless . [She]171-anne went to the window , and looked out into the night . The vision of that broad sheet of white light on [the terrace]5100-the terrace and bushes , of that expanse of waving blue flamelets , rose up in [her]171-anne mind . “ That terrible burning bed . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne saw the printed page again . Then , as to a central bubble , other ideas which bubbled up slowly began to gravitate . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s perfect , and , in [a woman so excitable , unaccountable presence of mind]3372-a woman so excitable , unaccountable presence of mind until all chance of further mischief had been over ; the blankets which [she]360-madame elaguine had immediately dragged out of [the next room]3870-the next room , as [a fireman]3374-a fireman might have dragged [them]3375-them ; the rapid instruction , as of [a person accustomed to such things]3376-a person accustomed to such things , to wet the blankets instead of pouring water on the flames , as [all the others]880-all the others had done ; the insolent , indifferent look of [the maid]4505-the maid ; the going into [[her]4505-the maid room]1374-her room to fetch the cigarette‐papers only a minute or two before the conflagration , and when it would seem that whoever had set the bed aflame must have been making the necessary preparations . Then also , the fire had been so carefully limited to the bed , as if no real damage had been meant . No ; that was merely consistent with the usual policy of [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s mysterious enemies]6395-madame elaguine ’s mysterious enemies , who wished to frighten , but not to kill [her]360-madame elaguine . But another thought arose . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine possessed a good deal of valuable old lace , indeed more than [her]360-madame elaguine fortune at all warranted . Old lace was [her]360-madame elaguine hobby and [her]360-madame elaguine pride ; [she]360-madame elaguine had always a lot on [her]360-madame elaguine dress , on [her]360-madame elaguine night‐gown , on everything . Some of the very finest that [she]360-madame elaguine possessed existed in large quantity as the trimming of a white satin dressing‐gown , which , towards the evening , was always put on [her]360-madame elaguine bed . [Anne]171-anne had noticed it this very evening , when [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had called [her]171-anne into [[her]4505-the maid bedroom]4654-her bedroom to ask [her]171-anne advice , as , with [a spoilt child]3382-a spoilt child ’s coquetry , [she]360-madame elaguine often did , about some flowers which [she]360-madame elaguine was putting in [her]360-madame elaguine hair for dinner . For some reason [the maid]4505-the maid had already arranged [the room]574-the room for the night , and , as usual , the white satin dressing‐gown trimmed with lace had been lying on the bed . [Anne]171-anne had made a note of the fact , because [she]171-anne had thought at the moment how absurd it was of the Russian to put such valuable lace upon a garment which was perpetually knocking about , and in which , as it seemed to [Miss Brown]171-anne , [she]171-anne would scarcely be seen except by [[her]171-anne own servant]3385-her own servant . Now , while extinguishing the flames , one of [Anne]171-anne ’s first thoughts had somehow been the white satin dressing‐gown . What a pity that all that lace should have been consumed ! What an annoyance to [Cousin Sacha]359-sacha ! But , to [her]171-anne surprise and relief , [she]171-anne had seen the dressing‐gown , a mass of satin and lace , hanging in perfect safety on a peg at the furthest end of [the room]574-the room — the dressing‐gown which , an hour before , had already lain in readiness on the bed . All these ideas moved confusedly through [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s brain . Was it a mere ordinary mental delusion , one of those impressions which [physiologists]3387-physiologists explain by the imperfect momentary double action of the two brain‐lobes ; or was it a recollection of a suspicion which had long existed in [her]171-anne mind , but unconsciously , not daring to come to the surface ? Anyhow , it seemed to [Anne]171-anne , as [she]171-anne stood by the open window looking into the night , and listening to [Sacha]359-sacha ’s faint moanings , as if [she]171-anne had gone through that or something similar before — as if it were not the first time that [she]171-anne was invaded by the thought that all this persecution by [invisible and uncatchable enemies]3388-invisible and uncatchable enemies was a deception practised by [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine [herself]360-madame elaguine , a kind of artificial excitement and interest got up for the benefit of [[her]360-madame elaguine friends]1459-her friends , for the benefit of [her]360-madame elaguine own morbid and theatrical temper ? It was difficult for [a woman , simple , sincere , completely all of a piece]3390-a woman , simple , sincere , completely all of a piece , like [Anne Brown]171-anne , to conceive such a possibility , and still more difficult for [her]171-anne not to revolt from its contemplation as from an act of disloyalty . But , on the other hand , [Anne]171-anne , just in proportion to [her]171-anne slowness of mental perception , had not the power , which so many of [us]3391-us possess , of denying the evidence of [her]171-anne reason for the sake of [her]171-anne feelings . So the words in the book , which seemed as if they contained the suggestion of the whole performance ( if performance it was ) ; the fact of the dressing‐gown having been out of reach of all danger ; the manner of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine and of [[her]360-madame elaguine maid]694-her maid on this and previous occasions,—haunted [Anne]171-anne , and united with the sudden recollection of what [she]171-anne had read in one of [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory ’s scientific books about the connection between hysteria and monomania , about the strange passion for deceit , for hoax , for theatricality , sometimes observable in [hysterical women]3393-hysterical women . And then [she]171-anne remembered the face and voice of [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , [his]353-lewis ironical remark about the impossibility of finding [the culprits]3394-the culprits , [his]353-lewis indifference and amused superiority . Could [he]353-lewis too have guessed?—and , it suddenly struck [her]171-anne , could [Hamlin]447-hamlin have had the same thought ? No , [she]171-anne felt sure [Hamlin]447-hamlin had not . THE incident of the burning bed left [the inmates of [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall]3395-the inmates of wotton hall in a state of excitement which outlasted [their]3395-the inmates of wotton hall stay in [the country]945-the country . All attempts to find [the culprits]3394-the culprits had been useless ; and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had begged [Hamlin]447-hamlin not to permit any regular judicial inquiry , lest the story of [her]360-madame elaguine persecution , about which [she]360-madame elaguine affected to be excessively jealous , should become public property . [Hamlin]447-hamlin , who hated vulgar publicity , easily consented . But the mysterious story was now known to [all [the guests]4917-the guests at [Wotton]94-wotton]3398-all the guests at wotton , and soon became known to [the whole pre‐Raphaelite set which centred round [the house at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith]4915-the house at hammersmith , with the result of turning [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , in the eyes of [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer and [[her]288-mrs spencer friends]1459-her friends]3400-the whole pre‐raphaelite set which centred round the house at hammersmith , with the result of turning madame elaguine , in the eyes of mrs spencer and her friends , from something not much better than an adventuress , into something uncommonly like [a heroine]3403-a heroine and [a martyr]3404-a martyr ; for it seemed as if [these good folk , whose life was the most humdrum prose and whose ideal was the most far‐fetched poetry]3405-these good folk , whose life was the most humdrum prose and whose ideal was the most far‐fetched poetry , felt absolute gratitude towards [the remarkable individual who supplied [them]3405-these good folk , whose life was the most humdrum prose and whose ideal was the most far‐fetched poetry with a real mystery , a real persecution by unknown enemies , a real romance]3406-the remarkable individual who supplied them with a real mystery , a real persecution by unknown enemies , a real romance . So when [Sacha]447-hamlin , on [her]360-madame elaguine return to [town]821-town , began to suffer or to think that [she]360-madame elaguine suffered from nervous prostration due to this terrible shock , and to lie even more than usual on sofas in even more than usually picturesque dressing‐gowns , [she]360-madame elaguine found [herself]360-madame elaguine surrounded by [a crowd of sympathising and admiring artists]3408-a crowd of sympathising and admiring artists , [writers]3409-writers , and [critics]4738-critics , to whom [she]360-madame elaguine confided , one by one , and in slightly different versions , the details of [her]360-madame elaguine strange history . [The only person who seemed displeased]3411-the only person who seemed displeased was [Hamlin]447-hamlin ; and [the only person who seemed cold]3412-the only person who seemed cold was [Miss Brown]171-anne . [Hamlin]447-hamlin always required to absorb the whole attention of [any person to whom [he]447-hamlin took a liking]3413-any person to whom he took a liking ; to see [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin fenced round with [idiots]3415-idiots , as [he]447-hamlin described it , was almost a physical annoyance to [him]447-hamlin ; [he]447-hamlin was cross , captious , bitter , and gruff ; and the more [he]447-hamlin showed [his]447-hamlin temper the more pleasure [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine took in provoking [him]447-hamlin . As usual , when out of sorts with [the world]496-the world , and especially when [he]447-hamlin felt [himself]447-hamlin neglected , [Hamlin]447-hamlin began once more to pay attentions to [Miss Brown]171-anne , to bemoan [his]447-hamlin own baseness and weakness , to throw [himself]447-hamlin on [her]171-anne compassion , to insinuate that in [her]171-anne lay [his]447-hamlin only hope . This sort of talk , with [his]447-hamlin beautiful dreamy eyes fixed adoringly upon [her]171-anne , [his]447-hamlin slow quiet voice sounding like that of [a votary before an altar]3417-a votary before an altar , had long become for [Anne]171-anne a mere additional bitterness ; a bitterness of comprehension proportionate to the long delusion which had made [her]171-anne see in this sort of behaviour the dissatisfaction of a noble nature , the yearnings of real love . [She]171-anne was accustomed to it ; and would have merely smiled the bitter smile which had become part of [her]171-anne nature . But now , every lover‐like look or word from [Hamlin]447-hamlin inspired [Anne]171-anne with positive terror ; it seemed as if [he]447-hamlin had let [her]171-anne fancy that [he]447-hamlin loved [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin — that [he]447-hamlin had let [her]171-anne dream of release , of freedom from the life captivity which threatened [her]171-anne soul , only to creep back , as a cat creeps back to the mouse with which it is playing , and slowly stretch forth [his]447-hamlin hand to seize [her]171-anne . This feeling became so strong in [Anne]171-anne that little by little there developed in [her]171-anne a nervous dread of [Hamlin]447-hamlin : every time that [he]447-hamlin approached [her]171-anne alone , that [he]447-hamlin fixed [his]447-hamlin eyes on [her]171-anne face or addressed [her]171-anne by [her]171-anne name , [she]171-anne was aware of a chill throughout [her]171-anne body , of a sudden pallor in [her]171-anne face ; a chill , a pallor which , if noticed , must mean to [Hamlin]447-hamlin that [she]171-anne loved [him]447-hamlin . Into this vague and painful suspense were vaguely mingled the suspicions which [she]171-anne had formed regarding [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . Confusedly [Anne]171-anne was conscious that the worthiness or unworthiness of [Sacha]447-hamlin was not a matter of indifference to [her]171-anne ; if [Sacha]447-hamlin was [a mere hysterical liar]3419-a mere hysterical liar , [she]3419-a mere hysterical liar could not sincerely love [Hamlin]447-hamlin , [Hamlin]447-hamlin could not love [her]3419-a mere hysterical liar ; and if [this man]1239-this man and [this woman]5573-this woman did not love [one another]1971-one another , [Anne Brown]171-anne was once more , what [she]171-anne had for a brief time imagined that [she]171-anne was no longer , [the slave of [[her]171-anne protector]3424-her protector , as [Mademoiselle Aïssé]432-mademoiselle aïssé had been [the slave of [M. de Ferréol]435-m. de ferréol]3425-the slave of m. de ferréol]3423-the slave of her protector , as mademoiselle aïssé had been the slave of m. de ferréol . Suddenly , one day , there came a change , and with it the end of the terrible doubt and fear which were corroding [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s soul . What had happened [Anne]171-anne never clearly understood ; [she]171-anne only perceived a change , and guessed that it was connected in some manner with the sudden disappearance of [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , and with some tremendous quarrel between [him]353-lewis and [Hamlin]447-hamlin which seemed to have preceded it . [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis , who had spent all [his]353-lewis mornings in [[Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s studio]1127-hamlin ’s studio , and all [his]353-lewis evenings in [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s boudoir]3427-madame elaguine ’s boudoir , appeared to have sunk into the ground ; [his]353-lewis very name was scarcely mentioned ; and [Anne Brown]171-anne , who hated the very sight of [the little man with the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes]3428-the little man with the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes , who instinctively felt that [he]3428-the little man with the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes personified all the peculiarities which degraded [Hamlin]447-hamlin in [her]171-anne eyes , had a vague superstitious notion that now that [he]3428-the little man with the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes was gone everything would settle happily . What had [Lewis]353-lewis done ? Had [he]3428-the little man with the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes insulted [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; and had this insulting , by [a man who was [[his]3428-the little man with the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes friend]696-his friend , of [a woman whom [he]3428-the little man with the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes loved]3431-a woman whom he loved]3429-a man who was his friend , of a woman whom he loved , made [Hamlin]447-hamlin suddenly conscious of [his]447-hamlin love for [Sacha]447-hamlin , and of [his]447-hamlin duty to protect [an irresponsible little woman whom [his]447-hamlin indecision was putting into a false position]3432-an irresponsible little woman whom his indecision was putting into a false position ? The more [Miss Brown]171-anne pored over the subject , the more did it seem as if there could be no other explanation . But whatever the explanation , the result was unmistakable . On the score of ill‐health , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had more or less dismissed [all those admiring and sympathising friends who had given [Hamlin]447-hamlin so much umbrage]3433-all those admiring and sympathising friends who had given hamlin so much umbrage , and [Hamlin]447-hamlin had become almost [[her]360-madame elaguine sole and constant visitor]3434-her sole and constant visitor . [He]447-hamlin appeared to have almost taken up [his]447-hamlin abode at [the Russian ’s]3435-the russian ’s . [He]447-hamlin came to [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith for lunch as usual , but always found some excuse or other for leaving immediately after : [he]447-hamlin was painting a portrait of [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , and [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin was too delicate to give [him]447-hamlin sittings except in [[her]1267-his cousin drawing‐room]3438-her drawing‐room . [He]447-hamlin not merely neglected [Anne]171-anne , but obviously avoided [her]171-anne . [He]447-hamlin seemed to dread being left alone with [her]171-anne , as much as [she]171-anne , for such very different reasons , had dreaded to be left alone with [him]447-hamlin : when [he]447-hamlin did not succeed in getting away , [he]447-hamlin was moody and depressed ; yet [he]447-hamlin seemed moody and depressed also whenever , as was frequently the case , [he]447-hamlin was sent for by [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , and whenever [Anne]171-anne met [them]3440-them together . It seemed to [Miss Brown]171-anne as if [she]171-anne could understand it all so well : [she]171-anne , who was slow in understanding [others]4163-others , felt as if [she]171-anne knew [Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s character as [[her]171-anne own father]3442-her own father must have known the construction and working of the machines which [she]171-anne remembered seeing [him]447-hamlin continually taking to pieces and setting up again . [Hamlin]447-hamlin had been , so [Anne]171-anne thought , obliged to admit to [himself]447-hamlin that [he]447-hamlin loved [[his]447-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , and that [he]447-hamlin had made [her]1267-his cousin love [him]447-hamlin ; and [he]447-hamlin was depressed and irritated at [his]447-hamlin own inability to take any decided course , at [his]447-hamlin humiliation in finding that this was the end of all [his]447-hamlin romance with [Anne]171-anne , at [his]447-hamlin dread of being obliged , sooner or later , to tell [Anne]171-anne the truth ; nay , [Miss Brown]171-anne thought [she]171-anne knew [Hamlin]447-hamlin sufficiently well to be persuaded that there entered into [his]447-hamlin feelings a certain annoyance at having to forfeit the exotic and unhealthy pleasure of being partially in love with [two women]6452-two women at a time , and at the impetuosity of [Sacha]447-hamlin precipitating matters from a position of hesitation and self‐reproach , which was in some ways pleasant to [his]447-hamlin peculiar temper , into a situation requiring a definite and prompt solution . Oh , [Anne]171-anne had not suffered silently these two years , without getting to understand the strange character to which [her]171-anne suffering was due . Yes , [she]171-anne knew [Hamlin]447-hamlin and what was passing in [his]447-hamlin mind ; and the sense of power implied in this knowledge , the power of following all that [he]447-hamlin felt and thought , gave [her]171-anne a sort of pleasure , proportionate to that very sense of [her]171-anne difficulty in understanding any character save [her]171-anne own ; a curious rare pleasure , in which mingled the consciousness of the price at which it had been bought , and the almost ineffable consciousness that this that [she]171-anne was studying concerned [her]171-anne no more ; the pleasure , so often talked about , of [the man who has escaped the shipwreck and looks down upon [the dangerous waters]3446-the dangerous waters in safety]3445-the man who has escaped the shipwreck and looks down upon the dangerous waters in safety . Yes ; [she]171-anne was safe ; [she]171-anne was free . It gave [her]171-anne a morbid pleasure also to watch [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , who , in the last month or so , ever since the quarrel with [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis and the consequent intimacy with [[her]360-madame elaguine cousin]1291-her cousin , had suddenly changed in [her]360-madame elaguine manner towards [Anne]171-anne — had shown a half‐savage , half‐childish desire to parade [her]360-madame elaguine conquest before [[her]360-madame elaguine rival]3448-her rival , to let [her]360-madame elaguine see how completely [she]360-madame elaguine had taken [Hamlin]447-hamlin away from [her]360-madame elaguine , to humiliate and insult [her]360-madame elaguine : the flaunting perversity of [a new sultana]3449-a new sultana towards [an old one]4617-an old one . [Anne]171-anne had hitherto insisted on thinking that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was really [a very noble little woman]3451-a very noble little woman , and this revelation of a base wish to wound and humiliate , hurt [her]171-anne at first like some nauseous smell arising suddenly beneath [her]171-anne nostrils . But disgust was soon replaced by that new and secret pleasure in the consciousness of understanding [this woman]5573-this woman better than [she]171-anne understood [herself]171-anne ; by the pleasure in feeling how wasted were all [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s insults — how startled would not [the little woman]4885-the little woman be , could [she]171-anne but know that every proof of [her]360-madame elaguine supremacy over [Hamlin]447-hamlin was to [Miss Brown]171-anne as [each successively sawed‐through window‐bar]3454-each successively sawed‐through window‐bar is to [the prisoner pining for the day of deliverance]3455-the prisoner pining for the day of deliverance . [Anne]171-anne felt [herself]171-anne getting into so singular a condition of excitement , losing so completely , under the pressure of these conflicting doubts and hopes in the past , of the great joy in the present , all [her]171-anne usual self‐composure and self‐control , that [she]171-anne took fiercely to working , to hurrying in every way through those studies which [she]171-anne had long since begun in the sickening often‐deferred hope that they might become [her]171-anne livelihood if [she]171-anne should ever be released from [Hamlin]144-hamlin . [Miss Brown]171-anne had often and often , even when the sense of hopelessness had been bitterest , consoled [herself]171-anne with what [she]171-anne believed to be unrealisable dreams for the future ; and after going through many possible plans , [she]171-anne had decided that if — if — [she]171-anne should ever become [[her]171-anne own mistress]3456-her own mistress , [she]171-anne would employ , resolutely determined to return it to [him]447-hamlin some day , part of the money which [Hamlin]447-hamlin had settled upon [her]171-anne , in entering [Girton]58-girton or [Newnham]124-newnham , where [she]171-anne would train [herself]171-anne to become [a teacher in [a public school]3458-a public school]3457-a teacher in a public school . Almost mechanically , [her]171-anne studies ( and restlessness , and the desire for something that should not be the harassing reality , had developed in [her]171-anne a perfect passion for study ) fell into this programme . [She]171-anne had gone in for political economy , history , and what [people]577-people are pleased to call moral sciences . Now that liberty seemed on the point of being realised , and that [she]171-anne felt the want of something to steady [her]171-anne shaken nature , [she]171-anne applied [herself]171-anne to this work with redoubled ardour . “ If [you]171-anne go on like that [you]171-anne will get seedy , [Annie]171-anne , ”[249-marjory] warned [the practical Marjory Leigh]249-marjory , now on the eve of becoming [Mrs Harry Collett]376-harry collett . And [Marjory Leigh]249-marjory proved right . The secret excitement of the last months , joined to the recent overwork , was too much for [Anne]171-anne . One day [she]171-anne was suddenly taken ill , and a little time later [she]171-anne was delirious . “ Nervous prostration from overwork , ”[3460-the doctors] said [the doctors]3460-the doctors . A great remorse , which was at the same time a great triumph , rose up in [Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s heart . “ [Sacha]447-hamlin , ”[447-hamlin] [he]447-hamlin cried , one day as [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine came into [the studio]795-the studio at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith , after visiting [the sick woman]3462-the sick woman , “ it is [I]447-hamlin who am killing [Anne]171-anne ; and it is [you]447-hamlin — [you]447-hamlin — who are forcing [me]447-hamlin to do it,”—and[447-hamlin] [he]447-hamlin tore the portrait of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine off the board of [his]447-hamlin easel , and pulled the paper , in long ribbons , through [his]447-hamlin fingers . “ It ’s no great harm , ”[5582-the russian] said [the Russian]5582-the russian , quietly ; “ [I]5582-the russian ’m not quite such a guy as [you]447-hamlin represented [me]5582-the russian , [Watty]178-watty , and [I]5582-the russian ’m the better pleased not to go down to posterity like that . As to [Anne]171-anne , do n’t flatter [yourself]447-hamlin [you]447-hamlin are breaking [her]171-anne heart , for the excellent reason that there is none to break . Too much study ! [the doctor]5794-the doctor says , and [he]5794-the doctor knows . [A woman like that]6548-a woman like that works only with [her]171-anne brain . Too much Euclid , [Kant]459-kant , [Hegel]392-hegel , [Fichte]460-fichte , & c. [You]447-hamlin need n’t flatter [yourself]447-hamlin that [you]447-hamlin are of the company . Seriously , can [you]447-hamlin be such [a baby]2747-a baby as to imagine that if [that woman]1707-that woman loved [you]447-hamlin [she]1707-that woman would n’t have turned [me]5582-the russian out of doors ages ago ? Besides , [she]1707-that woman talked only of [Girton College]125-girton college and of [[her]1707-that woman cousin]1291-her cousin [Richard]223-richard brown when [she]1707-that woman was delirious , [the nurse]604-the nurse tells [me]5582-the russian . ”[5582-the russian] [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine watched [Hamlin]447-hamlin as [she]360-madame elaguine let these words drop , then [she]360-madame elaguine burst out laughing . “ [Poor Walter]461-poor walter ! what a misfortune it is to be [a poet]498-a poet and to be vain ! [I]360-madame elaguine am really grieved for [you]461-poor walter . But sooner or later [you]447-hamlin would understand that when [a woman]3960-a woman has no heart , but only ‘ a muscle for pumping the blood to the extremities , ’ as [one of [[her]3960-a woman professors]6556-her professors]6555-one of her professors calls it , [she]3960-a woman ca n’t love ; and that , moreover , [no woman]4308-no woman will ever understand or love [you]447-hamlin , [[you]447-hamlin silly person]6558-you silly person , except [[your]447-hamlin cousin]4341-your cousin [Sacha]447-hamlin . ”[360-madame elaguine] [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , who had come to [the studio]795-the studio door , and , not being troubled with scruples when [base creatures like [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine]3465-base creatures like madame elaguine were concerned , and having , moreover , a violent curiosity about everything concerning [the Eternal Feminine]462-the eternal feminine , had listened at the keyhole , affirmed to [Miss Brown]171-anne some time after that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had then and there put [her]360-madame elaguine arms round [Hamlin]447-hamlin ’s neck , and called [him]447-hamlin [a poor , vain little baby]3466-a poor , vain little baby . ON recovering from that long delirium , during which [she]171-anne had raved only about the past and the future , about [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon , [the Perrys]167-the perrys , [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini , [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin , [Girton College]125-girton college , and political economy , but never — by some singular obliviousness of the present — about [Hamlin]379-hamlin and [[Sacha,—the]464-sacha,—the first persons that [Anne Brown]171-anne]3467-sacha,—the first persons that anne brown recognised about [her]171-anne were [the Leigh girls]4986-the leigh girls . [Marjory]249-marjory had postponed [her]249-marjory marriage in order to help [[her]249-marjory sister]603-her sister in nursing [Miss Brown]171-anne ; and [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor had gladly accepted [their]3470-their proposal to settle for the time being in [the house]509-the house at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith , [she]243-mrs macgregor [herself]243-mrs macgregor being far too unpractical to be of any use . [Anne]171-anne ’s impressions were vague , diffuse ; the ideas aud sensations , the slight amount of life of one day of early convalescence being , so to speak , diluted into what were really days and weeks , day and night succeeding each other confusedly to [the girl]583-the girl , but feebly awake and for ever falling asleep . It was a dream , but a pleasant one , consisting of veiled misty impressions , separated by tracts of lethargy : impressions of the kind faces and voices of [Mary]324-mary leigh and [Marjory]249-marjory , of the gleams of sunshine on the carpet , of the waving of treetops outside the window , of the whistle of the steamboat on [the Thames]67-the thames ; the song of the canary in [[the housekeeper]2330-the housekeeper ’s room]2331-the housekeeper ’s room — the cry of [the milkman]3475-the milkman ; of the bunches of big red and yellow roses put down upon the sheet before [her]171-anne ; of the broth and jelly and tea feebly refused , and yet greedily swallowed,—trifles , nothings , but transformed by the haze of mixed weakness and relief into things possessing a charm , and never to be forgotten . The mere sense of rest and renovation constituted a sort of happiness , with which mingled the consciousness of the kindness of those round her,—of [the Leigh girls]4986-the leigh girls and [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , who were in [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room nearly all day ; of [Mrs Spencer]288-mrs spencer , who came from [the other end of [London]4-london]3478-the other end of london every afternoon ; of [Chough]379-hamlin and [[Cousin Dick]379-hamlin , who came to make inquiries ; even of [Hamlin]379-hamlin , whose magnificent bundles and baskets of flowers and fruit arrived regularly , together with the bunch of sweet‐peas and pinks which [Chough]379-hamlin had bought at [the greengrocer ’s]3479-the greengrocer ’s , or the sprigs of laburnum which [he]379-hamlin had stolen in [the park]6544-the park]379-hamlin . Everything in [the world]496-the world seemed so good and simple ; all worries and doubts had gone with the dreadful visions of the delirious nights . [Anne]171-anne had never in [her]171-anne life felt so simply , completely happy ; perhaps because , with [her]171-anne tense and tragic character , perfect happiness was possible only in weakness and vagueness . Little by little the past became concrete once more ; but it became concrete as the past , all [her]171-anne doubts and difficulties remaining far distant behind [her]171-anne , like the Alps which [the traveller]3482-the traveller has arduously crossed , and looks back upon from [the warm Lombard plain]3483-the warm lombard plain . [She]171-anne took up [her]171-anne position and feelings where [she]171-anne had left them : [she]171-anne felt [herself]171-anne free . At first [she]171-anne could scarcely tell why , as [we]3484-we sometimes can scarcely account to [ourselves]3484-we for something which has happened the previous day , and which , though forgotten , fills [us]3484-we with vague pleasure or pain on awakening . Then [she]171-anne began to understand once more , and to add to [her]171-anne recollections what [she]171-anne could make out of the present . [She]171-anne noticed that [the Leighs]327-the leighs scarcely ever spoke of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; that [they]3485-they brought in [his]379-hamlin flowers , books , and messages with a certain constraint , even , [she]171-anne thought , with an occasional look of disgust and indignation . And [they]3485-they never , never once mentioned [Madame EIaguine]465-madame eiaguine . “ What has become of [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked one day , rolling [her]171-anne head , with face even paler than before , and black crisp hair just beginning to cluster after cropping short , on the pillows . “ Has [she]386-sacha gone out of [town]821-town ? [You]324-mary leigh have never spoken about [her]386-sacha , [Mary]324-mary leigh . ”[171-anne] [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , who was seated , holding [Anne]171-anne ’s thin white hand , did not raise [her]324-mary leigh head ; and [Marjory]249-marjory , who was pouring out the tea hard by , flushed scarlet . “ Have n’t [I]324-mary leigh ? Oh yes , [I]324-mary leigh must , ”[324-mary leigh] answered [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , still keeping [her]324-mary leigh eyes on the pattern of the carpet . “ [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ? Oh , [she]386-sacha ’s just as usual . ”[324-mary leigh] “ [Odious little brute]6561-odious little brute , ”[249-marjory] scowled [Marjory]249-marjory . [Mary]324-mary leigh raised [her]324-mary leigh head sharply , and gave [[her]324-mary leigh sister]603-her sister a look of reproof . [Anne]171-anne asked no more . [She]171-anne had understood : during [her]171-anne illness [Sacha]386-sacha had tightened [her]386-sacha hold on [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; [the Leighs]5461-the leighs had seen it , or been told , and [Mary]324-mary leigh was afraid lest [[her]324-mary leigh sister]603-her sister should let out to [the invalid]3489-the invalid what [she]171-anne imagined to be a heart‐breaking secret . “ [I]171-anne am free ! ”[171-anne] thought [Anne]171-anne ; and repeated these words to [herself]171-anne every time that [one of [the Leighs]327-the leighs]3490-one of the leighs spoke coldly of [Hamlin]379-hamlin , or looked savage when [he]379-hamlin was mentioned . And sometimes [she]324-mary leigh fancied that [she]324-mary leigh could distinguish in the face and manner of [the true‐hearted Mary]324-mary leigh , of [the indignant Marjory]249-marjory , the pain and perplexity of foreseeing that [they]3491-they possessed a terrible secret , that [they]3491-they must make a terrible revelation . Once , [she]324-mary leigh felt sure , [Mary]324-mary leigh ’s heart had almost burst for [her]324-mary leigh silence . [Miss Leigh]332-miss leigh had brought in [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s usual gift of flowers , a bunch of beautiful white roses and jasmine ; [she]332-miss leigh was going to hand it to [Anne]171-anne , when [her]332-miss leigh face suddenly contracted , and [she]332-miss leigh stuffed the flowers roughly into a jar . “ Wo n’t [you]324-mary leigh let [me]171-anne smell [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s flowers , [Mary]324-mary leigh ? ”[171-anne] asked [Anne]171-anne from [her]171-anne bed . [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh gave [her]171-anne a long strange look . “ They are n’t fit for [you]171-anne , [Anne]171-anne , ”[324-mary leigh] said [Mary]324-mary leigh , in a hoarse voice ; “ they ’re horrible , morbid sort of things — they’ll just make [your]171-anne head ache . ”[324-mary leigh] “ [My]171-anne head is much stronger than [you]324-mary leigh think , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne ; “ let [me]171-anne have them — they are lovely . The jasmine does n’t smell like ordinary jasmine . What is it?—it smells like the incense that [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha burns in [her]386-sacha boudoir ; it ’s nice , but too strong . [I]171-anne wonder whether [they]6562-they have been in [her]386-sacha boudoir to catch it . It ’s very kind of [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin to bring them to [me]171-anne , especially as”—Anne[171-anne] looked up with a smile which frightened [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh out of [her]324-mary leigh wits—“he does n’t care a bit about [me]324-mary leigh any longer , [you]324-mary leigh know . ”[324-mary leigh] [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh threw [herself]324-mary leigh on [her]324-mary leigh knees before [Anne]171-anne ’s bed , and drawing [her]324-mary leigh head to [her]324-mary leigh , kissed [her]324-mary leigh . “ Oh , [Annie]171-anne , [Annie]171-anne , [[my]324-mary leigh darling]6563-my darling ! ”[324-mary leigh] [she]324-mary leigh cried . “ [You]324-mary leigh are good , ”[324-mary leigh] answered [Anne—“you]466-anne—“you are good to love [me]324-mary leigh so . But [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin is also very good , although [he]145-hamlin does n’t love [me]324-mary leigh . [I]324-mary leigh am very happy — so happy , [Mary]324-mary leigh dear . ”[324-mary leigh] “ [She]171-anne is mad , ”[324-mary leigh] thought [Mary]324-mary leigh , in terror , as [Anne]171-anne threw [her]171-anne head back , smiling , [her]171-anne onyx‐grey eyes beaming , on the pillow . And [she]324-mary leigh resolved that , as long as [she]324-mary leigh could help , [Anne Brown]171-anne should not know what [she]324-mary leigh knew , and what , every time that [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s name was mentioned , sickened [her]324-mary leigh heart . Some days later [Miss Brown]171-anne was sufficiently well to exchange [her]171-anne bed for a couch in [the drawing‐room down‐stairs]3492-the drawing‐room down‐stairs ; and then [Hamlin]145-hamlin asked whether [he]145-hamlin might be admitted to see [her]171-anne for a few minutes . [He]145-hamlin seemed painfully impressed at the sight of [Anne]171-anne , whom [he]145-hamlin was accustomed to see looking [the embodiment of physical strength]3493-the embodiment of physical strength , [a sort of primeval warrior‐woman]3494-a sort of primeval warrior‐woman , stretched out on the sofa , so thin and hollow‐checked , so pale , with a pallor quite different from the natural opaque ivory pallor of [her]171-anne complexion ; so weak of voice and gesture , so wholly despoiled , it seemed to [him]145-hamlin , of [her]171-anne usual sombre haughtiness : resigned , and with the gentleness of [a sick child]1287-a sick child . [He]145-hamlin was silent and depressed , as [a man]503-a man might be who knew [her]171-anne to be more seriously ill than [she]171-anne thought ; and yet , as [Anne]171-anne was well aware , it was most obvious to [him]145-hamlin and to [every one]4712-every one that [she]171-anne was entirely out of danger , and rapidly recovering . [Miss Brown]171-anne understood : [he]145-hamlin was weighed down , but with a worse conscience than [Mary Leigh,—by]467-mary leigh,—by the thought that [this woman]5573-this woman was unaware of the sort of treachery which was being committed behind [her]5573-this woman back . [Anne]171-anne , on the other hand , felt more really pleased to see [him]145-hamlin than [she]171-anne had done this long time past ; it seemed as if , now that the bond which tied [her]171-anne to [him]145-hamlin was loosened , [she]171-anne could see once more all that was amiable and noble in him,—that [she]171-anne could like [him]145-hamlin again , feel towards [him]145-hamlin simply , naturally , as towards [a friend]4706-a friend and [benefactor]3500-benefactor . And [she]171-anne felt sorry for [his]145-hamlin depression , for what [she]171-anne imagined to be [his]145-hamlin self‐reproach ; desirous of telling [him]145-hamlin almost , then and there , that [he]145-hamlin need not make [himself]145-hamlin unhappy , that [he]145-hamlin was free to love [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin . [Miss Brown]171-anne was still unfit for much conversation ; and [Hamlin]145-hamlin seemed glad to cut short the interview . [She]171-anne asked [him]145-hamlin to raise one of the blinds ; and when the light streamed upon [his]145-hamlin face , [she]171-anne thought [she]171-anne saw in it something unusual , something beyond [his]145-hamlin mere usual melancholy , a lassitude and look of being worried ; again [she]171-anne felt sorry for [him]145-hamlin . “ How is [[your]145-hamlin cousin]4341-your cousin [Sacha]386-sacha ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked . “ [She]4341-your cousin is well , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin answered briefly , “ and — sends [you]171-anne many messages . [I]145-hamlin do n’t let [her]4341-your cousin come , because [she]4341-your cousin would excite [you]171-anne . Goodbye . ”[145-hamlin] Every afternoon [Hamlin]145-hamlin returned for a short time . [Anne]171-anne ’s first impression was merely strengthened ; [Hamlin]145-hamlin was extraordinarily depressed , worried‐looking , taciturn . [Anne]171-anne felt really sorry for [him]145-hamlin ; [he]145-hamlin was evidently , [she]171-anne thought , eating [his]145-hamlin heart out in doubts and self‐reproach ; [he]145-hamlin had gone too far with [Sacha]386-sacha to retreat , and yet [his]145-hamlin engagement to [Miss Brown]171-anne forbade [his]145-hamlin taking a decisive step . After all , [he]145-hamlin was truer and nobler than [she]171-anne had thought , more of [her]171-anne real Hamlin of former days ; [she]171-anne reflected that this hostility of temperament and aims between [them]3502-them , this long and sickening endurance of a bond which suited neither , had made [her]171-anne unjust and bitter towards [him]145-hamlin , prone to seek for only [his]145-hamlin worse sides , neglectful of [his]145-hamlin good ones . [She]171-anne felt that it was not the least benefit of [her]171-anne release that [she]171-anne could now be perfectly grateful once more ; that [she]171-anne could give to [this man]1239-this man the affection which [he]145-hamlin really deserved , and which [she]171-anne really felt , now that the terrible debt of love was cancelled . [She]171-anne was sorry , very sorry for [him]145-hamlin , and determined that , since [he]145-hamlin had not the heart , it was for [her]171-anne to speak . But invariably , and as if warned by a secret intuition , [he]145-hamlin had interrupted the conversation , and gone away whenever [she]171-anne had been on the point of speaking . The bare name of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine seemed enough to send [him]145-hamlin away ; and yet , whenever [Anne]171-anne succeeded in making [him]145-hamlin speak of [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , [he]145-hamlin had spoken of [her]171-anne with a strange bitterness , and almost disgust . “ [He]145-hamlin is mean , after all , ”[171-anne] thought [Anne]171-anne ; “ [he]145-hamlin is angry with [poor Sacha]386-sacha for being the cause of [his]145-hamlin finding [himself]145-hamlin in a false position . ”[171-anne] And [she]171-anne determined that [she]171-anne would speak , not to [him]145-hamlin but to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; [she]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne could not endure the way in which [he]145-hamlin would assuredly seek to whitewash [himself]145-hamlin at [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin ’s expense . Mean , very mean ; nay , something more than mean . What irritation or hypocrisy could induce [him]145-hamlin to speak of [the woman whom [he]145-hamlin loved with a sort of constant innuendo , a constant sort of undercurrent of disgust]3506-the woman whom he loved with a sort of constant innuendo , a constant sort of undercurrent of disgust ? And again [she]171-anne began to despise and dislike [him]145-hamlin . Another thing soon struck [her]171-anne . There was something unusual about [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s appearance . Somewhat effeminate [he]145-hamlin had always been in [his]145-hamlin aristocratic refinement ; but now it seemed to [her]171-anne as if there were in [his]145-hamlin face a something , half physical , half spiritual , a vague , helpless , half‐stupefied look , which made [her]171-anne think of [that hysterical tippling little poet Dennistoun , whom [she]171-anne disliked so much]347-dennistoun . [Her]171-anne mind reverted to what [she]171-anne had heard about [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis having , at one period , induced [Hamlin]145-hamlin to take opium . “ Is [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis back ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked . [Hamlin]145-hamlin flushed all over . “ [Lewis]353-lewis is not likely to return , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin answered briefly . What was the meaning of it all ? [Hamlin]145-hamlin was also , [she]171-anne noticed , no longer as careful in [his]145-hamlin dress as [he]145-hamlin had formerly been ; there was something vaguely rowdy about [him]145-hamlin . And once , as [he]145-hamlin stooped over [her]171-anne to rearrange the cushions under [her]171-anne head , it seemed to [her]171-anne — was it true or not?—that [she]171-anne felt a sickening whiff , like those which [she]171-anne well remembered since [her]171-anne childhood , when [[her]171-anne father]4143-her father had come in from drinking and taken [her]171-anne on [his]145-hamlin knees . Was it possible that [Hamlin]145-hamlin , weak as [he]145-hamlin was , and feeling [himself]145-hamlin cornered in a false position , had taken to drinking — to drinking , which had been the fatal vice of [[his]145-hamlin family]5069-his family , of [[his]145-hamlin brother]5101-his brother , [father]5102-father , and of [[his]145-hamlin uncles]3511-his uncles , in order to rid [himself]145-hamlin of [his]145-hamlin worries ? [She]171-anne must speak to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . [She]171-anne must let [them]3512-them know that [they]3512-them were free . WHILE [she]171-anne was in this perplexity about [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [Miss Brown]171-anne received a visit from [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin [Dick]379-hamlin . [She]171-anne had scarcely seen [him]145-hamlin , and never alone , since that memorable walk [home]4170-home from [Professor Richmond]439-professor richmond ’s lecture . Whether from the sense that [he]145-hamlin had gone too far , that [his]145-hamlin violence had offended and frightened [her]171-anne ; or whether , more probably , from [his]145-hamlin having rushed to the conclusion that [she]171-anne was unattainable and perhaps unworthy of [his]145-hamlin seeking , [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had kept studiously out of [her]171-anne way . For the first time in [his]145-hamlin life [he]145-hamlin came in with hesitation and almost shyness . [He]145-hamlin sat down by the side of [her]171-anne arm‐chair , and spoke with a gentleness , a courtesy , that were quite unusual in [him]145-hamlin , and had a charm just from their contrast with [his]145-hamlin downright and gruff personality . The conversation rolled upon various indifferent subjects ; [he]145-hamlin seemed to be feeling [his]145-hamlin way to something , trying to decide whether [she]171-anne was strong enough to admit of [his]145-hamlin saying something which weighed on [his]145-hamlin mind . “ [You]171-anne are nearly recovered now ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked . “ Do [you]171-anne feel as if [you]171-anne were getting [your]171-anne strength back , [Anne]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] “ Oh yes , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered ; “ [I]171-anne feel wonderfully well . [I]171-anne have been for a drive these last few days , and [I]171-anne am sure [I]171-anne could walk , if only [they]6565-they would let [me]171-anne . [I]171-anne only feel very tired and lazy every now and then . ”[171-anne] There was a pause . “ Do [you]171-anne remember what [you]171-anne told [me]145-hamlin that afternoon when [we]6566-we walked [home]4170-home from [Richmond]439-professor richmond ’s lecture — a rainy day at the end of March ? ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin asked suddenly . “ Yes , [I]145-hamlin do . ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]171-anne said , if [you]171-anne remember , that [you]171-anne did not care for [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , and that [you]171-anne felt [yourself]171-anne bound to [him]145-hamlin only by gratitude and the sense that [he]145-hamlin wanted [you]171-anne — do [you]171-anne remember , [Nan]171-anne ? ”[223-richard brown] “ [I]223-richard brown remember perfectly . Well ? ”[223-richard brown] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had spoken slowly and watching [her]3515-i face ; and [he]223-richard brown seemed surprised at the perfect calm which [he]223-richard brown read in it . “ Well , [I]223-richard brown think it is right that [you]171-anne should know what is by this time known by all [[your]171-anne acquaintances]6568-your acquaintances . [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin no longer wants [you]171-anne ; [he]145-hamlin has entirely thrown [you]171-anne over for [another woman]4381-another woman . [He]145-hamlin is — [I]223-richard brown do n’t know exactly what to call it , and do n’t mean any innuendo — well — [the accepted lover of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine]6570-the accepted lover of madame elaguine . ”[223-richard brown] [Anne]171-anne nodded . “ [I]3515-i know it , ”[3515-i] [she]3515-i answered coolly . “ [I]3515-i have known it , or at least guessed it , since a long while . ”[3515-i] [Richard]223-richard brown was surprised , and , unconsciously perhaps to [himself]223-richard brown , mortified . [He]223-richard brown had always resented [[his]223-richard brown cousin]1267-his cousin ’s fidelity to [Hamlin]145-hamlin , had always , with [his]223-richard brown tendency to seek for base motives wherever [he]223-richard brown could not sympathise , suspected that this fidelity was a mere cover for an unworthy love of [the fine æsthetic gentleman]3517-the fine æsthetic gentleman or for [his]145-hamlin fortune and position ; and [he]223-richard brown had anticipated a certain pleasure in seeing [Anne]171-anne wince beneath [his]223-richard brown revelation . “ It is no business of [mine]223-richard brown to pass a judgment over [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown proceeded slowly , and wondering , suspicious as [he]223-richard brown always was with [women]3959-women , of the genuineness of [Anne]171-anne ’s imperturbability ; “ the whole business seems to [me]223-richard brown quite consonant with all [my]223-richard brown notions of [his]145-hamlin character . ”[223-richard brown] “ [I]171-anne do not think [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has acted dishonourably towards [me]171-anne , ”[171-anne] put in [Anne]171-anne , quietly ; “ on the contrary , [I]171-anne feel sure that [he]145-hamlin reproaches [himself]145-hamlin much more than [he]145-hamlin need . ”[171-anne] “ Very likely . What [I]3519-you was going to say is merely that this new turn which matters have taken necessarily implies an entire change in [your]171-anne position towards [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . [He]145-hamlin no longer wants [you]171-anne ; [you]171-anne are therefore free . Am [I]3519-you correct in [my]3519-you view of the case ? ”[3519-you] [He]3519-you was speaking with a deference to [her]171-anne opinion quite new in [him]3519-you . “ As far as [I]171-anne can judge , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , playing with a big lapis‐lazuli rosary which [she]171-anne had taken off [her]171-anne neck , “ [I]171-anne think [you]3519-you are quite correct , [Dick]379-hamlin . [I]171-anne believe [I]171-anne am free . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne hesitated and spoke the last words almost inaudibly , as if superstitiously afraid that they should be heard . “ In that case [I]171-anne presume [you]3519-you will have to remodel [your]3519-you life . Have [you]3519-you thought of any plans ? ”[171-anne] “ [I]171-anne have thought over the matter a good deal . [My]171-anne intention , as soon as [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin and [I]171-anne have come to an explanation , which will be shortly , is to go to [Ireland]127-ireland for a few months with [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , to finish getting well and to finish some preparatory work , and then to go up to [Girton]58-girton . [I]171-anne should be able to pass the entrance examination in another three months . [You]3519-you see , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne added , “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , in spending the money that [he]145-hamlin has in turning [me]171-anne into [a lady]3943-a lady , has made it difficult for [me]171-anne to take to any such livelihood as would have naturally been [mine]171-anne under other circumstances ; and [I]171-anne think , therefore , that [I]171-anne have a right to invest a portion of the money which [he]145-hamlin has settled upon [me]171-anne , and which [he]145-hamlin fully intended [me]171-anne to keep in any ease , in qualifying [myself]171-anne for the only sort of business for which [I]171-anne am now fit . [He]145-hamlin has settled upon [me]171-anne the equivalent of five hundred a‐year , apart from the expenses of [this house]4073-this house , of which [I]171-anne know nothing . Much less than that would more than cover the expenses of keeping [me]171-anne at [Girton]58-girton and of starting [me]171-anne as [a teacher]4134-a teacher or [journalist]6574-journalist ; and once fairly started , [I]171-anne hope [I]171-anne should be able to support [myself]171-anne and gradually to refund this money . Do [you]6575-you think that would be fair , [Dick]379-hamlin ? [You]6575-you see , it is quite useless for [me]171-anne to think of ever repaying , even if money could repay in such matters , what [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has spent upon [me]171-anne during all these years . ”[171-anne] [She]3520-she seemed to hesitate , to be afraid of being mean , of appearing to take advantage of [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s generosity . “ Do [you]6575-you really contemplate renouncing the fortune which [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin settled on [you]6575-you ? giving up all the luxury to which [he]145-hamlin has accustomed [you]6575-you , [Annie]171-anne ? ”[3520-she] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , disinterested though [he]223-richard brown was , was too deeply impressed with the mercenary temper of [mankind]5019-mankind , to believe very easily in such sentiments . “ Why , of course , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne . “ When [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin marries [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , [he]145-hamlin will find , that [he]145-hamlin has not too much with all [his]145-hamlin money . And [I]171-anne would certainly not keep any of it as soon as [I]171-anne could do without ; though heaven knows [I]171-anne am not ungrateful , nor so silly as to fancy that [I]171-anne should be in the very least lightening [my]171-anne obligation towards [him]145-hamlin . ”[171-anne] [Richard]223-richard brown did not answer for a moment . “ Listen , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said , not without hesitation “ [I]223-richard brown am nearer to [you]171-anne than [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin and whatever [I]223-richard brown am , [I]223-richard brown owe it to [[your]171-anne father]3947-your father . [I]223-richard brown find [I]223-richard brown have just made a very considerable and quite unexpected profit off some mining shares which [Mr Gillespie]443-mr gillespie left [me]223-richard brown . Let [me]223-richard brown advance [you]171-anne out of this money whatever may be wanted to defray [your]171-anne expenses at college ; [you]171-anne will repay [me]223-richard brown when [you]171-anne find it convenient . In this way , [you]171-anne will be entirely independent of [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin at once : [you]171-anne can let [him]145-hamlin have all [his]145-hamlin money . ”[223-richard brown] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown hesitated , in a way very singular in [his]223-richard brown cut‐and‐dry nature ; [he]223-richard brown seemed prepared for a rebuff . “ [You]171-anne are very kind , [Dick]379-hamlin ; but [I]223-richard brown ca n’t accept [your]171-anne offer . [I]223-richard brown owe it to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , in return for all the generosity [he]145-hamlin has shown towards [me]223-richard brown and would still show , that [I]223-richard brown should never accept anything from [any man]1338-any man but [him]145-hamlin , even if [I]223-richard brown were not resolved never to put [myself]223-richard brown under such an obligation again . [I]223-richard brown have no right to prefer [your]171-anne generosity to [his]145-hamlin . ”[223-richard brown] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was silent . Then , after a moment , [they]3522-they fell to talking about the plans and theories which occupied [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin ’s mind . [He]379-hamlin was unusually gentle and modest ; [he]379-hamlin really seemed to be losing some of that narrowness which had been the ugly side of [his]379-hamlin powerful and upright nature . “ [You]171-anne are becoming quite tolerant , [Dick]379-hamlin , ”[171-anne] remarked [Anne]171-anne . “ Six months ago [you]171-anne could never have conceived that [any one unlike [yourself]171-anne or differing from [your]171-anne views]6579-any one unlike yourself or differing from your views could have anything good in [him]145-hamlin . [I]171-anne am very glad ; it will make [you]171-anne more hopeful of [the world]496-the world , and show [you]171-anne a lot of energy and good faith which deserves to be united to [your]171-anne own , and which [you]171-anne would formerly have thrown upon the dust‐heap . ”[171-anne] “ [You]171-anne are right , ”[171-anne] answered [Brown]171-anne . “ [I]171-anne feel that [I]171-anne have diminished [my]171-anne own usefulness by not admitting any other kind of usefulness than [my]171-anne own . [I]171-anne often catch [myself]171-anne thinking , now , that [my]171-anne great danger lies in [my]171-anne tendency to underrate [people]577-people ; sometimes it seems as if , unless [I]171-anne can struggle against it , it will invade and sterilise [my]171-anne whole nature . ”[171-anne] “ [I]171-anne am so glad [you]171-anne feel like that , [Dick]379-hamlin . ”[171-anne] “ And do [you]171-anne know , ”[3523-i] [he]3523-i continued , “ [I]3523-i think this change is due to [you]171-anne ; knowing [you]171-anne has shown [me]3523-i how horribly unreasonable and unjust [I]3523-i am apt to be in [my]3523-i preconceived notions . [I]3523-i really did think [you]171-anne an æsthete once , [Annie]171-anne ; nay , at one time , [I]3523-i was so base as to think that [you]171-anne were base , that [you]171-anne cared for [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s position and money and good looks , while not caring for [him]379-hamlin . Will [you]171-anne forgive [me]3523-i , [Annie]171-anne ? ”[3523-i] [He]3523-i bent over [her]3524-she , and took [her]3524-she hand . [She]3524-she let [him]3523-i hold it for a minute . [She]3524-she felt so strangely free , so safe , so happy somehow with [this man , whose presence had so often been a threat and an insult]3525-this man , whose presence had so often been a threat and an insult . “ [I]3524-she wonder whether [you]3523-i will ever learn to be just to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[3524-she] [she]3524-she mused . “ [I]3524-she will do [my]3524-she best . ”[3524-she] [She]3524-she had withdrawn [her]3524-she hand from [his]3523-i . “ [I]171-anne wonder whether [I]171-anne have ever been just to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne . [Richard]223-richard brown reddened . “ What makes [you]223-richard brown say that , [Nan]171-anne ? ”[171-anne] “ [I]3524-she do n’t know . [I]3524-she feel how difficult it is for a nature like [mine]3524-she to be just towards , to understand , any one outside it . ”[3524-she] “ Can [you]223-richard brown be just towards [me]223-richard brown ? ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown suddenly asked . “ [I]223-richard brown am , [I]223-richard brown think . ”[223-richard brown] “ Do [you]223-richard brown think , then , ”[3524-she] went on [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , “ that during the time [you]223-richard brown spend at [Girton]58-girton [you]223-richard brown could try a little and understand [me,—you]223-richard brown could try and like [me]3524-she a little , [Annie]171-anne ? ”[3524-she] “ [I]3526-she do like [you]223-richard brown , [Richard]223-richard brown , ”[3526-she] [she]3526-she answered coldly ; but a quiet happiness , like that of a windless , half‐covered morning in [the fields]1027-the fields , stole over [her]3526-she . “ [I]223-richard brown do n’t mean this , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said , rising . “ [I]223-richard brown want [you]223-richard brown to like [me]223-richard brown , [Nan]171-anne , as much — as much as [you]223-richard brown thought [you]223-richard brown liked [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[223-richard brown] [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head sadly . “ That is quite impossible , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said : “ [one]620-one does n’t feel like that twice , [I]171-anne fancy , [Richard]223-richard brown , any more than [one]620-one believes twice in angels or such things . ”[171-anne] [Richard Brown]223-richard brown frowned . [She]3526-she could never pluck [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [Hamlin]145-hamlin in some shape , real or false , out of [her]3526-she heart . “ Good‐bye , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said ; “ [I]223-richard brown fear [I]223-richard brown have tired [you]223-richard brown . [Annie]171-anne , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown added , “ it is idiotic , is n’t it ? but all the time [you]223-richard brown were ill , even until [I]223-richard brown came into [this room]6017-this room , [I]223-richard brown kept hoping that [you]223-richard brown might have lost [your]223-richard brown looks — that [Hamlin]145-hamlin might be quite unable ever to care for [you]223-richard brown again — that [you]223-richard brown might have ceased to be , in this sort of way , above [me]223-richard brown . And yet , when [I]223-richard brown saw [you]223-richard brown , [I]223-richard brown was glad it was not so . Oh , [Nan]171-anne , promise [me]223-richard brown [you]223-richard brown will try and like [me]223-richard brown a little . ”[223-richard brown] “ Please do n’t say that , [Dick]379-hamlin . [I]3528-my have been [a slave]2670-a slave , [a prisoner]6586-a prisoner . Ca n’t [you]379-hamlin understand that [my]3528-my great joy is the sense of [my]3528-my freedom , [my]3528-my sense of belonging to [no one]3899-no one , caring about [no one]3899-no one ? Ca n’t [you]379-hamlin understand that it seems horrible to [me]3528-my to even think that [I]3528-my could ever care for [any one]4101-any one again ? Ca n’t [you]379-hamlin let [me]3528-my enjoy [my]3528-my liberty , at least until [I]3528-my have realised that it is n’t a dream ? ”[3528-my] [She]3528-my spoke with impetuosity , but gently ; and [[her]3528-my cousin]1291-her cousin did not feel rebuked . “ By the way , ”[1291-her cousin] [he]1291-her cousin said , “ [I]1291-her cousin suppose [you]3528-my have heard who is expected [here]3884-here soon — [[your]3528-my old friend]6591-your old friend , [Melton Perry]146-perry . ”[1291-her cousin] “ [Melton Perry]146-perry ! ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne . It seemed such centuries since [she]171-anne had heard that name last . “ Oh , [I]171-anne shall be so glad to see [him]6591-your old friend , [he]6591-your old friend is such [a good man]3321-a good man ! ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne walked up and down after [Dick]379-hamlin had left . [Melton Perry]146-perry ! the name brought up [the far , far distant past]3530-the far , far distant past — a vision of [the untidy house at [Florence]6-florence]3531-the untidy house at florence ; of [Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s lean and Sapphic profile ; of the tall grass and crushed herbs in [the vineyard of [the Villa Arnolfini]734-the villa arnolfini]3532-the vineyard of the villa arnolfini ; of [Hamlin]379-hamlin as [she]171-anne had first known [him]379-hamlin — [a mysterious , unattainable ideal high above [her]171-anne]3534-a mysterious , unattainable ideal high above her ; of [the studio at the top of the tower]3535-the studio at the top of the tower ; of [herself]171-anne , as [she]171-anne recollected [herself]171-anne to have been , [a sombre , unhappy creature , with whose identity [she]171-anne seemed to have no connection , and into whose dark and confused mind [she]171-anne felt unable to see]3536-a sombre , unhappy creature , with whose identity she seemed to have no connection , and into whose dark and confused mind she felt unable to see . There was something very painful in this sudden return of the past in company with [[her]171-anne old friend]3537-her old friend , and [Anne]171-anne thought bitterly of the difference between the dreams of happiness , so positive , so perfect , of those days , and the reality of happiness , so negative , so poor — consisting in what ? in being left to [herself]171-anne — which belonged to [her]171-anne now . And yet , after all , as [she]171-anne looked into [[her]171-anne girlhood]3538-her girlhood before [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s coming , [she]171-anne recognised the same negativeness ; [she]171-anne had wished to be free , to be [a daily governess]4119-a daily governess , to depend upon [no one]3899-no one for [her]171-anne livelihood , to be able to know something of a wider life . [She]171-anne had never hoped , scarcely even wished , for happiness ; the semblance of it had passed before [her]171-anne eyes , had , for a brief time , made [her]171-anne life more acutely sensitive ; but [she]171-anne returned to the negative : it was the law of [her]171-anne life . And , as [she]171-anne cleared [her]171-anne mind of all vain regrets , [she]171-anne became aware that , in a manner , this return upon [her]171-anne scene of [Melton Perry]146-perry was like the ringing of the bell , the orchestral flourish , which ends a piece as it has begun it . The comedy of [her]171-anne love for [Hamlin]379-hamlin , and of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s love for [her]171-anne , was over ; and [she]171-anne felt impatient for [Melton Perry]146-perry ’s arrival . THE day after this visit from [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin , came the first visit from [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . It seemed to [Anne]171-anne that , from the very moment of [her]171-anne entering [the room]574-the room , [she]171-anne could perceive something strange in [Sacha]386-sacha ’s manner — something brazen , flaunting , cruel . [The little woman]4885-the little woman somehow no longer looked so small and that childish appealingness had entirely left [her]4885-the little woman manner ; [she]4885-the little woman was self‐possessed , cynical , triumphant . [Her]4885-the little woman very dress was different from anything in which [Miss Brown]171-anne had hitherto seen [her]4885-the little woman ; exotic indeed and fantastic , like everything that [she]4885-the little woman wore , but certainly not turned out by [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s maid]3543-madame elaguine ’s maid . [She]360-madame elaguine kissed [Anne]171-anne familiarly on both cheeks , enveloping [her]171-anne in an atmosphere of heady Eastern perfumes . “ [Poor Annie]260-poor anne , ”[360-madame elaguine] [she]360-madame elaguine said , “ [you]260-poor anne have been very ill , and must have thought [me]360-madame elaguine [a great brute]6593-a great brute for not coming to see [you]260-poor anne before . But [Walter]145-hamlin absolutely forbade [my]360-madame elaguine coming — stood in front of [your]260-poor anne door , so to speak , and shut it in [my]360-madame elaguine face . [He]145-hamlin pretended that [I]360-madame elaguine should have excited [you]260-poor anne too much . Perhaps [I]360-madame elaguine should ; [I]360-madame elaguine am [a wretched , excitable creature]6594-a wretched , excitable creature . Perhaps [he]145-hamlin was right ; what do [you]260-poor anne think ? ”[360-madame elaguine] [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine fixed [her]360-madame elaguine eyes on those of [Anne]260-poor anne ; a long look of scrutiny and triumph , as if [she]360-madame elaguine had expected to see [her]260-poor anne wince . “ [I]171-anne think [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin was quite mistaken , ”[171-anne] answered [Miss Brown]171-anne quietly , understanding the meaning of that look . “ [I]171-anne am much less subject to excitement than [he]145-hamlin supposes ; and [your]260-poor anne presence would not have excited [me]171-anne more than [any one else]1701-any one else ’s . ”[171-anne] “ Really ! ”[360-madame elaguine] and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s mouth took a peculiar little sneering turn ; “ [I]360-madame elaguine should have thought that [I]360-madame elaguine was exciting , now . Not more exciting , for instance , than [the Miss Leighs]327-the leighs ? or than [[your]260-poor anne cousin]4341-your cousin , [Mr Richard Brown]223-richard brown ? ”[360-madame elaguine] and [she]360-madame elaguine again looked scrutinisingly at [Anne]171-anne , who merely shook [her]171-anne head . “ By the way , [[your]260-poor anne cousin]4341-your cousin has quite cut [me]360-madame elaguine of late , [Annie]171-anne — ask [him]4341-your cousin why . [I]360-madame elaguine suspect that [he]4341-your cousin thinks [me]360-madame elaguine [a dangerous woman]6598-a dangerous woman , quite without moral ballast,—what [[my]360-madame elaguine German teacher]6599-my german teacher used to call [Sittlicher Ernst]468-sittlicher ernst . [He]4341-your cousin was such a funny creature that [German teacher of mine]6600-german teacher of mine ; did [I]360-madame elaguine ever tell [you]171-anne about [him]4341-your cousin ? [He]4341-your cousin taught at [the school where [I]360-madame elaguine was in [Petersburg]128-petersburg]6601-the school where i was in petersburg : [a thin lank creature , with long red wrists projecting a yard from [his]4341-your cousin sleeves , and a waistcoat which would ride up whenever [he]4341-your cousin was excited]6602-a thin lank creature , with long red wrists projecting a yard from his sleeves , and a waistcoat which would ride up whenever he was excited ; [he]4341-your cousin used to lean against the wall , any part of [his]4341-your cousin body at random , and bend and sway the rest of [him]4341-your cousin about , like a caterpillar . [He]4341-your cousin taught [us]6603-us German literature , and was very shocked because [I]360-madame elaguine said the ‘ Bride of [Corinth]129-corinth ’ was the only amusing thing [Goethe]240-goethe had ever written . [He]4341-your cousin believed in [Schopenhauer]400-schopenhauer — and hated [women]3959-women , and [me]360-madame elaguine in particular , because [I]360-madame elaguine had no [Sittlicher Ernst]468-sittlicher ernst ; and one day , what do [you]6605-you think [he]4341-your cousin did ? [he]4341-your cousin fell on [his]4341-your cousin knees and tried to catch [me]360-madame elaguine round the waist . [Poor devil]4013-poor devil ! [he]4341-your cousin was turned out of doors , and drowned [himself]4341-your cousin later . [I]360-madame elaguine wonder whether it was out of despair at [my]360-madame elaguine want of [Sittlicher Ernst]468-sittlicher ernst ? [He]4341-your cousin was such [a queer creature]6607-a queer creature . [I]360-madame elaguine sometimes think , after all , [he]4341-your cousin was [the only man [I]360-madame elaguine could really have loved]6608-the only man i could really have loved , if only [his]4341-your cousin waistcoat had not ridden up , and [his]4341-your cousin wrists projected so much from [his]4341-your cousin cuffs . ”[360-madame elaguine] [Sacha]386-sacha laughed , and bit [her]386-sacha lower lip a little , so that it suddenly became scarlet , like the lips of [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . [She]386-sacha threw [herself]386-sacha back in [her]386-sacha chair , one foot crossed over the other , [her]386-sacha eyes fixed on the Venetian chandelier , which caught opalescent lights in the sunshine ; [she]386-sacha was smiling , perhaps in recollection of [the professor]5791-the professor with [his]5791-the professor wrists and [his]5791-the professor waistcoat . [Anne]171-anne did not know what to say ; the presence of [this woman]5573-this woman seemed to freeze [her]171-anne , like the contact of some clammy thing : it was as if the soul of [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis had entered [her]171-anne body and had become more active , more subtle in its new habitation . Mechanically [her]171-anne eyes rested upon [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s dress , a marvellous vague thing , made in some confused resemblance of [the men]4543-the men ’s dress of Moliére ’s time,—a crimson plush coat and [a big man]3547-a big man ’s cravat of Flanders lace , but all bursting out , by every conceivable slashing and gap , into a mass of lace , which hung about [her]171-anne like a cloud of thistle‐down , beneath which [her]171-anne thin and nervous little body seemed to twist and writhe with every word . “ It ’s a pretty frock , is n’t it ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne remarked , looking down upon it with satisfaction . “ Oh no , [I]171-anne did n’t make this ; [I]171-anne am bored with always making [my]171-anne own frocks . It ’s from Worth . [I]171-anne swore [I]171-anne would bring round [Watty]178-watty from belief in pre‐Adamitic skirts and purfled sleeves and eighteen‐penny medievalism to a belief in Worth ; [you]6609-you know [he]353-lewis used always to rant at [Paris]42-paris clothes . Well , [I]171-anne ’ve been as good as [my]171-anne word ; this is from Worth , and what ’s more , [Walter]145-hamlin has paid [my]171-anne bill . Humiliating , rather , is n’t it ? but then , [you]6609-you see , [I]171-anne ’m [a pauper]6610-a pauper , and ca n’t buy Worth frocks on a thousand a‐year , including subscription for a copy of Chough ’s new translation of ‘ Villon , ’ with all the improprieties annotated , Dutch paper , morocco , rough edges , price three guineas , can [I]171-anne ? ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne flushed . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had paid for [Sacha]386-sacha ’s dress ! And yet , had [Hamlin]145-hamlin not paid for not merely one , but all [Anne]171-anne ’s dresses these years — nay , for everything that [Anne]171-anne saw about [her]171-anne — nay , for everything almost that [Anne]171-anne knew and was ? And still , how was it , there was a difference ? and as [she]171-anne looked at [Sacha]386-sacha in [her]386-sacha fantastic Molière coat of crimson plush and watered white silk and lace , which [Hamlin]145-hamlin had paid for , [she]171-anne could not get out of [her]171-anne mind the image of [certain French kept women whom [she]171-anne had seen , in [their]3548-certain french kept women whom she had seen , in their elaborate dresses and well‐appointed victorias , driving in the park elaborate dresses and well‐appointed victorias , driving in [the Park]6544-the park]3548-certain french kept women whom she had seen , in their elaborate dresses and well‐appointed victorias , driving in the park . It was very unjust and horrible , yet [she]171-anne could not get it out of [her]171-anne mind . “ [Walter]145-hamlin is [a queer creature]6607-a queer creature , ”[360-madame elaguine] went on [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; “ somewhat like [[my]360-madame elaguine German caterpillar professor]6612-my german caterpillar professor : [I]360-madame elaguine do n’t mean in the matter of wrists and waistcoats , but in the matter of [women]3959-women . [I]360-madame elaguine do n’t know how to say it ; [my]360-madame elaguine ideas are n’t ever very clear : [I]360-madame elaguine suppose it ’s want of [Sittlicher Ernst]468-sittlicher ernst , and also because [I]360-madame elaguine ’m hysterical — at least [the doctors]3460-the doctors say so ; because [I]360-madame elaguine insist on having [my]360-madame elaguine own way . [I]360-madame elaguine mean that [Walter]145-hamlin , for instance , hates [me]360-madame elaguine in a certain sense just as [that professor]6615-that professor did . [I]360-madame elaguine ’m sure [he]145-hamlin sometimes feels as if [he]145-hamlin could throttle [me]360-madame elaguine , because [I]360-madame elaguine have no [Sittlicher Ernst]468-sittlicher ernst , and because [I]360-madame elaguine made love to [him]145-hamlin , and offered [him]145-hamlin [barley‐sugar]6616-barley‐sugar and tops when [I]360-madame elaguine was ten . And yet ! Ah , well , [I]360-madame elaguine suppose [I]360-madame elaguine am [a wretch]6617-a wretch ! Oh , [Annie]171-anne dear , [I]360-madame elaguine fear , [I]360-madame elaguine fear [I]360-madame elaguine am [a wretch]6617-a wretch ! ”[360-madame elaguine] and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine suddenly jumped up from [her]360-madame elaguine chair and flung [her]360-madame elaguine arms round [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s neck and kissed [her]171-anne , with such violence that [Anne]171-anne felt [her]171-anne lips almost like leeches and [her]171-anne teeth pressing into [her]171-anne cheeks . “ Oh [Annie]171-anne , [I]360-madame elaguine am [an unworthy wretch]6619-an unworthy wretch ! [I]360-madame elaguine am a beast towards [you]171-anne ! ”[360-madame elaguine] [she]360-madame elaguine cried . [Anne]171-anne felt a horror , a kind of fear of death ; and yet [she]171-anne felt sorry for [this woman]5573-this woman ; was [she]171-anne not a wretch in not clearing up the position — in letting [this woman]5573-this woman continue to love in shame , when [she]5573-this woman might love openly and honourably ? [She]171-anne loosened [herself]171-anne from [Sacha]386-sacha ’s embrace . “ [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne began , feeling [her]171-anne face still burning from this strangling embrace , and mechanically smoothing [her]171-anne ruffled hair , “ [I]171-anne have long wanted to tell [you]171-anne something with regard to [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin — indeed [I]171-anne feel [I]171-anne ought to have told it [you]171-anne before , but . . . ”[171-anne] At this moment the door opened and [Hamlin]145-hamlin entered . [Anne]171-anne had missed [her]171-anne opportunity ; it was impossible to speak before [Hamlin]145-hamlin , although [she]171-anne had once or twice contemplated clearing up matters to [him]145-hamlin and [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin at the same time . But it was impossible now . [Sacha]386-sacha had something strange , brazen , about [her]1267-his cousin , which froze [Anne]171-anne ’s soul . [Hamlin]145-hamlin was listless , depressed , with that hang‐dog , stupefied air that [Miss Brown]171-anne had noticed in [him]145-hamlin of late . [He]145-hamlin spoke little , barely answered any of [Sacha]386-sacha ’s remarks : every time that [he]145-hamlin raised [his]145-hamlin eyes upon [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , it was with an expression that amounted almost to disgust ; and [she]1267-his cousin seemed nowise hurt , but rather amused and pleased at this look , and took a pleasure in provoking it by a hundred absurdities , and by a sort of bullying way , as if expressly to show [her]1267-his cousin power over [this sullen creature]3554-this sullen creature . [They]3555-they did not stay long . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine rose , and [Hamlin]145-hamlin mechanically followed [her]360-madame elaguine example : was it that [he]145-hamlin could not see [her]1267-his cousin go away by [herself]1267-his cousin , or that [he]145-hamlin was afraid of being left alone with [Miss Brown]171-anne ? “ This is [my]360-madame elaguine first visit to [you]145-hamlin since [your]145-hamlin illness , and it will be [my]360-madame elaguine last for a little time , ”[360-madame elaguine] said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , letting [Hamlin]145-hamlin help [her]1267-his cousin on with [her]1267-his cousin cloak , and spinning out the operation , as if to show that this depressed and sullen creature , for all [his]145-hamlin sulkiness , was [[her]360-madame elaguine slave]3556-her slave . “ Are [you]145-hamlin going away ? ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne , a sudden fear entering [her]171-anne heart . [Sacha]386-sacha noticed [her]171-anne involuntary flush , and mistook its meaning . “ Only for a fortnight , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered , with an odd smile . “ Oh no ; [I]171-anne ca n’t do without [London]4-london and [[my]171-anne friends]1822-my friends — hideous [London]4-london and [disagreeable friends]6621-disagreeable friends , at least so far as [Walter]145-hamlin is concerned . [I]171-anne suppose it ’s [my]171-anne perversity and want of [Sittlicher Ernst]468-sittlicher ernst , again . [I]171-anne am going to [Paris]42-paris this evening . [I]171-anne have a notion of taking [Boris]469-boris out of [[his]469-boris English school]6622-his english school and sending [him]469-boris to [the Lycée]130-the lycée . [I]171-anne feel [I]171-anne have had a surfeit of respectability and æstheticism , and that [I]171-anne ’d rather [[my]171-anne son]6623-my son were [a Frenchman]6624-a frenchman and [a Bohemian]6625-a bohemian . It ’s a whim . Perhaps it will make [me]171-anne return [a frantic Anglomaniac]6626-a frantic anglomaniac . Fancy if [Boris]469-boris were to grow up a thing like this ! ”[171-anne] pointing to [Hamlin,—“a]470-hamlin,—“a horrible pseudo [Sir Galahad]217-sir galahad , as [Watty]178-watty was at sixteen . Faugh ! [I]171-anne could n’t bear it . Good‐bye , [Annie dear]6627-annie dear ; [I]171-anne fear [you]6627-annie dear must think [me]171-anne [an immoral woman]6628-an immoral woman , and that [[my]171-anne German professor]6629-my german professor was n’t so far wrong . Good‐bye , [[my]171-anne beautiful Madonna of [the Glaciers]131-the glaciers]6630-my beautiful madonna of the glaciers , ”[171-anne] and again [Miss Brown]171-anne was half stifled in the cloud of oriental perfumes , as [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine kissed [her]171-anne cavalierly on both cheeks . “ Come along , [Watty]178-watty ! ”[386-sacha] cried [Sacha]386-sacha ; “ ca n’t [you]178-watty learn to open the door for [a woman]3960-a woman ? ”[386-sacha] “ [Good‐bye]393-good‐bye , [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] and [Hamlin]145-hamlin gave a little sigh of weariness as [he]145-hamlin pressed [Anne]171-anne ’s hand . [Miss Brown]171-anne remained in a state of vague fear all that day . Was that love — at least on [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s part — that look of bored disgust with which [he]145-hamlin had responded to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s provocation ? [Anne]171-anne grew pale at the notion of that fortnight of [Sacha]386-sacha ’s absence . Would [Hamlin]145-hamlin , fickle , easily wounded in [his]145-hamlin vanity , sated with [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s Russian ways , remain faithful to [the absent woman]3557-the absent woman ? Would [he]145-hamlin not rather return and begin afresh that old , old story of Platonic adoration , of self‐reproach , with what [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin called Madonna of [the Glaciers]131-the glaciers ? And as [Hamlin]145-hamlin was leaving , [he]145-hamlin had said to [her]171-anne half audibly , “ If [you]171-anne will allow [me]145-hamlin , [I]145-hamlin will come to‐morrow afternoon and see what can be done to [my]145-hamlin Vision of [Beatrice]187-beatrice , if [you]171-anne will give [me]145-hamlin a sitting . ”[145-hamlin] A sitting ! [Anne]171-anne ’s heart had sunk at the mere word . But the next morning [she]171-anne found on the tray on which [her]171-anne breakfast was brought up a twisted note . It was from [Hamlin]145-hamlin , written late the previous night . “ [DEAR MISS BROWN]471-dear miss brown , ”[145-hamlin] it said,—“I fear [you]171-anne will think [me]145-hamlin very uncourteous to break through [our]6632-our engagement for to‐morrow morning . But [I]145-hamlin am feeling rather anxious lest [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine should get imposed on about [the school]1304-the school for [[her]360-madame elaguine boy]2111-her boy ; so [I]145-hamlin shall join [her]360-madame elaguine for a few days in [Paris]42-paris . Pray forgive [my]145-hamlin apparent rudeness.—Yours sincerely , [W. H.]472-w. h. ”[145-hamlin] “ What ’s [your]171-anne news , [Annie]171-anne ? ”[324-mary leigh] asked [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , who had come in to see after [[her]171-anne invalid]3559-her invalid . “ [You]171-anne look as if [you]171-anne had come in for a fortune ! ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne made an effort and laughed . “ It was only [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin postponing a sitting which [I]171-anne was to give [him]145-hamlin . [I]171-anne really do n’t feel much like sitting yet . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s gone to [Paris]42-paris to look after [[a school]2459-a school for [Boris Elaguine]469-boris]6636-a school for boris elaguine . ”[171-anne] “ And [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ? ”[324-mary leigh] “ [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine — went yesterday . ”[171-anne] “ Oh , indeed ! ”[324-mary leigh] answered [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh ; and as [she]324-mary leigh said that , a wave of red came into [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s pale face — why , [Anne]171-anne could not [herself]171-anne have explained . THE day after [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s departure to join [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , [Richard Brown]223-richard brown paid another visit at [Hammersmith]32-hammersmith ; and [he]223-richard brown dropped in frequently in the next few days . [He]223-richard brown never spoke of [his]223-richard brown hopes , [he]223-richard brown never inquired about [Anne]171-anne ’s plans ; [he]223-richard brown scarcely so much as alluded to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s departure . [He]223-richard brown seemed satisfied to see [[his]223-richard brown cousin]1267-his cousin , to explain to [her]1267-his cousin all the things that [he]223-richard brown hoped some day to do . This forbearance , this delicate discretion , on the part of one of [the most tactless and exacting of men]3561-the most tactless and exacting of men ; this something which implied that [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin had learned to consult [her]1267-his cousin wishes , touched [Miss Brown]171-anne very much . [Love]155-love , or by whatever other name ( since the name of love was discredited to [Anne]171-anne ) [she]171-anne might choose to call [Richard]223-richard brown ’s strong and steady feeling , seemed to have purified this powerful and generous temper of that alloy of coarse and contemptuous suspicion that had occasionally repelled [her]171-anne so much . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had become comparatively quite charitable in [his]223-richard brown judgments , sincerely anxious to be just . [He]223-richard brown tried to see things a little from [her]171-anne point of view — nay , even to understand whatever good there was or had been in [Hamlin]379-hamlin . [This big and self‐reliant man , who had already thought and done so much for [himself]223-richard brown and for [others]4163-others]3562-this big and self‐reliant man , who had already thought and done so much for himself and for others , began to appear to [[his]223-richard brown cousin]1267-his cousin as less mature than [she]171-anne had fancied , and even less self‐reliant ; new instincts and perceptions , new sides of [his]379-hamlin nature — making it fuller , richer , purer — developing under [her]171-anne influence . [Anne]171-anne did not love [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin ; [she]171-anne did not even anticipate loving [him]1291-her cousin anything as [she]171-anne had once loved [Hamlin]379-hamlin . [She]171-anne recognised that , in [her]171-anne nature , love could exist only for an ideal , and in an ideal [she]171-anne could never again believe ; but [she]171-anne became aware of a relation of frank comradeship , of mutual respect and attachment and usefulness , which warmed [her]171-anne nature , and made hopes and projects bud and blossom up . [She]171-anne was nervously anxious for that fortnight to have come to an end , to have [Hamlin]379-hamlin back , to speak to [him]379-hamlin ; and yet , at the same time , it seemed to [her]171-anne dreadful that these few days of freedom from care , freedom from the shadow which had so long hung over [her]171-anne , should so soon come to an end . The fortnight was drawing to a close ; [Hamlin]379-hamlin would soon be back . [Anne]171-anne began to be filled with unendurable impatience ; [she]171-anne even , once or twice , began a letter telling [him]1291-her cousin everything , and tore it up only from the fear that it might seem harsh , ungrateful , that it might ( and the idea was terrible to [her]171-anne ) make [him]1291-her cousin suppose that [she]171-anne was jealous , that [she]171-anne loved [him]1291-her cousin . It was a great relief to [her]171-anne when there suddenly came a telegram , sent on from [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s lodgings]3566-hamlin ’s lodgings , and opened by [[his]1291-her cousin servant]3567-his servant , which announced for next evening the arrival of [Melton Perry]146-perry , who knew nothing of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s momentary absence from [town]821-town . “ Oh , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne , “ [Mr Perry]152-perry is coming to‐morrow evening ! Do [you]247-aunt claudia think — oh , do [you]247-aunt claudia think [you]247-aunt claudia could have [him]152-perry to stay [here]3884-here till [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin return ? ”[171-anne] “ Who is [Mr Perry]152-perry ? ”[379-hamlin] asked [Chough]379-hamlin , who was dining with [them]3569-them , suddenly pricking up [his]379-hamlin ears at [Anne]171-anne ’s excited tone . Could [he]1291-her cousin be the explanation of [Anne]171-anne ’s indifference to [Hamlin]379-hamlin ? thought [the poet of the Eternal Feminine]3570-the poet of the eternal feminine . “ [Mr Perry]152-perry , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , “ is [the gentleman in whose house [I]171-anne was [a servant]4125-a servant until [I]171-anne met [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin]6638-the gentleman in whose house i was a servant until i met mr hamlin — [the father of [the little girls whose maid [I]171-anne was]6641-the little girls whose maid i was . [He]145-hamlin was very kind to [me]171-anne , and [I]171-anne am very fond of [him]145-hamlin . ”[171-anne] [Cosmo Chough]248-chough]6640-the father of the little girls whose maid i was . he was very kind to me , and i am very fond of him . ” cosmo chough stared at [her]171-anne in amazement . [He]3571-he had quite forgotten , indeed [he]3571-he had never properly realised , that [this queenly woman]3572-this queenly woman , this more than [Dante]180-dante ’s Beatrice or [[Petrarch]425-petrarch ’s [Laura]190-laura]3573-petrarch ’s laura , had actually been [a nursemaid]616-a nursemaid — [a servant]4125-a servant ! [She]3572-this queenly woman [a servant]4125-a servant ! [he]3571-he repeated to [himself]3571-he , looking at [Miss Brown]171-anne as [she]171-anne sat opposite [him]3571-he ; at this goddess , it seemed to [him]3571-he , with the wonderful face as of [one of [[Michelangelo]328-michelangelo ’s Titanesses]3578-michelangelo ’s titanesses]3577-one of michelangelo ’s titanesses ; the solemn , mysterious , onyx‐grey eyes ; the something superhumanly grand in person and movement . To have been [a servant]4125-a servant , and to remind [people]577-people of it , was [his]3571-he next thought ; and this [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , conscious of [[his]3571-he supposed father]3581-his supposed father [the duke]3256-the duke , and of [[his]3571-he real father]3583-his real father [the apothecary at [Limerick]113-limerick]3584-the apothecary at limerick , was absolutely unable to comprehend . “ [Mr Perry]152-perry , except [Miss Curzon]175-miss curzon , was the only friend [I]171-anne ever had , until — until [I]171-anne met [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] went on [Miss Brown]171-anne . “ [You]171-anne will give [him]152-perry [the spare room]2786-the spare room , [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia , for [my]171-anne sake , wo n’t [you]171-anne ? And [you]171-anne will let [me]171-anne arrange it for [him]152-perry , and make it look a little untidy , and put match‐boxes and pipe‐lights about , so that [he]152-perry may feel a little comfortable . ”[171-anne] [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor laughed . “ Put as many pipe‐lights about as [you]171-anne please , [[my]243-mrs macgregor dear]4237-my dear ; but if [he]152-perry fill [[Watty]178-watty ’s studio]6644-watty ’s studio with pipe‐smoke , [you]171-anne will be responsible , not [I.]243-mrs macgregor ”[243-mrs macgregor] The next afternoon [Anne Brown]171-anne was just in the midst of what [she]171-anne called making [the spare room]2786-the spare room look untidy , taking out the superfluous æsthetic furniture which would , [she]171-anne knew , fidget [[her]171-anne former master]3586-her former master to death , dragging in leather arm‐chairs instead of imitation Queen Anne things , and piling newspapers and novels on the table , when [a visitor]3587-a visitor was announced . [She]171-anne went down into [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room , and , to [her]171-anne surprise , found [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . An inexpressible sense of disgust came over [her]171-anne , [This man]1239-this man personified all that [she]171-anne hated most of that past with which [she]171-anne was about to break for ever . [The little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips was considerably less free‐and‐easy and sultan‐like than usual ; [his]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips humiliation , whatever it was , had evidently done [him]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips good . Indeed , [Miss Brown]171-anne was almost beginning to ask [herself]171-anne whether [she]171-anne might not have been a little unjust towards [him]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips also , so respectful and amiable had [he]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips made [himself]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips , when it began to dawn upon [her]171-anne that there was an explanation for [his]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips visit much more in keeping with the character [she]171-anne had hitherto attributed to [him]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips . “ [I]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips hear that [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin is in [Paris]42-paris with [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , ”[3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips] [he]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips had remarked , after a few minutes ’ conversation . [He]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips had tried to say it in an off‐hand manner ; but [Anne]171-anne had felt [his]3590-the little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips green eyes fixed curiously upon [her]171-anne . “ Yes ; [they]6646-they have gone to settle about sending [Boris]469-boris to [the Lycée]130-the lycée . ”[353-lewis] [Lewis]353-lewis hereupon made some remarks about English and [French schools]3591-french schools , and upon the education of [Boris Elaguine]469-boris ; but slowly and dexterously [he]353-lewis made the conversation return to [Sacha]386-sacha and [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; [he]353-lewis made the conspicuous matter no longer the object of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s and [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s journey to [Paris]42-paris , but the journey itself . “ [I]353-lewis do n’t think [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s Russian relations]6647-madame elaguine ’s russian relations — [[her]360-madame elaguine aunt who lives in [Paris]42-paris and [Boris]469-boris ’s grandfather]6648-her aunt who lives in paris and boris ’s grandfather — will be particularly pleased at [her]360-madame elaguine going about like that with [a young man]6649-a young man , ”[353-lewis] [he]353-lewis said . “ [Russians]6650-russians are [such corrupt people]6651-such corrupt people , [they]6650-russians see mischief in everything . ”[353-lewis] [Anne]171-anne understood . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , who always hated [her]171-anne , had been unable to resist the temptation , now that both [Hamlin]145-hamlin and [Sacha]386-sacha were safe out of the way , of seeing [the proud Miss Brown]171-anne wince beneath [his]353-lewis compassion . [He]353-lewis was artistically playing upon the feelings of humiliation and anger with which [he]353-lewis imagined [her]171-anne to be filled . “ [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin , [you]353-lewis must remember , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , quietly bending over [her]171-anne embroidery . “ True ; but [the people who meet [them]6650-russians in [Paris]42-paris]6653-the people who meet them in paris wo n’t know that , or wo n’t believe it . Besides , it ’s not as if [they]6650-russians had always lived together and been as [brother]6654-brother and [sister]4762-sister , as [some cousins]6656-some cousins have . [I]353-lewis think [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is very rash to run the risk of unnecessary gossip ; and [I]353-lewis must say [I]353-lewis ca n’t understand [Hamlin]145-hamlin being so dense as not to see that [he]145-hamlin was compromising [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin , especially as [people]577-people were beginning to notice [his]145-hamlin assiduity to [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin even here . Of course , however , ”[353-lewis] added [Lewis]353-lewis , fixing [his]353-lewis eyes on [Miss Brown]171-anne , “ being engaged , to [you]171-anne makes a difference to [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [A man who is engaged to be married]6660-a man who is engaged to be married may , [I]353-lewis suppose , go about with [any woman]1339-any woman — it is as if [he]6660-a man who is engaged to be married were married . [I]353-lewis am very sorry [I]353-lewis shall be far away , somewhere in [Central Asia]132-central asia or [South America]133-south america — [I]353-lewis do n’t know where — when [your]171-anne marriage will come off , [Miss Brown]171-anne . [I]353-lewis must make [my]353-lewis congratulations betimes . ”[353-lewis] “ There is nothing to congratulate about , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , quietly ; “ there has been no question of [my]171-anne marrying [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . [I]171-anne am sorry such an idea should have got abroad . [I]171-anne was , [you]171-anne know , [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s ward]6662-mr hamlin ’s ward till lately , and [I]171-anne am now taking advantage of [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt ’s kindness to stay [here]3884-here till — till [I]171-anne settle what [I]171-anne am going to do ; [I]171-anne may be going to [Girton]58-girton — [I]171-anne do n’t know . ”[171-anne] “ Oh , indeed ! ”[353-lewis] exclaimed [Lewis]353-lewis ; “ pray forgive [my]353-lewis unintentional impertinence then . [Girton]58-girton ? Ah — How long do [you]171-anne intend remaining [there]4426-there ? ”[353-lewis] “ [I]171-anne do n’t know . Nothing is settled yet . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne was determined not to let [this man]1239-this man enjoy [his]1239-this man impertinence and spitefulness : [he]1239-this man should go away baffled . “ [I]353-lewis may stay [there]4426-there altogether . [I]353-lewis should rather like to be [a teacher]4134-a teacher . ”[353-lewis] “ And [I]353-lewis , ”[353-lewis] said [Lewis]353-lewis , with one of [his]353-lewis would‐be fascinating smiles , “ would , in that case , like to be [a pupil]6668-a pupil , [Miss Brown]171-anne . ”[353-lewis] [Anne]171-anne did not answer . [He]353-lewis must be disappointed , [she]171-anne thought . But [he]353-lewis was determined to get some satisfaction out of [her]171-anne . “ [I]353-lewis ca n’t get over [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s thoughtlessness in accompanying [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine to [Paris]42-paris , ”[353-lewis] [he]353-lewis said . “ It would have been so simple to ask [some lady]6669-some lady to be of [the party]1060-the party . [I]353-lewis suppose [you]171-anne did not like leaving [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ? [I]353-lewis was sorry to hear that [she]243-mrs macgregor was ailing . ”[353-lewis] “ There was no question of [my]171-anne going , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne ; “ and [I]171-anne do think it is such silly nonsense about [any one]4101-any one being required . If [people]577-people choose to think that [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin is going to marry [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin — well , why not ? It would be a very natural thing if [he]145-hamlin did . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne looked [Lewis]353-lewis boldly in the face . It was the first time that [she]171-anne had said the thing which [she]171-anne believed , hoped for , prayed for . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis was evidently staggered ; and [Anne]171-anne enjoyed watching [his]353-lewis discomfiture . But a thought soon came into [his]353-lewis subtle head . “ [I]353-lewis suppose [you]171-anne see a good deal of [Mr Richard Brown]223-richard brown ? ”[353-lewis] [he]353-lewis asked ; “ [he]223-richard brown ’s [an extraordinarily clever man]6674-an extraordinarily clever man . ”[353-lewis] “ Yes ; [he]223-richard brown is very able . [I]353-lewis see [him]223-richard brown often enough . At present [his]223-richard brown electioneering business does n’t leave [him]223-richard brown much time . ”[353-lewis] “ Ah , to be sure . It costs a lot of money , does n’t it , to get into [Parliament]122-parliament ? But [I]353-lewis suppose [Mr Brown]223-richard brown is rich now , is [he]223-richard brown not ? ”[353-lewis] “ [He]223-richard brown is well off . ”[353-lewis] “ And [he]223-richard brown is sure to succeed . [He]223-richard brown has a fine career before [him]223-richard brown , ”[353-lewis] mused [Lewis]353-lewis . [He]353-lewis had , as [he]353-lewis thought , grasped the situation : there had been an amicable exchange — [Anne]171-anne was to marry [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , and [Sacha]386-sacha was to have [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [All [his]353-lewis enemies]3593-all his enemies — for [Sacha]386-sacha and [Hamlin]145-hamlin had evidently sent [him]353-lewis to the right - about — were going to be happily settled . [His]353-lewis paste‐coloured face grew pastier than ever ; [he]353-lewis bit [his]353-lewis scarlet lips and auburn moustache ; [he]353-lewis looked horribly angry and malignant ; wickeder than even [Anne]171-anne , who had always hated [him]353-lewis , would have believed it possible . But [he]353-lewis kept [his]353-lewis temper — nay , [he]353-lewis was quite unusually deferential and sweet . [He]353-lewis led the conversation to other topics ; and [Anne]171-anne thought that [his]353-lewis only object was now to talk no more about the affairs which [he]353-lewis had so misjudged , when , [she]171-anne scarcely knew how , [he]353-lewis began to talk about [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall — first about the scenery , then about [the grounds]3594-the grounds , then [the house]509-the house , then [their]3596-their stay there , and finally about the incident of the burning bed . [He]353-lewis went over all the circumstances of it ; [he]353-lewis summed up all that [he]353-lewis and [Anne]171-anne knew of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s persecution ; and then , as if discussing a curious psychological problem , [he]353-lewis asked [her]171-anne whether it had ever occurred to [her]171-anne that there was any possibility that the persecution should be a fraud , and that the bed had been set fire to by [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine [herself]360-madame elaguine . “ [I]353-lewis do n’t know whether [you]171-anne remarked at the time , that the flames burst out just two minutes after [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had fetched the cigarette‐papers out of [[her]360-madame elaguine room]1374-her room , and that [she]360-madame elaguine had given orders to [[her]360-madame elaguine maid]694-her maid not to come until [she]360-madame elaguine should be rung for , ”[353-lewis] said [Lewis]353-lewis ; “ also , that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine seemed extremely unwilling that any inquiry should be made into the matter afterwards . ”[353-lewis] [Anne]171-anne said nothing ; the recollection of the precious lace‐trimmed dressing‐gown , placed carefully out of the way of the flames , and of that sentence , “ And [they]6677-they never forgot , so long as [they]6677-they lived , that terrible burning bed , ”[414-little hélène elaguine] which had caught [her]171-anne eye in little [Hélène Elaguine]414-little hélène elaguine ’s story‐book , came into [her]171-anne mind . [She]171-anne had put that matter of the persecution behind [her]171-anne of late , and yet in [her]171-anne heart [she]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne believed it to be a fraud . “ [I]171-anne have had [my]171-anne doubts about it , ”[171-anne] bending over [her]171-anne work lest [Lewis]353-lewis should see [her]171-anne face . “ Indeed , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne added boldly , indignant at [her]171-anne own want of frankness , “ [I]171-anne am inclined to believe that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine did set that bed on fire . Several things have made [me]171-anne think so . ”[171-anne] [Lewis]353-lewis smiled . “ [I]171-anne am glad to find that [you]171-anne take [my]171-anne view of the case , [Miss Brown]171-anne . [The chemist at [Appledore]134-appledore]6678-the chemist at appledore — where , if [you]171-anne remember , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine went for some shopping the day before the fire — showed [me]171-anne [himself]6678-the chemist at appledore the bottle of acid from which [he]6678-the chemist at appledore had helped [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine — [I]171-anne forget the name of the stuff — [she]360-madame elaguine said [she]360-madame elaguine wanted some to take spots out of a dress . ”[171-anne] “ Indeed , ”[353-lewis] went on [Lewis]353-lewis , “ [I]353-lewis think that [we]6679-we have in [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine a very curious instance of a sort of monomania which has , [I]353-lewis believe , its scientific name,”—and[353-lewis] [Lewis]353-lewis began to retail a variety of instances , culled out of some volume of ‘ Causes célèbres , ’ of [persons who had elaborately made up persecutions of which [themselves]3597-persons who had elaborately made up persecutions of which themselves were victims were [victims]5324-victims]3597-persons who had elaborately made up persecutions of which themselves were victims . [He]353-lewis had always been fond of talking as if [he]353-lewis knew a great deal about morbid conditions of the brain , and , indeed , morbid things of all sorts ; and [he]353-lewis talked for some time as if [he]353-lewis took a purely abstract interest in the case . “ [One]620-one is apt to meet very singular types among [Russian women]6681-russian women , especially such as have led a wandering life like [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , ”[353-lewis] went on [Lewis]353-lewis . “ [They]6681-russian women are devoured by a passion for the forbidden , or at least for the unreal and theatrical ; there is something strangely crooked in [their]6681-russian women moral vision , something discordant in [their]6681-russian women nature . [They]6681-russian women are [extraordinary , charming , intelligent , depraved creatures]6682-extraordinary , charming , intelligent , depraved creatures . Only [a Russian woman]6683-a russian woman could be at once so childish and so theatrical and insincere , so full of idealism and of cynicism , as [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . Ah , [she]360-madame elaguine is [a wonderful being]6684-a wonderful being ! That matter of the burning bed finishes [her]360-madame elaguine off perfectly . ”[353-lewis] [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis fixed [his]353-lewis green magnetic eyes on [Anne]171-anne . [He]353-lewis still believed that [she]171-anne must hate [Sacha]386-sacha , as it was clear that , for some reason or other , [he]353-lewis hated [the Russian]413-the russian ; and [he]353-lewis wished , by giving [Miss Brown]171-anne these notions about [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , to induce [her]171-anne to revenge [herself]171-anne and [him]353-lewis . But [Anne]171-anne had become quite dense to [his]353-lewis intentions . [She]171-anne did not connect these ideas with [Lewis]353-lewis ; [his]353-lewis words seemed to [her]171-anne now the mere expression of all the things which [her]171-anne own instinct had revealed , and which [she]171-anne had put behind [her]171-anne in [her]171-anne desire that [Sacha]386-sacha should relieve [her]171-anne of the intolerable debt to [Hamlin]145-hamlin . The creature described by [this odious man]3599-this odious man was [the real Sacha]3600-the real sacha ; [she]360-madame elaguine was [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine as [she]360-madame elaguine now clearly appeared to [Miss Brown]171-anne . And yet how unjust ! [Lewis]353-lewis had wanted to torment [her]171-anne by making [her]171-anne jealous of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; [he]353-lewis now wished to pay off [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine for having , in some manner , slighted [his]353-lewis own vanity . “ [I]171-anne think [you]3599-this odious man take a dreadful view of the matter , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said ; “ [you]3599-this odious man explain [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , who is [only half a Russian]6685-only half a russian , by all the horrible Russians [you]3599-this odious man have ever met or imagined . [I]171-anne think there is a much simpler explanation . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine has been very strangely brought up ; [she]360-madame elaguine has lived with [very bad people]6686-very bad people ; [[her]360-madame elaguine husband]693-her husband was [a horrible wretch]6688-a horrible wretch , [we]6689-we all know . [She]360-madame elaguine is excessively hysterical — [[her]360-madame elaguine mother]1278-her mother , [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s aunt]4490-mr hamlin ’s aunt , was so also — and [we]6689-we all know that the desire to be prominent , to deceive , is a common form of hysteria . And as [she]360-madame elaguine has never been brought up to restrain [herself]360-madame elaguine , [she]360-madame elaguine imagines [herself]360-madame elaguine to be persecuted , and makes up the persecution . [She]360-madame elaguine is much more to be pitied than to be blamed . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne spoke rapidly . [She]171-anne seemed to be speaking fairly ; and yet [she]171-anne knew [she]171-anne was wilfully misrepresenting , that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine was something more than [a hysterical monomaniac]3601-a hysterical monomaniac : [she]171-anne remembered [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s stories of [Sacha]386-sacha ’s degraded childhood , all the accusations of [her]360-madame elaguine precocious lying and unchasteness , of [her]360-madame elaguine having led [one of [[her]360-madame elaguine cousins]6500-her cousins]3602-one of her cousins into mischief , and set [the house]509-the house by the ears . [She]171-anne was indignant with [herself]171-anne for defending [this woman]5573-this woman — out of charity ? out of conviction ? No . But merely because [she]171-anne required that [this woman]5573-this woman be sufficiently innocent to become [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis stroked [his]353-lewis auburn beard meditatively . “ [I]353-lewis do n’t believe in praise and blame , ”[353-lewis] [he]353-lewis answered ; “ [I]353-lewis believe merely in fate . [Some people]5310-some people are born noble , truthful , chaste — others just the reverse . It is the fault of neither ; and each , in its way , is equally interesting and valuable to [the artist]2957-the artist or [the psychologist]6694-the psychologist . The curious thing about [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is , that [she]360-madame elaguine apparently stands half‐way ; [she]360-madame elaguine is , according to the ideas of [the world]496-the world , half responsible and half irresponsible . [We]6696-we see in [her]360-madame elaguine [a hysterical woman]6697-a hysterical woman , troubled by a morbid love of deceit ; and at the same time [a woman to whom such deceit is or has been practically necessary]6698-a woman to whom such deceit is or has been practically necessary . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine continues for [her]360-madame elaguine amusement , and develops to the utmost , an imaginary persecution , whose origin must be sought in some intrigue which it was [her]360-madame elaguine interest to veil by a mystification , ”[353-lewis] [Lewis]353-lewis drawled on in [his]353-lewis omniscient , half‐pedantic way , as if the intrigues of [married women]6414-married women were the most usual subject of conversation between [a man]503-a man and [a young lady]3610-a young lady , and as if to suggest that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had led a loose life were the most obvious and inoffensive of proceedings . [Miss Brown]171-anne blushed crimson ; but [she]171-anne felt something more than insulted , something more than indignant . What right had [this man]1239-this man to focus all [her]171-anne own suspicions concerning [a woman whom [she]171-anne fervently wished not to suspect]3612-a woman whom she fervently wished not to suspect ? “ [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , “ [I]171-anne do n’t think those things should be listened to by [me]171-anne or said by [you]364-mr lewis . [I]171-anne believe that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine is not sound in [her]360-madame elaguine mind , and that [her]360-madame elaguine persecution is a hoax ; but [I]171-anne believe that [she]360-madame elaguine is [an honest woman]6699-an honest woman in other respects . [She]360-madame elaguine is [a friend of [mine]171-anne]6700-a friend of mine , and [I]171-anne will not hear [her]360-madame elaguine slandered . ”[171-anne] “ Heaven forbid that [I]353-lewis should wish to slander [her]360-madame elaguine ! [I]353-lewis think [she]360-madame elaguine is [a fascinating woman]6701-a fascinating woman ; and [she]360-madame elaguine is — at least [she]360-madame elaguine was — quite as great [a friend of [mine]353-lewis as of [yours]6703-you]6702-a friend of mine as of yours . [I]353-lewis was only telling [you]6703-you how [I]353-lewis explain [her]360-madame elaguine character . ”[353-lewis] [Lewis]353-lewis had always appeared a reptile in [Anne]171-anne ’s eyes ; but never so much as just now . “ [I]353-lewis hate scandal , ”[353-lewis] [he]353-lewis said , taking [his]353-lewis hat , “ and [I]353-lewis am most grieved to have appeared to be talking scandal . [People]577-people always misunderstand the sort of passionate interest [I]353-lewis take in every kind of curious character . [I]353-lewis suppose [you]6703-you would call it morbid , [Miss Brown]171-anne ; but [I]353-lewis really was considering [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine merely as an interesting study . ”[353-lewis] All this kind of talk , of which [Hamlin]145-hamlin was so fond , perfectly sickened [Anne]171-anne ; and the sudden stirring up of all [her]171-anne old suspicions was exasperating . “ That is all very fine , ”[3613-she] [she]3613-she said angrily ; “ but do [you]145-hamlin , or do [you]145-hamlin not , believe [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine to be [a dishonourable woman]6705-a dishonourable woman , apart from [this monomania]6706-this monomania ? ”[3613-she] “ It is very hard to say . [You]6703-you know [I]171-anne disbelieve in what [you]6703-you call moral responsibilities . [I]171-anne imagine [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine to have found [her]360-madame elaguine mania for persecution very convenient at one period of [her]360-madame elaguine life — yes , certainly . [I]171-anne think it is the only rational way to account for the beginning of it — don’t [you]6703-you ? ”[171-anne] [Miss Brown]171-anne took no notice of [Lewis]353-lewis ’s insolent inquisitiveness of manner . “ If [you]6703-you think that , [Mr Lewis]364-mr lewis , ”[3613-she] [she]3613-she said , “ may [I]3613-she ask how [you]6703-you reconciled with [your]6703-you notions of gentlemanly behaviour the calm way in which [you]6703-you let [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin introduce [such a woman as [you]6703-you describe to [me]3613-she]6707-such a woman as you describe to me , and let [me]3613-she continue to know [her]6707-such a woman as you describe to me ? No ; [you]6703-you are perfectly aware that all this is merely trumped up at the moment . ”[3613-she] And [she]3613-she put [her]3613-she hand on the bell‐handle , for the door to be opened to [Lewis]353-lewis . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis smiled . “ [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s eyes are quite as good as [mine]353-lewis . As regards [my]171-anne behaviour towards [you]6703-you , [I]171-anne can not go into details , but [you]6703-you may understand , [dear Miss Brown]171-anne , that two or three months ago [I]171-anne may not , as [a man of honour]6708-a man of honour , have been at liberty to discuss [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s character in the way that [I]171-anne have done now that [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s relations with [me]171-anne have entirely changed [their]6709-their nature . [Good‐bye]393-good‐bye , dear [Miss Brown]171-anne . [I]171-anne am most truly grieved if [I]171-anne have offended [you]171-anne in any way . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne merely made an impatient gesture , a gesture almost of disgust , as [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis left [the room]574-the room . So this was the explanation of [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis ’s apparent disgrace ! [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha had repelled [his]353-lewis odious advances , [she]386-sacha had closed [her]386-sacha door to [him]353-lewis , [she]386-sacha had complained to [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; and now , as soon as [their]3615-their backs were turned , [Lewis]353-lewis had come to slander [them]3615-their without fear of a horsewhipping . [Anne]171-anne seemed to breathe once more — thank heaven that [the wretch]3616-the wretch had overreached [himself]3616-the wretch in [his]3616-the wretch malice ! THE door had scarcely closed upon [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , when it opened again suddenly . “ [Mr Perry]152-perry ! ”[171-anne] cried [Anne]171-anne , rising and running forward as [a child]623-a child might run to meet [a former kind and encouraging teacher]3618-a former kind and encouraging teacher ; “ [Mr Perry]152-perry ! oh [I]171-anne am so glad to see [you]152-perry ! ”[171-anne] It really seemed to [her]171-anne that [this dear , good , open familiar face]3619-this dear , good , open familiar face , with the untidy yellow hair and beard,—that [this well‐known , boyish , slouching figure]3620-this well‐known , boyish , slouching figure drove away like some cabalistic sign [the loathsome creature who had been there a few minutes]3621-the loathsome creature who had been there a few minutes before,—that [Melton Perry]152-perry dispelled all the horrid vision left behind by [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis . “ Did n’t expect [me]152-perry yet , eh , [Annie]171-anne — [I]152-perry mean [Miss Brown]171-anne ? ”[152-perry] said [Melton Perry]152-perry , as [she]171-anne seized [his]152-perry hand in both [hers]171-anne . “ [I]171-anne suppose [you]152-perry expected [me]171-anne by [the Dover train]6710-the dover train . But [I]171-anne came by [Dieppe]135-dieppe , six hours ’ agony , but a saving of twelve‐and‐sixpence . [I]171-anne was always [an economical creature]6711-an economical creature , was n’t [I]171-anne ? Why , what ’s that [you]152-perry have round [your]152-perry neck ? That beastly little pewter and horn rosary that [I]171-anne got [you]152-perry at [the Fair of [the Impruneta]136-the impruneta]6712-the fair of the impruneta , by [George]473-george ! Fancy [your]152-perry having kept such a thing ! ”[171-anne] “ It ’s one of the best things [I]171-anne have , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne , the tears coming into [her]171-anne eyes as this well‐known voice brought back the far‐distant past—“it ’s the present of [a friend]4706-a friend . ”[171-anne] “ And all this , is n’t this also the present of [a friend]4706-a friend ? ”[152-perry] said [Perry]152-perry , throwing [himself]152-perry into an arm‐chair , and looking round [the room]574-the room with much the same wonder with which [Anne]171-anne had looked at [its]574-the room strange furniture , [its]574-the room brocades and embroideries , and Japanese vases and lustre plates , when [she]171-anne first came ; “ but [I]171-anne forgot , [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin is n’t [a particular friend of [yours]171-anne]6715-a particular friend of yours . ”[171-anne] To this jest [Miss Brown]171-anne made no answer : if only [Melton Perry]152-perry could guess at the literal truth of [his]152-perry words ! “ Lord , what [a damned gorgeous place this is]6716-a damned gorgeous place this is ! ”[152-perry] cried [Perry]152-perry , still looking round ; and then , suddenly turning towards [Anne]171-anne , where [she]171-anne sat , in a wonderful trailing dress of deep crimson stamped velvet , a big bunch of blackish crimson roses marking off , throwing into relief , the strange opaque ivory of [her]171-anne face , “ what [a beautiful woman]1798-a beautiful woman [you]171-anne are , [Annie]171-anne ! Do [you]171-anne know , [I]171-anne usen’t to believe it , when [Watty]178-watty raved about [you]171-anne at [the Villa Arnolfini]2-the villa arnolfini . What [a crusty old jackass]6718-a crusty old jackass [I]171-anne must have been ! But tell , why in [the wide world]2450-the wide world are n’t [you]171-anne married yet ? What have [you]171-anne been doing all this time ? ”[171-anne] “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has not asked [me]171-anne to marry [him]145-hamlin yet , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , laconically . [Melton Perry]152-perry thrust [his]152-perry hands upon the arms of [his]152-perry chair , and [his]152-perry whole body forward . “ Not asked [you]171-anne to marry [him]145-hamlin yet ! ”[152-perry] [he]152-perry repeated ; “ do [you]171-anne mean to say [you]171-anne are n’t engaged to [him]145-hamlin . . . ? ”[152-perry] [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head . “ That [he]145-hamlin ’s been going loafing , and spooning , and doing [Vita Nuova]214-vita nuova all this time ? [I]171-anne thought that [he]145-hamlin must have lost [two dozen grandfathers]6720-two dozen grandfathers and [grandmothers]6721-grandmothers in rapid succession , so that one mourning postponed [your]171-anne marriage after the other , or something similar . ”[171-anne] Then a thought suddenly struck [him]152-perry . “ [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s not ill ? ”[152-perry] [he]152-perry cried . “ Consumption , madness , [doctors]6722-doctors ’ consultations,—anything of that sort ? ”[152-perry] [Miss Brown]171-anne could not help smiling . “ Oh no , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin has been quite well . [He]145-hamlin is in [Paris]42-paris at present ; [he]145-hamlin did n’t expect [you]171-anne quite so soon , but [he]145-hamlin will be back in a day or two . ”[171-anne] [Melton Perry]152-perry rose and looked [Anne]171-anne very earnestly in the face — “ [Miss Brown]171-anne — no , [I]152-perry ca n’t call [you]171-anne [Miss Brown]171-anne — [Annie]171-anne , tell [me]152-perry the truth . Has [Hamlin]145-hamlin not kept [his]145-hamlin word — has [he]145-hamlin played [you]171-anne any dirty trick ? No , no , [I]152-perry do n’t mean anything,—but , has [Hamlin]145-hamlin played fast and loose with [you]171-anne ? ”[152-perry] “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin never intended asking [me]171-anne to marry [him]145-hamlin at once , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , evasively . [She]171-anne felt in [Melton Perry]152-perry ’s suspicions that again , as with [[her]171-anne cousin]1291-her cousin , [Hamlin]145-hamlin would be attacked , maligned , that [she]171-anne would have to defend [him]145-hamlin . “ Do n’t [you]152-perry remember , [Mr Perry]152-perry ? [We]6723-we were to wait , to see whether [we]6723-we really . . . [I]171-anne will tell [you]152-perry all about it later — to‐morrow . It is a long story ; [I]171-anne want to hear about [you]152-perry now , about [Italy]1-italy — about [your]152-perry work , [the children]3862-the children , [Mrs Perry]146-perry . ”[171-anne] “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne added , fearing lest [her]171-anne evasive answers , [her]171-anne haste to get rid of the subject , should prejudice [Perry]146-perry against [[his]145-hamlin friend]696-his friend , “ has been most generous and noble towards [me]171-anne ; indeed much more than [I]171-anne can ever say . ”[171-anne] “ [I]146-perry ’m damned if [I]146-perry understand any of it , ”[146-perry] said [Perry]146-perry to [himself]146-perry , as [he]145-hamlin proceeded to answer [Anne]171-anne ’s rapid strings of questions about [[his]145-hamlin wife]700-his wife , [[his]145-hamlin little girls]5333-his little girls , [his]145-hamlin pictures , [his]145-hamlin etchings,—those etchings , never thought of before , which had revealed in [this sixth‐rate painter]3627-this sixth‐rate painter [a great artist]5804-a great artist , and had brought [him]145-hamlin , in good case to make money , to [England]37-england . [Miss Brown]171-anne insisted upon showing [him]145-hamlin up to [[his]145-hamlin room]3629-his room [herself]171-anne . As [she]171-anne was leaving [him]145-hamlin , [he]145-hamlin looked at [her]171-anne long and seriously . “ [Annie]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ if it ’s not rude to ask , for [I]145-hamlin ’ve forgotten — how old are [you]171-anne ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]145-hamlin was twenty‐four last month . Why do [you]145-hamlin ask ? Do [you]145-hamlin think [I]145-hamlin look more?”—she[145-hamlin] added , with a smile whose bitterness [he]145-hamlin did not catch . [She]171-anne could scarcely realise it [herself]171-anne ; [she]171-anne seemed to have lived so long , such years and years since [she]171-anne had seen [him]145-hamlin last — nay , since [she]171-anne had first entered [this room]6017-this room . “ Twenty‐four , ”[146-perry] repeated [Perry]146-perry , stupidly . “ Well now , do n’t be offended — of course [you]171-anne could n’t be more , for [you]171-anne were n’t of age when [you]171-anne left [us]6725-us ; but somehow — it is n’t that [you]171-anne do n’t look young , [you]171-anne know , but all the same [I]146-perry should have thought . . . [I]146-perry ’m [a rude brute]6726-a rude brute . ”[146-perry] “ That [I]171-anne was much older , ”[171-anne] laughed [Miss Brown]171-anne . “ Well , [I]171-anne often think so [myself]171-anne . ”[171-anne] “ It ’s something , [I]3631-i do n’t know what . [You]171-anne are far handsomer than in [Italy]1-italy , and [you]171-anne never did look much like [a girl]4122-a girl — [you]171-anne know what [I]3631-i mean ; but now , upon [my]3631-i word , [I]3631-i do n’t know how to say it , [I]3631-i never saw [an unmarried woman]6728-an unmarried woman look like [you]171-anne . [You]171-anne look as if [you]171-anne had seen and understood such a heap of things . [I]3631-i feel quite a fool before [you]171-anne . Forgive [me]3631-i , ”[3631-i] [he]3631-i said , “ [I]3631-i ’m always [a blundering tomfool]6729-a blundering tomfool . [I]3631-i had somehow thought of [you]171-anne as something like [[my]3631-i own girls]6730-my own girls . [Winnie]199-winnie ’s sixteen , [you]171-anne know , and such [a strapping girl]6731-a strapping girl . But [I]3631-i feel as if [you]171-anne might be [[my]3631-i grandmother]6732-my grandmother . ”[3631-i] [Anne]171-anne laughed . “ [I]171-anne have always felt as if [I]171-anne were [[your]3631-i grandmother]6733-your grandmother . [I]171-anne was born old . Good‐bye , [Mr Perry]152-perry . Remember that dinner is at seven ; and put on a dress‐coat if [you]3631-i want to win the heart of [[my]171-anne aunt]4294-my aunt — [I]171-anne mean [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s aunt]4490-mr hamlin ’s aunt . ”[171-anne] [Melton Perry]152-perry whistled as [he]152-perry stooped to unbuckle [his]152-perry portmanteau . “ [I]152-perry ’m damned if [I]152-perry understand anything of it all , and [Annie]171-anne least of any of [them]6736-them , ”[152-perry] [he]152-perry mused . “ AFTER all , ”[152-perry] said [Melton Perry]152-perry to [himself]152-perry next morning , as [he]152-perry sat under the big apple‐trees in [the garden]675-the garden , smoking [his]152-perry pipe and looking at [Miss Brown]171-anne stitching at a piece of embroidery and overwhelming [him]152-perry with questions about [Winnie]199-winnie , [Mildred]165-mildred , [Leila]474-leila , [the baby]3633-the baby , [Mrs Perry]146-perry — nay , even about all [[her]146-perry former fellow‐servants in [Italy]1-italy]3634-her former fellow‐servants in italy , and [the grocer round the corner]3635-the grocer round the corner , and [the milkman]3475-the milkman , and [the man who came from [the country]945-the country]3637-the man who came from the country every Monday to fetch the linen,—“after all , it was a very bright idea of [old Watty]178-watty ’s to fall in love with [[our]6737-our nursemaid]6738-our nursemaid and turn [her]6738-our nursemaid into a wonderful æsthetic being in [a wonderful æsthetic house]6739-a wonderful æsthetic house : it was very sensible of [Mrs Perry]146-perry to encourage [him]3640-him in the idea ; and it was just like a confounded , fumbling , purblind old pig and ass like [me]3637-the man who came from the country to try and prevent it . ”[3637-the man who came from the country] After lunch [Anne]171-anne took [Melton Perry]146-perry up into [the drawing‐room]4636-the drawing‐room , cool , and almost Italian , with drawn blinds and a faint smell of flowers in the dusk , on one of the most stifling [London]4-london afternoons . [Perry]146-perry mechanically took out a cigarette ; but [he]3640-him hastily put it in again . It seemed to [him]3640-him profanation to smoke in such [a wonderful room]3641-a wonderful room , in the presence of [such a wonderful woman]3642-such a wonderful woman . “ Please smoke ; [you]146-perry used always to smoke after lunch with [Mrs Perry]146-perry , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne . “ But — this is n’t [Florence]6-florence ; and [you]146-perry — [you]146-perry are n’t [Mrs Perry]146-perry . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne made an impatient gesture that [he]3640-him should take out [his]3640-him cigarettes again . [She]171-anne had determined that [she]171-anne must speak to [him]3640-him before [Hamlin]145-hamlin came ; that [she]171-anne must try and get [him]3640-him to understand , to explain things to [Hamlin]145-hamlin . But how get [this good‐natured]3643-this good‐natured , kindly , childish , yet in a way chivalrous , harum‐scarum creature to understand [her]171-anne story ? [She]171-anne had a great dread of the impossibility of making [him]3640-him understand that [Hamlin]145-hamlin had never acted meanly towards [her]171-anne — that [their]3644-their estrangement was due to nothing voluntary on [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s part , to nothing but the disappointing of [her]171-anne own perhaps unwarranted ideals ; of making [him]3640-him understand that [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s connection with [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , instead of being a grievance in [her]171-anne eyes , was the greatest happiness [she]171-anne could conceive . [Perry]146-perry was sure to burst out against [Hamlin]145-hamlin , to refuse to listen to [her]171-anne explanations , to insist upon fighting the battle of [an injured woman]3645-an injured woman . [Anne]171-anne groaned at the thought , as [she]171-anne might have groaned at some immense stone to roll uphill . It was always so difficult for [her]171-anne to understand [others]4163-others , so intolerably more difficult to make [herself]171-anne understood . But [she]171-anne had resolved . “ [I]171-anne must tell [you]152-perry all [my]171-anne history since last [we]6740-we saw [each other]594-each other , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said ; “ [you]152-perry will want to hear it , wo n’t [you]152-perry , [Mr Perry]152-perry ? ”[171-anne] [Perry]152-perry , to whose brain all the unwonted splendour of [this house]4073-this house , all the fantasticalness of finding [[his]152-perry former nursemaid]3648-his former nursemaid changed into [a magnificently dressed goddess]3649-a magnificently dressed goddess , had gone with a sort of narcotic effect , answered in a stupefied way , “ Oh dear , yes — of course — [I’m]152-perry dying to hear it . [I]171-anne ca n’t at all realise that it is really [you]6742-you , [Annie]171-anne , or really [anybody]4081-anybody and anything . Do [you]6742-you remember when [we]6740-we went into [Lucca]9-lucca that day for the feast of the Holy Face , and [I]171-anne left [you]6742-you with [Winnie]199-winnie and [Mildred]165-mildred to go to the opera with [Hamlin]145-hamlin ? [D’you]6742-you remember the plaster bust of Castruccio at the top of [the hotel stairs]6744-the hotel stairs , with [the old woman]1176-the old woman ’s night‐cap on ? [I]171-anne do n’t know why that bust haunted [me]171-anne so . What tiny trots [Winnie]199-winnie and [Mildred]165-mildred were , with sashes down at [their]6740-we knees ! and [such confounded young flirts]6746-such confounded young flirts , five feet seven , as [they]6740-we are now ! [I]171-anne see [you]6742-you have [Winnie]199-winnie ’s photograph . How comic [those brats]6747-those brats must have looked ! . . . But wo n’t [you]6742-you tell [me]171-anne all [your]6742-you marvellous and incredible circumstances ? ”[171-anne] “ [I]171-anne scarcely know where to begin ; perhaps [I]171-anne had better begin at the end . [You]6742-you wanted to know , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne , making a great effort to arrest [Perry]199-winnie ’s attention , “ why [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin and [I]171-anne were n’t married yet , nor even engaged . . . ”[171-anne] “ Oh yes ; what the deuce is the meaning of it , [Annie]171-anne ? [You]171-anne are certainly [the queerest people]6748-the queerest people , [[you]171-anne æsthetic folk]2658-you æsthetic folk . By Jove ! [you]6742-you actually have a photograph of [yourself]6742-you with [the children]3862-the children . [I]152-perry had clean forgotten its existence ; and now [I]152-perry remember as if it were yesterday taking [you]6742-you to [Alinari]475-alinari ’s , and how beastly naughty [Winnie]199-winnie was ! Oh , what [a sulky blackamoor]6751-a sulky blackamoor [you]6742-you do look , [Annie]171-anne ! Good gracious ! [you]152-perry do n’t mean to say [you]6742-you know [her]199-winnie ? ”[152-perry] and [Melton Perry]152-perry suddenly turned the album , at which [he]152-perry was looking , towards [Anne]171-anne . “ Where in [the world]496-the world did [you]152-perry pick up a photograph of [Mrs Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine ? ”[152-perry] “ [Mrs Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine ? ”[171-anne] asked [Anne]171-anne , in amazement . “ Whom do [you]152-perry mean ? [I]171-anne never heard of [such a person]1125-such a person . That photograph?—why , that ’s [a half‐Russian cousin of [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin 's , [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha , who was a [Miss Polozoff]477-miss polozoff . ”[171-anne] “ [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin]6754-a half‐russian cousin of mr hamlin 's , sacha elaguine , who was a miss polozoff . ” “ hamlin ’s cousin ! ”[478-melton perry,—“well] whistled [Melton Perry,—“well]478-melton perry,—“well , upon [my]171-anne word . . . yes , of course , [I]171-anne had forgotten — of course , [her]476-constantine name is n’t [Mrs Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine any longer . But may [I]171-anne ask , how under heaven do [you]152-perry come to know [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ? ”[171-anne] “ [I]171-anne do n’t understand a word . [This lady]3255-this lady is [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ; [she]3255-this lady is [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s first cousin]6757-mr hamlin ’s first cousin , and that ’s of course how [I]171-anne come to know [her]3255-this lady . ”[171-anne] “ [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin or not [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]5572-hamlin ’s cousin , how in [the wide world]2450-the wide world could [a woman like [you]152-perry ever know]6761-a woman like you ever know , ever meet [such a — such a — excuse the word]6762-such a — such a — excuse the word , but it ’s the least bad [I]171-anne can find — such an abominable baggage as [this woman]5573-this woman , [Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , or [Bulzo]476-constantine , or [Polozoff]358-sacha — as this abominable [Sacha]386-sacha ? ”[171-anne] [Miss Brown]171-anne turned white and almost green ; the embroidery slipped out of [her]171-anne hands — [she]171-anne gasped . “ [Good Lord]6764-good lord , what ’s the matter with [you]171-anne , [Annie]171-anne ? ”[152-perry] cried [Perry]152-perry , jumping up ; “ [you]171-anne surely did n’t imagine that — [you]171-anne surely ca n’t be [a great friend of such a creature as that]6765-a great friend of such a creature as that . What ’s the matter?—are [you]171-anne ill ? ”[152-perry] “ It ’s nothing — the heat , [I]171-anne suppose , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne , stooping to pick up [her]171-anne embroidery ; “ and then , also , [I]171-anne suppose [I]171-anne ’m not very strong yet ; [I]171-anne ’ve had brain fever , and [you]152-perry took [me]171-anne by surprise . But [I]171-anne ought n’t to have been surprised , because [I]171-anne know [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha has [a great many enemies]6766-a great many enemies , and that [her]386-sacha circumstances , [her]386-sacha history , and in some measure , unfortunately , [her]386-sacha ways and character , rather lend themselves to all manner of horrible stories . [She]386-sacha ’s [a frightfully tried and slandered little woman]6767-a frightfully tried and slandered little woman , poor thing . But [I]171-anne don’t — [I]171-anne do n’t believe any of it . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne was conscious of a horrible effort as [she]171-anne spoke these words ; lying was difficult to [her]171-anne ; and [she]171-anne remembered [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis ’s words . “ Are [you]171-anne really fond of [Madame Bulzo]479-madame bulzo — [I]152-perry mean [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ? ”[152-perry] asked [Perry]152-perry , grown very serious suddenly , and looking [Anne]171-anne in the face with an expression of surprise and pain . “ Are [you]171-anne intimate with [her]386-sacha ? ”[152-perry] “ [I]171-anne am intimate in the sense of having been with [her]386-sacha a good deal , and knowing more than [other people]665-other people about [her]386-sacha , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne ; “ but [I]171-anne ca n’t say [I]171-anne am [a great friend of [hers]386-sacha]6769-a great friend of hers . [She]386-sacha is [[Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s cousin]2615-mr hamlin ’s cousin ; [she]386-sacha has settled in [England]37-england recently ; [he]145-hamlin — [we]6771-we , [I]171-anne mean — see a good deal of [her]386-sacha . [I]171-anne am awfully sorry for [her]386-sacha , [poor little woman]2410-poor little woman ; but there is n’t very much in common between [us]6771-we . ”[171-anne] “ Thank goodness ! ”[152-perry] cried [Perry]152-perry . “ Do [you]152-perry know , the sight of that photograph made [me]152-perry feel quite sick — the thought that [you]152-perry , [Annie]171-anne , should be [the friend of [such a creature]2354-such a creature]6773-the friend of such a creature . But [I]152-perry knew [you]152-perry could n’t be . ”[152-perry] “ But [I]152-perry am [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s friend]6775-madame elaguine ’s friend ; [I]152-perry do n’t believe a word of the infamous stories that are told about [her]360-madame elaguine ; and [you]152-perry would n’t believe them either , if [you]152-perry knew all that [I]152-perry do . ”[152-perry] “ What do [you]152-perry know ? ”[152-perry] asked [Perry]152-perry , slowly and pityingly ; “ about the iniquities of [Monsieur Elaguine]480-monsieur elaguine , about the terrible persecution , the bits of letters , the pistol‐shots , the poisoned chocolate , the lit spirits of wine poured under the door,—all that crazy imposture , [I]152-perry suppose ? Well , [I]152-perry hope that [Hamlin]145-hamlin knows no more than [you]152-perry ; otherwise , by [God]195-god ! [he]145-hamlin ’s no better than [a blackguard]6776-a blackguard to let [you]152-perry associate with [this woman]5573-this woman , be [she]5573-this woman [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin a hundred times over ; and [you]152-perry must never see [that woman]1707-that woman again , [Annie]171-anne . [I]152-perry forbid [you]152-perry to — [I]152-perry , as [the oldest friend [you]152-perry have in [the world]496-the world]6780-the oldest friend you have in the world — [I]152-perry forbid [you]152-perry to defile [yourself]152-perry by knowing [that infamous creature]6782-that infamous creature . ”[152-perry] And [Perry]152-perry walked fiercely up and down , while [Miss Brown]171-anne , [her]171-anne whole body , it seemed to [her]171-anne , melting away from [her]171-anne soul , sat speechless looking at [him]152-perry . “ Listen to [me]152-perry , [Anne]171-anne , ”[152-perry] [he]152-perry said , “ and judge whether [I]152-perry am unfair . [God]195-god knows [I]152-perry ’m not [a Puritan]2160-a puritan , neither towards [myself]152-perry nor towards [others]4163-others . [I]152-perry ’ve been [a very rowdy man]6785-a very rowdy man ; [I]152-perry ’ve knowu [a great many rowdy women]6786-a great many rowdy women — what [you]6787-you call [regular bad women]6788-regular bad women — [Russians , who are the worst of all — by the dozen]6789-russians , who are the worst of all — by the dozen . [I]152-perry ’m not [a red‐tapist]6790-a red‐tapist ; [I]152-perry can quite understand [women misbehaving,—having lovers]6791-women misbehaving,—having lovers — that sort of thing,—or even , if [they]6791-women misbehaving,—having lovers are very wretched , selling [themselves]6791-women misbehaving,—having lovers . It ’s beastly immoral to say so before [a woman]3960-a woman , but still , there it is , it ’s the truth . Well , such as [you]6787-you see [me]152-perry , [I]152-perry would n’t touch [that woman with the longest pair of tongs in all the devil]6793-that woman with the longest pair of tongs in all the devil ’s kitchen . [That woman]1707-that woman is really wicked — not merely immoral , but abominable , atrocious ; [she]1707-that woman is [the sort of woman who absolutely degrades [a man]503-a man , takes a pleasure in turning [him]503-a man into a beast and [a madman — whose greatest pleasure would be to degrade and make a beast of an honest woman]6797-a madman — whose greatest pleasure would be to degrade and make a beast of an honest woman]6795-the sort of woman who absolutely degrades a man , takes a pleasure in turning him into a beast and a madman — whose greatest pleasure would be to degrade and make a beast of an honest woman . Just listen to [me]152-perry . Some five years ago [I]152-perry knew [a Greek couple]6798-a greek couple — [a young man]6649-a young man and [[his]6649-a young man sister]2131-his sister , called [Constantine]476-constantine and [Marie Bulzo]213-marie . [They]6798-a greek couple were [orphans]1393-orphans , very young , very handsome , especially [the boy]3866-the boy , who was only eighteen or nineteen . [They]6798-a greek couple were [a sort of half‐English Greeks]6803-a sort of half‐english greeks , and went in for being æsthetical and artistic , all that sort of thing . [I]152-perry knew [them]6798-a greek couple in [Florence]6-florence , where [Miss Bulzo]481-miss bulzo , who was four or five years older than [[her]481-miss bulzo brother]6804-her brother , was studying painting . [I]152-perry gave [them]6798-a greek couple both lessons . [I]152-perry never met [two such beautiful creatures , body and soul]6805-two such beautiful creatures , body and soul , as those young [Bulzos]482-the bulzos . [They]6798-a greek couple were like [young saints , and yet perfectly childish and merry]6806-young saints , and yet perfectly childish and merry , and [they]6798-a greek couple were quite devoted to [each other]594-each other : [Marie]213-marie really lived only for [the boy]3866-the boy . Well , six months later [I]152-perry met [the two]1016-the two at [Venice]52-venice . [They]1016-the two were staying at [the same hotel]1333-the same hotel as [[your]6811-your Madame Elaguine , who immediately proceeded to make [herself]360-madame elaguine awfully fascinating and pathetic to [them]1016-the two]360-madame elaguine . Of course [the poor children]6812-the poor children swallowed all about the persecutions by [the Nihilists]6813-the nihilists as so much [Gospel]483-gospel . [They]1016-the two introduced [me]152-perry , and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine rather amused [me]152-perry ; but [I]152-perry saw very soon that [she]360-madame elaguine was n’t a woman for [them]1016-the two to know . There was [a man staying in [the same hotel]1333-the same hotel]6814-a man staying in the same hotel , [an old friend of [hers]360-madame elaguine]6816-an old friend of hers , and , in fact , [[her]360-madame elaguine lover]6817-her lover , who was [one of the vilest scoundrels [the world]496-the world ever bred]6818-one of the vilest scoundrels the world ever bred — [a horrible loathsome old Russian]6820-a horrible loathsome old russian . [I]152-perry used to wonder how [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine could endure [him]6814-a man staying in the same hotel , but then [I]152-perry found out that [he]6814-a man staying in the same hotel paid [her]360-madame elaguine bills for [her]360-madame elaguine . [I]152-perry tried to warn [the Bulzos]482-the bulzos , especially [Constantine]476-constantine , as , being [a man]503-a man , [he]6814-a man staying in the same hotel might be expected to understand such things rather better . But , figurati ! ( and [Perry]152-perry made an expressive gesture of Italian exaggeration , ) [they]482-the bulzos would n’t hear a word against [[their]482-the bulzos beloved , deeply injured , martyrised [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine]6822-their beloved , deeply injured , martyrised madame elaguine . Well , [we]6823-we half quarrelled ; [I]152-perry scarcely saw anything of [them]482-the bulzos . At the end of four months what do [I]152-perry hear , but that [Miss Bulzo]481-miss bulzo was married to [[Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s loathsome Russian]6824-madame elaguine ’s loathsome russian ; and then , a week later , [I]152-perry see [Constantine]476-constantine and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine go off in [the train]1061-the train together . Do [you]6826-you understand ? [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , who was in love with [young Bulzo]476-constantine , wanted to go off with [him]6814-a man staying in the same hotel , and not knowing what to do with [Marie]213-marie , and wishing to dismiss and settle accounts with [[her]360-madame elaguine quondam lover]6827-her quondam lover , had , in some fiendish way , induced [this innocent girl of twenty‐four]6828-this innocent girl of twenty‐four to marry [this frightful old Russian sinner]6829-this frightful old russian sinner — had sold [her]213-marie to the loathsome beast as a settlement to [their]482-the bulzos debts ; and [Marie]213-marie , after a few months , simply pined away and died of shame and disgust at the slavery [she]213-marie had been sold into . Do [you]6826-you understand that ? ”[152-perry] “ [I]171-anne understand ; but [I]171-anne do n’t see why [I]171-anne should believe — it ’s too horrible to be true . ”[171-anne] “ It is true , though , for [Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine told it [me]152-perry all [himself]476-constantine later ; how [the Elaguine]360-madame elaguine had talked [him]6814-a man staying in the same hotel over to consent , and had regularly bullied [[his]6814-a man staying in the same hotel sister]2131-his sister into the marriage , by pretending that it was the only way of paying a lot of imaginary debts of [[her]360-madame elaguine brother]6804-her brother ’s , and had forced [Constantine]476-constantine , who was raving in love with [her]360-madame elaguine , to hold [his]6814-a man staying in the same hotel tongue . That was the end of [Marie Bulzo]213-marie . Now as to [Constantine]476-constantine . [[His]6814-a man staying in the same hotel sister]2131-his sister once safely married to [her]360-madame elaguine old beast , [he]6814-a man staying in the same hotel went off with [the Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , or rather , [the Elaguine]360-madame elaguine went off with [him]6814-a man staying in the same hotel . Next summer [I]152-perry met [them]6833-them at [Perugia]34-perugia ; [they]6833-them were travelling about in remote places as [Mr]6834-mr and [Mrs Bulzo]476-constantine ; and [English people]6835-english people were so kind as to believe that [this Russian woman of thirty]6836-this russian woman of thirty and [this Greek boy of twenty]6837-this greek boy of twenty were married . [Constantine]476-constantine perfectly adored [her]6836-this russian woman of thirty ; but [I]152-perry never saw [a man]503-a man more changed : [he]503-a man looked thirty , [a miserable , hang‐dog , effeminate sort of creature]6839-a miserable , hang‐dog , effeminate sort of creature , quite unable to do anything except drag after [[his]503-a man so‐called wife]6840-his so‐called wife . [That woman]1707-that woman had regularly ruined [the poor boy]6842-the poor boy , broken [his]6842-the poor boy spirit , turned [him]6842-the poor boy into a kind of male odalisque of [hers]6836-this russian woman of thirty . Two years later [the Bulzos]482-the bulzos were at [Venice]52-venice again ; and [I]152-perry came just in time for the catastrophe . One fine morning [Mrs Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine , become [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine once more , packed [her]476-constantine trunks and went off with [a French painter]6843-a french painter , leaving [[her]476-constantine supposed husband]6844-her supposed husband to pay the hotel bill . ”[152-perry] “ [I]152-perry saw [Constantine]476-constantine shortly after ; [the woman]4801-the woman had spent nearly all [his]503-a man money , and [he]503-a man was living , or starving , in [a room in [a beastly court]6847-a beastly court]6846-a room in a beastly court , slinking out only early in the morning and late at night , spending the day lying in [his]503-a man bed , eating opium and drinking . [I]152-perry never saw such a wreck in [my]152-perry life . As [he]503-a man was starving , [I]152-perry got [him]503-a man a place as clerk at [a picture‐shop]6848-a picture‐shop , and tried to get [him]503-a man to work ; but [he]503-a man did n’t seem to care about living , and went on drinking and stupefying [himself]503-a man , till one day [he]503-a man drowned [himself]503-a man in [the lagoon]6849-the lagoon — [they]6850-they say accidentally , but [I]152-perry shall never believe it . That is the story of [[your]6851-you Madame]6852-your madame Elaguine ; and [I]152-perry swear to [you]6851-you [I]152-perry have not exaggerated one word of it . Do [you]6851-you still think [she]6852-your madame is [a woman fit to be known by [you]6851-you]6853-a woman fit to be known by you ? By heaven ! when [I]152-perry think what [that miserable boy]6854-that miserable boy was when [I]152-perry saw [him]503-a man last , and what [he]503-a man had been when first [I]152-perry knew [him]503-a man , [I]152-perry feel as if it would be the greatest possible pleasure to throttle [[your]6851-you Madame]6852-your madame Elaguine with [my]152-perry own hands ! Upon [my]152-perry soul , [I]152-perry do ! ”[152-perry] [Perry]152-perry was walking up and down rapidly . [Anne]171-anne had never seen [him]152-perry so excited in [his]152-perry life . “ But , ”[171-anne] remarked [Miss Brown]171-anne , coldly , “ even admitting [your]152-perry story to be true , which [I]171-anne suppose , as it comes from [you]152-perry , that [I]171-anne must , was it all [the woman]4801-the woman ’s fault ? [[You]152-perry men]2890-you men always throw the blame on [the woman]4801-the woman . But [[your]152-perry Constantine [Bulzo]476-constantine]6859-your constantine bulzo must have been [a wretched weak creature]6860-a wretched weak creature . ”[171-anne] [Perry]152-perry stopped short . “ [No one]3899-no one has a right to expect [every man]5756-every man or [every woman]2705-every woman to be very strong , ”[152-perry] [he]152-perry answered , sadly . “ [This poor boy]6864-this poor boy was kind and trusting , and , when left to [his]6864-this poor boy own devices , honest . [He]6864-this poor boy was not weaker than [most men]2506-most men , especially than most artistic natures — not weaker , for instance , than [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[152-perry] [Anne Brown]171-anne did not answer . But next morning [she]171-anne greatly surprised [Melton Perry]152-perry by asking [him]152-perry , in a voice that affected [him]152-perry as being very strange — “ Did [you]152-perry tell [me]171-anne something — a dreadful story — about [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine and [a young Greek friend of yours]6866-a young greek friend of yours , yesterday afternoon ? ”[171-anne] [Perry]152-perry looked at [her]171-anne with surprise . There was something in [her]171-anne wide‐opened , strained eyes , in [her]171-anne rigidity of features , that made [him]152-perry think of a sleep‐walker . “ Of course [I]171-anne did . Why ? ”[171-anne] “ Oh , nothing . [I]171-anne had only a very bad night — all manner of horrible dreams , and [I]171-anne was not sure whether this might not be one of them . ”[171-anne] “ DO [you]171-anne know , [Annie]171-anne , ”[152-perry] said [Melton Perry]152-perry , two or three days later , “ [I]152-perry find [Watty]178-watty very much altered . [He]145-hamlin seems so fearfully depressed and broken‐spirited . [He]145-hamlin used always to be bored , but not like this ; [he]145-hamlin has got to look so old , with those great rings under [his]145-hamlin eyes . ”[152-perry] [Miss Brown]171-anne did not answer . [Hamlin]145-hamlin had returned the previous evening from [Paris]42-paris , and [she]171-anne also had noticed that [he]145-hamlin was changed — not so much , indeed , as [Melton Perry]152-perry seemed to think , for [Melton Perry]152-perry had not seen [him]145-hamlin for four or five years ; and [she]171-anne — [she]171-anne had watched a change coming over [him]145-hamlin during the last months . Yet even [she]171-anne must own to [herself]171-anne that this change had made rapid progress during [his]145-hamlin fortnight or three weeks in [Paris]42-paris , or at least that this absence enabled [her]171-anne to notice the change much more . [He]145-hamlin was even more than usually apathetic and silent , and [his]145-hamlin pleasure at seeing [[his]145-hamlin old friend]530-his old friend once more was so slight , or rather so tempered by a kind of indifference and even annoyance , that [Miss Brown]171-anne felt perfectly nervous lest [poor warm‐hearted Melton Perry]152-perry should feel mortally wounded . The next day [Hamlin]145-hamlin made an effort over [himself]145-hamlin : [he]145-hamlin seemed anxious to be as kind as possible to [Perry]152-perry ; but somehow it did not succeed . [Melton Perry]152-perry would have liked , as [he]152-perry said , to have [Walter]145-hamlin all to [himself]152-perry , to sit with [him]145-hamlin by the hour together , or walk out alone with [him]145-hamlin , talking of old times ; but [Hamlin]145-hamlin seemed possessed by a nervous dread of a tête‐à‐tête . [He]145-hamlin could not sit in [the studio]795-the studio with [Perry]152-perry for more than half an hour without , on some excuse or other , calling [[his]145-hamlin aunt]1527-his aunt or [Miss Brown]171-anne . [He]145-hamlin seemed to have invited [a lot of people]3653-a lot of people to drop in at all hours , as if to protect [him]145-hamlin from [[his]145-hamlin old friend]530-his old friend . “ It ’s awfully good of [old Hamlin]145-hamlin to wish [me]152-perry to know [all these grand swell painters and newspaper writers]6867-all these grand swell painters and newspaper writers , ”[152-perry] said [Perry]152-perry to [Anne]171-anne , in the tone of [a disappointed child]3655-a disappointed child ; “ and [I]152-perry suppose it is very useful to [me]152-perry . But still , [I]152-perry wish [I]152-perry could get [him]145-hamlin to understand that what [I]152-perry want at present is to see just [him]145-hamlin and [you]171-anne ; that [all these confounded influential people]6868-all these confounded influential people will keep ; and that [I]152-perry ’d rather have a good talk over a pipe with [him]145-hamlin alone , as in old days . ”[152-perry] [Anne]171-anne did not answer . It seemed to [her]171-anne that [she]171-anne understood so well why [Hamlin]145-hamlin dreaded a tête‐à‐tête with [Melton Perry]152-perry ; a tête‐à‐t;ête which would be , largely , a talk about the past and the future , about [her]171-anne , [Anne Brown]171-anne . But [Anne]171-anne could not think about [poor Perry]152-perry and [his]152-perry disappointed friendliness ; [her]171-anne whole nature seemed to be staggering and reeling , and the concerns of [other folk]681-other folk were as distant , as unattainable , as they might be to [a person tossed for hours on a stormy sea]3657-a person tossed for hours on a stormy sea , paralysed , removed as it were from [the world]496-the world by an unspeakable sense of nausea . The days seemed to reel past , and yet not a week was gone since the arrival of [Melton Perry]152-perry . One afternoon , [they]3659-they were seated — [Hamlin]145-hamlin , [Perry]152-perry , and [she]171-anne — with [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor at tea in [the dim , shuttered drawing‐room]3660-the dim , shuttered drawing‐room , with the heavy scent of flowers , when [Richard Brown]223-richard brown was announced . If a ghost had appeared on the threshold , [Anne]171-anne could not have turned paler , and trembled harder in all [her]171-anne limbs — [this man , whom [she]171-anne had seen but a week ago]3661-this man , whom she had seen but a week ago , seemed indeed [a spectre out of the past]3662-a spectre out of the past , the long dead past , with which all connection was severed . It was an immense relief to [her]171-anne not to be alone ; [she]171-anne had an instinct that [Richard]223-richard brown had come to ask [her]171-anne whether , at last , [she]171-anne had settled matters with [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; [she]171-anne thought [she]171-anne could see [his]223-richard brown eyes going from [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s face to [her]171-anne own inquiringly . The conversation was languid and indifferent . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown wished for an explanation from [her]171-anne ; [Melton Perry]152-perry hoped for an explanation from [Richard Brown]223-richard brown ; [Hamlin]145-hamlin looked on passively , with that half‐stupefied look which [she]171-anne had noticed in [him]145-hamlin lately . [Hamlin]145-hamlin was more than merely depressed , [he]145-hamlin was very sad ; [his]145-hamlin face , so handsome and still so young , so perfectly unmarked in feature , contrasted strikingly with the pleased , happy‐go‐lucky , kindly face of [Perry]152-perry ; with the strong , eager , contemptuous face of [Brown]223-richard brown . For a moment [Anne]171-anne wondered what this sadness meant ; whether there was in [him]145-hamlin any recollection of what [he]145-hamlin was , of what [he]145-hamlin might be ; whether [the poet]5371-the poet , [the dreamer]5737-the dreamer , [the chivalrous Hamlin of former days]3665-the chivalrous hamlin of former days , still existed and suffered within [this weak and degraded Hamlin of the present]3666-this weak and degraded hamlin of the present ; and then , suddenly , this thought came in violent contact with the remembrance of [Perry]152-perry ’s story of [Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine . Had [Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine looked like that ? [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , obviously disappointed in [his]223-richard brown visit , rose . “ Why are [you]223-richard brown going so soon , [Brown]223-richard brown ? ”[145-hamlin] asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin , rising and making an effort over [himself]145-hamlin ; “ [you]223-richard brown never give [me]145-hamlin a chance of seeing [you]223-richard brown . Wo n’t [you]223-richard brown stay to dinner ? It is very impertinent of [me]145-hamlin to invite [people]577-people in [a house that is n’t mine]6870-a house that is n’t mine ; but [I]145-hamlin feel sure [Miss Brown]171-anne is disappointed in not having had any talk with [you]223-richard brown . [Chough]248-chough is coming to see [Perry]152-perry this evening , so [you]223-richard brown and [[your]223-richard brown cousin]4341-your cousin might have a chat after dinner . ”[145-hamlin] [He]223-richard brown spoke simply , in [his]223-richard brown quiet , subdued , melancholy voice . [Richard Brown]223-richard brown looked at [him]223-richard brown rapidly from head to foot ; what was the meaning of this ? And [Anne]171-anne felt [herself]171-anne growing very red . Had [Hamlin]145-hamlin guessed what [she]171-anne scarcely [herself]171-anne knew ? “ Thank [you]171-anne , ”[223-richard brown] answered [Richard]223-richard brown ; “ [I]223-richard brown am dining with some of [[my]223-richard brown would‐be constituents]6872-my would‐be constituents to‐night . [You]171-anne know , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said to [Anne]171-anne , “ [I]223-richard brown am going into [Parliament]122-parliament , [I]223-richard brown believe . [I]223-richard brown will return soon ; many thanks , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[223-richard brown] “ [I]223-richard brown have a good many things to tell [you]171-anne , [Nan]171-anne , ”[223-richard brown] [he]223-richard brown said , as [Miss Brown]171-anne accompanied [him]223-richard brown to [the room‐door]3667-the room‐door . “ [I]223-richard brown have heard of a scholarship which [I]223-richard brown am sure [you]171-anne could take if [you]171-anne would cram for six months ; and [I]223-richard brown want to ask [you]171-anne a lot of things also . [I]223-richard brown will come back in two or three days . Good‐bye . ”[223-richard brown] [He]223-richard brown squeezed [her]171-anne hand ; and [Anne]171-anne felt [her]171-anne heart thump at that hand‐squeeze , so frank and affectionate . “ Good‐bye , [Cousin Dick]379-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said . [Her]171-anne voice and eyes and hand lingered in that farewell , in a way quite unusual to [her]171-anne reserved and decided nature . [She]171-anne was saying goodbye [she]171-anne knew not exactly to what , but [she]171-anne felt that the farewell was the last , and that it meant farewell to [her]171-anne happiness . [Chough]379-hamlin came to dinner and stayed during the evening . When [he]379-hamlin and [Hamlin]379-hamlin had taken [their]3668-their departure , [Perry]152-perry remained for a few moments standing by the open window , looking vacantly at the trees , the outlines of [the craft]3669-the craft moored opposite , the long trails of moonlight on [the water]4411-the water . Then [he]152-perry came back into [the room]574-the room , and began fiddling with some roses in a glass . “ Beautiful roses , ”[152-perry] [he]152-perry said , in an awkward drawl ; “ [we]6873-we have none like them in [Italy]1-italy . Why do n’t [Italians]484-italians cultivate flowers ? What do [you]171-anne call this ? Is it a [La France]140-la france ? [I]152-perry never knew a turnip from a jasmine . ”[152-perry] “ [I]171-anne think it is a [La France]140-la france ; [I]171-anne do n’t know , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , taking a candlestick off the dining‐room mantelpiece . “ [I]171-anne think [I]171-anne must leave [you]152-perry now . [You]152-perry will find a box of cigarettes on the sideboard . Forgive [me]171-anne , [I]171-anne feel so tired and stupid . ”[171-anne] “ One moment ! ”[152-perry] cried [Perry]152-perry . “ It ’s a very disagreeable thing [I]171-anne have to say , [Annie]171-anne ; but [I]171-anne think [I]171-anne ought to say it . [I]171-anne guessed it the second time [I]171-anne saw [him]152-perry already ; but now [I]171-anne am quite sure of it — [Hamlin]379-hamlin drinks . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne did not answer . “ [I]152-perry do n’t mean to say that [he]152-perry gets drunk . But [he]152-perry drinks — spirits ; [I]152-perry ’ve seen [him]152-perry to‐night after dinner , and [I]152-perry ’m sure [he]152-perry ’s going to take more at [home]4170-home . There ’s no mistaking the look . It is n’t that [he]152-perry takes much , not more than [I]152-perry or [most men]2506-most men might take ; but it is that [he]152-perry ought n’t to take any . [He]152-perry used , [you]6876-you know , never even to take wine , except with gallons of water . [He]152-perry ca n’t take anything of the sort . [I]152-perry remember already when [we]6877-we were at college together , [Watty]178-watty was [a teetotaller]6878-a teetotaller . It appears [some people]5310-some people are like that ; [I]152-perry ’ve heard [doctors]6722-doctors say that it ’s not unusual in [families]6881-families where there has been much drinking : it ’s a sort of diseased sensitiveness to alcohol — it becomes a kind of poison . [You]6876-you know that [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s father]5130-hamlin ’s father drank , and [one of [[his]152-perry uncles]3511-his uncles]6883-one of his uncles died of drink , and [[his]152-perry brother]5101-his brother is either dead or dying , somewhere in [a maison de santé]6886-a maison de santé , of a sort of mixed delirium tremens and craziness . It ’s a thing , ”[152-perry] went on [Perry]152-perry , keeping [his]152-perry eyes fixed on the pattern of the Persian rug under [his]152-perry feet , “ which grieves and alarms [me]152-perry horribly ; and in which [I]152-perry feel that [you]6876-you are probably [the only person who could have any influence with]6887-the only person who could have any influence with [him]379-hamlin . It ’s useless [my]152-perry speaking . [He]379-hamlin must have got in among a bad lot . [That little Chough]6888-that little chough seems harmless enough;but [I]152-perry hear that [he]379-hamlin was very close with [a nasty fellow called [Lewis]353-lewis]6889-a nasty fellow called lewis — [a spiritualist]6890-a spiritualist , [opium‐eater]6891-opium‐eater , haschisch‐eater , and heaven knows what . Does [he]379-hamlin see much of [him]379-hamlin now ? ”[152-perry] “ [He]379-hamlin has quarrelled with [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , [I]152-perry fancy . ”[152-perry] “ Ah — so much the better . Then this would evidently be the moment to act . Of course [I]152-perry know it will be awfully difficult and horrible for [you]6876-you ; because [he]379-hamlin ’ll feel so miserably ashamed before [you]6876-you , and , of course , [you]6876-you will feel it almost as badly as [he]379-hamlin . But still , [you]6876-you are [the only person that can influence [him]379-hamlin]6892-the only person that can influence him . [You]6876-you see [he]379-hamlin loves [you]6876-you , worships [you]6876-you , all that sort of thing . And [I]152-perry am sure [you]6876-you will have the courage to get over [your]6876-you repugnance to [a disagreeable half‐hour]6893-a disagreeable half‐hour , wo n’t [you]6876-you , [Annie]171-anne , for [your]6876-you own sake as well as [his]379-hamlin ? ”[152-perry] “ [I]171-anne will do [my]171-anne best , ”[171-anne] said [Miss Brown]171-anne . [MISS BROWN]171-anne went up to [[her]171-anne room]1374-her room slowly , and slowly proceeded to undress . “ [You]171-anne look very tired , [miss]4492-miss , ”[694-her maid] said [[her]171-anne maid]694-her maid ; “ have n’t [you]171-anne perhaps been overtiring [yourself]171-anne so soon after [your]171-anne illness ? and do n’t [you]171-anne think [you]171-anne had better let [me]694-her maid brush [your]171-anne hair for [you]171-anne ? ”[694-her maid] [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head ; [she]171-anne had never consented to let [any one]4101-any one wait upon [her]171-anne except when ill , with that odd feeling that [she]171-anne , [a servant]4125-a servant , had no right to have [a servant]4125-a servant ; and [the maid whom [Hamlin]379-hamlin considered as a sort of necessary institution for [a woman in [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s position]3678-a woman in miss brown ’s position]3677-the maid whom hamlin considered as a sort of necessary institution for a woman in miss brown ’s position , had been virtually put at the disposal of [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor , whose constant fidgeting over [her]243-mrs macgregor [clothes , and tea , and coffee , and food , according to hygienic theories of thirty years back]3679-clothes , and tea , and coffee , and food , according to hygienic theories of thirty years back , might have afforded occupation not to two but to [twenty maids]3680-twenty maids . [Anne]171-anne really did look very worn out ; more so than [she]171-anne had seemed these several weeks , thought [the maid]4505-the maid . “ No , thank [you]171-anne , [Laura]190-laura , ”[171-anne] said [Miss Brown]171-anne . [She]171-anne really did not feel at all as if [she]171-anne could sleep ; [she]171-anne felt the blood rushing through every artery of [her]171-anne body , and a hot faintness overtake [her]171-anne . “ It wo n’t do to make [myself]171-anne ill again , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said to [herself]171-anne . [The doctor]5794-the doctor had said that for the present [she]171-anne must try and get as much sleep as possible ; and [she]171-anne was [a practical , methodical person]3683-a practical , methodical person . [She]171-anne brushed [her]171-anne hair , still in short wavy masses since it was cut during the fever , carefully , slowly . It seemed to [her]171-anne as if , in the half light , it looked more grey than black . [She]171-anne pulled out a few white hairs : they come early in hair as dark and wiry as [hers]171-anne . [She]171-anne folded [her]171-anne clothes methodically , as [she]171-anne used to fold the clothes of [the little Perrys]645-the little perrys , put out [her]171-anne light and lay down . “ It wo n’t do to make [myself]171-anne ill again , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said ; and , closing [her]171-anne eyes , determined to sleep . [She]171-anne remained stretched out rigidly , like [a dead woman]5734-a dead woman , [her]171-anne head straight on [her]171-anne pillows , and trying to keep [her]171-anne mind as rigid as [her]171-anne body . But it was of no use . [She]171-anne could not sleep ; [her]171-anne blood and [her]171-anne thoughts seemed to throb furiously within [her]171-anne . [Anne]171-anne ’s mind had been made up , quietly , methodically , much in the same way as [her]171-anne hair had been brushed and [her]171-anne clothes folded , already a good hour ago , when talking to [Melton Perry]152-perry ; [she]171-anne had seen the necessity of a decision coming , had waited for the moment when the decision should be made , ever since [she]171-anne had heard that story of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine and [Constantine Bulzo]476-constantine . There had been , it seemed to [her]171-anne , no alternative ; and there seemed to [her]171-anne that there was no alternative now , either . But as [she]171-anne lay motionless in [her]171-anne bed , and stared into the darkness with wide‐opened eyes , [she]171-anne began , once more , to go over slowly and repeatedly the steps of the argument , which had , three or four days ago , become manifest to [her]171-anne as might the mechanism of a broken watch to [a watchmaker]3686-a watchmaker , of any very inevitable and obvious thing . [Hamlin]379-hamlin had done everything for [her]171-anne ; [he]379-hamlin had turned what [she]171-anne looked back upon with horror , as a kind of intellectual and moral death , into life . [He]379-hamlin had bought [her]171-anne soul free , had nourished and nurtured it , as [a man]503-a man might have redeemed , nourished , and nurtured the body of [some slave child]3688-some slave child , doomed to be [a cripple in a crippling occupation]3689-a cripple in a crippling occupation ; [he]379-hamlin had done , [she]171-anne felt assured , what [no other man]1078-no other man had ever done for [a woman]3960-a woman , since [no other woman]2559-no other woman , [she]171-anne thought , could have escaped from such a state of utter soul stagnation as had already begun , those five years ago , in [her]171-anne slow , sullen nature . It was more than had ever been done for [another woman]4381-another woman , and [Anne]171-anne felt its value more than any other ; for despite the modesty and frankness which often took [others]4163-others aback , the very stuff of [her]171-anne soul , like the very mould of [her]171-anne features , was pride . [She]171-anne knew [herself]171-anne to be nobler than [the majority of men]3695-the majority of men and [women]3959-women ; not more intelligent , nor more honest , nor more kindly , nor any one particular quality , but more homogeneous of nature ; not alloyed in any portion , whatever [she]171-anne might be ; upright , sincere , practical , harsh even , through and through : a reality , where they seemed but half reality and half make‐up . And that [she]171-anne should be this [she]171-anne owed to [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; without [him]379-hamlin [she]171-anne would have been equally homogeneous of soul , but it would have been with the uniformity , the rigidity of spiritual death . What [Hamlin]379-hamlin had done , [he]379-hamlin had done from no base motives , and without the smallest taint of baseness in the doing : [he]379-hamlin had not actually wanted [her]171-anne , [he]379-hamlin had wanted merely to perfect a thing that seemed to [him]379-hamlin good of its sort , to make [her]171-anne a soul that should suit [her]171-anne body ; [he]379-hamlin had done it deliberately , consistently , unwearyingly , with a gentleness , a generous tact , which had themselves been a benefit . That [Hamlin]379-hamlin had acted from an imaginative whim , that [he]379-hamlin had carried out an exotic artistic caprice , played a sublimated game of artistic skill , [Anne]171-anne could not at this moment take into account . [She]171-anne knew , and only too well , that [Hamlin]379-hamlin was selfish , whimsical , fantastic , vain , [a seeker after new poses and new sensations]3697-a seeker after new poses and new sensations ; but [she]171-anne knew all this analytically , piecemeal as the result of thought ; and [she]171-anne was in a sense too dull , too unable to comprehend [others]4163-others , and , above all , too utterly devoid of all vanity , whimsicalness , and theatricality , too completely of a piece , a mass of granite , as [she]171-anne often felt , to conceive these analytically recognised peculiarities as absolutely organic and active forces . [She]171-anne had conceived [Hamlin]379-hamlin to be that which to [her]171-anne was the easiest conception — generous ; and nothing could make [her]171-anne conceive [his]379-hamlin behaviour towards [her]171-anne in any any other light . Moreover , there remained in this frank and fearless nature , shrinking from no disillusions , one delusion which was the safer for [her]171-anne very consciousness of uncompromising hatred of all delusions . [She]171-anne clung , without knowing it , to the belief that in one thing at least [Hamlin]379-hamlin had been perfectly noble , that no subsequently discovered weakness and baseness could ever alter that ; [she]171-anne treasured up a shred of [her]171-anne old ideal , the belief that whatever [Hamlin]379-hamlin might be towards [others]4163-others and towards [himself]379-hamlin , towards [her]171-anne [he]379-hamlin had been [the real Hamlin whom [she]171-anne had loved and worshipped]3700-the real hamlin whom she had loved and worshipped . And now [this Hamlin]379-hamlin , [this man to whom [she]171-anne owed all , and whose past [she]171-anne still loved]3701-this man to whom she owed all , and whose past she still loved , was gradually being alienated from all the nobler things for which [he]379-hamlin was fit — gradually being separated from [his]379-hamlin nobler self , and dragged , stripped of all [his]379-hamlin better qualities , into a moral quagmire , a charnel , a cloaca , to stick and rot inchwise . And this , [Anne]171-anne said to [herself]171-anne , to some degree by [her]171-anne own fault ; for had [she]171-anne not let [her]171-anne antipathy for the tendencies which [she]171-anne had gradually discovered in [him]379-hamlin , and [her]171-anne loathing for the tendencies of [the men who surrounded [him]379-hamlin]3702-the men who surrounded him , smother [her]171-anne gratitude , [her]171-anne sympathy , turn [her]171-anne away in sullen scorn and isolation , from [the man whom [she]171-anne was bound to help]3703-the man whom she was bound to help , and [the men whom [she]171-anne was bound to combat]3704-the men whom she was bound to combat ? [She]171-anne forgot for the moment the many abortive attempts [she]171-anne had made to awaken the better qualities of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; or rather , [she]171-anne could no longer conceive that those attempts had been sufficiently strenuous and determined ; it seemed to [her]171-anne , forgetful of the dead‐weight of opposition , that [she]171-anne must have been very feeble and half‐hearted . Instead of thinking of [him]379-hamlin , [she]171-anne had thought only of [herself]171-anne , of preserving [her]171-anne own soul from infection , of keeping [her]171-anne own soul strong and active ; [she]171-anne had selfishly thought of [the world]496-the world ’s miseries , which [she]171-anne could not prevent , instead of thinking of [Hamlin]379-hamlin , whom [she]171-anne might have saved ; and finally , [she]171-anne had let [herself]171-anne indulge in dreams of liberty , that is to say , of desertion of [her]171-anne duty . Those monks and [nuns of former days]3706-nuns of former days , for whom [she]171-anne felt such unutterable contempt , had [they]3706-nuns of former days acted differently from [her]171-anne when [they]3706-nuns of former days left [[their]3706-nuns of former days fellow‐men]3707-their fellow‐men to perish in sin , in order that [they]3706-nuns of former days might enjoy the luxury of virtue in [a convent]3182-a convent or [a desert]5827-a desert ? [She]171-anne loathed æsthetes like [Hamlin]379-hamlin ; and yet , what had [she]171-anne [herself]171-anne been , save [an æsthete of another sort]3710-an æsthete of another sort , selfishly preoccupied with spiritual comfort , and worse than any of [them]3706-nuns of former days for the very moral consciousness which lay at the root of this immorality ? Why had [she]171-anne not driven away [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis , opposing [herself]171-anne to [him]353-lewis with all [her]171-anne might ? Why had [she]171-anne not driven away [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha ? Now that [she]171-anne had learned from [Melton Perry]152-perry what [this woman]5573-this woman really was , every single circumstance of [their]3712-their former intercourse , every single fact and suggestion that had come to [her]171-anne , from [Mrs Macgregor]243-mrs macgregor ’s warnings to [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis ’s cowardly accusation,—all the hundred little impressions which [she]171-anne [herself]171-anne had received , grouped themselves together , and made it obvious that [Sacha]386-sacha must be , could only have been , the horrible walking depravity which [she]5573-this woman had been revealed . Essentially unanalytic of mind , [Miss Brown]171-anne could now no longer conceive how it was that [she]171-anne had not understood [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine at once ; in that massive horror with which [the Russian woman]6513-the russian woman had filled [her]171-anne , it was impossible to remember all the deluding little circumstances which had closed [her]171-anne heart to suspicion — nay , all the purity of [her]171-anne own nature , the charity , the desire to be equitable , which had made this now so overpowering mass of abomination not merely impossible to realise , but impossible to conceive . It seemed to [her]171-anne as if [Sacha]386-sacha must always have shown [herself]386-sacha what [she]386-sacha was ; and that [she]171-anne , [Anne Brown]171-anne , must have wilfully closed [her]171-anne eyes . [She]171-anne had never asked [herself]171-anne whether it was not [her]171-anne duty towards [Hamlin]379-hamlin to come to some conclusion about [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin ; [she]171-anne had let [their]3715-their connection drift on ; [she]171-anne had seen in the ruin of [the man to whom [she]171-anne owed all]3716-the man to whom she owed all , only a means to [her]171-anne own deliverance from a life which [she]171-anne hated , from a duty which [she]171-anne shirked . [Anne]171-anne remembered how [she]171-anne had watched with terror that look of weariness and shame on [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s face , which ought to have told [her]171-anne that [this poor , weak , sick soul]3717-this poor , weak , sick soul might still be saved ; [she]171-anne remembered the joy with which [she]171-anne had heard of [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s departure for [Paris]42-paris — that is to say , of the crowning act of weakness and folly which had made [him]379-hamlin the chattel of [[his]379-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin . [Anne]171-anne loathed [herself]171-anne as [a woman]3960-a woman might loathe [herself]171-anne , who recognised that [she]171-anne had let [some living creature die of hunger and want of nursing]3720-some living creature die of hunger and want of nursing . Shame [she]171-anne did not feel , nor yet remorse ; [she]171-anne cared too little for [herself]171-anne to care for [her]171-anne own ideals ; [she]171-anne did not once think that [she]171-anne had been mistaken , that [she]171-anne had been base , ungrateful , that [she]171-anne was dishonoured in [her]171-anne own eyes ; [she]171-anne merely thought that [Hamlin]379-hamlin was on the brink of ruin , ruin of all [his]379-hamlin nobler self and of [his]379-hamlin happiness — that [she]171-anne had done it , and that [she]171-anne was there , alone , to save [him]379-hamlin . In those long hours , lying motionless in the dark , the face of [Hamlin]379-hamlin , as [she]171-anne had recently seen it , [that weak , profoundly depressed , half‐degraded face]3721-that weak , profoundly depressed , half‐degraded face , was constantly before [her]171-anne eyes ; and surrounding it , vague and threatening , the faces — so strangely like it and transfigured in a kind of tragic degradation , of the portraits at [Wotton Hall]16-wotton hall — of [[Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s half‐crazy , disgraced brother]3722-hamlin ’s half‐crazy , disgraced brother ; of [[his]379-hamlin odious , passion‐stained father]3723-his odious , passion‐stained father ; of [[his]379-hamlin drunken uncles]3724-his drunken uncles ; above all , [that beautiful woman]3725-that beautiful woman ’s face , with the curled hair and loose collar — that face so curiously compounded of effeminacy , whimsicalness , and cynical self‐abandonment ; of [[his]379-hamlin great‐uncle [Mordaunt]144-hamlin , whose portrait had been exiled to [the lumber‐room]1932-the lumber‐room , whose name banished from the memory of [[his]379-hamlin relatives]3728-his relatives]3726-his great‐uncle mordaunt , whose portrait had been exiled to the lumber‐room , whose name banished from the memory of his relatives ; and along with [them]3728-his relatives , and resembling [them]3728-his relatives like [a brother]6147-a brother , the confused , imaginary image of [that miserable Greek lad whom [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha had ruined]3730-that miserable greek lad whom sacha elaguine had ruined . Was it still time ? Could [Hamlin]144-hamlin still be saved ? was [he]144-hamlin already hopelessly bound for life to [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ? Had [Anne]171-anne waked up too late ? [She]171-anne did not know . [She]171-anne only knew that there was not an hour , not a moment to lose ; and that there was but one thing to be done . [Hamlin]144-hamlin must not , should not , marry [Sacha]386-sacha . And the only way to prevent it was that [he]144-hamlin should marry [Anne Brown]171-anne . [He]144-hamlin might , as [Lewis]353-lewis said , and as [she]171-anne believed , already be [the lover of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine]3731-the lover of madame elaguine ; but [he]144-hamlin was not yet [the husband]4025-the husband , and most probably not yet [the betrothed]3733-the betrothed . And was [he]144-hamlin not bound , by that paper which the ignoble suspiciousness of [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had required of [him]144-hamlin in [that distant past in [Florence]6-florence]3734-that distant past in florence , to marry [Anne Brown]171-anne at whatever time [she]171-anne rnight call upon [him]144-hamlin to do so ? “ [I]171-anne must become [[his]144-hamlin wife]700-his wife , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne to [herself]171-anne ; and [she]171-anne said it as [she]171-anne might have said “ the sun must rise in so many hours . ”[171-anne] There was no room for hesitation on [her]171-anne part ; the choice , the act of volition , was so decided , that there ceased to be either choice or volition ; to become [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife seemed to [Anne]171-anne as an inevitable necessity coming from without . But little by little : as [she]171-anne lay there broad awake , yet with somewhat of that tendency , as of [an opium‐dreamer]3736-an opium‐dreamer , to see things exaggerated which comes to [us]3737-us in darkness , [she]171-anne began to realise the meaning of this formula — to become [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife . The whole past rushed into [her]171-anne mind , and became , as it were , the mirage of the future , and that mirage was horrible . To be [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife meant to relinquish the liberty which had , for the last two or three months , been safe within [her]171-anne grasp , the liberty of being [herself]171-anne . [Anne]171-anne was one of those natures which , though able , by moments , to enjoy [themselves]3740-themselves like [children]570-children , do not believe much in happiness ; to whom , singled out , as it were , to achieve self‐sacrifice or endure martyrdom , happiness is a mere name , a negative thing — but to whom unhappiness is a positive reality , the thing which [they]3740-themselves expect , with which [their]3740-themselves soul seems , in some pre‐natal condition , to have become familiar as the one great certainty . The happiness , therefore , which [she]171-anne was losing — the independence , the activity , the serenity , the possibility of a life of noble companionship with [Richard Brown]223-richard brown — all this was only a distant and unsubstantial thing ; [she]171-anne had never experienced it , and it could not well be realised . But [she]171-anne knew by experience , familiar with its every detail , the unhappiness which lay in the future as [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s wife]5152-hamlin ’s wife , for this future would be but a return to the past ; and [she]171-anne felt as might [a person lost in a catacomb , and who , having got to a chink , having seen the light and breathed the air]3743-a person lost in a catacomb , and who , having got to a chink , having seen the light and breathed the air , should be condemned to wander again , to rethread for ever the black and choking corridors leading nowhere . That [Hamlin]144-hamlin was lost if [he]144-hamlin married [Sacha]386-sacha , [she]171-anne knew as [she]171-anne knew that two and two make four ; but [she]171-anne did not in the least flatter [herself]171-anne that [her]171-anne own influence would be as potent for good , as [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s must be potent for evil . [She]171-anne knew [Hamlin]144-hamlin too well for that , and [herself]171-anne also . If [Hamlin]144-hamlin had remained weak , cold , vain , and mean under [her]171-anne influence hitherto , [he]144-hamlin must remain so for ever ; [he]144-hamlin was born all these things . [She]171-anne could prevent [his]144-hamlin growing worse , [she]171-anne could not make [him]144-hamlin grow better ; [her]171-anne position would be as that of [a woman who devoted [herself]171-anne to nurse [a person sick of an incurable disease]3745-a person sick of an incurable disease]3744-a woman who devoted herself to nurse a person sick of an incurable disease : there would be none of the excitement of a possible cure , only the routine , the anxiety peculiar to a case where [the patient]3746-the patient is for ever on the brink of getting worse . To be understood , to be sympathised with , to be loved really and really to love — none of these things would be for [her]171-anne . But , after all , what right had [she]171-anne to any of them ? [Anne]171-anne was , in all matters concerning [herself]171-anne , [a born fatalist and pessimist]3747-a born fatalist and pessimist ; the words of [Goethe]240-goethe , “ Entbehren sollst du , sollst entbehren , ”[240-goethe] were to [her]171-anne not an admonition , but a mere statement of fact . [She]171-anne had , for a time , fancied that [she]171-anne clutched happiness ; if it had turned out , like the goddess clutched by [Ixion]485-ixion , a mere mist , why , that was quite natural ; there was nothing to complain of in that . But suddenly there came a sense not any longer of the loss of happiness , but of a sickened revolt from all the things which this sacrifice of happiness implied . Not to love , not to be loved . Well , that was natural ; but to submit to becoming the property of [a man whom [she]171-anne did not love , and who could not , in [her]171-anne eyes , ever love [her]171-anne]3748-a man whom she did not love , and who could not , in her eyes , ever love her , that was another thing . [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis and [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , learned in such matters , had been perfectly correct when [they]3749-they declared that [Anne]171-anne was , in [their]3749-they sense of the word , passionless , cold . To [this woman]5573-this woman , consumed by intellectual and moral passion , [her]171-anne womanhood meant merely the instincts of superior chastity , of superior soul cleanness , which seem the birthright of [women]3959-women , as the instincts of superior generosity , of superior soul energy , seem the birthright of [men]4644-men ; and this , to [her]171-anne the only result of womanhood , merely added a positive element of repulsion to the disdain for what [the world]496-the world is pleased to call love already existing in [her]171-anne . [Anne Brown]171-anne , born of [the people]871-the people , grown up as [a servant]4125-a servant , left to take care of [herself]171-anne when scarcely more than [a child]623-a child , and then thrust into the midst of a demoralised school of literature which gloried in moral indifference,—Anne [Brown]171-anne had none of those misty notions of marriage so easily transfigured into poetry , and which make ( and perhaps fortunately ) [many clean‐souled and disdainful girls]3757-many clean‐souled and disdainful girls enter unconsciously and unabashed upon a life frequently neither very noble nor very clean . Without formulating it to [herself]171-anne — for [she]171-anne never formulated anything — [Miss Brown]171-anne had a very strong sense that marriage without love was a mere legalised form of prostitution . To become , therefore , [the wife of [Hamlin]144-hamlin]6289-the wife of hamlin , was an intolerable self‐degradation — nay , a pollution ; for it seemed to [her]171-anne , and the idea sickened [her]171-anne whole soul , that the moral pollution of [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha would be communicated to [her]171-anne . To become [the wife of [Sacha]386-sacha ’s lover]3759-the wife of sacha ’s lover ! [Her]171-anne limbs seemed to give way , to dissolve ; a horrible warm clamminess overtook [her]171-anne ; [she]171-anne could not breathe , or breathed only horror . [Anne]171-anne rose from [her]171-anne bed , and wrapping [herself]171-anne in [her]171-anne dressing‐gown , sat down by the window , partly ajar . [She]171-anne threw it wide open , pulled up the blinds , and , gasping , looked out into the darkness . The sky was covered , not a ray of light ; it was raining — [she]171-anne heard the drops fall heavily on the leaves under the window ; a warm damp gust of air blew in [her]171-anne face . [Anne]171-anne did not know what it was to faint , and [her]171-anne limbs did not give way beneath [her]171-anne ; but [she]171-anne felt as if [her]171-anne mind , [her]171-anne soul , were fainting , growing clammy — slipping , slipping away , dissolving into nothingness . To be [the wife of [[Sacha]386-sacha ’s lover]3761-sacha ’s lover]3759-the wife of sacha ’s lover ! With the scornful aversion which [a woman of actively chaste nature]3762-a woman of actively chaste nature ( for the virtue exists in [most women]2710-most women only in a negative , passive condition ) experiences for the more abstract idea of weakness and unchastity , was mingled — perhaps not very clearly to [herself]171-anne — somewhat already of the wrath of [the outraged wife]3764-the outraged wife . Under [her]171-anne very eyes , before all [the world]496-the world , [Hamlin]144-hamlin had deceived [her]171-anne — had been [[another woman]4381-another woman ’s lover]3767-another woman ’s lover — and had let [her]171-anne associate with [[his]144-hamlin mistress]1072-his mistress ! the kind of resentment which [the world]496-the world sometimes mistakes for jealousy , but into which there enters no love,—the sense not of being neglected as [an individual]3770-an individual , but being insulted as [a woman]3960-a woman . To be [the wife of [[Sacha]386-sacha ’s lover]3761-sacha ’s lover]3759-the wife of sacha ’s lover ! [Anne]171-anne ’s imagination — slow in all things , and slowest where any ignoble or impure thing was concerned — was trailed as by an inexplicable force along a dim tract of foulness . No ; [she]171-anne could not marry [this man]1239-this man . [She]171-anne had no right to forego [her]171-anne just resentment , to stifle [her]171-anne just disgust , no right to degrade [her]171-anne soul in order to save [his]1239-this man . If [he]1239-this man was weak , vain , foredoomed to baseness , let [him]1239-this man run [his]1239-this man career — fulfil [his]1239-this man destiny . Some sacrifices are sins . Without identifying the case , [Anne]171-anne ’s thoughts reverted to the story , to the words of [Isabella]366-la belle heaulmière in ‘ Measure for Measure ’ ; and the pride that lay at the bottom of [her]171-anne soul — the pride of purity and strength — rose like a great wind within [her]171-anne . No ; [she]171-anne would not pollute [her]171-anne cleanness , prostitute [her]171-anne nobility , for [this man]1239-this man . [Anne]171-anne folded [her]171-anne dressing‐gown close about [her]171-anne , and extended [her]171-anne strong fingers tight over the arms of [her]171-anne chair — a movement like that of [a judge about to pronounce a sentence]3776-a judge about to pronounce a sentence . [Any one who could have seen [her]171-anne sitting thus by the window]3777-any one who could have seen her sitting thus by the window — [who could have seen that pale stern face , those wide‐opened onyx‐grey eyes looking steadfastly into the darkness]3778-who could have seen that pale stern face , those wide‐opened onyx‐grey eyes looking steadfastly into the darkness — would have said that [this magnificent young woman with the tragic features was capable of cold cruelty]3779-this magnificent young woman with the tragic features was capable of cold cruelty . But though in some measure right , since there is a destructive element in [all strong souls]3780-all strong souls , [the person who should have thought like this]3781-the person who should have thought like this would yet have been mistaken . [Anne]171-anne ’s ruthlessness , [her]171-anne cruelty , could exist only against [herself]171-anne ; the sacrifice , which seemed to [her]171-anne no very great matter , was the sacrifice of [herself]171-anne . [Anne]171-anne remained seated for a few minutes by the window , that storm of pride and contempt rushing in great gusts through [her]171-anne whole nature . But then suddenly the storm dropped . Here was [Hamlin]144-hamlin , to whom [she]171-anne owed everything , owed this very soul which seemed too good to be wasted upon [him]144-hamlin , in danger of being degraded for ever by [this loathsome woman]3782-this loathsome woman , this incarnation of all [his]144-hamlin own vices , this moral disease become [a human creature]3783-a human creature . This fate must be averted , [Hamlin]144-hamlin must be saved , for [his]144-hamlin own sake and for the sake of [the world]496-the world — of all those nobler things that [he]144-hamlin might still do ; [he]144-hamlin must be saved , and only one thing could save [him]144-hamlin — hence that one thing must be done . [Anne]171-anne rose from the window . This darkness unnerved [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne struck a light and lit the candles on the mantelpiece ; they were in clustered candlesticks , and [the room]574-the room was brilliantly illuminated . [Anne]171-anne looked round [her]171-anne . There was a heap of books and papers on [her]171-anne table,—she had been interrupted in tidying them the previous day . [She]171-anne began to put them to rights . Some of the books were the manuals of political economy and works on philosophy which [she]171-anne was studying with a view to [Girton]58-girton . The sight of them made a knot rise in [her]171-anne throat and the tears come into [her]171-anne eyes . [She]171-anne felt that [she]171-anne would never read them again . [She]171-anne took them in [her]171-anne arms , and opening the lowest drawer of [her]171-anne writing‐table , locked them up . “ [I]171-anne will give them to [[Marjory]249-marjory ’s women]6896-marjory ’s women ’s club , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne thought . Then [she]171-anne opened another drawer , and got out all [her]171-anne note‐books and copy‐books,—her many months ’ work , ever since [Richard Brown]223-richard brown had first lent [her]171-anne [his]223-richard brown primer . [She]171-anne turned over a few pages slowly . The sentences seemed to have no meaning ; [her]171-anne brain refused to act . [She]171-anne took the papers one by one and tore them into small shreds , and threw them into the waste‐paper basket . “ There is an end of that , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said to [herself]171-anne quietly . [Anne]171-anne looked round [the room]574-the room once more,—at the spruce Queen Anne furniture which had surprised [her]171-anne so much , at the blue and white vases , the shimmering plates , the pieces of embroidery on the wall — all the things which [Hamlin]144-hamlin had put there to please [her]171-anne . Was there anything more — anything more to be done ? On the mantelpiece stood a photograph of [Richard Brown]223-richard brown , unframed , which [he]223-richard brown had recently given [her]171-anne : [she]171-anne had asked [him]223-richard brown for a photograph during [Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s absence with [Sacha]386-sacha . [She]171-anne took the photograph and held it over one of the candles ; it curled up , charred , only the rim which [she]171-anne held remaining to show what it had been ; [she]171-anne turned it round and round over the flame , and then threw the crumpled piece of charred pasteboard into the grate . The first pale light of dawn was beginning to mingle with the light of the candles , making them burn yellow , and surrounded by a sort of halo , like the tapers round a catafalque . Outside [she]171-anne saw the chilly grey streaks of light , the faint cold rose veinings of sunrise . But the sunrise itself did not come ; the sky gradually appeared , clotted with red and purplish reflections ; then the colour died away , and there remained instead a pale , suffused , grey heaven . It began to drizzle . [Anne]171-anne left the window . [The room]574-the room was light now with daylight — the candle‐flames mere yellow specks . [Anne]171-anne put them out ; [she]171-anne pulled down the blinds and got into bed , and again stretched [herself]171-anne out in that stiff way , [her]171-anne head propped up on the pillows , trying not to think . In a few minutes [she]171-anne was asleep . When [the maid]4505-the maid came in , [she]4505-the maid did not wake up as usual , and [the girl]583-the girl was half‐frightened and very much awed by seeing [Miss Brown]171-anne lying straight and motionless ; [her]171-anne face , surrounded by a sort of wreath of short , curling , iron‐black locks , stiff on the pillow , looking , in the grey morning light which came through the pale‐blue blinds , like [a dead woman]5734-a dead woman . [Anne]171-anne opened [her]171-anne eyes and looked round slowly , as if trying to collect [her]171-anne thoughts . “ Ah , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , half audibly , “ [I]171-anne remember . ”[171-anne] BY an effort of manœuvring which was not very natural to [her]171-anne , [Miss Brown]171-anne induced [Melton Perry]152-perry to take [himself]152-perry off after breakfast and go and see [some studios]3791-some studios , an expedition which would keep [him]152-perry out of the way till lunch . [She]171-anne would have [Hamlin]144-hamlin all to [herself]171-anne . When [Perry]152-perry was gone , [Anne]171-anne sat down to write to [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh , who was in [the country]945-the country . There was absolutely no reason why [she]171-anne should write to [Mary]324-mary leigh , nor had [she]324-mary leigh anything whatever to tell [her]324-mary leigh ; but [she]171-anne was devoured by a restlessness — by a vague desire to talk to [some one who cared for [her]171-anne]3793-some one who cared for her . [She]171-anne told [Mary Leigh]324-mary leigh nothing of what was passing through [her]171-anne mind , nor of the event which was pending : there was not , in [her]171-anne letter , a word to suggest anything of the sort ; but there was in it the expression , vague and without motives , of the great emotion which occupied [her]171-anne soul . “ [I]171-anne want to tell [you]324-mary leigh , [dear Mary]324-mary leigh , ”[171-anne] wrote [Anne]171-anne , “ how grateful [I]171-anne am for the affection which [you]324-mary leigh and [Marjory]249-marjory have shown towards [me]171-anne lately . If [I]171-anne had died of that illness , it would have been a great consolation to know that [you]324-mary leigh cared for [me]171-anne so much . ”[171-anne] [She]171-anne did not know why , the tone of the whole letter , with all these expressions of gratitude , had the solemnity of a farewell , as if written by [a woman who expected to die soon]3794-a woman who expected to die soon . And [Anne]171-anne really felt as if [her]171-anne life were coming to an end . When [she]171-anne had finished writing , [she]171-anne went down to [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s studio]1127-hamlin ’s studio . [He]144-hamlin would come soon , and [she]171-anne would wait for [him]144-hamlin here . It was still drizzling , and [the room opening on to [the garden]675-the garden]3796-the room opening on to the garden , with [its]675-the garden silk blinds drawn down , was full of a kind of twilight . [Anne]171-anne walked up and down for a minute or two , looking vaguely round [her]171-anne . A drowsy scent of faded flowers , of cigarette‐smoke , of [she]171-anne knew not what scent , made [her]171-anne feel weak and dreamy , and reminded [her]171-anne , with a movement of disgust , of [[Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha ’s rooms]3798-sacha elaguine ’s rooms . [She]171-anne had not been in [the studio]795-the studio of late , except for a few minutes at a time . Everything seemed to [her]171-anne untidy and dusty — easels and boards thrown about in a way which was not usual with [Hamlin]144-hamlin . [She]171-anne looked vaguely at the various things,—at the drawings by [Rossetti]381-rossetti and [Burne Jones]382-burne jones on the walls , the books in cases , the terra cottas and bits of carving on brackets , the piano with the brocade cover thrown back , and the score of [Wagner]486-wagner ’s Tristram still on the desk . [She]171-anne looked at the score and played a few notes , but stopped . [She]171-anne loathed that music which [Hamlin]144-hamlin and [Sacha]386-sacha so admired — that music , with its strange , insidious faintings and sobbings , its hot , enervating gusts of passion . On the mantelpiece , among the Japanese jars , the bronze lamps , and other similar properties , [her]171-anne eye caught a small bottle of blue glass . [She]171-anne took it up : it was not labelled , or the label was removed , but it left a sort of sickly‐smelling stickiness on [her]171-anne fingers . So [Perry]152-perry was right ; [Hamlin]144-hamlin had returned to [his]144-hamlin old practice of taking opium . [She]171-anne put the bottle back , and walked up and down once more . Then [her]171-anne eye fell upon an unfinished portrait of [herself]171-anne , or what was intended to be [herself]171-anne , which stood in the shadow . [A solemn sombre woman in green , with very blue peaks and glaciers in the distance]3800-a solemn sombre woman in green , with very blue peaks and glaciers in the distance , twisting the faded green leaves of a palm‐branch . It was the picture which [Hamlin]144-hamlin had begun long , long ago in [Florence]6-florence ; and [her]171-anne mind went back to that other rainy day , as gloomy as this one , seemingly centuries ago , when [she]171-anne had stood in [the tower studio]3801-the tower studio , about to take leave of [Hamlin]144-hamlin , as [she]171-anne thought , for the last time . Was [she]171-anne really as sombre as that picture ? thought [Anne]171-anne . On a table , gritty with dust , lay an open sketch‐book ; [Anne]171-anne took it up listlessly . The sheet was scrawled with several versions of an allegorical design , feebly drawn , scarcely more than outlined , and , as it seemed , in a moment of weariness . [A beautiful naked youth]3802-a beautiful naked youth was clutched by [a huge , haggard woman]3803-a huge , haggard woman , [her]3803-a huge , haggard woman torn dress licking [his]3802-a beautiful naked youth body like flames , [her]3803-a huge , haggard woman lips greedily advancing to [his]3802-a beautiful naked youth delicate face , which shrank back , like a flower withering in the heat of a furnace . There were several versions , crossing and recrossing each other oddly , but always [the same flower‐like winged boy writhing in the terrible breath of this embrace , always that fainting beautiful face , and those burning lips with the suction of flame]3804-the same flower‐like winged boy writhing in the terrible breath of this embrace , always that fainting beautiful face , and those burning lips with the suction of flame . Beneath one of the versions was scrawled , “ Amor a Libidine interfectus , ”[171-anne] and a few lines , half scratched out , of a sonnet . [Anne]171-anne did not read them ; [she]171-anne put down the sketch‐book . [She]171-anne knew the sense of that allegory , even before [her]171-anne eye caught the words , “ and thus [my]171-anne soul , ”[171-anne] which formed one of the lines of the rough‐scrawled sonnet . [Anne]171-anne shuddered . Steps came along [the corridor]3805-the corridor — [[Hamlin]144-hamlin ’s steps]3806-hamlin ’s steps . [She]171-anne sat down near the window , for [she]171-anne expected [her]171-anne heart would have begun beating even to bursting . But it was not so ; [Miss Brown]171-anne felt wonderfully calm . “ [I]171-anne want to talk to [you]144-hamlin about something , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , when [he]144-hamlin had recovered from the surprise of finding [her]171-anne in [the studio]795-the studio . “ [You]144-hamlin have nothing very pressing to do just now , [I]171-anne hope ? ”[171-anne] “ Nothing , ”[145-hamlin] answered [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “ [I]144-hamlin am at [your]171-anne disposal . ”[144-hamlin] [He]144-hamlin sat down opposite to [her]171-anne , and began to fidget with the pencils and pen‐knives lying on the table . [He]144-hamlin was very pale , haggard , and looked tired and worried . “ [You]144-hamlin do n’t seem well , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne , mechanically . “ [I]144-hamlin am horribly nervous , that ’s all , ”[144-hamlin] [he]144-hamlin answered , passing [his]144-hamlin hand through [his]144-hamlin hair . “ [I]144-hamlin suppose it ’s this damp heat . Will it annoy [you]171-anne if [I]144-hamlin smoke a cigarette ? [I]144-hamlin feel [my]144-hamlin brain spinning . ”[144-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne nodded , and waited in silence till [he]144-hamlin had taken two or three puffs . “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne suddenly began , in a low , steady voice , rather like [a person reciting a lesson]3808-a person reciting a lesson , “ it is going on three years since [I]171-anne left [Coblenz]51-coblenz and came into [this house]4073-this house . [I]171-anne am over twenty‐four , and [I]171-anne do n’t think it is possible to continue much longer on the theory that [I]171-anne am [[your]171-anne ward]1692-your ward . It is time that something should be decided about [my]171-anne future . ”[171-anne] [Hamlin]145-hamlin listened quietly , with a certain listless and helpless look that was very painful . “ [I]145-hamlin quite agree with [you]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin answered , “ and [I]145-hamlin fully see how greatly [I]145-hamlin am to blame in not having forestalled [you]171-anne . [You]171-anne must not suppose that [I]145-hamlin have not thought more than once about this matter . [I]145-hamlin have done so , [I]145-hamlin assure [you]171-anne . But somehow , things have always come in the way ; and then , [you]171-anne know , [I]145-hamlin — [I]145-hamlin did not wish to put any pressure upon [you]171-anne . In short , [I]145-hamlin am unable to say how it is that [I]145-hamlin have placed [myself]145-hamlin in what may appear to be the wrong in this matter . ”[145-hamlin] Again [he]145-hamlin passed [his]145-hamlin hand across [his]145-hamlin head . “ Forgive [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ for being so feeble this morning . [I]145-hamlin really have a wretched headache . ”[145-hamlin] “ [I]171-anne am very sorry for [you]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] answered [Anne]171-anne , but adding with the same deliberate resolution , “ but all the same , [I]145-hamlin feel that [I]145-hamlin can no longer delay , and that [I]145-hamlin must avail [myself]145-hamlin of this opportunity to ask [you]145-hamlin a question . Have [you]145-hamlin any intention of marrying [me]145-hamlin ? ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin , who had been sitting with [his]145-hamlin head resting on [his]145-hamlin hand , vacantly watching the wreathing smoke of [his]145-hamlin cigarette , suddenly looked up at [Anne]171-anne . [She]171-anne was seated very erect in a high‐backed chair opposite , looking taller , calmer than ever , less girlish than ever also , although [he]145-hamlin had never thought of [her]171-anne , even years ago , as [a girl]4122-a girl . [He]145-hamlin looked at [her]171-anne for a moment in silence ; a long , lingering , and very melancholy look . “ [Miss Brown]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin answered , and [his]145-hamlin voice became tremulous towards the end of [his]145-hamlin speech , “ [you]171-anne have , if [you]171-anne remember the terms of [our]6899-our reciprocal engagement , always been free ; and [you]171-anne are free . It is rather sad for [me]145-hamlin to reflect — and perhaps a little sad for [you]171-anne also — how very differently things have turned out from what [I]145-hamlin believe both of [us]6899-our anticipated . And it is , as [you]171-anne may understand , not a little sad to part with what has been the best thing in [my]145-hamlin life — to end [my]145-hamlin best episode . But [you]171-anne must remember that [I]145-hamlin never wished [you]171-anne to be otherwise than perfectly independent ; it has been a great matter in a useless life like [mine]145-hamlin to have contributed to reinstate [you]171-anne , as it were , in [your]171-anne birthright ; it will be something to think of later , that [I]145-hamlin have been conducive in making [you]171-anne what [you]171-anne are ; [and”—Hamlin]145-hamlin[145-hamlin] had risen from [his]3810-his chair and stretched out [his]3810-his hand—“will [you]171-anne believe [me]145-hamlin also when [I]145-hamlin say that [I]145-hamlin am very , very happy that [you]171-anne have found [a man whom [you]171-anne can love and respect]6900-a man whom you can love and respect , and who can make [you]171-anne happy ? ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s mouth , that delicate mouth with the uncertain lines , began to quiver . [Anne]171-anne turned very red , and then , suddenly , very white . [She]171-anne did not take [his]145-hamlin hand ; [she]171-anne did not look at [him]145-hamlin as [he]145-hamlin stood before [her]171-anne ; [her]171-anne eyes seemed fixed in space , as [she]171-anne answered in a voice which became steadier and louder as [she]171-anne went on — “ [You]145-hamlin do n’t understand [me]171-anne . [I]171-anne was not alluding to any notion of marrying [[my]171-anne cousin]4336-my cousin . [I]171-anne do n’t want to marry [Richard]223-richard brown . What [I]171-anne want to ask [you]145-hamlin is this : Will [you]145-hamlin marry [me]171-anne , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ? ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne , spoke very slowly , gravely , and calmly ; but as [she]171-anne spoke , [she]171-anne felt [her]171-anne heart tighten . There remained still one chance , one shred of hope , and in another moment that might be gone . A sudden convulsion passed over [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s face ; [he]145-hamlin caught at the back of a chair , for [he]145-hamlin seemed trembling and reeling , [his]145-hamlin eyes closed for a moment as if [he]145-hamlin were choking , and [he]145-hamlin made a vague helpless movement with one hand , as [a man who can not speak]3811-a man who can not speak . Then , suddenly , [he]145-hamlin flung [himself]145-hamlin down before [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s chair , seized both [her]171-anne hands , and covered [his]145-hamlin face with them . “ [Anne]171-anne — [Anne]171-anne ! ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin cried . [They]3812-they remained thus for a moment ; [she]171-anne seated upright in the chair , [he]145-hamlin on [his]145-hamlin knees , [her]171-anne hands pressed to [his]145-hamlin face . “ [Anne]171-anne — [you]171-anne love [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin murmured . [Miss Brown]171-anne did not answer . [She]171-anne looked straight before [her]171-anne into space , fixedly , vaguely , taking in nothing , with [her]171-anne solemn , tearless , grey eyes . [She]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne were waiting [she]171-anne knew not for what , counting the tickings of an unheard clock . “ [You]171-anne love [me]145-hamlin , [Anne]171-anne ; [you]171-anne love [me]145-hamlin ! ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin , louder ; and pressing closer to [her]171-anne , [he]145-hamlin put out [his]145-hamlin arms , and drew down [her]171-anne face to [his]145-hamlin , and kissed [her]171-anne , twice , thrice , a long kiss on the mouth . It seemed to [Anne]171-anne as if [she]171-anne felt again the throttling arms of [Sacha Elaguine]386-sacha about [her]171-anne neck , [her]171-anne convulsive kiss on [her]171-anne face , the cloud of [her]171-anne drowsily scented hair stifling [her]171-anne . [She]171-anne drew back , and loosened [his]145-hamlin grasp with [her]171-anne strong hands . [Hamlin]145-hamlin sprang up . [His]145-hamlin face was changed : [he]145-hamlin was radiant . [He]145-hamlin took [her]171-anne hand in both [his]145-hamlin , and looked long into [her]171-anne eyes . “ Forgive [me]145-hamlin , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin whispered ; “ forgive [me]145-hamlin — oh , forgive [me]145-hamlin , [Anne]171-anne . That all this time [I]145-hamlin should have been so blind — thought [you]171-anne indifferent and contemptuous . Oh , forgive [me]145-hamlin for all [my]145-hamlin wickedness , [my]145-hamlin folly ; forgive [me]145-hamlin , [[my]145-hamlin darling]6563-my darling , for not having understood that [I]145-hamlin belonged to [you]171-anne , that [you]171-anne loved [me]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne nodded without speaking . [She]171-anne could not tell a lie , even now ; and [she]171-anne knew [she]171-anne must not tell the truth . Yet never perhaps had [she]171-anne loathed [Hamlin]145-hamlin as [she]171-anne loathed [him]145-hamlin — vain , fatuously happy — at this moment that [he]145-hamlin believed [she]171-anne had confessed that [she]171-anne loved [him]145-hamlin . “ Well , then , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said quickly , “ perhaps [you]145-hamlin can understand that — after what has passed , [you]145-hamlin understand — [I]171-anne am anxious that [we]6903-we should get married at once . [Perry]152-perry was asking [me]171-anne , only the other day , why things had dragged on so long ; and then also there is . . . ”[171-anne] “ [I]145-hamlin understand , ”[145-hamlin] interrupted [Hamlin]145-hamlin . “ Oh , forgive [me]145-hamlin , [dearest]4456-dearest . [I]145-hamlin never , never really loved [that woman]1707-that woman : [I]145-hamlin could not have loved [her]1707-that woman . [I]145-hamlin have never loved but [you]145-hamlin . Will [you]145-hamlin believe it ? ”[145-hamlin] “ [You]145-hamlin will never see [her]1707-that woman again?—I mean , never except in [my]171-anne presence ? ”[171-anne] went on [Anne]171-anne . “ Will [you]145-hamlin promise that ? And will [you]145-hamlin promise to leave [London]4-london in a day or two — to go to [Italy]1-italy , anywhere where [she]1707-that woman is not — and wait till [I]171-anne can join [you]145-hamlin with [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia ? ”[171-anne] “ [I]171-anne promise ; [I]171-anne will do anything . Oh , [Anne]171-anne , if only [you]145-hamlin will forget all that ; if [you]145-hamlin will believe [me]171-anne when [I]171-anne tell [you]145-hamlin that [I]171-anne never loved [that woman]1707-that woman — that [I]171-anne felt the whole time that [she]1707-that woman was debasing , humiliating [me]171-anne , making [me]171-anne forfeit all [my]171-anne honour and [my]171-anne happiness . . . ”[171-anne] [Anne]171-anne paid no attention to these assurances . So [he]3813-you was shifting all the shame of [his]3813-you weakness and baseness and sensuality on to another,—washing [his]3813-you hands of [the woman who had given [herself]3814-the woman who had given herself to him to [him]3813-you]3814-the woman who had given herself to him . How like [him]3813-you ! How well , how terribly well , [Anne]171-anne knew [him]3813-you ! “ [You]3813-you have promised , remember , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne repeated,—“you will leave to‐morrow , the day after — as soon as [you]3813-you can . [You]3813-you wo n’t tell [her]3814-the woman who had given herself to him where [you]3813-you are going — do [you]3813-you understand ? [You]3813-you will write to‐day , and tell [her]3814-the woman who had given herself to him of [our]6907-we marriage , and that [you]3813-you have promised never to see [her]3814-the woman who had given herself to him again . ”[145-hamlin] [Hamlin]145-hamlin kissed [her]171-anne hand with passion . “ And listen , ”[145-hamlin] went on [Miss Brown]171-anne ; “ this evening there is a big party at [the Argiropoulos]300-the argiropoulos . [I]145-hamlin did not intend going ; but [I]145-hamlin wish to go now . Write to [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo to tell [her]261-mrs argiropoulo [we]6907-we are coming together ; explain that [we]6907-we are going to be married ; ask [her]261-mrs argiropoulo to tell all [[her]261-mrs argiropoulo guests]4823-her guests . [I]145-hamlin want [every one]4712-every one to know . Do [you]3813-you understand , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin — [Walter]145-hamlin , [I]145-hamlin mean ? [You]3813-you wo n’t lose time , will [you]3813-you ? ”[145-hamlin] “ No , no ! ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin ; “ [I]145-hamlin understand . Only forgive [me]145-hamlin ; and tell [me]145-hamlin that [you]171-anne love [me]145-hamlin , [[my]145-hamlin darling]6563-my darling ; ”[145-hamlin] and [he]145-hamlin seized [Anne]171-anne , and kissed [her]171-anne again with a sort of fury . “ Tell [me]145-hamlin that [you]171-anne forgive [me]145-hamlin for all that [I]145-hamlin have made [you]171-anne suffer , [Anne]171-anne . Speak,—only one word , [Anne]171-anne — one word . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne covered [her]171-anne eyes with [her]171-anne hand . “ [I]171-anne forgive [you]145-hamlin , [Walter]145-hamlin , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered , and burst into tears . But [she]171-anne wiped them away , and , rising suddenly , left [the room]574-the room . “ [Walter]145-hamlin is leaving for [Italy to‐morrow]1-italy , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , as [she]171-anne met [Melton Perry]152-perry in [the corridor]3805-the corridor . “ [I]171-anne want [you]152-perry to accompany [me]171-anne and [Aunt Claudia]247-aunt claudia [there]4426-there in a few days . [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin and [I]171-anne are going to be married . ”[171-anne] “ God bless [my]152-perry soul ! ”[152-perry] cried [Perry]152-perry . “ When — where — why did n’t [you]171-anne tell [me]152-perry before ? ”[152-perry] But [Anne]171-anne was out of sight . IN [the blazing drawing‐room]3817-the blazing drawing‐room , where [a crowd of black coats and shining bare shoulders]3818-a crowd of black coats and shining bare shoulders and fashionable dresses contrasted drolly with the melancholy thin Cupids of [Burne Jones]382-burne jones , [the mournful mysterious ladies of [Rossetti]381-rossetti]3819-the mournful mysterious ladies of rossetti , which adorned the walls , one of [[Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo ’s many musical celebrities]3820-mrs argiropoulo ’s many musical celebrities was wailing Austrian popular songs at the piano . [Miss Brown]171-anne , who had undergone the universal staring and received the general congratulations with a monosyllabic composure much criticised on all hands , had slipped away , when [the Austrian tenor]3821-the austrian tenor approached the piano , to the furthest end of [the room]574-the room , where [she]171-anne was half protected from sight by the plants of [an adjacent conservatory]3823-an adjacent conservatory . All this triumph , [people]577-people said to [themselves]577-people , as [they]577-people looked round at [her]171-anne seated alone in the corner , dressed in a wonderful garment of cloth‐of‐silver , resting [her]171-anne dark head on [her]171-anne hand , was too much even for [her]171-anne . Yet in reality [Miss Brown]171-anne did not feel any emotion ; [she]171-anne was too tired for that . [She]171-anne felt as if [she]171-anne had just finished a long journey , or as [she]171-anne used sometimes to do years ago after a hard morning ’s ironing in summer — weary , broken , too numb for thought or for pain . The guttural voice of [the Austrian tenor]3821-the austrian tenor , wailing out the simple little mountain songs , which would at any other time have brought the tears into [her]171-anne eyes and a thought of death into [her]171-anne heart , seemed to [her]171-anne vague and distant like a voice in a dream ; and like [a crowd seen through a mist]3826-a crowd seen through a mist seemed all [these very concrete men]3827-these very concrete men and [women]3959-women all about [her]171-anne . As the last notes of the song died away , [she]171-anne felt the touch of a fan , the downy stroke of a bunch of feathers , on [her]171-anne neck . It was [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine behind [her]171-anne ; but the sight of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine caused [Anne]171-anne no emotion , and [she]171-anne followed [the Russian woman , who beckoned [her]171-anne into [the neighbouring conservatory]3830-the neighbouring conservatory , in the same absent way as [she]171-anne had answered the congratulations of [[her]171-anne acquaintances]3831-her acquaintances]3829-the russian woman , who beckoned her into the neighbouring conservatory , in the same absent way as she had answered the congratulations of her acquaintances . “ [You]171-anne are very tired , [[Annie]171-anne dear]6627-annie dear , ”[360-madame elaguine] said [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , in one of [her]360-madame elaguine caressing half‐whispers , but fixing [her]360-madame elaguine eyes on [Miss Brown]171-anne with a look which was anything but a caress . “ All this emotion — this general ovation and triumph , this great joy of satisfied love — has been too much for [you]171-anne , [poor child]4378-poor child ! ”[360-madame elaguine] [Anne]171-anne shook [her]171-anne head , thrown back on the Persian embroidery of an ottoman , among the large tropical leaves and the delicate stems of bamboos and fern plants . [She]171-anne knew that [this woman]5573-this woman wished to insult [her]171-anne ; but [she]171-anne was too weary and absent‐minded to care . “ [I]171-anne am merely rather tired . [I]171-anne did n’t get much sleep last night , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne answered , as [she]171-anne might have answered [the maid who pulled up [her]171-anne blinds in the morning]3833-the maid who pulled up her blinds in the morning . [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine seemed a hundred miles away from [her]360-madame elaguine : [she]360-madame elaguine shrank neither from [a woman whom [she]360-madame elaguine loathed]3834-a woman whom she loathed , nor from [a woman who , [she]360-madame elaguine felt , was bent upon insulting [her]360-madame elaguine]3835-a woman who , she felt , was bent upon insulting her . [She]360-madame elaguine did not feel [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s glance , although the glance was concentrated hatred and outrage . “ [Poor child]4378-poor child ! ”[386-sacha] repeated [Sacha]386-sacha , taking one of [her]360-madame elaguine hands and pressing it between [her]386-sacha own burning ones . “ [Poor child]4378-poor child ! Ah , well , [I]386-sacha wo n’t bore [you]4378-poor child with congratulations . [I]386-sacha know [Walter]145-hamlin sufficiently well to know how happy [he]145-hamlin will make [you]4378-poor child ; and [I]386-sacha know how deeply [you]4378-poor child have loved [him]145-hamlin all the while , and how faithfully [he]145-hamlin has always loved [you]4378-poor child . But [I]386-sacha want to give [you]4378-poor child a little wedding‐present . [I]386-sacha have brought it here , because [Walter]145-hamlin has written to [me]386-sacha that [you]4378-poor child do n’t want to have [your]4378-poor child bliss disturbed , and are going off at once . Quite right . When [people]577-people are very happy , there ’s something immodest in letting [the world]496-the world see it and be jealous ; that ’s the classic view , is n’t it ? ”[386-sacha] As [she]3836-i spoke [she]3836-i drew from out of [her]3836-i cloud of lace and feather trimmings a little leathern case . “ Oh dear no , ”[3836-i] went on [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , “ [you]4378-poor child must n’t think [I]3836-i ’ve been ruining [myself]3836-i . [I]3836-i ’m far too much of [a pauper]6610-a pauper and far too selfish to go making handsome presents . It does n’t cost [me]3836-i anything , [you]4378-poor child see , for [Walter]145-hamlin gave [me]3836-i them last month ; and as [I]3836-i really do n’t care a jackstraw about pearls , and [I]3836-i accepted them merely to please [him]145-hamlin , [I]3836-i think it ’s much better [you]4378-poor child should have them to make the set complete , since [you]4378-poor child have the necklace . ”[3836-i] The case contained two large pearl ear‐rings , which [Anne]171-anne immediately recognised as part of the set once belonging to [[Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s mother]5111-hamlin ’s mother which [he]145-hamlin had shown [her]171-anne long ago at [Wotton]94-wotton . Round [her]171-anne own neck was the former [Mrs Hamlin]388-hamlin ’s pearl necklace ; [he]145-hamlin had given it to [her]171-anne that evening , not a fortnight , perhaps , since giving [Sacha]386-sacha the ear‐rings . [Anne]171-anne looked at the ear‐rings for a moment , feeling the triumphant eyes of [Sacha]386-sacha upon [her]171-anne ; [she]171-anne felt also [her]171-anne face grow crimson , and [her]171-anne soul waking out of its state of lethargic indifference , with a fierce desire to tear the pearls off [her]171-anne own throat , and crush them into the carpet with [her]171-anne foot . “ Thank [you]386-sacha , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne merely said , closing the box and handing it back to [Sacha]386-sacha ; “ [I]171-anne do n’t think [I]171-anne could wear them , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . And [I]171-anne do n’t think [[my]171-anne husband]4038-my husband would wish [me]171-anne to wear them , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne added , but the words half stuck in [her]171-anne throat . “ Wo n’t [you]171-anne , really ? ”[5582-the russian] said [the Russian]5582-the russian . “ [I]5582-the russian assure [you]171-anne [Walter]145-hamlin will be most mortified if [he]145-hamlin hear that [you]171-anne have refused them . It would be a hundred pities that the set should be spoilt . [I]5582-the russian would n’t have taken these , if [he]145-hamlin had n’t told [me]5582-the russian that [I]5582-the russian should have the rest . [You]171-anne see , [I]5582-the russian was [the nearest of kin]6920-the nearest of kin last month . And [I]5582-the russian ’m sure it would make poor [Aunt Philippa]487-aunt philippa turn in [her]487-aunt philippa grave to know that all [her]487-aunt philippa things did not go to [Miss Anne Brown]171-anne . Ah , well — as [you]171-anne like . [I]5582-the russian can always get them exchanged at [the jeweller]6921-the jeweller ’s for something else — or [I]5582-the russian ’ll tell [Walter]145-hamlin , and [he]145-hamlin can buy them back for [you]171-anne . That ’s more like [a pauper]6610-a pauper ’s proceeding . ”[5582-the russian] “ Thank [you]360-madame elaguine , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne , preparing to rise , “ [I]171-anne think [I]171-anne ought to go and talk to some of [the people in [the next room]3870-the next room]6923-the people in the next room . ”[171-anne] But [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine laid hold of [her]171-anne wrist . “ Do n’t go yet , [[my]360-madame elaguine dear [Madonna of the Glaciers]488-madonna of the glaciers]6925-my dear madonna of the glaciers — [I]360-madame elaguine sha n’t see [you]171-anne again , perhaps , for a long while , and [I]360-madame elaguine want [you]171-anne to tell [me]360-madame elaguine some things . [I]360-madame elaguine ’m a horrible ill‐bred little creature , [I]360-madame elaguine know , but [I]360-madame elaguine ca n’t help it . [I]360-madame elaguine ’ve always had a lot of morbid curiosities . One of them is how love‐marriages are made up — how it all comes about . [You]171-anne see [I]360-madame elaguine was n’t married for love — [I]360-madame elaguine was married for money by [[my]360-madame elaguine Russian relations]6926-my russian relations . But [I]360-madame elaguine always think [I]360-madame elaguine should like to know about [love‐marriages]6927-love‐marriages . Tell [me]360-madame elaguine what [Walter]145-hamlin said to [you]171-anne — how [he]145-hamlin did it . [I]360-madame elaguine wish [I]360-madame elaguine ’d seen it . ”[360-madame elaguine] [Anne]171-anne ’s face was burning . Each of [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine ’s words was a piece of insolence . “ Did [you]171-anne always love [him]145-hamlin — ever since the beginning — ever since [he]145-hamlin sent [you]171-anne to [school]1094-school ; and have [you]171-anne always gone on caring for [him]145-hamlin in the same way ? ”[360-madame elaguine] went on [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . “ [Fancy]489-fancy , [I]360-madame elaguine thought [you]171-anne did n’t care much for [Walter]145-hamlin , almost disliked [him]145-hamlin ; [I]360-madame elaguine almost thought [you]171-anne were in love with [[your]171-anne big black cousin]6929-your big black cousin . It was like [[my]360-madame elaguine obtuseness]6930-my obtuseness ! Do tell [me]360-madame elaguine all about it . . . ”[360-madame elaguine] “ There is nothing to tell [you]360-madame elaguine , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , ”[171-anne] said [Anne]171-anne . “ [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin and [I]171-anne are going to be married , that ’s all . ”[171-anne] “ In short , ”[360-madame elaguine] answered [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , bursting into an angry laugh , “ [you]171-anne thought better of it ; [you]171-anne learned to appreciate the satisfaction of getting [a handsome husband]6931-a handsome husband , with a good name and a good fortune . [I]360-madame elaguine think [you]171-anne are quite right . [[Mrs Hamlin]388-hamlin of [Wotton]94-wotton]6932-mrs hamlin of wotton sounds better than [Mrs Richard Brown]490-richard brown . Or else are [you]171-anne still sufficiently human to enjoy making [a man]503-a man give the cold shoulder to [another woman]4381-another woman ? [I]360-madame elaguine fear [I]360-madame elaguine must spoil [your]171-anne satisfaction in this . [I]360-madame elaguine have never cared a button for [Walter]145-hamlin . [I]360-madame elaguine would not have married [Walter]145-hamlin for anything [you]171-anne could offer [me]360-madame elaguine ; [I]360-madame elaguine only cared to bring down [his]145-hamlin pride a little , in remembrance of the days when [his]145-hamlin great virtue of seventeen had [me]360-madame elaguine turned out of [[[my]360-madame elaguine uncle]1942-my uncle ’s house]6936-my uncle ’s house , like [a housemaid who has made love with [the butler]6938-the butler]6937-a housemaid who has made love with the butler . As to [Walter]145-hamlin [himself]145-hamlin , [you]171-anne are welcome to [him]145-hamlin , though [I]360-madame elaguine do n’t promise that some day the whim may not return to [me]360-madame elaguine to amuse [myself]360-madame elaguine a little more at [his]145-hamlin expense . ”[360-madame elaguine] [Miss Brown]171-anne looked at [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine with disgust : [this delicate charming little creature]3839-this delicate charming little creature seemed suddenly transformed into [[Mrs Perry]146-perry ’s housemaid [Beppa]491-beppa , whom [she]360-madame elaguine had overtaken one day , years ago in [Florence]6-florence , browbeating and insulting [[the laundress]3841-the laundress ’s girl]3842-the laundress ’s girl , accusing [her]3842-the laundress ’s girl of trying to get between [herself]3842-the laundress ’s girl and [the man‐cook]3843-the man‐cook]3840-mrs perry ’s housemaid beppa , whom she had overtaken one day , years ago in florence , browbeating and insulting the laundress ’s girl , accusing her of trying to get between herself and the man‐cook . “ All this is very useless and disagreeable , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said , rising to go . “ Good‐bye , [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine . ”[171-anne] But [Sacha]386-sacha laid [her]386-sacha hand on [Miss Brown]171-anne ’s arm . “ [I]386-sacha see , ”[386-sacha] [she]386-sacha said , “ [[your]171-anne friend]4335-your friend and [former master [Mr Perry]152-perry]6940-former master mr perry has been entertaining [you]171-anne with anecdotes of [my]386-sacha life , and perhaps [Edmund Lewis]353-lewis has been doing so also . Very shocking , were n’t [they]6941-they ? Well , [I]386-sacha wo n’t insult [you]171-anne any longer with [my]386-sacha presence . But [I]386-sacha think it ’s as well that [you]171-anne should know in time that if [I]386-sacha have been in the mud according to [your]171-anne ideas , [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin has been into it with [me]386-sacha . It ’s rather difficult to make such things clear to [a Madonna of the Glaciers]6942-a madonna of the glaciers , but perhaps [Mr Perry]152-perry will help [you]171-anne to understand the matter . To put it plainly , ever since [you]171-anne fell ill , [Walter]145-hamlin has been [[my]386-sacha lover]6943-my lover . ”[386-sacha] [The little woman]4885-the little woman spoke in a very low but very distinct voice , unabashed , brazen , almost smiling . [She]4885-the little woman said the last words not in shame , but in triumph ; hurled them at [Anne]171-anne as an outrage , almost as a thunderbolt . “ [I]171-anne knew it already , ”[171-anne] answered [Miss Brown]171-anne , gathering [her]171-anne white brocade skirts about [her]171-anne . “ [You]171-anne knew it ! ”[360-madame elaguine] exclaimed [Madame Elaguine]360-madame elaguine , staring at [her]171-anne as if [she]360-madame elaguine could not believe [her]360-madame elaguine ears . “ [You]171-anne knew it ! ”[360-madame elaguine] [she]360-madame elaguine repeated after a moment , a sudden triumphant scorn coming into [her]360-madame elaguine face . “ [You]171-anne knew it , and [you]171-anne make [him]145-hamlin marry [you]171-anne all the same ! Well , [I]360-madame elaguine wish [you]171-anne all possible happiness , and [I]360-madame elaguine rejoice that [Walter]145-hamlin has got [a wife who understands so well how to deal with [him]145-hamlin]6944-a wife who understands so well how to deal with him . As to [me]360-madame elaguine , pray do n’t think that [I]360-madame elaguine bear [you]171-anne any malice . [I]360-madame elaguine am only surprised and amused ; and extremely interested , from the psychological point of view , in finding that [a virtuous woman]6945-a virtuous woman may condescend to things which would turn the stomach of [a woman who has no pretence to virtue]6946-a woman who has no pretence to virtue . ”[360-madame elaguine] [Anne]171-anne brushed aside the palm‐leaves and ferns of the conservatory door . A sudden pain , as of a blow with the fist , was at [her]171-anne heart . [She]171-anne did not answer , for [she]171-anne felt that there was truth in [Sacha]386-sacha ’s insult . [Miss Brown]171-anne had forgotten that ignominy is an almost indispensable part of all martyrdom . [She]171-anne found [Hamlin]145-hamlin standing in a little knot of [friends]4095-friends . “ [I]145-hamlin fear [I]145-hamlin must be going [home]4170-home rather early , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , “ as [I]145-hamlin set off for [the Italian lakes]6948-the italian lakes tomorrow morning , and all [my]145-hamlin packing still remains to be done . And [I]145-hamlin think , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin added , with a kind of supplicating look , “ that [Miss Brown]171-anne looks rather tired also , and ought to let [me]145-hamlin escort [her]171-anne [home]4170-home . ”[145-hamlin] [Anne]171-anne nodded . [She]171-anne saw the burly shoulders , the bushy black head of [Richard Brown]490-richard brown in [the crowd]864-the crowd , and [she]171-anne dreaded meeting [him]145-hamlin . “ Let [us]3847-us go , ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne said . But as [they]3847-us were turning away , [Richard]490-richard brown made [his]145-hamlin way to [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin . “ Good evening , [Annie]171-anne , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , in an off‐hand voice ; “ [I]145-hamlin have had no opportunity of congratulating [you]171-anne and [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin . ”[145-hamlin] “ Thank [you]145-hamlin , [Dick]379-hamlin , ”[171-anne] answered [Miss Brown]171-anne , [her]171-anne eyes mechanically avoiding [his]145-hamlin . “ [I]171-anne ’m sorry it ’s so late ; [the carriage]810-the carriage is at the door , and [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin and [I]171-anne must be leaving . ”[171-anne] “ Ah , very good ! ”[171-anne] said [Brown]171-anne . “ Well , then , [I]171-anne will take [you]171-anne down , and help [you]171-anne to get [your]171-anne wraps , while [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin finishes taking leave of [[his]145-hamlin friends]893-his friends . ”[171-anne] [He]145-hamlin gave a contemptuous nod to [Hamlin]145-hamlin , waited for [Anne]171-anne to have said good‐bye to [[her]171-anne friends]1459-her friends , and pushed [his]145-hamlin way with [her]171-anne through [the crowd]864-the crowd , while [Mrs Argiropoulo]261-mrs argiropoulo murmured , for the thirtieth or fortieth time that evening — “ Well , [I]261-mrs argiropoulo must say it is a satisfaction to see [two people who are really made for [each other]594-each other]6952-two people who are really made for each other , like [Walter Hamlin]145-hamlin and [dear Anne]171-anne . ”[261-mrs argiropoulo] There was [no one as yet in the highly æsthetic study]3851-no one as yet in the highly æsthetic study , which had been turned into a perfect exhibition of fantastic shawls and opera‐cloaks . [They]3852-they had said nothing while going down‐stairs , and even now [Richard Brown]490-richard brown was silent , as [he]145-hamlin hunted about for [[his]145-hamlin cousin]1267-his cousin ’s cloak . “ [Anne]171-anne , are [you]171-anne there ? ”[145-hamlin] asked [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s voice from [the corridor]3805-the corridor . [Richard Brown]490-richard brown ’s heavy brows contracted . “ Here ’s [your]171-anne fan , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin said , stooping to pick it up . “ Good‐bye , [Nan]171-anne ! [I]145-hamlin hope [you]171-anne may be happy — ”[145-hamlin] [She]1267-his cousin stretched out [her]1267-his cousin hand . “ Good‐bye , [Dick]379-hamlin ! ”[171-anne] said [Miss Brown]171-anne , raising [her]171-anne eyes shyly upon [him]145-hamlin ; “ [you]145-hamlin have been very good to [me]171-anne — ”[171-anne] [Richard]490-richard brown looked at [her]171-anne for a moment as [she]171-anne stood under the lamp , in [her]171-anne shimmering white dress . Then , as [she]171-anne was going away on [Hamlin]379-hamlin ’s entrance , [he]145-hamlin turned round suddenly to [her]171-anne and murmured , in [his]145-hamlin hot angry whisper — “ Good‐bye , [Nan]171-anne — [you]171-anne mercenary creature ! ”[145-hamlin] [A few intimate friends]3855-a few intimate friends had assembled near [the hall]550-the hall door , to say good‐bye . “ Here , [Mr Chough]248-chough , ”[451-mr saunders] cried [fat old Mr Saunders]451-mr saunders , [the impeccable disciple of [Fra Angelico]492-fra angelico]3857-the impeccable disciple of fra angelico , “ [you]248-chough ’ll be just in time to write a nice bridal ode while [Miss Brown]171-anne packs [her]171-anne boxes to‐morrow . Mind [you]248-chough cut out [Spenser]446-spenser and Suckling and all the rest of them , [old boy]4256-old boy . ”[451-mr saunders] [Cosmo Chough]248-chough , [his]451-mr saunders cat‐like black whiskers brushed fiercely over a shirt fantastically frilled and starched , to show [his]451-mr saunders eighteenth‐century proclivities , made one of [his]451-mr saunders beautiful bows . “ [Some better poet]6955-some better poet than [I]451-mr saunders must write that ode , ”[451-mr saunders] [he]451-mr saunders said ; “ all that [[her]171-anne poor servant]6956-her poor servant [Cosmo]248-chough can do , is to thank [Miss Brown]171-anne from all [his]451-mr saunders heart for marrying [[his]451-mr saunders dearest friend]6957-his dearest friend . ”[451-mr saunders] [Anne]171-anne heard the voice of [the Poet of Womanhood]6484-the poet of womanhood vaguely , distantly , like all the others . “ Is [the carriage]810-the carriage [there]4426-there , [Mr Hamlin]145-hamlin ? ”[171-anne] [she]171-anne asked . “ Here it is . Good night ! Good‐bye ! ”[145-hamlin] cried [Hamlin]145-hamlin . [He]145-hamlin jumped in after [her]171-anne . “ Oh , [Anne]171-anne ! that [you]171-anne should really have loved [me]145-hamlin all this time — [you]171-anne , really [you]171-anne ; and that [I]145-hamlin should never have understood it , ”[145-hamlin] [he]145-hamlin whispered , pressing [her]171-anne hand , as [the carriage]810-the carriage rolled off . “ Are [you]171-anne cold , [[my]145-hamlin love]2311-my love ? ”[145-hamlin] [Miss Brown]171-anne suddenly shivered , as [he]145-hamlin put [his]145-hamlin arm round [her]171-anne shoulder . The flash of a street lamp as [they]3860-they passed quickly , had shown [her]171-anne [Hamlin]145-hamlin ’s face close to [her]171-anne own , and radiant with the triumph of satisfied vanity .